The constantly terrifying news, evidence of slow movements of change.

So, according to Thomas Wictor, this is the event that Trump has been deliberately creating press to stop people noticing:

Arab News: Saudi crown prince meets with Iraq's Moqtada Al-Sadr

This is apparently big news in healing the Sunni - Shia divide.

Crystals:

Information at the moment is very dark. It only seems to be getting darker.

Especially when we are young I think we want things to come into our lives that are a result of an outpouring of love in some form even if we don't cognicize that specifically. For instance, a young person may want to become a healer, or a musician or something where we are taken on a magical path and things work out. Perhaps we change the world. Or the more classic dream of getting your ideal mate. Either gender dreams of attention, good sex, and status that comes from this.

However, sometimes it does work out but very often it doesn't. The reason it doesn't is that although the energy in most cases is there (I assume unless our ideas are very unrealistic), that in some place the love that we would have had has been stamped down upon! For instance, when I was young I dreamed of healing my diabetes and then starting an organisation to help others do the same, yet somewhere, wherever the cure actually is, it has been stamped down upon most likely be a corporation.

There is less and less of this energy. This 'love'. It can come in the form of money or relationships. It often relates to general 'security'. But it seems like, as I have said before there are less and less people that are given opportunities and aren't suffering some sort of difficulty!

This has lead to the fact in my personal life that when I sometimes relax, after all the painful weird stuff I have absorbed over probably years now, there is a kind of terror I feel inside myself. We are designed to relate easily and socially with those around us and to be with whoever we are meant to be with in both relationships and friendships... Our equals but often, because life plans are being thrown off at the moment, we are with different groups of people.

But the point is that this constant inflow of global news is not something I think is natural. It is an adaption to circumstance. Definitely all the scary information I absorb about Islam, immigration, Satanism, paedophilia etc. can weigh on a person and so sometimes when I go to sleep I feel that fear.

I also if I have not been beyond a certain good point I have nightmares and also, for some reason that may be related I get a kind of sleep paralysis.

This I think is the spirit not connecting properly with the body and it is massively helped by keeping with me a black stone a healer once gave me. It grounds me so that I can feel my root chakra cleaning out all the terrifying things in my mind! It also keeps a person in their body so could possibly oppose this sleep paralysis!

Thoughts on the future, politics and astrology!

I wonder if the coming lunar eclipse which I talk about as closing a pattern is to do with stopping commenting on the internet so frequently for me personally! A Full moon with the moon in Aquarius in the eleventh house would suggest this!

I have heard two good things from the British government recently .One is that they are going to stop some of the foreign aid and another is that immigration will stop after 2019! I wonder sometimes though whether part of the EU and remainers strategy is to go in with a "high number" in order that people accept a not so good number as a victory. For instance, really it is not any good that labour dumping has to continue anyway past even June 23rd 2016! Or failing that at least when article 50 was triggered. But now that the remainers made such a fuss about "five more years of free movement" people will accept this as a victory!

Really we're all obviously hoping mega things will change sooner! There is another article/ angle on North Korea recently and that is that South Korea is getting ready for regime change in it's neighbour! The trouble is, previously in the summer, Benjamin Fulford has mentioned that the cabal and alliance have called a truce over the summer to relax over the summer holidays! There were no terror attacks for the summer when he said that. I wonder if they are going to do the same thing again! It's probably a yearly ritual.

Nevertheless, things feel like they're moving, and we have the solar eclipse to look forward to. Not sure what that will bring!

Liberals/ Accurate astrology/ North Korea.

Wow, well good news for me is my brain is working like it should. After alcohol has slowed it down briefly.

Reflecting on it, when I was in the midst of this, because I might find pleasure in drinking alcohol (I don't actually) I would then be prioritising that pleasure while the amount of people suffering because of political dysfunction is immense. I am not sure that this blog helps at that, in fact it is pretty certain it does not make a huge dent, however, I might make a miniscule but still significant dent when combined with also commenting on chat boards and general comment pages. Some peoples thoughts might be changed, some people will feel more supported, or less alone.

As a number if we were to count the amount of suffering happening. So tiredness might be 1-5 points, and equivalent points which I won't estimate for rape, murder, disappearance of a child, medical conditions, poverty etc. this figure would be huge and it will only get better when the 'deep state' goes to the slammer.

I have been wondering about karma as well. Surely karma is related to people, so if you shoot someone emotions caused in others of justice and revenge are your karma. If karma was going to someone who held back cures for my diabetes, it is unlikely that my specific discomfort would be represented. It would be likely that their collected karma may put them on death row anyway, and so it would not have the one - to - one eye - for - an - eye like impact.

Movement forward:

The populist right and "Alliance" behind it seems to be winning the culture war. Firstly we have this J.K.Rowling situation. Which is quite amazing really. I have always noted that on twitter there is no penalty for lying, if you want to say the sky is always green and stick by that essentially no one can actually make you say otherwise. There is no referee that is going to say that you are refusing to look into objective and picture evidence, therefore your argument is not correct and there is a consequence for that, such as losing some sort of status.

The liberal left are fast learning though, that the populist right is trying to visit a consequence upon them. A small example might be twitter losing out on so much revenue because it keeps arbitrarily banning conservatives, or Macy's having to close stores (I think it was Macy's) after stopping selling Trump clothing for ideological reasons.

J.K.Rowling has openly lied and not retracted that, she clearly thinks that she can behave as though a loser SJW out in cyberspace that has no consequences for telling those sorts of lies. But the world is really pressuring her. The left are arrogantly refusing to admit they are wrong when shows the evidence. It was always going to get to this place.

Zerohedge: Even The Washington Post Admits "The Quest To Prove Russian Collusion Is Crumbling"

... and finally, much to his credit I think the main guy from the Young Turks called Cenk participated in a debate, I say much to his credit because at least he is debating. This suggests to me that he is not a real globalist but a misguided leftist. He recognises that free speech and debate is worth having. However, he was absolutely whopped apparently. He started calling the audience uneducated and came out with statements such as "increasing the top rate of tax to 91% will not decrease growth".

But if the Russia stuff is being closed by the Democrats, we are starting to see, in my view, how these eclipses might be being expressed. This was a long term emotional trend.

Two articles here:

Jessica Adams Blog: The 2017 Eclipse in Astrology

Jessica here mentions three predictions: A coverup in relation to a health scandal and Charlie Gard certainly qualifies. A resurgence in news on Diana princess of Wales, Daily Mail yesterday:

... and one I was sure was because of her liberal leaning, the 2016 November US Presidential election.

We have now seen though that rather than letting this die Trump has turned the tables and claimed Russia helped Hillary with the election, so this has come up again!

Likely he is targeting the Russian deep state because Putin, the one that identified himself as Cabal by signing the climate change accords, has refused to help Trump with human trafficking!

North Korea is big as well, every day there is something (haven't had time to catch todays though, there was another one today):

Daily Express: Japan warns North Korea missile may have hit ships and planes

Daily Express: US and South Korea fire MISSILES near North Korea after Kim Jong-un's latest ICBM launch

Daily Express: NORTH KOREA WARNING: Kim Jong-un could hit NEW YORK with missile

Daily Express: BREAKING: 'They do NOTHING for us' Trump threatens China for inactivity over North Korea

Zerohedge: "Time Is Running Out" - China Is Planning For A Crisis Along North Korean Border

So as I summarised in relation to Ben Fulford here [link] this one appears to be happening!

Also, here's another prediction from Jessica, she thinks, and I doubt it but she's the one who's accurately predicting all these things, she thinks there will be movement on North Korea on August 3rd and 4th! Although this is perhaps saying something not quite so direct upon looking at it again!:

Jessica Adams: Astrological Dramas August 3rd-4th

Bad habits!

Well, I think I have found out why I have shut down so much after Fridays socialising... Feeling a sense of ridiculous fear and unable to feel comfortable with the information that is usually so important.

Alcohol! I think it's time to give that up!

Previously I did give it up and then I went to a nice party with a bunch of people from my old workplace to see off a manager. I was sitting there not saying anything to anyone and trying to talk occasionally. I felt stressed and then my throat actually closed up... Like stopped working.

I drunk a glass of wine and my throat opened again! As though guided! I felt good and was sure this was the message here, that I should be drinking but only very little.

Looking back though it was not actually good because the rather boring social homogeneity was broken! Essentially I was all over the place and the arguments caused were probably why I did not go out with those people again... I did not necessarily want to BUT, it underlines how from that interaction I got nothing in the long term. The long terms is very important to me now.

Today though the message does not seem to be the same thing. I am still feeling crap two days after only one glass and I have lost valuable time!

So, it's time to cut that!

I am reminded of this fantastic trailer, because when I fall back from having it together I go into survival and in survival my intuition works with me through the medium of fantasy! I.e. the quest for/ interest in "magic powers" and something artistic about this is a motivator:

Scheduled blogging... Nothing!

Wow, damn, sitting down for my scheduled blogging and I have nothing to say!

Good times, bullet pointed insights.

Over the past few days, Thursday morning before I went to work I slept one hour, then did nine hours work, including having timed my lantas wrong and having my bloodsugars shoot up into the stratosphere temporarily (which sucks up energy), then I had five hours sleep, woke up at 1am and did six hours work, then went out with friends, got home at 23:00, and went to bed just after 1am.

So I was quite tired towards the end of that!

So tired in fact, that I was almost having a mystical experience by the end of the night. Feeling my way through things in a kind of subconscious way about the reality of life. Also, I sometimes now have a crystal in my pocket to keep me grounded. Even though it is a crystal to supposedly keep me grounded, i.e. attention on real world things, which it does, it also creates a subtle comfort with psychic abilities and thinking!

This blog also really captures something about what I was thinking last night, my comment on it summarises some of it but really it cannot be put into words:

ElsaElsa: Life, Death & Real Connection

So, I am still tired, a small insight I've had about this is an incorrect assumption I have very often made. When I have slept badly or am tired for some reason I think to myself that when I get to sleep the problem will be over. But in actual fact, sleeping once doesn't end a period of tiredness, also, eating properly needs to happen and it is useful to sleep in order to relax and then rest a day in order to relax further. The fight/ flight impulse does not just disappear!

So I'm going to run down my thoughts in bullet point form rather than being able to put them into full sentences:

• Previously having been worried about potential political conversations with people that have been fairly left previously. This is not a problem. A guy who lives on welfare unrepentantly is converting would be heart on sleevers to the hard right so efficiently I can only put my hat off to him (but will refrain from doing so to his face); and another who is de converting from liberal thinking and is a real power socially. Partly because of the BBC's attitude towards the acid attacks in London.
• North Korea. Clearly big news here. I need to read articles on this.
• Trump, Preibus, General Sessions and Kelly! GET IN THERE!
• Doing a major re- write, perhaps even complete re- write of a counting system as I learn the basics of why a counting system is as it is. I have done it previously where every number is one symbol but I realise it cannot be like that. In order to have division, as in dividing and probably the other functions to (multiplying, addition etc.) a numerical system cannot have just one symbol!
• Krysten Ritters astrology chart. Pluto in seventh!

More and more it seems like the alternative right youtube community is a real community. Videos are becoming less militant now, more chatty.

As well with that mystical experience from tiredness, I feel very sure that things are going to work out. I feel sure that the forces beyond our world are quite aware that justice needs to be served. That is not just an emotion that we feel.

Astrology/ World Change/ Pi.

New Laptop, the old one died on me!

Very twilight zone- e, the world I'm living right now. Strange sleep patterns and feelings pushed down in favour of larger political understandings definitely gives a kind of 'alienating' feel!

Astrology:

Recently a facebook internet friend gave me her chart! I am now learning more about astrology. Firstly, how important the ascendant is.

I remember on Elsa forum someone mentioning they had a Cancer ascendant and I was going through her posts, partly to surmise political opinion... Well there wasn't any with this woman, every single post was relationship this and feeling that. It was not irritating or oppressive, it was just she happened to think about more stereotypically feminine things!

Secondly, the contradictions one person can have in their chart. Also, that a lot of what I had previously thought about transits and the like seems to be correct... and the overall intuitive sense that someone will or will not be effected by something seems to be backed up by the chart and transits.

World change:

- California's deputy attourney general has been charged with child pornography.
- The previous highest arrest was Jacob Schwartz, who (allegedly) had pictures of children as young as six months old.

Creepy stuff. It feels like something is going to shift soon. In astrology I have heard it said that when things really seem like they are stuck it is when things are just about to change. Things very much seem like they are stuck at the moment. To me, it is not even worth following politics at the moment. My twitter has become very same-y. Trump is moving about, but Theresa May and the betrayers of Britain are certainly not!

A quick check of the news on North Korea and it becomes clear that what Benjamin Fulford has said about there potentially being a new war against North Korea is very likely.

Pi:

I cannot figure out how to calculate pi on a three based system as a rational number. I wonder how anyone ever calculated pie to that many digits in the first place? It seems really quite bizarre.

What I am figuring out though is how loaded our current maths system is. When you are dividing into a number and going into decimals, why do we add a zero? Zero is not adding nothing as I was originally told. Zero is adding the ten system. If you want to create a twelve system you have to add two. If you want to create a nine system you have to get to nine somehow (and a nine system halved is 4 recurring! That is not useful!)

Exciting stuff. I am interested in extending the very basic 12 system into dividing and fractions. Perhaps the real use of such a system will become more apparent!

Number system/ Pleasing Banter, laughs.

The slightly weird life I live. I am putting in energy into controlling my diabetes and likely, when I have done so and properly created a pattern that works for my bloodsugars I will sleep better and things will be a bit easier to me, and then it would be possible to raise my hours if I wanted.

However, another problem. My bloodsugar machine malfunctioned, and the next priority is getting a new one. So my bloodsugars went up and this is exhausting. It kind of steals from the inside of me!

Still on the number system.

I am still thinking of this new number system. I wrote to Gaia and they told me that they would not give me the name of the guy writing a book on it and that he was still working on it. That means that it likely will have only gone to print and come out by spring of next year, April or May time. By then we may have had our political change anyway!

Just for the laughs:

That one made me almost cry with laughter!

Also, I'm still thinking it would change the structure of everything .It will change technology. It will mean that people off 4 chan could create bots more powerful than anything we have now. It would likely work with the mind and make maths easier. But I cannot figure out how it makes pie a rational number because a new number system in itself does not change the actual numbers" Pie isn't a percentage!

Oh! OH! OH MY GOD! IT WOULD CHANGE THE NUMBERS AFTER THE DECIMAL POINT AS WELL!

I actually got that as I was speaking then genuinely!

I have so much work to do!

Pleasing banter:

This is only a small point and not one that meets the magnificentness of my just realised wisdom. But I have noticed how humour seems easier with guys than with girls.

For instance, I have been thinking two friends and I will not be able to make a recent arrangement, so to voice my fears I humorously took the worst parts of each of our natures and said this:

Seriously, I'm not sure between a drunk, a lazy person and a badly controlled diabetic if we will be able to get to x by y time, but it's nice to have goals!

The laughs.

However, a small point with a female in my vicinity has caused some upset and I probably won't be seeing the person for a while! An absolutely minor point so the ego stripping jokes I have with friends will probably not be enjoyed between me and that person.

I also knew a girl who was quite funny on twitter who just got plain weird when I called her 'cutie' one time!

But in seriousness there are a lot of other very positive things about women. That's just a tendency, one that is reflected in the politics of left and right?

Which one is it that doesn't have the humour?