Fogginess.

Not much to say. Just a quick check in for a few reasons. 

A) I am not going on twitter anymore. Elon has stated that he is starting to do a rate limit process. Where users who are unpaid can post twice an hour. I had not understood how much going on twitter effected me. I would often go on all day. I would be on it all day from when I woke up to when I went to bed at night.

But if Elon is putting in rate limits. He basically doesn't want me there. The Law of One is quite clear that on the service to others path you either offer service or withdraw if no service is requested. 

The amazing thing for me though is that I didn't realise how much of my cerebral energy was going there. There are a lot of highly intelligent comments on X. A lot of highly complex. Political, scientific, philosophical, or just all around deep posts.

When I am not on twitter. I find that I have more of that cerebral energy. I find that when I wake up in the morning, I can go on philosophy youtubes. Which is something I really like and was not able to make myself do previously. Might in the long term improve my output here. I am also reading slightly more. 

B) My health struggles are not yet fixed. I thought they would be fixed. But it doesn't look like they are yet. I also have a new complication. Gaining weight has thrown up an issue for me as a type 1 diabetic. My insulin rates are set. But there is a huge difference in insulin requirement between resting and active now I have gained weight. There is also other strange things. Such as that my body has a craving to supply sugar to all of itself but seems to only have the appetite to supply a thinner version of myself. There is definitely a tension there and I have a theory that there is in fact a natural inborn mechanism to try and get back to a healthy weight. Even if a lot of people don't have an experience of this. 

Put simply. Really simply. These are interesting insights I think. I have a lot of insight into metabolism and such being a diabetic and this might, given enough time, provide insight into how the body works in general that can inform others trying to lose weight. But simply put at the moment. I am kind of compelled into exercise. I am going to do low insulin and cover the shortfall with exercise. I need to modify my life to accomodate this, and will probably have experiences in exhaustion and such.

This is all a bit stressful and weird so I am not focusing on writing the blog. As in, I am literally not focusing. Not deciding not to focus. Not feeling clear enough to write. 

I have been having my normal profound thoughts. Reading in these areas and such. Reading the Law of One. But at the moment because of all this health stuff I am just completely lacking clarity.