The types in context. 3rd and final part.

Following on from the 2 previous blog entries then.

Part 1 - I mentioned the proposition from a video that the human design Generator is here to 'build' their lives.

Part 2 - Through the medium of actors, I discussed the Projector, and how this differs from the Generators type. 

For this part. I want to extend out that same argument, and focus on Manifestors, of which there are few. 

Actor Manifestors:

• Anna Torv - Olivia Dunham - Fringe.
• John C McGinley - Dr Cox - Scrubs.
• Simon Baker - Patrick Jane - The Mentalist
• Jennifer Lawrence - A range of movies including The Hunger Games. 
• Jennifer Aniston - F.R.I.E.N.D.S and a few movies. I have not seen a lot of this woman. 
• Johnny Depp - Captain Jack Sparrow - Pirates of the Caribbean.  
• Chad Boswick - known from the Black Panther movies.
• Jodie Comer in Killing Eve. 

Here is the Black Panther Trailer for reference:

https://youtu.be/xjDjIWPwcPU?si=r3wLu18ahmo03g33 

And that's it. I was not kidding when I said they are thin on the ground. Not one of the charts I have done for Stargate, Buffy the Vampire Slayer or Angel, Star Trek DS9 or Voyager. I have typically done all of the actors in the past. More recently only a few. 

It is not known the reason obviously that Manifestors are kept out of these things. But firstly, what can we learn from these characters in general. What can we correlate here?

The first thing that sticks out to me is that each of these characters is specifically skilled. They are effectively 'set apart' from everyone else due to that skill. Anna Torv's character has special abilities and a photographic memory. Dr Cox is an extremely good medical practitioner that the other characters look up to. Simon Baker in the Mentalist shows a very eccentric and genius detective that solves crimes incredibly quickly. Even Captain Jack Sparrow is interesting because he is so good at escaping. 

I think this might be why the Manifestors are kept out of shows like 'Star Trek Voyager'. Voyager, in somewhat of a liberal fashion actually. (Although politics is missing from the show!) Has this idea that the competence of the characters does not effect the characters personality. In this way they all have the "respect" of being super competent. But they do not display these characteristics. Harry Kim is meant to be a genius but he is aggressively average. Tom Paris is meant to be a passionate, genius, rogue and he does not display a great deal of fire. 

Captain Janeway is a little convincing. But what it takes to be a real genius in a real meritocracy is... disagreeableness. This is because if you follow the data and get to decent points. Learn things. The way you know you have hit something that is important and real is if you tell it to someone "normal" and they say... "I don't agree with that because it doesn't feel right". 

The Dr Cox character is the best at what he does partly because he is so disagreeable. While J.D has a social life. He has priorities outside work. Dr Cox does not. 

Patrick Janes character is positively rude and acerbic to most people. He is kind of refined and polite. But then if he needs to catch people will just run roughshod over people for strategic reasons. Including being extremely insulting. He goes to sleep on shift and does what he likes. Since he gets results, people have to put up with it. 

These features are simply not good for a Star Trek show. Firstly, someone bringing in the concept of effectiveness and competence. Is not useful when most of the characters have a claim to status which is them speaking about 'warp plasma manifolds' and such things. Gobbledegook to us then. But they have to sell it. 

Another element I think is interesting is that each of these characters has an extremely, visceral violent aspect to their story. We saw the Chad Boseman character in that trailer. But Patrick Jane introduces us to Red John. Dr Cox introduces us to dark themes including the many patients dying from organ transplant and the guilt that followed, his character is noticeably darker than almost everyone else on that show, we do not see one other character resentfully drinking whiskey. Fringe is about a secretive group setting off chemical weapons to kill people horribly. The Hunger Games also has this kind of nastiness to it. 

This is something I don't see in the Projectors so much. Kevin Sorbo's Hercules was only ever facing humorous opponents. Aside from perhaps Teal'c, not one of the Projectors was facing this kind of visceral nastiness as an opponent. It makes me think that part of the Manifestors energy is a kind of "fighter" energy. I suppose if anger is your not- self theme. Then that would be likely! This is a noticeable difference to the Projector heroes journey of a sorts. Not one of these Manifestor characters has to fight for dignity. To articulate some sort of feeling that is important. They are struggling against an external foe.

Pulling this together then, what I think Manifestors might be, is "knowledge workers". Patrick Jane has a huge set of knowledge about how people operate. Dr Cox has an expertise. it might not be so obvious with other characters as in other characters have status that is not so earned (Black Panther and Olivia Dunham). But I think in energy terms. The Manifestor is focused on information. Which is why they are not so focused on people. 

Just one more thing then is how does the Manifestor focus on career and relationship? Since these are directly building things. We can go to real world people for this and I don't see a huge difference between this and the Generator way of interacting. Barbara O'Neill has four kids. Jordan Peterson has a family and thriving career. 

Come to think of it. I do not see a huge difference in Projectors either. Gad Saad. Hillary Crowder. Katie Hopkins. Nigel Farage. Rene Girard.

So it is a theory. The Human Design is largely subjective I think. A lot of what is experienced is not easily proven. It could be that Generators experience going for real world goals. Projectors have heroes journeys where they seek validation. And Manifestors are knowledge workers that have to apply that knowledge to the real messy world. That these are different energy pathways.

Or it could be that there is no difference. That each type can be described as building it's life in the same way.  

The types in context. Part 2.

In my preceeding post I started with a video from a Human Design creator. Who talked about how a Generators energy in life 'builds' the life around them. It started me thinking, if the same could be said of non sacral types and if not. How would we describe how the non sacral type operates? The normal model of how we interact. Get a job, find a partner, settle down. Is applicable to pretty much everyone in this world I think. Manifestors and Projectors still get jobs and have children. So how would we describe their position other than "building"?

To talk about this subject. To think it through. I have been using actors Human Design charts. The characters of specific actors I have found to be the same as the Human Design chart of the people playing them. I could write theories as to why this is. But I feel that would be redundant. The pattern is unbelievably clear in my view.

It is also clear many times before running the charts if you know what to look for.  

To contrast against the Generator then. This post will focus on Projectors. Using actor Projectors to gain insight. Then the next post will talk about Manifestors and probably wrap up the post. 

Going through my list of saved chart. There are LOADS, loads of Generator type. In my saved list under 'Andrew' there are five names. Just that one name. All Generators. I have to scroll quite far before I find many Projectors. And the Projectors I have found are themselves several times more than the smattering of names I have that are Manifestors.

Anyway, here is the list:

• Captain Jean Luc Picard played by Patrick Swayze in Star Trek The Next Generation.  
• Deanna Troi played by Marina Sirtis in Star Trek The Next Generation.
• Ensign Rowe played by Michelle Forbes in Star Trek The Next Generation. 
• Captain Benjamin Sisko played by Avery Brooks in Star Trek Deep Space Nine. 
• Lucifer played by Mark Pellegrino in Supernatural.
• Six played by Tricia Helfer in Battlestar Galactica.
• Moraine played by Rosamund Pike in The Wheel of Time. 
• Robert Picardo as 'Doctor' in Star Trek Voyager.
• Hercules played by Kevin Sorbo in Hercules the Legendary Journeys.
• Teal'c played by Christopher Judge in Stargate SG-1.

I would say that these characters all have more of a 'heroes journey' than the Generator characters in these TV shows. We do not see a great deal of 'heroes journey' from Miles O'Brien or Julian Bashir. We see heroic feats. But their story does not revolve around those things. Their story is very much the life they are trying to build. Julian and his efforts at romance. Miles as chief engineer and his various adventures with his war history and his family. The same with Neelix, or Seven of Nine or Captain Janeway. These characters do have journeys and sometimes they are classic hero journeys. Like Worfs. But it is rare. 

Benjamin Sisko, Hercules, Teal'c and Doctor are all on a very classical heroes journey. We do not really see them struggling with dating in the same way as the Generator types. Such as Tom Paris and B'elanna in Voyager.  We see them go on a heroes journey that sometimes, but not always, eventually includes a partner. Benjamin Sisko kind of 'fell' into this romance with Cassidy Yates.

A similar thing with Deanna Troi. Deanna is a perfect example of a Generator. It is what Generators do in their ideal world with a Projector. They put her on the bridge as a counsellor and telepath and she proves her usefulness by reading people in general. 

This classic Projector pattern of managing the Generators energy is very strong here. In Supernatural, the main two characters are very male Generators. Lucifers character is technically an angel. So he has to rely on free will (unlike demons). He has enormous power, fantastic power in the first five seasons. But since free will cannot be abridged, he works by manipulating them. By being on the side lines and manipulating their energy. 

Teal'c's character. Although classic hero. Is very often in a guidance position. The crew are often asking him questions to which he replies often humorously. His character precisely apes Hercules in that when he goes to live alone he gets in trouble for helping out with everyones problems. Defending people from gangs and such like that. Or you see the other SG team members going to see him when he is meditating for spiritual guidance, as happened a few times. 

Most of these characters at some point or other. Articulate their struggle in a way that sucks people in to a kind of heroes journey narrative. Ensign Rowe and Jean Luc Picard in Picard Season 3. Having to fight for recognition. The Doctor has to fight for recognition and rights as a hologram. Teal'c often has to confess to some deep dark secret in his past. Which is not precisely the same thing. But the whole journey of expressing "I feel this, this is important", is relevant. And it is not the same as the more physical victories the Generator characters have. Such as Julian Bashir when he settles down with Ezri Dax. 

What it seems to me here is that while the Generators have a defined real world goal. Captain Janeway wants to get home. Julian Bashir wants a girlfriend and a successful career. Data wants to become human. Even if it sneaks up on them. For the Projector characters. They kind of 'just are'. But then they have to undergo a fight that they usually didn't choose. Doctor does not struggle to specifically get a girlfriend or career. But then he is put upon to defend his right to self determination. 

In the Manifestor section I am going to make the point that in these shows they do often settle down, but the other half of them has to tolerate the eccentricities that come from their particular "mission". That the other partner (as being relevant to "building a family") seems often to do more of the work. (Like Jordan in Scrubs with Dr Cox, even though the thing was played as a joke of her being so difficult. If you actually take what happened. She is the one that worked on him). 

I am not even sure what the pattern is here with the Projectors. As regards to family life or career. Things you "build". Very few of these characters even have those things. The point here seems to be their ability to relate to others and the "heroes journey" they are on. 

The types in context. Part 1.

Wow, I have done a lot of stuff for me. I realise that it is not necessarily a great deal for others. But what with my reduced physical health it was very productive. Yesterday, from 1 am through to 7pm. I was on my feet doing stuff all day. Washing, Laundry, a lot of cooking, walking the dog. 

This is relevant because it is a potential benefit from the self improvement attempt I was mentioning in the last post. I.e. the energy increase might have been from NoFap, and from the gym in general. Even though I did not go to the gym on this day despite wanting to. I did some visualised gym instead. Apparently it's good for the muscles! I actually felt like the visualised gym tired me out a bit, as pathetic as that sounds! 

I wanted to mention this all around good video:

Youtube: Richard Beaumont: Generators Often Forget This ONE Thing.

https://youtu.be/RoG8Qi1thkw?si=yZjEjfIJvoJrlBjs 

I made a comment about a friend of mine on this video, a pure Generator. This friend is self employed and spends a lot of his time doing labouring kind of work. Heavy physical work. Not like... building site. Bricklaying or anything. But... almost that. Plenty of hammering things, climbing ladders etc.

After the amount of exercise I did yesterday I will need an entire day to recover. I find by checking myself. I have already done prayers. I will need more sleep or just lying down, meditation. Etc. But the food is prepared that allows me to do that. The guy I just mentioned would not need to rest the next day after that amount of work. Or far higher levels of physical work. In fact, he habitually does not have the next day off after those levels of physical work. He habitually does energetically demanding things after work. 

One of the things that I love about the Human Design is that it continually brings attention to a fact that is very basic. But also, unbelievably profound, and something that for some reason we tend to not reflexively consider. People are so different to us. It allows a great deal of stuff. Like, it allows me to consider others more favourably who lack the qualities I do have! In my chart is, (unsurprisingly), a great amount of cerebral energy, a great amount of will power that has throat access. 

This is an extremely positive thought direction I think. This counteracts some of the patterns of my childhood I have identified. It would seem to me to counteract a lot of messed up patterns in life. For instance, envy and jealousy. For people to feel and really value what they are, as read from the chart, would make them less envious of others! 

Homogenisation.

Also, as I think of my life. I realise that this is a value that I have absorbed as well. The homogenised viewpoint is a kind of "best of all types" approach. But the results of none of them. Let me explain. The mainstream view is a kind of Thatcherite perspective of 'just go out and make it happen' in relation to work say. But also, if you watch any movies and things. The characters are predictably Generators. So they are building their lives in a very standard kind of way. The romance, the this and that of work. The conflict and resolution. Building is happening (romance, music focused). Or has happened in the past but is now partially destroyed (action hero movies). So the mainstream also wants you to be a 'builder'.

I have noticed previously that Manifestor actors are extraordinarily rare. They are less shown in TV shows than in the rest of the population per capita. In fact, I can name one in a TV show at the moment of this writing. I have done the charts of most of the actors in shows like Star Trek Deep Space Nine and Star Trek Voyager. All Generators, with a few Projectors (such as Benjamin Sisko from DS9). They act and feel like generators as well. People can only act like a character that is their same type because... what else is there? There is nothing else to draw from but their own energy. But Star Trek gets a lot of its appeal from the tribal, animalistic way the senior staff are "bonded" together. You can see it in those shows. You can see how all the Voyager crew how Generator and animalistic like they all are. Odo, chief O'Brien from DS9, etc. 

I will go into what we can learn from the very few Manifestors on TV. But why is this? It could be one of two things I suppose. Either Manifestors in general cannot tolerate the groupthink of liberal Hollywood, and so the actors are ostracised. Or, and I prefer this interpretation. The scripts intuitively do not accommodate the kind of characters a Manifestor naturally takes to. 

So the exceptions. John McGinley from Scrubs. This character is known to be a loner, hostile, and kind of aggressive. I was talking to a really unpleasant and passive aggressive person on Stefan Molyneuxs twitter recently, and I finally applied one of that characters dressing down insult sessions in a good context:

"Wow, that's intelligent. You have the brain power to light up a city. Not a real city mind you. But definitely an ant city whose government has recently passed a set of stringent energy conservation laws".

I wonder if that is one of those things I find funny that no one else really does. I cracked up re- writing that. It is so unneccessarily petty!

Other examples are Johnny Depp. For instance, in Pirates of the Caribbean. Another would be Chad Boswick of Black Panther. 

This article is part one I realise because. I need to go to bed.  I also realise that there is more I need to say on this since I need to bring in the Projector. So it will be longer than I expected. The ultimate point I am trying to get to is plotting out the position of the Projector and the Manifestor if the Generators are the builders as said in this video.

Continued self improvement.

At the moment. I have experienced what might be one of the future things that "works" in relation to self improvement. 

It's embarrassing to talk about. But it should be mentioned if it is working I believe. Since I have been going to the gym I have not been masturbating. Part of this was likely I had two weeks where my medication was off and was kind of ill. But also, just going to the gym exhausted me and stopped me thinking about the entire area. 

I do not use porn. As the UK government has put in laws that mean you have to give them your ID and such to watch porn (also smut stories on Reddit). I did not see any particular problem with it when I did watch it. But since coming off it there was an improvement in my thoughts. One that showed up after about 6 months and not a day before. 

One of the insights that I got from doing the gym a lot and not masturbating was that the best way to not do it is to... Not do it. Not even think about it. Not even edge (A process of thinking of sex and engaging a little bit physically but without the intention of going the entire way). Before, borrowing from a line in the Law of One, something like "we have found it inappropriate in the extreme to encourage the cessation of these thoughts". I always thought it was unhealthy to completely not think of the area, as it represents a kind of repression. The Law of One talked a lot about how repression is a tool of the negative polarity. They specifically mentioned repressing the sex drive.

But, to get success in this area. To successfully do NoFap. I realise that just not thinking about it. Not edging or engaging at all. Is, in fact, the answer! 

There are changes already. It has been about 20 days. To fully go into the changes I don't think would be suitable for this blog, due to length and the subtlety of some of them. But one of them that I have noticed, is that my dreams have people in them more. They have within them more of the kinds of conflicts I experience in life. My dreams normally are kind of unattached. I will go to this place, then float to that place, drive a car. People are only involved tangentially. Like, going into a class room with a bunch of people. Going to a sink and the teacher comes over briefly, maybe asks me if I am using the basin and goes away again. Not real interactions. But today, and before when I have done NoFap. I had a dream that included other people and a very specific, engaged interaction that I would have with others. The idea that I would engage in this and the dreams would provide some sort of answer would be amazing. I can feel the problem thinking of it, (I can remember the feeling of those types of interactions) and in feeling terms, I don't have a solution (so when I have experienced x problem as a feeling, I have not had an accompanying feeling that lead to an action that solved the problem).

This could also provide a general feeling of socialising from my dreams that might make me seem more comfortable socialising in my daily life.  

Nothing else to say massively. My self and viewpoints are changing with this changed attitude to my health. Grounding is a thing I get from NoFap. But also a thing I have strongly gotten from exercise. Going to the gym and doing weights. Grounding is very important. But my viewpoints have changed a bit with all this exercise. Things I thought were problems. Or things that I started to make complex mental models of, planning to write a blog on them. Have revealed themselves to either be irrelevant, and/ or uninteresting, while I am constructing the blog in my mind. So I am writing less blogs.

Commitment to abstract principles.

One of the things I see in life is that it is fairly rare for a person to have a commitment to abstract principles. This could be religion/ philosophy, something that is partially outside of them, a set of rules they might have to re read every so often to make sure they are properly applying it. I suppose you could say peoples abstract principles are those values they already hold. But it's not quite what I mean. If someone already has some principles they hold. The likely benefit to having entirely internal values is that a good deal of the time (but not everyone). The person will substitute just what they emotionally feel like doing in the moment.  

I have had this conversation in the past... "What values are you committed to that supersede your own emotional preferences?" If those emotional preferences are things I deem to not be compatible with me seeing that person. I.e. if the person is condescending in some manner. I want to be able to say to them 'this behaviour is not compatible with this value'. 

In truth, I have not held strongly to this condition. But I have held to it somewhat I suppose. I have not insisted on an intellectual outlying of a persons value system. But I have used this language to explain that certain behaviour is not OK and when that behaviour has changed, and when the person wants to change. I have seen the person again. 

The gym is fantastic. It has now started to become the most important thing in my self improvement. Above meditation or prayer. Sometimes I really need both of those things. Prayer for when things seem to strangely be going off the rails. But the gym is providing such obvious and powerful health improvements. Such unbelievable senses of good feeling. That it has become the priority. I also go on these bodybuilder guys youtube. It shows a lot about human nature that I did not previously realise. 

One thing that I have seen recently is a video from two guys who said that people treat you very differently once you have gained the muscle. If they have gained like 30 pounds muscle from a healthy bodyweight. All of a sudden people are asking loads and loads of advice from them and just assuming a huge amount of competence. Giving them work/ leadership opportunities and such. 

Stefan Molyneux talked about a concept like this. He said that if people want to know if what you have to offer is legit. They will tend to look at the person to see if their own advice is working for them. You wouldn't go to a poor financial advisor or an unfit personal trainer. 

In a sense. I am showcasing the spiritual things I have talked about here. The Law of One, the Human Design Chart. However, I have a disability. I have a primary health condition and a few secondary issues stemming from that. This definitely prevents movement forward in the gym and most specifically, I don't have a huge flexibility over my diet. So for me, even though I am using some of the best tools there are to use, in my opinion. It probably isn't actually going to show up in my life a great deal. 

But I suppose. They do make me more loving and not resentful about a lot of life circumstances. It is very within the Law of One way of being it seems to me to accept a simple life. 

People, in general, have a lot of problems. All these sociopaths, drug addicts and leftists running about. All this child abuse. I am not saying my health condition is worse than those other issues. I was just wondering about the promotion of those spiritual types of things.

I have not kept up with reading philosophy as much as I would have liked to. But the notes I have made on what I already have read have been giving me value.

Recently I have been fretting a bit about how the information from David Wilcock has messed up my mind a bit. How his model, even little things that he used to say that I would be committed to. Just absolutely poisoned my world view. An example is thinking about TV shows. I used to believe that there were loads of deep negative agendas in TV shows. Or that there was disclosure in TV shows and it really perverted my understanding of the story. Those kinds of thoughts took up a lot of 'mental real estate'. However, on having those thoughts and experiencing anger about them. I am reminded of this passage by Nietzsche. In the 11th section of Beyond Good and Evil:

One can do no greater wrong to this whole high- spirited and enthusiastic movement, which was really youthfulness, however boldly it disguised itself in hoary and senile concepts, than to take it seriously, and an even worse injustice, to treat it with moral indignation; it is enough to say that one grew older - and the dream disappeared.

This is just a casual comment by Nietzsche. It is not like... a coherent expression of a fundamental part of his philosophy like the will to power or anything (which he never actually wrote!) But even this casual comment is very useful and meaningful to me, and it shows I'm on the right track I think!

The Law of One and music. 

The only other issue I have been thinking through is these insights from the Law of One on 'transcient information'. I want to get back to music. I do play music, but I cannot seem to write music, specifically songs, anymore. I want to get back to the feel I had. The ease with which I wrote music. Before my 2014 schizophrenic break where... well, I got into a lot of political concerns to explain what was happening in the world that I had not previously perceived. It was a 'red pill' moment for me.

This set me up with a different feeling and belief system in the world. The song I made about the 2014 schizophrenic break. Was dark and mysterious and pulsed with real feeling. But, in that case, before 2014. I still had the old model of the world. The kind of 'blue pilled' or 'centre left wing' model. 

In this model. I basically didn't think of politics. Besides how it effected me. Which was in making my life difficult as a jobseeker. But something about this model allowed me to look out into the world and make music about the things I experienced there. 

It could be other things. Age in general. Social experiences. Hair (if the Law of One says hair is an antenna and I have lost most of mine!) 

But I thought it would be worth exploring. I have kind of had the 'intuition' to explore. Is that the first viewpoint was more in line with the Law of One. With seeing things in a Law of One way because I did, in fact, have very little understanding of politics.

My perspective now has a deep understanding - relative to that understanding. Of the subject. And of all the generally negative tendencies of a lot of peoples perspective on all these things. 

It also involves me in almost daily discussion on this. Including nasty tweets sometimes. Like, in this Lindsay Clancy situation. Someone asked on twitter: "What would be the difference if she had killed someone else kids instead of her own?" and I quote tweeted with "The brand of woodchipper". I just saw a tweet that annoyed me; which was a cheap feminist jab that seemed to miss the relevant emotions in an issue and I wanted to, but didn't, quote tweet it with something like "Foids don't understand grief". 

I am wondering if part of the Law of One in considering everyone part of the Creator. Which might include boycotting these kinds of comments and this kind of material a lot. Is that it would get me to experience the world more in line with being the kind of "channel" I want to be in music. 

It could also be other things that I just need to practice a whole lot. But I do practice anyway. So I do not think it is that. Or that I need to listen to more of the kind of music that I want to create.

Just thinking it through. Anyway, those are my thoughts for today.  

Sometimes you need reminding.

Just how psychotic the left is. 

Conspiracy. 

I am not sure what is going on with the Lindsay Clancy case in... I heard a bit of conspiracy that seemed realistic. My understanding is that she never plead guilty. It is often said 'she admitted to it'. But in fact it was only the husbands word that she told him that. 

After she allegedly killed the children. She cut her wrist across (not down the vein) and then jumped out the window head first and shattered her spine. I believed this supported the conspiracy narrative because, as was being said on Tik Tok. Cutting across the wrist is not effective. So although she was clearly very serious about killing herself but with medical knowledge did not cut her wrists properly? Is the case made.

I have learned this is an uninformed myth though. Although it was said when I was younger that TV shows show cutting across the wrists because they don't want to show the real technique for suicide which is cutting down the vein. Actually, it is the artery which is on the outside of the wrist that is the thing that kills. So this seemed to be inconsistent to me. Like someone said "maybe someone else did it". But it is in fact not. Cutting across the wrist like she did is in fact how someone would kill themselves. This is consistent. 

The only other thing from Owen Benjamin. Was that her husband apparently then married someone connected to child trafficking and generally "connected".

The state assumed guilt in this case. As they often do. She did not plead guilty. The state is not bringing a trial to prove that she actually killed anyone. And they did not take any evidence to prove that she did. Like, DNA and such. The trial is on whether she was experiencing psychosis when she did the crime. As I said, it is assumed she did.  

Maybe that is legitimate I don't know. Many times when the state has done this it has been proven to be wrong. Not always in murders. From my perspective then. The state has simply not proven guilt. If you don't prove guilt, you don't get a conviction. I am not assuming guilt because they said so (surely they get enough money to do their jobs! The state steals like 80% of all wealth.). Even if, circumstantially, it makes a great deal of sense. On the 3% chance someone else did it. She should go free.  

Morons. 

Anyway, this is not the case that is being shown out in the world. In the actual trial. Most of the jurors seemed to me that they didn't have two brain cells to rub together. They can't even contend with the facts of the case itself. Let alone consider the behaviour of the State before this trial. It would be a very uncomfortable thing I think me being in that room reading with incredible preciseness everything I could on the case. Every bit of evidence. Memorising it, arguing those facts, and getting angry at passive aggressive responses in defence. 

The whole situation has become an absolute circus though. The title of this blog post. 'Sometimes you need reminding' and 'The psychopathy of the left'. Is that, the case went to mistrial. There were eleven jurors who wanted her to be declared mentally unfit. And one hold out juror. 

This was all happening in the liberal mainstream media. Whom have a very specific belief system that they religiously adhere to. Women are perfect and in most cases unreproachable. No matter how bad their behaviour. No consequence should ever come to them. As in this specific case. The jurors, believed Lindsay killed her kids. by 7 minute strangulation of each kid. But they wanted her released anyway.  

The defence lawyer threatened this one juror. Saying that he would be scrutinised and investigated after the case. Then, several jurors were interviewed by the MSM. The first juror said something like "He couldn't get over the fact she had killed her three children"... Uh. Not sure what to say to that. The next one, was a guy, who said that he didn't understand why the hold out juror had tied the exercise band around the water bottle to show the process of strangling the child (i.e. maybe arguing Lindsays commitment to the murder? Or the horror of it?) But then he admitted the guy did actually give his reason. He was obviously trying to imply the guy was being unreasonable but didn't have anything. 

The third juror though, when asked about the make up of ages and ethnicities of the jury. Admitted something that seemed to absolutely destroy the liberals platform... The lone juror was black! He was a minority. Another one of those that are above reproach in the mainstreams fanaticism. 

So... what are you going to do now?

The right was very jubilant about this. Very happy. But the left, and the mainstream media didn't miss a beat. They just started targeting the black holdout juror. (After the case had already been declared a mistrial).

The whole thing is clearly criminal. The media should not have the power to intimidate a juror. The whole point of a jury is to not be intimidated. But what was so weird. And so not understandable to regular people with values. Is that the MSM just turned on the black guy. Started tracking his employer down and printing that he was a criminal of some description.

And no matter how many times I theorise about these people. It still surprises me that they have just lied... Again! They have never cared about black people. The white liberal jurors and the MSM are now scapegoating him as the dumb black guy. 

It is just a weird thing for many people to try and process. It does not matter how many times you experience people with no values. It never quite seems to make any sense. 

It reminds me of a note I have made. Stefan Molyneux FDR Podcast 5839: "To a person who has railed against conscience. All relationships are expendable." What he was talking about here. Is that if you know someone who has done evil stuff. If you were to challenge them on it. A lot of them would not handle the situation. They would get angry. Make excuses and throw the person bringing up the issue out of the room.

Because once the conscience has been fought against and evil doing has happened. This becomes the thing the person serves. So rather like what the mainstream media have done perhaps. They are serving something else. The juror somehow stepped on a principle or important piece in the global chess match and they are serving that principle and so the juror goes out the window. Even if the juror and protecting black people is a value they previously claimed. 

It is all so weird. Anyway, that's what I had to say for the moment.  

The pure depth and scale of the deception. Emotional insight.

This will be a post that goes lightly into conspiratorial areas at the end. 

Tomorrow, the effect of my medication increase is going to kick in so I will be, in a good place. I have resisted this raise for 2 weeks because it comes with potential limitations. So I have had the negative side effects. But, tomorrow I will be more well. So that will be good. 

I have had thoughts on the best way forward for psychological improvement. Working off various dream interpretations, youtube videos, and general insights. But I am not quite well and articulate enough to put it together today. 

Emotional insight. 

As a basic thought. In relation to session 5.2. I have worked through jealousy and what I figure to be its antithesis. And I have worked through humiliation and what I consider to be its antithesis and times in my past when I experienced that. This was... quite something. Bringing up emotions from my past by deciding to do so creates quite the emotional shift. It was not something I realised I had access to. 

Then, looking for further opposing beliefs like that. I remembered a time, as pointed out to me by a close friend close to this time, when I got very into martial arts and became quite aggressive. Then I went to Reiki and started doing a lot more music. So my personality shifted quite a lot. These are potentially to me two direct opposites that exist within me that can bring light to this balancing practice. 

But what I then started realising was that all these balancing emotions were following the same pattern. The martial arts started when I got bullied in school. The Reiki and music was the opposite of that. A belief, not grounded in reality, of a sacred destiny. These are the same two emotions underlying the humiliation, and its antithesis. This obviously fits into the antithesis of jealousy. The 'revenge of living a good life'. This would fit into the sacred destiny part. Then the other, jealousy of others, often socially. Links to the humiliation issue. 

I do not experience, consciously at least. Great sadness or great happiness. I do experience a kind of hedonism which is kind of happiness. But it is not happiness as others experience it I don't think. I think this is a genetic limitation, likely, from my father (who could have been a sociopath but was likely just a really mixed up guy). Or maybe my medical condition has dulled me a little. Or perhaps it is from lack of self awareness, or lack of achievement in my life that would bring that happiness? Lack of fun with women? (Nietzsche once commented that women make the highs higher and the lows more frequent!) Or for another reason entirely. It is not a set of emotions I think at the moment will likely bear fruit to explore. 

But the fact that every emotion is organising into these two separate sections brings me back to what I had said previously about the human design. That parts of my life have been divided into understanding of their themes through the human design and specifically the nodes are something I often gain insight into. These emotions seem neatly divided in the unconscious and conscious south nodes. The humiliation in the unconscious south node. And the 'sacred destiny', in the conscious south node. The conscious south node is gate 46.6. Which is the channel of failing where others succeed/ succeeding where others fail. So it is a hexagram involved in that kind of mystical destiny like thing. 

This has made me suspect, not know for sure, but suspect. That the investigation into the emotions in relation to this healing kind of direction is not going to be fruitful for me. Because my instincts, and intuition, are essentially running in a different direction. Towards human design kinds of insights. 

Anyway, this is all just a bit of meandering thought. I consider my goal to be worth all these thoughts and that is to find functional thoughts/ philosophies/ healing modalities/ spiritual concepts to bring meaning and healing to life. 

One more thing though. 

I am watching Star Trek Voyager that I like a great deal. I think it is the best Star Trek. I used to think that was Deep Space Nine but on watching them as an adult I realise Voyager is actually more adult and profound. Less ridiculous and spectacular. I am currently watching, would you believe it, an episode where one of the Star Trek officers is abducted by aliens and put through really intense brainwashing. Which, he does yeild to. And finds he is unable to undo emotionally at the end of the episode when he is safe again. 

It is what I kind of wanted to talk about. Something adjacent. At some point in 2020. I looked heavily into Elite Gender Inversions. The idea that a lot of these actors are transgender. Like, all of them. 

I watched about 200 videos on this because I just needed to get it through my head. I can see this now, clear as day. And I was reminded of this while watching this series. The constant attempts to sexualise Jeri Ryan with her thin body and huge breasts. But whose face is unmistakeably masculine:

Youtube: New Age Slave: Jeri Ryan Transvestigation. April 16th 2025:

https://youtu.be/KBe97SF5WDI?si=c4Hcgih6wCxy3EIO 

There are two points that I want to make from this. Firstly, that the breadth of the deception we are under is huge. Sometimes the deceptions go into layers. So you uncover one layer and you get to another and another, and you are still not at the actual truth. 

Like with the Lindsay Clancy case. The first layer is that you hear that women have an important issue of postpartum depression that men are not taking seriously in a court case. OK, that's a lie. The death of three children were involved. The next level is problems with the actual case and how the state has handled it. Inconsistencies. Dodgy things with the husband. I would say this is just as much of a deception. That there is always a specific script written for the 'low level conspiracy theorists'. The next level down is that they are both clearly transgender so the entire thing might be staged. I would imagine there are further layers.

EGI's are not just actors. They are singers. Some of those I was devoted to. They are politicians. Like Trump, as an example (David Icke is a prominent one too, Alex Jones might have been replaced.). Even after I investigated this all in some depth. I realised I could not completely separate myself from all this because... It is everywhere. It is ubiquitous in culture. Which is why I have Voyager on now despite suspecting it is a 100% transgender show. You would have to just sit in a room alone without any entertainment to avoid it all. A level of stress impossible to tolerate.

All put together. The take away for me is that the level of deception is astounding. A lot of things that seem to be happening. That we are given all the hints that a certain thing is happening that is against the liberal agenda. Is all of this same kind of control in my view. It was not a coincidence that the writers of The Boys made it all an anti Trump fest. They were ordered to do so. They are not liberal writers losing discipline. They are metaphorical robots to whatever this agenda is. 

For this reason. Firstly, it can all be ignored. This or that politician said that might be a little relevant to any policies that effect your actual life. But what we are being shown is a show. I imagine huge country wide movements like Promethean Updates talking about Trump fighting the deep state might be accurate. But a lot is just a show and deception for some agenda. (The good guys have agendas sometimes too!)

I do not believe in flat earth. But if the world were flat. Our leaders would not tell us. I consider a lot of reality we are told might turn out to be a deception. The ruling elite might be Reptilians - or Reptilians itself might have been a deception - and there might be a different kind of alien menace. But even when truthseekers and good guys do something, that might be a deception too. For instance, I am not particularly trusting of the Epstein saga considering these were all transgenders. You would think that might have been mentioned! So I consider it might be a convenient smokescreen to take some (human?) criminals out of society, without revealing things that the population cannot yet face. 

This has a lot of obvious meaning for the future. It is possible that after this real life stuff is revealed. A lot of peoples behaviour will change radically.  

What have we missed? 

I said there were two points. And my second point is simpler... What is it that has been stolen from us in these things?

Incalculable surely. It really is tied up with all of the deception on our planet. But watching Voyager I wonder what heights a show with non transgender characters would have? A group of sane people intuitively arriving at a powerful message.

A genuine woman playing a female character, if suitably incentivised. Might tell us more about female nature. Might be able to play with those complexities from her intuition. A similar thing with men and the 'heroes journey'. The shows might be able to explain nitty, real life philosophical issues and heroic feats. To inspire and to explain. 

Anyway, that's all I have for today.