Putting together philosophies.

My last post was wrong. I have had dreams about not deleting my own creations. Not specifically about blogs, but I imagine it transfers to that as well. So I have not deleted the last post. Even though I would prefer not to put out things I know are incorrect. 

But no, listening to a woman talk about chakras and things created the same 'energy blockage adjacent' kind of problems that trying to do it myself did. Like I said previously. I am not inclined to that kind of thing. What I am trying at the moment is to use a pyramid. Not linking it to any healing meditation or even regular meditation. Just use the pyramid. Doing thing in line with the Law of One in general does seem to work for me. 

I think the reason I am not tuned to "healing" in that way is something to do with having to have a certain alive/ fighter spirit as the central emotion throughout my day. Perhaps this links to music. In my natal astrology. Sun, Moon, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, North Node and ascendant are all in fire. So that fire has to burn and I am lacking the air, earth and water perhaps needed for the caring necessary to be a healer.  

The reason this has all come up is that during a recent 'minor surgery'. I had to modify my health situation in ways that kind of opened me up to schizophrenic ways of thinking. So I went to the visualisations mentioned in the previous post for comfort. To push the delusional thinking into intense happiness and feeling of connection to everything, rather than whatever the alternative would be. But it was not a workable way of thinking.  

I am thinking now that relying more on musical types of things would be a better way forward in that state. 

I also have another thing that has become apparent in my awareness of my own psyche. Stefan Molyneux. I have mentioned before. I kept up with his work regularly. I think that absorbing it regularly has been part of what has allowed me to continue with this blog. To absorb energy and a way of thinking got me thinking. Even if on completely different subjects. 

But I have completely stopped with Stefan Molyneux. No checking his podcasts. Even their title. No viewing his X posts. Nothing. Stefans philosophy is strongly on objective thinking. For someone like me that really struggles to stay grounded and that can float off into the ether. It was a stabilising force for me. Rather like how a Christian keeps themselves in line with a church sermon. Now that I am not paying attention to any of Stefans information. It is less easy to grip onto it in general. 

I also notice that it is hard to really think through philosophy in the absence of other people to talk it over with. I imagine Stefans ideas were formed when he was in University talking to at least some people that were intelligent. Living real life. But for me I don't know if philosophical ideas will come together in a more secluded environment.  

Of course, I have planned strategies of making sure things are OK. I really need to do exercise. That is very grounding. Music is grounding. Meditation is grounding (doesn't sound true but it is!) There is other material that might serve as an inspiration to get me blogging. For instance, I am often re reading the Law of One and having insights. 

But it might be that while I am a bit confused like this, I am not putting out blogs for a while. I am not completely emotionally recovered from the surgery. My physical health has not stabilised.