Transits of the day.

It took me a little time to get to what I am going to talk about today. Recently, I have seemed to have gotten things right in relation to spirituality and such. Have been having amazing dreams. Part of the dream guidance I interpreted, at least I think, is that a big part of why I am getting this positive increase in energy and 'flow' is because I have genuinely come away from "transcient" material. 

Which makes it annoying then that the main thing I am thinking about today is doing a run down of the Human Design transits which does link to politics. Links to politics more than I want to. Perhaps I am doing it wrong. Or perhaps that is just part of the great unpredictability of life. 

To begin with. In my personal life, as I just alluded to. I struggled for a long time, when I was less well. In bringing up all sorts of things into my conversations with others that would alienate me from them. Politics was chief among these. I do need to still write up on how David Wilcock types of information perverts the desire towards the sublime that would normally be satisfied by the Law of One. 

I used to bring up all the stuff. To do with Islam, immigration etc. In my conversations with people. Had I not found a reason not to, a practical technical reason, I would probably still be doing it. But since then I have really taken more seriously my study of the Law of One, which talks about avoiding 'transcient' information. 

So, not only am I avoiding getting in discussions and conflicts with people. But I am avoiding even looking into those matters. Even where it is just basically news that I would be looking at. This means, that there is no emotion connected to politics so when I talk to people. Rather than wanting to talk about that stuff but not saying it and having that emotion. Having that need to withdraw to conceal. I can actually not be thinking about it. 

Because I know that eventually, this stuff will come to people via the mainstream media. It does not need to come from me. If it is not in the mainstream media, it doesn't exist for a large part of the population. To the extent these people have to deal with you they will have a great deal of emotion about it that will connect to you. Telling them you were right really just sets them through an unproductive loop. 

The post below reminds me of how I have to act. It feels very comfortable to see it this way:

For optics. We need to just not engage with this kind of thing. Even intellectually. 

Anyway, having said that, I am going to go a bit into politics now:

Human Design Transits:

 

North Node gate 30. 

Recently, I said directly to someone I am close to that is very much someone that will never consider anything non mainstream legitimate. That there was a transit coming soon and that it would bring politically relevant information. Specifically, it will reveal something emotionally relevant, and that has been a pattern for a long time (connection to Pluto in the gate 41). From Saturday 27th of July. But a long ish transit so not necessarily perfectly timed. 

That would be, the North Node in the gate 30. The gate 30 is one that I have found correlated very strongly with left wing beliefs. While the left wing is the homogenised reality. I have found that people with the gate 30 have a deep, powerful emotional core that won't compromise and is attached to leftism. (I theorise the strong emotion can go the other way!) It is the kind of intensity where if peoples feelings get railroaded over, if they are won against. It turns to gossip. I have found people without the gate 30 but that are still left wing; mostly I think for social acceptance. They tend to say things about it but just not care about politics. Over time they forget about it. 

Confusingly. The ones that end up talking about it have a different gate. Usually gate 25. The way the body graph works is we are all really meant to get on and so these things get discussed. But the world being sprawled out and disconnected. This doesn't always happen. 

Anyway, as predicted, but unfortunately not publicly before it happened. The North Node went into gate 30 and we have all this Fauci diary stuff. Fauci before some sort of committee etc. It is potentially the beginning of a serious inroad against the left. There have not been any serious inroads against the left. There have been things happening with Trump. Things that go against the left wing agenda on the global level. But not anything that says that they themselves were wrong. That they may have to admit wrongdoing and that goes against one of the lefts deeply held beliefs. Which is that they are morally perfect, beyond reproach, and everyone else. Trump, Charlie Kirk, Ann Widdecombe. Are the bad ones. 

Uranus in gate 20.

Much of what I am talking about here is altogether too vague. Although personally, astrological transits are fairly unequivocable in my life. (I have daily spent time recently wondering what has changed and I have found it to be the Jupiter Pluto opposition. A strong emotional experience!) When I talk about them in the more general sense. A lot of what can be said and reflected on it is just kind of annoyingly vague. A lot of these thoughts on it will be too. 

Uranus is an interesting transit. I have shown it before to correlate with right wing politics in general. When Trump and UKIP suddenly came on the scene originally in 2012 ish when Uranus entered Aries. Then when Uranus entered Taurus, in the same month. Brexit was officially triggered. 

I think it does correlate with a kind of free market style of inventiveness. Of using a lot of intelligence and details to arrive at a positive conclusion as with music. 

When Uranus was in the gate 8. I got huge insights as to what some of my 'conditioning' was, and how it linked to a schizophrenic episode I once had. To general conclusion. (This links to a sense of homogenisation in the new age world!)

Transiting Uranus in gate 20. I have wondered about this transit for a while. Since gate 20 is the beginning of Gemini. It follows on from gate 8 where I had the insight. These things usually do link in a kind of story. So what happens earlier on with an outer planet links to the story of it's later hexagrams. But, for me personally. I have not found any personal attachment to gate 20. Because I do not have it in my chart. I have gate 1 in my chart linking to the gate 8. But I do not have any of the connections to the gate 20:

This is the human design mandala again. As I mentioned Uranus is a planet of impact. It tends to arrive with right wing politics as one example which sets a neat knife through what a lot of people thought reality was. On the integration circuit it links to gate 35, gate 57 and gate 10. It is a generally very animalistic circuit that is a lot of societies animalism and work ethic, through the 34 - 20. 

So I thought as this impacts so many people. And so many animalistic people. Perhaps the type more inclined to working than thinking about stuff. That there would be a huge impact from this transit.

I have not found that. The only thing I think this could correlate to is Andrew Tate going to jail. Whichever way someone sees it. Whether he is guilty and is carrying the energy of the sexuality of the cam girl business and such. Or whether it comes from the energy of false accusations. Which is a place of female sexual power. Him going to jail. With his following being fairly animalistic. Definitely brings these themes to the forefront. 

Jupiter in gate 31, Neptune in gate 17.

These two I have only experienced personally. I do not have a good idea of how they have shown up collectively.  

I am a manifestor in the human design with the gate 7 hanging. Linking to the gate 31. What I have realised about Jupiter in this gate 31, is that when I talked to a friend recently, he said that when we were young, sometimes because of the way I was, if I wanted to talk about something everyone had to talk about it. That is the kind of insight I might get from the conditioning of the gate 31. Because of the manifestor being like they are. There is a natural sense of leadership that does follow from them. But it is subtle. Or at least it can be and probably should be a lot of the time. 

Neptune in gate 17. Neptune is an extremely subtle abstract energy. It is just for me at the moment in the general conversation points and thoughts. The really far out planets Neptune and Pluto tend to effect everyone I think even if you have no connections. Gate 17 I have been talking and thinking about things like first principles way more. And making quite a bit of headway actually. It is not yet applicable enough to put into the blog. But it is something that is relevant to me. 

Conclusion.

Anyway, that's all I have for today.  

Aaron Abke and Paul.

The amount of energy to just get to this point feels huge. The point of finishing up the last of the three posts I set myself.

I did the Ryan Gable one. Then the Stefan Molyneux one. Now I want to write on Aaron Abke. 

Youtube: dallas: Aaron Abke is wrong about Paul: October 17th 2025:

https://youtu.be/ik9JSnS7D60?si=xYe1uEQVLRg20nY0

I realise as I mention this that it might be better for the readers to have knowledge of where I have been with this. The questions I have had about Christianity and what my faith kind of is. But I am not going to go through that now. So when I talk about this it might seem as though there is something missing. 

This video from dallas. Is covering a previous video by Aaron Abke which I watched and enjoyed and still remember. Not just the factual information but the emotional connection to the information. 

Aaron explained by going through some bible quotes this story of how Paul talks about the disciples. That he called them out infront of each other which is not what you are meant to do. That the story Paul puts forward is a certain one but reading between the lines. This might not be what the situation being described is. It might be in fact that Paul is being unpleasant and the other people in the room are responding as though that is the case.

BUT, as dallas points out. Aaron has strategically quoted here. Not strategically quoted in a way that doesn't matter. Strategically quoted in a way that really changes the story.

What Paul actually says is that he had a disagreement with Peter in Jerusalem. Then he doesn't handle it at the time. He handles it later when Peter comes to Antioch. 

This COMPLETELY changes the story. The narrative that Aaron is putting forward.

Also, looking more at what is being said. Before I was under the impression that it was just a conversation and disagreement between peers of a sort. But the actual text when fully quoted is to do with the disciples having a kind of in group preference for those whom are "circumcised". Whereas Paul wants to make clear that even those uncircumcised are 'worthy of Christs love in a sense'. 

This, along with things I have found from other more pro Paul perspectives. Definitely adds a positive dimension to Pauls teachings. 

Take away:

When you are involved in this much abstraction. Which is inevitable with any serious look at biblical sources because there is a LOT of history and context in a lot of the literature. I often find I have to come back to what I know. That I cannot gain any kind of clarity in the mess of such things. Christianity was kind of secondary in my life. It feels like I am trying to get a foothold in it. It is very relevant, and very powerful. But it doesn't quite make sense at the same time. 

What I have valued then, what I fall back on. Is that logically makes sense to me and the Law of One. 

Listening to an Aaron Abke video recently. I decided to stop doing Communion and immediately felt absolutely awful. Like, I just didn't love a lot of the things in life that I know are good for me. I was unmotivated. It was a little bit of a 'death'. 

And Aaron Abke might have been right. It is not clear where the idea of Communion came from but Pauls letters said it before the gospel. Plus, the taking in, drinking, of "holy" material is very much a pagan thing. 

I don't know why it is good though. But I know it is. I do it because it is talked about in the Law of One. Perhaps that is all I need to do. My spirituality is just a trial and error of what works for me. It is also a following of the Law of One. I pray; when I don't, I get ill. So I pray.

This is the same way I feel about most of Christianity. So much of it is just lost and does not make a great deal of sense. I still feel that people that legitimately follow Jesus should be able to energy heal. He told his disciples to do that. They should be able to do it. 

Norse mythology actually satisfies a lot of these same requirements. It has prayer, it has a kind of communion that is done very frequently I think. It does not have Monotheism. Which is heavy in the Law of One. And kind of non negotiable I think. But it does have other things. For instance, it has a list of nine nobel virtues instead of the commandments:

Courage, Truth, Honour, Fidelity, Discipline, Hospitality, Industriousness, Self Reliance, Perseverence.

It has far less emphasis, perhaps no emphasis. On the pacifist and non violent ways of Jesus. This is a big plus to me. 

Not that this is a serious idea. But it is something worth thinking about I think. 

The Philosophy of Mysticism

In relation to a blog I did recently, of the three things I wanted to address. The first was the Ryan Gable video, which I handled yesterday. Today I wanted to talk about the Stefan Molyneux podcast I mentioned:

Free Domain Podcasts, 6451: Do Not Fuck With Mysticism, X/ Twitter Space: July 16th 2026:

https://fdpodcasts.com/6451/do-not-f-with-mysticism-xtwitter-space

Here we are starting to get to the meat of philosophical and mystical concepts. Stefans points here are very good and they are ones I share. While I am a person who does have mystical beliefs. Which I am willing to defend and probably will in this blog. Through trial and error, I have found that I have had to disbelieve and discard a lot of mystical concepts. I also got taken in by David Wilcock. 

Recently, this might be only a "me" thing. But I have found that I am simply unable to engage in a lot of visualisation. Which I have tried various times. Law of Attraction, energy work (which I do believe in), and even, I think, 'Internal Family Systems' does not work for me. 

Have you ever had an experience where you have tried to tell someone something and they have just ignored you and given you the most basic instruction on how to do that thing. This is what happens when you tell anyone new age that visualisation doesn't work for you. They give you the most basic instructions. Insulting your intelligence as though you had not tried that before. I have tried energy work on myself many times, it has never worked. The other day I was visualising and talked to people within that visualisation and a bit later. I just knew it was wrong. It does not work. It is maddening for me specifically as many of my forays into energy healing have been. 

What works for me internally is a kind of reliance on sound. I feel like I process a lot internally by sound more than images. 

Anyway, down to this podcast by Stefan. The caller he is talking to, started first off with strange troll questions, this moved onto the caller talking about being in a mental institution and infering that he believed his mother could cast magic spells on him when he ran away, then it became a discussion on God. Which the caller kind of said was an Infinite Mind, I believe. The caller said something like if you don't believe in God, you don't exist. Then Stefan asked the caller to prove his belief in God. He did not say 'via first principles', but that was, in practice, what was required. The caller was unable to do so. He just kept on making statements that God is this or that. 

In one way I very much agree with Stefan. In another way I do not. Firstly, he states outrightly that a lot of things that people believe have no proof so they don't exist. Things like ghosts. I think this is reasonable and it is a good standard that I have not applied previously in my life with people like David Wilcock. He had no proof, and none of his sources existed - or they did exist but they were con men. Believing in that kind of thing is indeed very destructive. 

Nevertheless, I want to make a point about skepticism, "doubt" in general. It just generally seems to me that if someone decides to. They can poke holes in literally anything. No matter how legitimate it is. If someone really wants to doubt something then they can do it. I might say this is a feature of free will.

For instance, the caller made general statements about collective hallucinations actually being unacknowledged supernatural events. To which Stefan made the point that a lot of our memories are subject to modification. If you return to somewhere that you knew as a child, the proportions are different, as an example. 

For proof to stand up to this standard, i.e. the claimed fallibility of memory. Does not seem like something that any situation can stand up to in my view. What did you have for breakfast this morning? Was it porridge? Are you sure it was porridge? You know, a lot of people have faulty memories? You could have had porridge yesterday and not recalled it accurately? 

How do we know that we are not having supernatural experiences every day and forgetting them under this standard? These examples are silly. They have escalated the example to prove a point. But I think it makes the point. 

A few further things to say. 

One is that, there is philosophical subtext that was missing here due to Stefans focus on mysticism. One of the things Stefan says is 'the root of evil is the desire for the unearned'. I would say there is different shades and flavours of mysticism. Meditation is a form of mysticism, or at least it can be - it is strongly linked to pretty much every new age belief system there is. But meditation, is proven as positive and effective in multiple scientific studies. 

Meditation is work though. It requires discipline. I would say that one of the issues that characterises the more negative forms of delusional mysticism. Is that it confers onto the "experiencer" a great deal of status. The only benefit from meditation we tend to get is how it actually improves our lives. Say, our intuition is 10% more effective. A largely, outwardly invisible change. (There are some people that try to make it into something supernatural and run classes on it but they are a fringe). An example with witchcraft or ghosts is that the person talking about it gains status through that manner. 

I actually had a mystical experience when I was younger. I thought again and again, wondering if psychic abilities existed. Then I got a strong precognitive experience in dreams. I did not follow up with the whole precognitive experiences interest. I did not try and become a psychic. But that experience did mature into what I experience today. Partly from reading the Law of One I now do prayer, meditation and affirmations etc. 

For me though, what is my justification for my belief in God? The person phoning into Stefans show had to justify them because it is a philosophy show. I do not have to technically. But I still will explain my perspective. 

For me, it is not from an objective, first principles place that I believe that. it is from my everyday experience and trial and error. The Law of One has made a case. It is an intellectually satisfying set of books. I believe what it says on archetypes and various other things. I am willing to take it on faith that a claimed channeled source was in fact telling the truth on such matters including God. I also, have tended to have health complications when I have not kept up with these spiritual practices. 

Another point: Stefan says that mystical beliefs isolate us from others. I will have more to say on this at a later date. When I talk about how destructive David Wilcocks narrative was. I am starting to see there are kind of two sides to mysticism. A kind of positive and a negative and I think the positive things. Meditation, prayer etc. Do not effect other people in a negative way. Whereas the negative things. The evangelical beliefs in ghosts or conspiracy types of things which also includes with it an evangelism about a lot of different things. This does isolate people I think. Like I say I have more to say on this. It is kind of like when you practice the negative version you become unrefined and less respecting of free will. 

I do have more points on all of this but for the moment I will leave it here.  

A quick look at a Law of One criticism.

So, I am, as I stated in the last article. Going to look at this video:

Youtube: Ryan Gable: Live, Law of One: RA, Love, Light and Litigation:

https://www.youtube.com/live/-zGwBzFPDnA?si=FYBw7odBi0N7tGb4

I must admit, that I started off really excited about this video. I wanted him to bring some sort of philosophical/ theological "meat" to the discussion. And me, being extremely well acquainted with the Law of One. Would be able to do that if I so chose.

I was disappointed though. Ryan gets hung up on something he reads in the Law of One session one with the contacts signature of "We are not of the love, we are not of the light, we are of the Law of One". 

Understanding the material: 

I know... EXACTLY what that means. David Wilcock once discussed it. It was taken out of the early books I believe. The three who were involved in it. Don, Carla and Jim, knew that this line could be incendiary. 

I won't go into what that means. It is kind of nuanced. It requires an explanation of their paradigm. I will say that my "signature" if I were to speak like this, in my view, would be "I am not of the Love, I am of the Light, I am not of the Law of One". People can only be one of the three. 

I went up to 56 minutes. But it just got too whiny for me to continue. And it seems like the entire foundation of his argument is built on this single, incorrect, point. (Although, as the Law of One says, there are no mistakes!)

I have several points here. One is that, yes, the people that follow the Law of One in a lot of cases cannot have these discussions. They cannot discuss or defend their points. It is apparently human nature that people have a kind of... I don't quite know how to describe it... Passivity. An inflexibility to even follow the guidance they have, in some cases, devoted their life to,  When I was trying to talk on the Law of One forums a few times in the last year. I wanted to make a passionate case against forgiveness without contrition. Making the case it is against free will. The Law of One's most prized law. And that the Law of One discussed the process including "Understanding, acceptance and forgiveness". That understanding alone can take more than a decade. Loads of specific arguments on this point. Some I have made elsewhere on this blog. 

I have also made arguments against leftism being legitimate under the Law of One. The idea of funding infinite migrants, which one of the women was putting to me as the more 'compassionate' choice. Is against the Law of One to not consider the places the taxes are coming from. Because are they also not 'One'?

Regardless of what you think about my specific arguments. My overall point is that the people in the Law of One forums and communities. Very rarely have any awareness of... well, any of it really. As far as I can tell. I posted about Law of One quotes all the time and people would argue against them. On reddit of course. The god is whatever that particular redditor feels is "fair". 

There are of course some people there that can quote the Law of One. Some that are following it in some small way and whose opinion I sometimes respect. But to make the argument that these followers are an indictment of the material does not track for me. Most Christians do not even slightly follow their own teachings and would be shocked by them. Very few atheists follow evolutionary psychology to any of it's natural conclusions. That are all opposite most of the leftist tenets. 

Most people, I would argue. Are just trying to find the best excuse for their own emotional preference. It's a kind of 'narcissism' to not have any values above oneself and ones own emotional preference. 

There are other points here I could make. I did go through making detailed notes on Ryans video. I could, I suppose, if I desired, attack his points more. But he wasn't really making strong points to my mind. Even though I don't like arguments along the lines of "Their heart was in the right place". I don't feel a bad intention here from Ryan. Even though I am very pro Law of One, I feel a little that Ryan is closer to my viewpoint on reality than a lot of people that investigate these things less. That ask no questions and have no skepticism. 

Final points: 

I will end on some final points though.

One: Many, many, many of Ryans repeated points seems to have come from David Wilcock. I might do additional blogs about how this one person has had a destructive effect by so brazenly attempting to take the Law of One for his own ends. While in practice ignoring it's teachings (like those on "transcience").

Two: One of these points is that at the end of book 5. The source is very specific that even people we are opposed to and might be negative in some manner. We are to see them in a compassionate light. Even sending love to such beings. This is very specifically stated at a few different points. Namely, session 67 and one of the last few fragments in book 5. But at many other points as well (once when Don asked where negative ET's came from the source answered "They come from the Creator, in the more shallow sense that you mean... ). It is something I have recently realised I need to learn because it is not something I have previously committed to. Despite familiarity with this material. 

I suppose I am happy that this post turned out less attacking than I had originally planned it!  

Three: I have some very practical benefits from the Law of One I wanted to highlight. Prayer, meditation, dream interpretation and affirmations are all things I use. All practical real world things. That massively improve my life. There are additional things as well.  

I don't intend to look any further into this guy. 

3 ideas for other blog entries.

At the moment. I am not able to get my energy back to where it was. To consistently put out things like, insights on the Law of One etc. It is just not coming. 

To that end, I have a thought about something I have wanted to do for a while but just didn't feel quite right. But now it might work. There was a guy called Ryan Gable who made a youtube video against the Law of One. I watched 20 minutes and it was humorously bad. A lot of what he said was "If you asked followers of the Law of One what they think about x they would say..."... Followed by something I have never heard in my life. 

The benefit of this is that I am kind of drawing off his energy, rather than using my own.  

A second video that might do with a bit of analysis or "take down" even is that Stefan Molyneux has recently done a take down of mysticism as a concept in an X space. I could do an analysis of that. Since it is Stefan Molyneux, it is highly likely he has basically done a positive narrative. But the show is entitled "Do not F with Mysticism", so might be worth a look. 

I realised recently that the experience that eventually got me to look into the Law of One could be described as "mystical".  

I do have other things to talk about such as holes I have now poked in Aaron Abke's narrative. I watched, only a ten minute youtube where a guy pokes very meaningful holes in something Aaron Abke said. Poked holes in one of Aarons videos I really enjoyed and remembered well. And it just took actually properly reading the bible passage Aaron had selectively quoted to reveal a completely different story. It was shocking. 

But yeah, a lot of the time I have wanted to say something based on a subject and the energy has just abandoned me. I keep on thinking if I sleep the next idea will form and yet it doesn't come. But these are some ideas I have.  

To Communion or not Communion?

One of these issues I am suddenly thinking about a lot. Therefore, this is going to be a long blog post. 

To repeat previous things I have said. I decided not to do Communion after I found out it was likely something that Paul pushed. He came out with it in Corinthians 1:17 in 50 AD, and the gospels were written from 70 AD onwards. 

It was quite clear to me when I stopped doing it that I should stop doing it. 

Since then though. I have struggled with this decision a bit. There seems to be clear benefits to stopping it that I will mention. But it is not clear if these benefits are real or kind of illusory. 

I get up, absolutely sure I should go back to it. Then get on with things and am absolutely sure that I should not do it. I pick up a guitar book and play something and I know that this is what I should put my energy into instead. I note health difficulties and hope to improve these in the best way possible. Via the gym and via just 'pushing through' in a way to a better result. 

Which is what I feel now. Perhaps some analysis here will lead to some sort of answer?

So to start with. Where did the idea of Paul is a false Prophet come from. Aaron Abke? Do I like Aaron Abke? Not really. While I liked him and admired him a great deal to begin with. This is a person that is obsessed with a very destructive diet. A vegan diet. There are a lot of horrible health problems that come with a vegan diet. He has kids, and someone with that fanaticism I don't think will be giving meat to their kids. Even if it is illegal not to do so and babies have died from vegan diets before (and vegan parents jailed, as they should be!)

He also support forgiveness without contrition. This is his answer to all things. Which is just a purely evil idea. He is not someone anyone should be following as any kind of status of a wise person. 

But I said there were positive changes since I have stopped Communion. Haven't I?

OK, let's examine that. 

The insights into things. 

Two that I can think of. When I started Communion. I was embroiled in a very self destructive woman who was involved with someone else I know that is... dangerous to my mind. Like, my best understanding of them is that they are dangerous. The dream I got following doing Communion was of being protected from something demonic in relation to this whole situation, and I immediately disconnected from her mind games and shortly after (six weeks or so) she killed herself. 

The insights I had as soon as I stopped Communion was that her decision to be with this person wasn't a "mistake". "There are no mistakes" as the Law of One says. But it was a legitimate choice. To accept this choice. It seemed to create shifts. 

The second insight I have had recently that I don't think I would have had without the Communion. I have a friend, of a sorts. Who I recently re-contacted. We talked a bit about his life and such and I mentioned my own spiritual beliefs a few times. Then later, I was spending time with him again. He received important news and I had a lot of insight into what his internal world is like. I journalled a bit about what I perceived the cause and effect in his life is (having listened to Stefan Molyneux and such), how he was addressing things and such like that.

Both felt like they could be important insights. But then, from another perspective. They might not be. 

Both of these issues are kind of irrelevant to my life. 

The lessons. 

Reading the Law of One recently I learned, in the very last few sessions Carla's lesson seemed to be that any kind of disharmony. Any kind of viewing of others, even those being obviously manipulative. As other than 'The One Infinite Creator'. Was a blockage of her energy field. Like I said, my communion dream was "This thing here is demonic, get it out of your life". It was very powerful and positive at the time. 

But I wondered, going on the previous Communion thoughts I had (blood magic being black magick as an example!) That what if, based on the above example. The Communion dream had made me see others as separate from myself? It had identified others as demonic as an example. 

This, I think, is a specious argument. While yes, it does add in some information about others having not exactly positive intentions. Possibly being aligned with the negative. The girl killed herself at the end of the day. She was not right in the head, and this is not the actions of someone in contact with positive entities. The balance here is an issue I am not sure about. 

The second example. The friend who had personal issues. Now, my input was to take interest in things like Stefan Molyneux and spiritual things. He was not interested in that. He has... everything mapped out as to how he is going to handle everything. 

In essence. I don't know the value of my journal entry looking into this and the tools that I generally have to meet this. Since coming away from Communion these kinds of thoughts and analysis' have seemed more important to me. What I THINK the Communion would have done is to remove my focus so this guys issues would fall into the background and not be relevant. Just because, like I said, that kind of analysis wasn't so important when I was doing the Communion.

Even though I have previously seen some value in these kinds of analysis. To my mind. Drinking a glass of grape juice and some bread as a ritual that increases the power of my heart chakra. Makes these things fall into the distance and be forgotten and turns my attention more towards the future. Would be a positive thing. 

Music.

I remember various Christians, such as Mike Cernovich, saying that music like Metallica is evil. That it links us subconsciously with demonic things.

I thought that was crap. It happens with a lot of different Christians. Mike Cernovich, the first time I saw him was when he was talking to Stefan Molyneux about his book 'Gorilla Mindset'.  

I disagree with this. Consider this fantastic piece of music. Metallica is amazing. As was Hotel California. This is good music that enriches life:

Youtube: lissiemusic: Lissie - Nothing Else Matters (Metallica Live Cover) - Jan 15th 2011. 

https://youtu.be/0Ia9N9MdSa0?si=qsLUrVRT1qM7ahfh

That is not demonic. But THIS is, in my view:

Youtube: The Axis of Awesome: 4 Chords. Music Videos. The Axis of Awesome: June 20th 2011. 

https://youtu.be/oOlDewpCfZQ?si=5Yy_uLodk60reciR

There is just hypnotic and wrong. It trashes, it devalues, what music is. And pretty much every song that I have heard with these four chords has FELT wrong. It is very popular so I'm sure there are some I still like with this chord progression. But a lot of the main songs. I.e. Journey, have always just felt wrong. 

One of the very concrete benefits I have gotten since stopping the communion is an improvement in my music. This will be something I will be sad to give up. Something that is important to me. 

I started making music which I have not done in a while. I also started working on more guitar techniques which is enjoyable. When I was doing the communion. I didn't do any of that. My ability to make music was stunted. And the thing I enjoyed doing, way more than I enjoy doing now, is playing scales. 

Which is why I bring up that Axis of Awesome video. The massive homogenisation of music. I have made songs with those chords without knowing it. Including some that I value greatly and have powerful meaning. 

The idea of playing scales might be something I am using subconsciously to break out of that four chord pattern. It might be, in a way, increasing my musical talent. Slowly learning keys and such to overcome the tendency towards stupid chord playing. Whereas, cashing out now, making music at the level of skill I am on now. Might be less preferable to me. 

Other effects.

There are other general effects I am experiencing that seem to me to be due to this. I do not think I would recover more quickly from surgery if I were doing Communion. But I do feel a sense of not being able to "fill myself up" with energy again. 

I feel a sense of boredom in a lot of the things I used to find interesting. This may be health related. I am more tired than normal. But it feels like there is an element of energetics too. 

The Law of One gave information about Communion in Session 64.4. I am not ultimately sure about Jesus, Paul, or Communion itself. But I do feel that now the Law of One has justified Communion as a legitimate white magick ritual. That it comes under a different 'purview' of sorts. Blood magick being negative and such. Well this isn't blood. It is not draining a sheep like some sort of halal ritual. It is literally just bread and grape juice. 

So, I'm probably going to go back to it now. I do not have a clear idea on this yet. But I am going to buy some grape juice today. 

In my Communion, I sit there with bread and juice and light a candle. I open a word document. A journal I use for this moment. And I note down things that come to me. In my last Communion, which I was looking at in thinking all this through. I did something I have never done before. I wrote random words that didn't make sense to me. One of them on searching was German, the other two were highly relevant, specific and significant. 

I also feel a sense of headiness. A sense of my energy being higher in my body. There is more I have to say on this. More thoughts I have. But for the moment that's where I'll leave it. 

Vexing spiritual issues.

At the moment. I have had a surgical procedure. I thought it would be a normal procedure. I imagined it as being fairly easy. Like, they would put a tube in me and I would be upright and chatting fine, but the actual procedure itself was more serious than that.

For this reason. I am low on energy. Sleeping 12 hours and even outside of that, on top of the 12 hours; laying about, and not even watching TV sometimes. 

I just watched a livestream by Bryson Grey. In which he is discussing his faith and what he has discerned from the bible. It made the case that a problem during the time after Jesus' time. Expressed in Romans 1-4. Was that the Jews of the time were trying to make the case that only Jews had received the blessings of God through Jesus. And Paul was trying to make the case his words applied to everyone. Also, quite explicitly. Paul talking about salvation through works. Not faith. 

Throws a bit of a spanner in the works. It doubts the idea I have had thus far as Paul being a false prophet. If Paul was responding to unhealthy ideologies amongst Jesus' followers... Then it puts him in a more positive light. I still have the information from what I have absorbed via Aaron Abke. But it is interesting nonetheless. And it casts a bit of doubt on the idea that it is best to stop communion. 

I am vexed. 

I wonder if the best way to actually understand this all is to actually read the bible and see what I think. I have read parts. I remember reading Acts. That I thought was hysterical. Because it basically involved the Disciples setting up a kind of Commune and... I kid you not... Killing people in a kind of Darth Vader fashion that didn't donate enough to it. This is directly in the text. I didn't get it off a youtuber. But perhaps reading a larger part of it. Corinthians. Romans etc. To see what general message I get from these things. Would solve some of these issues. 

I am in a slump. Perhaps this theological slump has arrived at the same time as the energy one for a reason. That I can think these things through. I am not praying. I need a bit of energy to pray. I am enjoying the gym far less. Which is annoying. Meditation feels great. It feels like I am getting a bit of energy back slowly. But like I said, I am in a "slump". The surgery felt like a bit of a "violation", and I feel I have picked up a kind of sadness. 

What the Law of One really means?

From the Law of One book 5. Fragment 55:

Apparently, if Carla had chosen to meet difficulties in
completing our lease agreement with our landlord by allowing a feeling of
separation from him to occur or had allowed this same feeling of separation
to grow for Don as he hemmed and hawed about what house to choose in
Atlanta, that allowing of separation of self from other-self could have been
energized by our negative friend until her self was separated from her
physical vehicle, and her incarnation would have been at its end. She had to
deal with our landlord, who had numerous requirements for our leaving
that he felt justified in making, and with Don’s mental condition, which
was beginning to show further signs of the long-term stress to mind and
body that commuting and worrying about his job had brought about.

So here we get to the very end. The Penultimate "Fragment" in the last book of the Law of One. And we finally get a direct understanding of what the Law of One actually means in the real world. We finally get a real definition relevant to the real world. 

I had not completely understood or known what it meant and in truth. I read the Law of One because of all it's wisdom. Not because I am consciously trying to learn the Law of One per sey. But in thinking through what it meant, I did not have a clear idea. I did wonder if Stefan Molyneux's Universally Preferable Behaviour. Which relies on Universality, and kind of "is" the Law of One might be relevant. As though it was not a 'felt' thing, but a kind of guideline to start off theoretical, philosophical and theological concerns. But that's not what this line is saying. 

Jims casual description of "that he felt justified in making". Makes me think that the requirements were not justified. That they were dealing with someone that was quite unpleasant. I have always felt very strongly, as I am sure that most of us do. That people that do negative things, that I define as negative of course. Deserve pushback, and that this is a good thing. 

It is probably the same situation for most people. It is probably a single learning. But it is not completely clear that say... Don would have experienced the 'lesson' in the same way. We learned from the moment that Don and Carla swapped energies temporarily. That Don did contain a whole lot of energy that was a lot tougher that he just generally carried. Don was also referenced as getting in arguments a bit more without suffering health problems at the same time. So it could be that because Carla is a 'love' person, that she experienced this, but Don as a 'wisdom' person, would experience the whole thing differently?

Nevertheless, these sessions are still giving me things to think over. 

Questioner: What would that be?

Ra: I am Ra. Firstly, we would suggest that possibility/probability vortices include those in which the entity known as Gandalf has a lengthier incarnation. Secondly, we would suggest that this entity goes to a graduation if it desires. Otherwise, it may choose to reincarnate to be with those companions it has loved. Thirdly, the entity known to you as Betty has the means of making the entity more distorted towards comfort/discomfort.

Carla mentions this in the write up before. She states that her new cat she feels is the reincarnation of the last one. The Law of One contact would seemed to have confirmed that. I have seen someone else mention this on the forum. That her new dog seemed to recognise her and have the same habits as a previous dog. 

My family dog. We have had three. The first was a female Staffy. English Staffy. The second was a kind of wolf. The third is an American Staffy. 

I had dreams. Very specific dreams about something the American Staffy had experienced and how it effected her before she came to the family. I was quite interested that the forces behind the dream. The higher forces of some description. Actually cared about the psychology of a dog. The Law of One does make small references to higher entities caring about this. 

I believe, since we can't really understand what goes on in the life between lives. Time/ space, as the Law of One calls it. That it is very unhealthy to make defined statements about it. There is no grounding in saying that someone was this or that past life. It also leads the door open to people that would attempt to use that kind of mystical thinking for fraudulent means. Rather like David Wilcock. Who told everyone about frequent mystical experiences to prove any particular thing he wanted to prove. Such as that he was a messiah or that Corey Goode was legit. 

Staring at the dog the other day I contemplated how someone would know such a thing. How they would experience the world if they could perceive such a thing.

Specific insights. 

Anyway, the particular insight I had, the particular part of my life where I was like "I should think of this person in a more service to others manner". It directly, directly opposed the insight I had from strong dreams when I started Communion about four years ago. I have talked recently about this. The Communion insight I had came from a kind of dream I have identified as perhaps negative. Altogether too clear. Altogether too direct. It fed into the worst instincts that I took from reading the Law of One. The idea that this or that negative thing is destroying a situation. That it (as well as people) needs to be guarded against. 

It also fed directly into the delusions David Wilcock was spouting at the time about being abducted by Reptilians. 

I have a continued question, and that question is this: In relation to all these spiritual things. I am really waiting, wanting one that feeds directly into the real world. Just a thing, where there is some sort of click and it effects the real world. 

The Law of Attraction makes this claim. I have never really liked the Law of Attraction. These insights are doing that in a way. But I wonder if that is the thing that creates a click into the real world. The insight I have just had into my relationships. Does that feed meaningfully into future ones? I think it probably does. 

Law of One learning. The messiness of life.

At the moment. A big part of my spiritual path is fairly simple. I read the Law of One. Then when I am finished with reading the Law of One. I read it again! 

I went through it a few months ago on www.lawofone.info. I am reading it via the books at the moment. Reading the Law of One book 5 and the commentary is very useful. Very powerful. Then I will read it again when I am done with the last two 'fragments' in book 5. On the third go through I will read it via www.llresearch.org. Apparently the most updated reading. And I will write a bit, probably personally in a kind of journal. So I can think over and learn slowly each session. 

After that, I will be able to put together a concise view of what the Law of One actually advises people to be doing in the real world. I already have meditation and affirmations, and, secondarily, in a Law of One telling. Prayer. But precisely what is advised and where in the book that is said. Advising on where my own interpretation is. I think would be useful. 

At the moment, I am, in line with other things I have talked about here. Other 'learnings'. Learning to relax a lot of the ideas of self defence, and which kind of jump off into illusion.

Two ways this has been happening. One is that, I got an idea from session 25. That when I feel screwed over by something. When I feel there is something negative. I can send love and this will work against the person doing the thing against me. Like a kind of karma.

I realise though, that this is kind of delusional. The discussion of the spiritual "war" in session 25. There just isn't enough to go on. Yesterday, I was in a situation that annoyed me and I felt like I should use a tool such as that. But I realised it was kind of crap. It is not quite clear what reality things such as 'sending love' has. In either a positive or more conflict based application. But there is not a lot of objective evidence for it. So for me, actually accepting my powerlessness in that moment. It really seems to work a lot better. Things 'flow' from that place. 

Also, another thing came up. I have worn this pendant for about five years:

Prosteel 7 Archangels Pendant. If you are interested. 

I looked it up. That is Hebrew writing, not Arabic. I am pretty sure there are no errors on this pendant to the effect of naming a negative entity or anything like that. But all the same. It is something that I am slightly worried about. 

I also wear an Ankh that I will keep wearing.

The point is is that since I have read the Law of One. I have felt more and more, that the protective positive energy that I am seeking is felt inside me. Not so much in these outer types of things:

Like in this tarot image how, earlier ones had a bird in the outer sense. But when you get to the experience. The outer bird changes to part of the persons clothing. As though it became inner. I take the cat in the box to be something like this is where the need for animalistic power becomes acknowledged. Rather like all the Neitzsche ideas. Although animalistic power is more relevant in real terms to the archetypes of the body, in my view (the body equivalent of this archetype is literally "strength"). This is where it gets cognitively acknowledged. 

The only other thing that strikes me. Is that, while a lot of this is a very powerful and interesting 'background'. One of the really powerful places to get insights... "Next level" insights. Is the human design. Where a lot of this kind of stuff gets dumped right into the messy reality of everyday life. You can see peoples flaws in the human design. Peoples contradiction. I have a whole section of a little book of mine acknowledging interesting hexagrams, which talk about things that just sound terrible. But if they are part of the design then they are nevertheless part of Gods plan. I.e. David Wilcocks Sun, Gate 22.2: The tendency of the self to delude oneself and others. 

But, looking through peoples designs when they behave in certain ways does bring a whole lot of clarity. here is mine with the planets taken out (I have an instinct towards privacy):

I have had an insight into my human design, and how it relates to the conflict I have experienced in my life. 

In my conscious Jupiter. Which is kind of like our spiritual message to the world. Is in gate 3.4. What I do here is a lot to do with gate 3. Gate 3 is a 'mutation'. It is called 'difficulty at the beginning'. Because it takes a long time to learn an entirely new way of thinking. 

It responds to gate 60. Which is 'limitation'. Gate 60 is a real thorn in peoples side and anyone that has it, has a chip on their shoulder. In my experience.

The thing with the gate 60 is that it DOESN'T have the answer. So if someone has the whole channel. Gate 60-3. They might experience the problem and slowly find an answer. But if someone has gate 60 hanging, then they have the problem, and no answer. 

Then there is me, that has the gate 3 hanging. I have the answers. But these are not answers that a lot of people want to hear. Meditation. The Law of One. And especially philosophy and where this relates to political ideas. These are inconvenient things for people. 

This explains a great deal of things that have happened in my life. I am not saying that my expression of gate 3 is "perfect". I would say that it was probably overly politicised and had a tendency towards 'transcient' information. Picked up when transiting Uranus went over my conscious Jupiter. 

Adding this all together makes a real life confusing mix. But you can have people with gate 60 hanging that want to monopolise what they think the answer should be. Or two people with the hanging gate 3 where there is some sort of subtle conflict about something to do with said answer. Or someone with the entire channel that just won't co operate. They are still in their 'difficulty at the beginning', phase. 

It brings a far more useable paradigm I think. With potential actual answers. Than terms like "narcissist" or anything like that.  

The invisible laws.

Not much to say, recovering from surgery. It was technically just a procedure. But it was quite a bit worse than I was expecting. It was not made clear to me what this was going to be like. 

I have gone back on all my things of self discipline. Caffeine free pepsi max. Alcohol (Stayed awake 34 hours last night, I needed it! But I think alcohol is less damaging when I am not having it for communion. The weekly top up of poison was never good I don't think.) 

But it is over. I was afraid of that procedure subtly. Subconsciously. For a long time. It is amazing how our subconscious has this subtle grip over us. 

The last thing I was thinking about from the Law of One was this:

Questioner: The instrument has determined that the unwise use of her will is its use without the joy and faith components and constitutes martyrdom. Would Ra comment on that, please?

Ra: I am Ra. We are pleased that the entity has pondered that which has been given. We would comment as follows. It is salubrious for the instrument to have knowledge which is less distorted towards martyrdom and which is rich in promise. The entity which is strong to think shall either be strong to act or that which it has shall be removed. Thus manifestation of knowledge is an area to be examined by the instrument.

We would further note that balancing which, in this entity’s case, is best accomplished in analysis and manifestation seated with the contemplation of silence, may be strengthened by manifested silence and lack of routine activity. We may go no further than this recommendation of regularized leisure, and desire that the entity discover the fundamental truths of these distortions as it will.

A kind of use it or lose it proposition. A kind of frightening proposition. I often am taken down by health issues and I forget things I want to do. Like music practice or meditation. I wonder if my social skills meaningfully atrophy in relative isolation. I am sure a lot of people have similar fears in this busy life. 

Two thoughts I have had from this. One which is generally social. One which is personal. 

This is not the first time that the Law of One information has highlighted some subtle spiritual law and I have wondered how this effects people in the day to day. I imagine there is a great many of these. This one is more obvious and grounded. If we do not use something obviously it will atrophy. But there are others that are more subtle, and apparently, very powerful. 

For instance, if you imagine how divorced guys, sometimes don't seem to take much of a breath. Don't fall out with the whole 'marriage' thing, and are married again within a few years. I wonder, if there is a law like this that needs to be satisfied? Like, with that example. Maybe the guy has a lot of love to express and cannot do that if he is prevented from doing so with his ex wife. Perhaps there are other supports that are not available. 

Then rather than what a person commenting might assume he should do. Like, analyse his past or something to come to better decisions. Actually, the energy itself is compelling just jumping into the next thing. Like, imagine this person was fourth density, as an example?

I wonder sometimes a lot of things like this. There were various times when a thing became compulsive due to universal laws. Like the fifth density negative entity eventually flipping positive. Because Entropy was compelling it. 

Reading enough of the Law of One, and backing that up with the Human Design. I have often come to the conclusion that we have very, very little ability to change the world from... exactly what it is. 

I wonder how many past events this relates to? Like, does it relate to previous relationships and things. Was one of my parents compelled into something by some invisible law that still can't be understood or identified? Not even events. Emotions. Other things?

And personally. 

I write this as I am, like I said, recovering from surgery. I do feel like I am in a bit of a mess. No prayer, no meditation etc. My routine is off. So I might not be able to apply this. 

But for me personally. I realise my most valued skill is my creation of music.  

I realise that half an hour playing music, with no TV on or anything. Has a really strong, positive, effect. I often used to play scales and other things with the TV on. Complex guitar skills. But playing in silence is my connection to the higher forces I did not know I had access to. 

The male path.

This is my thoughts on 'the male process'. It could be both male and female. But I can't speak with any knowledge on female mechanics. 

Since stopping Communion. I have felt my energy as a lower energy than it used to be. The idea of Communion to me very much linked me to this kind of imaginary, heart chakra kind of thinking. This mysterious idea that I am being guided along in line with this, directed from some higher plane.

When I was doing Communion. I felt like I couldn't fully access my 'anger'. But I felt it important to access said anger. It was, in a way, my goal. Not one consciously decided. But a goal none the less. My idea at the time was that if I did exercise. It would reveal deeper layers where the anger sat. Like, things would clear then I would access other thoughts, feeling and with that, anger. 

But since stopping Communion. I have felt more in touch with that anger. 

The Law of One talks about how men have physical energy:

Questioner: Would you do that?

Ra: I am Ra. You are correct in assuming that the energy of which we speak in discussing sexual energy transfers is a form of vibratory bridge between space/time and time/space. Although this distinction is not apart from that which follows, that which follows may shed light upon that basic statement.

Due to the veiling process the energy transferred from male to female is different than that transferred from female to male. Due to the polarity difference of the mind/body/spirit complexes of male and female the male stores physical energy, the female mental and mental/emotional energy. When third-density sexual energy transfer is completed the male will have offered the discharge of physical energy. The female is, thereby, refreshed, having far less physical vitality. At the same time, if you will use this term, the female discharges the efflux of its stored mental and mental/emotional energy, thereby offering inspiration, healing, and blessing to the male which by nature is less vital in this area.

At this time may we ask for one more full query.

So here, men have more physical energy. Women have more mental/ emotional energy.

How does that manifest? Stefan Molyneux, talks about how men have a different perspective because they perform a different function in the tribe. For men, if they go out and do any work in the physical. Like logging or something. The real world becomes very relevant. There is no political tract you can use to convince the log to move. You have to load it onto a truck. This is why men tend to see things objectively and not think that situations are modifiable by talking through it. 

There is a lot more that goes into this. Men do not have the status that women naturally gain from their beauty and "cuteness". But I won't go into that. 

The point is that since stopping the Communion. I am a lot more aware of my physical energy and a lot more able to get on with things like going to the gym. I went yesterday. I am making gains where I wasn't before (there are other changes in my life). And I only want to get back to the gym. I went yesterday. Gymmed hard. And I feel like I want to go again now. Even though, physically I would not be able to. I have that physical tension that relates to wanting to do exercise. 

What I think of as my process is that I have a bunch of grudges. A bunch of things that have annoyed me about the past and the present. To exercise it feels like I am completely cleaning them from my system. It is as though I am using the pure energy from the anger to strengthen my body. The increase in the strengthening of the body is, like I have talked about previously. The 'acceptance' in the Law of One discussion about understanding, acceptance, and forgiveness. Forgiveness being one I have not explored yet. 

My grudges:

All of this was thought through yesterday. Because none of it is still relevant to me today, emotionally (Because I feel great from the gym). But as I sit there, I often think through my grudges. And those grudges seem to feed into creating this angst and thus, physical energy. 

But these grudges are not insignificant. Due to a physical medical condition. I kind of had some strange thoughts and feeling when I was young. But some of the difficulty I had with others was simply because I am not left wing in this heavily left wing town. 

Nevertheless, my entire twenties and a bit later was spent going around from one place to another being uniquely socially ostracised from each place. My first workplace, was amongst peers and such when I was in my late teens through early twenties. All of them, I mean, all of them would socialise together and I was kept out of it. It took me more than a decade to realise this had happened. 

This has happened with some friends which, when I later, a decade later, met up with them realised I got on with very well. I did have some time in University. Then I had an office job where the same thing exactly happened for two years. I was uniquely socially ostracised. Everyone came into the office and socialised with the people there, and I was the one who was not. With whom a lot of the women specifically would make this clear by talking to me normally then not even saying hello. 

To get away from these kinds of people. I spent a lot of time in fast food with people that were foreign. There was one other office job which I will not go into. But the staff, mostly 20 year old girls, were nice. I was quite ill. 

I did have a brief friendship with a woman who then killed herself.  

These potential opportunities are things for which I have a dislike for all the people involved. I would not say 'hate'. Because the Law of One and it's vibe, and my spirtuality and such. But I feel entitled to acknowledge that these peoples behaviours was in fact what it was.

I am now more well, I was very ill through some of this. But I have lacked the earlier years of establishing myself. Now I am a lot older. Socialising with 20 year old girls would give me "creepy uncle" energy. There is no way to get back what could have potentially been... But been with who? All these people hated me.

I do not know the solution to any of this. I am also not saying that I am uniquely in a bad place. I know that other people also are. It is unlikely to be that I gain any kind of status that would make any of these people regret their behaviour. In an ideal world I suppose, or not ideal that is for God to decide. But as a potentially interesting thought. I would gain in some sort of manner and these people would suffer the pain of envy. 

This whole discussion reminds me of this line:

Questioner: Now, is there— the two areas then that the instrument can look to for curing this problem… I understand that the yellow-ray blockage problem has completely repaired, shall I say. If this is not correct, could you make suggestions on that, please?

Ra: I am Ra. Each entity must, in order to completely unblock yellow ray, love all which are in relationship to it, with hope only of the other-selves’ joy, peace, and comfort.

It will be a long time before I wish those people any particular happiness. But I suppose those people are technically not "in relationship to me".

There might be a way to root around it emotionally. To find the relevant or interesting rules that can then be used to my advantage. For instance, I figure these people have, at all times, exercised their freedom of association. And if I were to get in a good place. I could then fully exercise mine, as they have done. 

But it is good fuel. The idea that I apply my physical energy into life. That I am who I am without the imposition of other, inappropriately "loving" ideas.  

Q Stuff.

The Communion insight has given me such a change in my way of being. That I will not talk about spiritual subjects in this blog. I did crave to do the Communion yesterday. But there are many things. Including my own arguments. Even arguments that I have not put on this blog. That go against it. 

At the moment. I am in a lack of clarity. I have a theory, based on my own theories, and some thoughts on 'entropy'. That the gym will sort this out. I will go again tonight. My understanding of the Law of One's entropy is that sometimes, what was one emotion can burst into several conflicting emotions. I feel that exercise can bring these back into harmony and coherence again. 

So for this reason I will make this a political/ Q type of post. 

The political social media:

Going on X is just politics after politics. The theme of "two tier policing" comes up again and again in the UK. Currently doing the rounds is a video where black kids start punching a white kid. A police woman steps in and hits the white kid and he punches her back before seeing she is a police officer. The female police officer then arrests the boy and talks down to him. Insulting him and such. The police force involved is now charging the teenager and saying the woman did no wrong, and telling the public not to share the footage. 

When I first got into all this stuff. Back in the Mid 2010's. I remember reading how, with the grooming gangs. Two your girls had been kidnapped and used sexually by Pakistani gangs. The fathers of these girls turned up and took the girls home. The police turned up and took the girls back to the Pakistani gangs. 

It makes me think of what we are being "shown" at this point. The American establishment. The White House. Has been Q posting for 11 days straight now. Pictures from the drops. Mentioning Q. Etc. 

What it seems to be at the moment is that the liberal establishment is just running away uncontrolled on an insane power grab. The whole thing has become very obvious. But not, to most of the UK population. That are left wing and just don't go on X. They simply avoid most of this information. 

In America, not that long ago. The Biden regime was doing a similar thing. Just openly doing things like suing States for closing their borders while machete wielding gang members flooded across it. Open crime on the streets in left wing states. I was losing faith in Q by the time the election came along. I assumed it would be rigged in favour of the Democrats. Then, at what felt like the 11th hour, when all hope was lost. Where the Democrats would have declared an open war on Russia and dragged the planet into World War 3. Trump won. Not only did he win. But the Q comms had given the exact result. And a coded, but extremely specific, reference to the day it would be relevant. (This is on my other laptop. I have posted it before) 

The Good Paradigm. 

This is the paradigm that Q people believe in. Yes, the liberals are being given a certain amount of rope to run around causing chaos. But there is some sort of plan that is being managed by the positive forces behind this all.

What the point of this might be, is that the police are completely captured. Episodes like this show that the police cannot be used to sort Britain out and it explains why more severe measures, like military intervention or some other thing. Might be needed in the future?

Martin Geddes talks about this. He tried to go the legal route against Council Tax and revealed, to his telling. That it is all illegal. That there is no official court process where Council Tax is concerned. The Council creates documents that do not go through the actual judiciary. And they rent the court rooms for this purpose. 

But Martin, when he challenged the Council from this perspective. He did not get anywhere. If you think about it. The power the state has is simply the co operation of the citizens making up the police and such. In this situation. Martin said that the police co operated with this process, even though it was not legal. And that he got nowhere. 

His take away, as he is a Q person, is that he was being shown that we cannot do it ourselves. The system is too stacked against us. That we had to know we can't do it ourselves to be able to accept whatever change must eventually come. 

Takeaway.

It is all a bit mad. All a bit "Full David Wilcock". 

Youtube: Movie Clip: Tropic Thunder (5/10) Movie Clip - Never Go Full Retard: October 11th 2011:

https://youtu.be/X6WHBO_Qc-Q?si=sinsvSQq9kNxbBpZ

I wrote a blog previously on this subject and brought in a bit of the astrology on it. I was thinking over the human design change we are apparently going to go through in February of 2027 that is said to have something to do with our 'need for resources'. That it will effectively switch that part off in our energy fields. 

I do believe it is possible to sort all of this stuff out with one step only. That would be, the fixing of the money system. The system we have is only possible if you print money out of nothing. If you can print money out of nothing, you can give it to systems which don't have a return. (The left in general)

During only a small window where the US had a gold standard. Almost all of the technology we have today was begun. Even though this was the late 1800's. Even the internet, the bare bones of it was laid during this time. I think this is because when you have money that is truly worth something. It immediately enforces a meritocracy. Once you have a meritocracy. You tend to get people with sanity amassing resources. Once that happens. These people influence the society in sane ways. 

It's a nice though. But much like my experiences with Communion at the moment. Without real depth and research, and real belief. That I don't really have. It doesn't feel all that powerful and coherent. But I think it is something worth considering.  

Fleshing out Communion (Part 2)

Just a quick update here. 

I am thinking through a little bit the change in my life now I have stopped Communion. 

In Star Trek Deep Space Nine. The main protagonist. Benjamin Sisko. Is attached to a set of very positive entities. The 'Gods' of Bajour. Because it is fictional. The show managed to put forward a legitimate seeming spirituality, without it being too close to Christianity. Which is like garlic to a vampire for these Hollywood writers. So spiritual themes were explored without a lot of the trouble associated with it. 

Due to things happening in the shows. Between Gods and Demons. Benjamin is forcibly detached from said "Prophets". There is a war going on in the show when this happens. And as a result of this. The 'luck' of the good guys stops. A few episodes later, during a lot of very difficult things. The Prophets are reconnected. And all the luck of the good guys. Things halfway through. Switches on. 

It was a beautiful thing that felt real in a way. But I remind myself as I am talking about this. That real life is not like that. What I am coming to, is that if a thing, an energy, appears to shift. There are a lot of potential reasons for said shift. When we go out in the world. Even an uptick in enthusiasm can simply change the world around you in ways we can't suspect. Any health change reflects on other health changes. Any reduction in stress reduces others stress. 

So it is something to bear in mind as I think of the potential effects since I have stopped Communion. 

But where my mind is going. Is that when I started doing Communion. From Easter of May 2022. I had a very specific problem at the time which Communion, strong dreams, strong emotions appearing to "save" me. Seemed to help me out of a jam at the time. 

The jam was that I had slowly gotten very attached to a female friend. Then she had gone kind of nuts. We all know stories are far more complicated than that. But that suffices as a short summary. 

That exact same jam, has come up a few times in my life. It was very much related to how I used to have a fairly strong schizophrenic tendencies. This feeling of ridiculous fusion. Then the woman behaving in a strange way and I can't disconnect the "fusion". 

This was an insight that was veiled to me while I was doing the Communion. But the moment I came off it. I suddenly had thoughts and insights from that time. 

The problem, previously, was partly due to the 'schizophrenic fusion', so it might not even need any introspection to uncover and influence. But it is a big thing. A big kind of insight that I need to mull over.  

Fleshing out Communion.

The Bible and Communion. 

This is the video that mentioned the Communion. It is only discussed for about a minute at the exact hour mark.

Youtube: Ex- Hebrew Israelite Exposes the Bible's Dangerous Ideology (Malaki Macabee). Jesus Way Podcast 058: June 18th 2026:

https://youtu.be/TuaJ2a7RQaA?si=aQcaQMWtHyQ_A5mZ

I often feel very good watching Aaron Abke. This is so dense I feel like I have barely absorbed it on one sitting. Like a lot of his videos. I have to rewatch and take notes. I feel like my connection to the Christian 'faith' is tenuous at best. That I enjoy these kinds of videos. And other creators that go into biblical truths. Does suggest some connection to this material. This feeling is moreso than a lot of videos I watch.

"In the black churches y'all is big. I plead the blood of Jesus, I plead the blood of Jesus. Every Sunday. The blood, the blood. And... forget about the Communion with the wine, with the crackers and all that. And the 'this is my blood, this is my body'. All that is Pauline."

...

"Pauls letters predate the gospels. So whatever you see that agrees with Paul in the Gospels came after Paul was already writing. That means the gospel writers are influenced by Paul, not the other way around."

Corinthians 1:17 - 32:

For I received from the Lord what I also delivered to you, that the Lord Jesus on the night when he was betrayed took bread, and when he had given thanks, he broke it, and said, “This is my body, which is for you. Do this in remembrance of me.” In the same way also he took the cup, after supper, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood. Do this, as often as you drink it, in remembrance of me.” For as often as you eat this bread and drink the cup, you proclaim the Lord's death until he comes.

Whoever, therefore, eats the bread or drinks the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner will be guilty concerning the body and blood of the Lord. Let a person examine himself, then, and so eat of the bread and drink of the cup. For anyone who eats and drinks without discerning the body eats and drinks judgment on himself. That is why many of you are weak and ill, and some have died. But if we judged ourselves truly, we would not be judged. But when we are judged by the Lord, we are disciplined so that we may not be condemned along with the world. 

Wow, when you actually read it. It is not just some casually worded phrasing. This wording. If it was written by Paul before the gospels. Pretty much insists that to remain consistent and to not call Paul out as a liar. It would have to be written into the Gospels that Paul said this. 

But one thing about Paul is that aside from this. Everything he says about Jesus and his teachings is the polar opposite to what they actually are. So if it were true that Jesus said that. And I don't think it is. It would be the singular area they agree. 

I can't imagine what the particular pressures were during the day. But, one of the things that was inconvenient to the Romans. Was when you had all these early Christians. "The Cristos". Nazarenes, or Essenes. Were all vegans, and a huge part of their economy was the sale of meat. I wonder if there was a similar feeling about alcohol? I can't imagine that, outside Communion sorts of instructions. That Jesus' followers were big on wine.

Communion and me personally.

I have been thinking a lot, feeling a lot. About the change of not doing Communion. I did not do it with a church. I tended to do it on my own. At first it was just me and a glass of wine and gluten free bread. It was the only thing keeping me drinking alcohol for a long time because I got a stomach ache from non alcohol varieties. And I felt like 'Jesus said wine'. 

I have been thinking about what it does. What it has meant to me. The Law of One talked about it being positive metaphysical protection for Carla. As I have mentioned. But they also framed pretty much everything, almost everything. Very specifically about how it relates to the person themselves. How something effects a certain persons beliefs. 

So it's effect on me was many fold. It centered me in a kind of 'what I thought spirituality was'. A kind of heart chakra centered approach. It took away ever so slightly to how I experience the world without that in the way. 

One; I was not quite as able to access my anger to the extent I am now. And this mattered with motivation for going to the gym. And clarity in these matters. Which strongly feeds back into my overall health. Two; I am slightly better, on the ball with wisdom things in general. Dream interpretation is clicking a bit more. And music is 'in tune'. And more passionate. I was not able to quite get the music feel. That I can get now. 

There is more I have to say. But I might not ever say it. But things have shifted a lot. It is a very interesting and powerful thing to step away from this.  

Progress on a spiritual path.

I had one of my best days today. Went to the gym. Just felt amazing. Drinking a lot of water seems to be a key for my health and my specific health condition is one where dehydration is a symptom. So just listening to my body has good results. (Rather than fizzy water, i.e. "almost" listening to my body. Did not have any particularly good results).

I do not have any real insights at the moment. Because I am still working through what might have been an insight I have just had. The point I made in a recent post. That Communion might not be positive magick. But that blood magick in general is something that the negative uses. 

Stopping Communion. I did not do it on Sunday so next Sunday will be the moment I have definitely stopped it. I do feel like I am detecting an improvement. That the dreams I have been stuck on for months now. One month of dreams. Seems to have shifted.

There are a lot of ideas I have about what might be changing. But it is early days. A day or two. Needs a lot longer to say... Yes, this seemingly minor emotional change can lead to this. Or no, I was overthinking it. 

Spirituality and limitation.

This is my video for today:

Youtube: RootsofLife: Why They Call Reiki, Yoga and Meditation, "Evil". June 20th 2026:

https://youtu.be/o96W2QKl9UI?si=07A9vxf-575a4BKn

There are a lot of people that call these things 'evil'. I just watched a video (not this video) by a guy who was talking about demons tempting him. Like, this seemed to be both in real life and in the dream world and imagination. He was a guy who has gained a following because he talks a lot about not masturbating. He was trying to make himself out to be this kind of enlightened spiritual guy and he said that he could "feel" how the planetary glyphs and such in astrology are evil.

So... my dude, you are basically saying that a thing is a certain way because you "feel" like it is a certain way. Wonder if he was on his period? Needless to say I unsubscribed.

When I first got into the Law of One. I used to feel very comforted that there are all these people out in the world with what I considered the 'correct' beliefs. Understanding of guides, spirits, and metaphysical issues. Or mainstream Christianity. Where a deep fidelity to the "One Infinite Creator" is highly prized. 

An actual analysis, both online and in the real world, reveals a lot of disappointment. A lot of people are only paying very vague loyalty to abstract concepts. While in practice, it seems to me. Just doing what is emotionally convenient for them to do. 

An example is... Firstly... Christianity. 

OK, so all these Christians believe Astrology is evil... "Just because". Did the Devil create the planets? I have never heard of anything like that so probably not. So God created the planets? And they have recognised that astrology does work. It does work according to the Christians. So God created something that's function is precisely to do evil and nothing else? That foretells human personality and events, but is only evil? Makes no sense at all. Why would God do that? 

These are not atheists. The Stefan Molyneux's of the world just say that astrology doesn't exist. I find this to be a more respectable, or at least consistent, position. Even when I have met it personally. Than that it exists but that it is "evil" because I say so. Holding out for more objective proof is a position that makes some kind of sense. 

Christians believe though, that astrology is evil, I think because of some obscure part of the old testament. It is something like 'Do not associate with those that practice magic'. Mainstream Christianity, is, as a whole, an appeal to authority fallacy. At least in the mainstream. The idea that the bible is the word of God. Like his literal word. Not channeled through man. The idea the bible is always right. There are a lot. A LOT, of contradictions within the bible. 

But OK, if people want to live like that. It is their free will that they do right?

Wrong. Because they don't live like that. They do not actually yield authority to the bible when it is something they just believe in. It is rather like I have described them so far. It is like spiritual communities. They have some very general loyalty to the parts they like. But they don't actually believe in it in any legitimate way:

Youtube: Pearl: Why are Modern Christians So Insufferable: June 17th 2026:

https://www.youtube.com/live/HRMcaWyalWM?si=cJZ7fz4uhdYqWteE

Pearl has many videos on this kind of subject. Including other hours long videos like her going to a church and asking the Christians coming out of it. "Should women obey their husbands".

During the discussions it has been explained that women obeying their husband, is what the bible says. There are some other lines like 'Love your wife like Christ loves the church". To justify a kind of "equality" kind of arrangement argument. But Christ does not take orders from the church. So with even a cursory explanation of that line. It does not mean an arrangement with equal leadership. 

So the Christians. Well they don't like that line. They are not even consistent with their own stated beliefs. The arguments from Aaron Abke proving Paul was a false prophet would not be received very well either. How do I know that? Because if they would have been, that would be the mainstream view. It is the more correct view. So it does not justify them not liking astrology. Their religion is an appeal to authority fallacy. Except when it is inconvenient. Therefore, their claimed reason for their beliefs is not true. So it must be something else. 

Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of My Father who is in heaven will enter. Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; leave Me, you who practice lawlessness.’ 

As I said, when I first got into the new age I drew comfort from the fact there are loads of new age people out there and loads of Christians. But that is falling away now. I realise that, as life moves forward and things change. That most of these people are self centered, unintelligent individuals with no answers. But that have just chosen a specific label for their own self interest. And then, like Pearl discusses. Take on the position of a moral high ground with answers that solve nothing... For some reason.

The video from the Roots of Life creator. Did not actually discuss anything to do with Christianity. It discussed how a lot of people try to repackage basic things like meditation to be something that you rely on a guru for. Aaron Abke in a recent video also talked about how some people involved in the spiritual life. Get obsessed with the entry level experiences, never going any further than that. 

I said this in the comments to the Creator of this video. That I think there may be another sub type of reason that happens sometimes. 

I have tried again and again to do healing stuff. I have talked about it here, on forums, and on my youtube channel. The fictional idea of healing still captures my imagination. And I suffer with medical issues. That are not overly painful. But they are daily and complex. There is a constant motivation to improve my physical health. And I do believe in these things.

But, despite many times of trying and trying again. I have learned that I am not a healer. I am not someone that can do this. I do have some small awareness and knowledge of general physical health due to my experiences. I remember going walking with the dog after one of these attempts. Feeling nothing but pure anger. There has also been a sense that I am covering something important, some wisdom that has to be opened with meditation. 

So the reason some Christians might think that Reiki healing and such is "evil". Is because they personally are not inclined towards it. But they pushed themselves into it at some point anyway. Trying to push yourself in a way that you are not destined to go feels sinister.  

This, for me, also extends to other things. While I can do music. I cannot write stories. It is a hard thing to learn I think to really accept our limitations. For the past few days with the sun and the women being out in their swimwear. I have been very motivated to figuring out how I am going to approach them or whatever. The only way I usually use to handle any issue I have is with spirituality. With the tools I use here. So I made up a second page of prayers to address this issue. (Also started practicing changing responses in visualisation) 

This, along with waking up in the morning being determined to write a smut story. Has lead me to realise that it really is very important for us to learn our limitations. To accept our limitations.

I was just learning what I talked about in this archetype and failed my first test of it:

It is hard to accept limitations. It is one of the behaviours that I have seen in people that are "narcissistic" in some description of the term. They don't accept the limitations of the world as in. That they don't have complete knowledge of others internal world. That they don't have the ability to do anything they want. As I said, I am a musician; not a healer or a storywriter. Despite, being very very interested in sci fi. Being very motivated to write. Just have not been able to. (I suppose this is writing! I meant as in fiction).

Where this links with these new age types of people. The video talks about how messed up they are. How they are kind of like narcissistic guru's and the guy making the video thought that perhaps the reason they were like that is that they were not meant to be in that position. But they pushed further and went there anyway. So they are like if I were to push ahead and actually become the healer that is veiled to me. Because I am not meant to do it. It would become fanatical and weird, and perhaps even seem evil. 

This kind of thing might unravel the whole system I wonder. It might unravel the very many people that are doing things that don't seem to be working. Perhaps a lot of these confused Christians, with no real beliefs that I can identify. Aren't meant to be that kind of Christian.