The primacy of meditation.

Video for today:

Youtube: Brandon Clark: I can't take it anymore. August 12th 2026:

https://youtu.be/L3asM4iiBDo?si=Mm-kl0SFRSNjddVo

I put a comment on this persons video. But it was a comment about how I had also avoided 'victim mindset' by being appreciative of things. Which is something I am working on. Rather than looking back on my past and regretting my health conditions preventing me from socialising and getting established. I thought perhaps I should appreciate that they lead me to spend loads of time thinking through this kind of stuff. 

But, it is not of the mindset of the kinds of people that make or view that video and the comment just sat there with no likes. So I deleted it. I often delete comments recently. 

As a summary then. This guy is talking about how he coaches a lot of guys. And a lot of guys have what he calls a "victim mindset". In that they keep making excuses for why they couldn't exercise. Things like 'I was travelling and couldn't work out'. But he has given his clients body weight exercises to do when you can't go to the gym. Things like that.

I do not struggle with disciplining myself to go to the gym. The reason being, is that when you are ill and unemployed; you have to invest a lot in leisure. So actually doing things constructive becomes the novelty. I know it sounds bad. But I have been very ill in the past. I am getting better now. But that is the reality of the situation. When you have periods where you cannot do anything. Like, you CANNOT do anything constructive, because of illness. What you do in the day for leisure kind of becomes the 'main event'. Since the illness is causing stress, kind of like how a job would. So you need mental time off from that as well.

Plus, for whatever reason it is. I don't struggle with motivation to get to the gym. Perhaps it is high stress levels which only the gym seems able to meet. 

But there is one area where I do struggle to motivate myself. And one extremely important area for my life...

Meditation. 

One of the things that has stopped me a few times is exhaustion. Like, after surgery. But even that is not a great excuse. I find prayer to be exhausting sometimes. I don't have the energy for it if I have been in a particularly hard workout or something. But meditation... It isn't actually a huge energy expenditure. I just don't do it because I don't want to do it. Outside the times when I do. 

The psychological effect of meditation I have found to be so unbelievably powerful. A distinct change towards a positive frame of mind. A distinct change to less of any kind of victim mindset. A slight but significant increase in intuition. That really mounts up. Just making very decision 10% better.

In effect. The world when I meditate vs. the world when I don't meditate is a functionally different place. So if I have the option of two different world views. One is the meditation world view. One is the normal world view... Which should I choose?

Obviously the former. To this end I am trying to figure out what would increase my likelihood at regularly meditating. I think, doing it at the same time everyday would help. So that is what I plan to do.  

Eclipse post. (Nietzsche, Creative Work, Communion).

Todays eclipse:

Eclipses were always a big part of my experience of astrology. In about 2017, for a period of a few years. Every time there was an eclipse. Often, down to the day, there would be something really powerful happening in my life. A kind of turning point. An important decision. 

More recently this has not been so obvious. Although, I have had an insight that I need to be less 'specific' about it. Rather than going into the technicals, thinking of it like a "Leo eclipse", might be helpful. Think of it generally in the terms that are relevant to Leo. 

I am in the UK where this can be seen. I have been near a landmark where easily a thousand people were gathered. And that is only one of them. Not even the beach, which would have been way more busy. People really like the eclipse obviously. I wonder if astrology has something to do that? Something deep, ancestral and unconscious? Or they just... like the eclipse?

For me, I suspect this has to do with my recent investigation of philosophy. Specifically Nietzsche. 

I already feel like I am getting insights and I have hardly touched the book. Nietzsche believed that peoples instinct, even philosophers. Was not towards truth itself. That it was their life force and a 'will to power' that simply takes what it can to increase it's power. If that is truth or lack of truth.

An insight from the Law of One.  

Nietzsche makes the point (in my understanding) that we cannot technically follow a 'non truth'. Because it doesn't exist. It would be a feature of madness. 

This has a lot of interesting implications. In the early parts of the Law of One, in the introduction. There is an interesting quote that might relate to this:

We have watched your group. We have been called to your group, for you have a need for the diversity of experiences in channeling which go with a more intensive, or as you might call it, advanced approach to the system of studying the patterns of the illusions of your body, your mind, and your spirit, which you call seeking the truth. We hope to offer you a somewhat different slant upon the information which is always and ever the same. 

So what we think we are doing is 'seeking the truth'. But what we are actually doing is 'studying the patterns of illusions of your body, mind and spirit'.

It's an interesting way to deconstruct how we see things. Truth is a concept that is hard to define for me. I don't take a super objective approach. To define truth something like 'that which we can confirm with our senses'. Omits a lot of very subjective things that people believe and feel are true. 

Where this is going is that it makes me redefine myself. How I perceive myself and such. If I look at myself as not seeking the truth, which is how I saw myself. But as of finding things like the Law of One as part of my 'will to power'. It starts to deconstruct everything. It justifies not paying attention to 'transcient' information. The pull of that is that it is 'seeking truth'. It also allows me to legitimately analyse others motives along those lines. I have always seen this in other people. But until I have considered it my own motivation, I won't properly see this in others, I don't think. 

This has one further potential application. 

I have struggled recently with an annoying little "side thing" in figuring things out. Recently, I stopped Communion for a while. It was terrible. I was very much weakened in my body. Dissociated. Didn't really enjoy the gym. But I did get one thing. My feelings were powerful and raw. I was able to do something that is really important to me. I was able to write a new song. 

It really just flowed. I love the song. It had both the overriding rhyming scheme and several other rhyming schemes within the verses. Music, as far as I was aware, is something that is really important for me. Perhaps my 'reason for being'. 

The effect of Communion. 

But like I say, when I do Communion, I can't make those sorts of songs. I haven't made those sorts of songs for years now. But my body is a LOT stronger. I am motivated to go to the gym a lot. I am also not subject to demonic hallucinatory like things. Dissociation. It is not a reasonable option whether to do the Communion or not. I have decided I am doing it. But the music addition is interesting. (I do a lot more skill based stuff with the Communion. Scales etc.)

But, with this 'will to power' thing I think I can understand a bit of the psychology here. When I play music. I do not feel like I get a lot of choice in what to write. I can struggle to do that. I can write poems and such. But the real music comes when I am playing and just fits. Often saying something insightful that I didn't even realise myself. 

I think I have mythologised that. In my view internally when I play songs I am playing the truth or channeling in some manner. But, the truth might be is that when I am creating a song. I am simply creating a song, and I grab anything, subconsciously, in order to create it. 

This starts to give me an understanding of what the mechanism is. When I am not taking the Communion. I am happy to write the song with my existing feelings. And this is not, contrary to what I thought. Any kind of 'channeling'. But simply a relationship with my subconscious mind.

When I take the Communion though. My outlook is changed. Part of me is no longer satisfied with the kind of songs I am making in that space. The last one was an open admission of my anger at women. With the Communion. The focus is more on taking that kind of anger to the gym and transmuting it. 

Reflection on the red pill.

When I was close to the people doing watching the eclipse today. I looked into their cars and it was just normal people. But a whole lot of couples. I realise, that me in my insular life. Looks at things very differently than a lot of the world. Most people out there, still have what is a normal ish life. They go out with their partner. They go out with groups of friends. They do all the 'normal' things.

The world from the statistics of the red pill doesn't look like that. So many videos about 'men walking away' just isn't reflected in the real world. 

I have had a fair few times when some real world information has made me doubt some part of it. One time was talking to a woman about her past and realising, that information I got from the red pill was not represented. She had dated all sorts of nutters. She was not going exclusively for 'Chad'. It was a strong, emotional, sensation, that still sticks with me.

Another was working at a place with a bunch of young women and they were all settling down and a lot of them getting married. I did not see any of the crazy party twenties the red pill tells you to expect.

Not that I have not seen exactly what the red pill predicts. But there is something wrong somewhere here with the model.  

To link this to what I was saying then. It could be that when I take the Communion. I am no longer happy with creating music from the substance that is my life. Perhaps because it would not be correct in some manner. But there is every chance that after the spiritual tools I used have actually palpably improved my life. I will have a different set of information to draw from.

Or none of this is right and I am just trying to understand Nietzsche, and adding up stuff which doesn't quite connect!  

On healing.

I had a long blog planned on the subject of porn. Since the UK government has put in the Online Safety Act. I have not watched it. I do not want to give the government my info to watch porn and I don't want to use a VPN. I don't care enough about porn to look for it under these circumstances.

It seems to have changed my thoughts and mindset significantly. I really saw nothing wrong with it before. Like, I really didn't. Especially because I am chronically single with not a lot of chance of getting into a sexual relationship. When people discuss porn it is always framed in a certain way. It is often framed by women that men have this super objectifying sense towards women if they watch porn. 

But, being women, I don't think they have any particular clue what it does. For me, it has seemed to have done the opposite. I have become distinctly less positive towards women since stopping porn. I have gotten over a kind of feeling that women are super cute and lovely, and have become more of what feels 'objective' about them. Most of the workplaces I have been at. The messages I have sent with a few small exceptions. Women have treated me in a very unpleasant manner, and it feels like I should emotionally acknowledge that. Or that I simply have on some level. 

But, like I said, something else has come in to interfere with my natural thought process today. 

I am reading the Law of One properly this time. I have read it twice recently. But I am reading it as to make careful notes on it. It is a way of reading that I would like to use a lot. You can't do that with fiction. Or, at least, it doesn't seem logical to. But philosophy, science, psychology. To retain the information and make it go deep, those kinds of notes are very useful. When you make notes you can link the information to things you already know or believe. 

Reading it properly though. Making notes. Considering things. Deepens the understanding and depth of the material. We all have a kind of Dunning Kruger I think where when we first see things we underestimate their complexity. This is true of philosophy. People just think they have perfect moral reasoning because they exist. But when you go into philosophy, (which is one of the highest IQ majors), you start to feel your brain rewiring. You realise that life itself is more complicated than you assumed. 

As it is with the Law of One. There is so much of it that is kind of easy. That just sounds basic. Like 'One Infinite Creator'. That could have been written by a person. But the more you go into it. The more "alien" it becomes. The more you re read things and realise they are significant. Even though you might have skimmed them before. Some things, like this, are just so utterly alien that I don't know where to being with it:

To begin to master the concept of mental discipline it is necessary to examine the self. The polarity of your dimension must be internalized. Where you find patience within your mind you must consciously find the corresponding impatience and vice versa. Each thought that a being has, has in its turn an antithesis. The disciplines of the mind involve, first of all, identifying both those things of which you approve and those things of which you disapprove within yourself, and then balancing each and every positive and negative charge with its equal. The mind contains all things. Therefore, you must discover this completeness within yourself.

This is from session 5.2.

No idea where to go with this. But I have talked before about not being able to find ways of healing. This is a different healing than most of them. It is not energy healing or working with nutrition. Or any of the usual healing methods. So perhaps it offers some light in the improving of health?

The exhausting game of spiritual teachings.

Writing another post, the last one was just a few hours ago.

I have been writing a lot slower for a while. Perhaps I am making up for that. Also, the sun is out, and it unbalances my medical condition. I have already had inconveniences. That combined with collapse at the gym at roughly the same time means this week will probably be spent doing very little so that means, I will likely prioritise spirituality a great deal this week. With spirituality comes the outlet of said spirituality in the form of this blog. I have trouble at about 26 degrees. It will be 31 later this week. 

Youtube: Melissa Dougherty: Bizarre Channeled Spirits, Jesus & Truth: May 6th 2025:

https://youtu.be/StGJwBNybjo?si=zP-ycDpD9xQeMevv

To me, this is an extremely annoying and incoherent video. Perhaps that is not the fault of the woman making it. Perhaps it is. 

The first part that is annoying. Not wrong necessarily. Is her characterisation of new age teaching, including the Law of One. There is a problem I have started to perceive out there in the world. That is, that nobody is really teaching the Law of One, what I would consider... "properly". When I say properly, I do not mean like the people at llresearch where if you bring up an argument against forgiveness without contrition. Reference session 34.6, and things like the Law of Free Will. They ignore you. Just ignore you. Don't engage with the material. 

This is not a person that can teach the material then. 

I have searched far and wide for teachers in this area. Probably not that far and wide since I would prefer to just read the book. But I remember going through llresearch's links page and finding a few people. The last one I went on there was an article something like: "Charlie Kirks subtle and dangerous demonisation of minorities". 

The Law of One reddit was practically orgasmic when Charlie was shot. Not the main people perhaps. And everyone can go on a reddit sub. But I thought that was interesting all the same. There was no one defending Charlie. There were pro him getting shot and neutral. So Llresearch attracts leftists clearly. 

Aaron Abke isn't much of an exception to this in my view. Firstly, Aaron doesn't actually teach the Law of One, not at all. He teaches veganism, and the Law of One did not support that. He is quoted in this video talking about having to 'destroy the ego' and all that:

Questioner: Can you tell me how you balance the ego?

Ra: I am Ra. We cannot work with this concept as it is misapplied and understanding cannot come from it.

The problem with the Law of One is that NO ONE is getting it right. Llresearch teaches forgiveness without contrition. I have found enough Q'uo readings, and got enough refusal to discuss the issue from the people there to know that. There are many other points they would not like to be challenged on. Many things they just stop speaking if you bring up the subject. 

So yes, Melissa summarises what she thinks new age beliefs are in this area and gets it wrong. Is that her fault? or is it because no one is coherently teaching it? Aaron is teaching what he believes, not what the Law of One teaches. At least, not exactly. 

Another issue I have with her video is that there are really a lot of claims in Aaron Abke's works. Like, videos and videos of them. That she goes nowhere near addressing. I suppose you can't do that in a one hour video. But the points she replaced these with were not particularly compelling.

For instance, one thing Aaron talks about is that when Paul met Jesus on the road to Damascus. What he claims was Jesus. When Paul had his vision. He was blinded by Jesus. Does that sound like Jesus? Jesus was a healer of the sick and the blind in many cases. Does it seem like Jesus would do that?

Also, in one of the biblical books. A woman possessed by a demon followed Paul and two friends for three days espousing the greatness of Pauls message. 

I am not saying these things are correct. I have myself not been able to go all the way with Aarons teachings. As I have talked about recently. But to push back against a spiritual teacher. Does it not seem at least polite to push back on his technical points? Aaron has laid out a powerful and highly technical argument. Does it seem fair. Does it seem 'good faith'. To just ignore all those points and then write a video repeating the mainstream Christian points with only one biblical quote?

Anyway, it did suddenly make me wonder what I thought of all this? Where I put myself if any of these incredibly mind numbing points were to come up in conversation.  

For anyone here that followed me due to the Law of One and has any loyalty to its material. I think you would likely share my understanding that Carla being so incredibly Christian has leant credence to Christianity and perhaps set her up as an idol in that manner? Also, it seems to have been given a subtle nod by the contact itself. As though looking at the books beckons you on the path of Christianity. When I found it I was an atheist. 

Carla, had faith, real faith. Carla used her faith to get through the whole thing with daily arthritis. But... well I don't have that same faith. My faith, my ideas and thoughts and things, come with a lot of questions. 

For me, it is all more of a trial and error thing. I pray, it works well, stop praying, get ill. I do communion, it works well, stop communion. Get ill. Have a whole spiritual crisis and dissociation. 

When I had a serious schizophrenic break (as serious as it gets!) I felt my mind unravelling, and I felt 'Jesus' holding me together after I prayed to him. So it feels a little dishonest to not identify myself as at least 'kind of' Christian. 

This same thing works with all the things I currently use. Meditation. Dream Interpretation etc.  

But even engaging with any of these people simply sounds so completely exhausting! The bible is one book that has had many different political events surrounding it. It has been copied and screwed with many times. I just... find it very unsatisfying to even look at it that much. For me, it was convincing that Paul was the one that started off Communion and it wasn't necessarily a Jesus thing. I tried to stop Communion, and it did not go well at all! So trying to understand the bible and its meaning. While everything practically useful comes from the Law of One itself! 

It's honestly all just so exhausting.

I also wanted to end with a little joke as well. This women defines truth at the end as something that is objective. Like, the sky is blue because we can see its blue kind of thing. This is a person that believes that a mythical figure from the distant past takes away all her sin if she does something wrong. That that figure actually experiences her sin. Or did in one powerful moment about 2000 years ago. 

That is just not objective at all.  

Judging mental health, and the perversion of spiritual energy.

Second post for today.

Went for a bit of a walk and even though it is not exactly 'gym' kind of stuff (I so so so want to go back there but I got indications I should take a longer break this time). A walk does get rid of that kind of "angsty" energy. Maybe like ten minute aerobic I will do next.

There are two completely separate points I want to make here. One that I might have made before. But I want to say it again, just because it is becoming relevant in my life. The other is, I think a kind of new point where I talk about the damage that David Wilcocks kind of material does to a person. And about growing up as well. 

Firstly, I want to state what I have discerned about dealing with people that might be genuinely sick. But might be lying (as many do) when it comes to mental health disorders and ideological madness. (Like, are they fooled by the arguments or are they actually committed to negative ideals?)

This video has informed me on this. I like this girl a lot. I admire her passion on a subject I also have passion on. The correctness of right wing beliefs and the madness of left wing beliefs. And the importance of a commitment to spiritual ideals. She's also very pretty. Actually pretty facially not just a good body. This helps with spreading such a message I think:

Youtube: TaylorIsOnline0: Degeneracy and leftism#: January 27th 2026:

https://youtube.com/shorts/CV_h4Bs4WU8?si=Kgoo02lz3iCfr_TX 

This is a good example of someone that made a choice to be ill in a sense. Not like the case of someone that pretends to be ill to gain resources. But someone for whom mental health was not a legitimate thing. That the mental health issue was a cover for a disturbed conscience.

I think many issues like this are contained within these two Law of One quotes:

Questioner: I am interested in how the first distortion applies to the negatively polarized entity misplacing the mind/body/spirit complex. Why is the negatively polarized entity followed to the place of negative time/space? Why would one of us freely follow the entity?

Ra: I am Ra. The positive polarity sees love in all things. The negative polarity is clever.

This is where I sometimes place it when say, someone you know personally and is not overly intellectual commits to left wing beliefs. Left wing beliefs, which are of course, completely malevolent. But this is how I justify that they do not deserve in the deeper sense. The natural consequence of their actions. Which would be to be violated by one of the refugees they are so desperate to bring into the country. (Which has happened to other individuals because of their wilful blindness and voting choices).

This is the second quote that might apply to these situations though:

Questioner: Can you tell me what bias creates their momentum toward the chosen path of service to self?

Ra: I am Ra. We can speak only in metaphor. Some love the light. Some love the darkness. It is a matter of the unique and infinitely various Creator choosing and playing among its experiences as a child upon a picnic. Some enjoy the picnic and find the sun beautiful, the food delicious, the games refreshing, and glow with the joy of creation. Some find the night delicious, their picnic being pain, difficulty, sufferings of others, and the examination of the perversities of nature. These enjoy a different picnic.

All these experiences are available. It is free will of each entity which chooses the form of play, the form of pleasure.

When I talked about this before, the example I gave before was from the dark recesses of reddit. On a reddit sub where women talk about cheating and making it as cruel as possible to their husbands to get off on it. This is a clear example of something that isn't something they are fooled into. Sex is very much a choice. I would argue. These are behaviours taken on for hedonistic pleasure. With awareness of their consequences. 

Bear in mind this kind of behaviours 'karma' in a sense, might reach into another part of their lives. Say their husband, being unsupported, had something negative happen that the woman then complains about but had she not been like this, he would have had the energy to maintain a positive life?

There are hundreds of deliberate little choices people can make which are choices. A lot of ways their own negative choices which they will never reveal would impact them negatively. To which they would then play victim. But also times when good people fall on hard times. 

This is where I put these kinds of moral decisions. There are both people that genuinely have mental health disorders (I have a best friend I knew since I was about 4 and I have seen that he was genuinely very off when he was young, none of it came along due to problems with his conscience and he was committed to therapy from an early age). There are also many whom do not, some of which convince themselves they do. For their own personal convenience. 

When you add it all up it comes to a kind of selfishness, I think. You cannot know what is going on inside someone else if you have known them for less than about a decade. So not knowing, it is hard to judge. And we do need to judge in this life I think. But for me personally, it is also good to realise that there are things that cannot be known.

Bearing in mind, the people that are lying about this kind of thing are the ones most fanatically committed to the lie. They will never admit they are making it up for their benefit. 

Thoughts on transcient material. 

I mentioned a friend I have had since I was young. I reconnected with him recently. It added to thoughts I have already built on. Since I can see how I have changed.

This is my human design chart:

When I am showing people that are new to the chart the human design. I show them that the whole thing adds up to something very intuitively correct. People with energy higher in their centres are focused on higher energy things, the same with lower energy. My father, who was sex obsessed, a very grounded person, has the five lower centres defined. 

With my chart you can see that there is a lot in the higher energy centres. Perhaps not as much as say, a mental projector. But quite high. 

This means that my energy is keyed to thinking of and discussing the kinds of concepts I discuss here. Cerebral things. 

What this comes with, what that kind of awareness also comes with. Is a need to understand free will. Since most people are not interested in such things and it would even be a violation of the law of free will in a lot of cases to tell them. 

In the positive, let's say this is a commitment, as it is with me to music, spirituality and philosophy.

To hold this energy, like I have said, requires a certain awareness of free will. It means, that if I am thinking of a dream interpretation or a quote from Nietzsche; that I do need to keep that to myself, no matter how fantastic I think that is (I do also have "censorship", 26.4, in my unconscious Saturn!)

This is the pattern of energy then. Having energy to focus on this kind of stuff, and with the Law of One. The pressure to bring in an entire paradigm that is otherwordly. Which the everyday world argues against. In a way by it's very existence. But it is all deeply positive and loving. Praying every day, meditating, and knowing that philosophy and ethics are important. Are deeply enriching to life. 

The perversion of the energy. 

But what David Wilcock did. Is he took the bones of the Law of One. But then added in a lot of 'wordly' things to add legitimacy to it. He said he had a secret insider that told him about Roswell. A secret insider that told him that soon enough, the Alliance was going to take over and we would all live in paradise. That David Wilcock alone had the science to create anti gravity hover cars etc. 

What I think this does, is it speaks to a persons desire to overcome free will. Which I think we all constantly desire. The One Infinite Creator laid down free will, and none of us have really accepted it. We all look at the world and want to reorder it in our own image. 

It converts the spiritual energy that invests in things like the Law of One and says: "Look, you do not have to be the only one paying attention to this. The only one that believes this. There is real world evidence it is going to be relevant to the real world soon. It is only fair you warn others".

It brings up in people the conversion of that spiritual energy into a kind of real world material energy that can be used as a weapon in our fight against... reality, in a sense. The world that will not let its secret be known and stubbornly insists that the way of matter is the truth. 

Maturation.

It also prevents the naturally positive and maturing aspects of the energy when it was still positive. For me, philosophy and these kinds of things are interesting. I want to be able to look at the world and understand it through a lens that adds benefit to me psychologically, spiritually etc. This, I would say, is a fairly mature instinct. 

When you are talking about David Wilcock stuff and the more mad parts of the Law of One. It does not have that maturing effect. It is essentially stuff that is not relevant to anything and can be, and perhaps needs to be, written off as crazy. It is a separate part of a persons being. 

What I have noticed as I have met up with old friends again. Is that the conversion of that David Wilcock kind of thinking, into a more philosophical kind of thinking. Means that the positive thing, cannot be dismissed in the same way. It becomes a part of your actual being and thus, it becomes solid and real. If a person liked the you that wasn't into that, they are suddenly confronted with the you that is into that. It provides change to the real world, and people might simply not be interested in that. 

There we go. Got all angsty earlier today which was why the shorter blog post earlier. But that's what I have for today.  

Gym and human design theory.

So, successes.

A few nights ago I went to the gym. I will probably have to take a break from it. My medical condition is known for not being as quick to recover. This feels bad but it is what it is. 

I am get insights from the gym. Often. Insights it does not feel I would normally have. Insights like 'so on so is jealous', when the evidence was clearly there I just didn't want to see it. I have very often mentioned that exercise gives me these kinds of insights and my theory is that, in a man, maybe in a woman too, but I can't speak for women. But in a man, stresses create a mental building block of a kind of information that allows a person to conform in a sense. So, the stress will give me a commitment to not seeing that a bunch of people don't like me as an example. That I am in a room with a bunch of people that dislikes me. This is a danger to me, perhaps not in modern times but in our ancestral past. 

Then when I do exercise. I will suddenly realise all the little signs these people did not like me. Because all the anxiety that is wrapped up in my muscles. All the adrenaline in my blood (even if this is years later) is suddenly cleared. 

Considering my background, and it is not completely pleasant. It is a bit dysfunctional. I have a medical condition that was badly controlled for years. I have a commitment to right wing politics even though I live in a very left wing area and I have been socially ostracised from pretty much every job and social group I have ever been in. Several workplaces they have arranged huge get togethers and invited everyone, (about thirty people), but me, and exclusively me. 

Human Design Theory.

This is probably why I started blogging to be honest. This is probably why I still blog. I have identified that a part of why I became so intense with that kind of information is because I was seeking a belonging in those communities to offset the constant bullying in my real life. 

I am not saying that these emotions are not the standard thing for people to experience given these experiences. But, the perceptual filter of the human design not self being anger, fits with my understanding of my mentality here. I am angry about this. And the anger, has become "layered". I got this term from Ra Uru Hu when he was talking about Projectors and the layering of their bitterness. For me, I think I have the same kind of layering, but it is not bitterness, as I am not a Projector. It is the layering of anger. 

So my way forward is the gym! Sitting at those weight machines and pushing forward to transfer that anger. Psychologically into insight, and physically into muscle. It would make sense if that, on a sociological level men experience a lot of stress from low status. That this is a good route for many men. 

The way it works for me then is that I go to the gym. I have insights into things that I am avoiding. Insights into why a person who screwed me over does justifiably deserve to be avoided, a bad thing about them when I have only seen good things. That kind of thing. But the point is to draw all the anger out of my subconscious. This is my process. 

So the process involves me feeling... More angry. More clarity at the anger I have always known is there and maybe, just maybe, I will unblock myself enough that I can actually create music again. That I will have something to sing about! 

At the moment, it might be the heat. I have been thinking of stuff to say. I have some stuff I want to say. But this subject is all I am going to talk about in this blog. As the anger is still too powerful. 

Ethics and the Law of One.

The video today:

Youtube: Melissa Dougherty: I went to a psychic fair, it was NOT what I expected. August 7th 2026.

https://youtu.be/btihYK4wWbE?si=ZK8-bRtGv5Ohz7jX

Firstly, before I go into this. I want to say that I will not, and would not, seriously engage with this woman. I feel that if I were to I would have strong ideas and would engage and debate like men do. Whereas, this is a soft creature that you do not do that with. I mean, technically writing in a blog I might bring some points in that would be confrontational. But it will be in the style of explanation and thoughts. Not opposition. 

The kind of person I would engage with seriously is someone like Ryan Gable. Who I wrote about before. I covered his Law of One video critique but I covered it barely. I have an affection for skeptics since Steven Cambian at Truthseekers, kind of singlehandedly saved me from David Wilcocks schizophrenic ramblings.

This person though, Ryan Gable, is not a good natured skeptic. He is not doing a legitimate search for truth in this area. I believe he is making bad faith and stupid arguments and I covered him very softly before. But I think I should do a more strongly opposing video. He has made certain claims in the notes I have made so far. Such as the idea that 'you have to be super high to write this stuff', which he says at 20 minutes. This was a comment I put on his video.

On the Law of One main website. They do give an explanation of that statement in session 1.0: We communicate now. We, too, have our place. We are not those of the Love [density] or of the Light [density]. We are those who are of the Law of One. This was what they wrote: The word “density” was added here to add clarity to what we believe to be Ra’s intended meaning. The fourth density is the density of love and understanding. The fifth density is the density of light. Ra is of the sixth density where love and light are unified. https://www.llresearch.org/channeling/ra-contact/1 So in the way they see things, the contact sees things. There is a very specific set of densities. Which is repeated a lot throughout the text itself. And they wanted to clarify which one they were from. Even though the statement didn't make a lot of sense when it was first heard. From my understanding I am fifth density, so my signature, if this were the way people were commonly speaking would be: "I am not of the love, I am of the light, I am not of the Law of One".

There we go. I think that is youtube formatting. I have directly referenced what he was complaining about in the Law of One. What happened? He deleted the comment. In about half an hour. Since he has proven bad will, I think that necessitates a more thorough response.  

Anyway, Melissa's video was; well, it had a female easy going style of everything just flows. She talks about talking with an 'aura reader', who is like a classic Law of One type of person. Like the people at Bring4th. Just a messy, not committing to anything kind of person. You bring up a concrete issue or problem you have, even linking it to the Law of One texts. And they. very disrespectfully, ignore you. Just won't engage.

The woman Melissa was talking to would make no commitment that there are things like objective moral rules. The interaction ended with the woman apparently accepting Melissas idea that Jesus is the answer to all these things. Which of course, she just went passive and let Melissa say whatever she wanted, so Melissa says she feels good, but the womans views are unchanged because nothing really gets her. She is totally numb and dissociated; hiding behind a commitment to mysticism and the Law of One.  

It is a very female mindset not dissimilar to a communist. Or the female judges letting criminals walk free to kill again because of some vague attachment to a sense of spiritual egalitarianism. 

I wanted to say, firstly, to praise the video a bit; then what I think of as moral rules. Or how I would answer some of these questions - moral rules and such. Also, how I would handle this 'aura reader'. And then I will move onto challenges to Melissas position. She mentioned at a points he asked the aura reader if they knew the bibles claims. 

So firstly, Melissa offered a very intelligent, in my view, deconstruction of what was wrong with the aura readers views. She makes a case that ethics are objective. If the aura reader was talking to someone doing evil things would she offer any opposition to this? The aura reader said something like everyone is on their own journey. So Melissa said... OK the Nazi's then? Were they objectively evil? They believed they were doing things that were good, at least they stated that. Are the Nazi's on their own journey? Or are they in need of moral correction? The woman offered a kind of vague non answer. 

What I would have said, is what way do you vote? We know, 100% this aura reader woman votes leftist. Then I would say, OK, so you believe we should give infinite resources to immigrants as part of the Law of One to show compassion and such and you are willing to vote, do an action in the real world, to support that? To which she would agree. I would then say that this is against the Law of One. Because it is initiating violence on the taxed native citizens. Many of which were extremely angry when they heard about USAID and recounted stories of not being able to afford their kids food. 

It is against the Law of One and evil in itself to tax said citizens. The taxed citizen is of equal worth to the migrant under the Law of One. Also, women like this are supporting an extremely violent oppressive government regime. Which they are not karmically free of, in my opinion. 

She would ignore this too of course. But this would hit more of a nerve than any of what had happened previously. They sometimes offer an "apology" at this point, for any distress the discussion caused or something like that. But what the apology is is a moral highgrounding apology. "I am sorry you feel that way" (the implication being I am sorry you were unable to accept my more enlightened point of view). I would not accept the apology and inform the woman that her offering it has caused me further offence. It is directly condescending.

Nevermind really. Escalating the conversation to a confrontation might have made a bit more of an impact, but it wouldn't have changed anything. These leftist women sometimes get raped and carry on supporting the left. Women in Sweden have been known to accuse white men because they do not want to be racist by saying a refugee raped them. 

But that is where I would go with the ethical question.

Stefan Molyneux would no doubt hate this. But I see Stefan Molyneuxs Universally Preferable Behaviour as very consistent with the Law of One. One of its first principles is that of universalism, which states that moral laws apply in every circumstance. There is more to it than that but I can't go into this for length reasons. One of the relevant principles is that moral laws are applicable to all situations. We cannot have exceptions in moral laws meaning that they apply sometimes and not others. Because if they apply some times and not others, then there is another thing that supersedes them. Likely a persons will. If their is another persons will superseding them. Then that is more important than the moral law. If it is more important than the moral law. Then the application of the moral law is one of control, not morals.

This applies to a great deal of things and it opens up the conversation to a lot of deconstruction. The government bans violence in its citizens but commits violence, as an example. God in the Old testament, bans murder, and yet he murders. 

Then I would turn on Christianity. The 'claims that the bible makes' and such as she referenced. I don't know specifically what this woman believes. But in my view, mainstream Christianity does not have a leg to stand on.

Even though I am kind of Christian, as in, Christian enough for my own definition. But not from a mainstream Christians definition. I am also critical of Christianity and have a little knowledge on these areas built from people like Aaron Abke, Paul Wallis and Bart Ehrman. 

My essential position and point on the bible is that it is extremely inconsistent. That there is good evidence of it being changed and of non canon books having more validity. That Christianity itself relies on an appeal to authority fallacy. That Christianities moral precepts involve forcing others to submit to its rules when they might not believe in God, and that a true moral system has to be secular in order to get around this issue. 

But like I said, I don't know this womans positions so do not know what conversation I would be facing in this position. 

Anyway, that's all I have for the moment!