I wrote on a blog previously I was happy, after a few months of feeling I had to have caffeine. That I had been able to disattach from it. Partly by using over the counter medication to replace it.
But, I have reached the end of that. Rather than take the over the counter stuff twice in a row that I feel would cause problems. I went back on chocolate.
In line with session 32.1 of the Law of One. Which I thought of often. I have not been able to fall in line with it, and I do not know now, having gone through the experience of no caffeine. That it is accurately the best thing to do. Let me explain.
The Session told Carla to come off any strongly effective chemicals because of some calculation to do with her being the Creator and not needing tools to feel that way. Not changing herself.
For me, in my position. As relatively low class and not in a good position. No friends or anything. I am not sure it matters a great deal what my emotional views on things are. What seems to matter in my life, what matters to me emotionally. Is things that can technically be changed in the real world.
Coming off chocolate. I imagined I would sleep better. Have more insightful dreams. That things would click into place. I did sleep better. But my efforts at things such as meditation and contemplation of the Law of One and Human Design are not bearing fruit. My dreams did not in fact change. My most recent attempts to interpret dreams have lead in no particular direction. Only to more confusion. I have not been having them more frequently than when I used to resent not having dreams, for the reason, or so I thought, that caffeine was disturbing my sleep.
There is the tendency to think these things through. To have insights into the human design. But that seems to be as it may. I have created a youtube channel and talked about this kind of thing. It does not appear that my life is going to take off in that way. That I would become widely known as having a good perspective and my views and such would grow.
This doesn't mean I have an issue with that really. It is a hobby. It is something that I enjoy getting insights in and maybe there is some grand plan where it will be relevant later. But I have to, in my life, as we all do I think; expend my energy in a direction that leads to some sort of improvement. The spiritual insights, as powerful and interesting as they are, are not doing that.
Gym and music are that. The main areas that I feel will improve my life. Aside from obvious things like small tasks. Is the gym... Helping a variety of health issues. And music. Creating music. Having something solid that I have created and a skill I enjoy. And one that may potentially create social value.
For the gym and music, chocolate is neither here not there. It does not effect those things either way. It may increase my music zeal but I doubt it. I imagine it will be the same whether on or off chocolate.
I felt like I had to go back on chocolate for health reasons. And I could not come off wine due to communion. (Problems with non alcoholic and grape juice). But since I am doing those things now I am reflecting on whether staying off them was useful or not and so, if session 32.1. was something I experienced as objectively correct in my life. Also, I got none of the benefits of coming off that I thought I was getting, aside from a bit of improved sleep, and saving a bit of money.
Just some thoughts!
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