Just wanted to put this somewhere public, energy concerns.
ten years ago or more I was just waking up into the real world, I had
had my 'moronic' phase of not really having any reference point and
being obsessed with fantasy novels as one of the only ways to experience
the world I knew to be real. I then experienced a semi moronic phase of
playing loads of computer games. Then, after a while I experienced a
sensible phase of being into all sorts of new age stuff!
I still did not really have a personality that I could comfortably
relate to the world with, and so I would spend a lot of time reading
about psychology etc. Self help. I also was very VERY interested in
One of the pieces of information I came across
when looking for information on how to SLEEP BETTER, was info. on
'psychic seduction'; and, without really thinking it through properly I
did one of the processes on a girl I was interested in. I tried to void
it almost immediately.
A few years later when things
started going wrong I blamed this process for the things that were
happening in my life but it is clear to me that this was a bit silly.
Even though such magicks do exist I was unpracticed and had little to no
intention of seriously doing anything. It was basically a visualisation
I believed in.
The girl did seem to be very interested
in me in some strange way but not in any way even similar to a normal
interaction. Regardless, I said to her over facebook some stuff when I
just got out of hospital about this that I really believed. It was
probably good to admit it but how effective it was is doubtful and to
say that it was my psychicness that got her interested in me (in
whatever way she was), criminalises any positive feeling she did have
for me. So I have stated this online, and for obvious reasons, won't be
contacting her on this update.
I was into very
interesting spiritual work while I knew her so even if that was not the
thing that screwed up the situation in some way, there is always a
chance that when you contact positive spirits (not deliberately) you
contact negative ones that have a beef with the positive ones, and
positive energy and enlightenment type stuff in general.
also said in those messages that I 'released her' and I felt like I
have, I had not really thought of her since those mesages.