The acceptance of chaos.

At the moment. I feel absolutely sure that my post of yesterday, talking about coming away from the Communion as a personal practice. Is correct. 

I have a lot of thoughts about what might be it's "magickal" significance. But suffice to say, in short hand, that the idea was an extension of a kind of "blood magick" in my understanding. And blood magick, is not something the positive uses. (This is from Aaron Abke and his video of about six days ago on Leviticus).

I am actually feeling a noticeably other than good or loving feeling at the moment. But it is powerful... Raw. I sometimes think of one of the Law of One sessions where the contact talked about how the negative greeting works, and it specified there were two targets in Carla. One was the heart chakra. I think, I might be wrong, that this was encouraged towards over, not under, activation. 

It reminds me of the constant waffle that is given loving language. But is actually quite negative. From a lot of people. When someone prevaricates on a clear spiritual question for instance. Refusing to answer you directly. I recall one example I heard recently was in a meditation group. Where a group of hippy male meditators leave a class because an intimidating ex con turns up and intimidates the women. Leaving only one guy to talk to him who was a bit more grounded. The guy talking about this remarked at how vocal these hippy male meditators were in talking about things like virtue. 

I am not feeling positive or loving like that. I am feeling deep, powerful rage flowing through me. And because of this. I can feel my ability to create lyrics, something that seems blocked in me. Starting to work a bit better. I can say something when the root is anger.  

Anyway, I have something to say, but I do not think I have the ability to fully say what that is. So it will be a shortened vague version in what I think is the right direction:

Youtube: Cold Condition: Woman Says Rejecting A Man Before His Glow Up Is The Worst Feeling: June 22nd 2026:

https://youtu.be/E8gHtGJ7uic?si=5LefQ8vvDvXyf07D

The point here is the general correctness of this and how this opposes the soft, liberal 'forgiveness without contrition' consensus. When evildoers try to convince someone to give forgiveness without contrition. They never focus on the evildoer. The abusive partner. They always try and revictimise the person who was treated badly. 

I think there is an understanding amongst these centrist types. They know they are horrible people. And they know that it would be in their best interesting if the people they are casually bullying believe this forgiveness without contrition thing because there is a very real possibility (but only possibility, there is a greater probability the bullied person will never gain status) that that person may gain power in the future. It is a bone deep, strong desire to evade accountability. 

Going quickly to Session 34 and the process being "Understanding, acceptance and forgiveness". I have said before I think these are Mind, Body and Spirit. I think in these situations. When there is a disagreement and someone is disrespected. Someone is considered 'the lesser animal'. An important part of the 'body' section of this. Is a certain animal power.

I do not think we can "forgive" someone when there is an unequal power dynamic. Say someone is being bullied at work by their manager. They are then told to let it go by HR, but the manager has no intention of changing. Bullies rarely, if ever, do. The person then is in a position of having to pretend they have "forgiven" the situation. Or no longer being able to eat. 

Or a situation where a woman is socially ascendant, and a guy was treated badly and then she flat out avoids him after that with no discussion, no apology.  

In these situations. I don't think forgiveness can be legitimate. Because the power dynamic is off. A proper relationship has to have a kind of equal power dynamic. Not a 'forgive or else'. 

So I think in the body section. In the acceptance section. This video above is what has to happen. Some process, some thing, has to happen to balance out the power. In order to see another as the One Creator in the real sense of the term. There does have to be some sort of equal power dynamic I think. 

So this is what this part of the process is. In the video above. A guy talks about how a lot of women disrespected him. Then he did really well in the gym and posted his physique and a lot of women suddenly changed their tune. A lot of people suddenly coming around trying to be friends and "forget" any of their older, disrespectful, behaviours.

This is a balancing of power. I think this works in a lot of different situations. It is part of the process. Power is not just in physique. It can be social power, status, money (with women I think it is more strongly expressed in attractiveness, in how they experience animal power). When Stefan Molyneux talks about all the people he had to leave behind. Who were getting jealous and such, trying to sabotage him. It is a similar thing. 

Understanding, Acceptance and... Forgiveness. Forgiveness I am not so sure on. Watching Stefan Molyneux as an ideal model. I would say that when he had gone through these processes. He did not turn around and forgive all the people involved. It could be something like... to Forgive, or not. As the Human Design would say (The 'or not' is a very specific energy of being opposite to that thing. it is not 'not' as in not existing. It is opposite). But the last point of the process that I can see in Stefan is that he brings in spiritual laws of a sort. When he says that 'Love is our involuntary response to virtue if we are virtuous". This might be the work of the spirit.

I still want to ask him about that. I still don't quite get how he thinks, or would explain rather, how precisely that mechanism works? I would like to ask him hypotheticals on it.

Understanding is understanding the problem. Acceptance, is accepting it exists. (Which makes sense this is where the action is. Once you accept something has happened, it is intuitively correct you can act from that place!) Then comes the last thing. The action of the spirit. Which brings in information that actually solves or concludes the issue? 

Anyway, exciting times. If a little bit scary from the stronger emotions. I trust that this will all work out in a good way from now on. It is like when you make a minor change that just changes things like 10% every day. Like when you do meditation. Your decisions are 10% clearer. Over the longer term, it mounts up!