Thursday, 29 October 2026

TV shows embedding messages in us.

A dream I had recently related to a real situation. Something happening in my life at the time. Something that related to politics and so might have related to my sudden lack of enthusiasm for politics. 

But the situation didn't make a lot of sense for a while. Then I got a sudden breakthrough and the dream made sense. It would obviously be better to do it the other way. But this is the way I did it. 

So, in Star Trek Deep Space Nine. There was a character called Odo. Who was a shapeshifter. The Starfleet people, his colleagues obviously. Were at war with an invading army headed by shapeshifters. The shapeshifters generally, did not do any of the fighting. They were like Kings of sorts. They had all the authority.

They also loved Odo a great deal. He was one of them. They had quite a Jewish presentation. They were effectively space Jews that were super evil. So Odo was like one of the 'chosen people' with higher status. So during various war like situations. Odo had an incredible amount of status and such. There were other characters with this same thing. In fact, the show seemed to be made of characters like this. Worf had authority and power with the Klingons. Having interacted with their leadership and being a respected warrior. Garak was a Cardassian. The Shapeshifters and the Cardassians worked together. Even though Garak had no status and would have been put to death by Cardassians, it was a similar dynamic in a sense. He was still closely connected on a personal level to extremely senior Cardassians. 

But, it is in a way an advert for multi culturalism in a sense. Or not even that. It is an advert for the idea that we can all get along with differing viewpoints. The right and the left can get along well.

But, it is not, in fact, the case. I don't think. It's a belief that can slip into your mind while watching one of these types of shows. But the truth is, that if I phoned one of my leftist ex friends. Even previously very close leftist friends. They would not respond to me positively. When Britain landed on the beaches of Germany in 1945. There was no eccentric English poet living in Germany that had authority over the British troops. That could say 'Oh, don't massacre these civilians here. I will just call Churchill and Hitler and we can have a sit down.'

Another little bit of TV programming that I realise has slipped in a bit. One of my issues. That relates to my physical or mental health. Well, it is not quite clear what it is or where it is from. But I previously had a bunch of really dark Hellraiser types of dreams. While I could sleep. I could not sleep properly. I was always tired. Then I got a dream catcher and the nightmares stopped. Recently, I threw it away, and they are back. 

I remember in Stargate. There was a boy born that had the collective knowledge of malevolent entities. This genetic memory was so fierce it made pretty much all of them the worst kind of genocidal psychopaths possible. So this boy, who had been sheltered by an angelic entity. Had his subconscious mind suppressed. 

There was a statement he later made. "The memories held in my subconscious mind are too powerful. The only way to win is to deny it battle". 

This expresses a little bit how I felt about my own subconscious mind. But in fact, there is a great deal to be gained by allowing these nightmares in. They ground me. I focus on real things after one of those nightmares. They are like 'ultra grounding' in a way. All the way back to primal survival senses. They motivate me to tidy so I clean up the dust in case that is it. To exercise in case that helps. 

And I am a very ungrounded person. Dreams that ground me are very valuable!  

So there IS something to be gained from the battle with that kind of darkness. Mostly, it seems to me when things like that are first introduced to us we see the darkness first. Because, the female section of the subconscious mind. The catalyst of the mind. Is attracted to the darkness. I think the term is attracted. Don't quote me on that. But it is something like that from the Law of One. 

There are probably thousands of these types of examples rifling through the subconscious mind from various TV shows. And, we live in the real world. That is very tiring and very boring. One we need frequent physical and psychological rest from. So we will probably continue to absorb various things from these TV shows. 

Wednesday, 28 October 2026

Follow up, dream catcher.

I talked recently in the article, three blogs ago called 'The Boundary between the Conscious and the Unconscious'. About stopping a dream catcher and having nightmares because of that. 

Before I started using a dream catcher, 15 years ago or so. I was having quite serious nightmares. Now that I have thrown the dream catcher away. I am having said nightmares again. I did have these infrequently while I had the dream catcher up. But I am getting them more frequently and intensely now. And definitely not related to my physical health issues that I have more of a handle on. 

Unlike when I originally had a problem with dreams. There is a huge different in my physical health. And I am more confident in using tools like Prayer and the Law of One if it gets heavy.  

My theory is this. Of the changes I have so far experienced. Of the benefit of the nightmarish dreams:

A) I have suppressed a lot of the mental anguish caused by my physical medical condition. This is just a way of getting through that.

B) I have strange ways of thinking that I think the dreams are trying to correct. I think in a neurodivergent way, I suspect. Sometimes, I don't completely get emotionally, that people exist. I also do not see hierarchy very easily. I look at people responding differently to a person at a different part of the hierarchy in confusion. And the only way I can replicate that is to follow rules very precisely. But in a way that is obviously unusual. I can only partially replicate emotional deference and eggshell walking.

I think the nightmares are trying to put back some of the emotions to do with that. For instance, when I have been bullied before, it has been a little distressing at the time, obviously increased by my medical condition. But there is also an irrelevance to it. A non caring. I think dreams that see people as 'demons' starts to re- experience what I should be experiencing when people are unpleasant. What I would experience if I were emotionally engaged. 

It is the effect of being low status and it also provides a certain fire to improve aspects of my own life that relate to being low status. Things like motivating me to tidy or exercise. I am feeling a strong improvement in my self in this area. More determined to improve myself. 

C) There could also be any other number of things the dreams are trying to encourage or impart. One of these is that in order to understand why I suddenly was not interested in X anymore. I think this is because I had more access to my negative emotions. These then accentuated until I experience 'entropy' in the part of me that was putting out material and engaging with that. 

For instance, I might look into the work of Carl Jung for insight. 

This blog entry has been kind of self focused but... I don't have any more to say on any other subject. Working slowly through the Law of One again and taking more detailed notes. On session 20 at the moment. Also profound insights from dream interpretation.

I am also experiencing a bit of an 'air out of the tyres' effect. One of the only things I have done to significantly effect my viewer count is to stop going on X. My viewers go down significantly when I do that. Which is odd, people don't click on my blog that much when I post it. So people on X must be seeing me and being reminded I exist and going on this blog. 

"Care you not about the counting" - Law of One.  

But I do not have the energy for any politics, or even gender war stuff I also mentioned recently. I will not be going on X again, I don't think. At least not until significant political events happen which mean I need a non MSM angle. I have also not had that many ideas for the blog recently. I seemed to have mega slowed down and when that happens. I often want to post about it so I don't feel a mild sense of guilt if I don't post (for a while or ever again!) But at the same time. Everytime that has happened before to my memory. I have gotten right back to it. It was a "false alarm". 

Throwing away the dream catcher and nightmares have moved me into a different place.   

Monday, 26 October 2026

The mental diet.

My continual thoughts in trying to move forward. Trying to improve in general. 

Two insights, that I am hoping are both useful and powerful. 

The gym has been giving me amazingly powerful positive changes. I have before put together theories that when men experience life and their various stresses get stored in their muscles. (As hormonal combinations). When those muscles break down after a weights session. A lot of this is released. I mean, we know a lot of anxiety for guys is released at the gym. The releasing of that energy leads to increased insights.

It feels quite powerful. As though the part of me my body is first working on in making me more masculine is my thoughts. Which would be... Obvious, wouldn't it? 

First insight: Digital media. 

So the first insight I had, when I was watching one of the gym bros that I follow on youtube (and outside music is one of the only things that interests me on youtube). He was talking about how he 'avoids lust'. This is a biblical gym bro. That he simply does not go on instagram because it is full of bikini models. 

Another thing that has been happening for me. Is that the day after I got rid of the dream catcher. The next day. I just couldn't go on X. Which I have been going on everyday, many hours everyday, for years now. I just stopped. It feels uncomfortable. I don't want to go back. 

I realised, that a process has gone on in my subconscious that perhaps has not helped me. In the absence of clearly defined social roles in relation to women. In the absence of actual women in my life. Combined with a general interest in spiritual sources like the Law of One. Some of my sense of mysticism, or my seeking towards 'The Creator'. Has been caught up in the idea of understanding emotions. As though these would bring me some powerful insight. To that end, not often, but sometimes I will explore one of those young women on youtube talking about her feelings and how everything is going wrong. 

Yet another thing to link to all this. Going quickly, as quick as I can through the red pill argument. The red pill argument is that modern women. Due to dating acts and other cultural changes. Tend to spend their 20's dating only the very top guys (status, wealth and looks). Tend to believe, even if not stated, that those guys will settle down with them. Tend to get angry and bitter at men who do not commit to them. This is almost all women. Guys in their twenties are divided into two sections. One, is the top guys. The trust fund guys or guys alpha for some other reason. These guys get a LOT of one night stands. They are the men that "break the hearts" of the women just mentioned. Then, in their twenties, there is "the rest" of the guys. About 90%. Who have few if any relationships and sexual encounters. (This dichotomy between top and bottom guys has increased statistically, with various societal dysfunctions. The amount of 18-30 year old men who have not had sex in the past year is on an upward incline. It used to be around 10% but more recently is about 50%)

The red pill argument is that the top 10% guys are not damaged by their behaviour. They will sleep around then eventually pick one out of the "litter". There is no influencing them from doing what they want to do. What happens following this is that the women who could not get the top 10% guys. Find one below that and marry him. While being incredibly bitter at the top 10% guys (this is where "all men are trash" kinds of sentiments come from, women then blame all guys for their experience with the guys that had the options to treat them like that). And usually have a sexless marriage after that and possibly an extremely unpleasant divorce. 

So the way the situation works. The top guys, it does work for them. I mean, on a deeply spiritual or philosophical level maybe not. But as far as practicalities and statistics go. These men have fun and then settle down. They are fine. 

The women, this is all women. Not just a certain percentage. Are screwed up by this arrangement. They effectively, a lot of them, shot above their league in their twenties. But they were not aware of that. If they had gone within their league in their twenties and settled down with their match (their match is the most attractive man that will commit to them). Then they would have kids and live from that place. They would spend their youth and energy on the marriage itself rather than frittered away. And they would get a higher value husband in their twenties than who will settle down with them in their thirties. 

The bottom 90% guys. Well, this is who the red pill is aimed at. This pattern seems fairly correct anecdotally even. Women having fun in their twenties and settling down in their thirties. This is how most of us came to be But that was before the internet. The red pill is trying to tell those 90% of guys. "No, this is a bad deal, here is the information. Don't assume she had 5 partners in her twenties if she tells you that. Ask more questions". So those guys do not get themselves stuck with a resentful sexless wife. 

I am not saying this is 100% correct. I find small problems with this model every so often. It is very useful as a guy to know though because there are a lot of women that WILL tell you they had five sexual experiences in their twenties. While their true body count is three figures. What I am saying this is the red pill argument. 

But then, if you are on X. Every few months or so. You will get a bunch of women jumping on the viral point that the red pill is hypocritical because it shames women for body count but has no problem with mens body count. The women have to be sleeping with someone right.

This is an incoherent point. As already explained. Because it is a large proportion of women. Whom this arrangement effects extremely negatively. And a small proportion of men. Whom, as I have said, this arrangement does not effect negatively as far as can be proven. The majority of men, the bottom 90%, the red pills target audience, are mostly innocent in this arrangement. 

But nevertheless, these kind of stupid points, along with "incel" and other IQ 100 terms. They were already destroyed in the original argument. And yet, they are repeated and repeated. The same thing with Kay Podgees video on Paul being a false apostle. Paulians bring up the most basic points destroyed in the first 10 minutes of the video ("1st Peter says XYZ").

The case can be made, I think, that idiots repeating the same statements without analysing the argument they are pushing against. Is why we can't move forward as a society. If Jesus' true message was practiced. Our society would change overnight. Rather than their being endless Pauls message sermons. Our society cannot move forward due to the pure weight of stupid (and sometimes bad intentioned!) people. 

So bringing these three points together. The coming off X, the female emotion as spiritual mystery, the point about instagram models and the point about stupid people bringing up the same disproven points again and again and again and again and again. I realise this has become a redundant thing in my life. The time involved in trying to figure out female psychology passively... Is wasted. I do not need to go on therapy types of female youtubers. Not the ones oozing feminine softness anyway (I am still subscribed to one that is more logical and practical). I don't need to go on gotcha videos about say, the woman in France that was super pro Refugees then had her store looted by them. These people are idiots. They would be idiots if they incarnated as men. It does not matter what they think or do. There is certainly no larger spiritual relevance to it. I need, to avoid that kind of redundant energy from being something I ever have to pay attention to. 

Sounds subtle but, I think it is quite significant. Withdrawing from the various irrelevancies like this allows me to more completely focus on what is relevant. It allows me to access my real emotions more. To do more. Which might allow me to eventually work it into my music.

Second Insight: The potential irrelevance of Philosophy:

After I woke up and was not so interested in Twitter. Another day I went on a massive binge TV watch of a new series I am watching. The next day I was like. Damn, I need to read more. 

So I did. I read Poetry. I read astrology. And I read philosophy. The Philosophy I am focusing on at the moment is Simone Weil. Nietzsche. And on the shelf and planned to be next. Kierkegaard. 

And here, I have hit a snag. Poetry... Wow, I love poetry. And obviously it feeds into my direct goal of music. Astrology... has always been profound, and provides a specific kind of insight. I have a lot of astrology books.

The philosophy though. And I will provide excerpts here. Disgusted me so much I don't think I will continue on with it. 

Getting into philosophy originally was actually listening to Stefan Molyneux. Which I stopped doing when he said that people that had certain behaviours in their lives which I have, shouldn't listen to him. I have a lot of quotes by him which I re read every so often but, now that that is over I am not sure I can recapture the magic by following up on other philosophers. That period of my life was to meet a certain need at a certain time. Also, I clearly have other things I am into which provide a great deal of substance. Astrology is kind of a first principle (if astrology is right then...) I am reading the Law of One and I do have theological considerations.

Anyway, down to the quotes. Simone Weil. I did actually hear that she had a bad reputation for being totalitarian. But this is explained away. Nevertheless, when really reading it. It disgusted me. And it is not the only theoretical problem I find in her works:

The Need for Roots. Part IX.

In the current situation, it is good to allow people to form groups to defend their interests, in other words, pay and the like, and to allow these groups to act within very narrow confines and under the constant eye of the government. 

As for the political parties, if they were all rigorously banned in a general climate of freedom, it is to be hoped that it would at least be difficult for them to carry on a clandestined existence. 

It would not be difficult for political parties to continue underground if a fascist cunt like you was in charge, Simone.

Page after page reads like this. She just wanted to start up her own fascist government.  

Nietzsche, is not quite so clear cut. 

Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil. Part 13.

Physiologists should think again before postulating the drive to self- preservation as the cardinal drive in an organic being. A living thing desires above all to vent its strength - life as such is will to power - : self preservation is only one of the most direct and most frequent consequences of it. - In short, here as everywhere, beware of superfluous teleological principles! - such as it is the drive to self- preservation (we owe it to Spinoza's inconsistency). For this is a requirement of method, which has essentially to be economy of principles. 

So the most fundamental drive is the will to power and not the need for self preservation.

There is some basis for this idea I think. It is hard to justify suicide outside of potentially the desire for power. Suicidal people often want to take revenge on the world. I have often looked at them and thought that their distress is the anger that things didn't go like they wanted it to. If David Wilcocks desires had come to fruition - money, fame, and status (especially spiritual), presumably. It was what he talked about publicly. He would not have killed himself. He screwed up his life, and as if in protest at it not doing what he wanted, of it not working out how he desired it to. He killed himself. 

Suicide seems to me like an extension of the will to power and it also kind of aligns with the Law of One. Potentially. It can be interpreted. The most important thing in third density is the choice of polarity. This takes precedence over the chakra system. So it does make sense.

It also has rewired my understanding of polarity a bit. Nietzsche makes clear that even good people have the desire and mechanisms of power. This is a point not properly emphasized. I don't believe. In llresearches material. Such as the crucifixion of Esmerelda Sweetwater (where the philosophical engagement only happened AFTER the work stopped being a channeled work after Space Girl was abducted. In my view due to free will. My hypothesis is the llresearch groups model of polarity is that the negative experiences power and the positive are powerless). 

But Nietzsche's work also acknowledges the fundamental point that the yellow chakra is as important to the positive energy system as it is to the negative. It might take on a different manifestation being opposite polarities. But it is still important. 

But... and this is the point... Why would it matter? To me, it doesn't really. Nietzsche here hasn't justified his philosophy on first principles. Or a really rigorous argument of any description. It is just what some genius happens to think about some stuff. A modern book with studies and detailed historical arguments is arguably more useful. 

So for these reasons I might lay philosophy down and concentrate my reading time on things that feed back into things that matter to me, and that are useful to me. Like poetry feeding into music.  

I did see something on line that might legitimately be interesting though. Carl Jung seemed to me to be very much in line with the Law of One. Perhaps a fifth density individual, in touch with the Law of One contact. His work discusses things like emotional opposites being brought together:


 

Saturday, 24 October 2026

Law of One. Reflection on Orange Ray Blockage.

Just got Google Analytics. Damn, it is confusing. I don't quite know what to do with the information yet. 

I've been thinking recently about the Law of One (for a change!) And I've been thinking of what it is to actually apply the information. Re- reading the Law of One and taking notes on almost every question. It leads to self reflection on how much of it I can use. Am I using it precisely. Even if I do not apply the specific passage I am reading, they are not all applicable to real life. Continuing to read through and scrutinise the text means that it is at the forefront of my mind and I think about other bits I have picked up previously.

One of the central themes of the Law of One, which I have taken more seriously over the past year or so, is the idea that what we experience in the world is catalyst. Which is then used as a kind of nudge towards better understanding our inner world. I have been using this thought process far more frequently. Enough to use it in my general everyday life. It is definitely a perspective that softens reactive, angry behaviour. "This thing is here to teach me, I am to process it and gain understanding on it". Is a different thought process than "you are challenging my status." 

Even with that though. Either the Law of One contact is being intentionally obtuse. Or I am not that able to understand it. This is more true of the second of these two answers:

I will add a bit of emphasis because it is a bit dense: 

Questioner: Thank you. I have a question here from Jim that I will read verbatim: “Much of the mystic tradition of seeking on Earth holds that belief that the individual self must be erased or obliterated and the material world ignored for an entity to reach ‘nirvana,’ as it’s called, or enlightenment. What is the proper role of the individual self and its worldly activities in aiding an entity to grow more into the Law of One?”

Ra: I am Ra. The proper role of the entity is in this density to experience all things desired, to then analyze, understand, and accept these experiences, distilling from them the love/light within them. Nothing shall be overcome. That which is not needed falls away.

The orientation develops due to analysis of desire. These desires become more and more distorted towards conscious application of love/light as the entity furnishes itself with distilled experience. We have found it to be inappropriate in the extreme to encourage the overcoming of any desires, except to suggest the imagination rather than the carrying out in the physical plane, as you call it, of those desires not consonant with the Law of One; this preserving the primal distortion of free will.

The reason it is unwise to overcome is that overcoming is an unbalanced action creating difficulties in balancing in the time/space continuum. Overcoming thus creates the further environment for holding onto that which apparently has been overcome.

All things are acceptable in the proper time for each entity, and in experiencing, in understanding, in accepting, in then sharing with other-selves, the appropriate description shall be moving away from distortions of one kind to distortions of another which may be more consonant with the Law of One.

It is, shall we say, a shortcut to simply ignore or overcome any desire. It must instead be understood and accepted. This takes patience and experience which can be analyzed with care, with compassion for self and for other-self.

Questioner: Basically I would say that to infringe on the free will of another self or another entity would be the basic thing never to do under the Law of One. Can you state any other breaking of the Law of One than this basic rule?

Ra: I am Ra. As one proceeds from the primal distortion of free will, one proceeds to the understanding of the focal points of intelligent energy which have created the intelligences or the ways of a particular mind/body/spirit complex in its environment, both what you would call natural and what you would call man-made. Thus, the distortions to be avoided are those which do not take into consideration the distortions of the focus of energy of love/light, or shall we say, the Logos of this particular sphere or density. These include the lack of understanding of the needs of the natural environment, the needs of other-selves’ mind/body/spirit complexes. These are many due to the various distortions of man-made complexes in which the intelligence and awareness of entities themselves have chosen a way of using the energies available.

Thus, what would be an improper distortion with one entity is proper with another. We can suggest an attempt to become aware of the other-self as self and thus do that action which is needed by other-self, understanding from the other-self’s intelligence and awareness. In many cases this does not involve the breaking of the distortion of free will into a distortion or fragmentation called infringement. However, it is a delicate matter to be of service, and compassion, sensitivity, and an ability to empathize are helpful in avoiding the distortions of man-made intelligence and awareness.

The area or arena called the societal complex is an arena in which there are no particular needs for care for it is the prerogative/honor/duty of those in the particular planetary sphere to act according to its free will for the attempted aid of the social complex.

Thus, you have two simple directives: awareness of the intelligent energy expressed in nature, awareness of the intelligent energy expressed in self to be shared, when it seems appropriate, by the entity with the social complex, and you have one infinitely subtle and various set of distortions of which you may be aware; that is, distortions with respect to self and other-selves not concerning free will but concerning harmonious relationships and service to others as other-selves would most benefit.

I get what a lot of this says in principle. That the life is an extremely complex process of receiving a catalyst. Experiencing a life event. Then going through analysing it and understanding it, accepting it. Etc. 

But in reading this quote. There were some powerful, relevant lines. Such as 'nothing shall be overcome. That which is not needed falls away'. This really helps when you have a strong instinct to try and fight for something that you can't actually get. "I have to do xyz or else my life path is off" kind of thinking. Or if someone is offering opposition to how a person thinks a relationship should be.

There are other relevant bits. But overall, the actual guidance is rather vague. And lines like 'What is correct for one entity may be wrong for another'. Is especially vague. When Don says that the thing not to do is to infringe on the Law of Free Will.  The contact does not validate that as correct. Why? This could be because it is not. Even though reading the Law of One would indicate that in my opinion. It could also be the Law of Free Will. Anyone who votes left, or for a right wing party pretending to be left. Is infringing on the Law of Free Will. So the contact might be infringing on free will by agreeing with that. 

It just struck me that the idea that there are no particular need for care for the societal complex might be a statement that is subtly against voting!? Rather easy for me, I live in a left wing safe seat. 

Anyway, having said that, there is far more of the Law of One to explore. I think that some of the most useable stuff comes from the discussion on archetypes in book 4. That's where you get to what you actually do, best practices to live with in real life. Indirectly in a lot of instances. I think of the Matrix of the Mind frequently.

The real world. Real grounded people. 

Some of this then will be more from memory. It would be silly to engage in a discussion that has a lot of Law of One roots and quote every passage.  

But it seems to me, that in terms of judgement. There are passages that are kind of conflicting. One of the passages. Either 94.9 or 95.9 says something like, in dealing with Carla, that she should ponder the non efficacy of judgement. But another, when discussing ways of understanding service to others and service to self polarity. It is specifically said that those words were the best used to judge accurately in others what is service to other sand service to self behaviour. 

In our lives. There are a lot of people of varying shades of service to self walking about. Some of them might be very service to others, but they are drug addicts or have some other issue that makes them service to self to the extent that it is a problem. 

I recently had the thought. And this does go along political lines. I have seen a lot of reports. Social media types of reports. That amongst homosexuals. There is a LOT of sexual activity. One post was from someone that had been talking to a colleague that said that he would go to a club for an orgy with new people every week. So body count would be in the 1000's. I suppose there is no reason not to. No risk of pregnancy and the male sex drive is high. Apparently, when researchers first heard the stories from this community. They simply couldn't believe it.

Imagining this reality then. Obviously they are not all like that, but of the subsection that are that promiscuous. Imagine someone whose world is constantly doing that. The incredibly energy expenditure that involves. Their lifestyle is that. They do not have any energy left over for reading philosophy or exploring political issues deeply.  

So if someone is engaged in conversation with them, and then starts talking in complex political terms. Redistribution of wealth this, meritocracy that... Or whatever. Then the reaction is not going to be based on a considered thought of said opinions. It's going to be knee jerk based on protecting themselves and their identity. I.e. fundamentally. The Christian right is not pro gay and the left is very pro gay. It is going to be based on that.

Now let's extend this to a straight guy that has a lot of hook ups. So we can capture some more of the subtleties of this point. Straight guys that do hook ups are less promiscuous than that. But some of them not by much. The body count will be in three figures rather than four. But, there is a lot that goes into one of these 'interactions'. Dealing with female emotions is heavy. Even if you are meant to be having a one night stand. Women are emotional by their nature, and, despite women not usually perceiving this and seeing their effect often as only positive. Very often that emotion is a burden. It is a burden men are happy to carry, but it is still a burden. Every honour is a responsibility.

This guy would likely have had to pay lip service to their beliefs and way of being. I have seen it said that pick up artists are more like women in their strategies. Cognitive dissonance means that we cannot engage too much in lying without starting to believe said lies. Also, these women will have a lifestyle. Alcohol and drugs might be what a person needs to remain 'interesting' to said women. 

Also, virtue costs energy. And these decisions mount up. It takes a long time for a person to get to casually being interested in philosophy to reading Nietzsche's original works. It takes a long time for a person to be convinced of the value of what is valuable. Another example might be investigating obscure forms of music. Over time, prioritising hook ups and this lifestyle over real relationships, can hollow out a person. 

If a person is hooking up a whole lot. Do they have the time to give their all to their other friendships? To their family? If someone has a long term relationship and wife those things are usually cut off anyway. But a long term relationship and wife will give more than what is purely carnal. You can spend time with friends with a long term relationship. You meet your family with your wife by your side. So it is not the same thing. 

What I am getting that with all these analogies is... Orange ray blockage. I am wondering if these behaviours are orange ray blockages. 

Wednesday, 21 October 2026

The boundary between the conscious and unconcious.

Today is going to be a highly weird post. It is in the area of things that are new age and that I perceive to be real. But many would see as crazy or schizophrenic. But then, a whole lot more new age folks very well might perceive as legitimate. 

While perusing Youtube. I came across a Christian channel. Which mentioned, offhandly. That he considered Dream Catchers as part of negative, black magick spirituality. 

I do not necessarily believe that. I don't know for sure that it is not true. But for me, I have found that I have used a dream catcher to good effect in the past. But that now, I have gotten rid of it. My dreams have seemed to have already changed in line with my understandings. But I think there needs to be a longer period for the change to really set in. 

Ah, no, there was no larger article here. Although I thought there would be. My best understanding of what dream catchers do. Is that they simply dismiss a lot of the more negative themes running through your subconscious. Since throwing mine away (Two dream catchers, and another symbolic/ lightly magickal thing related to Islam!) I have had a dream that is more engaged than my previous ones used to be. More like I am a person in a real situation, rather than kind of removed. Proper passionate arguments and such. I have not had a dream with an argument or similar close personal engagement in a dream for all the time that I have been recording and recalling said dreams! 

This also fits with a more secular understanding though. A real world understanding. I used to get loads of nightmares due to medical reasons I could not change. My medical condition causes huge amounts of anxiety. A very physiological, not psychological, anxiety. But now, with improved medical care. I am kind of undoing that. Not only am I handling the issues with the medical condition, But I am undoing all the muscular stress I experienced in those years via going to the gym, as much as I am able. 

So either way you look at it. The point of what I am doing now is to relax into allowing my own self to become more aware of the lower parts of myself that I previously blocked out because they were producing noise, rather than signal, that I was unable to use. 

So after I had that dream. I do feel differently about the world in a way that makes sense. But it might only be temporary. I felt very exposed going on Twitter and saying things. I was not so interested in various other things.

The thing is with this dream catcher kind of stuff is it all feels so... You know. Feminine and irrelevant. Like such a thing is an interesting cognitive exercise. But should not be serious enough to reflect into my real life. I should not be sensitive enough, being male, to it. But in truth, this has caused quite a stir within my being and I do feel that the changes will be significant, and it will be several days before I feel normal again. As this change integrates. 

Tuesday, 20 October 2026

Back to basics. Human Design.

So, I thought I would do an old fashioned Human Design post. A reading, or just general thoughts and notes. On Stefan Molyneux's Human Design.

Who is Stefan Molyneux?

Well, he is a philosopher. He is a secular philosopher, and one of his crowning achievements is to have put together a theory of secular ethics. Universally Preferable Behaviour.

We can see his incarnation cross is one of those that has only G- Self hexagrams. 46, 25, 15, 10. His theory of Universally Preferable Behaviour has as one of its first principles. That of Universalisation. That is, the mind universalises everything. When you show a child a tree, they automatically universalise this principle. They suddenly can identify a tree in any country. Any type of tree. From the tallest oak, to the apple tree. 

I wonder, a little bit. If the G- self is largely about Universalisation. The G- self I wonder. Is where our ethics sits? Anyone that has things going through the G-self and then to the throat. Especially if energised. Is going to carry general principles and ethics in anything they discuss?

If we were to look at Nietzsche's chart, which I understand that Nietzsche neglected a lot of moral arguments in his writing (I have not yet read them completely myself so can't confirm. But people that talk about Nietzsche second hand seem to think that Master Morality does not necessarily involve ethics!)

This is Nietzsche's chart:

I think that Nietzsche's perspective, as seen here. Was one very much of the pure animal realities of the world. The sacral. Some animals are just tougher or better than other animals from the sacrals perspective. 

Anyway, back to Stefan. We can see his main perspectives in his chart. In Stefans view, the state is a creature that is only negative. It is only capable of producing negative results (like war) because it relies on the initiation of force. The initiation of force is taxation. if the left wing political apparatus puts a gun to someones head, basically saying that pay up or go to jail. Then this is the initiation of force. From Stefans viewpoint, no good can come from this. 

For example, if we are to expand this out, say you have a governmental system that provides some sort of service. Like public schooling. They already have the money. So they have no real need to negotiate with the customers. (Students parents). Once that power dynamic has been decoupled. All sorts of corruption can come in. All sorts of inefficiencies that the free market would not allow. 

Such as the desire to teach students progressive politics that will not actually help them in the job market. In a small town this would not fly because the students would leave to work somewhere in the local town with a lot of additional information they did not need and was sometimes deleterious to their work. But divorced from the free market, these things can happen. 

Stefan follows on in some way from Ayn Rand. We can see this in his chart. The first point of the 'energy' that leads to the throat is his gate 14 in the sacral. The entire channel also linking to the gate 2 and G- self.

Reason, virtue and happiness. 

Some quotes from Stefan:

5764: 31 minutes: People avoid moral clarity because once you have moral clarity you have to take a stand or you feel like crap. 

5838: 15 minutes: You cannot have the love of the virtuous, which is the only love that matters, without incurring the hatred of evil doers.

1969: 1 hour 21: So people who say, something that is incomprehensible is not valid, are more accurate than people who say, things that are incomprehensible should run my life. 

The first two I think are good G- self comments but the last is a well articulated pro secular argument and this may come from Stefans 64-47?

One of his "meaning of life", kind of core of his philosophy statements is: "Reason, leads to virtue, leads to happiness." 

Furthermore, he has talked a bit about how for men, doing manual labour jobs is important. Or, even if not manual labour per sey. Even if it is coding. Doing a job that connects you to objective reality in that things in the real world are relevant. If someone codes something, the code either runs, and does what it is meant to do, or it doesn't. If someone works in fast food. They have to actually make the food and pass it to the customers. If a person works with heavy machinery, perhaps in a bad area. Like in the snow weeks away from a hospital. They have to deal with real machinery and put their life in their own hands. What they do in the real world is important.

Verses a lot of other jobs that are more language dependent. No one can really say if Human Resources is succeeding or failing at their job while they are hiring and firing based on woke ideology.  

This is very sacral based. Stephan criticises philosophers who have not worked a "real job" in their lives. Saying that this is where disconnected ideas come from such as "life is a simulation". 

But we see, with this reasoning. A very direct link between what Stefan says, how he justifies it, and his chart. Reason here is linked with logic. Because reason comes fundamentally from objectivity.  

Then virtue, Well, with the first two quotes above. I think the virtue of his message and how that directly ties into the G- self is quite well established. 

Happiness? "Reason leads to virtue leads to happiness". Is that true? I don't know. But connecting it to Stefans chart we can then see that the "happiness" part is where these things reach the throat.  

Further. 

Let's go further though. I have found the parts above the throat tend to shape the entire life while not being included in this kind of chain. In my own chart, below the chart, you can trace where each thing leads to the next. But above the chart. It simply adds a perspective or lens that the rest of the chart goes through. My 11-56 changes the rest of my chart into one that talks about philosophy and Law of One types of things. But the actual 'chain' of my life. How I deal with people in the real world. Comes from below the throat. 

Having all these viewpoints does not make a person a philosopher. At least, not in the same way Stefan is. He has described how his mind constantly races. One such event, was when he suddenly got the idea that J K Rowlings Harry Potter, was not actually about magic. But about a traumatised young boy who goes to a mental institution and we see his imaginings. Stefan said, he went to bed with the beginnings of this idea. And it kept him awake all night so in the morning he had put together all the different reasons why. 

The 64-47 I would say is the 'God' channel. (Where 61-24 is mysticism and psychology, and 63-4 is the scientific process) Like how Ra Uru Hu said that the human design is not a system of morality. Where his energy stream fed through the 51-25 and then 10-20. His energy stream went through the G- self and the expression was to REJECT ethics. Not in real terms, but in theory. I wonder if Stefans 64-47 is part of his expression in rejecting God, as a philosophical interpretation. 

The undefined centres.

Stefan, to me, is closest to the ideal man as you can get. I say ideal not as a term of worship or endearment. But in the technical sense that, he has got a lot of stuff right. He grew up in a poor family in an abusive situation. He worked for a while in very highly paid roles and used what is likely an extremely high IQ in a technical field. He was kind of alpha in that time and dated a lot of women. As far as I know this was serial monogomy not hook ups. Then he settled down, has a wife and daughter, whom he often talks about and adores. And he has produced incredibly powerful and valuable work for the world in the form of his philosophy. 

Because he is an ideal then, I think one of the things we can do with his chart is back date what in his chart means what. What things look like when they are performing well. The Human Design main system does not believe this, and has a tendency towards a kind of Protestant understanding. That we are all such sinners that we cannot guess what living authentically actually means. We are too far away from it. I do not see things like that. 

This would not work with someone like David Wilcock. Even though I think he intended to be service to others. We cannot look at his chart and his life and be certain that the comparison is accurate since he was so mentally disturbed. Because a good deal of what we see in David Wilcock is likely, a term I don't like that much but don't have a better one for... "Not self".

My general theory about the Human Design and how it functions is this. We are our defined centres. This is the thing we are as we experience it in the everyday world. As a soul obviously we experience all centres. An undefined sacral centre does, for example, experience sexuality. But as we pull ourselves together and interact in the world. What we produce, which is what feels like what we are. Comes from our defined centres. The defined sacral has to go to work or they drive themselves up the wall. The undefined sacral will be more easily tired out and will adapt better to a workload that is less directly taxing (this also includes non work things like joy, parties, sex itself, etc.)

So through our life we go through and tune our defined centres, in various ways. For instance, my G- self has been strongly tuned by listening to Stefan Molyneux. Before listening to him. It was probably far more weak in the area of the kind of morals he talks about.  

But life, real life, outside of our own perspective. Is not only the centres we have. (Even if we have every single one defined). Real life is all of it:

For instance, I do not have a single hexagram on the Solar Plexus. But that does not mean that in an ideal world, solar plexus energy is missing from my life. It means, that if we were all in a service to others environment. I would find that solar plexus energy in other people. Thus, if it were frequent enough. Even though I have nothing there, I would amass positive wisdom of what is going on with the solar plexus. If I had a wife that had a defined solar plexus. And was with her for 5 years or so. I would learn certain wisdom that came with it. Such as with the solar plexus to the throat, there is no way out of expressing your emotions, even if it is annoying to others. 

If I then had a child with a defined solar plexus. I then already have that understanding. It does not only relate to other peoples energy. But even my own. Even though nothing is defined there. There will often be something in those solar plexus hexagrams. We are 'all things', as the Law of One teaches. Or perhaps it is conditioning. 

So where I am going with this. Is that, as a philosopher. Stefan also needs to articulate a lot of what is going on in other centres. There are some areas that he likely will not talk about because people don't need to talk about everything. Like, I have not heard him discuss anxiety much, the undefined root or spleen are not talking about that. But as regards to a lot of work challenges. Which would be the ego. I have heard Stefan talk about these things a bit.

But, I suppose we are coming to the point I started with. When I was out walking maybe, just flipped into my head. The Human Design holds that hexagrams that are in undefined centres are not really useful to our selves. Our lives. Our evolution. Whatever. I suppose I have heard that. I have also heard the entire area talked about in more vague terms as though, people haven't thought about hexagrams on the undefined centres. 

Stefan bases a lot of what he says, explains a lot of his worldview. Via Evolutionary Psychology:

"Scarcity is where morals come from" - 5570 (But I don't have the time stamp for this one).

He also has the 41.5. I have seen someone else with the 41.1 who expresses evolutionary psychology themes fitting with those different lines. The 41.5. means that Stefan expresses this area in a way that it fits together in a framework that it is good and right that things do work in relation to evolutionary psychology. Whereas, when someone expresses these themes from the 41.1. It seems to be more that this is how it is and if it is chaos or negative. Well, we're just talking about what it is. 

This is an extremely strong and valid part of his chart. We do not know a great deal about his life really but, we can say that he deals with others in a positive manner and obviously those people have different definitions to him. He deals very regularly with his wife and daughter so both of those likely offer positive conditioning from their own defined hexagrams and centres. There are very likely other people he deals with as well.

So, we can see that his conscious moon is a fundamental part of his being, and the philosophy he expresses. But it is in an undefined centre. Lending credence to my theory that the Human Design represents what we are. But the perfect expression of what we are, is one that lives within a community of positive people. So every centre and as near as possible every hexagram is experienced!

Larger and personal ideas on this. 

I have had this theory for a long time. We are linked to our society. Our lives and higher selves have a plan. If we are in a negative environment. We have certain programming within ourselves. Based on what we want. So, some plan to be dominant in such a situation. And some refuse to make moral compromises, so they become paranoid and guarded. 

We then have 'neutral'. A mix of positive and negative, what we have today. In this situation, a lot of people are disconnected. Living alone. Or dysfunctional in some other manner. Our full chart can't really work. 

In a positive environment. We have enough positive connection with others. That many of our gifts can come out and flow more. As powerful as Stefan's philosophies are. They are very much built on Evolutionary Psychology. And without that foundation, he might not be able to put the rest of it together.

This might be the reason I can't seem to get back to music as well. I wrote a lot of good pieces of music when I first started working and there was a lot going on socially. I could just sit down and write, at least the beginning of, a piece of music, every time I practiced.

Conclusion.

This was a bit hazily put together. I have more that I am thinking about this whole area but cannot articulate yet. 

Sunday, 18 October 2026

The problem with "boundaries".

This is the video for today:

Youtube: Julia Kristina Counselling: Boundaries for Beginners: How To Set and Keep Boundaries. April 26th 2021.

https://youtu.be/F6CJtIk457g?si=wQFohA_ocJ3A2mBF

Boundaries are the principle of psychology and obviously, likely, was made by extremely intelligent people and is a useful tool in a lot of peoples lives. 

In principle, say, with a person with narcissistic parents, or a young woman that everyone wants a piece of. I get boundaries. 

But have you noticed that people that use the term in real life are just giant dickheads? I have never seen it used properly, in my understanding, and most of the time I have seen it used. I have seen it used extremely badly. 

I think the first time I heard of the idea. It was from a woman that I was paying to do Reiki for. I brought up an issue I was having. One of bullying and harassment at work. And she told me the important thing here is to work on "boundaries". But then, when I was trying to look further into Reiki teachings. One of them, the first one perhaps. Was: Just for today, I will not anger.

My thinking was... That isn't this contradictory. Suppress your anger then set boundaries? Why not just get really angry at the person screwing you?

I don't need it in my own life. My father is dead. My mother is not an issue. A generally positive person. And I am a hermit. I just avoid people. The one or two friends I do meet every so often these are just not issues. 

Also, another issue I remember thinking over in relation to boundaries. Is that left wing and female culture is all about boundaries. But the second you step in a workplace the idea is almost a joke. They are all about everyone being a "family" and trying to get everyone to do unpaid overtime and massively emotionally invest in the staff there. And if you don't play ball. You are just fired. It seems ridiculous to talk about boundaries when there is real power at the other end of the discussion. 

I know for a fact some of these women talk about "boundaries" in their personal lives. While not applying it at work.

Abusing the principle.  

I was going to go through personal examples. They feel oddly personal though. So I guess I will do what everyone else does. Draw off a very few amount of personal examples and pretend I have enough knowledge to make larger generalisations. 

There are three ways I can think of this principle being abused.

One: Avoidance of conflict: 

A connection, a friendship or something closer. Relationship or something half way. Rather than having any sort of conversation about wanting the relationship to change. The person simply ghosts, stops communicating clearly, and then dismisses any attempt by the person to get clarity as to what has suddenly changed as "boundaries". I said I don't want to see you anymore so... 

Two: Hiding of dishonourable motives: 

Imagine, you are a high status individual, or a perceived high status individual. That has some sort of personal relationship with a low status individual. You cannot very much say that the other person is low status. Especially if you are surrounded by a social group that wouldn't approve (in theory. Of course, in some female in groups this is the norm. No one would admit to wanting to rid themselves of low status individuals. And everyone would persecute anyone who outwardly would do it. But they would all do it on the quiet).

So what are your options at this point? Well, you scrutinise carefully any communication and you declare some behaviour or other a violation of your "boundaries". Because then you are the victim and hence. You are exempt from criticism. If someone says "Yeah, you are a bit of a crappy human being" you just say "But so on so crossed my boundaries and did this horrible thing". 

Three: Free advertising. 

Stefan Molyneux talked about this once:

I think this was in relation to leftist censorship. 

As a principle for social ostracism in general. Say there are two friends. One of them is a leftist, and the other friend slaughters them in some sort of conversation or debate. Then, there is a need on behalf of the loser of that discussion to classify the other person as "trouble", without earning that. They were not able to earn it in debate as they backed away from the debate. 

Let's say the left wing person has a passionate desire to see anyone to the right of them as literal Nazi's. As some of the left do. One workable tactic is to then set "boundaries" in this situation. Because if a boundary is being set against said friend. Then they must be a terrible person, and hence, in no way correct about their political views, right?

The original video actually had the example of someone that discusses politics too much. To be clear. Where this differs from the given example. Is that in the video it was done directly. In this example. The person that wins the argument against the left wing individual is perfectly willing to not discuss politics. But they have to be labelled so "boundaries" comes into the equation. 

Societal change.

Notably here, and I think this is the point. The term 'boundaries' does not have any real moral meaning behind it. People take it to use it because it has a morality applied to it. If people do a certain behaviour in the real world. It really has to stand on its own.

Whatever relationship exists in the second example. If the low status person suddenly became very high status. Would the boundary still be relevant? Because if it would not. Then of course it was not a boundary. It was a manipulation.  

A lot of left wing people have socially ostracised right wing people such as in COVID. Years later, when the lockdowns are forgotten and the COVID narrative has lost credibility. Does the fact that there was a lockdown absolve the person doing the ostracism? 

In the world we live in it seems that consequence and accountability is somewhat rare. But if it were to happen. When it does happen perhaps, on a longer timeline. In my opinion. A majority of the people getting consequences for crappy manipulative behaviour will be those that talk about "boundaries" all the time.