3 ideas for other blog entries.

At the moment. I am not able to get my energy back to where it was. To consistently put out things like, insights on the Law of One etc. It is just not coming. 

To that end, I have a thought about something I have wanted to do for a while but just didn't feel quite right. But now it might work. There was a guy called Ryan Gable who made a youtube video against the Law of One. I watched 20 minutes and it was humorously bad. A lot of what he said was "If you asked followers of the Law of One what they think about x they would say..."... Followed by something I have never heard in my life. 

The benefit of this is that I am kind of drawing off his energy, rather than using my own.  

A second video that might do with a bit of analysis or "take down" even is that Stefan Molyneux has recently done a take down of mysticism as a concept in an X space. I could do an analysis of that. Since it is Stefan Molyneux, it is highly likely he has basically done a positive narrative. But the show is entitled "Do not F with Mysticism", so might be worth a look. 

I realised recently that the experience that eventually got me to look into the Law of One could be described as "mystical".  

I do have other things to talk about such as holes I have now poked in Aaron Abke's narrative. I watched, only a ten minute youtube where a guy pokes very meaningful holes in something Aaron Abke said. Poked holes in one of Aarons videos I really enjoyed and remembered well. And it just took actually properly reading the bible passage Aaron had selectively quoted to reveal a completely different story. It was shocking. 

But yeah, a lot of the time I have wanted to say something based on a subject and the energy has just abandoned me. I keep on thinking if I sleep the next idea will form and yet it doesn't come. But these are some ideas I have.  

To Communion or not Communion?

One of these issues I am suddenly thinking about a lot. Therefore, this is going to be a long blog post. 

To repeat previous things I have said. I decided not to do Communion after I found out it was likely something that Paul pushed. He came out with it in Corinthians 1:17 in 50 AD, and the gospels were written from 70 AD onwards. 

It was quite clear to me when I stopped doing it that I should stop doing it. 

Since then though. I have struggled with this decision a bit. There seems to be clear benefits to stopping it that I will mention. But it is not clear if these benefits are real or kind of illusory. 

I get up, absolutely sure I should go back to it. Then get on with things and am absolutely sure that I should not do it. I pick up a guitar book and play something and I know that this is what I should put my energy into instead. I note health difficulties and hope to improve these in the best way possible. Via the gym and via just 'pushing through' in a way to a better result. 

Which is what I feel now. Perhaps some analysis here will lead to some sort of answer?

So to start with. Where did the idea of Paul is a false Prophet come from. Aaron Abke? Do I like Aaron Abke? Not really. While I liked him and admired him a great deal to begin with. This is a person that is obsessed with a very destructive diet. A vegan diet. There are a lot of horrible health problems that come with a vegan diet. He has kids, and someone with that fanaticism I don't think will be giving meat to their kids. Even if it is illegal not to do so and babies have died from vegan diets before (and vegan parents jailed, as they should be!)

He also support forgiveness without contrition. This is his answer to all things. Which is just a purely evil idea. He is not someone anyone should be following as any kind of status of a wise person. 

But I said there were positive changes since I have stopped Communion. Haven't I?

OK, let's examine that. 

The insights into things. 

Two that I can think of. When I started Communion. I was embroiled in a very self destructive woman who was involved with someone else I know that is... dangerous to my mind. Like, my best understanding of them is that they are dangerous. The dream I got following doing Communion was of being protected from something demonic in relation to this whole situation, and I immediately disconnected from her mind games and shortly after (six weeks or so) she killed herself. 

The insights I had as soon as I stopped Communion was that her decision to be with this person wasn't a "mistake". "There are no mistakes" as the Law of One says. But it was a legitimate choice. To accept this choice. It seemed to create shifts. 

The second insight I have had recently that I don't think I would have had without the Communion. I have a friend, of a sorts. Who I recently re-contacted. We talked a bit about his life and such and I mentioned my own spiritual beliefs a few times. Then later, I was spending time with him again. He received important news and I had a lot of insight into what his internal world is like. I journalled a bit about what I perceived the cause and effect in his life is (having listened to Stefan Molyneux and such), how he was addressing things and such like that.

Both felt like they could be important insights. But then, from another perspective. They might not be. 

Both of these issues are kind of irrelevant to my life. 

The lessons. 

Reading the Law of One recently I learned, in the very last few sessions Carla's lesson seemed to be that any kind of disharmony. Any kind of viewing of others, even those being obviously manipulative. As other than 'The One Infinite Creator'. Was a blockage of her energy field. Like I said, my communion dream was "This thing here is demonic, get it out of your life". It was very powerful and positive at the time. 

But I wondered, going on the previous Communion thoughts I had (blood magic being black magick as an example!) That what if, based on the above example. The Communion dream had made me see others as separate from myself? It had identified others as demonic as an example. 

This, I think, is a specious argument. While yes, it does add in some information about others having not exactly positive intentions. Possibly being aligned with the negative. The girl killed herself at the end of the day. She was not right in the head, and this is not the actions of someone in contact with positive entities. The balance here is an issue I am not sure about. 

The second example. The friend who had personal issues. Now, my input was to take interest in things like Stefan Molyneux and spiritual things. He was not interested in that. He has... everything mapped out as to how he is going to handle everything. 

In essence. I don't know the value of my journal entry looking into this and the tools that I generally have to meet this. Since coming away from Communion these kinds of thoughts and analysis' have seemed more important to me. What I THINK the Communion would have done is to remove my focus so this guys issues would fall into the background and not be relevant. Just because, like I said, that kind of analysis wasn't so important when I was doing the Communion.

Even though I have previously seen some value in these kinds of analysis. To my mind. Drinking a glass of grape juice and some bread as a ritual that increases the power of my heart chakra. Makes these things fall into the distance and be forgotten and turns my attention more towards the future. Would be a positive thing. 

Music.

I remember various Christians, such as Mike Cernovich, saying that music like Metallica is evil. That it links us subconsciously with demonic things.

I thought that was crap. It happens with a lot of different Christians. Mike Cernovich, the first time I saw him was when he was talking to Stefan Molyneux about his book 'Gorilla Mindset'.  

I disagree with this. Consider this fantastic piece of music. Metallica is amazing. As was Hotel California. This is good music that enriches life:

Youtube: lissiemusic: Lissie - Nothing Else Matters (Metallica Live Cover) - Jan 15th 2011. 

https://youtu.be/0Ia9N9MdSa0?si=qsLUrVRT1qM7ahfh

That is not demonic. But THIS is, in my view:

Youtube: The Axis of Awesome: 4 Chords. Music Videos. The Axis of Awesome: June 20th 2011. 

https://youtu.be/oOlDewpCfZQ?si=5Yy_uLodk60reciR

There is just hypnotic and wrong. It trashes, it devalues, what music is. And pretty much every song that I have heard with these four chords has FELT wrong. It is very popular so I'm sure there are some I still like with this chord progression. But a lot of the main songs. I.e. Journey, have always just felt wrong. 

One of the very concrete benefits I have gotten since stopping the communion is an improvement in my music. This will be something I will be sad to give up. Something that is important to me. 

I started making music which I have not done in a while. I also started working on more guitar techniques which is enjoyable. When I was doing the communion. I didn't do any of that. My ability to make music was stunted. And the thing I enjoyed doing, way more than I enjoy doing now, is playing scales. 

Which is why I bring up that Axis of Awesome video. The massive homogenisation of music. I have made songs with those chords without knowing it. Including some that I value greatly and have powerful meaning. 

The idea of playing scales might be something I am using subconsciously to break out of that four chord pattern. It might be, in a way, increasing my musical talent. Slowly learning keys and such to overcome the tendency towards stupid chord playing. Whereas, cashing out now, making music at the level of skill I am on now. Might be less preferable to me. 

Other effects.

There are other general effects I am experiencing that seem to me to be due to this. I do not think I would recover more quickly from surgery if I were doing Communion. But I do feel a sense of not being able to "fill myself up" with energy again. 

I feel a sense of boredom in a lot of the things I used to find interesting. This may be health related. I am more tired than normal. But it feels like there is an element of energetics too. 

The Law of One gave information about Communion in Session 64.4. I am not ultimately sure about Jesus, Paul, or Communion itself. But I do feel that now the Law of One has justified Communion as a legitimate white magick ritual. That it comes under a different 'purview' of sorts. Blood magick being negative and such. Well this isn't blood. It is not draining a sheep like some sort of halal ritual. It is literally just bread and grape juice. 

So, I'm probably going to go back to it now. I do not have a clear idea on this yet. But I am going to buy some grape juice today. 

In my Communion, I sit there with bread and juice and light a candle. I open a word document. A journal I use for this moment. And I note down things that come to me. In my last Communion, which I was looking at in thinking all this through. I did something I have never done before. I wrote random words that didn't make sense to me. One of them on searching was German, the other two were highly relevant, specific and significant. 

I also feel a sense of headiness. A sense of my energy being higher in my body. There is more I have to say on this. More thoughts I have. But for the moment that's where I'll leave it. 

Vexing spiritual issues.

At the moment. I have had a surgical procedure. I thought it would be a normal procedure. I imagined it as being fairly easy. Like, they would put a tube in me and I would be upright and chatting fine, but the actual procedure itself was more serious than that.

For this reason. I am low on energy. Sleeping 12 hours and even outside of that, on top of the 12 hours; laying about, and not even watching TV sometimes. 

I just watched a livestream by Bryson Grey. In which he is discussing his faith and what he has discerned from the bible. It made the case that a problem during the time after Jesus' time. Expressed in Romans 1-4. Was that the Jews of the time were trying to make the case that only Jews had received the blessings of God through Jesus. And Paul was trying to make the case his words applied to everyone. Also, quite explicitly. Paul talking about salvation through works. Not faith. 

Throws a bit of a spanner in the works. It doubts the idea I have had thus far as Paul being a false prophet. If Paul was responding to unhealthy ideologies amongst Jesus' followers... Then it puts him in a more positive light. I still have the information from what I have absorbed via Aaron Abke. But it is interesting nonetheless. And it casts a bit of doubt on the idea that it is best to stop communion. 

I am vexed. 

I wonder if the best way to actually understand this all is to actually read the bible and see what I think. I have read parts. I remember reading Acts. That I thought was hysterical. Because it basically involved the Disciples setting up a kind of Commune and... I kid you not... Killing people in a kind of Darth Vader fashion that didn't donate enough to it. This is directly in the text. I didn't get it off a youtuber. But perhaps reading a larger part of it. Corinthians. Romans etc. To see what general message I get from these things. Would solve some of these issues. 

I am in a slump. Perhaps this theological slump has arrived at the same time as the energy one for a reason. That I can think these things through. I am not praying. I need a bit of energy to pray. I am enjoying the gym far less. Which is annoying. Meditation feels great. It feels like I am getting a bit of energy back slowly. But like I said, I am in a "slump". The surgery felt like a bit of a "violation", and I feel I have picked up a kind of sadness. 

What the Law of One really means?

From the Law of One book 5. Fragment 55:

Apparently, if Carla had chosen to meet difficulties in
completing our lease agreement with our landlord by allowing a feeling of
separation from him to occur or had allowed this same feeling of separation
to grow for Don as he hemmed and hawed about what house to choose in
Atlanta, that allowing of separation of self from other-self could have been
energized by our negative friend until her self was separated from her
physical vehicle, and her incarnation would have been at its end. She had to
deal with our landlord, who had numerous requirements for our leaving
that he felt justified in making, and with Don’s mental condition, which
was beginning to show further signs of the long-term stress to mind and
body that commuting and worrying about his job had brought about.

So here we get to the very end. The Penultimate "Fragment" in the last book of the Law of One. And we finally get a direct understanding of what the Law of One actually means in the real world. We finally get a real definition relevant to the real world. 

I had not completely understood or known what it meant and in truth. I read the Law of One because of all it's wisdom. Not because I am consciously trying to learn the Law of One per sey. But in thinking through what it meant, I did not have a clear idea. I did wonder if Stefan Molyneux's Universally Preferable Behaviour. Which relies on Universality, and kind of "is" the Law of One might be relevant. As though it was not a 'felt' thing, but a kind of guideline to start off theoretical, philosophical and theological concerns. But that's not what this line is saying. 

Jims casual description of "that he felt justified in making". Makes me think that the requirements were not justified. That they were dealing with someone that was quite unpleasant. I have always felt very strongly, as I am sure that most of us do. That people that do negative things, that I define as negative of course. Deserve pushback, and that this is a good thing. 

It is probably the same situation for most people. It is probably a single learning. But it is not completely clear that say... Don would have experienced the 'lesson' in the same way. We learned from the moment that Don and Carla swapped energies temporarily. That Don did contain a whole lot of energy that was a lot tougher that he just generally carried. Don was also referenced as getting in arguments a bit more without suffering health problems at the same time. So it could be that because Carla is a 'love' person, that she experienced this, but Don as a 'wisdom' person, would experience the whole thing differently?

Nevertheless, these sessions are still giving me things to think over. 

Questioner: What would that be?

Ra: I am Ra. Firstly, we would suggest that possibility/probability vortices include those in which the entity known as Gandalf has a lengthier incarnation. Secondly, we would suggest that this entity goes to a graduation if it desires. Otherwise, it may choose to reincarnate to be with those companions it has loved. Thirdly, the entity known to you as Betty has the means of making the entity more distorted towards comfort/discomfort.

Carla mentions this in the write up before. She states that her new cat she feels is the reincarnation of the last one. The Law of One contact would seemed to have confirmed that. I have seen someone else mention this on the forum. That her new dog seemed to recognise her and have the same habits as a previous dog. 

My family dog. We have had three. The first was a female Staffy. English Staffy. The second was a kind of wolf. The third is an American Staffy. 

I had dreams. Very specific dreams about something the American Staffy had experienced and how it effected her before she came to the family. I was quite interested that the forces behind the dream. The higher forces of some description. Actually cared about the psychology of a dog. The Law of One does make small references to higher entities caring about this. 

I believe, since we can't really understand what goes on in the life between lives. Time/ space, as the Law of One calls it. That it is very unhealthy to make defined statements about it. There is no grounding in saying that someone was this or that past life. It also leads the door open to people that would attempt to use that kind of mystical thinking for fraudulent means. Rather like David Wilcock. Who told everyone about frequent mystical experiences to prove any particular thing he wanted to prove. Such as that he was a messiah or that Corey Goode was legit. 

Staring at the dog the other day I contemplated how someone would know such a thing. How they would experience the world if they could perceive such a thing.

Specific insights. 

Anyway, the particular insight I had, the particular part of my life where I was like "I should think of this person in a more service to others manner". It directly, directly opposed the insight I had from strong dreams when I started Communion about four years ago. I have talked recently about this. The Communion insight I had came from a kind of dream I have identified as perhaps negative. Altogether too clear. Altogether too direct. It fed into the worst instincts that I took from reading the Law of One. The idea that this or that negative thing is destroying a situation. That it (as well as people) needs to be guarded against. 

It also fed directly into the delusions David Wilcock was spouting at the time about being abducted by Reptilians. 

I have a continued question, and that question is this: In relation to all these spiritual things. I am really waiting, wanting one that feeds directly into the real world. Just a thing, where there is some sort of click and it effects the real world. 

The Law of Attraction makes this claim. I have never really liked the Law of Attraction. These insights are doing that in a way. But I wonder if that is the thing that creates a click into the real world. The insight I have just had into my relationships. Does that feed meaningfully into future ones? I think it probably does. 

Law of One learning. The messiness of life.

At the moment. A big part of my spiritual path is fairly simple. I read the Law of One. Then when I am finished with reading the Law of One. I read it again! 

I went through it a few months ago on www.lawofone.info. I am reading it via the books at the moment. Reading the Law of One book 5 and the commentary is very useful. Very powerful. Then I will read it again when I am done with the last two 'fragments' in book 5. On the third go through I will read it via www.llresearch.org. Apparently the most updated reading. And I will write a bit, probably personally in a kind of journal. So I can think over and learn slowly each session. 

After that, I will be able to put together a concise view of what the Law of One actually advises people to be doing in the real world. I already have meditation and affirmations, and, secondarily, in a Law of One telling. Prayer. But precisely what is advised and where in the book that is said. Advising on where my own interpretation is. I think would be useful. 

At the moment, I am, in line with other things I have talked about here. Other 'learnings'. Learning to relax a lot of the ideas of self defence, and which kind of jump off into illusion.

Two ways this has been happening. One is that, I got an idea from session 25. That when I feel screwed over by something. When I feel there is something negative. I can send love and this will work against the person doing the thing against me. Like a kind of karma.

I realise though, that this is kind of delusional. The discussion of the spiritual "war" in session 25. There just isn't enough to go on. Yesterday, I was in a situation that annoyed me and I felt like I should use a tool such as that. But I realised it was kind of crap. It is not quite clear what reality things such as 'sending love' has. In either a positive or more conflict based application. But there is not a lot of objective evidence for it. So for me, actually accepting my powerlessness in that moment. It really seems to work a lot better. Things 'flow' from that place. 

Also, another thing came up. I have worn this pendant for about five years:

Prosteel 7 Archangels Pendant. If you are interested. 

I looked it up. That is Hebrew writing, not Arabic. I am pretty sure there are no errors on this pendant to the effect of naming a negative entity or anything like that. But all the same. It is something that I am slightly worried about. 

I also wear an Ankh that I will keep wearing.

The point is is that since I have read the Law of One. I have felt more and more, that the protective positive energy that I am seeking is felt inside me. Not so much in these outer types of things:

Like in this tarot image how, earlier ones had a bird in the outer sense. But when you get to the experience. The outer bird changes to part of the persons clothing. As though it became inner. I take the cat in the box to be something like this is where the need for animalistic power becomes acknowledged. Rather like all the Neitzsche ideas. Although animalistic power is more relevant in real terms to the archetypes of the body, in my view (the body equivalent of this archetype is literally "strength"). This is where it gets cognitively acknowledged. 

The only other thing that strikes me. Is that, while a lot of this is a very powerful and interesting 'background'. One of the really powerful places to get insights... "Next level" insights. Is the human design. Where a lot of this kind of stuff gets dumped right into the messy reality of everyday life. You can see peoples flaws in the human design. Peoples contradiction. I have a whole section of a little book of mine acknowledging interesting hexagrams, which talk about things that just sound terrible. But if they are part of the design then they are nevertheless part of Gods plan. I.e. David Wilcocks Sun, Gate 22.2: The tendency of the self to delude oneself and others. 

But, looking through peoples designs when they behave in certain ways does bring a whole lot of clarity. here is mine with the planets taken out (I have an instinct towards privacy):

I have had an insight into my human design, and how it relates to the conflict I have experienced in my life. 

In my conscious Jupiter. Which is kind of like our spiritual message to the world. Is in gate 3.4. What I do here is a lot to do with gate 3. Gate 3 is a 'mutation'. It is called 'difficulty at the beginning'. Because it takes a long time to learn an entirely new way of thinking. 

It responds to gate 60. Which is 'limitation'. Gate 60 is a real thorn in peoples side and anyone that has it, has a chip on their shoulder. In my experience.

The thing with the gate 60 is that it DOESN'T have the answer. So if someone has the whole channel. Gate 60-3. They might experience the problem and slowly find an answer. But if someone has gate 60 hanging, then they have the problem, and no answer. 

Then there is me, that has the gate 3 hanging. I have the answers. But these are not answers that a lot of people want to hear. Meditation. The Law of One. And especially philosophy and where this relates to political ideas. These are inconvenient things for people. 

This explains a great deal of things that have happened in my life. I am not saying that my expression of gate 3 is "perfect". I would say that it was probably overly politicised and had a tendency towards 'transcient' information. Picked up when transiting Uranus went over my conscious Jupiter. 

Adding this all together makes a real life confusing mix. But you can have people with gate 60 hanging that want to monopolise what they think the answer should be. Or two people with the hanging gate 3 where there is some sort of subtle conflict about something to do with said answer. Or someone with the entire channel that just won't co operate. They are still in their 'difficulty at the beginning', phase. 

It brings a far more useable paradigm I think. With potential actual answers. Than terms like "narcissist" or anything like that.  

The invisible laws.

Not much to say, recovering from surgery. It was technically just a procedure. But it was quite a bit worse than I was expecting. It was not made clear to me what this was going to be like. 

I have gone back on all my things of self discipline. Caffeine free pepsi max. Alcohol (Stayed awake 34 hours last night, I needed it! But I think alcohol is less damaging when I am not having it for communion. The weekly top up of poison was never good I don't think.) 

But it is over. I was afraid of that procedure subtly. Subconsciously. For a long time. It is amazing how our subconscious has this subtle grip over us. 

The last thing I was thinking about from the Law of One was this:

Questioner: The instrument has determined that the unwise use of her will is its use without the joy and faith components and constitutes martyrdom. Would Ra comment on that, please?

Ra: I am Ra. We are pleased that the entity has pondered that which has been given. We would comment as follows. It is salubrious for the instrument to have knowledge which is less distorted towards martyrdom and which is rich in promise. The entity which is strong to think shall either be strong to act or that which it has shall be removed. Thus manifestation of knowledge is an area to be examined by the instrument.

We would further note that balancing which, in this entity’s case, is best accomplished in analysis and manifestation seated with the contemplation of silence, may be strengthened by manifested silence and lack of routine activity. We may go no further than this recommendation of regularized leisure, and desire that the entity discover the fundamental truths of these distortions as it will.

A kind of use it or lose it proposition. A kind of frightening proposition. I often am taken down by health issues and I forget things I want to do. Like music practice or meditation. I wonder if my social skills meaningfully atrophy in relative isolation. I am sure a lot of people have similar fears in this busy life. 

Two thoughts I have had from this. One which is generally social. One which is personal. 

This is not the first time that the Law of One information has highlighted some subtle spiritual law and I have wondered how this effects people in the day to day. I imagine there is a great many of these. This one is more obvious and grounded. If we do not use something obviously it will atrophy. But there are others that are more subtle, and apparently, very powerful. 

For instance, if you imagine how divorced guys, sometimes don't seem to take much of a breath. Don't fall out with the whole 'marriage' thing, and are married again within a few years. I wonder, if there is a law like this that needs to be satisfied? Like, with that example. Maybe the guy has a lot of love to express and cannot do that if he is prevented from doing so with his ex wife. Perhaps there are other supports that are not available. 

Then rather than what a person commenting might assume he should do. Like, analyse his past or something to come to better decisions. Actually, the energy itself is compelling just jumping into the next thing. Like, imagine this person was fourth density, as an example?

I wonder sometimes a lot of things like this. There were various times when a thing became compulsive due to universal laws. Like the fifth density negative entity eventually flipping positive. Because Entropy was compelling it. 

Reading enough of the Law of One, and backing that up with the Human Design. I have often come to the conclusion that we have very, very little ability to change the world from... exactly what it is. 

I wonder how many past events this relates to? Like, does it relate to previous relationships and things. Was one of my parents compelled into something by some invisible law that still can't be understood or identified? Not even events. Emotions. Other things?

And personally. 

I write this as I am, like I said, recovering from surgery. I do feel like I am in a bit of a mess. No prayer, no meditation etc. My routine is off. So I might not be able to apply this. 

But for me personally. I realise my most valued skill is my creation of music.  

I realise that half an hour playing music, with no TV on or anything. Has a really strong, positive, effect. I often used to play scales and other things with the TV on. Complex guitar skills. But playing in silence is my connection to the higher forces I did not know I had access to. 

The male path.

This is my thoughts on 'the male process'. It could be both male and female. But I can't speak with any knowledge on female mechanics. 

Since stopping Communion. I have felt my energy as a lower energy than it used to be. The idea of Communion to me very much linked me to this kind of imaginary, heart chakra kind of thinking. This mysterious idea that I am being guided along in line with this, directed from some higher plane.

When I was doing Communion. I felt like I couldn't fully access my 'anger'. But I felt it important to access said anger. It was, in a way, my goal. Not one consciously decided. But a goal none the less. My idea at the time was that if I did exercise. It would reveal deeper layers where the anger sat. Like, things would clear then I would access other thoughts, feeling and with that, anger. 

But since stopping Communion. I have felt more in touch with that anger. 

The Law of One talks about how men have physical energy:

Questioner: Would you do that?

Ra: I am Ra. You are correct in assuming that the energy of which we speak in discussing sexual energy transfers is a form of vibratory bridge between space/time and time/space. Although this distinction is not apart from that which follows, that which follows may shed light upon that basic statement.

Due to the veiling process the energy transferred from male to female is different than that transferred from female to male. Due to the polarity difference of the mind/body/spirit complexes of male and female the male stores physical energy, the female mental and mental/emotional energy. When third-density sexual energy transfer is completed the male will have offered the discharge of physical energy. The female is, thereby, refreshed, having far less physical vitality. At the same time, if you will use this term, the female discharges the efflux of its stored mental and mental/emotional energy, thereby offering inspiration, healing, and blessing to the male which by nature is less vital in this area.

At this time may we ask for one more full query.

So here, men have more physical energy. Women have more mental/ emotional energy.

How does that manifest? Stefan Molyneux, talks about how men have a different perspective because they perform a different function in the tribe. For men, if they go out and do any work in the physical. Like logging or something. The real world becomes very relevant. There is no political tract you can use to convince the log to move. You have to load it onto a truck. This is why men tend to see things objectively and not think that situations are modifiable by talking through it. 

There is a lot more that goes into this. Men do not have the status that women naturally gain from their beauty and "cuteness". But I won't go into that. 

The point is that since stopping the Communion. I am a lot more aware of my physical energy and a lot more able to get on with things like going to the gym. I went yesterday. I am making gains where I wasn't before (there are other changes in my life). And I only want to get back to the gym. I went yesterday. Gymmed hard. And I feel like I want to go again now. Even though, physically I would not be able to. I have that physical tension that relates to wanting to do exercise. 

What I think of as my process is that I have a bunch of grudges. A bunch of things that have annoyed me about the past and the present. To exercise it feels like I am completely cleaning them from my system. It is as though I am using the pure energy from the anger to strengthen my body. The increase in the strengthening of the body is, like I have talked about previously. The 'acceptance' in the Law of One discussion about understanding, acceptance, and forgiveness. Forgiveness being one I have not explored yet. 

My grudges:

All of this was thought through yesterday. Because none of it is still relevant to me today, emotionally (Because I feel great from the gym). But as I sit there, I often think through my grudges. And those grudges seem to feed into creating this angst and thus, physical energy. 

But these grudges are not insignificant. Due to a physical medical condition. I kind of had some strange thoughts and feeling when I was young. But some of the difficulty I had with others was simply because I am not left wing in this heavily left wing town. 

Nevertheless, my entire twenties and a bit later was spent going around from one place to another being uniquely socially ostracised from each place. My first workplace, was amongst peers and such when I was in my late teens through early twenties. All of them, I mean, all of them would socialise together and I was kept out of it. It took me more than a decade to realise this had happened. 

This has happened with some friends which, when I later, a decade later, met up with them realised I got on with very well. I did have some time in University. Then I had an office job where the same thing exactly happened for two years. I was uniquely socially ostracised. Everyone came into the office and socialised with the people there, and I was the one who was not. With whom a lot of the women specifically would make this clear by talking to me normally then not even saying hello. 

To get away from these kinds of people. I spent a lot of time in fast food with people that were foreign. There was one other office job which I will not go into. But the staff, mostly 20 year old girls, were nice. I was quite ill. 

I did have a brief friendship with a woman who then killed herself.  

These potential opportunities are things for which I have a dislike for all the people involved. I would not say 'hate'. Because the Law of One and it's vibe, and my spirtuality and such. But I feel entitled to acknowledge that these peoples behaviours was in fact what it was.

I am now more well, I was very ill through some of this. But I have lacked the earlier years of establishing myself. Now I am a lot older. Socialising with 20 year old girls would give me "creepy uncle" energy. There is no way to get back what could have potentially been... But been with who? All these people hated me.

I do not know the solution to any of this. I am also not saying that I am uniquely in a bad place. I know that other people also are. It is unlikely to be that I gain any kind of status that would make any of these people regret their behaviour. In an ideal world I suppose, or not ideal that is for God to decide. But as a potentially interesting thought. I would gain in some sort of manner and these people would suffer the pain of envy. 

This whole discussion reminds me of this line:

Questioner: Now, is there— the two areas then that the instrument can look to for curing this problem… I understand that the yellow-ray blockage problem has completely repaired, shall I say. If this is not correct, could you make suggestions on that, please?

Ra: I am Ra. Each entity must, in order to completely unblock yellow ray, love all which are in relationship to it, with hope only of the other-selves’ joy, peace, and comfort.

It will be a long time before I wish those people any particular happiness. But I suppose those people are technically not "in relationship to me".

There might be a way to root around it emotionally. To find the relevant or interesting rules that can then be used to my advantage. For instance, I figure these people have, at all times, exercised their freedom of association. And if I were to get in a good place. I could then fully exercise mine, as they have done. 

But it is good fuel. The idea that I apply my physical energy into life. That I am who I am without the imposition of other, inappropriately "loving" ideas.  

Q Stuff.

The Communion insight has given me such a change in my way of being. That I will not talk about spiritual subjects in this blog. I did crave to do the Communion yesterday. But there are many things. Including my own arguments. Even arguments that I have not put on this blog. That go against it. 

At the moment. I am in a lack of clarity. I have a theory, based on my own theories, and some thoughts on 'entropy'. That the gym will sort this out. I will go again tonight. My understanding of the Law of One's entropy is that sometimes, what was one emotion can burst into several conflicting emotions. I feel that exercise can bring these back into harmony and coherence again. 

So for this reason I will make this a political/ Q type of post. 

The political social media:

Going on X is just politics after politics. The theme of "two tier policing" comes up again and again in the UK. Currently doing the rounds is a video where black kids start punching a white kid. A police woman steps in and hits the white kid and he punches her back before seeing she is a police officer. The female police officer then arrests the boy and talks down to him. Insulting him and such. The police force involved is now charging the teenager and saying the woman did no wrong, and telling the public not to share the footage. 

When I first got into all this stuff. Back in the Mid 2010's. I remember reading how, with the grooming gangs. Two your girls had been kidnapped and used sexually by Pakistani gangs. The fathers of these girls turned up and took the girls home. The police turned up and took the girls back to the Pakistani gangs. 

It makes me think of what we are being "shown" at this point. The American establishment. The White House. Has been Q posting for 11 days straight now. Pictures from the drops. Mentioning Q. Etc. 

What it seems to be at the moment is that the liberal establishment is just running away uncontrolled on an insane power grab. The whole thing has become very obvious. But not, to most of the UK population. That are left wing and just don't go on X. They simply avoid most of this information. 

In America, not that long ago. The Biden regime was doing a similar thing. Just openly doing things like suing States for closing their borders while machete wielding gang members flooded across it. Open crime on the streets in left wing states. I was losing faith in Q by the time the election came along. I assumed it would be rigged in favour of the Democrats. Then, at what felt like the 11th hour, when all hope was lost. Where the Democrats would have declared an open war on Russia and dragged the planet into World War 3. Trump won. Not only did he win. But the Q comms had given the exact result. And a coded, but extremely specific, reference to the day it would be relevant. (This is on my other laptop. I have posted it before) 

The Good Paradigm. 

This is the paradigm that Q people believe in. Yes, the liberals are being given a certain amount of rope to run around causing chaos. But there is some sort of plan that is being managed by the positive forces behind this all.

What the point of this might be, is that the police are completely captured. Episodes like this show that the police cannot be used to sort Britain out and it explains why more severe measures, like military intervention or some other thing. Might be needed in the future?

Martin Geddes talks about this. He tried to go the legal route against Council Tax and revealed, to his telling. That it is all illegal. That there is no official court process where Council Tax is concerned. The Council creates documents that do not go through the actual judiciary. And they rent the court rooms for this purpose. 

But Martin, when he challenged the Council from this perspective. He did not get anywhere. If you think about it. The power the state has is simply the co operation of the citizens making up the police and such. In this situation. Martin said that the police co operated with this process, even though it was not legal. And that he got nowhere. 

His take away, as he is a Q person, is that he was being shown that we cannot do it ourselves. The system is too stacked against us. That we had to know we can't do it ourselves to be able to accept whatever change must eventually come. 

Takeaway.

It is all a bit mad. All a bit "Full David Wilcock". 

Youtube: Movie Clip: Tropic Thunder (5/10) Movie Clip - Never Go Full Retard: October 11th 2011:

https://youtu.be/X6WHBO_Qc-Q?si=sinsvSQq9kNxbBpZ

I wrote a blog previously on this subject and brought in a bit of the astrology on it. I was thinking over the human design change we are apparently going to go through in February of 2027 that is said to have something to do with our 'need for resources'. That it will effectively switch that part off in our energy fields. 

I do believe it is possible to sort all of this stuff out with one step only. That would be, the fixing of the money system. The system we have is only possible if you print money out of nothing. If you can print money out of nothing, you can give it to systems which don't have a return. (The left in general)

During only a small window where the US had a gold standard. Almost all of the technology we have today was begun. Even though this was the late 1800's. Even the internet, the bare bones of it was laid during this time. I think this is because when you have money that is truly worth something. It immediately enforces a meritocracy. Once you have a meritocracy. You tend to get people with sanity amassing resources. Once that happens. These people influence the society in sane ways. 

It's a nice though. But much like my experiences with Communion at the moment. Without real depth and research, and real belief. That I don't really have. It doesn't feel all that powerful and coherent. But I think it is something worth considering.  

Fleshing out Communion (Part 2)

Just a quick update here. 

I am thinking through a little bit the change in my life now I have stopped Communion. 

In Star Trek Deep Space Nine. The main protagonist. Benjamin Sisko. Is attached to a set of very positive entities. The 'Gods' of Bajour. Because it is fictional. The show managed to put forward a legitimate seeming spirituality, without it being too close to Christianity. Which is like garlic to a vampire for these Hollywood writers. So spiritual themes were explored without a lot of the trouble associated with it. 

Due to things happening in the shows. Between Gods and Demons. Benjamin is forcibly detached from said "Prophets". There is a war going on in the show when this happens. And as a result of this. The 'luck' of the good guys stops. A few episodes later, during a lot of very difficult things. The Prophets are reconnected. And all the luck of the good guys. Things halfway through. Switches on. 

It was a beautiful thing that felt real in a way. But I remind myself as I am talking about this. That real life is not like that. What I am coming to, is that if a thing, an energy, appears to shift. There are a lot of potential reasons for said shift. When we go out in the world. Even an uptick in enthusiasm can simply change the world around you in ways we can't suspect. Any health change reflects on other health changes. Any reduction in stress reduces others stress. 

So it is something to bear in mind as I think of the potential effects since I have stopped Communion. 

But where my mind is going. Is that when I started doing Communion. From Easter of May 2022. I had a very specific problem at the time which Communion, strong dreams, strong emotions appearing to "save" me. Seemed to help me out of a jam at the time. 

The jam was that I had slowly gotten very attached to a female friend. Then she had gone kind of nuts. We all know stories are far more complicated than that. But that suffices as a short summary. 

That exact same jam, has come up a few times in my life. It was very much related to how I used to have a fairly strong schizophrenic tendencies. This feeling of ridiculous fusion. Then the woman behaving in a strange way and I can't disconnect the "fusion". 

This was an insight that was veiled to me while I was doing the Communion. But the moment I came off it. I suddenly had thoughts and insights from that time. 

The problem, previously, was partly due to the 'schizophrenic fusion', so it might not even need any introspection to uncover and influence. But it is a big thing. A big kind of insight that I need to mull over.  

Fleshing out Communion.

The Bible and Communion. 

This is the video that mentioned the Communion. It is only discussed for about a minute at the exact hour mark.

Youtube: Ex- Hebrew Israelite Exposes the Bible's Dangerous Ideology (Malaki Macabee). Jesus Way Podcast 058: June 18th 2026:

https://youtu.be/TuaJ2a7RQaA?si=aQcaQMWtHyQ_A5mZ

I often feel very good watching Aaron Abke. This is so dense I feel like I have barely absorbed it on one sitting. Like a lot of his videos. I have to rewatch and take notes. I feel like my connection to the Christian 'faith' is tenuous at best. That I enjoy these kinds of videos. And other creators that go into biblical truths. Does suggest some connection to this material. This feeling is moreso than a lot of videos I watch.

"In the black churches y'all is big. I plead the blood of Jesus, I plead the blood of Jesus. Every Sunday. The blood, the blood. And... forget about the Communion with the wine, with the crackers and all that. And the 'this is my blood, this is my body'. All that is Pauline."

...

"Pauls letters predate the gospels. So whatever you see that agrees with Paul in the Gospels came after Paul was already writing. That means the gospel writers are influenced by Paul, not the other way around."

Corinthians 1:17 - 32:

For I received from the Lord what I also delivered to you, that the Lord Jesus on the night when he was betrayed took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it, and said, “This is my body, which is for you. Do this in remembrance of me.” In the same way also he took the cup, after supper, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood. Do this, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of me.” For as often as you eat this bread and drink the cup, you proclaim the Lord's death until he comes.

Whoever, therefore, eats the bread or drinks the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner will be guilty concerning the body and blood of the Lord. Let a person examine himself, then, and so eat of the bread and drink of the cup. For anyone who eats and drinks without discerning the body eats and drinks judgment on himself. That is why many of you are weak and ill, and some have died. But if we judged ourselves truly, we would not be judged. But when we are judged by the Lord, we are disciplined so that we may not be condemned along with the world. 

Wow, when you actually read it. It is not just some casually worded phrasing. This wording. If it was written by Paul before the gospels. Pretty much insists that to remain consistent and to not call Paul out as a liar. It would have to be written into the Gospels that Paul said this. 

But one thing about Paul is that aside from this. Everything he says about Jesus and his teachings is the polar opposite to what they actually are. So if it were true that Jesus said that. And I don't think it is. It would be the singular area they agree. 

I can't imagine what the particular pressures were during the day. But, one of the things that was inconvenient to the Romans. Was when you had all these early Christians. "The Cristos". Nazarenes, or Essenes. Were all vegans, and a huge part of their economy was the sale of meat. I wonder if there was a similar feeling about alcohol? I can't imagine that, outside Communion sorts of instructions. That Jesus' followers were big on wine.

Communion and me personally.

I have been thinking a lot, feeling a lot. About the change of not doing Communion. I did not do it with a church. I tended to do it on my own. At first it was just me and a glass of wine and gluten free bread. It was the only thing keeping me drinking alcohol for a long time because I got a stomach ache from non alcohol varieties. And I felt like 'Jesus said wine'. 

I have been thinking about what it does. What it has meant to me. The Law of One talked about it being positive metaphysical protection for Carla. As I have mentioned. But they also framed pretty much everything, almost everything. Very specifically about how it relates to the person themselves. How something effects a certain persons beliefs. 

So it's effect on me was many fold. It centered me in a kind of 'what I thought spirituality was'. A kind of heart chakra centered approach. It took away ever so slightly to how I experience the world without that in the way. 

One; I was not quite as able to access my anger to the extent I am now. And this mattered with motivation for going to the gym. And clarity in these matters. Which strongly feeds back into my overall health. Two; I am slightly better, on the ball with wisdom things in general. Dream interpretation is clicking a bit more. And music is 'in tune'. And more passionate. I was not able to quite get the music feel. That I can get now. 

There is more I have to say. But I might not ever say it. But things have shifted a lot. It is a very interesting and powerful thing to step away from this.  

Progress on a spiritual path.

I had one of my best days today. Went to the gym. Just felt amazing. Drinking a lot of water seems to be a key for my health and my specific health condition is one where dehydration is a symptom. So just listening to my body has good results. (Rather than fizzy water, i.e. "almost" listening to my body. Did not have any particularly good results).

I do not have any real insights at the moment. Because I am still working through what might have been an insight I have just had. The point I made in a recent post. That Communion might not be positive magick. But that blood magick in general is something that the negative uses. 

Stopping Communion. I did not do it on Sunday so next Sunday will be the moment I have definitely stopped it. I do feel like I am detecting an improvement. That the dreams I have been stuck on for months now. One month of dreams. Seems to have shifted.

There are a lot of ideas I have about what might be changing. But it is early days. A day or two. Needs a lot longer to say... Yes, this seemingly minor emotional change can lead to this. Or no, I was overthinking it. 

Spirituality and limitation.

This is my video for today:

Youtube: RootsofLife: Why They Call Reiki, Yoga and Meditation, "Evil". June 20th 2026:

https://youtu.be/o96W2QKl9UI?si=07A9vxf-575a4BKn

There are a lot of people that call these things 'evil'. I just watched a video (not this video) by a guy who was talking about demons tempting him. Like, this seemed to be both in real life and in the dream world and imagination. He was a guy who has gained a following because he talks a lot about not masturbating. He was trying to make himself out to be this kind of enlightened spiritual guy and he said that he could "feel" how the planetary glyphs and such in astrology are evil.

So... my dude, you are basically saying that a thing is a certain way because you "feel" like it is a certain way. Wonder if he was on his period? Needless to say I unsubscribed.

When I first got into the Law of One. I used to feel very comforted that there are all these people out in the world with what I considered the 'correct' beliefs. Understanding of guides, spirits, and metaphysical issues. Or mainstream Christianity. Where a deep fidelity to the "One Infinite Creator" is highly prized. 

An actual analysis, both online and in the real world, reveals a lot of disappointment. A lot of people are only paying very vague loyalty to abstract concepts. While in practice, it seems to me. Just doing what is emotionally convenient for them to do. 

An example is... Firstly... Christianity. 

OK, so all these Christians believe Astrology is evil... "Just because". Did the Devil create the planets? I have never heard of anything like that so probably not. So God created the planets? And they have recognised that astrology does work. It does work according to the Christians. So God created something that's function is precisely to do evil and nothing else? That foretells human personality and events, but is only evil? Makes no sense at all. Why would God do that? 

These are not atheists. The Stefan Molyneux's of the world just say that astrology doesn't exist. I find this to be a more respectable, or at least consistent, position. Even when I have met it personally. Than that it exists but that it is "evil" because I say so. Holding out for more objective proof is a position that makes some kind of sense. 

Christians believe though, that astrology is evil, I think because of some obscure part of the old testament. It is something like 'Do not associate with those that practice magic'. Mainstream Christianity, is, as a whole, an appeal to authority fallacy. At least in the mainstream. The idea that the bible is the word of God. Like his literal word. Not channeled through man. The idea the bible is always right. There are a lot. A LOT, of contradictions within the bible. 

But OK, if people want to live like that. It is their free will that they do right?

Wrong. Because they don't live like that. They do not actually yield authority to the bible when it is something they just believe in. It is rather like I have described them so far. It is like spiritual communities. They have some very general loyalty to the parts they like. But they don't actually believe in it in any legitimate way:

Youtube: Pearl: Why are Modern Christians So Insufferable: June 17th 2026:

https://www.youtube.com/live/HRMcaWyalWM?si=cJZ7fz4uhdYqWteE

Pearl has many videos on this kind of subject. Including other hours long videos like her going to a church and asking the Christians coming out of it. "Should women obey their husbands".

During the discussions it has been explained that women obeying their husband, is what the bible says. There are some other lines like 'Love your wife like Christ loves the church". To justify a kind of "equality" kind of arrangement argument. But Christ does not take orders from the church. So with even a cursory explanation of that line. It does not mean an arrangement with equal leadership. 

So the Christians. Well they don't like that line. They are not even consistent with their own stated beliefs. The arguments from Aaron Abke proving Paul was a false prophet would not be received very well either. How do I know that? Because if they would have been, that would be the mainstream view. It is the more correct view. So it does not justify them not liking astrology. Their religion is an appeal to authority fallacy. Except when it is inconvenient. Therefore, their claimed reason for their beliefs is not true. So it must be something else. 

Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of My Father who is in heaven will enter. Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; leave Me, you who practice lawlessness.’ 

As I said, when I first got into the new age I drew comfort from the fact there are loads of new age people out there and loads of Christians. But that is falling away now. I realise that, as life moves forward and things change. That most of these people are self centered, unintelligent individuals with no answers. But that have just chosen a specific label for their own self interest. And then, like Pearl discusses. Take on the position of a moral high ground with answers that solve nothing... For some reason.

The video from the Roots of Life creator. Did not actually discuss anything to do with Christianity. It discussed how a lot of people try to repackage basic things like meditation to be something that you rely on a guru for. Aaron Abke in a recent video also talked about how some people involved in the spiritual life. Get obsessed with the entry level experiences, never going any further than that. 

I said this in the comments to the Creator of this video. That I think there may be another sub type of reason that happens sometimes. 

I have tried again and again to do healing stuff. I have talked about it here, on forums, and on my youtube channel. The fictional idea of healing still captures my imagination. And I suffer with medical issues. That are not overly painful. But they are daily and complex. There is a constant motivation to improve my physical health. And I do believe in these things.

But, despite many times of trying and trying again. I have learned that I am not a healer. I am not someone that can do this. I do have some small awareness and knowledge of general physical health due to my experiences. I remember going walking with the dog after one of these attempts. Feeling nothing but pure anger. There has also been a sense that I am covering something important, some wisdom that has to be opened with meditation. 

So the reason some Christians might think that Reiki healing and such is "evil". Is because they personally are not inclined towards it. But they pushed themselves into it at some point anyway. Trying to push yourself in a way that you are not destined to go feels sinister.  

This, for me, also extends to other things. While I can do music. I cannot write stories. It is a hard thing to learn I think to really accept our limitations. For the past few days with the sun and the women being out in their swimwear. I have been very motivated to figuring out how I am going to approach them or whatever. The only way I usually use to handle any issue I have is with spirituality. With the tools I use here. So I made up a second page of prayers to address this issue. (Also started practicing changing responses in visualisation) 

This, along with waking up in the morning being determined to write a smut story. Has lead me to realise that it really is very important for us to learn our limitations. To accept our limitations.

I was just learning what I talked about in this archetype and failed my first test of it:

It is hard to accept limitations. It is one of the behaviours that I have seen in people that are "narcissistic" in some description of the term. They don't accept the limitations of the world as in. That they don't have complete knowledge of others internal world. That they don't have the ability to do anything they want. As I said, I am a musician; not a healer or a storywriter. Despite, being very very interested in sci fi. Being very motivated to write. Just have not been able to. (I suppose this is writing! I meant as in fiction).

Where this links with these new age types of people. The video talks about how messed up they are. How they are kind of like narcissistic guru's and the guy making the video thought that perhaps the reason they were like that is that they were not meant to be in that position. But they pushed further and went there anyway. So they are like if I were to push ahead and actually become the healer that is veiled to me. Because I am not meant to do it. It would become fanatical and weird, and perhaps even seem evil. 

This kind of thing might unravel the whole system I wonder. It might unravel the very many people that are doing things that don't seem to be working. Perhaps a lot of these confused Christians, with no real beliefs that I can identify. Aren't meant to be that kind of Christian.  

Mirrors.

I'm going to talk about something that I have not wanted to mention for a few weeks. But has been going through my mind.

Interestingly though. VERY interesting. I have found this session and answer in the Law of One:

Questioner: Thank you. Could Ra give information on any way that we could give information to Greta Woodrew as to how to alleviate her present condition of swelling?

Ra: I am Ra. We may only suggest that the honor of propinquity to light carries with it the Law of Responsibility. The duty to refrain from contumely, discord, and all things which, when unresolved within, make way for workings lies before the instrument of which you speak. This entity may, if it is desired by the scribe, share our comments upon the working of the latter entity.

The entity which is given constant and unremitting approval by those surrounding it suffers from the loss of the mirroring effect of those which reflect truthfully rather than unquestioningly. This is not a suggestion to reinstate judgment but merely a suggestion for all those supporting instruments; that is, support, be harmonious, share in love, joy, and thanksgiving, but find love within truth, for each instrument benefits from this support more than from the total admiration which overcomes discrimination.

The second paragraph is where the emphasis is. It was weird how the actual name is put in now. Doesn't feel quite right, but it would also seem silly to now delete that now that it is publicly available on lawofone.info. Also, I found her wikipedia page, and she died in 2010. 

 

Grok said that she is about 25 years old in this. Whereas in 1984 roughly, when this session was done. She was about 50-55. 

The thing that I have been thinking over is the amazing and disproportionate power that women have in this society. There have been many different videos that have come up while I was mulling it over. But this is one:

Youtube: Hannah Spier: Treating the Pathological Female: Why the Current Model Fails: June 25th 2026.

https://youtu.be/CYnmU4r3YJc?si=86GFVIUvtAz4ebWQ

Basically, the point of this video, is that because Borderline is very female specific. The entire psychological establishment. Refuses to offer any opposition to their dysfunctional behaviours. The entire treatment is based on making them feel emotionally better about themselves. Whereas with a male equivalent diagnosis with similar behaviours. Anti social personality disorder. The treatment and attitude is extremely different from this. Recognising that if they do something then it is bad. Rather than if they do something bad, it is because of bad emotions, and everyone should put up with it. 

After a lot of this thinking. After this session and some contemplation on dreams and such. I have come to a new idea though on what I might consider a positive situation. 

I have talked before about being surprised by the amount of "privilege" so to speak, women enjoy. Specifically recounting overhearing a young girl saying that her and her friends had gone to a bar and the guys there had told them that when they go there in future, they can eat for free. There are other examples along this same direction. 

This reflects on the relevant Law of One session. If the feedback to young girls denies them "mirrors" etc. This is deep wisdom that I think could improve a lot of young womens lives.  

There are many examples of this generally. One of Pearl Davis' examples is that when she goes to the gym. She comes out and all the five shops there were shops focused on women. Because women control more of the "spending money". This is a part of her narrative. 

Another example is I watch a lot of musical youtube channels. The young women, generally just playing chords and singing. Even if it is good singing. It is not a standard I would accept from myself. Soon- ish they are making posts about going to do shows in such and such a place. I rarely see this kind of thing from men. Unbelievably talented people. I mean, world leading. Are often posting videos busking. 

But what strikes me, what understanding has suddenly become so clear on this. Is that that is not the good thing in life. The good thing in life. Regardless of money and other markers of status and success. Is polarity. If we are positively polarised we are happy (or potentiated in some fifth density cases). If we are not polarised service to others. If we are having trouble and have parts of us polarised service to self. We are not happy. 

It utterly changes the thinking on this in my opinion. 

The woo woo shift.

So, figured I will do a woo woo post today. My health is not good with heat. And it is very, very hot. I will try and not leave the house tomorrow. I feel with bouts of illness it is easier to focus on ungrounded matters in general. I wonder if this was a small part of the function that Carla's illness had in her life (in reference to the Law of One).

I have not wanted to talk about this for a while. But, for people that are inclined that way I think it is relevant. 

Ra Uru Hu was someone that channeled an entirely new and extremely complex; extremely deep. Astrology system. 

The Human Design Chart does have some future information that might relate to what the Law of One calls the harvest. The coming changes to our world. 

They have mentioned something called 'The Raves'. Supposedly, from around February 2027, the beings born will be part of a new race. Very telepathic. Very psychic. Kind of blind and deaf. Very different to us. They will not need a lot of looking after, but will go and get up to their own thing, mostly ignoring their parents and society that we know of. 

They fit with what the Law of One might call 'the new breed'. Incarnating for fourth density work.

There is more to be said about February 2027. But it really is in the area of woo. It is also I think, the best that Ra Uru Hu had with available knowledge. I imagine that not just with this, but with many areas. As things have updated the main body of human design information looks a bit different in small ways. 

Ra Uru Hu talked about in February 2027. A huge energy changes. From the first line to the sixth line. Meaning people with sixth line energy (Me!) will have more backing. Things will flow more. The sixth line is a very spiritual line which indicates to me that a lot of spiritual people would suddenly gain significance/ celebrity at this time. 

But Ra Uru Hu also talks about something shifting and the gate 19 kind of suddenly ceasing to exist. This doesn't sound right to me. Energy can't just change so something doesn't exist. It might be yet another metaphorical kind of thing from the source. Or messed up information. But anyway, we will run with it all the same.

The 19 is the gate of need. It is the gate that approaches the tribe with a request. In Ra Uru Hu's explanation. It is the gate that has to do with all resources. Ever needing any resources. It is the gate of animal husbandry and our relationship with animals, especially for food. Or perhaps, he emphasized for food. It is also the gate of 'needing' god, so religion as well. It is also the gate where approach happens. As in the courting that leads to marriage.

This seems to underpin pretty much our entire culture. These four themes are some of the biggest theme in our culture. 

At the time of course. Ra Uru Hu had no model as to how these changes might occur so he tended to think of it like the entire world kind of collapsing and a bunch of people starving to death as institutions collapse. (Another aspect of the astrological change, the 1st to 6th line thing, says that large institutions will cease to exist).

This was all before Q though. Now that we have Q and the new age eccentric communities. We have the potential shift that some sort of 'mass arrest' and/ or 'disclosure'. But most importantly, as has been discussed a lot. A new economic model built upon some sort of gold standard. 

A shift of this sort would satisfy all those requirements. There would be no struggle for resources under the right economic model. (The current fiat currency and inflation is a large part to blame for that in my opinion). Also without the same evildoers and their masters that have been in politics for centuries. With new technology meat might be a thing of the past. 

It does not fit all of these things. But the future could be strange in a way that we can't predict. It feels unlikely to me that people will suddenly stop 'needing' God. But potentially, if there was good enough promotion and understanding of a kind of Law of One like model. Then people would not need to seek these things because that need would have been satisfied. 

I recall when I used to think of storylines and one of the plot lines I thought of. One of them that has stuck with me is the idea that an alien race, a very positive alien race. Just takes over humanity and runs everything in accord with intelligences that we do not have. 

Like, the idea being that people are just kind of shuffled about in accordance with some grand plan. So if the issue between two long term friends was that one person did not have status while the other one had a lot of status. Then for about three years that one friend gains a lot of status and then meets that friend. It would be more complex than that in real life of course. X person should go and live with Y community.

The point seems... annoying and infantalising. A stunted lack of freedom. But it was only a story idea. Our culture I would say though is fairly infantile. There are billions of people that vote left. The idea would be that after a period of time the humans in this story would be meant to have gained and learned and then would not have to be supervised any longer.  

The acceptance of chaos.

At the moment. I feel absolutely sure that my post of yesterday, talking about coming away from the Communion as a personal practice. Is correct. 

I have a lot of thoughts about what might be it's "magickal" significance. But suffice to say, in short hand, that the idea was an extension of a kind of "blood magick" in my understanding. And blood magick, is not something the positive uses. (This is from Aaron Abke and his video of about six days ago on Leviticus).

I am actually feeling a noticeably other than good or loving feeling at the moment. But it is powerful... Raw. I sometimes think of one of the Law of One sessions where the contact talked about how the negative greeting works, and it specified there were two targets in Carla. One was the heart chakra. I think, I might be wrong, that this was encouraged towards over, not under, activation. 

It reminds me of the constant waffle that is given loving language. But is actually quite negative. From a lot of people. When someone prevaricates on a clear spiritual question for instance. Refusing to answer you directly. I recall one example I heard recently was in a meditation group. Where a group of hippy male meditators leave a class because an intimidating ex con turns up and intimidates the women. Leaving only one guy to talk to him who was a bit more grounded. The guy talking about this remarked at how vocal these hippy male meditators were in talking about things like virtue. 

I am not feeling positive or loving like that. I am feeling deep, powerful rage flowing through me. And because of this. I can feel my ability to create lyrics, something that seems blocked in me. Starting to work a bit better. I can say something when the root is anger.  

Anyway, I have something to say, but I do not think I have the ability to fully say what that is. So it will be a shortened vague version in what I think is the right direction:

Youtube: Cold Condition: Woman Says Rejecting A Man Before His Glow Up Is The Worst Feeling: June 22nd 2026:

https://youtu.be/E8gHtGJ7uic?si=5LefQ8vvDvXyf07D

The point here is the general correctness of this and how this opposes the soft, liberal 'forgiveness without contrition' consensus. When evildoers try to convince someone to give forgiveness without contrition. They never focus on the evildoer. The abusive partner. They always try and revictimise the person who was treated badly. 

I think there is an understanding amongst these centrist types. They know they are horrible people. And they know that it would be in their best interesting if the people they are casually bullying believe this forgiveness without contrition thing because there is a very real possibility (but only possibility, there is a greater probability the bullied person will never gain status) that that person may gain power in the future. It is a bone deep, strong desire to evade accountability. 

Going quickly to Session 34 and the process being "Understanding, acceptance and forgiveness". I have said before I think these are Mind, Body and Spirit. I think in these situations. When there is a disagreement and someone is disrespected. Someone is considered 'the lesser animal'. An important part of the 'body' section of this. Is a certain animal power.

I do not think we can "forgive" someone when there is an unequal power dynamic. Say someone is being bullied at work by their manager. They are then told to let it go by HR, but the manager has no intention of changing. Bullies rarely, if ever, do. The person then is in a position of having to pretend they have "forgiven" the situation. Or no longer being able to eat. 

Or a situation where a woman is socially ascendant, and a guy was treated badly and then she flat out avoids him after that with no discussion, no apology.  

In these situations. I don't think forgiveness can be legitimate. Because the power dynamic is off. A proper relationship has to have a kind of equal power dynamic. Not a 'forgive or else'. 

So I think in the body section. In the acceptance section. This video above is what has to happen. Some process, some thing, has to happen to balance out the power. In order to see another as the One Creator in the real sense of the term. There does have to be some sort of equal power dynamic I think. 

So this is what this part of the process is. In the video above. A guy talks about how a lot of women disrespected him. Then he did really well in the gym and posted his physique and a lot of women suddenly changed their tune. A lot of people suddenly coming around trying to be friends and "forget" any of their older, disrespectful, behaviours.

This is a balancing of power. I think this works in a lot of different situations. It is part of the process. Power is not just in physique. It can be social power, status, money (with women I think it is more strongly expressed in attractiveness, in how they experience animal power). When Stefan Molyneux talks about all the people he had to leave behind. Who were getting jealous and such, trying to sabotage him. It is a similar thing. 

Understanding, Acceptance and... Forgiveness. Forgiveness I am not so sure on. Watching Stefan Molyneux as an ideal model. I would say that when he had gone through these processes. He did not turn around and forgive all the people involved. It could be something like... to Forgive, or not. As the Human Design would say (The 'or not' is a very specific energy of being opposite to that thing. it is not 'not' as in not existing. It is opposite). But the last point of the process that I can see in Stefan is that he brings in spiritual laws of a sort. When he says that 'Love is our involuntary response to virtue if we are virtuous". This might be the work of the spirit.

I still want to ask him about that. I still don't quite get how he thinks, or would explain rather, how precisely that mechanism works? I would like to ask him hypotheticals on it.

Understanding is understanding the problem. Acceptance, is accepting it exists. (Which makes sense this is where the action is. Once you accept something has happened, it is intuitively correct you can act from that place!) Then comes the last thing. The action of the spirit. Which brings in information that actually solves or concludes the issue? 

Anyway, exciting times. If a little bit scary from the stronger emotions. I trust that this will all work out in a good way from now on. It is like when you make a minor change that just changes things like 10% every day. Like when you do meditation. Your decisions are 10% clearer. Over the longer term, it mounts up!  

Lightning strikes.

Feeling successful after my last post. Feeling, as I now suspect was a ridiculous idea. I might be done with producing new ideas to put on here for a while. 

The reason being is that, I focused my energy on positively polarised things like I said in my last post. I got a result. It did not seem as though there is anything more to do from that place. Just be in that place. 

But, then I had a powerful insight. So here we are. One that might change my entire belief system in a powerful way. 

The Law of One on the Holy Communion:

Questioner: Thank you. Could you explain the basic principles behind the ritual which we perform to initiate the contact and what I would call the basic white magical rituals— principles of protection and other principles? Could you please do this?

Ra: I am Ra. Due to your avenue of question we perceive the appropriateness of inclusion of the cause of this instrument’s transitory vital energy distortion. The cause is a bias towards the yearning for expression of devotion to the One Creator in group worship.

This entity was yearning for this protection both consciously in that it responds to the accoutrements of this expression, the ritual, the colors and their meanings as given by the distortion system of what you call the church, the song of praise, and the combined prayers of thanksgiving and, most of all, that which may be seen to be most centrally magical, the intake of that food which is not of this dimension but has been transmuted into metaphysical nourishment in what this distortion of expression calls the holy communion.

The subconscious reason, it being the stronger for this yearning was the awareness that such expression is, when appreciated by an entity as the transmutation into the presence of the One Creator, a great protection of the entity as it moves in the path of service to others.

The principle behind any ritual of the white magical nature is to so configure the stimuli which reach down into the trunk of mind that this arrangement causes the generation of disciplined and purified emotion or love which then may be both protection and the key to the gateway to intelligent infinity.

I am reading book 5 at the moment. I have been getting a fair amount of synchronicities around all of this. Which I have been leaning into. But it is not a language I really appreciate or think a great deal of. I am more enamoured with the philosophical/ Stefan Molyneux kind of direction of logical deduction. 

I recall a week or so ago, perhaps a bit longer. When I wrote a blog on here mentioning Don Elkins and what he was perhaps thinking. I.... do not like talking about this. The reason being is that it is closely related to the insanity of believing I was Don Elkins in a past life, as I did in the past. Which I have identified as being potentially linked to the unconscious attempt to gain status, where it had been redirected from my actual life through social ostracism, and physiological issues linking to mental illness. (There is a transit strongly talking about this today. Mars conjunct Algol (trauma) in the gate 8.3. The gate 8 was where I had identified these tendencies previously linking to my unconscious Earth in gate 1!)

Anyway, I did talk a bit about Don. There was something that just seemed obvious while I was reading book 5. And I got a synchronicity. One then, and one linking recently again. This was the feel of "Carla" that I got. Super talented guys with a religious song in the American South that I associate her with:

Youtube: Amazing Grace - Johan Borgh and Enil Ernebro: October 3rd 2022:

https://youtu.be/7VMZoTImriI?si=8I7KCdXd5o_h4RfC

Of note here is music is something I genuinely love. A language that Carla speaks.  

Anyway, while reading the Law of One book 5, I have seemed to have synchronistically been going through the same kinds of things. I realised yesterday, that a mega reason that my focusing on the positive is good for me is that it retains a bit of my energy back. Going to the gym with my precarious health I was overdoing it. But consistency is very important for my medical situation. This is one of the pieces of guidance discussed in book 5.

Another thing was Don crashing out over the Hawk in a house he was considering moving to. That he applied a very logical framework to. "If we had not seen the Hawk we would have gone there, so it must have meant something bad." It is likely to me that the message was not just for Don. But was a general background of magick that the other two would also have appreciated. Just a general background of magick that those spirits enjoyed gracing the group with. 

The other day while walking, having just read this Hawk section. I saw a Deer. It is not something frequently seen in England. I have seen one one other time and I am in the countryside almost daily. It was a baby deer. That seemed unperturbed as me, one other and an American Staffy (a larger version of a Staffy!) walked by; the Staffy didn't notice the deer. Bizarre of a deer to not think that kind of dog might be dangerous.  

Then the change:

Things were kind of flowing. In the past few hours. I have had sudden "disagreements" with this material. The ideological position of forgiveness without contrition is very negative to me. I do not care at the moment what particular source opposes this. I just know it. It's evil is articulated in the abuse communities. And it has been philosophically justified as incorrect. But Carla mentions it in relation to the negative entities in the fragment I have just read; Fragment 48. Carla was pushing forgiveness without contrition through Q'uo as late as 2009, I think, it might have been later, but I have a specific session for that.

Then there was something that just didn't gel in the session itself. There was also the casual suggestion by Carla that her cat is reincarnated from another cat and I refuse to engage in that kind of thinking. It is maddening. We do not have authority or insight into the world beyond this one. 

Then, this evening, I look at a video that is mentioning Christianity, and mentions that Jesus did not necessarily say the communion stuff. Since Paul, the false apostle said it first, and the gospels were written after Pauls. This could mean they were put in. 

The murky truth:

This means that I have a difficulty with the Law of One directly. The session stated above. I do already have things I don't know if I believe about it. For instance, I do not know if I believe the story on Hitler. My thinking is that if there has been some kind of lie about that, and it being illegal to oppose the mainstream narrative in some countries indicates that could very likely be the case. Then the Law of One contact could not say that. To not oppose the negative in a concrete way and also, because of free will. To not lead the questioning into a tangent. (They said very early on, I think session 2.2, or could have been 1.0. "What we have to share with you is philosophical not historical". Meaning, they will tell the truth on philosophical matters, but feel no responsibility to tell it on historical matters!)

Also, the implication of understanding, acceptance and forgiveness. Understanding and acceptance I understand. Not yet forgiveness. But I wonder if the term forgiveness was to keep in line with free will, and it could actually mean something different. (I have more on this, perhaps unsurprisingly!)

At the moment, I am struggling a bit with a lot of these kinds of thoughts anyway. I have had a few times where the information I am looking at lights up in a "Q" kind of way. Human Design transits and such, dates, future events, theories on what 'comms' are telling us all. But I aggressively oppose that kind of thing within myself. There have been too many false starts now on Q stuff. I can only grip what is in my life and infront of me. 

In general. I have an inner rage that can't be opposed. Everyday on twitter in England. Some horrible news thing comes through. 3 year old gets thrown into a crocodile enclosure by immigrant. Disabled man has his eyes gouged out by immigrant. 

I have seen enough to not completely oppose Q. Such as some things around the Trump election. But I also cannot commit myself to the belief in any real way to the paradigm that things will get better. That positive entities are guiding everything. Or that things like miracles, telepathy and energy healing are possible. When there is such dogged evidence to the contrary of the telepathy and energy healing. (I do feel the positive entities though I am not really doubting that!)

Where this is all going is that I am now doubting whether I should be doing the Communion. It has been a very important part of my life since Easter of 2022. When I went to church, not knowing it was Easter Sunday, and started communion from them. Having experienced what felt like positive spiritual power from this. 

This might be like one of my semi regular now faith crisis such as when I have thought I should stop prayer a few times. Anyway, it felt appropriate to write on this blog for the moment.  

The conscious mind.

I have been listening recently to a Ra Uru Hu speech on 2027. The astrological changes he describes and the best way, with the knowledge he had at the time. To explain them. To attach them to what might happen in real life. 

But, it leads in a kind of transcient direction. Or something like that. After the years of David Wilcock lies, it is hard to attach to fantastic claims attached to prophesy. Even though, logically, Ra Uru Hu was not David Wilcock. He channeled the entire human design. Ra Uru Hu clearly has a genuinely galactic level IQ. While the Law of One trio, I don't think could form the words and insight of the Law of One contact. Ra Uru Hu is somewhere in the realm, I think, of creating that system. 

So Ra Uru Hu's IQ was probably somewhere around where David Wilcock claimed David Wilcocks was. While not being able to change the batteries in a smoke detector. 

Be that as it may. I realise I have grown far more grounded throughout my life now. Only really believing things that I can distinctly grip. But at the same time. Being very inclined towards this metaphysical kind of area. 

So without my mind being able to penetrate these larger themes; or perhaps being able to penetrate but not trusting. I am going back to one of the simplest spiritual themes.

I have talked before. Actually on a video. About this card. The Matrix of the Mind. The Conscious Mind. A simple archetype shown by gate 17, the simplicity and single focus of an opinion, gate 21, the direction of the will. Gate 51, and the shock that comes from that power but also leads into the next place. The vast expanse, (gate 42), of the subconscious mind. 

How the conscious mind works, functions, is what I think this is talking about. The ball is the positive polarity. The focus. The bird is the subconscious mind. The neophyte, is unable to walk forward without being prevented by the bird cage. 

The thing he is seeking is below his feet. Since the next card is the subconscious mind, and these themes continue through to other cards. But his focus has to be on the inspiration itself. 

This is something I kind of gripped theoretically. Kind of realised, suspected, thought about. But which has not gained the authority in my mind. I did not use it properly. 

The thing I absolutely LOVE to do. Which I need no discipline at all to do. Is go to the gym. Partly to get out my anger. To transmute it. It links with the kind of thing I talk about here. I have a theory that once I get far into that anger. Once I have done a lot of exercise. The next stage of the positive spiritual path will become more clear. 

But, there is a problem. When I go to the gym I am often exhausted. I stop doing some of the things that are good in my life. Namely, prayer, meditation and affirmations. Maybe music is part of that. I also need the energy of meditation to go to the gym. Those things really improve me. Without them my energy flags. (It is not just lack of energy stopping me going to the gym but the energy involved in more preparation than normal due to the health condition).

It means I will have to change my thought process and priority. I am emotionally effected by having gained weight. So the gym becomes a priority. Before I am at the stage where I can combine exercise with diet changes, my body has to be good enough to regularly do the exercise. 

But the priority can't be the weight. I will have to put up with the weight. My priority has to be prayer and such. Then my energy will be in a good place and the gym should follow.

This is in line with this card. I have to keep focused on the positive spirituality. The real goals (gym, maybe music) i.e. the bird cage, will have to come as a result of that.