Improving the body.

I wrote my post yesterday, truly believing I had a simple solution to improve my life/ health. "Do more exercise". And that doing that would absorb my energy and I might not be posting here. I am stuck home today. Not able to do exercise due to health reasons. It is obviously more complicated. 

Yet here I am:

This Pearl Davis tweet is not about her usual subject matter. It is her explanation of a long term effort to lose weight and what she has learned.

She knows more about it than me. One of the things that people that lose weight say a lot is that if you lose it quickly. You also get it back quickly. I have lost it quickly previously. When she posted this I was getting results and thought I knew better. But I have, in fact, gained more back. 

She stated that she gained 2 million followers on youtube and ran marathons, and both of those things were not as hard as losing weight. I think somewhere along the lines of 45 lb's. 

The thing that I want to emphasize here. Is not her specific advice. Even though parts of it are definitely good and relevant to me. The point is, is that this is the amount of care and attention that is needed to improve health outcomes.

One of the things she says is that you need time to move these habits into your life. A person needs six months to focus on one specific thing. What the nutritionists and personal trainers do is that they overload people with all these things at once, and then the person tries it for a while but falls out with it.

There are many things she has said here that I will not need to do, and many areas I need to put effort into which she has not mentioned. (Pearl does a lot of exercise so didn't mention that!) But the point of looking at it all carefully and slowly integrating changes into a persons life I think is a good idea.  

Fogginess.

Not much to say. Just a quick check in for a few reasons. 

A) I am not going on twitter anymore. Elon has stated that he is starting to do a rate limit process. Where users who are unpaid can post twice an hour. I had not understood how much going on twitter effected me. I would often go on all day. I would be on it all day from when I woke up to when I went to bed at night.

But if Elon is putting in rate limits. He basically doesn't want me there. The Law of One is quite clear that on the service to others path you either offer service or withdraw if no service is requested. 

The amazing thing for me though is that I didn't realise how much of my cerebral energy was going there. There are a lot of highly intelligent comments on X. A lot of highly complex. Political, scientific, philosophical, or just all around deep posts.

When I am not on twitter. I find that I have more of that cerebral energy. I find that when I wake up in the morning, I can go on philosophy youtubes. Which is something I really like and was not able to make myself do previously. Might in the long term improve my output here. I am also reading slightly more. 

B) My health struggles are not yet fixed. I thought they would be fixed. But it doesn't look like they are yet. I also have a new complication. Gaining weight has thrown up an issue for me as a type 1 diabetic. My insulin rates are set. But there is a huge difference in insulin requirement between resting and active now I have gained weight. There is also other strange things. Such as that my body has a craving to supply sugar to all of itself but seems to only have the appetite to supply a thinner version of myself. There is definitely a tension there and I have a theory that there is in fact a natural inborn mechanism to try and get back to a healthy weight. Even if a lot of people don't have an experience of this. 

Put simply. Really simply. These are interesting insights I think. I have a lot of insight into metabolism and such being a diabetic and this might, given enough time, provide insight into how the body works in general that can inform others trying to lose weight. But simply put at the moment. I am kind of compelled into exercise. I am going to do low insulin and cover the shortfall with exercise. I need to modify my life to accomodate this, and will probably have experiences in exhaustion and such.

This is all a bit stressful and weird so I am not focusing on writing the blog. As in, I am literally not focusing. Not deciding not to focus. Not feeling clear enough to write. 

I have been having my normal profound thoughts. Reading in these areas and such. Reading the Law of One. But at the moment because of all this health stuff I am just completely lacking clarity.  

Book V. Second blog post.

So, continued thoughts here then. Following on that Law of One section I quoted yesterday:

The work that was perforce mine during this time of psychic greeting
was, as Jim pointed out, very helpful in focusing my will and attention. I
remember feeling tremendously uplifted and held in safe hands through all of the
episodes. The key was the surrender to seeing one’s own dark side. I think Dion
Fortune’s description of how to deal with a vampiric entity, in that case a wolf,
still to be the most direct example of the understanding needed to move through
such times. This wise soul had a wolf appearing at her bed, during training in
white western ritual magic. The solution was to draw the wolf directly into the
breast, loving it and accepting it as self. Against fearless love, the powers of
negation and death are helpless, and melt away.

I think those of Ra were very careful of our group, compared to some sources,
who did not show much concern that they were wearing the instrument out.
Advice such as was given for me could well apply to anyone who must husband
one’s energy 

Wolves are lovely. My last dog was a wolf. 

What strikes me here is how I am quite sure this is not my preferred attitude to handling negativity in general. 

We know that Jim, the Power person and sixth density Wanderer. His perspective was perhaps one of increasing power. If the entity shows you a weakness, then you can appreciate that. It improves you. Carla's here, the Love person and sixth density Wanderer. Sees it as an opportunity to Love. In a way that I find reflexively disgusting. You do not let the predator into your space. 

What of the attitude of Wisdom? 

I have found through trial and error that sending love in any form to people. Having that as a solution to outward problems. Doesn't seem to work for me. I prayed once upon a time unsolicited for people. After I discovered that in the Law of One they advised to send love to the fifth density negative entity. I figure there is no problem with sending energy and free will. Thinking back on past women and desire for them is an energy that I can't do much with. But I can transfer that sometimes to some version of 'They are the One Infinite Creator'. 

It's a question without an answer yet. But I wonder if Wisdom has a different response to this? I remember there was one session where Don was asking the contact if there was anything he could do to improve the fifth density negatives experience. I recall something of the answer which was "Service is only possible to the extent it is requested". 

Perhaps there was confusion here because it is wisdom that needs to be immediately applied to the real world? If you say you love someone you have to immediately do things for them? That wisdom has no preference for feelings like that that are "unmanifested"?

For that reason, perhaps the Wisdom attitude to... "Negative Greeting". Is along the lines of something else? Withdrawal? Ignoring an input as irrelevant?

Perhaps not. But I thought it is an interesting idea to explore.  

Check in, comment on Law of One book V.

Just fixing my health. As part of my quest to become a real health nut. I am stopping alcohol. I used to keep open that door because it seems to be better for communion, but it might be time to close it. If the rule I have in my head is "alcohol yes", then I can't say no to alcohol. If the rule I have in my head is "alcohol no", then I can't say yes to alcohol. Been messing myself up a bit with drinking alcohol. 

Drinking plenty of Pepsi Max though (which I had this big insight recently I shouldn't be drinking). I get very dehydrated and tire of water. 

I also need to wait for the effects of medication that will kick in tomorrow before I really feel well. So a short entry. This is also why I have not been posting.

I am reading the Law of One book V at the moment. Book five is different from the first four in that there is a lot more commentary from the Law of One trio that wrote the book. 

Reflecting on this verse. 

This from Jim:

The following information gave us some insight into how one’s choices
can be used in either the positive or the negative sense even when there is
the seeming interference of negative entities in the manner of what many
light workers call psychic attack and what we came to call psychic greetings.
We chose the term greeting to emphasize that there does not have to be a
negative experience on the part of the one who is greeted and that the
experience that the one who is greeted actually has is in direct proportion to
how that entity looks at the situation. If one wishes to see such a greeting as
a difficult attack, then that becomes the experience. One can, however, also
choose to see the Creator in all entities and events and can praise and seek
the light within any situation, and then that will tend to become the
experience.
When this latter choice is made the psychic greeting becomes a great
blessing in that it presents to the one who is greeted an intensive
opportunity to see the one Creator where it may be more difficult to see and
which, when accomplished, develops a great deal more spiritual strength
than may normally be developed without the negative entity’s aid in
pointing out the weaker areas of our magical personalities. Psychic greetings
can only be offered by negative entities’ enhancing our own free will choices
that are distorted towards service-to-self thought and behavior. Our poor
choices, usually reflecting a lack of love towards another or the self, get
magnified by the negative entity and bleed away our efforts to seek the light
and serve others until we are able to balance the situation with love,
acceptance, compassion, tolerance, and the light touch. This is why Jesus
said to “Resist not evil.” To resist and fight is to see someone or something
as other than the self, as other than the one Creator. That is the negative
path. The positive path sees and loves all as the self and as the One.

This is a hard line to hold. This kind of positivity and appreciation for the negative. I don't quite know how to process it. It is not something that comes to me naturally. It is not an understanding that naturally "flows" for me!

One of the other things that I have thought through. Talked about before, is Stefan Molyneux's definition of Love. "Love is our involuntary response to virtue, if we are virtuous". So that would not include malevolent aliens that have nothing better to do in their lives than sit there and try to mess up our lives psychically!

I wonder if what Stefan is talking about here is 'the pull of the magnet'. In that when they were talking about choosing an archetypal path. Astrology, tarot or the Kaballah. They said you choose the one where you feel the pull of the magnet. This might be what Stefan is referring to. Like... do we want to hang out with someone or not? An inner knowing. 

But love as defined here. Seeing malevolent entities in a loving way is not quite that. 

Regardless, whether I am right or wrong about these things. It seems to me that it is something that will take a long time to understand. 

Conclusion.

For me, things are going well. For some reason. There is just a kind of click. A kind of luck. Things are just flowing more than they once were. I like my identity as someone who does not drink. Now that I drink a lot more water and have other healthy habits. I may be better able to handle the non alcoholic varieties for communion.  

Getting things right.

My "output" is currently in flux. 

I have had a mega success spiritually. I have got my meditation right. Meaning. I have been having deep, semi religious experiences meditating. One day it felt like I had got deep enough to feel a part of myself that just seems to have the answers. That just emotionally knows if a question is important or not. 

Part of the improvement has been reading dreams before going into meditation. I... obviously... have a very active and technical mind. One that kind of grabs things like a dog grabs a bone. When meditating. If the first thing I let my mind do is to focus on the dream interpretation. Which is hard work mentally. Very random. Very difficult to find patterns in... Then either I get insights. Mega bonus. I am very stuck on that particular month. Or my brain gets tired and I go into a deeper meditation. 

I had an article written about 2/3rds through. Talking about David Wilcock. Going in depth through the way I saw his mindset. Correlating it to my own. Which is very similar. Schizophrenic tendencies. Obsessed with the Law of One. Explaining how I think he might have been thinking. I think I have a significant advantage in my understanding in that I have looked both at the skeptics. And the other more positive sides of his output like understanding the Law of One. The time he spent at llresearch. 

But, I deleted it. It just didn't seem relevant. People are going to believe what they are going to believe. In many ways my new meditation has kind of blissed me out and lead me to believe that not a lot of stuff is important in general. 

I do want to mention one thing though. That is kind of political:

 

The comments revealed on that second image, that the son is actually doing very well. The parents show off about their son even though they have behaved like that. Apparently he never offered one word of complaint but then just cut them off.

What I am about to say actually does relate to the meditation. It was strange when I was meditating that there was some sort of conviction that "it is all in hand" when it relates to karma. Not only that there is some sort of grand plan to make karma happen. But that karma is somehow instantaneous. I may have to go back for more answers on this. 

The trouble is with meditation is it seems to strongly emphasize subjective sensations like that. That are not always that outwardly interesting. But if I had gained information from observation. Then it would be easy to express in a way that was clearly positive and helpful. 

The point of these two images though. Is the gender balance. In many many areas of life is clearly skewed towards the female. Without this fundamental situation changing. I don't see how we can move foward as a society. 

I had once imagined that at some time in the future, we would have a massive disclosure and a lot of women would realise that the feminist agenda came from a very negative place. That a lot of politicians they believed in are extremely negative people. That this would break the society in a way that would be obvious. And karmic.

But now I am wondering if that is not how it will go down? It could be simply that AI takes a lot of the jobs that women are doing. It could be that things just move around in a way that can't be directly challenged or articulated. But the change of which, would mean that a lot of the people that don't want to. Never have to confront how crazy their beliefs were, and how much damage they did. It would be consistent with how free will works. 

In my view. This has been an uninteresting post and I should probably wait for a little more clarity before posting again. Just an fyi. 

Transcient information.

Having got home today. Just taken the dog for a walk. I am never prepared for the amount this exhausts me!

I realise there is nothing else I have to do than watch TV. I have read as much of the Lord of the Rings as I can. And for whatever reason. Perhaps because I have matured, and am reading way more complex stuff than I was as a child and would read all day, or because my brain has been through the ringer; I can only read a little bit at a time. Like, a chapter. Then I need some time to think about it. 

So I've done all the reading I can. I am thinking about my complaints about the liberal infiltration of media in relation to this Law of One quote:

Questioner: Do you say the United States actually has a manufacturing plant in Mexico?

Ra: I am Ra. I spoke thusly. May I, at this time, reiterate that this type of information is very shallow and of no particular consequence compared to the study of the Law of One. However, we carefully watch these developments in hopes that your peoples are able to be harvested in peace.

In this section of the Law of One. Don is talking about something that is really, really important from what I would understand. If we were to understand the secret technology held back. We would be able to literally heal disease. 

But Ra, a being far higher and with more understanding than any of us. Is saying that no, this is not important. The important thing is our individual understanding of the Law of One. 

It is a bit of a contradiction because it seems to me very obvious that we should oppose "evildoers" in our lives. But in this sense, it is not the case perhaps. I saw this today:

Not something Don asked on. Unclear if he was not aware of it or did not think it was something that was relevant to ask. But this information is 'negative' in a sense. In that, even it's utterance brings to mind service to self ways of handling the situations. 

The Law of One would have classed this kind of stuff as transcient information. So we are not to engage with it? The Law of One was quite clear that doing service to others things was the thing to be doing. Classing even, as in the above quote, relevant conspiracy information as "no particular consequence in the study of the Law of One". 

Also mentioning in other parts that doing things like meditation has a clear and powerful effect on the world. Lightening our kind of collective mind. 

The take away being is that being stuck, without socialising opportunities to spend your time at instead. Stuck watching TV. Is not the end of the world. That that is a more transcient concern I would think. It is must something I do while I write blogs, play music, and get on with other tasks.  

TV is getting too bad.

A bit of a different topic for this post. 

I have realised that to talk on this point, I have to be so careful about spoilers that I might as well just not mention the shows specifically. Just talk about what is generally true of modern shows. And generally true of older shows. 

Here is a video that is backed up by all the comments and many other videos on youtube about the same subject:

Youtube: Lack of Entertainment: How The Boys Became Insufferable:

https://youtu.be/KAHFQepXYqI?si=KZfIOyvIIKTwhgNs

There is actually a lot that needs to go into this. A lot of thoughts. But I will not be too long on all of it. 

I am finding an incredibly reliable pattern with a lot of these shows. They hundred percent know what people want to watch. So they make a good start of a show and get people hooked. And then add in the liberal agenda at the end of the show. When they have nothing to lose. They screw over all the characters people like. They humiliate characters in a way that doesn't make sense (such as Joker 2). In 'The Boys', they gave redemption arcs to the black characters. Only the black characters. Which didn't make a lot of sense from the set up. 

Redemption arcs or "villain arcs". One where a previous good character becomes a villain. Are very often done wrong from my understanding. In a sci fi show I once watched, a character who had unbelievable love for his daughter goes on to become space Hitler. It just didn't fit that he would be able to love like that then decided to try and kill the entire world for a personal grudge - to kill other young women like his daughter. The Redemption arc in 'The Boys' didn't make sense either. In the other direction. Characters who were set up with no moral fibre. No seeds of goodness at all. Later turned out to be really good people because of... 'blackness' I suppose. The melanated skin inevitably produces moral fibre apparently. It produces 4th dimension vitamin D and grows the conscience.

One show that has not done this, I suppose, was Picard. One of the older shows that I liked was Grimm. It became a bit silly but was a good show. But a LOT of shows have, either this problem. Or another problem. 

I went back to older shows and I have also found these not compelling. I will perhaps give other shows another go. Or even the ones I didn't like. But there is a definitive lack of understanding of human psychology in some of those older shows. The characters act kind of sociopathic for no reason at times. I have felt an even bigger repulsion to this at times. It is quite maddening. Preach to me about the beauty of black skin liberals. I cannot take anymore of these closet sociopath characters in older shows. 

I wonder, a deeper question then. What is the function of all this TV? Am I wasting my life? Well, that's debateable. I do have a lot of free time and I do do other things in the day but watch TV. Including reading the Law of One and other books. I would have got a playstation one by now if I had more disposable income. I binge watched seasons 4 and 5 of The Boys in a couple of days when I was quite ill. Not able to do anything else. It was in a period of non prayer and hopefully, now I am praying again, that won't happen frequently. 

I think, pretty much everyone is lounging around not doing much at the moment. With the economy so completely dysfunctional. No one has any money for leisure or to pursue meaning. No one is having kids or dating, apparently. 

But even so, I can't help thinking that there must be some other option to watching all this TV.  Some other thing I could be doing. I get quite tired reading. I don't like to watch too much youtube because it is intellectually taxing and we all need some chill time. I was watching powerful concepts a few hours ago and stopped after ten minutes because I was not following it. The concepts were too profound.

All are interesting things to consider.