It's very sunny here in England. English weather is extremely variable. Partly from the humidity. It makes the cold colder and the hot hotter. You are either in a fridge, or a sauna.
Yesterday, I fell asleep before doing many things that were important for me to do. At 21:00, slept through to 9:00; and I would've slept longer had the neighbours lawn mower not woken me up.
I forgot my second prayer for the day. Also, I have had prayers of protection for the night time, a third set, but about 1/4th of the time I don't get to those.
The same thing happens frequently when I have forgotten to pray. My dreams improve. And I have often wondered if the prayers are blocking out some sort of helpful energy.
This is the reason, as I have discussed before, that I have stopped prayer previously. I do wonder if there is some other thing I should be doing. Some other spiritual practice I should be replacing it with.
But then I stop prayer and, predictably, my life just disintegrates. Problems far more serious than low level of dreaming appear.
Today, also in conjunction with chatting it over with Grok. (I ask Grok to draw Tarot cards frequently.) I had a realisation that aligns precisely with the part of the Law of One I am reading at the moment.
Of the prayers I say, I say three that are from the world, already out there somewhere. Then several, five to ten or so of my own made up ones.
The three prayers from the world. One of them is the prayer of Archangel Michael. Another is one I got from a Q post.
Both of these discuss a battle against evil in some manner. This is very much not in line with the Law of One. That advised reframing experiences generally in a way that does not cause conflict. So a "negative psychic attack", becomes a "negative greeting", as an example.
It could be that these specific prayers are not good. The ones blocking information that is relevant from coming in.
It is likely that the spirits, or the part of my mind responding to this prayer. Are not able to fully know if something is good or bad in the large sense of things. Things are a risk. If I meet a hot girl. There is a risk she will jump off into kind of sociopathic behaviours. Cheating, creating drama etc. But there is also a risk of the girl deciding not to behave like that, and/ or me gaining something from those behaviours. Like, say the experience put me in contact with other interesting people. Or creating a good song.
It could be that the block of protection would just block the person out as an 'unknown'?
Another example is, if people are sending information to you. If they are angry at you and you are receiving it, assuming that paradigm (Psychology would call this a conversation with your internal objects). Then their perspective might be based on nothing, societal brainwashing and lies. But that is still, nonetheless, their perspective. So receiving that energy might be helpful. It might be like 90% lies, and 10% truth?
Applying the wisdom.
The dream tonight, I concluded from it, that I have framed previous situations in my head as my deliberately breaking contact with other people. But that's not the way it is, and I do not know why I did that. Perhaps it's a locus of control thing. The truth is... They broke contact with ME. This changes the conversation a lot. If I were to see them again in the future. I could say that. Especially if people were to frame it as me breaking contact with them, as it means they don't have to explain anything. It places the burden of the broken relationship squarely on me. This dream is a pretty priceless piece of insight.
I have had dreams before that far more directly gave the guidance that protective prayers were an issue. Years ago. About four years ago now. But I have only just got this! It could have been though that in that specific case. The protective prayers were preventing people from moving against me!
It is difficult holding my identity as "Christian". When I do not believe in salvation by faith. I was thinking it through today. But I do still pray, and do communion. I do believe in a God that is relevant to my life. My identity is closer to Christian than atheist.
But, looking at the motivation of my spirituality. It is clear to me that it is very much based on Carla Rueckerts teachings. As I was reading in Book V of the Law of One.
On that note. Even though this does not feel explicitly comfortable. I have replaced the two prayers I mentioned above. Which I am no longer comfortable with. With one that Carla said every day. The Prayer of Saint Francis:
Lord, make me an instrument of your peace:
where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy.
O divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Changing this prayer around this morning has already had a strong effect. I feel, moreso, that I have not prayed. It seems to me that the two prayers I got rid of are the ones that provide much of the strong feeling I get from prayer.
In the Law of One, the contact also told Carla she had been praying a certain prayer so long that it had manifested in her real life as it got to the roots of the mind. So it will be a while before the effects of the protection prayers fall away and, assuming I stick with this prayer, the effects of this one grow and manifest.
Deep teachings.
Another gem, actually in line with what I have just discussed. Is this one. I am going to shorten the quote. It is a long quote but I only read the first line and wanted to sit with it:
Questioner: The instrument had some question as to her vitality. We were having a hard time appraising it. Is it possible for you to comment on this?
Ra: I am Ra. We scan this instrument and find that we may be of service without infringement due to this instrument’s decision to abide by the most careful appraisal possible rather than the most desired.
The profundity of this statement to my understanding of free will. Is spectacular. It has become suddenly clear to me that I might have never understood free will at all.
So if someone asks a question, but the answer they want is not the truth, it is against free will to tell them the truth?
We are held to less of a standard of free will than an angelic entity. But I always just assumed if people asked a question, then that was the free will permission to give them the answer? This explains a lot of discussions and experiences I have had.
I do not necessarily think we are held to this standard. Like, Stefan Molyneux says that if your friend is going to marry the wrong girl. You stage an intervention. You tell him why. We are not floating in the ether with a constant awareness of the Creator. We live in the real world where things like who our friends marry is important and will effect us a great deal. Jesus directly corrected people a great deal.
There is also the real world. Like, if someone says "who won that political race", and the candidate they hate won it. There is also objective reality meaning you have to tell them. Politics is interesting in that way because the law of free will doesn't seem to hold a lot of sway in politics. The losing side loses, and that's it. The economy crashes, and that's it.
But even so, just for understanding the concept as a theoretical, in it's purest form. This one is big for me. I still can't quite get my head around it. This level of purity of free will would seem to disagree with the concept that correction was ever possible, I suppose in this case it was as it is desired. It probably also links to the Transformation of the Mind, and the hardening to the world of the negative polarity.
Finding outer teachers.
Last point, all that stuff I was talking about yesterday. Understanding, Acceptance and Forgiveness. If this paradigm exists it will definitely exist outside the Law of One (a point I find Christians in general are resistant to. If their ideas are correct they have to exist outside the bible).
I found this video today while on youtube, I think it does very well in squaring with the Law of One ideas. In a sense this guy is doing what I am trying to do, since I am trying to find and discuss tools that improve life. But he has focused on self help types of sources so maybe he has done so in a slightly better way. Whereas my focus is more squarely/ exclusively, on spiritual and metaphysical ideas.
Youtube: Clark Kegley: Is "letting go" part of acceptance? October 30th 2025:
https://youtu.be/T4Y-BQOIYHU?si=GmHSrdb_yeAm3fxs
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