Fleshing out Communion (Part 2)

Just a quick update here. 

I am thinking through a little bit the change in my life now I have stopped Communion. 

In Star Trek Deep Space Nine. The main protagonist. Benjamin Sisko. Is attached to a set of very positive entities. The 'Gods' of Bajour. Because it is fictional. The show managed to put forward a legitimate seeming spirituality, without it being too close to Christianity. Which is like garlic to a vampire for these Hollywood writers. So spiritual themes were explored without a lot of the trouble associated with it. 

Due to things happening in the shows. Between Gods and Demons. Benjamin is forcibly detached from said "Prophets". There is a war going on in the show when this happens. And as a result of this. The 'luck' of the good guys stops. A few episodes later, during a lot of very difficult things. The Prophets are reconnected. And all the luck of the good guys. Things halfway through. Switches on. 

It was a beautiful thing that felt real in a way. But I remind myself as I am talking about this. That real life is not like that. What I am coming to, is that if a thing, an energy, appears to shift. There are a lot of potential reasons for said shift. When we go out in the world. Even an uptick in enthusiasm can simply change the world around you in ways we can't suspect. Any health change reflects on other health changes. Any reduction in stress reduces others stress. 

So it is something to bear in mind as I think of the potential effects since I have stopped Communion. 

But where my mind is going. Is that when I started doing Communion. From Easter of May 2022. I had a very specific problem at the time which Communion, strong dreams, strong emotions appearing to "save" me. Seemed to help me out of a jam at the time. 

The jam was that I had slowly gotten very attached to a female friend. Then she had gone kind of nuts. We all know stories are far more complicated than that. But that suffices as a short summary. 

That exact same jam, has come up a few times in my life. It was very much related to how I used to have a fairly strong schizophrenic tendencies. This feeling of ridiculous fusion. Then the woman behaving in a strange way and I can't disconnect the "fusion". 

This was an insight that was veiled to me while I was doing the Communion. But the moment I came off it. I suddenly had thoughts and insights from that time. 

The problem, previously, was partly due to the 'schizophrenic fusion', so it might not even need any introspection to uncover and influence. But it is a big thing. A big kind of insight that I need to mull over.  

Fleshing out Communion.

The Bible and Communion. 

This is the video that mentioned the Communion. It is only discussed for about a minute at the exact hour mark.

Youtube: Ex- Hebrew Israelite Exposes the Bible's Dangerous Ideology (Malaki Macabee). Jesus Way Podcast 058: June 18th 2026:

https://youtu.be/TuaJ2a7RQaA?si=aQcaQMWtHyQ_A5mZ

I often feel very good watching Aaron Abke. This is so dense I feel like I have barely absorbed it on one sitting. Like a lot of his videos. I have to rewatch and take notes. I feel like my connection to the Christian 'faith' is tenuous at best. That I enjoy these kinds of videos. And other creators that go into biblical truths. Does suggest some connection to this material. This feeling is moreso than a lot of videos I watch.

"In the black churches y'all is big. I plead the blood of Jesus, I plead the blood of Jesus. Every Sunday. The blood, the blood. And... forget about the Communion with the wine, with the crackers and all that. And the 'this is my blood, this is my body'. All that is Pauline."

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"Pauls letters predate the gospels. So whatever you see that agrees with Paul in the Gospels came after Paul was already writing. That means the gospel writers are influenced by Paul, not the other way around."

Corinthians 1:17 - 32:

For I received from the Lord what I also delivered to you, that the Lord Jesus on the night when he was betrayed took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it, and said, “This is my body, which is for you. Do this in remembrance of me.” In the same way also he took the cup, after supper, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood. Do this, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of me.” For as often as you eat this bread and drink the cup, you proclaim the Lord's death until he comes.

Whoever, therefore, eats the bread or drinks the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner will be guilty concerning the body and blood of the Lord. Let a person examine himself, then, and so eat of the bread and drink of the cup. For anyone who eats and drinks without discerning the body eats and drinks judgment on himself. That is why many of you are weak and ill, and some have died. But if we judged ourselves truly, we would not be judged. But when we are judged by the Lord, we are disciplined so that we may not be condemned along with the world. 

Wow, when you actually read it. It is not just some casually worded phrasing. This wording. If it was written by Paul before the gospels. Pretty much insists that to remain consistent and to not call Paul out as a liar. It would have to be written into the Gospels that Paul said this. 

But one thing about Paul is that aside from this. Everything he says about Jesus and his teachings is the polar opposite to what they actually are. So if it were true that Jesus said that. And I don't think it is. It would be the singular area they agree. 

I can't imagine what the particular pressures were during the day. But, one of the things that was inconvenient to the Romans. Was when you had all these early Christians. "The Cristos". Nazarenes, or Essenes. Were all vegans, and a huge part of their economy was the sale of meat. I wonder if there was a similar feeling about alcohol? I can't imagine that, outside Communion sorts of instructions. That Jesus' followers were big on wine.

Communion and me personally.

I have been thinking a lot, feeling a lot. About the change of not doing Communion. I did not do it with a church. I tended to do it on my own. At first it was just me and a glass of wine and gluten free bread. It was the only thing keeping me drinking alcohol for a long time because I got a stomach ache from non alcohol varieties. And I felt like 'Jesus said wine'. 

I have been thinking about what it does. What it has meant to me. The Law of One talked about it being positive metaphysical protection for Carla. As I have mentioned. But they also framed pretty much everything, almost everything. Very specifically about how it relates to the person themselves. How something effects a certain persons beliefs. 

So it's effect on me was many fold. It centered me in a kind of 'what I thought spirituality was'. A kind of heart chakra centered approach. It took away ever so slightly to how I experience the world without that in the way. 

One; I was not quite as able to access my anger to the extent I am now. And this mattered with motivation for going to the gym. And clarity in these matters. Which strongly feeds back into my overall health. Two; I am slightly better, on the ball with wisdom things in general. Dream interpretation is clicking a bit more. And music is 'in tune'. And more passionate. I was not able to quite get the music feel. That I can get now. 

There is more I have to say. But I might not ever say it. But things have shifted a lot. It is a very interesting and powerful thing to step away from this.  

Progress on a spiritual path.

I had one of my best days today. Went to the gym. Just felt amazing. Drinking a lot of water seems to be a key for my health and my specific health condition is one where dehydration is a symptom. So just listening to my body has good results. (Rather than fizzy water, i.e. "almost" listening to my body. Did not have any particularly good results).

I do not have any real insights at the moment. Because I am still working through what might have been an insight I have just had. The point I made in a recent post. That Communion might not be positive magick. But that blood magick in general is something that the negative uses. 

Stopping Communion. I did not do it on Sunday so next Sunday will be the moment I have definitely stopped it. I do feel like I am detecting an improvement. That the dreams I have been stuck on for months now. One month of dreams. Seems to have shifted.

There are a lot of ideas I have about what might be changing. But it is early days. A day or two. Needs a lot longer to say... Yes, this seemingly minor emotional change can lead to this. Or no, I was overthinking it. 

Spirituality and limitation.

This is my video for today:

Youtube: RootsofLife: Why They Call Reiki, Yoga and Meditation, "Evil". June 20th 2026:

https://youtu.be/o96W2QKl9UI?si=07A9vxf-575a4BKn

There are a lot of people that call these things 'evil'. I just watched a video (not this video) by a guy who was talking about demons tempting him. Like, this seemed to be both in real life and in the dream world and imagination. He was a guy who has gained a following because he talks a lot about not masturbating. He was trying to make himself out to be this kind of enlightened spiritual guy and he said that he could "feel" how the planetary glyphs and such in astrology are evil.

So... my dude, you are basically saying that a thing is a certain way because you "feel" like it is a certain way. Wonder if he was on his period? Needless to say I unsubscribed.

When I first got into the Law of One. I used to feel very comforted that there are all these people out in the world with what I considered the 'correct' beliefs. Understanding of guides, spirits, and metaphysical issues. Or mainstream Christianity. Where a deep fidelity to the "One Infinite Creator" is highly prized. 

An actual analysis, both online and in the real world, reveals a lot of disappointment. A lot of people are only paying very vague loyalty to abstract concepts. While in practice, it seems to me. Just doing what is emotionally convenient for them to do. 

An example is... Firstly... Christianity. 

OK, so all these Christians believe Astrology is evil... "Just because". Did the Devil create the planets? I have never heard of anything like that so probably not. So God created the planets? And they have recognised that astrology does work. It does work according to the Christians. So God created something that's function is precisely to do evil and nothing else? That foretells human personality and events, but is only evil? Makes no sense at all. Why would God do that? 

These are not atheists. The Stefan Molyneux's of the world just say that astrology doesn't exist. I find this to be a more respectable, or at least consistent, position. Even when I have met it personally. Than that it exists but that it is "evil" because I say so. Holding out for more objective proof is a position that makes some kind of sense. 

Christians believe though, that astrology is evil, I think because of some obscure part of the old testament. It is something like 'Do not associate with those that practice magic'. Mainstream Christianity, is, as a whole, an appeal to authority fallacy. At least in the mainstream. The idea that the bible is the word of God. Like his literal word. Not channeled through man. The idea the bible is always right. There are a lot. A LOT, of contradictions within the bible. 

But OK, if people want to live like that. It is their free will that they do right?

Wrong. Because they don't live like that. They do not actually yield authority to the bible when it is something they just believe in. It is rather like I have described them so far. It is like spiritual communities. They have some very general loyalty to the parts they like. But they don't actually believe in it in any legitimate way:

Youtube: Pearl: Why are Modern Christians So Insufferable: June 17th 2026:

https://www.youtube.com/live/HRMcaWyalWM?si=cJZ7fz4uhdYqWteE

Pearl has many videos on this kind of subject. Including other hours long videos like her going to a church and asking the Christians coming out of it. "Should women obey their husbands".

During the discussions it has been explained that women obeying their husband, is what the bible says. There are some other lines like 'Love your wife like Christ loves the church". To justify a kind of "equality" kind of arrangement argument. But Christ does not take orders from the church. So with even a cursory explanation of that line. It does not mean an arrangement with equal leadership. 

So the Christians. Well they don't like that line. They are not even consistent with their own stated beliefs. The arguments from Aaron Abke proving Paul was a false prophet would not be received very well either. How do I know that? Because if they would have been, that would be the mainstream view. It is the more correct view. So it does not justify them not liking astrology. Their religion is an appeal to authority fallacy. Except when it is inconvenient. Therefore, their claimed reason for their beliefs is not true. So it must be something else. 

Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of My Father who is in heaven will enter. Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; leave Me, you who practice lawlessness.’ 

As I said, when I first got into the new age I drew comfort from the fact there are loads of new age people out there and loads of Christians. But that is falling away now. I realise that, as life moves forward and things change. That most of these people are self centered, unintelligent individuals with no answers. But that have just chosen a specific label for their own self interest. And then, like Pearl discusses. Take on the position of a moral high ground with answers that solve nothing... For some reason.

The video from the Roots of Life creator. Did not actually discuss anything to do with Christianity. It discussed how a lot of people try to repackage basic things like meditation to be something that you rely on a guru for. Aaron Abke in a recent video also talked about how some people involved in the spiritual life. Get obsessed with the entry level experiences, never going any further than that. 

I said this in the comments to the Creator of this video. That I think there may be another sub type of reason that happens sometimes. 

I have tried again and again to do healing stuff. I have talked about it here, on forums, and on my youtube channel. The fictional idea of healing still captures my imagination. And I suffer with medical issues. That are not overly painful. But they are daily and complex. There is a constant motivation to improve my physical health. And I do believe in these things.

But, despite many times of trying and trying again. I have learned that I am not a healer. I am not someone that can do this. I do have some small awareness and knowledge of general physical health due to my experiences. I remember going walking with the dog after one of these attempts. Feeling nothing but pure anger. There has also been a sense that I am covering something important, some wisdom that has to be opened with meditation. 

So the reason some Christians might think that Reiki healing and such is "evil". Is because they personally are not inclined towards it. But they pushed themselves into it at some point anyway. Trying to push yourself in a way that you are not destined to go feels sinister.  

This, for me, also extends to other things. While I can do music. I cannot write stories. It is a hard thing to learn I think to really accept our limitations. For the past few days with the sun and the women being out in their swimwear. I have been very motivated to figuring out how I am going to approach them or whatever. The only way I usually use to handle any issue I have is with spirituality. With the tools I use here. So I made up a second page of prayers to address this issue. (Also started practicing changing responses in visualisation) 

This, along with waking up in the morning being determined to write a smut story. Has lead me to realise that it really is very important for us to learn our limitations. To accept our limitations.

I was just learning what I talked about in this archetype and failed my first test of it:

It is hard to accept limitations. It is one of the behaviours that I have seen in people that are "narcissistic" in some description of the term. They don't accept the limitations of the world as in. That they don't have complete knowledge of others internal world. That they don't have the ability to do anything they want. As I said, I am a musician; not a healer or a storywriter. Despite, being very very interested in sci fi. Being very motivated to write. Just have not been able to. (I suppose this is writing! I meant as in fiction).

Where this links with these new age types of people. The video talks about how messed up they are. How they are kind of like narcissistic guru's and the guy making the video thought that perhaps the reason they were like that is that they were not meant to be in that position. But they pushed further and went there anyway. So they are like if I were to push ahead and actually become the healer that is veiled to me. Because I am not meant to do it. It would become fanatical and weird, and perhaps even seem evil. 

This kind of thing might unravel the whole system I wonder. It might unravel the very many people that are doing things that don't seem to be working. Perhaps a lot of these confused Christians, with no real beliefs that I can identify. Aren't meant to be that kind of Christian.  

Mirrors.

I'm going to talk about something that I have not wanted to mention for a few weeks. But has been going through my mind.

Interestingly though. VERY interesting. I have found this session and answer in the Law of One:

Questioner: Thank you. Could Ra give information on any way that we could give information to Greta Woodrew as to how to alleviate her present condition of swelling?

Ra: I am Ra. We may only suggest that the honor of propinquity to light carries with it the Law of Responsibility. The duty to refrain from contumely, discord, and all things which, when unresolved within, make way for workings lies before the instrument of which you speak. This entity may, if it is desired by the scribe, share our comments upon the working of the latter entity.

The entity which is given constant and unremitting approval by those surrounding it suffers from the loss of the mirroring effect of those which reflect truthfully rather than unquestioningly. This is not a suggestion to reinstate judgment but merely a suggestion for all those supporting instruments; that is, support, be harmonious, share in love, joy, and thanksgiving, but find love within truth, for each instrument benefits from this support more than from the total admiration which overcomes discrimination.

The second paragraph is where the emphasis is. It was weird how the actual name is put in now. Doesn't feel quite right, but it would also seem silly to now delete that now that it is publicly available on lawofone.info. Also, I found her wikipedia page, and she died in 2010. 

 

Grok said that she is about 25 years old in this. Whereas in 1984 roughly, when this session was done. She was about 50-55. 

The thing that I have been thinking over is the amazing and disproportionate power that women have in this society. There have been many different videos that have come up while I was mulling it over. But this is one:

Youtube: Hannah Spier: Treating the Pathological Female: Why the Current Model Fails: June 25th 2026.

https://youtu.be/CYnmU4r3YJc?si=86GFVIUvtAz4ebWQ

Basically, the point of this video, is that because Borderline is very female specific. The entire psychological establishment. Refuses to offer any opposition to their dysfunctional behaviours. The entire treatment is based on making them feel emotionally better about themselves. Whereas with a male equivalent diagnosis with similar behaviours. Anti social personality disorder. The treatment and attitude is extremely different from this. Recognising that if they do something then it is bad. Rather than if they do something bad, it is because of bad emotions, and everyone should put up with it. 

After a lot of this thinking. After this session and some contemplation on dreams and such. I have come to a new idea though on what I might consider a positive situation. 

I have talked before about being surprised by the amount of "privilege" so to speak, women enjoy. Specifically recounting overhearing a young girl saying that her and her friends had gone to a bar and the guys there had told them that when they go there in future, they can eat for free. There are other examples along this same direction. 

This reflects on the relevant Law of One session. If the feedback to young girls denies them "mirrors" etc. This is deep wisdom that I think could improve a lot of young womens lives.  

There are many examples of this generally. One of Pearl Davis' examples is that when she goes to the gym. She comes out and all the five shops there were shops focused on women. Because women control more of the "spending money". This is a part of her narrative. 

Another example is I watch a lot of musical youtube channels. The young women, generally just playing chords and singing. Even if it is good singing. It is not a standard I would accept from myself. Soon- ish they are making posts about going to do shows in such and such a place. I rarely see this kind of thing from men. Unbelievably talented people. I mean, world leading. Are often posting videos busking. 

But what strikes me, what understanding has suddenly become so clear on this. Is that that is not the good thing in life. The good thing in life. Regardless of money and other markers of status and success. Is polarity. If we are positively polarised we are happy (or potentiated in some fifth density cases). If we are not polarised service to others. If we are having trouble and have parts of us polarised service to self. We are not happy. 

It utterly changes the thinking on this in my opinion. 

The woo woo shift.

So, figured I will do a woo woo post today. My health is not good with heat. And it is very, very hot. I will try and not leave the house tomorrow. I feel with bouts of illness it is easier to focus on ungrounded matters in general. I wonder if this was a small part of the function that Carla's illness had in her life (in reference to the Law of One).

I have not wanted to talk about this for a while. But, for people that are inclined that way I think it is relevant. 

Ra Uru Hu was someone that channeled an entirely new and extremely complex; extremely deep. Astrology system. 

The Human Design Chart does have some future information that might relate to what the Law of One calls the harvest. The coming changes to our world. 

They have mentioned something called 'The Raves'. Supposedly, from around February 2027, the beings born will be part of a new race. Very telepathic. Very psychic. Kind of blind and deaf. Very different to us. They will not need a lot of looking after, but will go and get up to their own thing, mostly ignoring their parents and society that we know of. 

They fit with what the Law of One might call 'the new breed'. Incarnating for fourth density work.

There is more to be said about February 2027. But it really is in the area of woo. It is also I think, the best that Ra Uru Hu had with available knowledge. I imagine that not just with this, but with many areas. As things have updated the main body of human design information looks a bit different in small ways. 

Ra Uru Hu talked about in February 2027. A huge energy changes. From the first line to the sixth line. Meaning people with sixth line energy (Me!) will have more backing. Things will flow more. The sixth line is a very spiritual line which indicates to me that a lot of spiritual people would suddenly gain significance/ celebrity at this time. 

But Ra Uru Hu also talks about something shifting and the gate 19 kind of suddenly ceasing to exist. This doesn't sound right to me. Energy can't just change so something doesn't exist. It might be yet another metaphorical kind of thing from the source. Or messed up information. But anyway, we will run with it all the same.

The 19 is the gate of need. It is the gate that approaches the tribe with a request. In Ra Uru Hu's explanation. It is the gate that has to do with all resources. Ever needing any resources. It is the gate of animal husbandry and our relationship with animals, especially for food. Or perhaps, he emphasized for food. It is also the gate of 'needing' god, so religion as well. It is also the gate where approach happens. As in the courting that leads to marriage.

This seems to underpin pretty much our entire culture. These four themes are some of the biggest theme in our culture. 

At the time of course. Ra Uru Hu had no model as to how these changes might occur so he tended to think of it like the entire world kind of collapsing and a bunch of people starving to death as institutions collapse. (Another aspect of the astrological change, the 1st to 6th line thing, says that large institutions will cease to exist).

This was all before Q though. Now that we have Q and the new age eccentric communities. We have the potential shift that some sort of 'mass arrest' and/ or 'disclosure'. But most importantly, as has been discussed a lot. A new economic model built upon some sort of gold standard. 

A shift of this sort would satisfy all those requirements. There would be no struggle for resources under the right economic model. (The current fiat currency and inflation is a large part to blame for that in my opinion). Also without the same evildoers and their masters that have been in politics for centuries. With new technology meat might be a thing of the past. 

It does not fit all of these things. But the future could be strange in a way that we can't predict. It feels unlikely to me that people will suddenly stop 'needing' God. But potentially, if there was good enough promotion and understanding of a kind of Law of One like model. Then people would not need to seek these things because that need would have been satisfied. 

I recall when I used to think of storylines and one of the plot lines I thought of. One of them that has stuck with me is the idea that an alien race, a very positive alien race. Just takes over humanity and runs everything in accord with intelligences that we do not have. 

Like, the idea being that people are just kind of shuffled about in accordance with some grand plan. So if the issue between two long term friends was that one person did not have status while the other one had a lot of status. Then for about three years that one friend gains a lot of status and then meets that friend. It would be more complex than that in real life of course. X person should go and live with Y community.

The point seems... annoying and infantalising. A stunted lack of freedom. But it was only a story idea. Our culture I would say though is fairly infantile. There are billions of people that vote left. The idea would be that after a period of time the humans in this story would be meant to have gained and learned and then would not have to be supervised any longer.  

The acceptance of chaos.

At the moment. I feel absolutely sure that my post of yesterday, talking about coming away from the Communion as a personal practice. Is correct. 

I have a lot of thoughts about what might be it's "magickal" significance. But suffice to say, in short hand, that the idea was an extension of a kind of "blood magick" in my understanding. And blood magick, is not something the positive uses. (This is from Aaron Abke and his video of about six days ago on Leviticus).

I am actually feeling a noticeably other than good or loving feeling at the moment. But it is powerful... Raw. I sometimes think of one of the Law of One sessions where the contact talked about how the negative greeting works, and it specified there were two targets in Carla. One was the heart chakra. I think, I might be wrong, that this was encouraged towards over, not under, activation. 

It reminds me of the constant waffle that is given loving language. But is actually quite negative. From a lot of people. When someone prevaricates on a clear spiritual question for instance. Refusing to answer you directly. I recall one example I heard recently was in a meditation group. Where a group of hippy male meditators leave a class because an intimidating ex con turns up and intimidates the women. Leaving only one guy to talk to him who was a bit more grounded. The guy talking about this remarked at how vocal these hippy male meditators were in talking about things like virtue. 

I am not feeling positive or loving like that. I am feeling deep, powerful rage flowing through me. And because of this. I can feel my ability to create lyrics, something that seems blocked in me. Starting to work a bit better. I can say something when the root is anger.  

Anyway, I have something to say, but I do not think I have the ability to fully say what that is. So it will be a shortened vague version in what I think is the right direction:

Youtube: Cold Condition: Woman Says Rejecting A Man Before His Glow Up Is The Worst Feeling: June 22nd 2026:

https://youtu.be/E8gHtGJ7uic?si=5LefQ8vvDvXyf07D

The point here is the general correctness of this and how this opposes the soft, liberal 'forgiveness without contrition' consensus. When evildoers try to convince someone to give forgiveness without contrition. They never focus on the evildoer. The abusive partner. They always try and revictimise the person who was treated badly. 

I think there is an understanding amongst these centrist types. They know they are horrible people. And they know that it would be in their best interesting if the people they are casually bullying believe this forgiveness without contrition thing because there is a very real possibility (but only possibility, there is a greater probability the bullied person will never gain status) that that person may gain power in the future. It is a bone deep, strong desire to evade accountability. 

Going quickly to Session 34 and the process being "Understanding, acceptance and forgiveness". I have said before I think these are Mind, Body and Spirit. I think in these situations. When there is a disagreement and someone is disrespected. Someone is considered 'the lesser animal'. An important part of the 'body' section of this. Is a certain animal power.

I do not think we can "forgive" someone when there is an unequal power dynamic. Say someone is being bullied at work by their manager. They are then told to let it go by HR, but the manager has no intention of changing. Bullies rarely, if ever, do. The person then is in a position of having to pretend they have "forgiven" the situation. Or no longer being able to eat. 

Or a situation where a woman is socially ascendant, and a guy was treated badly and then she flat out avoids him after that with no discussion, no apology.  

In these situations. I don't think forgiveness can be legitimate. Because the power dynamic is off. A proper relationship has to have a kind of equal power dynamic. Not a 'forgive or else'. 

So I think in the body section. In the acceptance section. This video above is what has to happen. Some process, some thing, has to happen to balance out the power. In order to see another as the One Creator in the real sense of the term. There does have to be some sort of equal power dynamic I think. 

So this is what this part of the process is. In the video above. A guy talks about how a lot of women disrespected him. Then he did really well in the gym and posted his physique and a lot of women suddenly changed their tune. A lot of people suddenly coming around trying to be friends and "forget" any of their older, disrespectful, behaviours.

This is a balancing of power. I think this works in a lot of different situations. It is part of the process. Power is not just in physique. It can be social power, status, money (with women I think it is more strongly expressed in attractiveness, in how they experience animal power). When Stefan Molyneux talks about all the people he had to leave behind. Who were getting jealous and such, trying to sabotage him. It is a similar thing. 

Understanding, Acceptance and... Forgiveness. Forgiveness I am not so sure on. Watching Stefan Molyneux as an ideal model. I would say that when he had gone through these processes. He did not turn around and forgive all the people involved. It could be something like... to Forgive, or not. As the Human Design would say (The 'or not' is a very specific energy of being opposite to that thing. it is not 'not' as in not existing. It is opposite). But the last point of the process that I can see in Stefan is that he brings in spiritual laws of a sort. When he says that 'Love is our involuntary response to virtue if we are virtuous". This might be the work of the spirit.

I still want to ask him about that. I still don't quite get how he thinks, or would explain rather, how precisely that mechanism works? I would like to ask him hypotheticals on it.

Understanding is understanding the problem. Acceptance, is accepting it exists. (Which makes sense this is where the action is. Once you accept something has happened, it is intuitively correct you can act from that place!) Then comes the last thing. The action of the spirit. Which brings in information that actually solves or concludes the issue? 

Anyway, exciting times. If a little bit scary from the stronger emotions. I trust that this will all work out in a good way from now on. It is like when you make a minor change that just changes things like 10% every day. Like when you do meditation. Your decisions are 10% clearer. Over the longer term, it mounts up!  

Lightning strikes.

Feeling successful after my last post. Feeling, as I now suspect was a ridiculous idea. I might be done with producing new ideas to put on here for a while. 

The reason being is that, I focused my energy on positively polarised things like I said in my last post. I got a result. It did not seem as though there is anything more to do from that place. Just be in that place. 

But, then I had a powerful insight. So here we are. One that might change my entire belief system in a powerful way. 

The Law of One on the Holy Communion:

Questioner: Thank you. Could you explain the basic principles behind the ritual which we perform to initiate the contact and what I would call the basic white magical rituals— principles of protection and other principles? Could you please do this?

Ra: I am Ra. Due to your avenue of question we perceive the appropriateness of inclusion of the cause of this instrument’s transitory vital energy distortion. The cause is a bias towards the yearning for expression of devotion to the One Creator in group worship.

This entity was yearning for this protection both consciously in that it responds to the accoutrements of this expression, the ritual, the colors and their meanings as given by the distortion system of what you call the church, the song of praise, and the combined prayers of thanksgiving and, most of all, that which may be seen to be most centrally magical, the intake of that food which is not of this dimension but has been transmuted into metaphysical nourishment in what this distortion of expression calls the holy communion.

The subconscious reason, it being the stronger for this yearning was the awareness that such expression is, when appreciated by an entity as the transmutation into the presence of the One Creator, a great protection of the entity as it moves in the path of service to others.

The principle behind any ritual of the white magical nature is to so configure the stimuli which reach down into the trunk of mind that this arrangement causes the generation of disciplined and purified emotion or love which then may be both protection and the key to the gateway to intelligent infinity.

I am reading book 5 at the moment. I have been getting a fair amount of synchronicities around all of this. Which I have been leaning into. But it is not a language I really appreciate or think a great deal of. I am more enamoured with the philosophical/ Stefan Molyneux kind of direction of logical deduction. 

I recall a week or so ago, perhaps a bit longer. When I wrote a blog on here mentioning Don Elkins and what he was perhaps thinking. I.... do not like talking about this. The reason being is that it is closely related to the insanity of believing I was Don Elkins in a past life, as I did in the past. Which I have identified as being potentially linked to the unconscious attempt to gain status, where it had been redirected from my actual life through social ostracism, and physiological issues linking to mental illness. (There is a transit strongly talking about this today. Mars conjunct Algol (trauma) in the gate 8.3. The gate 8 was where I had identified these tendencies previously linking to my unconscious Earth in gate 1!)

Anyway, I did talk a bit about Don. There was something that just seemed obvious while I was reading book 5. And I got a synchronicity. One then, and one linking recently again. This was the feel of "Carla" that I got. Super talented guys with a religious song in the American South that I associate her with:

Youtube: Amazing Grace - Johan Borgh and Enil Ernebro: October 3rd 2022:

https://youtu.be/7VMZoTImriI?si=8I7KCdXd5o_h4RfC

Of note here is music is something I genuinely love. A language that Carla speaks.  

Anyway, while reading the Law of One book 5, I have seemed to have synchronistically been going through the same kinds of things. I realised yesterday, that a mega reason that my focusing on the positive is good for me is that it retains a bit of my energy back. Going to the gym with my precarious health I was overdoing it. But consistency is very important for my medical situation. This is one of the pieces of guidance discussed in book 5.

Another thing was Don crashing out over the Hawk in a house he was considering moving to. That he applied a very logical framework to. "If we had not seen the Hawk we would have gone there, so it must have meant something bad." It is likely to me that the message was not just for Don. But was a general background of magick that the other two would also have appreciated. Just a general background of magick that those spirits enjoyed gracing the group with. 

The other day while walking, having just read this Hawk section. I saw a Deer. It is not something frequently seen in England. I have seen one one other time and I am in the countryside almost daily. It was a baby deer. That seemed unperturbed as me, one other and an American Staffy (a larger version of a Staffy!) walked by; the Staffy didn't notice the deer. Bizarre of a deer to not think that kind of dog might be dangerous.  

Then the change:

Things were kind of flowing. In the past few hours. I have had sudden "disagreements" with this material. The ideological position of forgiveness without contrition is very negative to me. I do not care at the moment what particular source opposes this. I just know it. It's evil is articulated in the abuse communities. And it has been philosophically justified as incorrect. But Carla mentions it in relation to the negative entities in the fragment I have just read; Fragment 48. Carla was pushing forgiveness without contrition through Q'uo as late as 2009, I think, it might have been later, but I have a specific session for that.

Then there was something that just didn't gel in the session itself. There was also the casual suggestion by Carla that her cat is reincarnated from another cat and I refuse to engage in that kind of thinking. It is maddening. We do not have authority or insight into the world beyond this one. 

Then, this evening, I look at a video that is mentioning Christianity, and mentions that Jesus did not necessarily say the communion stuff. Since Paul, the false apostle said it first, and the gospels were written after Pauls. This could mean they were put in. 

The murky truth:

This means that I have a difficulty with the Law of One directly. The session stated above. I do already have things I don't know if I believe about it. For instance, I do not know if I believe the story on Hitler. My thinking is that if there has been some kind of lie about that, and it being illegal to oppose the mainstream narrative in some countries indicates that could very likely be the case. Then the Law of One contact could not say that. To not oppose the negative in a concrete way and also, because of free will. To not lead the questioning into a tangent. (They said very early on, I think session 2.2, or could have been 1.0. "What we have to share with you is philosophical not historical". Meaning, they will tell the truth on philosophical matters, but feel no responsibility to tell it on historical matters!)

Also, the implication of understanding, acceptance and forgiveness. Understanding and acceptance I understand. Not yet forgiveness. But I wonder if the term forgiveness was to keep in line with free will, and it could actually mean something different. (I have more on this, perhaps unsurprisingly!)

At the moment, I am struggling a bit with a lot of these kinds of thoughts anyway. I have had a few times where the information I am looking at lights up in a "Q" kind of way. Human Design transits and such, dates, future events, theories on what 'comms' are telling us all. But I aggressively oppose that kind of thing within myself. There have been too many false starts now on Q stuff. I can only grip what is in my life and infront of me. 

In general. I have an inner rage that can't be opposed. Everyday on twitter in England. Some horrible news thing comes through. 3 year old gets thrown into a crocodile enclosure by immigrant. Disabled man has his eyes gouged out by immigrant. 

I have seen enough to not completely oppose Q. Such as some things around the Trump election. But I also cannot commit myself to the belief in any real way to the paradigm that things will get better. That positive entities are guiding everything. Or that things like miracles, telepathy and energy healing are possible. When there is such dogged evidence to the contrary of the telepathy and energy healing. (I do feel the positive entities though I am not really doubting that!)

Where this is all going is that I am now doubting whether I should be doing the Communion. It has been a very important part of my life since Easter of 2022. When I went to church, not knowing it was Easter Sunday, and started communion from them. Having experienced what felt like positive spiritual power from this. 

This might be like one of my semi regular now faith crisis such as when I have thought I should stop prayer a few times. Anyway, it felt appropriate to write on this blog for the moment.  

The conscious mind.

I have been listening recently to a Ra Uru Hu speech on 2027. The astrological changes he describes and the best way, with the knowledge he had at the time. To explain them. To attach them to what might happen in real life. 

But, it leads in a kind of transcient direction. Or something like that. After the years of David Wilcock lies, it is hard to attach to fantastic claims attached to prophesy. Even though, logically, Ra Uru Hu was not David Wilcock. He channeled the entire human design. Ra Uru Hu clearly has a genuinely galactic level IQ. While the Law of One trio, I don't think could form the words and insight of the Law of One contact. Ra Uru Hu is somewhere in the realm, I think, of creating that system. 

So Ra Uru Hu's IQ was probably somewhere around where David Wilcock claimed David Wilcocks was. While not being able to change the batteries in a smoke detector. 

Be that as it may. I realise I have grown far more grounded throughout my life now. Only really believing things that I can distinctly grip. But at the same time. Being very inclined towards this metaphysical kind of area. 

So without my mind being able to penetrate these larger themes; or perhaps being able to penetrate but not trusting. I am going back to one of the simplest spiritual themes.

I have talked before. Actually on a video. About this card. The Matrix of the Mind. The Conscious Mind. A simple archetype shown by gate 17, the simplicity and single focus of an opinion, gate 21, the direction of the will. Gate 51, and the shock that comes from that power but also leads into the next place. The vast expanse, (gate 42), of the subconscious mind. 

How the conscious mind works, functions, is what I think this is talking about. The ball is the positive polarity. The focus. The bird is the subconscious mind. The neophyte, is unable to walk forward without being prevented by the bird cage. 

The thing he is seeking is below his feet. Since the next card is the subconscious mind, and these themes continue through to other cards. But his focus has to be on the inspiration itself. 

This is something I kind of gripped theoretically. Kind of realised, suspected, thought about. But which has not gained the authority in my mind. I did not use it properly. 

The thing I absolutely LOVE to do. Which I need no discipline at all to do. Is go to the gym. Partly to get out my anger. To transmute it. It links with the kind of thing I talk about here. I have a theory that once I get far into that anger. Once I have done a lot of exercise. The next stage of the positive spiritual path will become more clear. 

But, there is a problem. When I go to the gym I am often exhausted. I stop doing some of the things that are good in my life. Namely, prayer, meditation and affirmations. Maybe music is part of that. I also need the energy of meditation to go to the gym. Those things really improve me. Without them my energy flags. (It is not just lack of energy stopping me going to the gym but the energy involved in more preparation than normal due to the health condition).

It means I will have to change my thought process and priority. I am emotionally effected by having gained weight. So the gym becomes a priority. Before I am at the stage where I can combine exercise with diet changes, my body has to be good enough to regularly do the exercise. 

But the priority can't be the weight. I will have to put up with the weight. My priority has to be prayer and such. Then my energy will be in a good place and the gym should follow.

This is in line with this card. I have to keep focused on the positive spirituality. The real goals (gym, maybe music) i.e. the bird cage, will have to come as a result of that. 

Wrap up transcience. Music and contradictions. Jealousy.

Wrap up. 

A little bit of a wrap up on the 'transcient' point, I was discussing in the last post:

This is the kind of all consuming evil that I would consider to be difficult. It is not transcient in the fact that it is related to some obscure, claimed government secret, like extra terrestrials. But it is still 'transcient' in the sense, that it is something I could engage in, and it would take my energy away from and disturb things like contemplation, meditation, music etc. 

It is also different from 'obscure government secrets', because it is evil happening in the real world. It odes not have that layer of separation. 

Like I said though, I have to withdraw from this. In the passive sense of generally leaning in one political direction and being there potentially when opportunity arises, like voting. I don't have much I can do about all this. That i can see.

The only thing I can do is improve my health and go to the gym in case some sort of altercation finds me. But I would do that anyway. Health is my main thing.  

The following though, is the take away wisdom that is still relevant. There is a small amount of this material I believe, this is needed to oppose the excesses of the negative that we see. Once you know what is in this tweet, and in far more background from this guys podcasts or a show like Promethean action. It buffers against the sense of powerlessness, doomerism and anger:

I do tend to think that what is happening on the global level is reflected in our personal lives. Because the transits are the same. The same transits happening to Trump and the people surrounding him. Are happening to everyone. The same social patterns, such as the dominance of one or another group. Are also almost universal, it seems to me. So when it is broken in one place, it starts to be broken everywhere. 

So if Trump and the movement against the Deep State is carefully destroying the foundations of the negative. I imagine that is also happening in our personal lives. It is not obvious to me that this is happening. But it is interesting the idea that traps are being carefully laid to prevent evildoers escaping accountability and confrontation. 

The beauty of music and emotional complexity. 

I would say, that, for me. The study of the Law of One and various insights I have been having have lead to a kind of deeper, more complex, set of emotions and perceptions.

Just a general thought on these two songs:

Youtube: Young Pilgrim Music: Don McLean - American Pie: June 9th, 2020:

https://youtu.be/Z13vOA7s0FI?si=1Y6qhyYKhs-DyL-z

Youtube: The Walters: The Walters - I Love You So: November 29th 2014:

https://youtu.be/NwFVSclD_uc?si=r_BOj2Az9L1XaSAU

In both of these songs:

"Well I know that you're in love with him. Cause I saw you dancing in the gym. You both kicked off your shoes. Man I dig those rythmy blues."

"I love you so ... I'm gonna pack up my things, and leave you behind... I hope you feel, what I felt, when you shattered my soul."

Music has a way, I think, of showing the contradictions in a situation. But not having those contradictions have to be squared with each other. I think in most of life where there is a narrative. Where there is a story. And the contradictions have to be kind of fitted into said story.

I recall with an ex friend of mine who jumped off a cliff. I mention her frequently. Clearly still processing it. I wrote a song about her that all came out pretty much immediately. A lot often comes out initially, after that it is an effort. It takes quite a lot of organisation and effort to work on a song after that initial flash of inspiration is gone. 

The song started with a reference to her "tormented" psychological health. It's chorus was about me not being able to look after her. The second verse was how much affection I had towards her not in reference to that. The third verse was more angry. Telling her to go and think about what she had done. "Fade away". All contradictory emotions within the same relationship and set of circumstances. 

These songs are both that as well. Well not precisely. The Don McLean section about dancing in the gym. Was truly letting go of and even celebrating the fact that a girl he was into was into someone else. It is just not a feature in a lot of songs. That lack of detachment and good will. 

The second song includes a contradiction. "I love you so". The song doesn't hide from the fact that the songwriter has very positive feelings towards the girl. But it also airs their strong disagreements which it is intended should end the relationship.

The first time recently I heard this song was Hidden in Plain Sight putting it in a tribute to David Wilcock. This song, and the way it was edited. Was a good choice. 

The pains of jealousy. 

As someone that is quite an ill person. I have been surprised a few times when people have shown jealousy towards me. This specific issue has come up in my personal life. 

But perhaps I shouldn't. I thought up until recently that I could "outreason" the emotion of jealousy. Explain why I did not think it was legitimate. I will go through some of my reasoning here. But I have come to a different conclusion now, as to how things work. 

There are times, when it is destructive to be humble and self effacing. I believe now is one of those times. If someone experiences jealousy towards you. Then saying "Oh, I'm not actually that good (in whatever way the person is jealous of) is actively snobbish and will increase the persons sense of confusion and anger I think. 

So I will go through the good parts of my own being. The things others might look at me for and with they had. I will not underdo these positive characteristics:

A) I am quite intelligent. I am legitimately intelligent. I am not pretending. In the very many ways in which people do pretend in this society. I have had my IQ tested professionally. I have had habits of doing random technical things since very young. When I was about 7 years old my mother has strange stories of this. I do have the ability to see into things. With complexity and context. That others either don't have. Or have but they are not using/ are applying in a specifically very different way. 

I think this blog kind of indicates that. No one is motivated to write this much and this frequently if their brain isn't going a bit crazy.  

B) I am good at music. Perhaps related to the above. I had a very musical father who was well known in that industry in his specific niche. So I have it genetically. But I also just have it. There is an element of randomness in musical ability I understand.

C) I look good. This has been so pronounced I have been out before and attractive women have specifically come and sat next to me, without being invited. Clearly indicating a certain openness to any of my advances. 

D) I have a spiritual message (all this). 

The justifications. 

I do not live a life that these characteristics would indicate. I spend a great deal of time alone and I have a disability. One that kind of creates a lot of second order effects. One of these was a very physiologically created schizophrenia. But my health is better with technology now than it was. But it has made relationships and career difficult. Making in turn relationships difficult and even sex at times impossible. When my physical health is at its worst. So I am not going out being that seductive musical chad ploughing through the hoes. 

I have had various people say directly or otherwise they were jealous of me in some way. Quite a few in fact if you consider this might be the motivation for times when this specific motivation was not directly stated. Even when another motivation was stated. Like people do.

One of the arguments I had against jealousy in general then. Was that to me, these things are connected to each other. I might have had strong schizophrenic tendencies because of a physiological issue. But I also have it in my family line. I am also inclined to it anyway and the physical issue pushed that into being. I would say that it is connected to my inspiration and musical ability. Some of my best songs have arrived with a kind of demonic feeling. 

There is a negative side to everything like that. A creative tendency that leads to schizophrenic side effects. Also intelligence itself I think, can lead one into conflict with others. One of the most intelligent people that I believe exists is Stefan Molyneux. His intelligence has lead him to political views of a strongly right wing nature. He classifies himself as an anarcho capitalist. Meaning that capitalism is the mechanism we do everything and there is no state.

Many of the people that I see get jealous of a thing like intelligence. Also have no appetite for this kind of conflict. They would hundred percent tow the left wing line to carry on getting on well with their friends. Stefan has fallen out with nearly everyone he grew up with I think. Perhaps everyone down to the last man I am not sure.  

There is also, I think, an element of personal choice. On a good day, I pray three times a day, I do affirmations with two of those times. I meditate. I have been into spirituality and the Law of One for a long time. Since I was about 11 years old I had strong beliefs in psychic abilities and such. My mother was an atheist and I had no other guidance in these areas. It was internally created. This means, that if the angels and spirits are indeed there. I am asking for help every single day and they are indeed helping. This has come through open mindedness which I believe is a virtue. There are people that have expressed jealousy at various things who are not at all inclined towards any of these areas. So they have been basically rejecting good help. It is unreasonable to expect the benefits of having done something without doing that thing. And faith deepens. I did not start with the level of faith I now have. It took me more than a decade to start to take said faith more seriously. A person starting today would not be at the same level and should not expect to be. Closed mindedness has consequences.

This goes further. I had a friend who was a stoner get annoyed at me about my musical tendencies and abilities. Who got angry when I wanted to talk about scales. I don't quite know what these people expect. If you want to be good at music. Then chilling with your friends, smoking weed, and not playing scales is not the way to do that. You can spend that kind of time with your friends of course. "There are no mistakes". I do not have the position of absolute knowledge to tell you what is best for you. But there are consequences. So if you do not practice, you will not be good at music. 

A similar thing with women who want to be seen as amazing musicians but have spent a lot of their time partying and having fun in relationships. The guy who didn't do any of that and stayed home and practiced. And thought a whole lot more in solitude. Is going to get better results as to his creative ability. Of course, with attractive women, that might not matter. They still might get the status of a good musician. But they will not get the ability of a good musician.  

These are what I see as some of the cognitive contradictions in jealousy.

In real terms.

However, I have hit a snag with this example. The trouble I have is this: I do not experience jealousy. I have never experienced jealousy except for a very few small times. I can only remember one time. One single instance. I think I had a few more a bit back, but they were obviously not impactful enough to wait around. They were evicted and left without any great fanfare.

The time I recall was seeing a girl, making a very entitled youtube short about how she will not put up with men treating her below a quite high and some would say, unreasonable, standard. But she had this lovely long hair. I am going bald now. I am almost completely bald. I do want my hair back. As a Leo, I was proud of my hair in my twenties when I used to gel it. 

I recall seeing men with attractive girlfriends that I probably should be jealous of. But I am not. 

As someone that has not experienced jealousy. I cannot advise others on jealousy. Sure, I can offer some compelling thoughts that I think are logically sound. But as far as advice. On 'this is the way to handle it'. I cannot do that. The long haired girl is still not enough for me to focus on. It is still not of any intensity compared to my other negative emotions (anger, and bitterness over the health issue). But some people experience as a negative emotion. Jealousy, strong jealousy. That is many instances and can be thought of every day and things.

But I do not apply this thinking, the thinking I have summarised. To this emotion of jealousy. When someone is jealous of something, they kind of want the thing itself and do not have a larger perspective on what the other person is going through. 

I have no idea what is going on in the entitled long haired womans life. And I do not want to. Baldness might be a side effect of testosterone. Which I obviously have more of than her. But such a justification does not change the emotion. 

It makes me realise this attempt to justify the emotion. To cognitively think it through. Might be motivated by my own annoyance of it when it is directed towards me. 

An entire Law of One paradigm.

One of the reasons I might not have gotten jealous, is because it is an emotion that is very difficult to fit in with the Law of One. 

People simply are different parts of the Creator. We cannot "be" each other. It is just not a thing that is possible, or desireable. 

In all, it is very difficult though to come up to the standard of the Law of One. I read this quote the other day:

Questioner: Then she says, “If this is so, this seems to be part of the riddle about the manner of beingness that Ra spoke of. I fear if I do not work successfully on my human distortions I shall be responsible for losing the contact. Yet also Ra suggests the over-dedication to any outcome is unwise. Could Ra comment on these thoughts?”

Ra: I am Ra. We comment in general first upon the query about the contact which indicates once again that the instrument views the mind/body/spirit complex with jaundiced eye. Each mind/body/spirit complex that is seeking shall almost certainly have the immature and irrational behaviors. It is also the case that this entity, as well as almost all seekers, [has] done substantial work within the framework of the incarnative experience and [has] indeed developed maturity and rationality. That this instrument should fail to see that which has been accomplished and see only that which remains to be accomplished may well be noted. Indeed, any seeker discovering in itself this complex of mental and mental/emotional distortions shall ponder the possible non-efficacy of judgment.

As we approach the second portion of the query we view the possibility of infringement upon free will. However, we believe we may make reply within the boundaries of the Law of Confusion.

This particular instrument was not trained, nor did it study, nor worked it at any discipline in order to contact Ra. We were able, as we have said many times, to contact this group using this instrument because of the purity of this instrument’s dedication to the service of the One Infinite Creator and also because of the great amount of harmony and acceptance enjoyed each by each within the group; this situation making it possible for the support group to function without significant distortion.

We are humble messengers. How can any thought be taken by an instrument as to the will of the Creator? We thank this group that we may speak through it, but the future is mazed. We cannot know whether our geste may, after one final working, be complete. Can the instrument, then, think for a moment that it shall cease in the service of the One Infinite Creator? We ask the instrument to ponder these queries and observations.

The relevant line here that I highlighted is 'How can any thought be taken by an instrument as to the will of the Creator?

I considered a few times, trying to push myself into having that kind of faith of everything being part of "Gods plan". I don't think I can do it though. Because it would also include a lot of very evil things. The negative entity winning out here would have been under one of those possibilities that might be considered "Gods Plan" if it were to happen.  

I wanted to mention that because I wanted to show that even though I would argue against this being a reasonable standard. That everything is Gods plan. The Law of One does mention it. 

But aside from that, as far as my emotional thought on the question of jealousy goes. Who am I to tell someone what to feel? There was one additional personal item here that I have not included, that might be very legitimate for people to be jealous of. That I could perhaps argue against. But it would be hollow. 

In general, when I have talked to people that are dysfunctional for some reason. Maybe jealous, but more often something else. The situation, their mindset, how they came to their decisions and my perception of their errors that got them there. Are far bigger, and more complex, than anything I can understand.  

Conclusion. 

So that's where I am ending it. That I do have a bit of a cognitive perspective on jealousy. But I don't really know. I am certainly lacking some experience in this area. And people have the right to their own feelings and their own process. 

Political predictions.

Reflections on Makerfield then.

If you are perhaps reading from another country and are not aware of what happened in this by election. That I referred to in previous posts. The Labour candidate, had an absolute landslide. 54% of the vote. 

I have been through this whole thing a few times. Ever since I have been online it seems. Picking off David Wilcocks narrative. I have tried to find evidence that things are going to kick off soon in some amazing way. Previously, I recall, the worst one actually still. Is that there was a grand cardinal cross. Several planets, including some outer ones, were at 13 degrees Cardinal. 

Nothing happened. I mean, absolutely nothing. Really nothing. Not, "oh there were some interesting developments. But it's kind of abstract so nothing proveable." No. not that. I mean, ACTUALLY nothing.

My half sister has a Sun at a 13 degree cardinal placement and I asked her and her mother, whom was there, if anything happened that day... "Oh, that was the day we saw the homeless man on the bus". 

My thoughts and predictions. From last year when I was thinking what would happen when Pluto entered gate 41 for a month and a half. A lot of things. Have not worked out. The same with various political predictions of the years. Following on from the often zeal of other generally right wing perspectives. I have often thought the result would be better than it was.

Is hope spiritual?

But I woke up this morning, I found out at about 4am that Labour won Makerfield because I happened to be up then. (I didn't stay up for it, I woke up!) 

Faith, and it's weaker extension perhaps, hope. I have often thought of as a spiritually admirable quality. But what is being hoped for here?

There are many ways, MANY ways; this is the human condition I think. Of trying to go against free will. Trying to get around free will. 

I think one of the hopes I have, primarily of course, it's that things will get better in the larger sense of the term. Like, there will be jobs and such. The major goal for me, even though it is no longer possible I don't think. Is to have a lot of activity in music. Whether that be employed as a musician or not. But at least the free time to play and create music if I am not employed in that. And to have a wife and a few kids.  

But secondarily, in getting there, it is the impact on people that have a normie way of thinking that annoy me. In casual leftist viewpoints and things. And also, related but not the same. Skeptical viewpoints. Both the feeling of experiencing a greater reality, after "disclosure". And those people coming around to the understanding we live in a wider universe with extra terrestrials and everything. 

Acceptance.

But it seems to me, far from this whole thing. The idea of winning through the ballot box. The idea of that kind of real world change that impacts others. Is kind of anti the kind of spiritual that I am focused on. 

In the past few days my insights have basically stopped. I have been focused on the Makerfield election for several months. But the real world change... well, perhaps it is transcient.

I have never known precisely where to draw the line against 'transcient' information. Yes, you don't want to engage in what are the deep behaviours of the negative. To unnecessarily terrify yourself and reorient yourself to paying attention to that. But surely there should be some basic information that you do pay attention to?

My feeling, this morning, is that perhaps that is not true. I do not think I will be able to pull myself away from paying attention. I just don't have enough to do in my daily life, at this current time, to distract myself. But it is good to know, that even things like this, like elections, do come under the category of "transcient". It is good to know, that even when you cannot follow the ideal. What the ideal is. Then at least you can nudge it in the preferred direction. 

This morning, I feel far more comfortable actually focusing on the present moment. 

The best science fiction from a real science fiction fan.

My "quest" for this blog, even though it was not really 'realised' until recently. Has been to apply the Law of One and other ideas in order to improve my life. 

This is partly because I have quite a serious health condition. So while a lot of people kind of set their direction and soon enough have a lot of commitments such as that they can no longer spend time introspecting, dream interpreting, meditation, and reading the Law of One. When you have a serious illness, (and the effect on my psyche has been very serious indeed. I have lost decades). But when you have a serious illness. It takes a lot more energy and tools to move forward and experience some kind of improvement.

But I am wondering if that when I do get to some sort of state where "yes, the improvement has happened". It will change the state of this blog somewhat? In line with the Law of One. I already do almost daily meditation, prayer and affirmations, and frequent dream interpretation. I have been reading the Law of One daily and things have improved.

Most recently. A mega health improvement. I said it on this blog the other day. I am drinking a lot of water. Since my specific health condition leads to me being very dehydrated. This is a massively positive thing. And overdosing on the caffeine free Pepsi Max, which I did recently. Has lead to this recent improvement. So now, in line, I stopped caffeine, stopped with alcohol, which I was only using for communion, but then I did take a few extra glasses of wine when they were offered, and now improving by drinking masses of water. 

I can feel that improvement. I say all this because it might be that I have to simply experience that improvement and might not do a blog for a little while.

It is also why I will not do a longer blog like the past few days and will only focus on some things I think are generally interesting today:

Sci fi in general. 

Throughout my entire life I have been massively into science fiction. I have watched it all. All the Star Treks except the first one. I say all, I mean The Next Generation, Voyager and Deep Space Nine are the only ones that matter. Stargate SG- 1, Stargate Atlantis, Dark Matter, The Expanse, The Orville, Buffy, Angel, Grimm. Etc. Etc. You get the idea. 

But recently, for the first time in my life. I am suddenly getting bored of sci fi. Maybe I am growing up. I am able to watch tense emotional drama for leisure now. I understand these things. Maybe I have just run out of said sci fi. 

But I realise there is a difference between good and bad quality sci fi. That when you have seen the three Star Treks, and maybe Stargate SG-1. You have kind of seen it all. I would say that those shows contain the full substance of what is good within sci fi. 

I want to recognise a central problem that some sci fi has. One of the things that happens in some sci fi is that an enemy is created. They come in very impressively. But the more the show goes on and that enemy has to come away from it's impossibly powerful introduction. The more that you realise, as you are watching it, that the show just hasn't been written that well. 

An example of this is Earth Final Conflict and Babylon 5. In these shows. The central antagonist. Has no particular depth or relevance to them. No internal politics. No other reason for their existence but just "to exist".

In Babylon 5, the central antagonist from Season 2 onwards were called 'The Shadows'. They were invisible spider creatures that wanted to invade... Why? Well, to invade. It was their life philosophy. 

A lot of the times as well with these shows. They set up an antagonist like that. But they do not have the commitment to actually make a compelling war. So they have to solve the issue with some kind of weird 'just because' issue. So with Earth Final Conflict, which is such an obscure show that no one is going to mind spoilers. The demonic, vampire like creatures that became the antagonist in later seasons. And they had to fuse with another alien creature there which was their more evolved counterpart. So when the Taylons evolved, they left their darker, vampire selves behind. The Unas or something. 

It is, in general, such a cop out. It is so stupid as well. The idea a being would ascend and leave a darker version of its own self behind. That these two would have a long war and eventually involve humans whom would somehow get the two back together. It is childish. 

I am also sick and tired, in general, of shows where there is some sort of love and peace takeaway at the end. That non violence is some sort of solution to an extremely violent opponent. Star Wars did this very much. Luke doesn't fight the Emperor so, what? an entire army spanning hundreds of worlds just... gives up? Because of Lukes love and peace? There are other shows that have done this in more annoying ways which I won't name. Since that would be a spoiler. But it is just ridiculous.

A show that did it well.

This is my favourite science fiction. Now reflecting on it.

Star Trek Deep Space Nine:

The show went on for seven seasons.

The depth of the characters in Star Trek was just fantastic. Characters had powerful, interesting, defined arcs. The station was run by Benjamin Sisko:

 

This character, had a link to "wormhole aliens" called the Prophets. Who were also the kind of gods of Bajour. A planet and people relevant to the story. 

The spiritual things that Benjamin goes through. Are the most accurate I have seen as to what spirituality is like. He has flashes, moments of compulsion where he reveals something the Prophets have shown to him. The whole thing is mixed with the possibility it all might be madness. When his enemies learn of the a celestial adversary that can take down the Prophets. He is asked: "Why do the Prophets matter?". And Dukat, the bad guy, says: "Because without the Prophets, Benjamin Sisko is just another Starfleet captain".

Interestingly, Benjamin Sisko is a baseball player (The kind of personality detail missing from most of these kinds of shows) and he keeps a baseball with him. Which we actually first see when an alien kind of turns a holographic ball real:

 

It reminds me vaguely of the ball shown in the major arcana after the book 4 of the Law of One's refinement of these concepts:

Star Trek Deep Space Nine. In contravention of a lot of these sci fi shows and in contravention of even other Star Treks at times. Disposes of the utopian "we don't work for money" ideas. And in many conversations stresses that these are real life stakes, and the people involved that are talking with high minded ideals are often incorrect and delusional:

Youtube: JohnKY: "It's easy to be a saint in paradise" January 25 2022

https://youtu.be/EcGO1qjIr5E?si=lxsep7kfJg5KVl2n

And when they went to war, they really went to war. There was one episode where the group here have to defend an outpost with another group that have been doing it for a while. They are often attacked by the shows antagonists. Who are brutish, purely animal people. Bred for such a purpose. There are many episodes where these brutish peoples philosophies are talked through.

Well, the Deep Space Nine group are predictable in Star Treks kind of cosey sentiment. And they go to Sisko and say that these people are suffering from PTSD. That Starfleet needs to send replacements. To which Sisko responds; "We are at war, everyone is stretched thin. Yes it sucks, but that's what happens in a war".

This was a scene from that episode:

Youtube: JC Denton: Quark tells his nephew something about humans. July 3rd 2010.

https://youtu.be/-D2SHNqkjbY?si=auOr2Ye7EZaClcjR

There are many, many good aspects to this show. Many good characters. There is Garak, who is a Cardassian. Left out from his own people. We don't know why. But as the show goes on it becomes clear that he is in deep with the intelligence apparatus of his own people. That he lives and breathes as a person like that. An assassin. 

Youtube: trekclips123: DS9 Garak the boy who cried wolf (Improbable Cause) February 22nd 2012:

https://youtu.be/cl66ilQCCNs?si=YWnwuQuyETUH7U77 

While there is an explanation for his character. He does not get a redemption arc in the way a lot of shows would have him. He is still as he is, at the end of the show. Despite all the pain the somewhat tyrannical habits of his people cause and have shown. He is still a Cardassian, and proud to be one.  

There is chief O'Brien. Who is the best representation of the working class genius I have ever seen. Really honours the type in a non patronising way. There were some slightly odd choices. Some things that don't quite add up for me. But overall, the show seemed to me to be genuinely inspired. To have a lot of hints in it about spiritual matters that I don't think the writers had any idea of. 

Why no disclosure? (Red Pill. Learning and polarity).

I've been wanting to write an article for a while. Analysing the red pill. What have I found to be correct within it? What have I found to be not correct within it? (A short but very relevant list!) 

Something about the article hasn't particularly worked though. Like, the words won't "flow". Perhaps it's because I don't deal a lot with women, as like, peers. In a potentially romantic sense. And I just don't care that much. Or perhaps it is because I am reaching for a higher point. Something that takes in the red pill as a reality. But is not the entire discussion. 

I think a point that is relevant here is the unconsciousness of unethical behaviours sometimes.  

Anyway, in looking through what the Law of One has to say on responsibility. Literally searching that term and reading for insights on that specifically (I wonder if responsibility is a distortion of the First distortion, the Law of Free Will, or the third distortion, the law of light/ wisdom?) I came across this. It is only the last paragraph that I actually want, but it feels wrong somehow to not quote the entire passage (even though it is long). Especially since I want to include the "I am Ra" at the beginning. I have a theory that that is there to call the relevant entity when you read it so you are watched over and not fooled by the negative:

Questioner: The pyramid shape then, as I understand it, was deemed by your social memory complex at that time to be of paramount importance as, shall I say, a physical training aid for spiritual development. At this particular time in the evolution of our planet it seems that you place little or no emphasis on this shape. Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. This is correct. It is our honor/duty to attempt to remove the distortions that the use of this shape has caused in the thinking of your peoples and in the activities of some of your entities. We do not deny that such shapes are efficacious, nor do we withhold the general gist of this efficacy. However, we wish to offer our understanding, limited though it is, that contrary to our naïve beliefs many thousands of your years ago the optimum shape for initiation does not exist.

Let us expand upon this point. When we were aided by sixth-density entities during our own third-density experiences we, being less bellicose in the extreme, found this teaching to be of help. In our naïveté in third density we had not developed the interrelationships of your barter or money system and power. We were, in fact, a more philosophical third-density planet than your own and our choices of polarity were much more centered about the, shall we say, understanding of sexual energy transfers and the appropriate relationships between self and other-self.

We spent a much larger portion of our space/time working with the unmanifested being. In this less complex atmosphere it was quite instructive to have this learn/teaching device and we benefited without the distortions we found occurring among your peoples.

We have recorded these differences meticulously in the Great Record of Creation that such naïveté shall not be necessary again.

At this space/time we may best serve you, we believe, by stating that the pyramid for meditation along with other rounded and arched or pointed circular shapes is of help to you. However, it is our observation that due to the complexity of influences upon the unmanifested being at this space/time nexus among your planetary peoples it is best that the progress of the mind/body/spirit complex take place without, as you call them, training aids because when using a training aid an entity then takes upon itself the Law of Responsibility for the quickened or increased rate of learn/teaching. If this greater understanding, if we may use this misnomer, is not put into practice in the moment-by-moment experience of the entity, then the usefulness of the training aid becomes negative.

On the subject of the general passage. My health has been bad for a few days and I have had to use a small pyramid for half an hour to even have the energy to pray! Also, another vague coincidence is that I have talked about several passages from session 60 a few times, from reading book 5. But the book 5 excerpt doesn't have this quote. It is just a coincidence. 

Anyway, onto the red pill:

Evaluating red pill ideas:

There are many red pill ideas. I saw this video recently that I thought was fantastic:

Youtube: Pearl: How I got Red Pilled: Pick Up Artists: June 14th 2026:

https://youtu.be/SIbeS2Q7dFY?si=kHinBALiovNNbvlp

Pearl for me is just unadulterated truth. While analysis is sometimes very good. The take away understandings and rules are sometimes what is useful. With Pearl there is none of that. There is no rule there is just her pure experience with a small bit of analysis:

You will see the truth and you will like it:

 

This is another video that is relevant:

Youtube: John Griffin: The Secret Reason Women Pi$$ You Off So Much: June 14th 2026

https://youtu.be/3kw1p6KlL3A?si=3MXneJZ7bKwsmR5v

Life experience + a 20 year marriage + daughters.  

The bad experience/ malevolence:

My mother has been a nurse for almost all of her working life. She has told me that she goes to house after house where a guy apparently did everything right (as far as we know). But because of divorce laws, he now has to live at home with his parents and fund the life of his wife and kids (plus probably her new lover). That he probably never gets to see. 

The divorce court system, from what I understand. Is purely malevolent. And is very very common. I remember a guest talking on Pearl Davis' show, PI Russell I think, who said he had a friend who had a divorce. His ex wife took a bunch of his money. So he was living in his car. He worked and worked and worked and got a promotion. Then he got enough money to rent a flat. His ex went back to court to say his pay had increased so she deserved more. The judge agreed and upped the alimony/ child support, and he was then poor enough to have to live in his car again. So he killed himself. 

When Ben Hart went to jail, in relation to a story of this same theme. Of feminist judges and crazy women. About 50% of the people that were in prison were there for unpaid child support. The situation is so bad for a lot of men that a lot of them throw away their ID's and become homeless. This is one of the reasons why they have such a big, unsolved, homeless problem in America. 

Another video to illustrate the point I will follow with:

Youtube: TaylorisOnline0: What duties does a woman have in a feminist society? June 14th 2026:

https://youtube.com/shorts/FT4S3WRMhMc?si=LvyKhPH9C4UF4j1k 

But what is the reason for this situation?

The reason is, as follows in my understanding. This follows on from what might be called red pill Lore or basics. I think Rollo Tomassi came out with it first. 

A lot of women follow a predictable pattern. In their twenties, they go out and have fun. They do NOT want to settle down. Their attitude is very much that guys that do want to settle down are kind of boring and such and 'weird'. Then, in their thirties, all of a sudden it is the opposite. Their biological clock is ticking and their social life decreases. All of a sudden their perspective changes. They want to settle down and they socially shame others to meet this goal. The guys that are not serious with them are suddenly "weird" and "man children" or whatever the put down is. 

And there is an issue here as well:

When they are in their twenties. They all like the same guy. Pearls video mentioned this. They all want the hot rich exciting guy that is fun for a good time. But in that way, most of them are not going for their looks match. A womans level is a man that will commit to her, not a man that will sleep with her. So what they need when they get to thirty and they have not landed that guy. Is a guy that will settle down with her. 

BUT, and this is a big but. If a girl does that. If they all go for the rich fun exciting guy that plows through them breaking hearts like a childless old feminist ploughs through cheesecake and wine bottles. They have been in a sense... "Alpha widowed". Meaning, they think excessively about the guy they could have had. And resent and hate their now husbands. They also want variety they had in their youth and do not have sex with their husbands.  

Women have many strategies for this, and one of them, one of the main ones really. Is Christianity. 

A lot of very naive guys in the Christian men will wife up these ex hoes. And the whole culture is there to support this. These women have a body count which is 50+, but when they go to church they play the Christian girl and most of them lie and say their body count is around 3. 

So this is the reason the exploitative divorce laws are needed. On a basic level society needs someone to look after the hoes that have kids. Because if you treat the mother badly. Then that travels down to the kids. This creates dangerous kids. Crime. Poverty. Drug Addiction. So humans have a deep innate sense of making sure that these women are looked after, without considering the overall ethics to the men involved. 

But there is another important aspect to bring in here, before we link it back to the Law of One quote and my larger point. This is all very unconscious from women. The second video there by Jon Griffin shows a bit of how they think. How these systems have formed in such a way. It takes a lot of commitment to create a Christian church for this purpose. Or to pervert and existing one. 

When you actually talk to women about this kind of thing. All of this is unconscious. Not unlike their sociopathic political viewpoints. The left wing has been responsible for Communism, which killed one hundred million people in the 20th century. The Khmer Rouge, Venezuela, The Holodemor etc. And no, socialism is not separate from Communism. They are a sliding scale as the free market can't compete against taxation and the state gobbles up more and more. 

When you ask a women, at whatever stage of this process. They will say they are conforming exactly to this model. When they are young they won't really engage with you but will indicate a kind of female empowerment and all of this partying stuff. Then at 30 sometime they will suddenly convert and settle down. Then later on they will just consider it all normal. 

But now the red pill is waking up. This fully unconscious process, which they mostly still won't reflect on. Is getting stopped. The girls settling down in Christian churches rely on guys belief in the lie of their low bodycount. But guys don't believe this anymore. The dating services are empty of men. The clubs are empty of men. 

Youtube: Dapper Dev: Consequences Have Not Yet Arrived For Women and the Truth About Women Must Finally be Told. June 8th, 2026:

https://youtu.be/3plKlrfFaaE?si=WUpVguytHYIBr7Os 

The Unconscious Aspect.

The unconsciousness of this is what I want to focus on though. I believe all this behaviour actually has an earlier route, which is the coming off the gold standard. Twisting the economy to be able to fund these vanity projects like feminism.  

But like I keep saying, as this is all unconscious, it has spawned a lot of second order effects. A lot which are contradictory and potentially self destructive. Men are, I assume, meant to serve as a kind of tax serfdom to enable womens committment to left wing politics. But DEI has forced men out of jobs. So they can hardly give all their money to women if they do not have any. 

The vast amount of hatred and venom that women in general have for men does not work well for whatever deep agenda is at play here either. Women saying daily on tik tok various nasty things is a symptom of this whole process of exploitation. Running away on its own steam. This is effectively the system facing entropy. 

As I said the process is unconscious. Women that are not in general unethical. Have done this entire process of partying and settling down, without any awareness. They genuinely think all these men out there doing things that slightly offend them are "narcissists". Not seeing their own tyrannical contribution to the situation. Or the completely natural forces at work (such as dating out of their league). So bringing awareness in has to become a very careful exercise. 

Why no disclosure?

Bringing it all together then. Question, if the Q paradigm is correct and the good guys have taken over a whole bunch of the world and are just walking the population through a kind of anti brainwashing in order to not have too much chaos. Then why is this? 

I think it comes down to the Law of One quote above. "If a greater understanding is not put into practice, then the usefulness of what is learnt becomes negative". 

The way I think of this is thusly: Say I am in a bad relationship of some sort. I am very stressed and take it out on my partner. But I do not realise it. I genuinely think they are doing annoying things but it is actually my own stress I am responding to.

Then I receive some relevant psychological information, spiritual information or feedback. I realise that she actually isn't doing things wrong I am just angry -> So in the example this piece of information is the "Greater Understanding". 

I can apply this in two ways.  

One, is I could apply the information positively. OK then, I should apologise. I should make an effort to never be angry again. Etc etc. Or I could apply this negatively: "OK, wow, she isn't actually doing anything wrong. But when I intimidate her she has more sex to placate me". So I carry on doing it. As an example. 

This example is deliberately simple to show the free will aspect. But in the example given in the Law of One quote. The reason to have the negative interpretation might simply be overwhelm. You learn a thing, but it is too much for you to learn and process quickly. So you just don't apply it. So you know what you should do. But you don't do it. 

Now we can put these two points together. The point on learning and free will here, and the red pill stuff. 

If we had some sort of disclosure or disclosure similar announcement. And people suddenly had more information. This might act in the way mentioned above. As an overload, that polarises people negatively.

Say for instance, it came out telepathy was real. And all of a sudden people had the idea that if they focused really strongly on other people that they could effect them. 

Say then you had a bunch of women that felt it was the right thing to do to send loads of hate towards men (or the other way around). Technically, they might have been doing that anyway. But the extra awareness and focus would make things worse - would polarise them towards the negative with far greater efficiency. Bear in mind, I suspect if these energies are effectively blocked, it effects the person sending the energy negatively (depolarising them so to speak!).  

So breathtakingly slow. 

This, to me, could be why this whole process, the process that the Q people are waiting for. So breathtakingly slow. A whole societal change. Consequences on evil doers. Confrontations people need to have with their own amoral choices. Understanding. Has to happen. 

I think a good deal of this might happen as the right wins at the ballot box. A lot of liberals are very well behaved as long as their side is winning. But completely lose it when their opponents seem to be winning.  

A lot of people have been living in huge stress and poverty. Poverty can cause problems in some circumstance that mandate a somewhat negative outlook I think. The fact that a lot of people are out of work at the moment in the UK because of a destroyed economy. Might be allowing a lot of people time to think through things to prepare them for any positive movement forward of our society.  

I am definitely learning slowly. I just came off Caffeine Free Pepsi Max (After caffeine and alcohol recently). It is late in the day to do that. To figure out drinking a black chemical isn't ideal when I have health struggles. I drink a lot of liquid. A LOT. I am like those monsters in the Faculty that just drink water. And I can't discipline myself sometimes to drink water itself so I had the Pepsi Max. But that is still a very basic health decision to still be learning (I actually read in the Law of One book 5 the opposite statement to that from the Law of One about an hour ago. "That one looks not at what has been done but at what is to be done" 94.9).

But I am probably a little further than a lot of people on the "spiritual" path. A lot of people have not even begun to take health decisions or spirituality seriously at all. Do not pray or meditate regularly etc. And I am still at this very basic level.