Phase 2, Acceptance (Law of One, Understanding, Acceptance and Forgiveness).

"Sucking all into it". 

Before I begin this. I want to give an example of what I understand to be left wing politics. I have realised, now that I am writing up what I think my process for improvement is at the moment. That a great deal relies on right wing politics. I do wonder whether this "work" can be done if a person is left wing. I am not saying it can't be. But I will summarise what I think the issue is with it. 

Say you have a private school and a public school in the same area. The populace are all texed. This is a small scale example so say it is £10 a year for the public school. There is also, as I said a private school.

30 of the inhabitants send their children to private school, and the other 70 go to public school. 

The private school, as is the ideal and often the practice of the free market. Incentivices good behaviour. If there are lax teachers they are fired. If there are good ones they are promoted and their efforts go to further improving the school. 

The public school works a bit differently. What do we generally know about the public sector? Well, the public sector has received money via the initation of force and redistribution of wealth. So it really does not value meritocracy so highly. The public sector does sometimes, but often it doesn't. It's survival is not dependent on it and there are other things it considers. Such as ideology, the person that is loyal to the ideology and the group beliefs tend to do better.

But once meritocracy gets taken out like this. Also, often, the Unions are powerful in the public sector. Being left wing. This means that every corrupt people that do not produce wealth. But are good at social manipulation and playing nice with the true believers. Or being true believers. Gain positions of power. These people are also corrupt and inefficient. So the school does not do as well as the private school.

When DOGE went into USAID, a lot of public sector workers were found to not be doing anything, and were thus fired. It seems likely to em that any public sector has this effect for this reason. 

The public school and private school function differently. The private school produces results. The public school does sometimes. But other times it has entrenched corruption that leaches resources straight out of the school.

The public school starts to fail. They don't take any accountability. They don't fire the entrenched parasites. They simply don't do anything. To fix this problem they will need... more money of course.

And so taxes are raised. The taxes are now raised to £12 a year. Inflation and any other issue caused by governments is also happening. Such as money needed for war or something. That produces nothing for the populace. So the following year. 27 of the students in the town are in the private school, and 73 are in the public school.  

The next year the same thing happens. Now 24 are in the private school.

The point being is that this kind of system functions exactly like how the Law of One described the negative polarity. In one of the sessions around the displacement 68 - 71. I think 69. The negative is like a gravity well, sucking everything into it. 

Understanding. 

I am going to summarise a lot of my understandings that are political and I believe help me in this overall process. Understanding, Acceptance and Forgiveness. Summarising that about the left I think is relevant. 

It has become clear to me. It feels like. Or I have a hypothesis. Of what the process of understanding and acceptance means as a process. I have no idea of what forgiveness means yet, but will think it through at the end nevertheless. 

The general understandings I think I have worked over in my life thus far are. I think I am into acceptance a little now which I will also summarise. This is going to be a short list indeed considering how long the list could be.

A) How my illness and health has effected everything. 

Up until January 2023, I was of the general perspective that I was healthy when I was not. In fact, my health condition was extremely screwing me up. Effecting my behaviour quite a bit. Obviously this understanding was very relevant at looking over my life. (My health is far better now. Not all the way but better since I got new health tools in January 2023)

Not having a lot of successes is explained by this. When previously I didn't have a good explanation. 

B) I am a spiritual person.

The Law of One and Human Design. Also mental health information and dream interpretation. Show that I am naturally a person who focuses very much on this stuff. For a few years I was not doing a lot of this. 

C) Larger political dynamics.

Understanding things like DEI, feminism. Allows me to move about in the world with the knowledge that failure in the area of say... career. Might have other aspects to just my own personal effort. 

D) Philosophical stuff. Such as my understanding that forgiveness without contrition is not legitimate. 

E) Women stuff. 

This single picture explains so much for men:

 

A lot of young women are being passed around by the top guys and a lot of the on the ground guys are not experiencing a lot of romantic success. 

A lot of these things can explain to me why I am not doing better in the world and if I did not have them. I would be forced to introspect based on the idea there was something inherently wrong with me. I would have to investigate based on those ideas. 

Another example which is relevant and important to the acceptance bit. I have also learned that a lot of my friends and such didn't like me. A lot of workplaces, the people there have not liked me and have gone to some effort to socially exclude me. Dream interpretation, astrology, and videos on narcissism and things have all informed this.

I also, understand a little that these people are also very often leftists, and very often disturbed in the head. The left wing ideas don't just mess up larger things. Such as our ideas on violence and free will. But it goes right down to personal identity and everyday choices:

Youtube (short): TaylorisOnline0:How the left has altered the idea of identity. May 23rd 2026.

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/2VfXRsTLmMM 

Acceptance.  

Now acceptance is a different thing. I don't think it involves the process of mentalising so much in general. Or maybe even at all. 

There is a point I want to come to about forgiveness as well. I have talked a lot on other blogs about my disagreement with the idea of forgiveness without contrition. And I can stand on the shoulders of Stefan Molyneux in that conviction. I have made very good points which people simply ignore if I bring them up. 

There is a lot to accept here. In what I have summarised. 

A) A chronic illness has severely screwed up my life and quietly stolen a lot of really good things. I talked about a friend I had recently. I realised I was quite ill when I knew her and for that reason I was much reduced in my ability to share good perspective and enjoy the friendship. 

B) A lot of things here, have meant I have had a bad social life. One is the illness. Two is the left leaning ways of my former friends (and family sometimes). Three is lack of opportunity, linking but not exclusively from the illness.

C) On top of the lack of good things here, there is the presence of bad things. Such as bullying and social ostracism.  

D) The same thing with relationships. 

It is a lot to deal with. A lot to accept. For instance, I imagine if I was in a better social standing. People that I have known that one of us has broken off contact with, might not have been such an issue. If I had a girlfriend things might go more easily with my half sister. Connections with attractive women would improve many things such as that. Whether I would want said friendships or not, a lot of guys would have more to do with me if I had attractive women in my orbit. 

So one of the things that needs to be accepted here is that people are like that. That they do see me like that. 

A lot of these understandings, like political things, Q etc. Do not have anything to do with my personally. But help prevent my getting lost in unproductive ideas. Also, with the Q thing, faith.  

Acceptance is of the body. 

As I said before. I think acceptance is primarily a body thing. I think when the Law of One contact said Understanding, Acceptance and Forgiveness. They were talking about Wisdom, Love and Power respectively. 

I think there are three things that work with acceptance. A) Applying understanding. Like, if I understand that I am a spiritual person, the more I do spiritual things the more I accept that. Meditation etc. B) The gym and body work in general. By cleaning out all the adrenaline from these sorts of situations, since a lot of this stuff stays in your muscles for years. I think you accept it on a deep level. C) Therapy, like counselling. Obviously some of this is now not functioning so well due to leftism. But in a primary sense, before you add in those problems. I think therapy does help with that. Even though therapy also does the understanding. 

I feel in some way I can't articulate. Like, I can't explain WHY it is, but I feel strongly that it is. That this acceptance is a very effective revenge in some way. To hold the relevance of other peoples behaviours without flinching away from it seems to me more damaging than if we were to go out and actually find the person and screw them over. 

These people are allergic to truth and just holding a truth like that is damaging to them. Even if it is just quietly felt within. Like, how the world tries so hard to tell you you can't have your own emotions, and especially angry emotions. Which is why the forgiveness without contrition ideas exist. It wouldn't be so important to them unless it effected something in the real world. 

But like I said, exercise is the thing. I can't afford therapy but I am member of a gym. The amount of good feel I get from that can barely be described. I feel like I have been robbed sometimes after I go. Yesterday, I had written a youtube comment about how I did not like a lot of TV, including a show I have been watching. After I got home from the gym I just enjoyed it. I saw all kinds of depth in it and really enjoyed it. So I deleted that comment. It just feels good in a way I can't describe.

The Body and Forgiveness.

I wonder if this stage of the process has another function. Can we really forgive someone that is in a lot stronger position of power than us. When we are in a lower and possibly dependent position? I don't know if we can, I think, I suspect, that it is simply a situation that is too similar to a negative heirarchy.

For instance, if a woman cheats on her husband and has him over a barrel in relation to potential divorce court. From that position if she tells him to forgive, can he? I don't think someone can in this position. 

Which is why I think the animal stuff is relevant. As we get healthier bodies and are more able to be in an animalistcally strong position. So our "forgiveness" can hold weight. I wonder if this is another part of the whole "Understanding, Acceptance and Forgiveness" process?

If things did work out for me, then it would change my power relation to a lot of said people. 

And... Forgiveness.

I do not know what this actually means, I have not experienced it. It would seem to me to be hypocritical for me to talk on something I have not experienced.  

There are a few general notes here though.

One: That perhaps when the Law of One contact talks about a "process", that means that the process is a thing that does not always complete in exactly that way? For instance, if the person does not offer contrition?

Two: As I just summarised. Could the process be stopped at acceptance if I do not get into a powerful enough position in an animalistic sense that such people would condescend to interact with me?

Three: I don't know if the Law of One contact was explaining this as the end of the spiritual process because Carla was very Christian. But if more questioning would have given more answers here? 

Four: Like I said, I would need to experience something to be able to understand and describe it.  

Anyway, those are my general thoughts on the subject.  

The Significator in real life.

 

The Significator as put forward by the Law of One.

This is one of the twenty two arcana which the Law of One focused on towards the end of the sessions. In the Law of One, archetypes are kind of like the structure of the universe. There is one singular arcana called the fool. Then there are seven of the mind, seven for the body, and seven for the spirit. 

The seven of the mind, body and spirit are: Matrix, Potentiator, Catalyst, Experience, Significator, Transformation and the Great Way. 

It is talked about, that at an earlier time in our existence. When humans were god like with the ability to perform miracles with ease. This was because we had complete access to our subconscious minds. That their were only nine archetypes in existence. The Matrix, Potentiator and Significator of the Mind, body and spirit.

So I will put a hypothesis quickly as to why that is. In the Edenic conditions of ultimate power. People had their conscious mind, their subconscious mind, and what the Significator is... Which is our 'answer', our "raison d'etre". Obviously, this being a very deep thing considering the source. Reason for being doesn't quite capture it but it will do. It is not completely personal in a sense. 

After the veil went up between the conscious and subconscious minds. It changed our emotional relationship with 'reality'. Everything become more complex. With multiple pieces that sometimes worked together. There were also new archetypes. The conscous mind, lead to the subconscious mind, lead to the female side of the unconscious mind, then the male side. Then the significator. The transoformation, for the mind, was that once we are on our path. We need to be very careful about how we then relate to our subconscious. Imagine it like a philosopher, musician, a priest. Has to carefully relate to their subconscious mind to continue producing material. 

Real life.

Now I want to bring a bit of real life to the conversation. How I think it works in real life. And likely, how it has related to me in real life:

Youtube: T Red: Misandrists Are Furious Men Won't Date Them: May 20th 2026.

https://youtu.be/_dwS5JZ9JkA?si=o_bjbgriKP9mECa-

This is a very interesting video. I love it when you get women upset, but then you go back to their earlier videos and the behaviour that lead to it. Which is often unethical and obvious. Is clearly talked about. 

But the point I wanted to bring up was the one closest to the end. When women say that they didn't like a guy because he is boring. He did everything right on the date. But he was boring. 

To some extent, it seems a lot of the world is so messed up that nothing is going to sort it out (As the world also includes things like inflation, politics, many different things!). The reason that some men are boring, is because they work all the time. So they have the money that women are looking for. But it is often the unemployed guy that has had the time to develop the humour and personality that girls like. 

But there is also a polarity side to it potentially. To the people who have not done a lot of inner work. And it is talked about in that Significator card. Sometimes the girl likes the drug dealer, and turns down the guy who is normal. Not boring. But just not criminally insane. 

In the card above, you can see that the princely figure has his left arm on a sword that is stabbing a white figure, and his right arm holding a ball. There is a figure in black   

The Significator.

The reason this is, is because it is often negative catalyst that brings out the positive side of us and vica versa. This is the reason I think that people see a "boring" life, such that the Law of One would encourage. As boring. But in fact, it is not seen like that for people very positively polarised. The devout life. With simplistic tasks appreciated. With an emphasis on serving others. Rather than drugs and craziness. Is the more service to others way. 

I don't know this for sure. But I suspect that, the reason this is on the Significator card. Is that once you have your answer. Your reason. Then it allows you to counteract this absolutely crazy and dysfunctional way of being. 

Thinking about Christianity. Which is many peoples "reason for being". It has things such as having appreciation for everything. Which allows you to live in a simpler life. Things such as prayer and meditation. 

The entire structure of Christianity and the family in general. Has the effect of counteracting this tendency. For instance, if a woman has a father and brother nearby, they will not likely be encouraging her to date the drug dealer. 

Free will.

I also wonder slightly whether the significator has something to do with free will. I recall when I got my first job. I was very much outnumbered in that place. I had the medical condition that I have mentioned. And it was not at all clear to me how damaging it was to me. I had friends at the time that in retrospect, didn't like me. And I was deliberately socially ostracised from the social life at that job. It is amazing now I think of it. Day after day I would go there and I was constantly social at that age. Never did I see any of them outside work and this was very deliberate. They were all hanging out together. 

In a way, as I have learned through dream interpretation. When enough people are against you, you kind of subconsciously calculate that you can't oppose them. You can't see things so easily. This is one of the things that starts to undo itself when I have gone to the gym and done weights. It is easier to see that kind of negativity with blood flow, increased strength etc. To clean all that adrenaline out of your muscles. 

Understanding, then acceptance. Understanding the bullying and information control and such. Then acceptance. I am in the acceptance phase now as my body adapts to this. As the adrenaline from such things is cleaned out of my system. 

But the point is, while I was there. I had not obviously had the family upbringing to give me context for this. So I was kind of like... it felt like I had no free will in a sense. Information was kept from me. It was not obvious to me everyone was socialising and I was not aware of it. (I became aware of it 12 years later when Jupiter returned to the same position and I had the same experience again!)

I was only operating in the careful reality I was presented with. Because people were playing mind games in a sense. And I recall the feeling of having no free will. Being walked through school. Reading fiction all the time. Then getting a job. Just kind of going from one thing to the next without having any internal awareness. Any internal push to be able to actually navigate the world.

But then also, the Law of One was there. In my mind, this is what seemed to have given me those things. 

It feels like that is my Significator and when I looked at it I became more aware. More able to navigate the world. 

This may fit in with Stefan Molyneux's definition of Free Will. "Free will is our ability to compare proposed actions to ideal standards". When I found the Law of One. I had more ideal standards. Service to others and such. 

And with a society which is more strongly Christian, and is more strongly philosophical in sane ways. Then the significator and free will would be far more easy to access.  

The tragedy of beauty.

I thought yesterday, after writing that long blog that took a lot of energy. (I went straight to bed after that). That I would not be writing one for a while. 

But technically, since I have stopped going on X. I still have the energy of wanting to express myself but I have reduced my ability to do that. So perhaps I will be posting more. Like I said as well, since I have stopped twitter my "inflow" has been different. Inflow is a huge element in writing something like this. When I was still listening to Stefan Molyneux, I found it easier to write. His show makes it easier to think in a sense as he lights up your brain. Now I have stopped X and am listening to more youtube videos. So I have shifted a little more to more personal subjects.

I wanted to talk about this video:

Youtube: Gracie Draskovich: pretty women live in a completely different reality: May 22nd 2026

https://youtu.be/wMFNj5mufyI?si=dqXa3DrIn_u2c1HP

I really think this girl "gets it". She has a lot of videos on her channel about being selfish and such, one of them entitled "start being mean". I think women like this do have to do a lot to protect themselves and have to emotionally justify that.  

Screwed upness of life. 

I wanted to know if my half sister was put under any of these pressures. I wanted to know if she was hot or not so I said to her in an email, since I cannot perceive that myself, being her brother (yes, that is a little extreme, but it was the truth at the time. I could not look at her and know how attractive she was, and I have schizophrenic tendencies, I am a little weird) Can you tell me roughly how attractive you are?

She wrote back saying that she felt I had crossed a boundary by asking that question, and that was the end of the relationship I was trying to grow with her. This was the last of a very long line of disrespect from her. 

I think I have a better idea now because I had a dream with her in (not sexual of course), where that subconscious block was potentially cleared.  

Anyway, on the video. I just wanted to talk about this because it has had an impact on my life. I am not a beautiful woman. When I was younger though. I was attractive in a way that lead to strange behaviours from women. Including several years of a kind of stalking. (More like harassment, the girl didn't want me but wanted to harass me into chasing her. Disturbed woman!) At the time it put me under so much stress I stopped putting effort into my appearance. I stopped gelling my hair and such and I never got back into it.

I do want a little of that energy back now though. (And the hair too!)

"Look on down from the bridge".

But I had a close friend, I might have mentioned a few times here. Who had been very attractive when she was younger. She had kind of aged out to the extent that is relevant for children. But I noticed that other women would get stressed around her because I am big on reading body language. I used to like that. She looked almost exactly like Victoria Pfeiffer. 

She was one of the most lost people I have ever met in my life. Some of the stories she told me were morally disgusting. It had appeared she had kind of floated through life as this kind of ghost and people had treated her badly on her journey. 

She told me how she had gone around the house of a couple she had known and while his girlfriend was in the other room. The guy in the couple had made a pass at her. She had also had other men behave strangely. Throwing away absolutely everything, badly threatening her friendships, in order to get some of her "company". 

She had also had the normal things with women that had undermined her. One of which had thought she had made a pass at her boyfriend and turned an entire workplace against her. Without ever confronting her on it. 

The woman was like a confused, ghostly, wraith. The vulnerability was intense even from the perspective of a female baseline. You could see her across the room and think "That is an extremely vulnerable person". I feel I should also mention in fairness she did crappy things to others at various times. But she seemed unable to understand the situation she was living in, and unable to gain any clarity on her world. 

The suffering was intense in a way I can't even describe. A big part of it I think is that men simply would not be direct and honest with her. A person cannot live in a hall of lies for that long without coming to strange conclusions about life. 

My friendship with her ended a couple of months before she killed herself. 

I am still processing that. I want a clear direction of how this 'catalyst' is meant to improve my life in the longer term like the Law of One teaches. I also feel blocked in life in general. I am having insights and attempting to use them. 

I did a tarot reading on myself recently that stressed the need for personal care and healing. I had thought the tarot was telling me that tarot is not a useful modality for me personally, because it seemed kind of like irrelevant information. But I don't know. Now that I have directly looked into this wound I can kind of see how it might be relevant. 

There is more I have to say. I think it might be relevant and profound. But I don't feel able to say it.

Serenity in any coming chaos.

This is going to be a long article. It started off as two, but I realise the concepts link to each other. I hope to express something quite profound. A deep, relevant understanding. I am going for quality over quantity in this one. I hope to write a long article today and perhaps not write another one for a short while. One good article rather than a lot of general thoughts. 

First a song, I am going to plug a few lyrics into this song in a little bit:

Youtube: Jenny Jih: Stars - Calendar Girl (w/ lyrics). Feb 5th 2013

https://youtu.be/-R8fcMTGLtM?si=emT0YV_QzaPCZEsp

But this is actually the video that starts the conversation. That song is literally just a song:

Youtube: Kaylen Marissa: Humanity is going Extinct. May 3rd 2026 

https://youtu.be/-ZsrPwuJZwE?si=3MD1Rf-DRkc4dDJn

Coming away from twitter, that I have mentioned in one of the recent blogs. There is a sudden gap in my routine. When I eat I don't log onto twitter. When I watch TV I don't have it open in another tab (I have two screens).

A lot of people are just posting their thoughts on youtube like this. In a very casual style. It is kind of nice. A lot of videos like this one of people just talking on their perspectives. 

One of the things that is relevant here I think, is that, this girls status is so much higher than mine. It boggles the mind in a sense. Society has taken the natural beauty and sweetness of a young girl and added a whole lot more to them. Via DEI and a general cultural conviction to never hold women accountable. Also, the trashing of mens status in general, and a decline in the economy meaning men cannot prove themselves. 

This is relevant to 'the great work' I think. This is my astrology chart:

Normally I get rid of any information that would show my age. But I can't really do that with an astrology chart. Even a low level skilled astrologer could get my birthdate down to about an hour if they wanted from this.

The point here, is that my goal is generally to unblock my musical ability. Along with various things such as being loyal to the Law of One and working on health issues. Mental health is another issue. 

I think my chart is interesting, but I will not talk about it. Not enough time here. The relevant aspect here I want to talk about is the Venus inconjunct Neptune. 

An inconjunct is an interesting aspect. Its shadow side has been very relevant to "psychosis" that I have previously experienced. That psychosis was an unbelievably strong sense that a certain woman. It was two at different times. Was a soul mate and every thing that happened that pushed it away from happening. It arrived with unbelievably strong feelings. 

Venus Neptune connections are to do with the idealisation of beauty and/ or femininity. With an inconjunct though. Whatever energy the two planets are expressing needs to be expressed indirectly. Not directly. 

What does that mean? It means that a healthy way to use that energy. Is to express it through music. But not to believe it or really feel it on a deeper level. 

Since this energy remains in my system if it is not used properly. I have the choice of using it like this. Or using it in another way, of idealisation or demonisation. I am perhaps one of those classic schizophrenics that I have heard Jordan Peterson talk about, who has to create or they go mad. 

My experiences with women. When I index the library of such experiences. Outside of family. Is uniformly not really that good. Nothing to build on. But trying to get that sense of positivity back can be partially done through these kinds of things. To lead back to music. 

The deeper pattern. 

A bit of a song I made to the pattern above. To the song structure of the first video. I do make my own songs. Which I feel to be profound when I get back to them. Something I truly value. But I sometimes plug my own lyrics into another song structure.

I will list two verses and the meaning behind them. One was that I had absorbed, without meaning to. A lot of David Wilcocks explanation of what the higher forces are about and the right way to be. 

David used to talk about the Dream voice. He used to say that when you go to sleep. You can capture what stray thoughts are at that time as a kind of prequel to channeling. 

I realised though, that I should really be using that for something I care about. I used to note down stray thoughts along those same lines. As "guidance". But I've realised I am not trying to channel. I have enough guidance and my perspective is more about appreciating the simple things in many ways. I don't need some amazing voice in the sky. But I do care about music. So I should be only noting the musical ideas that come out of the "Dream voice". I should be training myself to notice that.

Which lead to this set of lyrics about David (Again I will mention, to the structure of the song at the beginning):

I listen to your words. I took it all on. 

I heard it until I forgot my own song.

That was because your words, lost the meaning they had,

and it left you so endlessly sad. 

A few verses later, this is the one I had about the second video:

She's looking for colour, it's turning to grey,

It is the warmth that has flown away.

To be a mother, to hold a small hand in her hand,

But the game, she does not, understand

Meanings.

I wanted to talk a little on the meaning of the second verse I have written here. The first three lines are obvious. But the last line. It sounds like it could be condescending. I want to describe what I mean.  

Women live in a different world to guys. Having inherent status is a whole other game. If you see a guy talking about something on youtube. It is usually deeply analysed. A lot has gone into it. 

This is not less so the case with women. The same amount of energy and thought might have gone into something. But not analysis. It is scientifically proven that in every single country. Men follow politics more closely than women. 

"The Game" that I am talking about. Is all the manipulation in the mainstream society. How for women, as Pearl Davis talks about. Even going in a truth direction, can start to move against you.

This girl will probably be fine because she is very attractive. Like, very. Probably close to the top. 

I have a block. I am way more reticient to explain my perspective here than I was when I drafted this in my mind. So on to the next thing. 

Relief. 

When I saw this guy. I felt an incredible sense of relief. Someone was talking in the basic paradigm that I understand to be true. He talks about meeting other people that are like that. I have felt England to be as a whole, so brainwashed at times:

Youtube: Marks Cosmic Adventures: It's Getting Weirder Isn't It? Monitor Demons Everywhere... May 15th 2026:

https://youtu.be/iYdlqFfJ1zw?si=57360TQtF6qjo42M

The reason I am bringing this guy up. Is not at all to actually talk about anything specific he is saying in this video. But I just want it acknowledged that this paradigm exists. One where spirituality, politics, and ideas such as new age metaphysical theories and extra terrestrials, are all linked. 

It comes down to what I think might be the point of my life at the moment, in the technical, not larger sense. 

At the moment I am reading the Law of One and I have learned several things in just a few weeks. 

One, by stopping prayer briefly I learned that prayer is indeed very important.

Two, I tried Keto and realised it is definitely not compatible with my health. 

Three, I decided to stop drinking any alcohol. I never drunk much. 

Four, Another issue with medication and health in general. 

While going through the Law of One book V it has prompted each of these. A) The book talked about Carla getting offered LSD while I was being offered alcohol B) The points on negative greeting that I talked about in recent blogs. C) A point on exercise the relates to point 4. 

The point.

What I want to talk about though. Is assuming this Q type of paradigm is correct. Things are going to work out in a certain way of the population becoming more and more aware of a very unusual paradigm they are living with. Of technology, and extra terrestrials etc. 

In my view, what has happened since about 2020, is that a lot of the really negative things have been taken out of the background of society. Since then, in a lot of very subtle ways. A lot of people are being given the opportunity to relax and strengthen before the coming tasks. A lot of people are not working due to a broken economy. A lot more thinking is being allowed to happen. 

I have this theory that the black magick was reducing the positive spirits abilities to guide us on a personal level. 

The point being is at this moment. To repeat myself. People are relaxing and learning their lessons. In preparation for the coming change.

For me, I think I know what that looks like. As I have grown closer to the Law of One. As I have started to get it recently. With prayer, meditation, reading the Law of One book and such. Is that I have legitimately started to come off of "transcient" subject as the Law of One advises. To really emotionally understand that. To feel it. 

When whatever is revealed is revealed. With all it's horrifying weirdness. All the sense of betrayal humanity feels. Hopefully. I will have the personal strength to be able to tune out of it. I can be an island of serenity as people, that have never been introduced to this previously, can process all of this stuff.

Conclusion.

At the end of all that I'm not sure it was that much of an interesting point. But it's what I had to say for the moment.   

Improving the body.

I wrote my post yesterday, truly believing I had a simple solution to improve my life/ health. "Do more exercise". And that doing that would absorb my energy and I might not be posting here. I am stuck home today. Not able to do exercise due to health reasons. It is obviously more complicated. 

Yet here I am:

This Pearl Davis tweet is not about her usual subject matter. It is her explanation of a long term effort to lose weight and what she has learned.

She knows more about it than me. One of the things that people that lose weight say a lot is that if you lose it quickly. You also get it back quickly. I have lost it quickly previously. When she posted this I was getting results and thought I knew better. But I have, in fact, gained more back. 

She stated that she gained 2 million followers on youtube and ran marathons, and both of those things were not as hard as losing weight. I think somewhere along the lines of 45 lb's. 

The thing that I want to emphasize here. Is not her specific advice. Even though parts of it are definitely good and relevant to me. The point is, is that this is the amount of care and attention that is needed to improve health outcomes.

One of the things she says is that you need time to move these habits into your life. A person needs six months to focus on one specific thing. What the nutritionists and personal trainers do is that they overload people with all these things at once, and then the person tries it for a while but falls out with it.

There are many things she has said here that I will not need to do, and many areas I need to put effort into which she has not mentioned. (Pearl does a lot of exercise so didn't mention that!) But the point of looking at it all carefully and slowly integrating changes into a persons life I think is a good idea.  

Fogginess.

Not much to say. Just a quick check in for a few reasons. 

A) I am not going on twitter anymore. Elon has stated that he is starting to do a rate limit process. Where users who are unpaid can post twice an hour. I had not understood how much going on twitter effected me. I would often go on all day. I would be on it all day from when I woke up to when I went to bed at night.

But if Elon is putting in rate limits. He basically doesn't want me there. The Law of One is quite clear that on the service to others path you either offer service or withdraw if no service is requested. 

The amazing thing for me though is that I didn't realise how much of my cerebral energy was going there. There are a lot of highly intelligent comments on X. A lot of highly complex. Political, scientific, philosophical, or just all around deep posts.

When I am not on twitter. I find that I have more of that cerebral energy. I find that when I wake up in the morning, I can go on philosophy youtubes. Which is something I really like and was not able to make myself do previously. Might in the long term improve my output here. I am also reading slightly more. 

B) My health struggles are not yet fixed. I thought they would be fixed. But it doesn't look like they are yet. I also have a new complication. Gaining weight has thrown up an issue for me as a type 1 diabetic. My insulin rates are set. But there is a huge difference in insulin requirement between resting and active now I have gained weight. There is also other strange things. Such as that my body has a craving to supply sugar to all of itself but seems to only have the appetite to supply a thinner version of myself. There is definitely a tension there and I have a theory that there is in fact a natural inborn mechanism to try and get back to a healthy weight. Even if a lot of people don't have an experience of this. 

Put simply. Really simply. These are interesting insights I think. I have a lot of insight into metabolism and such being a diabetic and this might, given enough time, provide insight into how the body works in general that can inform others trying to lose weight. But simply put at the moment. I am kind of compelled into exercise. I am going to do low insulin and cover the shortfall with exercise. I need to modify my life to accomodate this, and will probably have experiences in exhaustion and such.

This is all a bit stressful and weird so I am not focusing on writing the blog. As in, I am literally not focusing. Not deciding not to focus. Not feeling clear enough to write. 

I have been having my normal profound thoughts. Reading in these areas and such. Reading the Law of One. But at the moment because of all this health stuff I am just completely lacking clarity.  

Book V. Second blog post.

So, continued thoughts here then. Following on that Law of One section I quoted yesterday:

The work that was perforce mine during this time of psychic greeting
was, as Jim pointed out, very helpful in focusing my will and attention. I
remember feeling tremendously uplifted and held in safe hands through all of the
episodes. The key was the surrender to seeing one’s own dark side. I think Dion
Fortune’s description of how to deal with a vampiric entity, in that case a wolf,
still to be the most direct example of the understanding needed to move through
such times. This wise soul had a wolf appearing at her bed, during training in
white western ritual magic. The solution was to draw the wolf directly into the
breast, loving it and accepting it as self. Against fearless love, the powers of
negation and death are helpless, and melt away.

I think those of Ra were very careful of our group, compared to some sources,
who did not show much concern that they were wearing the instrument out.
Advice such as was given for me could well apply to anyone who must husband
one’s energy 

Wolves are lovely. My last dog was a wolf. 

What strikes me here is how I am quite sure this is not my preferred attitude to handling negativity in general. 

We know that Jim, the Power person and sixth density Wanderer. His perspective was perhaps one of increasing power. If the entity shows you a weakness, then you can appreciate that. It improves you. Carla's here, the Love person and sixth density Wanderer. Sees it as an opportunity to Love. In a way that I find reflexively disgusting. You do not let the predator into your space. 

What of the attitude of Wisdom? 

I have found through trial and error that sending love in any form to people. Having that as a solution to outward problems. Doesn't seem to work for me. I prayed once upon a time unsolicited for people. After I discovered that in the Law of One they advised to send love to the fifth density negative entity. I figure there is no problem with sending energy and free will. Thinking back on past women and desire for them is an energy that I can't do much with. But I can transfer that sometimes to some version of 'They are the One Infinite Creator'. 

It's a question without an answer yet. But I wonder if Wisdom has a different response to this? I remember there was one session where Don was asking the contact if there was anything he could do to improve the fifth density negatives experience. I recall something of the answer which was "Service is only possible to the extent it is requested". 

Perhaps there was confusion here because it is wisdom that needs to be immediately applied to the real world? If you say you love someone you have to immediately do things for them? That wisdom has no preference for feelings like that that are "unmanifested"?

For that reason, perhaps the Wisdom attitude to... "Negative Greeting". Is along the lines of something else? Withdrawal? Ignoring an input as irrelevant?

Perhaps not. But I thought it is an interesting idea to explore.