Supernatural tools.

Started writing an article and it was dead boring. Usually I can just kind of channel an article. But this is an exception. 

Trying to get more interesting things into the articles since, when working on self improvement subjects in general. Meditation. The Law of One. Human Design. Dream Interpretation. The subject matter will revolve around my personal experience. That is not ideal, and perhaps, long term, I can change that style?

Anyway, I have had an insight, from something said in the Law of One. I think I excerpted the relevant passage in a previous blog post. 

It was said at some point. That one of the issues that Carla faced with her healing was that the problems had caused an increase in her 'positive polarity'. 

It is an insight I think is interesting into the way psychology works. I see it, in a way, like the unfolding of a tree. Where the earlier you go are lower down on the tree. Each choice points is a point that branches out into several effects. 

I am wondering if this gives me powerful insight into my own issues. I have, in the past, made choices based on my problems at that time. Those problems, were caused by medical issues. A physiological element. Which has been kind of solved. And a psychological element. Which is helped by dream interpretation and a few other things. 

So a lot of the ways I did handle said problems. Things that are still in my life. Can be let go of? An interesting idea. 

As things are let go of. In line with my last post perhaps. With the affirmations. I am feeling more connected to what is "up there". Strong synchronicities are precisely guiding me. Also, getting out the tarot cards. I can't believe the questions it answered for me. Which in turn solves issues in my real life. 

One of those issues was that something was missing in my understanding of a friend I had who committed suicide. I wrote to that girls friend, six months to a year ago. Wanting some insight into any reason for this. I figure girls tell their close friends a whole lot they would not tell a male friend. We will call this friend of hers Lesley. 

When I talked to Lesley, the last thing she said to me was something like "It would be my preference to not deal with you any longer". Which was kind of annoying. It was kind of a "wtf" moment. But it shouldn't've been. The girl has barely met me. 

I suppose if there was the normal funeral types of arrangements those kinds of things could be casually discussed. I was kept away from pretty much everyone there. Even though there was an initial funeral like four days after the friend jumped which I was invited to. There was meant to be a later service of ashes scattering in my town which never happened. And I imagine, I cannot prove. That all the people involved would prefer not to deal with me. My family member, Lesley, and the people that were close to the friend that jumped. Some of which there are bizarrely coincidences with spanning decades. Even before I met said friends.

So back to this message I wrote to Lesley. Like I said, the reason I wrote to her was a nagging question of why this happened. There were synchronicities I now remember after this girl jumped. I read the cards today, and the cards when I asked about this girl were Major Arcana. Very relevant patterns. A repeating of the same cards despite reshuffling. A general supernatural feel to the whole day. 

And the cards genuinely seemed to answer my questions about her. She was not the only subject I questioned on. This meant that my thoughts on "Lesley", suddenly felt released. The impulse to communicate with her was to communicate on this matter. But I got quite the shift from reading the Tarot cards on our mutual friend. 

As I apparently become more ungrounded and spiritual. Going into things such as tarot additionally to my general lifestyle. And abandoning very grounded content creators and one philosopher. I am also seeking to move strongly in a more grounded direction.  

My main goal for the next few weeks, and longer hopefully. My main, most important thing. Is to go to the gym regularly. I have found that I am having stomach problems due to atrophy of said stomach muscles. I have laid down too much for some health issues and my stomach has not responded well. Due to this, I need to carry on eating chocolate despite it gaining me weight, and screwing my psychological health, me now being overweight for the first time in my life. The priority is a real focus on the gym.