Lightning strikes.

Feeling successful after my last post. Feeling, as I now suspect was a ridiculous idea. I might be done with producing new ideas to put on here for a while. 

The reason being is that, I focused my energy on positively polarised things like I said in my last post. I got a result. It did not seem as though there is anything more to do from that place. Just be in that place. 

But, then I had a powerful insight. So here we are. One that might change my entire belief system in a powerful way. 

The Law of One on the Holy Communion:

Questioner: Thank you. Could you explain the basic principles behind the ritual which we perform to initiate the contact and what I would call the basic white magical rituals— principles of protection and other principles? Could you please do this?

Ra: I am Ra. Due to your avenue of question we perceive the appropriateness of inclusion of the cause of this instrument’s transitory vital energy distortion. The cause is a bias towards the yearning for expression of devotion to the One Creator in group worship.

This entity was yearning for this protection both consciously in that it responds to the accoutrements of this expression, the ritual, the colors and their meanings as given by the distortion system of what you call the church, the song of praise, and the combined prayers of thanksgiving and, most of all, that which may be seen to be most centrally magical, the intake of that food which is not of this dimension but has been transmuted into metaphysical nourishment in what this distortion of expression calls the holy communion.

The subconscious reason, it being the stronger for this yearning was the awareness that such expression is, when appreciated by an entity as the transmutation into the presence of the One Creator, a great protection of the entity as it moves in the path of service to others.

The principle behind any ritual of the white magical nature is to so configure the stimuli which reach down into the trunk of mind that this arrangement causes the generation of disciplined and purified emotion or love which then may be both protection and the key to the gateway to intelligent infinity.

I am reading book 5 at the moment. I have been getting a fair amount of synchronicities around all of this. Which I have been leaning into. But it is not a language I really appreciate or think a great deal of. I am more enamoured with the philosophical/ Stefan Molyneux kind of direction of logical deduction. 

I recall a week or so ago, perhaps a bit longer. When I wrote a blog on here mentioning Don Elkins and what he was perhaps thinking. I.... do not like talking about this. The reason being is that it is closely related to the insanity of believing I was Don Elkins in a past life, as I did in the past. Which I have identified as being potentially linked to the unconscious attempt to gain status, where it had been redirected from my actual life through social ostracism, and physiological issues linking to mental illness. (There is a transit strongly talking about this today. Mars conjunct Algol (trauma) in the gate 8.3. The gate 8 was where I had identified these tendencies previously linking to my unconscious Earth in gate 1!)

Anyway, I did talk a bit about Don. There was something that just seemed obvious while I was reading book 5. And I got a synchronicity. One then, and one linking recently again. This was the feel of "Carla" that I got. Super talented guys with a religious song in the American South that I associate her with:

Youtube: Amazing Grace - Johan Borgh and Enil Ernebro: October 3rd 2022:

https://youtu.be/7VMZoTImriI?si=8I7KCdXd5o_h4RfC

Of note here is music is something I genuinely love. A language that Carla speaks.  

Anyway, while reading the Law of One book 5, I have seemed to have synchronistically been going through the same kinds of things. I realised yesterday, that a mega reason that my focusing on the positive is good for me is that it retains a bit of my energy back. Going to the gym with my precarious health I was overdoing it. But consistency is very important for my medical situation. This is one of the pieces of guidance discussed in book 5.

Another thing was Don crashing out over the Hawk in a house he was considering moving to. That he applied a very logical framework to. "If we had not seen the Hawk we would have gone there, so it must have meant something bad." It is likely to me that the message was not just for Don. But was a general background of magick that the other two would also have appreciated. Just a general background of magick that those spirits enjoyed gracing the group with. 

The other day while walking, having just read this Hawk section. I saw a Deer. It is not something frequently seen in England. I have seen one one other time and I am in the countryside almost daily. It was a baby deer. That seemed unperturbed as me, one other and an American Staffy (a larger version of a Staffy!) walked by; the Staffy didn't notice the deer. Bizarre of a deer to not think that kind of dog might be dangerous.  

Then the change:

Things were kind of flowing. In the past few hours. I have had sudden "disagreements" with this material. The ideological position of forgiveness without contrition is very negative to me. I do not care at the moment what particular source opposes this. I just know it. It's evil is articulated in the abuse communities. And it has been philosophically justified as incorrect. But Carla mentions it in relation to the negative entities in the fragment I have just read; Fragment 48. Carla was pushing forgiveness without contrition through Q'uo as late as 2009, I think, it might have been later, but I have a specific session for that.

Then there was something that just didn't gel in the session itself. There was also the casual suggestion by Carla that her cat is reincarnated from another cat and I refuse to engage in that kind of thinking. It is maddening. We do not have authority or insight into the world beyond this one. 

Then, this evening, I look at a video that is mentioning Christianity, and mentions that Jesus did not necessarily say the communion stuff. Since Paul, the false apostle said it first, and the gospels were written after Pauls. This could mean they were put in. 

The murky truth:

This means that I have a difficulty with the Law of One directly. The session stated above. I do already have things I don't know if I believe about it. For instance, I do not know if I believe the story on Hitler. My thinking is that if there has been some kind of lie about that, and it being illegal to oppose the mainstream narrative in some countries indicates that could very likely be the case. Then the Law of One contact could not say that. To not oppose the negative in a concrete way and also, because of free will. To not lead the questioning into a tangent. (They said very early on, I think session 2.2, or could have been 1.0. "What we have to share with you is philosophical not historical". Meaning, they will tell the truth on philosophical matters, but feel no responsibility to tell it on historical matters!)

Also, the implication of understanding, acceptance and forgiveness. Understanding and acceptance I understand. Not yet forgiveness. But I wonder if the term forgiveness was to keep in line with free will, and it could actually mean something different. (I have more on this, perhaps unsurprisingly!)

At the moment, I am struggling a bit with a lot of these kinds of thoughts anyway. I have had a few times where the information I am looking at lights up in a "Q" kind of way. Human Design transits and such, dates, future events, theories on what 'comms' are telling us all. But I aggressively oppose that kind of thing within myself. There have been too many false starts now on Q stuff. I can only grip what is in my life and infront of me. 

In general. I have an inner rage that can't be opposed. Everyday on twitter in England. Some horrible news thing comes through. 3 year old gets thrown into a crocodile enclosure by immigrant. Disabled man has his eyes gouged out by immigrant. 

I have seen enough to not completely oppose Q. Such as some things around the Trump election. But I also cannot commit myself to the belief in any real way to the paradigm that things will get better. That positive entities are guiding everything. Or that things like miracles, telepathy and energy healing are possible. When there is such dogged evidence to the contrary of the telepathy and energy healing. (I do feel the positive entities though I am not really doubting that!)

Where this is all going is that I am now doubting whether I should be doing the Communion. It has been a very important part of my life since Easter of 2022. When I went to church, not knowing it was Easter Sunday, and started communion from them. Having experienced what felt like positive spiritual power from this. 

This might be like one of my semi regular now faith crisis such as when I have thought I should stop prayer a few times. Anyway, it felt appropriate to write on this blog for the moment.