Faith in the Law of One.

From book 4 of the Law of One:

Carla: My poor feet! Rheumatoid disease is notorious for its depredations upon
one’s extremities, and perhaps my hands, feet and neck have suffered the worst
from its progression. Thirteen operations on my hands and six on my feet have
staved off total dysfunction, but the old digits are not what they once were.
During these sessions, they suffered far more than normal, because when I was in
trance, I did not move at all. Those of Ra did not know how to make my body
move very well, and so whatever aches and pains I had became rapidly very
hard to bear. It was easy for me to be discouraged. I can remember asking the
Creator, with some asperity, what It had in mind when it gave me these gifts!
How inconvenient! Especially in terms of this contact, which we all knew was
special, I tended to feel that I had let down the side by these sore joints’ taking
time away from the sessions in length. Feeling unworthy in the first place, I felt
sheepish that I was, by these distortions, lessening the content of each working.

At this latter day, however, I have ceased to rail against whatever comes my way.
I am just glad to be here. And if I can still channel, fine. But I think all of us
have one main job, and that is just to be who we are, living in an open-hearted
love of the Creator and His creation.

I have been reading through various bits of the actual text. Of the material/ sessions. Processing things of unbelievable profundity. There are pretty direct things about 'life planning' said in some of these sessions. Things that boggle the mind if they are assumed to be true.

Which I do assume them to be true. I take the Law of One on faith. Which means, it does not need a falsification premise for me. Although I think the Law of One contact was very careful around things that could directly put them in the path of service to self forces, to the extent of actually lying (I.e. say World War 2 history was a deception in some way. Say Hitler never existed, or was a group of clones, or was a good guy they made stuff up about. I do not think the contact could directly say this kind of thing out of concern for the group (Don, Carla, Jim) doing this, whom would have disappeared and never been seen again had they published such material). 

Reading the actual text itself. The reflections on Carla's life planning that the contact confirmed. The entire saga of the Crucifixion of Esmerelda Sweetwater. Of course it brings the desire to know if I myself am destined for something specific if the planning is done to this level. But it also makes me in awe of the whole thing, and with a sturdy realisation that I will never know. 

But one of the things that is also convincing, on top of the somewhat detached text of the readings. Is Carla's summary here. The amount of medical work and the fact that she has both wrestled it and accepted it is pretty amazing. It gives perspective to a lot of my own struggles. Often I am trying to think aggressively of how to improve. But simply accepting the world as it is was only something I did once having read this. 

The Past.

A few insights I have had recently and shared here are continuing to bear fruit. 

The Law of One, in session 18.5. Talked about how no part of us really disappears. If we have a feeling/ desire and we push it down. It just sits there. 

I talked recently how I have changed my prayers around to get rid of the idea of "condemnation". One of my prayers had become a place I could hide behind and keep that perspective alive. That the Law of One book 5, and the contact in general, are very clear that to use that 'condemnation'. To stop continuing thought/ feeling on a subject, is not necessarily good. "There are no mistakes". 

Ideally I believe, the entropy discussed in session 46.9 might lead to a natural end point of those emotions. If the energy is allowed to express itself.  

On top of this, I have an insight that is only relevant if I were to assume the correctness of the Law of One paradigm. I think I was destined to read the Law of One and study it deeply. But if this is true, it means that previously in my past when I have not properly applied the Law of One, that the negative aspect of not keeping to it would be apparent in my life.

This makes a lot of sense. 

I have potential examples of this. But I do not think it would be interesting to recount these. I wonder if this applies to absolutely everyone that reads the material? Possibly excepting those that read it and do not resonate with it.