Going through a bit of a change at the moment.
I have type 1 diabetes. Because I am getting to the gym now. Which I LOVE. I have had to lower my long term insulin. A diabetic that uses insulin has two types. One long term, one short term. Exercise has the effect of lowering the need for insulin.
But, I won't be going to the gym daily. So I need to lower my long term. And some days the exercise will make up the difference, and some days, the lack of exercise will not. So I will have low long term insulin on those days. Meaning I have to restrict the short term insulin I do. It gets very unpredictable at high doses if the long term is too low. So I will have to restrict my carbohydrate. No more rice meals. No more porridge or muesli. Only things like fruit and non carbohydrate. Like vegetables and meat, salad. Maybe potato waffles. 5 or less. The only time I would be able to eat something of a lot of carbohydrate value is when I have done a LOT of exercise. More than the amount to bring me back to normal. Which I won't do because I need to keep going every other day.
So I am effectively locked into the best diet for weight loss. I might succeed at that where so many fail. Currently 93 kg. My perfect weight is 75. Mark this spot!
I have had BIG insights into how a lot of stuff runs, metaphysically, recently. One of the most significant transits I think for me has been that while transiting Uranus was in the gate 8. It completed a channel that I think was a big part of my "not self". The part of my not self that precipitated. Really strongly linked into, some confused ideas I had that linked to my previous schizophrenic breakdowns.
This was a linking of the G- self through to the throat, which Carla had, even if it was from another channel. Ah man, I do get afraid here I might get too complicated. But here we go. The G to the throat. Men can have this as well obviously. If I had of had that, I would have been naturally immune to getting conditioned there. But I didn't. I had half the channel. Which feels to me to be the most lethal. Having half the energy. Feeling it needs to be applied. But not having the 'full solution'. So that energy, from a defined centre no less. Potentially gets funnelled into something that the outside world considers correct.
But what I think, is that the G- self to the throat connects strongly to something that is legitimate in a limited context (so for Carla herself!) But has become overly homogenised. That is, the idea that spirituality boils down to a very love based, and devotional set of ideas. That that is the solution. I also think this relates, this is even, the female homogenisation of spirituality.
I have this set up. Like I said. I have gate 1 hanging on a defined G- self. Also a defined throat. When Uranus was in gate 8 it became a whole thing for me to let go of something, I couldn't really articulate what. The schizophrenic type thoughts were triggered a bit and I settled with it being some reference to the idea of being a spiritual leader or teacher I was hung up on which was related to this kind of homogenisation.
This was also, the same likely homogenised viewpoint that David Wilcock was battling with. Which I covered on my last comments when he quoted the Law of One. He had a hanging gate 1 on an undefined G- self. Which would likely have made the connection even stronger!
It was always there, something I didn't quite have answers on specifically. But that I knew was kind of getting worked out. Then I checked the transits yesterday.
Uranus moved out of gate 8 on the SAME DAY I had that insight about the prayer. And it not working for me. Which is also something I got indirectly from Carla!
To me, this kind of exact expression of the transits is common, but it always, somehow, re amazes!
There is a lot I have been thinking about how my life seems to be improving with this insight on prayer and stopping it. But I will leave that for another article potentially. Also, it is fairly significant that Uranus has now moved into gate 20.
