I 'Just Know'.

I have had a strange thing that's happened recently with this problem that I have outlined.

I outlined how a girl I felt very well matched to turned against me at a high vibration, I also mentioned how a friend was 'lying' to me in a way that was uncomfortable.

You know what I'm going to say, I feel this girl and the friend are/ have been dating. It is something I feel, it has no direct evidence, but I 'JUST KNOW'.

I'll outline some of this 'circumstantial' evidence:

One time when I made a piece of music about me and this girl and put it online, all of a sudden this friend changed his tune in a very strange way. I phoned him and he was on the phone and I just 'knew' they were communicating (I sometimes phoned the two of them at the same time and they were both engaged), then he said that he wasn't into music anymore and came out with some new-age-neo-liberal garbage. I think it was she was angry with me so told him not to support me musically.

Sometimes he offers 'proof' that my assertions are stupid but the 'feel' like a lie, the energy does not support them. You feel it when someone is offering something and the energy behind it. For instance, he says 'to show you how honest I am I will give you her facebook'. I checked her (I've only ever checked her the two times outlined in this post.) I checked her that time and there were none of the 'pictures' of her relationship with someone else he had been trying to convince me. It was a very perfectly presented facebook.

Later of course, recently I checked her again... She had blocked me. She had only been available to me for his display of 'honesty'.

Also, he says things like 'I have a text from (the guy she's seeing)' I feel the energy, as I have very often when he has said things (the energy has predicted things in the conversation before) I know this is a false energy and sure enough he can't find the text. It's relatively easy to find a text and if someone is falsely accusing you you would take the time to find it.

When I talk to this guy there is a satanic energy. Because he has insisted they are not together and I feel they are, so I have to, out of 'fear' not talk about it. (There are other more 'proof based' evidence than that outlined, this is a gist.) What happens when I have to suppress myself is the overlaying conversation is one way, and there is rich symbology showing what is 'really' being said.

It's all gotten pretty serious now. Everyone involved doesn't have an excuse anymore for their behaviour. They've seen the evidence and the signs and a lot of them have KNOWINGLY CHOSEN A ROUTE OTHER THAN THE POSITIVE. A certain amount of confusion is expected, once it becomes conscious there is responsibility taken for the actions involved.

Of course this guy has had to become more angry and unpleasant to justify his behaviour. Everyone involved, including all those I volunteered with has taken part.

Eventually of course, perhaps soon, all the truth will out and people will not be able to hide from it. People will be compelled to act positive and those without power will become those with power. Until that time comes I will suffer. I have experienced extremely painful dreams of loving this girl, she has chosen to avoid me at all costs and the positive feeling she once had does not go away, it is supressed within her. The LoO explained that.

Either another life or this one. I am unhappy with this arrangement but I do not have any power.

Carla's Chart For Real.

It's Carla's birthday. I have felt a massive increase in positive energy and coincidentally my last blog was on astrology. This is something that I have had many synchronicities to. Including seeing planets etc.

So here is her chart. I recall when I tried to do it before I had a hypo while I was doing it. Anyway, here goes. It is not a chart without it's complexities. However, these are 'organic'. I have seen some charts where the complexities is not organic and the different parts of the chart are completely at odds with each other.

I also feel a sense of apprehension about going up in vibration. This is good. It shows me a part of myself shrouded in darkness, but this is how it is.

To first note, Don Elkins chart in synastry, his Pluto sits on top of Carla's Sun. This largely characterised their relationship. It's the thing that indicates that she would want to 'see inside him', things may be 'hidden'. And what he meant for her was emotional depth and darkness.

It's a very loving chart. It obviously centers around this moon in Capricorn in the sixth house. Intimating a woman who has an ambitious energy towards what may be called 'service to others' (6th house). The moon is our life long obsession, it is where we are pulled. It will not be silenced.

This is inconjunct Uranus and Pluto, which means that the Uranian impulse, of sciency kind of eccentricity sometimes including UFO's. And the dark emotionally deep impulse, such as psychological depths, would be included in this service but NOT DIRECTLY. I am learning. This is such a great chart.

There is an Earth Trine between the Moon, Mars and Venus. This is a very strong energy. It is like this person has a strong 'back bone' and in some way their energy cannot be moved. Strong willed, as Cancers very often are.

Mars is in the tenth house. This persons would have to push a little, perhaps even 'fight', in the main way that she relates to the world as in her 'vocation'. This is in earthy Taurus and may have a monetary element to it.

The bi- quintile between the Moon as outlined, and Neptune on the edge of Virgo, going into Libra. Moon Neptune bi- quintile is another one we 'keep returning to'. Bi quintiles also tend to produce information. Mars Neptune has a reputation for 'black magic'. All it means is that there is a need to push, with things in relation to the fuzzy, metaphysical stuff.

Sun and Mercury are in conjunction. In Cancer which is a loving, sensitive and sensual sign. The Sun is almost unaspected but the rest of the chart is aspected somewhat tightly. With the earth trine there, there is little 'flexibility'. There is a lack of fluidity in this chart. Heavy tension with the amount of squares.

To be honest. It seems to me quite remarkable Carla did turn out like she has, so loving. Saturn is in a very weak square with Neptune. A kind of discipline of these psychic matters which would be a little harsh.

I wonder if this is because sexual energies cannot come through me so I am not percieving her correctly? Astrology is clearly not the whole preson here because the chart that I am viewing is a little off the person that I remember from Llresearch.

Basic Astrological Interpretation of Events.

(Minor update at bottom of page):

So let's look at what is happening astrologically at the moment (pertains to yesterday):

Yesterday, just as all the Greek stuff was heating up and either citizens, or paid security personnel were throwing molotov cocktails at police, Mars was directly opposite Pluto. Mars being in Cancer and Pluto in Capricorn.

Now Pluto is what is going on with the banking system/ corporations et al. At the moment. This being in authoritarian, ambitious, establishment, entrepreneurial Capricorn.

Mars was directly opposite that in home based Cancer. So Mars, Mercury and the Moon were saying, this is our home, these are the real people and our country. On a real aggressive level (Mars) a thought based sometimes bureaucratic level (mercury) and a relevant emotional level (Moon).

Uranus has taken off from Pluto, no longer being trapped in the square. When we hear about Uranian efforts at bringing forth greater technical wonders, it is no longer so completely directly connected with the Plutonian darkness. Uranus is out on it's own and David and Corey are now talking about things to do with 'data dumps' rather than 'mass arrests.'

Saturn is retrograding through Capricorn and the Saturnian power of crunching down (for good or evil) is diffuse at the moment. My guess is that when Saturn goes direct things will seem as though they are focused again. Through Scorpio and this may be directed at those with unjust use of power, or it may be those using unjust power.

Sun in Cancer trining Chiron in Pisces. Chiron in Pisces is atm is the wound that those in power are treating us badly on a somewhat emotional level. During sun conjunct Chiron I have been very annoyed, very upset for two years running now on that transit, that the media are not reporting as they should be. Chiron is deep collective wounds and Pisces is very concerned with Extra terrestrials and/ or physics types of sciences. Sun in Cancer is the whole feeling around us not being connected to our ET heritage (Pisces-Chiron), and on a very real level us not being able to improve our lives in relation to that.

Uranus going to VenusLeo and JupiterLeo. My Jupiter is damaged currently so I can't tell you. I'm not allowed to freely express myself as I have outlined. I can't tell you what Venus is doing either, it being currently to do with the nobleness of the ego and moving into a kind of organised working and protective personal mentality (Virgo)
 
(Modification, so perhaps instead of simplifying to Pluto = Illuminati. Pluto is what is going on with corporations banks politics. And Uranus is positive i.e. David and Corey, information released to the world, and the cabal now have a negative Uranus with computer tricks such as AI. Positive Pluto could be positive undercover things, or it could be, is more likely, when corruption is revealed. Photo of Pluto interesting synchronicity here.)

The Inputs.

For me at the moment the inputs are getting a bit too many, and the amount of technical information I am sifting through just living normal life.

It is fine though. I forget what it is I was trying to blog about. I think just a bit of an expression of thoughts:

A) I wonder if, in relation to Corey's testimony, whether I got diabetes to stop being 'noticed' when I was young. This is a bit of a strange idea but my type 1 diabetes lowers my somewhat 'impressive' (to boast) psychic tendencies. BM's high and it all goes. I always expected to be 'noticed' when I was young for my intellect but I probably wasn't because of this tendency, if I indeed would have been.

B) Greece... Yeah, they are going to have to do quite a lot to push that whole deal through, voting Greece, voting all nations, convince the more-often-than-not suspiciously helpful to the good guys IMF.(Benjamin Fulfords information on IMF that he later basically denied I suspect is the reason for this.) But on Greek deal, even if they do push it through you've got Spain, France in line. Brexit, and hundreds of potential black swans.

C) Essentially, although I do not think it likely I am being at all attacked I have had health problems that are coincidentally getting in the way. Some basic organisational skills should solve this.

D) Many of the patients of the NHS will die if there are such problems that extra water and food is needed.

E) Things are going a little well for me personally. I am struggling to get back onto any real spirituality but volunteering again has lifted me slightly. Basic organisational skills.

Two things.

A) Firstly, when not allowing certain things into sexual fantasies that I have already outlined there is less blockage present and more of a 'soul to soul' in my thought process. Certain perversities, I feel, are unpleasant to the soul and the soul slightly withdraws from the body when you engage, but straight normal stuff is different.

B) I am wondering about the efficacy of the term 'sociopath'. I realise the definition is very fluid and perhaps this is not useful. However, my normal problem when working on this sort of thought process is that I then try and monitor my thoughts for change. I will attempt to not bother. This 'label' I believe is counterproductive because it is a label, when having these thoughts my ability to see auras sparks.

Comment on 'global events'.

You know, this is going to sound directly weird, but many times when I say these things online they reflect back to me in some way, it is not something I truly believe but it is something I notice, I get a slightly uncomfortable 'watched' feeling from it but I basically don't mind. I see it as an inevitable part of some sort of structure I, and we all, are hooked into on a 'global level'.

Bear in mind I am NOT saying people are reading this blog and basing their decisions on it. That would really be pushing things a little too far. I am saying there is some sort of correlation and one of them is when I came on here saying something in line with 'forgive the Illuminati so 3ders don't have to face anything weird.' Something I felt quite strongly and then in Corey's following post the neg representative basically said the same thing. I.e. people's 'religions' etc.

There are other times of this. Journalists, patterns and sometimes when I comment a noticeable LACK of any response, from politically based people that could be reading here. Or someone who still speaks from themselves and answers in a slightly different way.

Anyway, this is something I notice and do not comment upon. I feel it as an 'energy' seeing it in the world and feel it is that 'energy' I am communicating with, not individuals. But when I read the most recent info. On what Corey had to say I knew I would be offering my opinion. Such as it is I didn't know what it would be yet. And I have gotten right ear ringing since doing this. I believe it is karmically perhaps not best to say that but feel like jelly writing this post.

So, the bad guys have said. Yes we are so big and scary that we are going to create real trouble if you don't let us run away. (I can't be non self conscious enough to just be blunt anymore). What I have to say is, if my opinion is relevant and it may be on a purely 'earth-person-expressing-view-free-will' concern. Is first you have to look at any evidence these people have that they do in fact have any power here. It sounded like in the exopolitics write up minds have been made up. But the negative only ever seem to lie. Only ever seem to bluff. I was told once in a dream, after a time of bizarreness/ lack of sleep etc. That if I did x which was abstract and was a behaviour I felt trapped in, that I would be locked in my head for the rest of my life in a kind of retarded state. Well, I'm still here, it did not happen. It was a lie.

My dreadful fears of the STO energy from the LoO and meditation and astrology etc. Being converted into negative energy and blocked expressed themselves in a completely different way, if at all, if it was even a justified fear.

So yeah, what can they do really? Is this another case similar to the security services when asked about what justifies their snooping 'Oh you don't know, we know better, be quiet'? What do you know? Uh, you're not sharing huh? What about the rules. Because of their efforts most of humanity doesn't know they exist. Can they just land their ships and laser people. I think not. They can fly little black cubes in the sky. Anyone I know apart from one twitter girl notice these kinds of things. No, no one notices who didn't notice before. Free will hasn't allowed any new behaviours, and you haven't lasered people so far even though they have the capability.

So offer up the proof. Run it past the positive ET's that know about these things. These Draco's are LIARS.

(So I don't 'condescend to my readers', I suppose it may simply be that people all over the place are reading this blog and comments I write occasionally, and that I am guided in the same way those people's guidance is guiding them'. I once checked a hit counter at the bottom of this blog and it was in the five figures, I don't check it anymore. My other blog (for google blog, this blog) does not have nearly so many.)

Just woke up and...

I've just woke up and realise that I have to carefully consider the reality I suspected a few posts ago. Since it was suspicion only and when I actually consider it logically it doesn't seem likely.

It doesn't matter now though.  I won't likely see those people again.

Still had a relative problem in relation to insights/ human design chart. I need to perhaps return to meditating. In the LONG term and with focus on this area I will be able to see the woods from the trees.

(I will put it back to basics, the evidence returned and gave me something to think on. Therefore, I will not consider this either way and will attempt not to blog on this subject, because it can't be very interesting for the readers.)