The boundary between the conscious and unconcious.

Today is going to be a highly weird post. It is in the area of things that are new age and that I perceive to be real. But many would see as crazy or schizophrenic. But then, a whole lot more new age folks very well might perceive as legitimate. 

While perusing Youtube. I came across a Christian channel. Which mentioned, offhandly. That he considered Dream Catchers as part of negative, black magick spirituality. 

I do not necessarily believe that. I don't know for sure that it is not true. But for me, I have found that I have used a dream catcher to good effect in the past. But that now, I have gotten rid of it. My dreams have seemed to have already changed in line with my understandings. But I think there needs to be a longer period for the change to really set in. 

Ah, no, there was no larger article here. Although I thought there would be. My best understanding of what dream catchers do. Is that they simply dismiss a lot of the more negative themes running through your subconscious. Since throwing mine away (Two dream catchers, and another symbolic/ lightly magickal thing related to Islam!) I have had a dream that is more engaged than my previous ones used to be. More like I am a person in a real situation, rather than kind of removed. Proper passionate arguments and such. I have not had a dream with an argument or similar close personal engagement in a dream for all the time that I have been recording and recalling said dreams! 

This also fits with a more secular understanding though. A real world understanding. I used to get loads of nightmares due to medical reasons I could not change. My medical condition causes huge amounts of anxiety. A very physiological, not psychological, anxiety. But now, with improved medical care. I am kind of undoing that. Not only am I handling the issues with the medical condition, But I am undoing all the muscular stress I experienced in those years via going to the gym, as much as I am able. 

So either way you look at it. The point of what I am doing now is to relax into allowing my own self to become more aware of the lower parts of myself that I previously blocked out because they were producing noise, rather than signal, that I was unable to use. 

So after I had that dream. I do feel differently about the world in a way that makes sense. But it might only be temporary. I felt very exposed going on Twitter and saying things. I was not so interested in various other things.

The thing is with this dream catcher kind of stuff is it all feels so... You know. Feminine and irrelevant. Like such a thing is an interesting cognitive exercise. But should not be serious enough to reflect into my real life. I should not be sensitive enough, being male, to it. But in truth, this has caused quite a stir within my being and I do feel that the changes will be significant, and it will be several days before I feel normal again. As this change integrates.