The conscious mind.

I have been listening recently to a Ra Uru Hu speech on 2027. The astrological changes he describes and the best way, with the knowledge he had at the time. To explain them. To attach them to what might happen in real life. 

But, it leads in a kind of transcient direction. Or something like that. After the years of David Wilcock lies, it is hard to attach to fantastic claims attached to prophesy. Even though, logically, Ra Uru Hu was not David Wilcock. He channeled the entire human design. Ra Uru Hu clearly has a genuinely galactic level IQ. While the Law of One trio, I don't think could form the words and insight of the Law of One contact. Ra Uru Hu is somewhere in the realm, I think, of creating that system. 

So Ra Uru Hu's IQ was probably somewhere around where David Wilcock claimed David Wilcocks was. While not being able to change the batteries in a smoke detector. 

Be that as it may. I realise I have grown far more grounded throughout my life now. Only really believing things that I can distinctly grip. But at the same time. Being very inclined towards this metaphysical kind of area. 

So without my mind being able to penetrate these larger themes; or perhaps being able to penetrate but not trusting. I am going back to one of the simplest spiritual themes.

I have talked before. Actually on a video. About this card. The Matrix of the Mind. The Conscious Mind. A simple archetype shown by gate 17, the simplicity and single focus of an opinion, gate 21, the direction of the will. Gate 51, and the shock that comes from that power but also leads into the next place. The vast expanse, (gate 42), of the subconscious mind. 

How the conscious mind works, functions, is what I think this is talking about. The ball is the positive polarity. The focus. The bird is the subconscious mind. The neophyte, is unable to walk forward without being prevented by the bird cage. 

The thing he is seeking is below his feet. Since the next card is the subconscious mind, and these themes continue through to other cards. But his focus has to be on the inspiration itself. 

This is something I kind of gripped theoretically. Kind of realised, suspected, thought about. But which has not gained the authority in my mind. I did not use it properly. 

The thing I absolutely LOVE to do. Which I need no discipline at all to do. Is go to the gym. Partly to get out my anger. To transmute it. It links with the kind of thing I talk about here. I have a theory that once I get far into that anger. Once I have done a lot of exercise. The next stage of the positive spiritual path will become more clear. 

But, there is a problem. When I go to the gym I am often exhausted. I stop doing some of the things that are good in my life. Namely, prayer, meditation and affirmations. Maybe music is part of that. I also need the energy of meditation to go to the gym. Those things really improve me. Without them my energy flags. (It is not just lack of energy stopping me going to the gym but the energy involved in more preparation than normal due to the health condition).

It means I will have to change my thought process and priority. I am emotionally effected by having gained weight. So the gym becomes a priority. Before I am at the stage where I can combine exercise with diet changes, my body has to be good enough to regularly do the exercise. 

But the priority can't be the weight. I will have to put up with the weight. My priority has to be prayer and such. Then my energy will be in a good place and the gym should follow.

This is in line with this card. I have to keep focused on the positive spirituality. The real goals (gym, maybe music) i.e. the bird cage, will have to come as a result of that. 

Wrap up transcience. Music and contradictions. Jealousy.

Wrap up. 

A little bit of a wrap up on the 'transcient' point, I was discussing in the last post:

This is the kind of all consuming evil that I would consider to be difficult. It is not transcient in the fact that it is related to some obscure, claimed government secret, like extra terrestrials. But it is still 'transcient' in the sense, that it is something I could engage in, and it would take my energy away from and disturb things like contemplation, meditation, music etc. 

It is also different from 'obscure government secrets', because it is evil happening in the real world. It odes not have that layer of separation. 

Like I said though, I have to withdraw from this. In the passive sense of generally leaning in one political direction and being there potentially when opportunity arises, like voting. I don't have much I can do about all this. That i can see.

The only thing I can do is improve my health and go to the gym in case some sort of altercation finds me. But I would do that anyway. Health is my main thing.  

The following though, is the take away wisdom that is still relevant. There is a small amount of this material I believe, this is needed to oppose the excesses of the negative that we see. Once you know what is in this tweet, and in far more background from this guys podcasts or a show like Promethean action. It buffers against the sense of powerlessness, doomerism and anger:

I do tend to think that what is happening on the global level is reflected in our personal lives. Because the transits are the same. The same transits happening to Trump and the people surrounding him. Are happening to everyone. The same social patterns, such as the dominance of one or another group. Are also almost universal, it seems to me. So when it is broken in one place, it starts to be broken everywhere. 

So if Trump and the movement against the Deep State is carefully destroying the foundations of the negative. I imagine that is also happening in our personal lives. It is not obvious to me that this is happening. But it is interesting the idea that traps are being carefully laid to prevent evildoers escaping accountability and confrontation. 

The beauty of music and emotional complexity. 

I would say, that, for me. The study of the Law of One and various insights I have been having have lead to a kind of deeper, more complex, set of emotions and perceptions.

Just a general thought on these two songs:

Youtube: Young Pilgrim Music: Don McLean - American Pie: June 9th, 2020:

https://youtu.be/Z13vOA7s0FI?si=1Y6qhyYKhs-DyL-z

Youtube: The Walters: The Walters - I Love You So: November 29th 2014:

https://youtu.be/NwFVSclD_uc?si=r_BOj2Az9L1XaSAU

In both of these songs:

"Well I know that you're in love with him. Cause I saw you dancing in the gym. You both kicked off your shoes. Man I dig those rythmy blues."

"I love you so ... I'm gonna pack up my things, and leave you behind... I hope you feel, what I felt, when you shattered my soul."

Music has a way, I think, of showing the contradictions in a situation. But not having those contradictions have to be squared with each other. I think in most of life where there is a narrative. Where there is a story. And the contradictions have to be kind of fitted into said story.

I recall with an ex friend of mine who jumped off a cliff. I mention her frequently. Clearly still processing it. I wrote a song about her that all came out pretty much immediately. A lot often comes out initially, after that it is an effort. It takes quite a lot of organisation and effort to work on a song after that initial flash of inspiration is gone. 

The song started with a reference to her "tormented" psychological health. It's chorus was about me not being able to look after her. The second verse was how much affection I had towards her not in reference to that. The third verse was more angry. Telling her to go and think about what she had done. "Fade away". All contradictory emotions within the same relationship and set of circumstances. 

These songs are both that as well. Well not precisely. The Don McLean section about dancing in the gym. Was truly letting go of and even celebrating the fact that a girl he was into was into someone else. It is just not a feature in a lot of songs. That lack of detachment and good will. 

The second song includes a contradiction. "I love you so". The song doesn't hide from the fact that the songwriter has very positive feelings towards the girl. But it also airs their strong disagreements which it is intended should end the relationship.

The first time recently I heard this song was Hidden in Plain Sight putting it in a tribute to David Wilcock. This song, and the way it was edited. Was a good choice. 

The pains of jealousy. 

As someone that is quite an ill person. I have been surprised a few times when people have shown jealousy towards me. This specific issue has come up in my personal life. 

But perhaps I shouldn't. I thought up until recently that I could "outreason" the emotion of jealousy. Explain why I did not think it was legitimate. I will go through some of my reasoning here. But I have come to a different conclusion now, as to how things work. 

There are times, when it is destructive to be humble and self effacing. I believe now is one of those times. If someone experiences jealousy towards you. Then saying "Oh, I'm not actually that good (in whatever way the person is jealous of) is actively snobbish and will increase the persons sense of confusion and anger I think. 

So I will go through the good parts of my own being. The things others might look at me for and with they had. I will not underdo these positive characteristics:

A) I am quite intelligent. I am legitimately intelligent. I am not pretending. In the very many ways in which people do pretend in this society. I have had my IQ tested professionally. I have had habits of doing random technical things since very young. When I was about 7 years old my mother has strange stories of this. I do have the ability to see into things. With complexity and context. That others either don't have. Or have but they are not using/ are applying in a specifically very different way. 

I think this blog kind of indicates that. No one is motivated to write this much and this frequently if their brain isn't going a bit crazy.  

B) I am good at music. Perhaps related to the above. I had a very musical father who was well known in that industry in his specific niche. So I have it genetically. But I also just have it. There is an element of randomness in musical ability I understand.

C) I look good. This has been so pronounced I have been out before and attractive women have specifically come and sat next to me, without being invited. Clearly indicating a certain openness to any of my advances. 

D) I have a spiritual message (all this). 

The justifications. 

I do not live a life that these characteristics would indicate. I spend a great deal of time alone and I have a disability. One that kind of creates a lot of second order effects. One of these was a very physiologically created schizophrenia. But my health is better with technology now than it was. But it has made relationships and career difficult. Making in turn relationships difficult and even sex at times impossible. When my physical health is at its worst. So I am not going out being that seductive musical chad ploughing through the hoes. 

I have had various people say directly or otherwise they were jealous of me in some way. Quite a few in fact if you consider this might be the motivation for times when this specific motivation was not directly stated. Even when another motivation was stated. Like people do.

One of the arguments I had against jealousy in general then. Was that to me, these things are connected to each other. I might have had strong schizophrenic tendencies because of a physiological issue. But I also have it in my family line. I am also inclined to it anyway and the physical issue pushed that into being. I would say that it is connected to my inspiration and musical ability. Some of my best songs have arrived with a kind of demonic feeling. 

There is a negative side to everything like that. A creative tendency that leads to schizophrenic side effects. Also intelligence itself I think, can lead one into conflict with others. One of the most intelligent people that I believe exists is Stefan Molyneux. His intelligence has lead him to political views of a strongly right wing nature. He classifies himself as an anarcho capitalist. Meaning that capitalism is the mechanism we do everything and there is no state.

Many of the people that I see get jealous of a thing like intelligence. Also have no appetite for this kind of conflict. They would hundred percent tow the left wing line to carry on getting on well with their friends. Stefan has fallen out with nearly everyone he grew up with I think. Perhaps everyone down to the last man I am not sure.  

There is also, I think, an element of personal choice. On a good day, I pray three times a day, I do affirmations with two of those times. I meditate. I have been into spirituality and the Law of One for a long time. Since I was about 11 years old I had strong beliefs in psychic abilities and such. My mother was an atheist and I had no other guidance in these areas. It was internally created. This means, that if the angels and spirits are indeed there. I am asking for help every single day and they are indeed helping. This has come through open mindedness which I believe is a virtue. There are people that have expressed jealousy at various things who are not at all inclined towards any of these areas. So they have been basically rejecting good help. It is unreasonable to expect the benefits of having done something without doing that thing. And faith deepens. I did not start with the level of faith I now have. It took me more than a decade to start to take said faith more seriously. A person starting today would not be at the same level and should not expect to be. Closed mindedness has consequences.

This goes further. I had a friend who was a stoner get annoyed at me about my musical tendencies and abilities. Who got angry when I wanted to talk about scales. I don't quite know what these people expect. If you want to be good at music. Then chilling with your friends, smoking weed, and not playing scales is not the way to do that. You can spend that kind of time with your friends of course. "There are no mistakes". I do not have the position of absolute knowledge to tell you what is best for you. But there are consequences. So if you do not practice, you will not be good at music. 

A similar thing with women who want to be seen as amazing musicians but have spent a lot of their time partying and having fun in relationships. The guy who didn't do any of that and stayed home and practiced. And thought a whole lot more in solitude. Is going to get better results as to his creative ability. Of course, with attractive women, that might not matter. They still might get the status of a good musician. But they will not get the ability of a good musician.  

These are what I see as some of the cognitive contradictions in jealousy.

In real terms.

However, I have hit a snag with this example. The trouble I have is this: I do not experience jealousy. I have never experienced jealousy except for a very few small times. I can only remember one time. One single instance. I think I had a few more a bit back, but they were obviously not impactful enough to wait around. They were evicted and left without any great fanfare.

The time I recall was seeing a girl, making a very entitled youtube short about how she will not put up with men treating her below a quite high and some would say, unreasonable, standard. But she had this lovely long hair. I am going bald now. I am almost completely bald. I do want my hair back. As a Leo, I was proud of my hair in my twenties when I used to gel it. 

I recall seeing men with attractive girlfriends that I probably should be jealous of. But I am not. 

As someone that has not experienced jealousy. I cannot advise others on jealousy. Sure, I can offer some compelling thoughts that I think are logically sound. But as far as advice. On 'this is the way to handle it'. I cannot do that. The long haired girl is still not enough for me to focus on. It is still not of any intensity compared to my other negative emotions (anger, and bitterness over the health issue). But some people experience as a negative emotion. Jealousy, strong jealousy. That is many instances and can be thought of every day and things.

But I do not apply this thinking, the thinking I have summarised. To this emotion of jealousy. When someone is jealous of something, they kind of want the thing itself and do not have a larger perspective on what the other person is going through. 

I have no idea what is going on in the entitled long haired womans life. And I do not want to. Baldness might be a side effect of testosterone. Which I obviously have more of than her. But such a justification does not change the emotion. 

It makes me realise this attempt to justify the emotion. To cognitively think it through. Might be motivated by my own annoyance of it when it is directed towards me. 

An entire Law of One paradigm.

One of the reasons I might not have gotten jealous, is because it is an emotion that is very difficult to fit in with the Law of One. 

People simply are different parts of the Creator. We cannot "be" each other. It is just not a thing that is possible, or desireable. 

In all, it is very difficult though to come up to the standard of the Law of One. I read this quote the other day:

Questioner: Then she says, “If this is so, this seems to be part of the riddle about the manner of beingness that Ra spoke of. I fear if I do not work successfully on my human distortions I shall be responsible for losing the contact. Yet also Ra suggests the over-dedication to any outcome is unwise. Could Ra comment on these thoughts?”

Ra: I am Ra. We comment in general first upon the query about the contact which indicates once again that the instrument views the mind/body/spirit complex with jaundiced eye. Each mind/body/spirit complex that is seeking shall almost certainly have the immature and irrational behaviors. It is also the case that this entity, as well as almost all seekers, [has] done substantial work within the framework of the incarnative experience and [has] indeed developed maturity and rationality. That this instrument should fail to see that which has been accomplished and see only that which remains to be accomplished may well be noted. Indeed, any seeker discovering in itself this complex of mental and mental/emotional distortions shall ponder the possible non-efficacy of judgment.

As we approach the second portion of the query we view the possibility of infringement upon free will. However, we believe we may make reply within the boundaries of the Law of Confusion.

This particular instrument was not trained, nor did it study, nor worked it at any discipline in order to contact Ra. We were able, as we have said many times, to contact this group using this instrument because of the purity of this instrument’s dedication to the service of the One Infinite Creator and also because of the great amount of harmony and acceptance enjoyed each by each within the group; this situation making it possible for the support group to function without significant distortion.

We are humble messengers. How can any thought be taken by an instrument as to the will of the Creator? We thank this group that we may speak through it, but the future is mazed. We cannot know whether our geste may, after one final working, be complete. Can the instrument, then, think for a moment that it shall cease in the service of the One Infinite Creator? We ask the instrument to ponder these queries and observations.

The relevant line here that I highlighted is 'How can any thought be taken by an instrument as to the will of the Creator?

I considered a few times, trying to push myself into having that kind of faith of everything being part of "Gods plan". I don't think I can do it though. Because it would also include a lot of very evil things. The negative entity winning out here would have been under one of those possibilities that might be considered "Gods Plan" if it were to happen.  

I wanted to mention that because I wanted to show that even though I would argue against this being a reasonable standard. That everything is Gods plan. The Law of One does mention it. 

But aside from that, as far as my emotional thought on the question of jealousy goes. Who am I to tell someone what to feel? There was one additional personal item here that I have not included, that might be very legitimate for people to be jealous of. That I could perhaps argue against. But it would be hollow. 

In general, when I have talked to people that are dysfunctional for some reason. Maybe jealous, but more often something else. The situation, their mindset, how they came to their decisions and my perception of their errors that got them there. Are far bigger, and more complex, than anything I can understand.  

Conclusion. 

So that's where I am ending it. That I do have a bit of a cognitive perspective on jealousy. But I don't really know. I am certainly lacking some experience in this area. And people have the right to their own feelings and their own process. 

Political predictions.

Reflections on Makerfield then.

If you are perhaps reading from another country and are not aware of what happened in this by election. That I referred to in previous posts. The Labour candidate, had an absolute landslide. 54% of the vote. 

I have been through this whole thing a few times. Ever since I have been online it seems. Picking off David Wilcocks narrative. I have tried to find evidence that things are going to kick off soon in some amazing way. Previously, I recall, the worst one actually still. Is that there was a grand cardinal cross. Several planets, including some outer ones, were at 13 degrees Cardinal. 

Nothing happened. I mean, absolutely nothing. Really nothing. Not, "oh there were some interesting developments. But it's kind of abstract so nothing proveable." No. not that. I mean, ACTUALLY nothing.

My half sister has a Sun at a 13 degree cardinal placement and I asked her and her mother, whom was there, if anything happened that day... "Oh, that was the day we saw the homeless man on the bus". 

My thoughts and predictions. From last year when I was thinking what would happen when Pluto entered gate 41 for a month and a half. A lot of things. Have not worked out. The same with various political predictions of the years. Following on from the often zeal of other generally right wing perspectives. I have often thought the result would be better than it was.

Is hope spiritual?

But I woke up this morning, I found out at about 4am that Labour won Makerfield because I happened to be up then. (I didn't stay up for it, I woke up!) 

Faith, and it's weaker extension perhaps, hope. I have often thought of as a spiritually admirable quality. But what is being hoped for here?

There are many ways, MANY ways; this is the human condition I think. Of trying to go against free will. Trying to get around free will. 

I think one of the hopes I have, primarily of course, it's that things will get better in the larger sense of the term. Like, there will be jobs and such. The major goal for me, even though it is no longer possible I don't think. Is to have a lot of activity in music. Whether that be employed as a musician or not. But at least the free time to play and create music if I am not employed in that. And to have a wife and a few kids.  

But secondarily, in getting there, it is the impact on people that have a normie way of thinking that annoy me. In casual leftist viewpoints and things. And also, related but not the same. Skeptical viewpoints. Both the feeling of experiencing a greater reality, after "disclosure". And those people coming around to the understanding we live in a wider universe with extra terrestrials and everything. 

Acceptance.

But it seems to me, far from this whole thing. The idea of winning through the ballot box. The idea of that kind of real world change that impacts others. Is kind of anti the kind of spiritual that I am focused on. 

In the past few days my insights have basically stopped. I have been focused on the Makerfield election for several months. But the real world change... well, perhaps it is transcient.

I have never known precisely where to draw the line against 'transcient' information. Yes, you don't want to engage in what are the deep behaviours of the negative. To unnecessarily terrify yourself and reorient yourself to paying attention to that. But surely there should be some basic information that you do pay attention to?

My feeling, this morning, is that perhaps that is not true. I do not think I will be able to pull myself away from paying attention. I just don't have enough to do in my daily life, at this current time, to distract myself. But it is good to know, that even things like this, like elections, do come under the category of "transcient". It is good to know, that even when you cannot follow the ideal. What the ideal is. Then at least you can nudge it in the preferred direction. 

This morning, I feel far more comfortable actually focusing on the present moment. 

The best science fiction from a real science fiction fan.

My "quest" for this blog, even though it was not really 'realised' until recently. Has been to apply the Law of One and other ideas in order to improve my life. 

This is partly because I have quite a serious health condition. So while a lot of people kind of set their direction and soon enough have a lot of commitments such as that they can no longer spend time introspecting, dream interpreting, meditation, and reading the Law of One. When you have a serious illness, (and the effect on my psyche has been very serious indeed. I have lost decades). But when you have a serious illness. It takes a lot more energy and tools to move forward and experience some kind of improvement.

But I am wondering if that when I do get to some sort of state where "yes, the improvement has happened". It will change the state of this blog somewhat? In line with the Law of One. I already do almost daily meditation, prayer and affirmations, and frequent dream interpretation. I have been reading the Law of One daily and things have improved.

Most recently. A mega health improvement. I said it on this blog the other day. I am drinking a lot of water. Since my specific health condition leads to me being very dehydrated. This is a massively positive thing. And overdosing on the caffeine free Pepsi Max, which I did recently. Has lead to this recent improvement. So now, in line, I stopped caffeine, stopped with alcohol, which I was only using for communion, but then I did take a few extra glasses of wine when they were offered, and now improving by drinking masses of water. 

I can feel that improvement. I say all this because it might be that I have to simply experience that improvement and might not do a blog for a little while.

It is also why I will not do a longer blog like the past few days and will only focus on some things I think are generally interesting today:

Sci fi in general. 

Throughout my entire life I have been massively into science fiction. I have watched it all. All the Star Treks except the first one. I say all, I mean The Next Generation, Voyager and Deep Space Nine are the only ones that matter. Stargate SG- 1, Stargate Atlantis, Dark Matter, The Expanse, The Orville, Buffy, Angel, Grimm. Etc. Etc. You get the idea. 

But recently, for the first time in my life. I am suddenly getting bored of sci fi. Maybe I am growing up. I am able to watch tense emotional drama for leisure now. I understand these things. Maybe I have just run out of said sci fi. 

But I realise there is a difference between good and bad quality sci fi. That when you have seen the three Star Treks, and maybe Stargate SG-1. You have kind of seen it all. I would say that those shows contain the full substance of what is good within sci fi. 

I want to recognise a central problem that some sci fi has. One of the things that happens in some sci fi is that an enemy is created. They come in very impressively. But the more the show goes on and that enemy has to come away from it's impossibly powerful introduction. The more that you realise, as you are watching it, that the show just hasn't been written that well. 

An example of this is Earth Final Conflict and Babylon 5. In these shows. The central antagonist. Has no particular depth or relevance to them. No internal politics. No other reason for their existence but just "to exist".

In Babylon 5, the central antagonist from Season 2 onwards were called 'The Shadows'. They were invisible spider creatures that wanted to invade... Why? Well, to invade. It was their life philosophy. 

A lot of the times as well with these shows. They set up an antagonist like that. But they do not have the commitment to actually make a compelling war. So they have to solve the issue with some kind of weird 'just because' issue. So with Earth Final Conflict, which is such an obscure show that no one is going to mind spoilers. The demonic, vampire like creatures that became the antagonist in later seasons. And they had to fuse with another alien creature there which was their more evolved counterpart. So when the Taylons evolved, they left their darker, vampire selves behind. The Unas or something. 

It is, in general, such a cop out. It is so stupid as well. The idea a being would ascend and leave a darker version of its own self behind. That these two would have a long war and eventually involve humans whom would somehow get the two back together. It is childish. 

I am also sick and tired, in general, of shows where there is some sort of love and peace takeaway at the end. That non violence is some sort of solution to an extremely violent opponent. Star Wars did this very much. Luke doesn't fight the Emperor so, what? an entire army spanning hundreds of worlds just... gives up? Because of Lukes love and peace? There are other shows that have done this in more annoying ways which I won't name. Since that would be a spoiler. But it is just ridiculous.

A show that did it well.

This is my favourite science fiction. Now reflecting on it.

Star Trek Deep Space Nine:

The show went on for seven seasons.

The depth of the characters in Star Trek was just fantastic. Characters had powerful, interesting, defined arcs. The station was run by Benjamin Sisko:

 

This character, had a link to "wormhole aliens" called the Prophets. Who were also the kind of gods of Bajour. A planet and people relevant to the story. 

The spiritual things that Benjamin goes through. Are the most accurate I have seen as to what spirituality is like. He has flashes, moments of compulsion where he reveals something the Prophets have shown to him. The whole thing is mixed with the possibility it all might be madness. When his enemies learn of the a celestial adversary that can take down the Prophets. He is asked: "Why do the Prophets matter?". And Dukat, the bad guy, says: "Because without the Prophets, Benjamin Sisko is just another Starfleet captain".

Interestingly, Benjamin Sisko is a baseball player (The kind of personality detail missing from most of these kinds of shows) and he keeps a baseball with him. Which we actually first see when an alien kind of turns a holographic ball real:

 

It reminds me vaguely of the ball shown in the major arcana after the book 4 of the Law of One's refinement of these concepts:

Star Trek Deep Space Nine. In contravention of a lot of these sci fi shows and in contravention of even other Star Treks at times. Disposes of the utopian "we don't work for money" ideas. And in many conversations stresses that these are real life stakes, and the people involved that are talking with high minded ideals are often incorrect and delusional:

Youtube: JohnKY: "It's easy to be a saint in paradise" January 25 2022

https://youtu.be/EcGO1qjIr5E?si=lxsep7kfJg5KVl2n

And when they went to war, they really went to war. There was one episode where the group here have to defend an outpost with another group that have been doing it for a while. They are often attacked by the shows antagonists. Who are brutish, purely animal people. Bred for such a purpose. There are many episodes where these brutish peoples philosophies are talked through.

Well, the Deep Space Nine group are predictable in Star Treks kind of cosey sentiment. And they go to Sisko and say that these people are suffering from PTSD. That Starfleet needs to send replacements. To which Sisko responds; "We are at war, everyone is stretched thin. Yes it sucks, but that's what happens in a war".

This was a scene from that episode:

Youtube: JC Denton: Quark tells his nephew something about humans. July 3rd 2010.

https://youtu.be/-D2SHNqkjbY?si=auOr2Ye7EZaClcjR

There are many, many good aspects to this show. Many good characters. There is Garak, who is a Cardassian. Left out from his own people. We don't know why. But as the show goes on it becomes clear that he is in deep with the intelligence apparatus of his own people. That he lives and breathes as a person like that. An assassin. 

Youtube: trekclips123: DS9 Garak the boy who cried wolf (Improbable Cause) February 22nd 2012:

https://youtu.be/cl66ilQCCNs?si=YWnwuQuyETUH7U77 

While there is an explanation for his character. He does not get a redemption arc in the way a lot of shows would have him. He is still as he is, at the end of the show. Despite all the pain the somewhat tyrannical habits of his people cause and have shown. He is still a Cardassian, and proud to be one.  

There is chief O'Brien. Who is the best representation of the working class genius I have ever seen. Really honours the type in a non patronising way. There were some slightly odd choices. Some things that don't quite add up for me. But overall, the show seemed to me to be genuinely inspired. To have a lot of hints in it about spiritual matters that I don't think the writers had any idea of. 

Why no disclosure? (Red Pill. Learning and polarity).

I've been wanting to write an article for a while. Analysing the red pill. What have I found to be correct within it? What have I found to be not correct within it? (A short but very relevant list!) 

Something about the article hasn't particularly worked though. Like, the words won't "flow". Perhaps it's because I don't deal a lot with women, as like, peers. In a potentially romantic sense. And I just don't care that much. Or perhaps it is because I am reaching for a higher point. Something that takes in the red pill as a reality. But is not the entire discussion. 

I think a point that is relevant here is the unconsciousness of unethical behaviours sometimes.  

Anyway, in looking through what the Law of One has to say on responsibility. Literally searching that term and reading for insights on that specifically (I wonder if responsibility is a distortion of the First distortion, the Law of Free Will, or the third distortion, the law of light/ wisdom?) I came across this. It is only the last paragraph that I actually want, but it feels wrong somehow to not quote the entire passage (even though it is long). Especially since I want to include the "I am Ra" at the beginning. I have a theory that that is there to call the relevant entity when you read it so you are watched over and not fooled by the negative:

Questioner: The pyramid shape then, as I understand it, was deemed by your social memory complex at that time to be of paramount importance as, shall I say, a physical training aid for spiritual development. At this particular time in the evolution of our planet it seems that you place little or no emphasis on this shape. Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct. It is our honor/duty to attempt to remove the distortions that the use of this shape has caused in the thinking of your peoples and in the activities of some of your entities. We do not deny that such shapes are efficacious, nor do we withhold the general gist of this efficacy. However, we wish to offer our understanding, limited though it is, that contrary to our naïve beliefs many thousands of your years ago the optimum shape for initiation does not exist.

Let us expand upon this point. When we were aided by sixth-density entities during our own third-density experiences we, being less bellicose in the extreme, found this teaching to be of help. In our naïveté in third density we had not developed the interrelationships of your barter or money system and power. We were, in fact, a more philosophical third-density planet than your own and our choices of polarity were much more centered about the, shall we say, understanding of sexual energy transfers and the appropriate relationships between self and other-self.

We spent a much larger portion of our space/time working with the unmanifested being. In this less complex atmosphere it was quite instructive to have this learn/teaching device and we benefited without the distortions we found occurring among your peoples.

We have recorded these differences meticulously in the Great Record of Creation that such naïveté shall not be necessary again.

At this space/time we may best serve you, we believe, by stating that the pyramid for meditation along with other rounded and arched or pointed circular shapes is of help to you. However, it is our observation that due to the complexity of influences upon the unmanifested being at this space/time nexus among your planetary peoples it is best that the progress of the mind/body/spirit complex take place without, as you call them, training aids because when using a training aid an entity then takes upon itself the Law of Responsibility for the quickened or increased rate of learn/teaching. If this greater understanding, if we may use this misnomer, is not put into practice in the moment-by-moment experience of the entity, then the usefulness of the training aid becomes negative.

On the subject of the general passage. My health has been bad for a few days and I have had to use a small pyramid for half an hour to even have the energy to pray! Also, another vague coincidence is that I have talked about several passages from session 60 a few times, from reading book 5. But the book 5 excerpt doesn't have this quote. It is just a coincidence. 

Anyway, onto the red pill:

Evaluating red pill ideas:

There are many red pill ideas. I saw this video recently that I thought was fantastic:

Youtube: Pearl: How I got Red Pilled: Pick Up Artists: June 14th 2026:

https://youtu.be/SIbeS2Q7dFY?si=kHinBALiovNNbvlp

Pearl for me is just unadulterated truth. While analysis is sometimes very good. The take away understandings and rules are sometimes what is useful. With Pearl there is none of that. There is no rule there is just her pure experience with a small bit of analysis:

You will see the truth and you will like it:

 

This is another video that is relevant:

Youtube: John Griffin: The Secret Reason Women Pi$$ You Off So Much: June 14th 2026

https://youtu.be/3kw1p6KlL3A?si=3MXneJZ7bKwsmR5v

Life experience + a 20 year marriage + daughters.  

The bad experience/ malevolence:

My mother has been a nurse for almost all of her working life. She has told me that she goes to house after house where a guy apparently did everything right (as far as we know). But because of divorce laws, he now has to live at home with his parents and fund the life of his wife and kids (plus probably her new lover). That he probably never gets to see. 

The divorce court system, from what I understand. Is purely malevolent. And is very very common. I remember a guest talking on Pearl Davis' show, PI Russell I think, who said he had a friend who had a divorce. His ex wife took a bunch of his money. So he was living in his car. He worked and worked and worked and got a promotion. Then he got enough money to rent a flat. His ex went back to court to say his pay had increased so she deserved more. The judge agreed and upped the alimony/ child support, and he was then poor enough to have to live in his car again. So he killed himself. 

When Ben Hart went to jail, in relation to a story of this same theme. Of feminist judges and crazy women. About 50% of the people that were in prison were there for unpaid child support. The situation is so bad for a lot of men that a lot of them throw away their ID's and become homeless. This is one of the reasons why they have such a big, unsolved, homeless problem in America. 

Another video to illustrate the point I will follow with:

Youtube: TaylorisOnline0: What duties does a woman have in a feminist society? June 14th 2026:

https://youtube.com/shorts/FT4S3WRMhMc?si=LvyKhPH9C4UF4j1k 

But what is the reason for this situation?

The reason is, as follows in my understanding. This follows on from what might be called red pill Lore or basics. I think Rollo Tomassi came out with it first. 

A lot of women follow a predictable pattern. In their twenties, they go out and have fun. They do NOT want to settle down. Their attitude is very much that guys that do want to settle down are kind of boring and such and 'weird'. Then, in their thirties, all of a sudden it is the opposite. Their biological clock is ticking and their social life decreases. All of a sudden their perspective changes. They want to settle down and they socially shame others to meet this goal. The guys that are not serious with them are suddenly "weird" and "man children" or whatever the put down is. 

And there is an issue here as well:

When they are in their twenties. They all like the same guy. Pearls video mentioned this. They all want the hot rich exciting guy that is fun for a good time. But in that way, most of them are not going for their looks match. A womans level is a man that will commit to her, not a man that will sleep with her. So what they need when they get to thirty and they have not landed that guy. Is a guy that will settle down with her. 

BUT, and this is a big but. If a girl does that. If they all go for the rich fun exciting guy that plows through them breaking hearts like a childless old feminist ploughs through cheesecake and wine bottles. They have been in a sense... "Alpha widowed". Meaning, they think excessively about the guy they could have had. And resent and hate their now husbands. They also want variety they had in their youth and do not have sex with their husbands.  

Women have many strategies for this, and one of them, one of the main ones really. Is Christianity. 

A lot of very naive guys in the Christian men will wife up these ex hoes. And the whole culture is there to support this. These women have a body count which is 50+, but when they go to church they play the Christian girl and most of them lie and say their body count is around 3. 

So this is the reason the exploitative divorce laws are needed. On a basic level society needs someone to look after the hoes that have kids. Because if you treat the mother badly. Then that travels down to the kids. This creates dangerous kids. Crime. Poverty. Drug Addiction. So humans have a deep innate sense of making sure that these women are looked after, without considering the overall ethics to the men involved. 

But there is another important aspect to bring in here, before we link it back to the Law of One quote and my larger point. This is all very unconscious from women. The second video there by Jon Griffin shows a bit of how they think. How these systems have formed in such a way. It takes a lot of commitment to create a Christian church for this purpose. Or to pervert and existing one. 

When you actually talk to women about this kind of thing. All of this is unconscious. Not unlike their sociopathic political viewpoints. The left wing has been responsible for Communism, which killed one hundred million people in the 20th century. The Khmer Rouge, Venezuela, The Holodemor etc. And no, socialism is not separate from Communism. They are a sliding scale as the free market can't compete against taxation and the state gobbles up more and more. 

When you ask a women, at whatever stage of this process. They will say they are conforming exactly to this model. When they are young they won't really engage with you but will indicate a kind of female empowerment and all of this partying stuff. Then at 30 sometime they will suddenly convert and settle down. Then later on they will just consider it all normal. 

But now the red pill is waking up. This fully unconscious process, which they mostly still won't reflect on. Is getting stopped. The girls settling down in Christian churches rely on guys belief in the lie of their low bodycount. But guys don't believe this anymore. The dating services are empty of men. The clubs are empty of men. 

Youtube: Dapper Dev: Consequences Have Not Yet Arrived For Women and the Truth About Women Must Finally be Told. June 8th, 2026:

https://youtu.be/3plKlrfFaaE?si=WUpVguytHYIBr7Os 

The Unconscious Aspect.

The unconsciousness of this is what I want to focus on though. I believe all this behaviour actually has an earlier route, which is the coming off the gold standard. Twisting the economy to be able to fund these vanity projects like feminism.  

But like I keep saying, as this is all unconscious, it has spawned a lot of second order effects. A lot which are contradictory and potentially self destructive. Men are, I assume, meant to serve as a kind of tax serfdom to enable womens committment to left wing politics. But DEI has forced men out of jobs. So they can hardly give all their money to women if they do not have any. 

The vast amount of hatred and venom that women in general have for men does not work well for whatever deep agenda is at play here either. Women saying daily on tik tok various nasty things is a symptom of this whole process of exploitation. Running away on its own steam. This is effectively the system facing entropy. 

As I said the process is unconscious. Women that are not in general unethical. Have done this entire process of partying and settling down, without any awareness. They genuinely think all these men out there doing things that slightly offend them are "narcissists". Not seeing their own tyrannical contribution to the situation. Or the completely natural forces at work (such as dating out of their league). So bringing awareness in has to become a very careful exercise. 

Why no disclosure?

Bringing it all together then. Question, if the Q paradigm is correct and the good guys have taken over a whole bunch of the world and are just walking the population through a kind of anti brainwashing in order to not have too much chaos. Then why is this? 

I think it comes down to the Law of One quote above. "If a greater understanding is not put into practice, then the usefulness of what is learnt becomes negative". 

The way I think of this is thusly: Say I am in a bad relationship of some sort. I am very stressed and take it out on my partner. But I do not realise it. I genuinely think they are doing annoying things but it is actually my own stress I am responding to.

Then I receive some relevant psychological information, spiritual information or feedback. I realise that she actually isn't doing things wrong I am just angry -> So in the example this piece of information is the "Greater Understanding". 

I can apply this in two ways.  

One, is I could apply the information positively. OK then, I should apologise. I should make an effort to never be angry again. Etc etc. Or I could apply this negatively: "OK, wow, she isn't actually doing anything wrong. But when I intimidate her she has more sex to placate me". So I carry on doing it. As an example. 

This example is deliberately simple to show the free will aspect. But in the example given in the Law of One quote. The reason to have the negative interpretation might simply be overwhelm. You learn a thing, but it is too much for you to learn and process quickly. So you just don't apply it. So you know what you should do. But you don't do it. 

Now we can put these two points together. The point on learning and free will here, and the red pill stuff. 

If we had some sort of disclosure or disclosure similar announcement. And people suddenly had more information. This might act in the way mentioned above. As an overload, that polarises people negatively.

Say for instance, it came out telepathy was real. And all of a sudden people had the idea that if they focused really strongly on other people that they could effect them. 

Say then you had a bunch of women that felt it was the right thing to do to send loads of hate towards men (or the other way around). Technically, they might have been doing that anyway. But the extra awareness and focus would make things worse - would polarise them towards the negative with far greater efficiency. Bear in mind, I suspect if these energies are effectively blocked, it effects the person sending the energy negatively (depolarising them so to speak!).  

So breathtakingly slow. 

This, to me, could be why this whole process, the process that the Q people are waiting for. So breathtakingly slow. A whole societal change. Consequences on evil doers. Confrontations people need to have with their own amoral choices. Understanding. Has to happen. 

I think a good deal of this might happen as the right wins at the ballot box. A lot of liberals are very well behaved as long as their side is winning. But completely lose it when their opponents seem to be winning.  

A lot of people have been living in huge stress and poverty. Poverty can cause problems in some circumstance that mandate a somewhat negative outlook I think. The fact that a lot of people are out of work at the moment in the UK because of a destroyed economy. Might be allowing a lot of people time to think through things to prepare them for any positive movement forward of our society.  

I am definitely learning slowly. I just came off Caffeine Free Pepsi Max (After caffeine and alcohol recently). It is late in the day to do that. To figure out drinking a black chemical isn't ideal when I have health struggles. I drink a lot of liquid. A LOT. I am like those monsters in the Faculty that just drink water. And I can't discipline myself sometimes to drink water itself so I had the Pepsi Max. But that is still a very basic health decision to still be learning (I actually read in the Law of One book 5 the opposite statement to that from the Law of One about an hour ago. "That one looks not at what has been done but at what is to be done" 94.9).

But I am probably a little further than a lot of people on the "spiritual" path. A lot of people have not even begun to take health decisions or spirituality seriously at all. Do not pray or meditate regularly etc. And I am still at this very basic level.  

We all have our temptations.

I had a very good idea for an article earlier today. A very exciting idea. One I was excited about. Because it is exciting. Exciting. 

I had thought that if we are to take the Law of One as correct. Which, I do. Then there is another subtle implication I had not thought about in any great depth. If the Law of One is correct. We are all telepathic! 

So, even though I take a skeptical, or cautious, view, towards a lot of the UFO community, and parts of the new age community. In this case I would say the fact that it is not proven. Is not a barrier here to considering how it might manifest. How it might be manifesting. 

But, that was the idea I came up with. Why isn't it the idea that I am writing about?

Well, I gave into an old temptation. It was one that I knew I shouldn't and I thought about it for a good hour or so. Like, not intensely, just considering. I thought to myself, perhaps I should go on that youtube video. That is very transcient material. 

It was not one that was labelled as transcient. But the youtuber is one that talks about that area. It did not feel bad when watching it. But then, a familiar paranoid feeling from my past returned. It was like a whole feeling. A whole way of being. I started getting really annoyed about relatively irrelevant things. Wanting then to make an article out of that, but I knew it wasn't good quality. 

And like a thief in the night. I realised it had 'taken' my thoughts and energy around these telepathic sorts of concepts. 

Well, we all have our temptations. Old temptations, and behaviours we are just changing now a lot of us.  

I once knew, for a very short while, a guy who had been an artist. But he said that his artistic ability had just stopped. He had not been able to make a piece of art in about three to five years. Which was exactly the amount of time he had been heavily into conspiracies. This guy knew absolutely everything in that area. He had read books on conspiracy. Alternative histories etc. 

Ironically, in the most practical terms. What I do, which is following on a "service to others" path, to use a phrase. Is actually way more effective if any of the dark things that the conspiracy theorists warn about were to happen. Recently, I have had not good health, which is probably to do with drinking 2 - 4 liters of caffeine free Pepsi Max per day. So I have switched to water, and I intend to stay on water. 

About two weeks ago, I had a super workout that lasted 2 hours. A lot more than normal. After that though, I was not able to do two hours again. I had to separate the aerobic and the weights and I noticed that one of the differences between the two hour and one hour sessions was that before the two hour sessions I was drinking water. Before the one hour ones I had drunk Pepsi Max. 

You can't find it on the internet anymore. But when I was younger and hearing about weight lifting, it was just known you stay away from soft drinks if you were serious in the gym.

Anyway, so that is what I have to say today. My temptation is transcient information, which is in line with the Law of One. Everyone has a temptation though. And I think the thing with any temptation is even the lightest indulgence in it causes all sorts of problems.  

Faith in the Law of One.

From book 4 of the Law of One:

Carla: My poor feet! Rheumatoid disease is notorious for its depredations upon
one’s extremities, and perhaps my hands, feet and neck have suffered the worst
from its progression. Thirteen operations on my hands and six on my feet have
staved off total dysfunction, but the old digits are not what they once were.
During these sessions, they suffered far more than normal, because when I was in
trance, I did not move at all. Those of Ra did not know how to make my body
move very well, and so whatever aches and pains I had became rapidly very
hard to bear. It was easy for me to be discouraged. I can remember asking the
Creator, with some asperity, what It had in mind when it gave me these gifts!
How inconvenient! Especially in terms of this contact, which we all knew was
special, I tended to feel that I had let down the side by these sore joints’ taking
time away from the sessions in length. Feeling unworthy in the first place, I felt
sheepish that I was, by these distortions, lessening the content of each working.

At this latter day, however, I have ceased to rail against whatever comes my way.
I am just glad to be here. And if I can still channel, fine. But I think all of us
have one main job, and that is just to be who we are, living in an open-hearted
love of the Creator and His creation.

I have been reading through various bits of the actual text. Of the material/ sessions. Processing things of unbelievable profundity. There are pretty direct things about 'life planning' said in some of these sessions. Things that boggle the mind if they are assumed to be true.

Which I do assume them to be true. I take the Law of One on faith. Which means, it does not need a falsification premise for me. Although I think the Law of One contact was very careful around things that could directly put them in the path of service to self forces, to the extent of actually lying (I.e. say World War 2 history was a deception in some way. Say Hitler never existed, or was a group of clones, or was a good guy they made stuff up about. I do not think the contact could directly say this kind of thing out of concern for the group (Don, Carla, Jim) doing this, whom would have disappeared and never been seen again had they published such material). 

Reading the actual text itself. The reflections on Carla's life planning that the contact confirmed. The entire saga of the Crucifixion of Esmerelda Sweetwater. Of course it brings the desire to know if I myself am destined for something specific if the planning is done to this level. But it also makes me in awe of the whole thing, and with a sturdy realisation that I will never know. 

But one of the things that is also convincing, on top of the somewhat detached text of the readings. Is Carla's summary here. The amount of medical work and the fact that she has both wrestled it and accepted it is pretty amazing. It gives perspective to a lot of my own struggles. Often I am trying to think aggressively of how to improve. But simply accepting the world as it is was only something I did once having read this. 

The Past.

A few insights I have had recently and shared here are continuing to bear fruit. 

The Law of One, in session 18.5. Talked about how no part of us really disappears. If we have a feeling/ desire and we push it down. It just sits there. 

I talked recently how I have changed my prayers around to get rid of the idea of "condemnation". One of my prayers had become a place I could hide behind and keep that perspective alive. That the Law of One book 5, and the contact in general, are very clear that to use that 'condemnation'. To stop continuing thought/ feeling on a subject, is not necessarily good. "There are no mistakes". 

Ideally I believe, the entropy discussed in session 46.9 might lead to a natural end point of those emotions. If the energy is allowed to express itself.  

On top of this, I have an insight that is only relevant if I were to assume the correctness of the Law of One paradigm. I think I was destined to read the Law of One and study it deeply. But if this is true, it means that previously in my past when I have not properly applied the Law of One, that the negative aspect of not keeping to it would be apparent in my life.

This makes a lot of sense. 

I have potential examples of this. But I do not think it would be interesting to recount these. I wonder if this applies to absolutely everyone that reads the material? Possibly excepting those that read it and do not resonate with it.