Recently. The only thing I am interested in is the gym. The other day, after a two hour workout. I felt angry and gritty and very good. I have struggled to pull up a deep reservoir of anger that I have known was there but am mostly not able to completely access. When I do I become more productive, but my thought is that a good way to handle things within myself is to pull up that anger. Exercise it out. Weights will do that. Then pull up more. Eventually starting to make real headway into my general background psychology. Having insights into and clearing that anger. Cleaning out things I didn't even know were an issue and that I had remembered.
While affirmations have been amazing. There are a lot of individual practices and things in general that have been very positive. The gym eclipses them all. I sometimes feel bothered when I go to bed and put the Law of One book 2 next to me and then I sleep. But even that sense of being "bothered" is not there when I have done a real workout. I am moved into a positive state, unbothered by such things.
Anyway, I wanted to talk about two separate ways that I have undone "condemnation" within my own mind, and what the implications are.
Negative "greeting".
I have mentioned previously. That I have stopped with the prayer of Saint Michael, and substituted the Prayer of Saint Francis. This is one of the relevant lines in the Prayer of Saint Michael:
"And oh, prince of the heavenly host, thrust into hell Satan, and all evil spirits that wander the earth for the ruin of souls".
A lovely poetic line. Like much of the Christian faith and bible.
As I have mentioned before. This comes from a teaching in the Law of One, fundamentally book 5, so also including the writings of Jim and Carla. That if you characterise things negatively. Like any so called attack. That you kind of mythologise it, and put too much energy into it, and it becomes worse.
I have applied that kind of theory to this set of prayers. I have said the prayer of Saint Michael for about 5 years or longer. I realise the way I have used it.
The negativity in the world I am subjected to often doesn't seem to have an easily identifiable cause. This is very deliberate I believe, in the favouring of very bureaucratic tactics. Of creating power structures where it is just not clear who is doing what. Like in an office at work, where decisions are getting made, discussed in meetings and whatever. But you never really know who planned what and why. Things just start being moved around. And at some point or other one will effect you negatively, and there's nothing you can do.
This works on a macro level as well. The system we live in doesn't actually appear to deliberately create any kind of slavery. It just creates a confluence of factors. The jobcentre is not meant to deal with illness. But if you are ill, and you go to the illness welfare place, and they have set the system so you aren't acknowledged as ill. Technically that is not the fault of said jobcentre. But they are still insisting you apply for jobs and threatening you about that while you are ill (not that they do actually, at the moment the jobcentre are quite understanding, but as a principle, and it has happened in the past). They also have nothing to do with the destroyed economy.
For this reason. I liked that prayer. I liked the idea of an energy coming from the prayer that found the true evildoer in the situation, and subtly moving them a bit closer to hell.
It gives you a little place that you can outlet that bit of anger you have at the situation. I heard a little bit, just a little, of the negative behaviour of a family member the other day. It's that kind of frustration.
But removing the prayer. I suddenly realised that emotion is no longer an option. It is interesting. But it does feel freeing in a subtle way. It doesn't allow, within oneself, that sense of "condemnation".
I do not believe having said the prayer of Saint Michael ever really did anything. It was originally a church prayer and I imagine that in church, you have the connection of the group that mitigates some psychological aspects of this.
I would also say that real world developments are on course to give people consequences in some form. What form that ultimately takes is really something for the higher forces to manage.
There are no mistakes, the Law is One.
This has been a huge one.
A similar thought process to what I just talked about and an insight I only had once is stopped the previous prayer.
The same process of minor condemnations is at work within myself, or was at work. I often now retell myself that there are no mistakes.
This includes any real or imagined, but also in general discussion. I was angry about something with someone. I did not condemn it due to this teaching. Because I did not condemn it. The analysis that is natural when an issue comes up was not halted prematurely. And was continued on past the point where it would normally stop and did give additional insight.
I think this is a little bit the positivity that can be gained from Buddhist teachings. Say you imagine that so on so slept with so on so in the past. You don't know for sure but you suspect. When you think of it you get angry, and let's say this is on some sort of boundary, where you are not sure if you have a "right" to be or not. Like a great deal of emotional upsets actually.
"There are no mistakes" kind of says OK, if that were true, it would not be a mistake. If it is not a mistake what is it? It is an action that has consequences. All actions of consequences, it's called cause and effect. Also, being upset about it is not a "mistake" either.
It simplifies a great deal of life to its mechanical bones and throws out a lot of thinking that doesn't seem that productive... But was not a "mistake" nevertheless!
This is along the same lines as Buddhist teachings. They say that attachment is what causes pain. I would say condemning oneself within the mind is something to do with that attachment. Something of its mechanism. If you think about this imagined event, "There are no mistakes, the Law is One". Then it's just a thing that happens. You observe it inside your mind and move on. Then you focus back on yourself.
It allows you to process it emotionally, rather than get stuck on it. To clearly ask yourself... "What changes if this is true?"
To be actually successful, I think, there is a lot of self focus.
