Healing and it's many complexities.

One of the issues I have found with any kind of self improvement. Is that you think it would be great to do some thing or other. You move to do that. But then you realise there was a powerful reason why you have chosen that thing as a kind of support mechanism. 

It makes change slow. My priority goal at the moment is to push ahead a bit out of my comfort zone in relation to music. I want to push beyond scales. I love scales. But I need to do more than scales. Need to get music as songs and life force going.

So I planned to practice music before I do any watching TV. Go to sleep for the evening. Between about 18:00 and 22:00. I sleep in two sections. Wake up completely exhausted (eaten three cereal bars and some meat the whole day!) and watch TV to wake up a bit, no energy to play music. Not even enough to meditate. So TV before playing the intro to 'Nothing Else Matters'. The pattern re- initialises.

The things I have successfully broken off. Were not my own choice like that. They weren't like "well I need to change x habit to encourage y habit". They were just incredible deep and sudden realisations. Sometimes pushed by events. So I got allergic to chocolate. Stopped that. I had alcohol, felt ill and slept fifteen hours. Stopped that. But I have noticed many times with many different things. Assuming a person can change a habit through a kind of will power is not useful. Change happens due to emotions changing. As a kind of indirect effect of a positive movement in ones foundations. 

I go to the gym for the pure love of going. Never had to motivate myself to do that (I realise a lot of people do, but I have a deep aggression that feels like utter relief when it is gotten rid of for a while). A lot of positive behaviours. Prayer, meditation, dream interpretation etc. Change things incredibly slowly. Often working by just making a person a little more happy. So avoiding the absolute powerless energy drain of despair. Meditation changes things partly I think by just making things more intense. So a person is more disgusted and angry at their own bad habits. And those habits change in singular moments of clarity.

A bit of the wisdom that I think can add real benefit to peoples lives. It seems to me men are meant to put together this kind of wisdom to share with their kids. But the world is very dysfunctional and not a lot of people are having kids. 

Anyway, just thoughts. Not the main point I wanted to discuss.

Healing and it's many complexities.

The more I have gone into spirituality. The more there has been a kind of nagging annoyance that one of the things that motivates people into it, one of the claims, or expectations of the whole area. Goes seriously unmet. That would be, the idea that we can go into energy therapies or something like that. And that our health issues will be healed and improved. It seems a lot of the time. That regardless of this expectation. If someone has a serious disease. Arthritis, Eczema, Type 1 diabetes. They are stuck with that. They are stuck with the surgeries, medication, and other medical supports. 

It really rubs me the wrong way. Jesus never met someone and said he could not heal them because of their preincarnative choices. It just feels like something is amiss to me in that energy therapies in general are so apparently inefficient when judged on this standard. I do not have firm claims as to what energy therapy can and can't do. I do not know if it is changing something that would be considered very powerful by the Law of One contact. Like someones theological feelings. But what it cannot seem to do, as far as I am aware. Is heal something that is as serious as a lot of people live with.

Reading book V of the Law of One. In Carla's written excerpt before the session 60 fragment. She talks about how her Arthritis flowed with her will to live. When she felt unbelievably down due to Dons death and didn't want to continue. This does have the benefit of, at least, Carla's real and lived experience. 

Another thing that annoys me about the entire area, is when it is discussed by the Law of One. It is one of the only areas that insists on a paradigm that is difficult for me to access. While I suppose the fact they had a support group there and were doing magickal practices is also this. Much of the Law of One is very accessible. It talks about theology. The archetypes, in my view, lead in an almost atheistic direction. The potentiator is about the subconscious mind. The transformation even more so. These things are things that a secular paradigm works with (although much of the terminology of the 'secular paradigm'. Comes from Carl Jung who was extremely spiritual in his outlook and got a lot of visions). The subconscious mind I have found to be a tool that is both useable and clearly "there".

As a side point here, I suppose NDE's do, in some way, prove, a larger spiritual reality.  

The Law of One even makes a comment along these lines:

Questioner: This brings out the point of the purpose for the physical incarnation, I believe. And that is to reach a conviction through your own thought processes as to a solution to problems and understandings in a totally unbiased or totally free situation with no proof at all or anything that you would consider proof, proof being a very poor word in itself. Can you expand on my concept?

Ra: I am Ra. Your opinion is an eloquent one although somewhat confused in its connections between the freedom expressed by subjective knowing and the freedom expressed by subjective acceptance. There is a significant distinction between the two.

This is not a dimension of knowing, even subjectively, due to the lack of overview of cosmic and other inpourings which affect each and every situation which produces catalyst. The subjective acceptance of that which is at the moment and the finding of love within that moment is the greater freedom.

That known as the subjective knowing without proof is, in some degree, a poor friend for there will be anomalies no matter how much information is garnered due to the distortions which form third density.

With the energy work and preincarnative distortion stuff (which is very subjective, at least as far as I can tell. As it is experienced!). This is actually starting to shape up to be a contradiction within the material itself. 

Questioner: You are saying, then, that the physical distortions that the instrument experienced are part of a balancing process? Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is incorrect. The physical distortions are a result of the instrument’s not accepting fully the limitations placed prior to incarnation upon the activities of the entity once it had begun the working. The distortions caused by this working, which are inevitable given the plan chosen by this entity, are limitation and, to a degree consonant with the amount of vital and physical energy expended, weariness, due to that which is the equivalent in this instrument of many, many hours of harsh physical labor.

This is why we suggested the instrument’s thoughts dwelling upon the possibility of its suggesting to its higher self the possibility of some slight reservation of energy at a working. This instrument at this time is quite open until all resources are quite exhausted. This is well if desired. However, it will, shall we say, shorten the number of workings in what you may call the long run.

The only bit relevant is the first few lines of the answer. 

In the last section of this post I will talk about German New Medicine and a bit more about the idea/ paradigm. That a lot of these issues in some way come down to the idea that "everything is perfect". 

My point about this excerpt though is... how are we meant to understand and access that? I suppose we just know. How is Carla meant to know what her "pre incarnative distortions" are?

Arthritis is a very restricting disease. I think new age paradigms about what it is about talk about that a lot. Carla is in her position where very little of her life is under her control. Her life is very much "restricted". She cannot break off and go do something else. And a lot of the restrictions impose on her life and emotional state a great deal as well. 

Carla, didn't have kids. And this is a significant thing to be upset about. She also lost her reproductive window, since she was 25, to Don. This is not something that I would do to a woman. It would be pretty bad. It is something that would be considered, and I consider, a morally negative set of choices. It is rightfully considered a negative thing to use up a girls reproductive window, for like a decade, and not wed her. Thereby potentially ending her ability to have kids. I don't know in what world this would not be known about. 

I am not likely to have kids. At the moment, all I would settle for, in good conscience. Is either a girl who physically could not have kids (because women often change their mind when their biology kicks in at 30), free will isn't a strong principle when it comes to womens hormones; or something short term. And/ or a friendship. But I have learned women think they can change your mind when they can't, they fantasize. So I would be wary of even the friendship. 

I would like kids, and if a girl was able to have kids and wanted to make it work. I would fully discuss the limitations of my disability. Which I think would end in the practical realisation that it is not likely or possible. But if it turned out it was for some reason (like opulent wealth of something), that would be good.  

But everything that happened lead to the Law of One contact. This creates a few confusing issues. Did this set of choices, that I think can be defined as morally negative. Lead to the good result of the Law of One contact?

Possibly not. Don and Carla could have stayed in contact in a professional manner, if not lovers. But the entire situation I think adds a difficult dimension to the whole higher life planning philosophies.  

German New Medicine. Working the paradigm.

Reading the Law of One, Don's questioning on these areas. It seemed to me that the three of them were having trouble understanding how illness can in itself be an expression of perfection. I.e. the perfection of the Creator. 

German New Medicine offers some perspective here I think.  

In German New Medicine, the body adapts in a way that completely makes sense that causes the illness. But this is a very rational and in some cases preferable adaption. It only doesn't fit because of the world we live in today that interferes.

As an example. When a mouse runs to get away from a cat, when it has finished, it often lays down and experiences a kind of asthma for a few days. Another example is the idea of someone that feels threatened at home, so their bladder grows as a way of "marking" their territory. 

The one for type 1 diabetes, would be that a person experiences a lot of stress as a child, and because this stress requires an unbelievable amount of energy to psychologically meet. This breaks the pancreas in a sense. 

Again, this still does not really solve anything to me. It is not practically applicable. Dr Hamer, who created this system with the aid of a lot of brain scans and good evidence. Was able to heal people with these theories apparently. But how the rest of us do so is not known. 

It strikes me, that if a lot of these illnesses are based on a kind of perfection. Based on being subjected to stresses where a psychologically healthy person will shut down. Like, the child that experiences that stress and has no stress response is probably not healthy. The only self that is not effected is the one that does not have a self to hurt. Sensitivity is human.

But a lot of people, in our current society and economy. Are subjected to ongoing stresses of these types. For instance, in the lockdown. A lot of kids were not able to leave the house and go to school so they were killed by abusive caregivers. 

In that way, a lot of these breakdowns can be seen as kind of healthy. If we are all part of one big system. We are like the cells of a body. The breakdown shows where the problem is. Or indicates an area to investigate further.  

This whole thing does motivate people to solve the overall problem. If a bunch of people get ill, they all investigate the world from that place, identify the issue, and say they vote well, or promote the right philosophy. Eventually this becomes like a healing agent. They heal the society, and those that are not aware there is a problem get the eventual improvement of a healthier society. The whole body improves.

So I suppose it is kind of perfect. But in general. It is all... very unsatisfying.  

Working with prayer. Prioritising wisdom.

These are my efforts at working with different prayers and their effects.

This was the one I used for years which I have decided recently not to use, and have got quite a lot of good effect from stopping:

St. Michael the Archangel, defend us in battle.

Be our protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil.

May God rebuke him, we humbly pray, and do thou, O Prince of the heavenly hosts, by the power of God, cast into hell Satan, and all the evil spirits, who prowl about the world seeking the ruin of souls.

A very beautiful prayer. Like how much of the bible is very beautiful. It has literary merits even separate from theological ones. 

Anyway, in accord with the Law of One book 5 I decided this wasn't suitable. It tended to get me to focus on the evil 'out there'. To make up that mythology in my mind. When I had annoyances I would think of them while saying this prayer. 

So I changed it to this one, which Carla Rueckert said everyday:

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace:
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy.
O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

Another thing which I have also been working on during this time was affirmations. I have about twelve affirmations or so. The last one was "I am able to perceive auras". 

This one, in my view, created another kind of blockage or problem. I walked around seeing auras for a little while last night. But I do not think this is a thing that is useful to me. I think it fits in with this whole 'love' way of being that is not suited to me. 

I got a lot of effects from this. I was more able to listen to others. But at the same time. I had less to say. That doesn't sound like a big deal. But it is a big deal. We are often told to listen twice as much as we speak or other such things. But I have found when I don't express a great deal there is a lot of awkwardness and silence. Like people are waiting for me to speak. 

People, also, in practice. Do not want a deep conversation. They want to express their frustrations and have them unsolved. Because people don't change much anyway. With this prayer I found myself asking logical questions like what value system the person is basing what they are saying on. So that the problem does not recur. 

I also got two other issues. One was exhaustion. The thing with 'love' as a mode of being is that it is purely giving, while wisdom has to watch how it uses it's energy. The other was what felt like an almost manic episode late last night. A very intense feeling that love was the solution and desire to send visualised love and light to everyone I could think of. 

This was immediately met by a corrective dream. 

So this is the one I am now settling with. I feel strongly this one is far more positive and suited to me:

Lord, grant that I may always allow myself to be guided by You,
always follow Your plans,
and perfectly accomplish Your Holy Will.
Grant that in all things, great and small,
today and all the days of my life,
I may do whatever You require of me.
Help me respond to the slightest prompting of Your Grace,
so that I may be Your trustworthy instrument for Your honour.
May Your Will be done in time and in eternity by me,
in me, and through me. Amen.

It is ironic. Over time I have shortcutted within myself that female expressions are generally "love" and male generally "wisdom". This prayer, one of those of Saint Teresa of Avici. Was written by a woman, and is strong in wisdom I think. It strongly suits me. It already feels better than the Prayer of Saint Francis that felt good, but even after I said it initially would often feel quite draining. The one immediately previously was written by Saint Francis. Who was male. That one is a 'love' one. 

Saint Teresa of Avici seems to me like a very wisdom oriented person. She has the same sense of visions and guidance and such as Carl Jung (I think this is a fifth density thing! Most of the time.). Someone that it might be good for me to look into and read in general. 

Anyway, the affirmation to see auras is out. The prayer of Saint Francis is out. And the idea that love is some sort of solution is out. It is a part of the background energy. But I have to prioritise wisdom. Rather than visualise love to people that are negative or indifferent to me. I prioritise wisdom. Like playing guitar. Or looking at philosophy and such. 

With the social issues in my life. They are not going to be solved by loving anyone. But with navigating through them with wisdom.  

Transcient information and a changing world.

One of the many tarot card like images I have made now AI is accessible. These are taken from dream images and they have specific meanings. 

This one is when some part of you, some truth, perhaps something you need. Is caught up behind some of the obscure ways of doing things in an office. The rucksack didn't need to be floating. The AI did that. 

That kind of neoliberal agenda kind of thinking. The idea that faceless weirdos in some higher, unseen, but not inaccessible echelon, are making decisions... "For the highest good". In the liberal way of thinking. 

Youtube: Promethean Updates: The Trump Bibi Call: What London Doesn't Want You To Know. June 3rd 2026.

https://youtu.be/tzqi6FPNG7o?si=yoMeHBlEOTopZcXa

Transcient information.

Yesterday, I wanted to talk about transcient information but did not do so. This was one of the videos. The other one was one that was more focused on things like Reptilian shapeshifters and whatnot. 

The Law of One contact, advised the people it was talking to about 'transcient' information, and that it was very negative. I do not quite understand why this is. But I have a theory. 

If I hear something about Reptilians. Like, in that excerpt it was that the queen is a Reptilian, and the woman was a survivor of Satanic rituals that sometimes featured said queen. 

The Promethean action video above. Is very very good research. In a lot of videos the Promethean action group are making the case that the UK is a kind of deep state. The UK is the head of the snake. And they bring receipts. Also that Trump is heading off a lot of the globalists operations. 

All of these things can be found in the real world. Most of these things are kind of relevant to our real lives. Not directly perhaps. But the things they talk about will come down the line eventually.  

But the thing with Reptilians. OK, so a woman says that she was abused by Reptilians. Once you have even entered this paradigm you are in a kind of trap polarity wise. Can I lie detect this? No. She could be telling the truth. She could be lying. If she is telling the truth, then assuming she is lying is not a particular nice thing to say. 

The lack of me being able to check any of this means that even if I found four people that were telling nothing but the truth. The fifth might be lying. Or lying like 20%. So it is pretty inevitable that anyone looking at that information is going to absorb a lot of falsity.  

There is also a rootlessness to engaging with that kind of material. I do not know what the truth in those areas is ultimately. But I suppose, for my purposes. I will find out for sure when everyone else does.  

The changing paradigm. 

I have observed something about the 'normal' paradigm. 

I would say men and women look at things in a different way. For men. The desire is kind of more grandiose. They want to live and to conquer. To be very good at what they do and to live in a meritocracy. To be unquestionable because of their amazing talent.

One film that I thought perfectly showed male and female desires was 'Walk the Mile'. Which was a fictionalised biography of Johnny Cash. He is a complete wreck. But because he is so amazingly talented people put up with him. So I'm talking about male psychology. Not the complete wreck part, just the amazing talent part.

The female response to this. His eventual wife in the show. Was also valued for her singing talent. But she was able to show Johnny a great deal of love/ compassion/ kindness but string out the option of a relationship for many years. So she was chased a long time by a high status man. Seeming outwardly to have behaved perfectly. 

I would say this is 'gods plan' in a way. That men are in a strong position and able to move and do things well. Women in this paradigm for some reason earn (but are not given) the reputation of being loving and idealised. 

The other plan, the one of 'the enemy'. Is the neoliberal agenda. Loads of weird committees of Karens and other things. Faceless bureaucrats making decisions and treating the populace in a way like infants. The normal people see the world like this. They have been, in a sense, trained to see things a bit like the Iraq war. Where people stand in UN rooms and make arguments and the media carefully massages the population into the deep states chosen actions.  Like with the Iraq war. 

We are in a period of change though. Trump has been doing things differently to the "meeting in stale board rooms discussing the meaning of everything for years before acting". In Cuba, he just went in, abducted their President. It was done. The Promethean action video talks about this. I think this model will move to other countries as well. Male or male style leaderships. Where the leaders are actually competent and do things. 

Revealing psychology.

The revealing of psychology of these political events I think is interesting and it might be partly what the point of all this is. As it relates to polarity. 

I used to know a girl in University. Not well. We were in opposite dorms and she was, we just talked a few times. She was just somehow grounded and social in some way. A few times I talked to her and the subject of conspiracy types of things came up. At which point she said she agreed with conspiracy and mentioned a documentary that had gone around recently. Rothschilds, WW2, things like that. 

Then, later on, the EU referendum became a thing and we had discussions about it. We disagreed but everything was fine. Then, the Brexiteers won the EU referendum. And I was blocked and she never talked to me again. 

A lot of 'moderates' and left wing types have this perspective. They are fine for you to have an opinion different to them. As long as it doesn't actually effect anything. As soon as they can't dismiss your idea as that of a powerless eccentric. You have suddenly become a real danger (You are no longer an 'infant'. Since the left is a very female way of thinking.)

It is partly to do with safety I think. People feel safe if there are this set of bureaucrats above them keeping everything running as they see it. I also remember going for a drink with some work colleagues. They were guys, were both pro EU. And both then told me about their horrible mothers. 

The psychology is a fundamental lack of feeling safe, and so attaching to bureaucracy, in replacement for religion. Or in replacement for a healthy psychology. 

Which means that, as things shift. The careful put together manner of a lot of these people will start to shift. Because they are only OK when the political system they believe exists for their benefit. That reminds them of female leadership. Is in place. 

Dismissiveness.

In many ways, the left and mainstream types are unaware of reality that is coming to meet them. Their emotions get in the way as I discussed in the last blog. They prefer not to see that Restore will likely win Mackelsfield. The BBC will oblige them because it is made by the same types of people. When these things happen, as they have with Trump. All these peoples unhealed trauma comes to the surface. 

Improving my life. Law of One insights.

I have attempted several times to write a blog today. Each time I have started and then not been able to. A few times immediately attempting to write again, and not being able to.

This was perhaps because one of the things I wanted to discuss was a very transcient subject. Q based stuff. But it feels to me now as though I can't force myself to be interested in that anymore. I have successfully applied that teaching, and it has now become relevant to my emotions. 

So, after a nap. I have decided to basically summarise my learning from the Law of One recently. The lessons I have applied. I also want to include an astrological insight I had. 

Number 1: affirmations.

I stated previously, that doing affirmations as well as everything else. Meditation, prayer, the other stuff I was doing at the time like using a pyramid. Is all too much. That a person, to improve, can only really focus on a small amount of things.

I think the problem I was having is that I was doing loads of stuff, all at once. Because of that, I had not actually written any of my own affirmations. I had only listened to youtube videos with them. 

Trying that again recently. Halfway through the day I got a feeling of malevolence. Listening to someone elses affirmations I find does not work. I suspect it has something to do with the way I phrase things being due to certain insights of mine. Like, I phrase things so they don't contradict first principles of sorts I have thought up. There are a lot of concepts out there in the world, stemming from what I perceive to be a kind of magical thinking, that I just don't agree with. That I fairly passionately don't agree with.

I made my own affirmations though. And WOW, do they feel good. I cannot tell really. But it feels like I am getting results from them already. Some of them are about how I communicate with others. When I went to the launderette recently. I talked with the launderette guy there quite a lot. I have been going there for several years. Acknowledged he is a social person and would be fine to talk with. But never chatted with him before. There were various other small things like that. People smiling at me and things. 

One of the things that discouraged me from affirmations when I was in my twenties was that I passionately disagree, on a fundamental, non rational level (like, I never rationally worked out I didn't agree with it, I feel repulsed by the idea) of any kind of mystical/ law of attraction kind of concept.

But that is not what the affirmations are about. I can feel that they are working through my subconscious mind. For instance, I have to align quite a lot of things in order to go to the gym. Navigating health difficulties. I wanted to go to the gym one evening. And when I was in the supermarket, I could feel myself planning things about making sure I get to the gym. In a way that seemed specific to the affirmations. It seems quite likely my body language is more approachable, which is why I seem to be having a bit more interaction with people.

I see this as a 'long term investment', and that after months or years, the behaviour changes I am affirming will be second nature. 

Number 2: consistency.

One of the affirmations was about going to the gym and improving with workouts. Friday evening. I went to the gym and did one of the best workouts I have done in a long time.

I can't know precisely if that was affirmation related, there were other things it could be. But my health not being great I usually do 30 min to an hour workouts. This one was 2 hours. And I was living in heaven the next day or more. Weirdly tired, not normal tiredness, but a self contained zen tiredness. I felt so good. So overpoweringly good. I was completely calm mooded but, elated. That I stopped the things I usually do. Prayer, affirmations, meditation, reading the Law of One and I even reduced my medication for my stomach, since the exercise had created a boost where I thought that was proper.

Bad idea! This was mentioned by the contact to Carla in the Law of One. When she took medication for her arthritis, the contact advised that she had thought it was fine to stop the affirmations because of the medication. But you have to keep doing it. 

No, I need to keep doing those things. I can't just chill because I've been to the gym. 

Number 3: Following on from 'non condemnation'.

I am going to admit to unflattering things here. But I think it is important to explain what I am about to say.

This goes on from a post I made about a week ago. I talked about how the Law of One, specifically book five. Talks about how we should not be too emotional, in a sense, about the negative forces. This is in reference to the psychic attack that the Law of One group were facing (so as an example of their thinking, they rephrased it to 'negative greeting'). So I wrote a blog post about how I had swapped out prayer that were all about protection from evil and such. To prayers that were more love focused. 

This has had the effect of increasing my "empathy" in a noticeable way. 

I have, for a long time, wanted to put together smut stories of a sort. These would not be the romantic ones. But ones filled with degeneracy. Along the lines of the things I think are interesting. 

The problem I have often had though, is that, in imagining my scenarios. They have been fantastic. But as soon as I try to make them into real stories, a few pages in, they fall apart, because of my spontaneous awareness that the characters would not act like that in real life. X person simply would not engage in this kind of thing with Y. 

The stories, on reflection, were filled with psychopathic characters. But now I have changed my prayers. My thoughts on certain people have massively changed. Peoples behaviours from the past have become less of a mystery. All of a sudden it's like "well of course so on so would do x if they had y, which is a natural consequence of them doing z". It feels like a massive set of general blockages of my understanding of peoples behaviour has fallen away. 

With it, a certain amount of upset and regret. Lacking empathy has consequences. (I got self conscious about that line. Nothing serious I'm talking about here. Just that could have related to people differently.)

In the sense of the erotic stories. They have also changed. Characters that were jumping at the chance to do unethical things are suddenly not relevant. And the remaining scenes are more focused on things that are far more realistic, in my view, as to peoples overall psychology. The characters are more cajoled into these things. Not determined to do unethical things against the grain. The relationships make more sense.

That sounds like not a big deal, because I am describing something that is only happening in my head. But bear in mind. These types of erotic stories have been set in exactly the same fashion for years, now I change that set of prayers, I have suddenly had insights into psychology and the stories have changed. To me, this feels like a very significant change.

I can't even imagine what precisely the mechanism for all this is. 

Number 4 insight, astrology thought:

The concept of karma. I recognise now, as I think of it, that the concept of karma was one that I held onto on an inner level because I passionately wanted to see that karma done to evildoers out in the world. 

People do this a lot. They have some kind of wisdom that has an emotional underpinning. Neitzsche talked about this kind of thing a great deal. It was one of the big foundations of his theories. 

I used to go to an astrology group, where almost every week, the boomer women would bring out a different reason that, due to their astrological predictions. The left wing were going to win out in some amazing victory. Always for a different reason. Like, one I remember was a huge technological breakthrough of green technology. 

I was told about karma by my grandmother when I was, extremely young. Before the age of three when I moved away from her.  

But I realise, thinking about it, I need to update my idea of karma. It is too magical thinking. It is something I believe, because I was told to believe it. 

But I've realised, that astrology does actually explain a bit of what I might understand to be karma. Where this comes from, is that I was reading a Liz Greene book, she said that transiting planets do reflect natal planets. 

Of the slower moving planets. 

Jupiter natal in the first house, wide trine Uranus and Neptune. This gives me the kind of presentation of a kind of spiritual person I assume. My strongest experience with transiting Jupiter was when it went over my natal sun and I went completely mad. Had a schizophrenic break. This incident definitely fed into that whole thing. 

Saturn, eighth house: My eighth house Saturn I think is responsible for a certain tendency I have of noticing and scheming against gossipers. I have a whole set of behaviours I watch for if someone is gossiping about me. When Saturn opposed my Sun a few years ago. I was getting in trouble at my workplace. Which I think, was due to the fact I was being gossiped about (I was told this fairly directly) and they wanted me gone.

Uranus, 9th house. Exact conjunct Moon: Uranus, I have traced to precise dates to be politically involved. I see it as the free market and innovation such as that in general. I will leave this one where it is. But the pattern fits. 

I've realised I don't want to go any further. But the takeaway is. That rather than seeing it all as karma. Looking at things in relation to planetary transits. It makes a lot more sense. With Saturns force and Pluto's ability to bring down deep grinding justice. 

Disclosure Day.

I remember a few years ago. Ten or so. When I still had friends :). A close friend of mine. I knew before this happened what he would say and then what would happen. I told him about this experiment:

https://youtu.be/vJG698U2Mvo?si=Q8tDkfxuoqsb2GVt

He said, very confidently, that if he was to do this test, he would get it because he had a better attention span than most people. I showed it to him, and he did what everyone does. What I did. 

People often have this defence mechanism of sorts. A sense of wanting to insist that they are not lower on the heirarchy perhaps as they see it. Of not wanting to admit any weakness. 

I often walk a dog that is a very scary looking dog. It is not actually my dog. My mother got it from a rescue shelter. It was not clear from the picture how big the dog is. She had been in the shelter for five years and my mother wanted to get her out. She was labelled as a Staffy. 

But when she arrived. It was clear she was actually an American Staffy. They are almost identical but twice the size. Similar to pitbulls, but definitely a separate breed. 

She is actually the softest dog my mother has had, frightened of absolutely everything. Frightened of someone crushing ice, can't bring my guitar into the same room as her. Probably partly because five years in a kennel is traumatising for a dog. But she looks terrifying, built like a tank, and she has a frightening growl/ bark.

The point is, is that I am now in the position of occasionally interacting with people over this. People will say it is fine and they are not scared of dogs. But you will see it in their eyes. Some people are genuinely not even slightly scared. Probably dog owners. It's not who you expect. A young girl the other day showed no fear and muscular men can be very afraid. 

The point, is in many of these conversations and interactions, sometimes conversations where this is relevant. People that are scared will not just say they are, they will say point blank that they are not scared when they clearly are. It is a similar defence to the selective attention test. 

Disclosure Day.

There are some indications that the Trump Administration might be putting forward seeds in relation to the idea of some sort of disclosure of extra terrestrials. Three things. Of course they might not be real signs. But they might be. 

One was Trump putting on his Truth Social posts about Aliens. He later retracted changed this to saying that Aliens are not little green men. But get the immigrants out. The second is that Steven Spielbergs 'Disclosure Day' is soon coming out. Talking about the effects on the world after the revealing of Alien life. The third is that Anna Paulina Luna has talked about getting classified government briefings on Alien hybrids and such.

These things are just small movements. Hints that maybe something like this is on the horizon. Interestingly, all three mentioned similar themes. They live amongst us. That they are already here disguised as humans. Or maybe they just look like humans. 

I have thought about it. I have thought about these things for years. I have always imagined that when these disclosures happen that I would be very surprised and shocked. That there is no way for humans to really be ready for this information. Imagining it to be both things. Both benevolent aliens; and Reptilians eating children or whatever. 

Now though, as I have gotten more into the Law of One, I don't think this. Studying the Law of One has a commitment to it. A commitment that the paradigm they discuss is the real one. At one moment Don asked the contact, about negative Extra Terrestrials... "Where do they come from?" The contact answered "They come from the Creator... in the shallower sense you mean, they come from..." It was one of the few statements from the contact that reads a little like it was bad mooded. A little annoyed. 

If it were to happen, I would use it as an opportunity to see other beings as the Creator. This would be consistent with my so far beliefs. So I would not have to endure as much shock as many people in theory. 

Of the everyday people though, that have never heard of the Law of One. It is one of those things that people say that they believe in but have put no real thought into. It is the kind of thing that before it happened. Everyone would say something like "Yeah, I know the government is probably hiding this stuff". But it has no real thought into it. They have no real way to prepare for it because they assume they are prepared, and that it is no relevant. 

I think that most people will go into shock when this happens.  

The act of condemnation.

Recently. The only thing I am interested in is the gym. The other day, after a two hour workout. I felt angry and gritty and very good. I have struggled to pull up a deep reservoir of anger that I have known was there but am mostly not able to completely access. When I do I become more productive, but my thought is that a good way to handle things within myself is to pull up that anger. Exercise it out. Weights will do that. Then pull up more. Eventually starting to make real headway into my general background psychology. Having insights into and clearing that anger. Cleaning out things I didn't even know were an issue and that I had remembered. 

While affirmations have been amazing. There are a lot of individual practices and things in general that have been very positive. The gym eclipses them all. I sometimes feel bothered when I go to bed and put the Law of One book 2 next to me and then I sleep. But even that sense of being "bothered" is not there when I have done a real workout. I am moved into a positive state, unbothered by such things. 

Anyway, I wanted to talk about two separate ways that I have undone "condemnation" within my own mind, and what the implications are. 

Negative "greeting".

I have mentioned previously. That I have stopped with the prayer of Saint Michael, and substituted the Prayer of Saint Francis. This is one of the relevant lines in the Prayer of Saint Michael:

"And oh, prince of the heavenly host, thrust into hell Satan, and all evil spirits that wander the earth for the ruin of souls".

A lovely poetic line. Like much of the Christian faith and bible.  

As I have mentioned before. This comes from a teaching in the Law of One, fundamentally book 5, so also including the writings of Jim and Carla. That if you characterise things negatively. Like any so called attack. That you kind of mythologise it, and put too much energy into it, and it becomes worse. 

I have applied that kind of theory to this set of prayers. I have said the prayer of Saint Michael for about 5 years or longer. I realise the way I have used it. 

The negativity in the world I am subjected to often doesn't seem to have an easily identifiable cause. This is very deliberate I believe, in the favouring of very bureaucratic tactics. Of creating power structures where it is just not clear who is doing what. Like in an office at work, where decisions are getting made, discussed in meetings and whatever. But you never really know who planned what and why. Things just start being moved around. And at some point or other one will effect you negatively, and there's nothing you can do. 

This works on a macro level as well. The system we live in doesn't actually appear to deliberately create any kind of slavery. It just creates a confluence of factors. The jobcentre is not meant to deal with illness. But if you are ill, and you go to the illness welfare place, and they have set the system so you aren't acknowledged as ill. Technically that is not the fault of said jobcentre. But they are still insisting you apply for jobs and threatening you about that while you are ill (not that they do actually, at the moment the jobcentre are quite understanding, but as a principle, and it has happened in the past). They also have nothing to do with the destroyed economy. 

For this reason. I liked that prayer. I liked the idea of an energy coming from the prayer that found the true evildoer in the situation, and subtly moving them a bit closer to hell.  

It gives you a little place that you can outlet that bit of anger you have at the situation. I heard a little bit, just a little, of the negative behaviour of a family member the other day. It's that kind of frustration.

But removing the prayer. I suddenly realised that emotion is no longer an option. It is interesting. But it does feel freeing in a subtle way. It doesn't allow, within oneself, that sense of "condemnation". 

I do not believe having said the prayer of Saint Michael ever really did anything. It was originally a church prayer and I imagine that in church, you have the connection of the group that mitigates some psychological aspects of this. 

I would also say that real world developments are on course to give people consequences in some form. What form that ultimately takes is really something for the higher forces to manage.  

There are no mistakes, the Law is One. 

This has been a huge one. 

A similar thought process to what I just talked about and an insight I only had once is stopped the previous prayer. 

The same process of minor condemnations is at work within myself, or was at work. I often now retell myself that there are no mistakes. 

This includes any real or imagined, but also in general discussion. I was angry about something with someone. I did not condemn it due to this teaching. Because I did not condemn it. The analysis that is natural when an issue comes up was not halted prematurely. And was continued on past the point where it would normally stop and did give additional insight. 

I think this is a little bit the positivity that can be gained from Buddhist teachings. Say you imagine that so on so slept with so on so in the past. You don't know for sure but you suspect. When you think of it you get angry, and let's say this is on some sort of boundary, where you are not sure if you have a "right" to be or not. Like a great deal of emotional upsets actually. 

"There are no mistakes" kind of says OK, if that were true, it would not be a mistake. If it is not a mistake what is it? It is an action that has consequences. All actions of consequences, it's called cause and effect. Also, being upset about it is not a "mistake" either. 

It simplifies a great deal of life to its mechanical bones and throws out a lot of thinking that doesn't seem that productive... But was not a "mistake" nevertheless!   

This is along the same lines as Buddhist teachings. They say that attachment is what causes pain. I would say condemning oneself within the mind is something to do with that attachment. Something of its mechanism. If you think about this imagined event, "There are no mistakes, the Law is One". Then it's just a thing that happens. You observe it inside your mind and move on. Then you focus back on yourself.

It allows you to process it emotionally, rather than get stuck on it. To clearly ask yourself... "What changes if this is true?"  

To be actually successful, I think, there is a lot of self focus. 

Check in post.

Meditation, affirmations (I haven't talked about this but I've made these work!) reading the Law of One and prayer. These are three things I do to improve my life. Meditation I intend to do everyday and prayer, I do everyday.

Friday evening I went for a longer gym session than normal. Rather than half an hour to an hour. I went for almost two hours. The effect was so powerful that temporarily. I didn't need any of the above strategies. I felt unquestionably good. I was good at dealing with situations around me with absolute calm. It was another world of good feeling. 

When I go to the gym and work well, I can feel more blood flow in my lower body than my upper body. So I don't think so much. I also had insights and started applying Law of One information to my real life, lines from the text I had not applied previously. 

Even though I discussed before that I had come off twitter. I change my mind. When I was not really well enough to do anything else. It did appear as a good thing to do for me to pass time. This is my issue with reddit though. 

Post: https://www.reddit.com/r/Vent/comments/1tshfnd/the_lack_of_jobs_is_meaning_people_are_being/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

The lack of jobs is meaning people are being forced to accept terrible working conditions and power tripping managers

Honestly working in general nowadays just feels like giving my rights as a human being away for a tiny amount of pocket change that barely covers my rent or expenses.

to make it worse you have to deal with completely insane managers who should never have been in that position to begin with but the people who mange them are equally insane most of the time.

I hate how you have to put up with so much stuff you never would under any circumstance. And the answer people always use to this issue is “oh just find another job then” no because there is literally not another job available ever in all of my time working there has only ever been the one job i got and never anything else “i could just go to”.

I’m tired of this bs. Put more jobs on the market, make society an actual community again rather than a selfish capitalist hellscape and start treating workers fairly. it’s not a lot to ask.

As you can see at the end there. My emphasis. 

"Put more jobs on the market". The person sees a kind of communist authority that is responsible for all the good things in life. And Capitalism is responsible for the entire issues of society. 

So they are the same kind of person as who I talked about yesterday. The kind that if they worked for Netflix, would protest Dave Chappelle having a show. 

I agree that this kind of thing is an issue, the main problem. But to me it is a symptom of government intervention in the market. Of high taxes forcing people to take shortcuts. Lack of meritocracy. It is very true the 'find another job' line. From left wing employers who have destroyed the rest of the market no less. 

If this persons life is improved. If political events force a better market. It will be in spite of this persons effort. Not because of it. If they got the political system they voted for. It will be the same gas camp scenario of the Soviet Union. The same starvation as the Holodemor. The same issues as Venezuela, Columbia, Mao's Great Leap Forward, and all the other times when Communism was tried. 

It's a good example of someone deserving their suffering. 

The place this was posted. r/Vent. States in it's rules that there are absolutely no political posts. So anything that were to come through even slightly right wing would be deleted for that reason, as would any comment to this post that would highlight that. But left wing propaganda is allowed through. Many subreddits are like this. 

So anyone going on Reddit, even the subreddits that are nothing to do with politics, is supporting the left wing agenda in general.