Random notes on the Law of One.

Been struggling a bit with health so another probably short entry. 

Personal irrelevance. 

I have experienced some psychological stress, and some physiological discomfort (but also some physiological success in health matters!)

My recent physiological stresses are doing two things. Firstly, stunting my spirituality slightly. When I experienced some pain a few days ago, I stopped praying. It sounds like physical discomfort like that would INCREASE seeking and prayer in general. But for me, it tends to make me lose faith. Feel that life is kind of crap and have less tendency towards prayer. 

I reflect a little on Carla keeping faith through all her pains. Perhaps to improve my spiritual path I should be able to continue spiritual practices like prayer and meditation even through these pains. Meditation provides a practical benefit of increasing intuition, just slightly. Just slightly better judgement. And that 5% or whatever it is, often makes all the difference. 

Psychological stress however, makes me increase by many times my zeal towards prayer. Which I did do a great deal yesterday, and now I feel very inspired. Swimming in inspiration. 

The style of the source. 

One thing I have noticed about the positive sources I look at. Is that the act of engaging with them improves the way you see the world. This reverse might also be true of more negative sources. 

Let's compare two things. Reading the Law of One. Or absorbing conspiracy information on say... Child torture. 

To read the Law of One. It is hard to understand. You go over and over it again, and you feel good. Reading once feels good, you might have an insight. But... in the grand scheme of things... Not much of one. You can turn the quotes over in your mind again and again. 

What I am saying is the WAY this happens, improves you. It trains you to read something deep and absorb it properly. You could transfer this to reading classic literature or philosophy. To think things over. It increases the sacredness and joy in life. 

Now consider the opposite. Conspiracy information or perhaps dry bureaucratic info that is not useful. You don't really want to absorb that info. It stimulates your anger and fight or flight. It inspires you to want to find real world tools. To increase violence and such. To condescend to people that refuse to fight with you. It decreases attention span in that you want to pay just enough attention to get the information, but not so much that you actually absorb its sickness. 

The style of the Law of One. 

A correlation I notice with the Law of One and a philosophy like Stefan Molyneux's philosophy. Is that when you start looking at it. You start from its real outer covering. A lot of the earlier books were concerned with the path of the ultimate spiritual person. The ultimate spiritual path. Healing. Famous people. Etc. 

As the books go on though they discuss things like chakras, and archetypes. Once you get into the archetypes. You get into more concrete advice in a sense. It's not advice. But it is advising on the way things are in a close enough way that advice can be drawn from it. 

With Stefans philosophy. You start off with listening to his conclusions. But the more you get into it. The more you get into his ideas from first principles. Which is what you do with every philosopher. 

A similar deepening happens I think with Christianity.

Specifically, I have read and re- read this session:

Questioner: Thank you. I have a question here from Jim that I will read verbatim: “Much of the mystic tradition of seeking on Earth holds that belief that the individual self must be erased or obliterated and the material world ignored for an entity to reach ‘nirvana,’ as it’s called, or enlightenment. What is the proper role of the individual self and its worldly activities in aiding an entity to grow more into the Law of One?”

Ra: I am Ra. The proper role of the entity is in this density to experience all things desired, to then analyze, understand, and accept these experiences, distilling from them the love/light within them. Nothing shall be overcome. That which is not needed falls away.

The orientation develops due to analysis of desire. These desires become more and more distorted towards conscious application of love/light as the entity furnishes itself with distilled experience. We have found it to be inappropriate in the extreme to encourage the overcoming of any desires, except to suggest the imagination rather than the carrying out in the physical plane, as you call it, of those desires not consonant with the Law of One; this preserving the primal distortion of free will.

The reason it is unwise to overcome is that overcoming is an unbalanced action creating difficulties in balancing in the time/space continuum. Overcoming thus creates the further environment for holding onto that which apparently has been overcome.

All things are acceptable in the proper time for each entity, and in experiencing, in understanding, in accepting, in then sharing with other-selves, the appropriate description shall be moving away from distortions of one kind to distortions of another which may be more consonant with the Law of One.

It is, shall we say, a shortcut to simply ignore or overcome any desire. It must instead be understood and accepted. This takes patience and experience which can be analyzed with care, with compassion for self and for other-self.

But while this is relevant, important, in a larger context. It is also confusing and brings more questions than it answers. It is the larger picture in a way that is a little unhelpful in a sense.  

The chakras however. They do seem to offer a framework to understanding things. Archetypes also do. We learn very specific things about how the archetypes operate. How the polarities operate. 

Fear.

I am experiencing fear recently, in the face of my health issues. Deep. Definitely powerless. 

I have come up against the medical establishment. I had thought they were the solution. But they do not appear to be the solution. They are actually helpful in some capacities. But in others I feel somewhat powerless. So metaphysical healing elements remain an interest for me. 

It is part of why I reach for the Law of One. Putting life into context in relation to chakras is one thing the contact advised. There are other things in it that advise on psychological elements. Maintaining polarity against difficult catalyst. 

It is one of those questions for that earlier quote? When it says our mission is to "experience everything that is desired", would that be this? Or is that a negative infringement not included? Is my deeper desire to experience some sort of spiritual path from this? 

The Problem of Evil (Part 3)

I am hopeful I can get to the main point I wanted to get to in this post. Do I have the energy to lay out a proper case. When I studied at University, they always said that in essays, you lay out what you are going to say in the introduction. Perhaps that makes it easier and better to read. 

The case I hope to make in this post. Is that evil is a thing that is very foreign to those who think more positively. True evil. That it can only ever be partially integrated into many philosophies. But it is a thing onto itself that can't be encapsulated by them. Because of this, when it is removed from society, the results will be utterly unpredictable and will change many things that we assume to be real from our everyday experience. That we have taken from objective reality, everyday, observable, objective, reality. But which conclusions might not serve us later. 

That is a bad introduction. But it is at least an introduction. There is far more to go into this. 

Previous parts. 

In the two previous parts, I summarised some thoughts. The red people analogy/ metaphor. And x + y = z. In relation to how the negative have to have perceived positive consequences to their actions in order to maintain their perspectives. That is unfortunately required reading. What I am trying to explain here is too complex to have to also go over those again in this article. 

In relation to the red people analogy. This is the analogy I would like to use in order to discuss the limitations of many positive philosophies in addressing evil. 

I am a true QAnon believer. I say QAnon even though QAnon is the wrong term. But language is meant to explain what people mean. It is Q because there is Q and there are Anons. There is also the term "Q - tard". Which the Qommunity hasn't done enough to make our own in my opinion. 

I believe Q is real. I have had semi religious experiences to this effect. Honestly, the Qommunity is not made up of weirdos. Some of the identified people are extremely intelligent. Such as Martin Geddes, that worked in some sort of computer - data - analytics field. Many of them are like that. 

But there is something alien about Q as well. Something almost negative in a sense. Something semi mystical and not easily understood. It is not completely healthy perhaps, for everyone to attach to a weird military project that drops in secret codes on a forum (hosted by the military btw!) It is not necessarily a healthy way to think to put a power like that outside of you. To rely on something you can't understand. There is a point where the truth is not the truth for everyone. 

This might also be the case with something like atheism. Consider the red people analogy. If atheism is dressing in red, and you will simply be ignored if you don't dress in red. Then people whose priority is helping others might dress in red. 

Pressure of the positive. 

Some of these concepts, of considering the negative directly. I think can only be done with a certain kind of thought process. Or they can with me.

What I talked about in part 2. x + y = z. The wisdom of separation. Is something that can be back tracked and a lot of thoughts can come from it. But it is a negative wisdom. It makes sense. It is information that can create conclusions. I realised it is actually x - y = z and x + y = z is the positive. But I will follow up with that elsewhere. 

The information that people are going around with the "wisdom of separation" in their head that if they don't feed it in a sense, will mess them up. Backtracks a lot of very negative conclusions, very power mechanic based. That will make someone think negative. 

The positive, as in, really the power variety more. Has to follow up with each thing that they think up. I think. They are binded into the positive a great deal. Or they kind of go a bit nuts if they do attempt to integrate things that are too negative. 

Wisdom however, I think, can consider something as a kind of position that does not need to be followed up on. 

The take away. 

In the planning of this article. In the thoughts of this kind of thing in general. I had wanted to excerpt a tweet that was so unbelievably malevolent that it made me paranoid at the time I read it. 

This, along with the woman that tweeted it, seemed to have disappeared. I remembered her name and the spelling. I have key terms to search my bookmarks from the quote. 

Pehraps that's for the best. Negative wisdom like that seems to have a kind of energy of it's own. It utterly swallows everything around it. 

But my take aways putting everything together. 

The red people:- This analogy speaks to the point that a good deal of how people think the world works cannot be integrated and with the sudden movement on the "negative" front. May need to re- evaluate some of their ideas. 

x - y = z:- Many people that are working on the brainwashing that we have been subjected to. Will lose polarity on these principles for the first time. The brainwashing and propaganda has always been there. For the entire time that we have lived. If the value of z suddenly changes, the value of -y, even though we don't know what precisely it is. Will suddenly go through a change. 

Conclusion on the human design. 

I am starting to put together a bit of a description on what this whole process is. The process of living a life is. From the perspective of the human design. My understanding. 

My chart is similar to Ra Uru Hu's. I had an insight the other day of how similar my process is to what he has described. I wrote to two human design people in an attempt to gain information on a new theory I had. But they did not respond. So I am not sure on this. 

A lot of the emotional shifts we have is when something kind of 'not self' comes up. We have an idea in one of our defined centres. For me, one of those centres is the sacral. In order to get rid of the 'not self' thoughts in the undefined centres. Meditation, Prayer, etc. This is the point of these tools I believe. 

So I experience sacral chakra thoughts, that are kind of unproductive. And then are just completely deleted as unproductive. I know what a good place is for me. A not self sacral thought includes a lot of thought about how one relates to others in a kind of social heirarchy. This is shown very strongly, and in a raw way, by the 34-20. (Which Neitzsche had! And did he not talk in a very raw way about such heirarchies?) 

But in moving from confused to normal. I know that all those animalistic, animal heirarchy thoughts. Just get deleted. Just disappear. My focus is purely on the kind of "moment". It is kind of more mystical. More aligned with the Law of One tracts on everything being a mystery. It is rather like Ra Uru Hu describes the world and the deconditioning.

I imagine people try to condition people to their own charts as a matter of course. I wonder if some of what Ra Uru Hu talked about was that. That his expressions of how things are, should be, is what HE experiences.

But if someone has a defined sacral. Then their expressions do have a reference to our animalistic connections. 

There is more on this, the energies they hold, and the things they express. But not for now. I'll leave it there though. 

The Problem of Evil (Part 2).

Not well today. So I will have to make this shorter than I would prefer. I've realised I am making a different argument than what I intended. I will follow up on my theme of "The problem of evil". But I will use this as a potential nudge to differences in how people see the world in relation to their human design. Differences in how the sacral and splenic authority process things. 

I just wanted to repeat a point I had made recently though. With the full quote. A more full explanation of what I referred to earlier. After re reading previous blogs. I have realised that actually quoting the Law of One is probably better than just referring to a session in brackets (I.e. this point is in 85.4). It just reads better. It feels warmer and more pleasant. 

So I wanted to make a point about negativity: 

Questioner: What is the nature of this crisis?

Ra: I am Ra. The nature of this crisis is the determination of the relative polarity of your companion and yourselves. You are in the position of being in the third-density illusion and consequently having the conscious collective magical ability of the neophyte, whereas your companion is most adept. However, the faculties of will and faith and the calling to the light have been used by this group to the exclusion of any significant depolarization from the service-to-others path.

If your companion can possibly depolarize this group it must do so and that quickly, for in this unsuccessful attempt at exploring the wisdom of separation it is encountering some depolarization. This shall continue. Therefore, the efforts of your companion are pronounced at this space/time and time/space nexus.

This is talking about a negative entity that was psychicly pressurising everyone linked to the Law of One and the contact. Because it was unable to stop them doing so. It faced a kind of crisis. It was having a kind of melt down. 

It gives me a lot of insight into how the negative functions. The negative has it's "negative wisdom". I assume there is some relevance here to a kind of simple equation. x + y = z. X is the negatively polarised self. Y is the negative wisdom and Z = a successful result.

Let's not think about what the negative wisdom is. Because that would be unpleasant and maddening. But we could make simpler analogies. Which is the point of this. 

Let us say that someone is following an insane political or religious tract. One that legitimates that theft from that person is good. That he is allowed to steal and no one else is. x + y = z indicates that this person would have to be fairly successful at this endeavour. They would have to gain something palpable back. Otherwise, they would "lose polarity". 

If they are prevented from stealing, if it goes badly wrong, then they should, theoretically, go into the same kind of crisis. 

This is relevant because, the world has been very deliberately set out a certain way. Very deliberately so that if people behave in a certain bad way, they get a good result, and they get very little consequence. 

The world is basically unchanging in this capacity. Take for instance, the general punishing of high performers in a lot of jobs. Where they don't get paid more than anyone else and just get overloaded with work while lazy people take it easy. This gets a good result from the managers and staff exploiting the situation. From the lazy people.  

But if the world were to change. If some free market ideology was to become successful and that high performer could go off to another better job, and also, that that company would start doing better than the first company. Then it would give less palpable benefits to the people following those strategies. Presumably, potentially, they would start losing polarity. 

When you think about this, it justifies something that didn't really make sense to me previously. The idea that 'the best revenge is to live well'. In general, it seems that if the right things are put into place, and the people that are determined to succeed do succeed. And the more envious, loserish people are not able to stop them. Then they would lose polarity. Which would be very unpleasant for them indeed. 

This puts the end to the fantasy of actually following up in the real world on revenge against evil doers. It seems to me. It doesn't mandate forgiveness without contrition and general soft heartedness either though.

The problem of Evil.

This was a subject that has been going around in my mind for a while. But with this video, it gives me an entry point into what I was going to say:

Youtube: Richard Grannon: Dealing with Evil in the World calmly (March 31st 2026)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=msvEpRy5mlo 

I will be skipping over the explanation of some of the terms I use here. It just can't be helped.  

This person, I think, is sixth density. Could be fifth. Unlikely to be fifth (Fifth tend to have a thinner and more wisdom intense presentation, like Jordan Peterson. There is less "person" there).

This is the world as I see it with all the mix of various influences on this planet. 

We have, as I have talked about, on blogs and in videos. The different densities and how they interact with everything. 4th, 5th and 6th. We also have kind of different elements to people. Love, Power and Wisdom. (Who are respectively, Healer, Teacher and Adept).  

This is something else I think is relevant:

I agree with this. I remember watching a video on foxes. Where the show ended the series with saying that a female fox had shacked up with another family after it's own children had died, and was looking after the cubs of another female fox. Compare this to an example I had heard when I was younger of Lions. Where if the male wants to impregnate a "single mother". He kills her cubs. 

It seems to me that EvoPsych just takes the available information and creates a convincing story. 

I am obviously not an expert in this area. But the anti Darwinists, including scientists have made some good points. I remember reading a book excerpt where a guy said that when he had studied things in the laboratory. Types of animals no matter how much breeding they had tended to stay the same kind of animal. For instance, no matter how much you chop and change a dog. It is still a dog. It doesn't become a cat eventually. 

So why is EvoPsych held up so positively amongst so many people? Including people that are admirable?

The room of red dudes analogy.

So, let's take this to an analogy of a room of red dudes. Imagine, you are a person that is to give a speech to a room full of people. They are the cult of red. They are so deep. The lie has been so good. That they are not particularly fanatical. They are like boomer liberals. They don't offer any argument in favour of their beliefs. They just assume they are right.  

The red people will only listen to other red people. In this room. There are 80% people dressed in pure red. 10% dressed in a few colours that include red. 10% that do not have any red at all.

For the red people. If you are not dressed in red. You don't exist. They are not fanatical. They won't burn you at the stake. Since there are 80 - 90% of them. You offer no threat if you go in the room and say that red is not the most important colour, and it is possible to dress in yellow. If you were to do that. They would not argue with you with good points. (Maybe a 5% of fanatics would). They would probably just look at you in confusion. Then one of the fanatics would push you out of the room. which the red people would ignore. Because the person dressed all in yellow. Doesn't really exist anyway. They do... But they don't. 

This is what I think EvoPsych is like. In the larger sense. Even amongst so called believers in Christianity. I think most people work off a basically secular framework. In order to talk to people. In order to have any impact at all. You do indeed have to "dress in red". 

Then add the negative.

There is another colour here I have not mentioned. People that dress in black. The problem with the black. Is that they are not like the yellow. The people that dress in black belong to a real cult that is deeply negative. 

The trouble is with the people in black is that they are actually insane. They produce a lot of things and information that has no use at all. 

This, is a big problem. It is rumoured that the cult of the red started up originally. Because when people could choose whatever colour they wanted, the ones that chose black immediately went insane. They immediately started taking drugs and chopping off peoples heads. These people cannot be integrated into society. So at some point in the past, someone said. "You know what? Everyones gonna be red from now on. Yes, it's not ideal and yes, it sidelines some truly valuable eccentrics (the yellows say!) But society is just not going to function if we have any significant proportion choosing black. Which is what they will do if we don't force the main group of people to choose red".

The result.

The result of this careful, and mostly functional lie. Is that we have a functional society of industrious, builder, and ideologically confused reds (since red is not the "truth" really). Reds who only see red. But the other colours. Including the yellows and the blacks, do exist.  

The only way to communicate to the reds and improve things on a larger scale is to dress in red. To give a certain amount of consideration to it. But to actually understand what is really going on. You have to acknowledge the black. Since the black is so confusing, it is extremely unpredictable what will happen as things change. For instance, as an industrious group of blues say, get rid of the blacks. 

This analogy got away from me a bit. There is a lot of subtext here I wanted to add in about polarity and such. But I think, surprisingly, the analogy has done enough of the heavy lifting. Those other terms will probably just confuse people anyway. 

I have something additional to say that needed this foundation.  

Happy Easter.

Easter, for me, has become a very important holiday.

In 2022, just before my close friend at the time killed herself, on Easter precisely, even though I didn't consciously know that. Was when I went to a local church, started doing communion and effectively raised my level of faith. The increased intuition extracted me from a very unpleasant situation. With said spiralling, borderline chick.  

Christmas, I do get a different kind of intuitive good feelings. More symptomatic of the Sun going over my Neptune placement. More mystical profundity. But Easter has become very intense as well. More powerful real world guidance. Which has it's own, separate, astrological connections. Connecting more to the design/ body.

I have realised my Christianity has quite a few connections to the design rather than personality. Making it unconscious. Which explains why it has manifested like it has.  

I have done a lot this morning. I have increased my medication recently, allowing more comfortable digestion. I have stopped chocolate, which I am probably allergic to (honestly, who has to have an entire day of rest because they ate 85% of chocolate, this was painfully obvious!) I have drunk a bit of caffeinated coffee. Which is awesome and it is a caffeine I seem far more suited to digesting than chocolate. I have been eating better recently after developing an obsession with mushrooms. I have done communion this morning.

All has lead to me not even being able to do anything. Just lying in bed feeling like my entire world view is being updated. I try and watch a youtube video and I can't take it in. 

So I will be able to integrate this and bring forth the wisdom for other blogs. But I think today I will keep it to this blog simply, and say... Happy Easter!  

Magic spells.

I couldn't really think of anything to write in a blog today. There was no pressing insight like there have been a fair few times.

Mega archetype stuff. 

But, if you read the Law of One. If you look at the Human Design. Then you pretty much have an infinity ideas going through your mind at any one time. Just consider this:

The way this graph works is that it feels at time that it doesn't even include any real mental work. Once you have got the hang of everything. What every hexagram basically means. Which centre it's on. What it's opposite means. Etc. Etc. You can just look at this graph and feel a brain update. How each thing compares to every other things. What the historical myths are about each of these "Gods".

The fact it comes down to yin and yang lines at its most basic. Feels a little like a kind of "First Principles". The clear separation between what is purely feminine and what is purely masculine. As the Law of One advises that gender is the begtinning of studying such concepts. (This is between session 87 and 89. I can't look it up at this moment since I've already searched Law of One quotes and I can only take so much brain expansion!)

A certain question. 

However, this is an interesting question from the Law of One. Rather than the answer being the interesting thing. Don is asking a question I have thought a fair bit about myself. The contact is either deliberately or otherwise refusing to answer, or not understanding the question

Questioner: It seems, though, that in the case of many UFO contacts that have occurred on this planet that there must be some knowledge and use of the first distortion, in that the fourth-density entities have carefully remained aloof and anonymous, you might say, for the most part, so that no proof in a concrete way of their existence is too obvious. How are they oriented with respect to this type of contact?

Ra: I am Ra. We misperceived your query, thinking it was directed towards this particular type of contact. The nature of the fourth-density’s observance of the free will distortion, while pursuing the seeding of the third-density thought patterns, is material which has already been covered. That which can be offered of the negatively oriented information is offered. It is altered to the extent that the entity receiving such negative information is of positive orientation. Thus many such contacts are of a mixed nature. 

The question here is: Why are the super natural forces in general so immune from any kind of revealing? Why are things such as seeing auras, energy healing, telepathy, telekinesis, UFO's and extra terrestrials in general. Completely relegated to the fringes? Utterly inaccessible to people in general?

I have had a bit of an instinct recently following the posts on David Wilcock. I think, the guy has definitely been channeling negative entities. Since he has recently started channeling again. There is no way, under the metaphysical rules explained in the Law of One and Edgar Cayce readings. That a person can remain positive while scamming people, being in an out of court for fraud like David Wilcock. (I know technically it is either a Stavatti or Corey Goode thing, but in principle).

Questioner: I have two questions [of a] personal nature. First, during the last intensive meditation the instrument experienced very strong conditioning from an entity which did not identify itself and which did not leave when she asked it to. Will you tell us what was occurring then?

Ra: I am Ra. We find the instrument to have been given the opportunity to become a channel for a previously known friend. This entity was not able to answer the questioning of spirits in the name of Christ as is this instrument’s distortion of the means of differentiating betwixt those of positive and those of negative orientation. Therefore, after some resistance, the entity found the need to take its leave. 

"The opportunity to become a channel for a [negative entity]" Although Carla would be a superior channel, quite clearly. If David even had the opportunity to channel a positive entity. If it was even on the cards. The negative would take the place via taking advantage of detuning to prevent that. 

There are similarities between Davids message and obvious negative channeling [Link]

Another good example would be Pauls message in Thessalonians.

I could go into the how's and why's of something being clearly negative but I think others can handle that. 

For me though, even though it is all based on subtle emotional things (Is it ever anything different?) It gives me insights into why this might be. Why it might be that we have no real inroad into life involving more supernatural elements? 

Breaking the spell. 

I only read session 89 the day before yesterday. It was a few days to a week before, from before I had even started writing the blogs on David. (From before the "Defining morals" posts). I did experienced interference with a meditation which was troubling to me, and which meant I then relied on keeping the Law of One books close during meditation. I am not fully sure I should stop doing that, I prefer meditation, it is more effective, without a Law of One book next to me. But I fear it has gone too far for that. I think I subconsciously knew that which was why I have not been able to get back to meditation. Since I would have meditated without it.

But there was a pattern to this whole thing. There was a feel. When I was going into the Law of One thinking and thinking on David. I was reminded, strongly. Of when I used to really like David when I was young. With the meditation, I felt a sudden reminder of a kind of infinite compassion for David. (The kind of "love" he is perhaps trying to get back with his current spiritual teachings!) A kind of reinterpreting everything he did as very positive. He doesn't mean it, perhaps there is an ultimate reason for his behaviour etc. etc. 

But putting the Law of One book 2 next to me while I meditated broke that. It was like a literal "spell" had been broken. Soon after, I wrote an article here, yesterday, pushing against my previous idea of myself as a reincarnation of Don Elkins. It feels like it is the same "spell". 

Conclusion. 

Ultimately, we do not know, on the larger level, why we don't have access to that kind of stuff. Aura seeing etc. But I think there is more to the cover up than is obvious. I think that it is a kind of "spell" in the same sense as this. So when you move against something, to move to reveal aura seeing as an example. Other parts of your life start getting blocked and such. 

Also, I do wonder if there is a positive side to this. Whether positive entities are preventing a lot of things like this being revealed. I think in some certain matters, no matter what the negative wants, the positive has it's way. For instance, Christianity is a very popular religion. It might be all sorts of confused. But it still is.

I do suspect the way politics is moving, the way that everything in the world is focused on the most grounded aspects of reality. Is a thing to first manoeuver everything in the right way so that if anything higher comes in people would be basically aligned anyway. If you combine confused gender roles with a whole bunch of spiritual power. You probably have a recipe for disaster. 

I feel there is more to say, I don't know what that would be, but I feel there is more. I will leave it there for the moment though. 

Working with health problems (Negative greeting and past lives).

Struggling with health issues a bit, which is what this will be about. But it will retain it's focus on metaphysics.

German New Medicine. 

Firstly:

Youtube: Alvin De Leon: Constipation (May 25th 2018):

https://youtu.be/xLhV_1TxJ_8?si=Q_WXIPuFlrebWcp5

German New Medicine is a modality of healing in a sense. The founder, Dr Hamer. Found correlations between things in the brain and the formation of Cancer. He followed on, with an understanding that the formations in the brain, were emotional issues that then became Cancer. 

From this he created an entire secondary system of medicine of sorts. Of health. The model is that a lot of our illnesses are kind of adaptions in a sense. The analogy is when a mouse escapes a cat, it exerts itself to the extent of getting asthma. 

When a person feels threatened in their environment, their bladder might expand so they can mark their territory. With a heavy dose of EvoPsych. The idea is similar to the general new age ideas of how health and healing work. 

For me then, as the four minute video discusses. The idea behind constipation is when you experience something that you are unable to digest. 

This could be many things for me. It could be that I have lost a lot of my life to my disability that I had not really realised until recently. But I don't think that's it. Even though I have realised it recently. I have to process that I won't have a normal life whereas before, I always used to believe it would "work out". 

But it might not be that, I have an idea of what it might be. But I have to explain something else beforehand. Which relates to this kind of psychological thing, and David Wilcock, which I have recently covered.

Psychological madness.

One of the things I experienced when I first got into the Law of One, after about three years or so. Was an incredibly strong belief, that felt like it was forced onto me. Like an insight. That I was Don Elkins in a past life. 

This was probably following on from my belief in David Wilcock. Who used to talk about himself being Edgar Cayce. 

I am not making the case for me being him, I do not believe that and I will explain why. But I do need to explain a little why it made so much sense to me at the time. At the time I had gotten very obsessed with, a seemingly mutual obsession. With a girl that I worked with. Who, kind of stalked or harrassed me, and went off with another guy after that. 

I had very little power in that place. In the supermarket I was working at. I just need to defend myself a little from the very possible implication, to anonymous readers, that I was in fact the stalker. I actually did not have the power to do anything in that place. I was told where to go, the specific checkout to sit on. I was told what time I could go on a break.

This girl on the other hand, did not have a lot of limitations there. Her family worked there. She had a LOT of friends there. This was the first time that I was socially ostracised from an entire social group. The entire time I worked there I did not see anyone outside work even though there was a huge social life there that everyone was invited to and I had got on with a lot of them informally. 

She also had access to the cameras, and could choose what she did, where she went in the store, at what times. There was a whole secondary office that I never saw but a lot of the staff disappeared into. 

The girl drove me nuts a bit. There is some that I don't want to say. But I will just summarise she was very obsessed. If I went in five minutes early or five minutes late she would always be there. Because she was watching me on the cameras. She would often be there in my breaks etc. She was setting up a kind of clown show where I would be in a position to approach her. 

Yes, this all sounds nuts I know. 

Nevertheless, this woman was a Cancer. The guy she ended up going with had a very specific and relevant synchronicity that tied him to the llresearch group. The story of Carla, Jim and Don seemed to me to be repeating in my own life. After years of being at this supermarket. Staying, really having had my life messed up in a way. I had this dream where I was fighting a serial killer. One I had seen on TV that tortured children. Blood slipped over my hands in my Grannies room (at the time, recently dead), and I opened a letter explaining I was Don Elkins. Then, and this seemed to confirm it to me. Supermarket girl left, and I left soon after, seeing no reason to be there. 

The effect of the negative:

This... is a powerful trick from the negative. I am sure of this. I will discuss a little later what the implications are of past lives and such and what is or is not real. But this specific example, and probably many others to. I believe is purely a trick of the negative.  

What has been created is then an avatar. A figure. An internal figure. As you might use in the Internal Family Systems framework. Which can become part of the psyche. But can feed into the psyche from wherever and whomever created it. I believe this was a negative entity. And rather like reading the Law of One feeds back to the positive sources that authored it. As an internal figure created by the negative. It goes back to the source that authored it. 

This is what I attribute to some deeply, deeply negative events that followed in my life. 

The positive break down of this. 

There is a problem here. I do not know if this is just my way of processing or is a Universally good way of processing. But in my belief. Past lives are never worth exploring. Perhaps in the sense of the Michael Newton books that always seemed kind of positive to me. But as it relates to us normal people. Trying to find these things through meditation, dreams or hypnosis. The problem with past lives is that they are something that can never be confirmed or denied by our objective senses. Which is really all we can ever know.

For this reason, either for me in general, or, as I said, universally. I think a Stefan Molyneux style of philosophy is important. For some matters, not all matters, atheism is needed. Since so little of those new age types of things can be known for sure. There is a part of life where first principles need to be thing we go by. 

But this brings up a problem. A lot of theological/ new age kinds of stuff is stuff that you kind of hold in your mind. You believe and you hope that it is real. Like energy healing. Like the teachings of Jesus. But without the ability to objectively prove it, it stays in the area of "faith". It is part of your faith. 

Where it was a bad idea to ever have the idea of being someone in a past life and definitely, to get resultant beliefs from that. It is also a bad strategy, in my view, to then say that you know for definite that you were not a past life memory. So you're stuck. Luckily I had no one really discuss this with me. The worst thing possible would have been for some llresearch people to have believed me back then, on the quiet perhaps a small amount did, a small amount didn't, and the majority simply didn't care, or didn't know.

These beliefs are DEEP. A belief in a past life, and people following you through into your life. Like David Wilcock talks about with Edgar Cayce. Which also reflects into my own beliefs around my life at the time. 

The slow collapsing of beliefs.

As the Law of One says in session 18.5 I think it is. On the path of the adept "Nothing has to be overcome, that which is not needed falls away". 

One of the things I linked with this Law of One stuff was my half sister. My disagreement with her seems to me to have started at the same time as the constipation. The thing that I am not able to digest is perhaps that we really do not connect, that she really doesn't like me. 

One of the horrible things I have found with going on red pill information (Pearl Davis is my favourite Red Pill Creator), is that women are... actually like that. They are actually like how a lot of those creators describe them. The modern zeitgeist is in a lot of ways emphatically against this reality and with a great deal of zeal tries to push against it. I sometimes feel a temporary relief when I start to hear a convincing case against the red pill information. It is always short lived. Soon after disproven. When you hear women saying exactly those things in real life, and acting in those ways. It is a little upsetting.

Growing up with a single mother (and women have an idealised vision of their own gender). Without a father to pick holes in that idealisation. It does go quite deep the blue pill reasoning.  

My half sister is astrologically very similar to Carla. A stellium Cancer. Similar in a lot of ways. But, she is not, and my brush with this reincarnation kind of belief system, has projected an image over her that is different to the person who is actually before me. The real person that is, or rather was, in my life.

So my conceptual framework that related to the Don Elkins beliefs. The fake belief. Has conflicted with the real world objective, but subconscious, understanding of who my sister is and her psychology.  

Conclusion.

This has been a very powerful article I believe. I think the spiritual energy is raising for Easter (as I write this I am eating one of my two Easter Eggs. There has been a family celebration April 1st!). I have wanted to articulate something on that Don Elkins madness for a long time but it hasn't come together. I think talking against David Wilcock has been part of why it has now. Or perhaps since I messaged Llresearch with that article.

This are interesting thoughts aren't they? But I have a very real medical issue. People can die from constipation. The problem is getting slowly, progressively, worse. I have a new stronger prescription to pick up. 

The test of a theory such as German New Medicine is; can it actually heal something in the real world? Can I change my emotions to understand something about my sister, or whatever the "indigestible morsel" is?  

In my view, I think what this comes down to, taking this framework. Is music. When I play music, it is an emotional expression unlike any other. Journalling, meditation, this blog, maybe visualisation. Loads of life has a way to express some kind of thing. But it is not quite like music. Music is raw emotion in a way I don't experience in other parts of life. 

When writing about this very subject I came away with good lyrics "If I wanted to enrage you I would take an interest in you". The strange feeling of hostility that comes about if I try and show any warmth towards my sister. The utter confusing logic of the situation.

But, well firstly, the constipation itself, the stomach aches, are stopping the music. But also, is it really likely that I will make loads of music, it will express or process said emotions, and the constipation will end?

That doesn't seem likely to me. But nevertheless, with the degree of powerless against illness that most of us experience. I still think it is worth exploring these ideas!