Serenity in any coming chaos.

This is going to be a long article. It started off as two, but I realise the concepts link to each other. I hope to express something quite profound. A deep, relevant understanding. I am going for quality over quantity in this one. I hope to write a long article today and perhaps not write another one for a short while. One good article rather than a lot of general thoughts. 

First a song, I am going to plug a few lyrics into this song in a little bit:

Youtube: Jenny Jih: Stars - Calendar Girl (w/ lyrics). Feb 5th 2013

https://youtu.be/-R8fcMTGLtM?si=emT0YV_QzaPCZEsp

But this is actually the video that starts the conversation. That song is literally just a song:

Youtube: Kaylen Marissa: Humanity is going Extinct. May 3rd 2026 

https://youtu.be/-ZsrPwuJZwE?si=3MD1Rf-DRkc4dDJn

Coming away from twitter, that I have mentioned in one of the recent blogs. There is a sudden gap in my routine. When I eat I don't log onto twitter. When I watch TV I don't have it open in another tab (I have two screens).

A lot of people are just posting their thoughts on youtube like this. In a very casual style. It is kind of nice. A lot of videos like this one of people just talking on their perspectives. 

One of the things that is relevant here I think, is that, this girls status is so much higher than mine. It boggles the mind in a sense. Society has taken the natural beauty and sweetness of a young girl and added a whole lot more to them. Via DEI and a general cultural conviction to never hold women accountable. Also, the trashing of mens status in general, and a decline in the economy meaning men cannot prove themselves. 

This is relevant to 'the great work' I think. This is my astrology chart:

Normally I get rid of any information that would show my age. But I can't really do that with an astrology chart. Even a low level skilled astrologer could get my birthdate down to about an hour if they wanted from this.

The point here, is that my goal is generally to unblock my musical ability. Along with various things such as being loyal to the Law of One and working on health issues. Mental health is another issue. 

I think my chart is interesting, but I will not talk about it. Not enough time here. The relevant aspect here I want to talk about is the Venus inconjunct Neptune. 

An inconjunct is an interesting aspect. Its shadow side has been very relevant to "psychosis" that I have previously experienced. That psychosis was an unbelievably strong sense that a certain woman. It was two at different times. Was a soul mate and every thing that happened that pushed it away from happening. It arrived with unbelievably strong feelings. 

Venus Neptune connections are to do with the idealisation of beauty and/ or femininity. With an inconjunct though. Whatever energy the two planets are expressing needs to be expressed indirectly. Not directly. 

What does that mean? It means that a healthy way to use that energy. Is to express it through music. But not to believe it or really feel it on a deeper level. 

Since this energy remains in my system if it is not used properly. I have the choice of using it like this. Or using it in another way, of idealisation or demonisation. I am perhaps one of those classic schizophrenics that I have heard Jordan Peterson talk about, who has to create or they go mad. 

My experiences with women. When I index the library of such experiences. Outside of family. Is uniformly not really that good. Nothing to build on. But trying to get that sense of positivity back can be partially done through these kinds of things. To lead back to music. 

The deeper pattern. 

A bit of a song I made to the pattern above. To the song structure of the first video. I do make my own songs. Which I feel to be profound when I get back to them. Something I truly value. But I sometimes plug my own lyrics into another song structure.

I will list two verses and the meaning behind them. One was that I had absorbed, without meaning to. A lot of David Wilcocks explanation of what the higher forces are about and the right way to be. 

David used to talk about the Dream voice. He used to say that when you go to sleep. You can capture what stray thoughts are at that time as a kind of prequel to channeling. 

I realised though, that I should really be using that for something I care about. I used to note down stray thoughts along those same lines. As "guidance". But I've realised I am not trying to channel. I have enough guidance and my perspective is more about appreciating the simple things in many ways. I don't need some amazing voice in the sky. But I do care about music. So I should be only noting the musical ideas that come out of the "Dream voice". I should be training myself to notice that.

Which lead to this set of lyrics about David (Again I will mention, to the structure of the song at the beginning):

I listen to your words. I took it all on. 

I heard it until I forgot my own song.

That was because your words, lost the meaning they had,

and it left you so endlessly sad. 

A few verses later, this is the one I had about the second video:

She's looking for colour, it's turning to grey,

It is the warmth that has flown away.

To be a mother, to hold a small hand in her hand,

But the game, she does not, understand

Meanings.

I wanted to talk a little on the meaning of the second verse I have written here. The first three lines are obvious. But the last line. It sounds like it could be condescending. I want to describe what I mean.  

Women live in a different world to guys. Having inherent status is a whole other game. If you see a guy talking about something on youtube. It is usually deeply analysed. A lot has gone into it. 

This is not less so the case with women. The same amount of energy and thought might have gone into something. But not analysis. It is scientifically proven that in every single country. Men follow politics more closely than women. 

"The Game" that I am talking about. Is all the manipulation in the mainstream society. How for women, as Pearl Davis talks about. Even going in a truth direction, can start to move against you.

This girl will probably be fine because she is very attractive. Like, very. Probably close to the top. 

I have a block. I am way more reticient to explain my perspective here than I was when I drafted this in my mind. So on to the next thing. 

Relief. 

When I saw this guy. I felt an incredible sense of relief. Someone was talking in the basic paradigm that I understand to be true. He talks about meeting other people that are like that. I have felt England to be as a whole, so brainwashed at times:

Youtube: Marks Cosmic Adventures: It's Getting Weirder Isn't It? Monitor Demons Everywhere... May 15th 2026:

https://youtu.be/iYdlqFfJ1zw?si=57360TQtF6qjo42M

The reason I am bringing this guy up. Is not at all to actually talk about anything specific he is saying in this video. But I just want it acknowledged that this paradigm exists. One where spirituality, politics, and ideas such as new age metaphysical theories and extra terrestrials, are all linked. 

It comes down to what I think might be the point of my life at the moment, in the technical, not larger sense. 

At the moment I am reading the Law of One and I have learned several things in just a few weeks. 

One, by stopping prayer briefly I learned that prayer is indeed very important.

Two, I tried Keto and realised it is definitely not compatible with my health. 

Three, I decided to stop drinking any alcohol. I never drunk much. 

Four, Another issue with medication and health in general. 

While going through the Law of One book V it has prompted each of these. A) The book talked about Carla getting offered LSD while I was being offered alcohol B) The points on negative greeting that I talked about in recent blogs. C) A point on exercise the relates to point 4. 

The point.

What I want to talk about though. Is assuming this Q type of paradigm is correct. Things are going to work out in a certain way of the population becoming more and more aware of a very unusual paradigm they are living with. Of technology, and extra terrestrials etc. 

In my view, what has happened since about 2020, is that a lot of the really negative things have been taken out of the background of society. Since then, in a lot of very subtle ways. A lot of people are being given the opportunity to relax and strengthen before the coming tasks. A lot of people are not working due to a broken economy. A lot more thinking is being allowed to happen. 

I have this theory that the black magick was reducing the positive spirits abilities to guide us on a personal level. 

The point being is at this moment. To repeat myself. People are relaxing and learning their lessons. In preparation for the coming change.

For me, I think I know what that looks like. As I have grown closer to the Law of One. As I have started to get it recently. With prayer, meditation, reading the Law of One book and such. Is that I have legitimately started to come off of "transcient" subject as the Law of One advises. To really emotionally understand that. To feel it. 

When whatever is revealed is revealed. With all it's horrifying weirdness. All the sense of betrayal humanity feels. Hopefully. I will have the personal strength to be able to tune out of it. I can be an island of serenity as people, that have never been introduced to this previously, can process all of this stuff.

Conclusion.

At the end of all that I'm not sure it was that much of an interesting point. But it's what I had to say for the moment.