Fleshing out Communion (Part 2)

Just a quick update here. 

I am thinking through a little bit the change in my life now I have stopped Communion. 

In Star Trek Deep Space Nine. The main protagonist. Benjamin Sisko. Is attached to a set of very positive entities. The 'Gods' of Bajour. Because it is fictional. The show managed to put forward a legitimate seeming spirituality, without it being too close to Christianity. Which is like garlic to a vampire for these Hollywood writers. So spiritual themes were explored without a lot of the trouble associated with it. 

Due to things happening in the shows. Between Gods and Demons. Benjamin is forcibly detached from said "Prophets". There is a war going on in the show when this happens. And as a result of this. The 'luck' of the good guys stops. A few episodes later, during a lot of very difficult things. The Prophets are reconnected. And all the luck of the good guys. Things halfway through. Switches on. 

It was a beautiful thing that felt real in a way. But I remind myself as I am talking about this. That real life is not like that. What I am coming to, is that if a thing, an energy, appears to shift. There are a lot of potential reasons for said shift. When we go out in the world. Even an uptick in enthusiasm can simply change the world around you in ways we can't suspect. Any health change reflects on other health changes. Any reduction in stress reduces others stress. 

So it is something to bear in mind as I think of the potential effects since I have stopped Communion. 

But where my mind is going. Is that when I started doing Communion. From Easter of May 2022. I had a very specific problem at the time which Communion, strong dreams, strong emotions appearing to "save" me. Seemed to help me out of a jam at the time. 

The jam was that I had slowly gotten very attached to a female friend. Then she had gone kind of nuts. We all know stories are far more complicated than that. But that suffices as a short summary. 

That exact same jam, has come up a few times in my life. It was very much related to how I used to have a fairly strong schizophrenic tendencies. This feeling of ridiculous fusion. Then the woman behaving in a strange way and I can't disconnect the "fusion". 

This was an insight that was veiled to me while I was doing the Communion. But the moment I came off it. I suddenly had thoughts and insights from that time. 

The problem, previously, was partly due to the 'schizophrenic fusion', so it might not even need any introspection to uncover and influence. But it is a big thing. A big kind of insight that I need to mull over.  

Fleshing out Communion.

The Bible and Communion. 

This is the video that mentioned the Communion. It is only discussed for about a minute at the exact hour mark.

Youtube: Ex- Hebrew Israelite Exposes the Bible's Dangerous Ideology (Malaki Macabee). Jesus Way Podcast 058: June 18th 2026:

https://youtu.be/TuaJ2a7RQaA?si=aQcaQMWtHyQ_A5mZ

I often feel very good watching Aaron Abke. This is so dense I feel like I have barely absorbed it on one sitting. Like a lot of his videos. I have to rewatch and take notes. I feel like my connection to the Christian 'faith' is tenuous at best. That I enjoy these kinds of videos. And other creators that go into biblical truths. Does suggest some connection to this material. This feeling is moreso than a lot of videos I watch.

"In the black churches y'all is big. I plead the blood of Jesus, I plead the blood of Jesus. Every Sunday. The blood, the blood. And... forget about the Communion with the wine, with the crackers and all that. And the 'this is my blood, this is my body'. All that is Pauline."

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"Pauls letters predate the gospels. So whatever you see that agrees with Paul in the Gospels came after Paul was already writing. That means the gospel writers are influenced by Paul, not the other way around."

Corinthians 1:17 - 32:

For I received from the Lord what I also delivered to you, that the Lord Jesus on the night when he was betrayed took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it, and said, “This is my body, which is for you. Do this in remembrance of me.” In the same way also he took the cup, after supper, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood. Do this, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of me.” For as often as you eat this bread and drink the cup, you proclaim the Lord's death until he comes.

Whoever, therefore, eats the bread or drinks the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner will be guilty concerning the body and blood of the Lord. Let a person examine himself, then, and so eat of the bread and drink of the cup. For anyone who eats and drinks without discerning the body eats and drinks judgment on himself. That is why many of you are weak and ill, and some have died. But if we judged ourselves truly, we would not be judged. But when we are judged by the Lord, we are disciplined so that we may not be condemned along with the world. 

Wow, when you actually read it. It is not just some casually worded phrasing. This wording. If it was written by Paul before the gospels. Pretty much insists that to remain consistent and to not call Paul out as a liar. It would have to be written into the Gospels that Paul said this. 

But one thing about Paul is that aside from this. Everything he says about Jesus and his teachings is the polar opposite to what they actually are. So if it were true that Jesus said that. And I don't think it is. It would be the singular area they agree. 

I can't imagine what the particular pressures were during the day. But, one of the things that was inconvenient to the Romans. Was when you had all these early Christians. "The Cristos". Nazarenes, or Essenes. Were all vegans, and a huge part of their economy was the sale of meat. I wonder if there was a similar feeling about alcohol? I can't imagine that, outside Communion sorts of instructions. That Jesus' followers were big on wine.

Communion and me personally.

I have been thinking a lot, feeling a lot. About the change of not doing Communion. I did not do it with a church. I tended to do it on my own. At first it was just me and a glass of wine and gluten free bread. It was the only thing keeping me drinking alcohol for a long time because I got a stomach ache from non alcohol varieties. And I felt like 'Jesus said wine'. 

I have been thinking about what it does. What it has meant to me. The Law of One talked about it being positive metaphysical protection for Carla. As I have mentioned. But they also framed pretty much everything, almost everything. Very specifically about how it relates to the person themselves. How something effects a certain persons beliefs. 

So it's effect on me was many fold. It centered me in a kind of 'what I thought spirituality was'. A kind of heart chakra centered approach. It took away ever so slightly to how I experience the world without that in the way. 

One; I was not quite as able to access my anger to the extent I am now. And this mattered with motivation for going to the gym. And clarity in these matters. Which strongly feeds back into my overall health. Two; I am slightly better, on the ball with wisdom things in general. Dream interpretation is clicking a bit more. And music is 'in tune'. And more passionate. I was not able to quite get the music feel. That I can get now. 

There is more I have to say. But I might not ever say it. But things have shifted a lot. It is a very interesting and powerful thing to step away from this.