Healing affirmation and meditation video.

Started with this video today, as I was looking for affirmations:

Youtube: Melanie Beckier: Powerful HEALING meditation - Receive the blessings of Archangels now. (July 21st 2024)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tAreD5ZrvyA

It's like another obvious step to take if you believe in the Law of One paradigm. Something that would obviously help life. But that just until recently I did not do so. Perhaps because until now, when I have got into the Law of One more heavily. I maintained a bit more of a sceptical paradigm in practice. Keeping a lot of this at arms length.

Yesterday, my health was bad. I had to deliberately make it quite a bit worse to maintain a fast, which my medical situation doesn't really allow for but that I needed to do for a surgical procedure. 

This, paradoxically, gave me a kind of enthusiastic 'swagger' and attracted a lot of female attention! Something I could never capitalise upon because that way of being is not a good thing at all. The only thing I want in that state is to get out of it. To return to better health and sleep it off. 

Anyway, I am thirsting for female attention a bit. As my health has improved, that area has taken on more interest for me. I used to think a lot during very dry spells that it would be good to get some sort of gel or energy that provided "female energy" in some kind of capsule or something. So that the need for sex and the energetic need for female energy was satisfied. Without having to bother one of those real world beings for attention and warmth that they generally don't want to part with. That is unaccessible for some reason. 

I wonder if, even though this is just a voice on a youtube video. Whether this is female energy just a little bit? I also wonder if, my extreme lack of success in this kind of area. That I attribute to me expressly NOT being a healer. Will not be repeated here. If I can have good results this way because even though it is only a very light presence. There is someone that is directing the meditation and such. Another person involved.