Compromise or no compromise. Human Design.

I had an argument with a friend recently. It has lead to certain insights I believe. The friend seems to have bowed out. Said his phone was broken five days ago. But I did all the research for it. I am going to drop that here but also, I have had larger insights to make this blog relevant. Whereas before the information was just part of a debate. Now I have also had insights that links it in with the human design chart, and reflections on my life as a Manifestor. I have a very short excerpt of a video that talks about how Generators can really 'know thyself'. That Projectors are 'Super lost' and Manifestors are 'not really interested in themselves'. They are outwardly focused. I will link this very profound point back after the discussion of politics of this blog:

Political discussion.

The conversation I was having with someone was two fold. One point was that this other person said that X is a right wing brainwashing platform. In discussing this I was kind of 'defending' the idea that it wasn't. And I said that it is fine even if there are a lot of right wing people on X because the right are generally more open minded than the left. I find that they are less uniform. The right is downstream of a 4Chan kind of culture. You get a lot of atheist/ skeptic types that are just skeptical of everything on X. 

I will perhaps come back to this study at the end of the blog. I was not able to access this article from the UK. There was another one this was the case for. The Orwellian thought police in the UK seem to me to be censoring evidence that left wing thought is flawed. But luckily today, we have AI, which can give summaries and sources for this kind of thing.

But I wanted to also write about this general theme. The general theme of the psychology of the left and right. With various articles to justify these positions. 

The first two articles are not just to show the closed mindedness of the left though. They are to lay a foundation for something that is an important aspect of the discussion. Namely, that the left has a large amount of control of academia. To the extent that truly incorrect propositions can be considered correct by these institutions, can escape the peer review and whatever else, because they agree with the lefts perspective. 

The first point is this. It would be very tempting to use the perfectly formed wording of Grok, which I have used to question and understand these studies. But I will not do so. I will simply link them here and summarise them and anyone can go on AI for more information:

Psychological Science: Political Diversity in Social and Personality Psychology: Yoel Inbar, Joris Lammers. Accessed today 1st of October 2026.

Substack: CSPI Centre: Academic Freedom in Crisis: Punishment, Political Discrimination and Self Censorship. Eric Kaufmann. Access today, 1st of October 2026.

So the left, open minded as they are. Very strongly discriminate against Conservatives in academia. And because of this, they tend to look at any information coming out of academia and discriminate against it based on that idea.

Another idea I saw put forward, on a blog with a paywall, is that the left leaning psychologists will tend to assign right wing beliefs to madness:

https://x.com/SteveStuWill/status/2097716668491338225

 

This is something I think is a good idea to generally consider. Do the left think that they are superior to the extent that idea that oppose them have to be dismissed as madness? I have had this sensation a good few times. That if people learn you have right wing ideas they dismiss other things you have to say as well. 

Anyway, onto my next study. This one is an absolute cultural doozie. This one is specifically blocked in the UK as well. It is against some sort of European Law when searched on Google. So I only have an article on it told after the fact:

LifeSiteNews: Study Authors Retract, It turns out Conservatives are not Psychotic, (Liberals are). Accessed today, 1st of October 2026.

In 2010 a study was released that showed, academically apparently, that Conservatives were in general, all around worse people than liberals. The study was a twin study of 5748 pairs of twins. It found that Conservatives have a higher P score that had lower empathy, higher sensation seeking, hostile, dogmatism and that their political views were held as a coping mechanism. 

The liberal media LOVED this, absolutely loved this. It was broadcast constantly. Bear in mind, that this study had passed peer review. And the people writing it had seen this coverage. 

In 2016, the study authors made an important clarification. There had been a problem with the study and it had been incorrectly tagged. It was in fact Liberals that had the P Score and showed all these tendencies. 

So what does this prove? I think, it proves, even more surely than the study itself. That liberals do have these negative characteristics. Because the study authors were obviously afraid of tagging the study properly. 

There is more to say here. I could go more into the study that I talked about. Another study that showed that narcissistic and psychopathic individuals are attracted to political activism. Or the work of Jonathan Haidt and his moral foundations theory exploring the differences between Liberals and Conservative. 

The reason though I had brought up this issue with academia is that poorly designed studies designed to show that say... X is a right wing brainwashing centre. Can be given a certain skepticism. It doesn't look good so far for the argument that the left are good, open- minded people.  

Self awareness.

Youtube: Talis, Human Design Guide: The Life of a Splenic Manifestor Mother: February 10th 2026. Access today 1st of October 2026.

https://youtu.be/MCZT9VXK330?si=DrMRyB-aPoiUnYk-

I live a very strange life in a sense. I am a splenic Manifestor. One thing I cannot do which I observe that Generators do in fact do. Is that I cannot have a schedule. To get to the gym. I cannot plan everything out. 

I am afraid that if I do not make a proper schedule then I won't go to the gym. Many days, due to unpredictable health concerns, I cannot go to the gym. But letting go of that control. One day I will go through the day and when the time comes I feel like my body forces me to the gym. I don't get any reluctance to go like a lot of people describe. I have never not wanted to go. 

It does require having faith that I will want to go in that way. Just on impulse. But I am now going to the gym semi regularly. 

Anyway, I do have some things to say on this entire video. But, I won't go into the Splenic Manifestor process right now. It was not me that was asked by a Splenic Manifestor mother how to handle life. 

But he said something around 13:20 that I thought was interesting:

"Especially if you are not a Generator who can actually know thyself you know. Projector, you're super lost. Manifestor, you're not really interested in yourself. You're just looking out what impact do you have".

This is pure original human design theory. This was not, as far as I know, an original thought from this guy. The idea is that Generators are able to have self knowledge whereas, non sacral types are not. At least Manifestors are definitely not. Projectors I am not sure on. 

It is an interesting idea for two reasons. One, it has lead me to wonder about something about my own life that I will mention. Also, I will start thinking over how the Generator design works. 

The Manifestor life.

I would say, that on the surface at least. It does look like I have been doing a lot of 'inner work'. A lot of these blogs are an insight of some description. And even this blog itself is a reflection on something internal... "My life as a Manifestor". I have researched mental health after a schizophrenic break in 2014.

But the deeper levels of 'internal work' have never been relevant to me. I have never found any particular relevance to any childhood thing. Also, I have no social problems with others despite being a hermit. At least no lack of confidence or anything like that.

The problems I do have are all anxiety linked, and I think they are handled by the gym. There is nothing deeper I need to do than the gym. For instance, about six months ago, I noticed a young girl (early twenties) was following me a lot on X and responding to me. I messaged her and what I said was just overcomplex and bizarre, as other messages of mine have been (I did not consciously think or feel I just wanted to sleep with her, maybe that was it I don't know). This is a consistent issue. But I know what this is. It is simply the effect of my medical condition, long term, on my physiology. Things I am very angry about can be melted at the gym and doing weights. The physiological change is fantastic, and I know that is the way to solve life at the moment. 

It is something I reflected on when I suddenly had an insight today. I have wanted to get to see a therapist at some point. But... Do I need one? I do not think I do. And a lot of the 'imperfections' I have thought I needed to see one for are perhaps not what I thought they were on closer evaluation. 

Because, and this is the part where I get to my life not being about 'knowing thyself'. I am suddenly starting to reflect on the issues I have. I do not see a lot of people yes. I am a bit of a hermit. But when I look out at these disagreements. Are they due to an internal fault?

In my life, I know exclusively Generator types (That is, Generators and Generator Manifestors). Of close friends and family, I know zero Manifestors and even going larger than that Manifestors are very thin on the ground. I had a roommate at Uni I got on with who was a Manifestor. Projectors are almost completely missing as well. My Granny whom I spent a lot of time in my formative years was a Projector. But I have never had a Manifestor friend or any of my family that I know well. 

So it is just Generators I know. These are also, exclusively leftist. I was going to say "almost" exclusively. But it is not "almost". I don't know, and have never known, any right wing people. 

Leftism, I believe, is also not very self reflective in general. When I was left wing and was trying to do 'internal work'. Nothing came. But after I found Stefan Molyneux and the right, I started to become more aware.

Leftism and self reflection. 

One of the features of ideology in general is that it reflects into every part of a persons life. I remember Stefan Molyneux talking about this. That he had never met a scientist that was a scientist but who believed science was misleading and useless. He had always found that people kind of evangelise their life choices. It is as though we have to be consistent with ourselves. 

This is something I found in the aforementioned discussion and I think has been touched upon in the previous articles. If people align with a certain political faction. They take on, or perhaps already had, the personality features of those politics. Halfway through the debate with the friend I mentioned. I took advice from someone in my life and tried to end the discussion. This other person then wrote to me saying that I should not have been so stupid as to have assumed that the research said the thing I wanted to see. This enraged me. But it fits with a left wing worldview. Anything that does not agree with their worldview is dismissed as crazy in some fashion. He assumed I was making up my ideas and they had no research behind them because it was simply what he emotionally preferred.

The reason I am starting with that as a basis, is that I think this also reflects into other areas of left wing life. The right wing basis of thought is that we try and get the system, the trading and capitalist system. To work in our favour and there is a belief that it is the best system. As Ayn Rand would point out. Trade is voluntary. The way the right think is to create a system where people at the bottom, or people at the top, who are "sinners", are handled either by the free market or the justice system. The right understands that people at any level can be either saintly or corrupt. 

The left though, believe that the poor (or whatever constitutes a minority), or "oppressed", are perfect. That they should be given money with no strings attached. That the "rich" are sinners regardless of any other extenuating factor. It does not matter WHY a person is rich. Only that, because they are, this fact in itself allows the leftist to point a gun at them to "redistribute their wealth"... "Tax the rich" as the left like to say. The rich, even if they were born into it. Are sinful for their very existence. 

There is also endless excuses and no need for accountability for anyone lower on the ladder. People commit crime because they are poor. Evidence does not support this. But this is what the left insists on. No one that is poor has a chance in life because the rich have taken so much of the wealth that no one else has a chance. Marxism, to its most fundamental level. The work of Karl Marx. Believes a violent revolution is necessary to bring about a Communist Utopia. 

Real world results. 

This sets up a certain way of viewing the world. To the leftist. Nothing that is a problem in the world are due to their own behaviour. Everything is due to the environment. Which means, furthermore, that leftists are not self reflective. Despite the fact, as talked about earlier in the study. On average they have worse personality characteristics than the right. 

This means that if someone is in contact with a leftist, and it does not go well. That leftist will not take accountability. Nothing will ever be the leftists fault. So if someone interacts with them who is self reflective. Then the pressure to change or improve will be on the non leftist. And that person will either be pressured, or pressure themselves. To repeatedly accommodate the leftist.

This is a common theme very often. When one person refuses to compromise and the other person is reflective and capable of compromise. Then the one capable of compromise will just be made to make deeper and deeper compromises.

It reminds me of my attempted interaction with my half sister. I felt from the beginning that I had made a lot of effort to keep the relationship going. When we were young I had gotten her presents every birthday and Christmas and she had never returned that affection. Also, she had cancelled on me a whole bunch of times. This was the kind of connection it had been.

But I messaged her. Emailed and such. And then the pressure was on me to make concessions. We met up, I asked when we should meet up again. She gave a date. She was not in the country for that date. We agreed it should be phone calls. She decided it should not be phone calls it should be messages. Then she said only messages. Then she didn't reply to messages. And later, even trawled through a 12 paragraph message I had sent her to find the one thing she was insulted by.

She doesn't like me. Plain and simple. The debt that I felt in our relationship thus far with the presents, was never going to be acknowledged. At each stage, I was making small compromises. 

It's a good example. Because nothing that I could do. No effort to analyse anything or change myself would do anything. I mean, maybe it would. I am sure if I attained celebrity and money tomorrow she would message me immediately. I would prefer not to believe that. It would be preferable for me to believe that she still would not contact me because at least that would be honourable. But I do believe that. 

The Manifestor and Generator process. 

So what I am kind of saying here about the Manifestor process. My natural process might not be to be too self reflective. What are my goals? Get lean and ripped. Play great music. Study philosophy and the Law of One. Those are my real goals. Women are too confusing a goal to pursue, and I am not in a good enough position. All my goals only involve me. All goals that would appreciably increase my power, love of life, and are things I have not experienced previously.

If my ideal self is not self reflective. Then the 'not self' in the current society. Would push me to be self reflective in a kind of therapy and self change way. To make up for people that are not self reflective, and do not intend to change. 

So from that perspective. I do not need therapy. I just need to forget the very many bad social situations I have had. 

On Generators though. Why are they able to 'know themselves'? I don't know. But my first thought is that the things that they need to 'get over'. The things they need to go to therapy for. Are all the ways that their sacral centre has conformed to group norms in order not to be lonely. In order to succeed and live like the sacral centre desires. But perhaps it is deeper than that.  

Thoughts on the negative polarity.

Wisdom I have gained. That I suppose I didn't really seek in the strict definition of the word. I read the first few sessions of the Law of One. Some of which I may make the commitment to never read again. 

If you can take enough notes from the small positive comments in the first sessions. Then perhaps I simply don't need to re read the first few sessions of the Law of One. All those questions about the ways that the Orion group operate and all that. 

But anyway, here are my insights that I gained recently from these sorts of sources. And from a few coincidental X posts and things. 

Firstly, thoughts on "transcient" material and mental health.

Years and years ago I heard the term 'transcient' from the Law of One, and I did not understand on a deep level what precise aspect of this kind of material it was that was so negative. That has a negative effect on the person reading it. 

But now I have looked at philosophy a fair bit, I do understand, I believe. I believe that mental health is best served by having things that we believe, that we can trace back in our minds. This can be from either objective or subjective sources. So, the difference between masculinity and femininity. We can trace these back through things we observe every day. Men are stronger than women, as an example. But also through things like evolutionary psychology. An even better basis would be a logical theory that makes sense.

If we doubt a thing, and it is good to doubt. We can go back and find it's first principle of some description. Obviously if this is successful and has lead to rules that are positive and truthful. We can then apply these and get good results. These can also bring clarity to very subjective things we might experience.

So as an example. I might believe I should love someone and find myself not loving that person. But I can backtrack the theory of something and think through 'Love is the involuntary response to virtue if we are virtuous'. The important thing here might be the word 'involuntary'. If a feeling of love has changed, we might feel obligated to keep it going. But if the person involved has displayed obvious lack of virtue. Then that logical rule might allow us to accept our subjective experience.

With transcient information though. With information on how evil operates and such like that. We cannot go back and actually understand it. Theoretical information might be OK. We can observe in small ways if a friend of ours goes more service to self than we would prefer. But a lot of the truly transcient information. "The US government has 500 space ships that it keeps behind". There is at once, absolutely no way we can confirm this. If we start to doubt it. But also, a whole load of other things that go with this. Such as an anxiety about our survival if such secrets are kept from us. A rage that healing technology is kept behind if we are unwell or in the case of the death or illness of loved ones. 

There are also other people that want to keep such things secret. 

But more than that. We cannot go back to first principles on any of these issues. And if we cannot go back to first principles. Then what are we substituting that with? Well, a kind of faith. And not the ideal faith either. People cannot objectively confirm the presence of "The One Infinite Creator". But when they engage in thinking about it. When they draw comfort from it. This is all very positive stuff that feels like it is confirmed subjectively. That the US government is keeping behind 500 space ships cannot be confirmed subjectively. The 'feel' of the information is of a darkness that is not easy to connect with. 

Understanding of the Service to Self.

Nevertheless, we do live in a world where the presence of the service to self is relevant to our everyday existence. If what the Q people of the world believe is going to happen does happen. One day this will all be extremely important to know. Because, to have some understanding of this area is a better psychological basis for handling shock when that information 'becomes a suppository' so to speak. When understanding of these issues becomes mainstream. 

As mentioned before. A lot of things seem to be coming to a head at the moment. This is potentially because Trump is pushing forward by allowing Julian Assange free reign. Who has apparently only released 3% so far of what he has to release. And that 3% was very devastating. It is possible that the information to be released will jail some very powerful people. 

Very powerful people. Like left wing politicians in the UK. Whom simply ignore the fact that the people they are importing are raping and killing the citizens. Whom give tax payer funded hotel stays and all sorts of welfare to immigrants while the native population lives in poverty. 

Recently when there were protests to stop those immigrants coming in. The UK government gave them something like a 40 car police presence to fill up the coaches and transport the immigrants further inland. When police are not generally available to the native population for serious crimes against them.  

This is like a few other times I recall. A few other issues. Such as transgenders in Hollywood. At a certain point the actions of the Service to Self becomes... unfathomable. There really isn't a clear reason why almost all the Hollywood celebrities would be transgender. It is a level of confusing sickness that makes no sense. 

The Law of One though, tells a story that when negative ET's are patrolling our society. They seek out people of the same vibration of themselves. People that live on this planet, as humans. Who are just unfathomably evil. These ET's then visit these people and engage with them somehow, tell them what to do. 

The way it seems like it is with the Service to Self. Is that, these people. These left wing politicians and things. They just receive orders and do those things. There is no larger awareness of what the agenda is. And the agenda that is set by these negative beings is so evil that it cannot be plumbed by service to others people I don't suspect. 

So this was one insight I had and it has two important components: One, it accepts information based only on faith in the Law of One. Which is a less than idea way to process information. Rather than being able to go back on first principles on things you believe. Two, it necessitates not being further curious into things you only have a little information on. You have to switch off your curiousity on this kind of issue. Because you cannot go any further with it. Which is what you have to do with the service to self anyway. 

Another thing I read was from an excerpt about 'the committee of 300'. Which is a conspiracy theory that the secret rules of the world are only 300 people. This excerpt said that in their perfect world. Many people would be executed and of those that remained alive. They would be in a state of poverty. Food. Energy etc. And that when people needed something, if they received it, they would know that their survival was only based on the "mercy" or "will of the 300".

This absolutely fits with an understanding of what the service to self wants. While the service to others I think tends to want things to work properly and would not dream of restricting food to get 'narcissistic supply'. In general wants things to run properly and then not to be bothered. Except with perhaps ample profit to live their own life with their family. The service to self wants to kind of extract energy from people all the time so even simple things like the provision of food becomes a hero or god complex moment. 

But it does still give some understanding of their motives. For instance, the UK government is not opening up the North Sea which would give the population far better oil and a far richer country. If their agenda was widespread poverty for this reason. That would make sense.  

The Manifestor Confusion.

This is the video I am going to think over today:

Youtube: Richard Beaumont: Manifestors Often Forget This ONE Thing!

https://youtu.be/lXaKiwKxSrY?si=QarCG5BN48mKLF92 

A few weeks ago I wrote a few blogs starting with this same persons video on the Generator and what it means to "build" a persons life.

I really really hoped that Richard would not do one for the Manifestor. But I realised he probably would since he did one on the Generator and Projector and I was still curious. What he goes with here is simply the Manifestors strategy, stated strategy, or what substitutes for strategy. I.e. 'To inform'. For the other two types he went into what he has generally noticed about them. NOT their strategy. But, I get the feeling he doesn't really get Manifestors. I could be wrong.

So here was the comment I put, and then deleted. On that same video:

I don't completely agree with this. I suspect that Ra Uru Hu found through trial and error this to be the most important thing but I don't know whether it applies to all Manifestors as the most important thing. You can do it and you will still get other challenges.

Firstly, a fundamental assumption of the human design that I don't think is correct. Is that if we do our strategy and authority everything will work out properly. I don't think this is the case. I think we have to negotiate with the world and understand it a fair bit.

Case in point. For two years I was at a workplace where all the people there hated me. They would arrange work do's every week and I was the only one excluded for two straight years. In that circumstance. Any effort I made within the group the energy would be lost. They would gossip about me and reliably find the worst interpretation of any of my actions. I was not able to get another job during this time until the end of that period. I personally asked them out a fair few times and no one came. It did not matter what I did or whether I informed. My energy would go into the group and was never going to manifest anything.

I think the fundamental point of Ra Uru Hu's guidance was to be aware that you cannot, as a Manifestor, really perceive others. I can't either. But, at the same time. That world is full of energy and things like attendance to heirarchy that WILL effect you. Potentially, I hypothesize that every Manifestor needs to find their own particular weak spot in this regard. For Ra Uru Hu it was informing/ the lack thereof, but for another Manifestor it might be something else.

I can get in vicious arguments with people and not feel any particular anxiety or consider that the other person is effected by this. I carefully record the things that lead up to these arguments to get more understanding to inform me in future situations. But this also includes wisdom other than informing. For instance, with that office group. I had to accept that I could not oppose them. That I did not have the power, as one individual, to oppose that small office of 20 people. I had to withdraw my energies from the fight.

Also, the human design assumes a fairly healthy society I think. The manifestor, in todays world, is not necessarily likely to meet Generators that are eager to carry out their wishes. Regardless of how intelligent or interesting their potential impacts are. This is because the world is obsessed with power and a lot of people do not want to do a single thing to yield power. They do not want you to be in a position of greater power than them so will not allow the conversation to go in that direction. If you want to offer something from the human design as an example. Something you know about and they do not, they will not accept it to maintain power. Some people, will not even open up to basic questions like basic enquiries into how they are because they don't want to yield power.

So this is perhaps why Manifestors want power. Perhaps we all want power on some level. But the Manifestor sees the lack of power as a barrier to being able to manifest because of the animal heirarchy.

I think with Projectors as well you simply take from them if they willing to offer. Like Robert Greene and the 48 Laws of Power. Some will not want to offer of course. But Projectors want to be valued so you simply use them to help you understand others and value them for that. Job done. A good role model of a Manifestor that uses certain personality skills to get on with others is the fictional character Patrick Jane in the Mentalist played by Manifestor Simon Baker.

Still in it's youtube formatting I see. 

I then realised, a little after writing this, that the need for power would go into this interaction as well. I had poured my energy into this but it would not get any likes or positive responses. Because it inherently, because it is truthful, takes apart the conceptions that aid peoples power. That is, passive aggressive spiritual egalitarianism. So there was no use in leaving it on the video. 

Like I said in this comment. One of the things I find with human design is that it tries to bypass the awareness of the very flawed world we live in. One that is mixed in its polarities. 

Another point here is that Richard himself is very unlikely to give such a comment a like because it would place me in the position of being superior at advising Manifestors. But Richard is the guy that runs the Human Design business. So it is literally against his business interests to respond positively to the post.

Also, Richard does not, I don't think, really know what he is talking about here. It is unlikely that he intuitively arrived at the conclusion of making this video. But did it because he didn't want to leave the Manifestors out of the video series. Also, because it is his business, he is meant to be an expert on each type. 

So in a sense he is making the video to create the impression, falsely, that he can talk about Manifestors. Which also convinces Manifestors to come to him. So he is doing what in the video he says is impossible. Trying to control the Manifestor. 

Inspiration. 

I have had insights from my recent reading of the Law of One and other general insights into the negative polarity. I am seeing it far more clearly recently. I am not sure I really want to talk about this as a subject. It does feel dark and uncomfortable. It might also be relevant though.

Just a general thought.  

Spiritual problems, part 2, faith.

Wow, as I have described recently in blogs. For no clear reason. I have suddenly gotten a lot of stress. This includes me having not been able to sleep for a few consecutive days and other unusual symptoms. 

I am going to make a physical change in massively decreasing the time I spend at the gym. I was starting to get some momentum and enjoy it. But I was not able to get the protein requirements, 150 grams at minimum, usually more. I strained myself a bit. Starting off with fewer exercises after stretching perhaps. 

But psychologically. I am putting together something that might have caused me psychological difficulty that would also be in common with others that are on the same kind of pathway as me. I.e. spiritual, challenged to practice faith I believe. And also, having a basic understanding in belief in sources like Q. 

Psychological dissolution.

Two things that have personally had me lose a kind of back up faith I had before.

One: I am looking for work. This is a very dark and thankless task. Full of annoying things and contradictions. I also have problems from my medical condition. Including bone thinning and other things that might restrict my ability to do physical work. My last job was in a call centre/ office or admin environment. Even though the people that worked there did not like my personality. Or lack thereof since I was quite ill at the time. The work itself were things I was very able to do. I was very organised and attentive to customers. 

I have been getting emails for a while with manual labour types of jobs though. Jobs on production lines and unloading shipping containers and things. Things I assumed I couldn't do. But if I was really against the wall. Those are the kinds of jobs I felt like I should try and do as a last resort. In my mind, I figured. These are the jobs that women are not interested in. The reason I am not able to get a job is partly that the economy is just destroyed. But also, partly. That women are considered superior in the current society, and prioritised for jobs in the current job market. There is a lot of proof of this. In America, non farm payrolls for August show something like 92% of new jobs go to women. 

I also know this from going to job interviews and as my name shortened is gender neutral. I got a lot less, a lot less, zero even, job interviews after I headed my CV with the full name showing I am a man not a woman. I got job interviews every so often with the ambiguous name. 

I talked to someone in my life and realised, that even though the bone thinning does restrict my movement. I am actually capable of doing most of the shelf stacking kind of movements. This was a surprise to me. It's strange how possibilities are just deleted from consideration after you have dismissed them for some reason. I also am going to the gym obviously. So I decided to try and get one of those jobs. Well, I contacted the recruiter that was putting out those kinds of jobs and yeah, it was not as smooth sailing as I thought. In fact. The recruiter kind of lied to me in the conversation. Saying he had a lot of jobs he keeps back but in fact, he wanted to set me up with an unsuitable one I had already seen, he was obviously trying to find people for as he has resent that email quite a few times.

I suddenly discovered that no, there were not a lot of manual labour jobs waiting to be done so long as I would actually agree to do them. This area is as difficult as the rest of the economy.  

The second point is just the general wear and tear of jobseeking. The whole thing is becoming more and more fake. The jobs seem more and more fake. I used to only apply within my town. It is a large city. Now I actually apply outside of that to jobs that there is no practical reason I would be prioritised over someone that lives closer and has any other number of other beneficial reasons to hire. Younger for instance. Female. 

The entire thing is really strongly feeling like a farce recently. The jobseekers pretend to jobsearch, but don't think they will get a job. Some of them don't want a job. The jobs put up fake jobs. I don't know why. But it is probably incentivised by the government somehow to not reveal how badly they have destroyed the economy. The job boards put up these jobs knowing they are fake and the (overworked) Job Centre workers also pretend to do their jobs. They know the situation so just pretend to be productive. The whole thing is fake from beginning to end, but it takes a huge deal of time and emotional energy. 

Taken together these two I think represent a bit of a shock to my system. It is the realisation of a lack of hope, even a grim hope. That was there before. It makes money saving more important. I think this might be the stress I was referring to.

Faith and Q.

Recently, the Trump organisation has been putting out a LOT of Q posts. One of them was Dan Scavino putting out an image that was posted on a Q post on a delta (so same day on an earlier year. Part of Q code!) Another delta was simply "Julian Assange" on September 14th. And on September 17th Julian Assange posted: "I'm back".

There were a lot more hints than just this. That the Q stuff is soon going to kick off.

Also, on a global level. Something weird is clearly happening. Saudi Arabia had a swarm of drones destroy some of their oil infrastructure. No one has claimed credit for this. Ukraine has destroyed a few oil refineries and Saudi's have told Europe they will not supply them for October. There have been several airport shutdowns in the UK. 

What this leads to, is that security in my own life has dissolved a bit. But faith in Q, and a larger political reality, has had to increase. And that is not easy.  

Spiritual update.

I thought my last three articles were quite good. This one, I think, will not be up to that standard. I think it is useful and relevant to people that generally consider themselves "on the spiritual path" as a general reminder. 

Firstly. I talked about NoFap recently. I have found that going forward. It is not my intention to go NoFap during very difficult periods. When I can get to the gym NoFap is easy and it will likely be easy with other things as well. But when for whatever reason, strain or illness, I am not consistently going to the gym. Lying around a lot getting sexual thoughts and then, getting physical pain from being turned on and it not going anywhere. Well, in those times I consider it healthier to just release that energy.

I have experienced a health issue recently. What makes this one different to the others is that... I have no idea why this is. I am good, as anyone with a health condition usually is, at theorising what issue created an unexpected problem, but not this time. I had about four days back to back of insomnia. I slept 3- 4 hours for 3-4 days and felt dreadful. I am not completely caught up yet. 

I am also physically strained. The strain hasn't left me. It is weird it just goes nowhere. I have been getting random spots and things. Tiredness and other health issues. 

At first, I thought this was a physical problem. But it appears not to be. Handling the physicality of things solves nothing. Now I am starting to think it is a spiritual issue.

It could in truth be many things. I have calculated a few psychological shocks recently that could have impacted me. To do with money, work, and other issues.

But what I have settled on. What does seem to bring results. Is that I have let my spiritual practices lag a bit. I have decided I need to get back to being more on it with things like prayer. I have not prayed twice a day for a long time. I have prayed once a day most days. But there is a zeal towards spirituality that I have not felt in a while. I also specifically stop prayer or doing anything when things go wrong. I have a poor tolerance for pain in that regard. But this is not the Law of One way. Carla carried on praying and doing affirmations, doing other things, while she was in a very bad state. 

I bring it up partially as I think this is a reminder to everyone. This is what priests are for. Just to re- remind us of the basics all the time. 

The types in context. 3rd and final part.

Following on from the 2 previous blog entries then.

Part 1 - I mentioned the proposition from a video that the human design Generator is here to 'build' their lives.

Part 2 - Through the medium of actors, I discussed the Projector, and how this differs from the Generators type. 

For this part. I want to extend out that same argument, and focus on Manifestors, of which there are few. 

Actor Manifestors:

• Anna Torv - Olivia Dunham - Fringe.
• John C McGinley - Dr Cox - Scrubs.
• Simon Baker - Patrick Jane - The Mentalist
• Jennifer Lawrence - A range of movies including The Hunger Games. 
• Jennifer Aniston - F.R.I.E.N.D.S and a few movies. I have not seen a lot of this woman. 
• Johnny Depp - Captain Jack Sparrow - Pirates of the Caribbean.  
• Chad Boswick - known from the Black Panther movies.
• Jodie Comer in Killing Eve. 

Here is the Black Panther Trailer for reference:

https://youtu.be/xjDjIWPwcPU?si=r3wLu18ahmo03g33 

And that's it. I was not kidding when I said they are thin on the ground. Not one of the charts I have done for Stargate, Buffy the Vampire Slayer or Angel, Star Trek DS9 or Voyager. I have typically done all of the actors in the past. More recently only a few. 

It is not known the reason obviously that Manifestors are kept out of these things. But firstly, what can we learn from these characters in general. What can we correlate here?

The first thing that sticks out to me is that each of these characters is specifically skilled. They are effectively 'set apart' from everyone else due to that skill. Anna Torv's character has special abilities and a photographic memory. Dr Cox is an extremely good medical practitioner that the other characters look up to. Simon Baker in the Mentalist shows a very eccentric and genius detective that solves crimes incredibly quickly. Even Captain Jack Sparrow is interesting because he is so good at escaping. 

I think this might be why the Manifestors are kept out of shows like 'Star Trek Voyager'. Voyager, in somewhat of a liberal fashion actually. (Although politics is missing from the show!) Has this idea that the competence of the characters does not effect the characters personality. In this way they all have the "respect" of being super competent. But they do not display these characteristics. Harry Kim is meant to be a genius but he is aggressively average. Tom Paris is meant to be a passionate, genius, rogue and he does not display a great deal of fire. 

Captain Janeway is a little convincing. But what it takes to be a real genius in a real meritocracy is... disagreeableness. This is because if you follow the data and get to decent points. Learn things. The way you know you have hit something that is important and real is if you tell it to someone "normal" and they say... "I don't agree with that because it doesn't feel right". 

The Dr Cox character is the best at what he does partly because he is so disagreeable. While J.D has a social life. He has priorities outside work. Dr Cox does not. 

Patrick Janes character is positively rude and acerbic to most people. He is kind of refined and polite. But then if he needs to catch people will just run roughshod over people for strategic reasons. Including being extremely insulting. He goes to sleep on shift and does what he likes. Since he gets results, people have to put up with it. 

These features are simply not good for a Star Trek show. Firstly, someone bringing in the concept of effectiveness and competence. Is not useful when most of the characters have a claim to status which is them speaking about 'warp plasma manifolds' and such things. Gobbledegook to us then. But they have to sell it. 

Another element I think is interesting is that each of these characters has an extremely, visceral violent aspect to their story. We saw the Chad Boseman character in that trailer. But Patrick Jane introduces us to Red John. Dr Cox introduces us to dark themes including the many patients dying from organ transplant and the guilt that followed, his character is noticeably darker than almost everyone else on that show, we do not see one other character resentfully drinking whiskey. Fringe is about a secretive group setting off chemical weapons to kill people horribly. The Hunger Games also has this kind of nastiness to it. 

This is something I don't see in the Projectors so much. Kevin Sorbo's Hercules was only ever facing humorous opponents. Aside from perhaps Teal'c, not one of the Projectors was facing this kind of visceral nastiness as an opponent. It makes me think that part of the Manifestors energy is a kind of "fighter" energy. I suppose if anger is your not- self theme. Then that would be likely! This is a noticeable difference to the Projector heroes journey of a sorts. Not one of these Manifestor characters has to fight for dignity. To articulate some sort of feeling that is important. They are struggling against an external foe.

Pulling this together then, what I think Manifestors might be, is "knowledge workers". Patrick Jane has a huge set of knowledge about how people operate. Dr Cox has an expertise. it might not be so obvious with other characters as in other characters have status that is not so earned (Black Panther and Olivia Dunham). But I think in energy terms. The Manifestor is focused on information. Which is why they are not so focused on people. 

Just one more thing then is how does the Manifestor focus on career and relationship? Since these are directly building things. We can go to real world people for this and I don't see a huge difference between this and the Generator way of interacting. Barbara O'Neill has four kids. Jordan Peterson has a family and thriving career. 

Come to think of it. I do not see a huge difference in Projectors either. Gad Saad. Hillary Crowder. Katie Hopkins. Nigel Farage. Rene Girard.

So it is a theory. The Human Design is largely subjective I think. A lot of what is experienced is not easily proven. It could be that Generators experience going for real world goals. Projectors have heroes journeys where they seek validation. And Manifestors are knowledge workers that have to apply that knowledge to the real messy world. That these are different energy pathways.

Or it could be that there is no difference. That each type can be described as building it's life in the same way.  

The types in context. Part 2.

In my preceeding post I started with a video from a Human Design creator. Who talked about how a Generators energy in life 'builds' the life around them. It started me thinking, if the same could be said of non sacral types and if not. How would we describe how the non sacral type operates? The normal model of how we interact. Get a job, find a partner, settle down. Is applicable to pretty much everyone in this world I think. Manifestors and Projectors still get jobs and have children. So how would we describe their position other than "building"?

To talk about this subject. To think it through. I have been using actors Human Design charts. The characters of specific actors I have found to be the same as the Human Design chart of the people playing them. I could write theories as to why this is. But I feel that would be redundant. The pattern is unbelievably clear in my view.

It is also clear many times before running the charts if you know what to look for.  

To contrast against the Generator then. This post will focus on Projectors. Using actor Projectors to gain insight. Then the next post will talk about Manifestors and probably wrap up the post. 

Going through my list of saved chart. There are LOADS, loads of Generator type. In my saved list under 'Andrew' there are five names. Just that one name. All Generators. I have to scroll quite far before I find many Projectors. And the Projectors I have found are themselves several times more than the smattering of names I have that are Manifestors.

Anyway, here is the list:

• Captain Jean Luc Picard played by Patrick Swayze in Star Trek The Next Generation.  
• Deanna Troi played by Marina Sirtis in Star Trek The Next Generation.
• Ensign Rowe played by Michelle Forbes in Star Trek The Next Generation. 
• Captain Benjamin Sisko played by Avery Brooks in Star Trek Deep Space Nine. 
• Lucifer played by Mark Pellegrino in Supernatural.
• Six played by Tricia Helfer in Battlestar Galactica.
• Moraine played by Rosamund Pike in The Wheel of Time. 
• Robert Picardo as 'Doctor' in Star Trek Voyager.
• Hercules played by Kevin Sorbo in Hercules the Legendary Journeys.
• Teal'c played by Christopher Judge in Stargate SG-1.

I would say that these characters all have more of a 'heroes journey' than the Generator characters in these TV shows. We do not see a great deal of 'heroes journey' from Miles O'Brien or Julian Bashir. We see heroic feats. But their story does not revolve around those things. Their story is very much the life they are trying to build. Julian and his efforts at romance. Miles as chief engineer and his various adventures with his war history and his family. The same with Neelix, or Seven of Nine or Captain Janeway. These characters do have journeys and sometimes they are classic hero journeys. Like Worfs. But it is rare. 

Benjamin Sisko, Hercules, Teal'c and Doctor are all on a very classical heroes journey. We do not really see them struggling with dating in the same way as the Generator types. Such as Tom Paris and B'elanna in Voyager.  We see them go on a heroes journey that sometimes, but not always, eventually includes a partner. Benjamin Sisko kind of 'fell' into this romance with Cassidy Yates.

A similar thing with Deanna Troi. Deanna is a perfect example of a Generator. It is what Generators do in their ideal world with a Projector. They put her on the bridge as a counsellor and telepath and she proves her usefulness by reading people in general. 

This classic Projector pattern of managing the Generators energy is very strong here. In Supernatural, the main two characters are very male Generators. Lucifers character is technically an angel. So he has to rely on free will (unlike demons). He has enormous power, fantastic power in the first five seasons. But since free will cannot be abridged, he works by manipulating them. By being on the side lines and manipulating their energy. 

Teal'c's character. Although classic hero. Is very often in a guidance position. The crew are often asking him questions to which he replies often humorously. His character precisely apes Hercules in that when he goes to live alone he gets in trouble for helping out with everyones problems. Defending people from gangs and such like that. Or you see the other SG team members going to see him when he is meditating for spiritual guidance, as happened a few times. 

Most of these characters at some point or other. Articulate their struggle in a way that sucks people in to a kind of heroes journey narrative. Ensign Rowe and Jean Luc Picard in Picard Season 3. Having to fight for recognition. The Doctor has to fight for recognition and rights as a hologram. Teal'c often has to confess to some deep dark secret in his past. Which is not precisely the same thing. But the whole journey of expressing "I feel this, this is important", is relevant. And it is not the same as the more physical victories the Generator characters have. Such as Julian Bashir when he settles down with Ezri Dax. 

What it seems to me here is that while the Generators have a defined real world goal. Captain Janeway wants to get home. Julian Bashir wants a girlfriend and a successful career. Data wants to become human. Even if it sneaks up on them. For the Projector characters. They kind of 'just are'. But then they have to undergo a fight that they usually didn't choose. Doctor does not struggle to specifically get a girlfriend or career. But then he is put upon to defend his right to self determination. 

In the Manifestor section I am going to make the point that in these shows they do often settle down, but the other half of them has to tolerate the eccentricities that come from their particular "mission". That the other partner (as being relevant to "building a family") seems often to do more of the work. (Like Jordan in Scrubs with Dr Cox, even though the thing was played as a joke of her being so difficult. If you actually take what happened. She is the one that worked on him). 

I am not even sure what the pattern is here with the Projectors. As regards to family life or career. Things you "build". Very few of these characters even have those things. The point here seems to be their ability to relate to others and the "heroes journey" they are on.