Higher vibration brings insights.

I wrote a blog a few days ago about how I was overdoing the Law of One. I deleted that post, as it was incorrect; and refining the idea in this blog. It is strange. There are things I want to say that are nothing to do with this and are more interesting I think. But the subconscious force motivating this blog wants me to clarify this concept. So here we go. 

The other day after deciding to stop reading the Law of One I fell into an absolute state of despair. The Law of One represents something powerful and good to me, and otherwordly. My life, my world, is not that interesting. It is very simple, mundane stuff. A lot of fuss around my medical condition and diet. No socialising/ friendships or romantic engagements. None at all. Not much money. Only enough to eat really.

To read the Law of One and the otherwordly feeling it has. The powerful insights it brings. Keeps me going. Keeps me motivated. Where I went wrong, is that I overly attached to that energy for comfort. Beyond insight, I was looking for comfort. Keeping the books right next to me all the time was a bit too far. Was a bit "maddening". It is better to read the books and put them back on the shelf. 

The Law of One and the higher vibrational energy that it brings gives me a tool for insight as well. Rather than seeking to stay in that high vibrational place. I now read the book for insight, put it away, and my energy floats back to where it should naturally be. Which is far LESS enlightened than the Law of One. But with that now in mind as a clear motivator. Now using the information, rather than the book itself, as the tool to get higher. 

This can work the other way too. Waking up in the morning I might be in a bad state. Resentful in some way perhaps. But reading the Law of One and that completely falls away and I get a genuinely inspiring higher thought. Makes me realise the difference between the two.

This is my insight this morning. Here is my chart:

Looking through various philosophers charts, as I have done in the past. I can see that people align their theories of life with their chart. Nietzsche talked about something like this. That the thoughts we have are motivated by some other thing within us and thus are not a part of free will. 

Something about how this chart interacts with the world and especially me being lower class in a sense. In one of the places I worked. They didn't like me. Not one bit. I was a very hard worker. I would say the hardest worker in the team I was in. I worked, without talking to others, with single minded focus, like a complete robot. From 9-5 or whatever my shift was.

I am also high IQ, so I learned quickly. I am pedantic and write lists to keep track of information. I have a creepily good memory often. So we would have a manager, and I would generally attempt to gain some sort of respect from this manager due to being able to do the job well. But then, that manager would move, we would have another and the process would start again. I realised I would never gain status. But I realised that my energy was kind of pushing to gain status in that way. That it was comfortable to do so. 

This is one of the big discussions in the Human Design. The function of the ego. 2/3rds of people have it undefined. These people are told to not try and prove themselves. That it is not self for them to do so. I have thoughts on this. But not for now. But, the other 1/3rd of people are in fact, here to prove themselves. 

I wonder if this is relevant to my situation. To my life. In that I am lower class in a sense. I suppose I come from a middle class family since my mother is a fairly skilled worker. But that this theme is relevant to my life because of this. Not only relevant, as with everyone with a defined ego possibly. But relevant in my expression of life with the 21-45?

This is Stefan Molyneux's chart. For him, his statement of happiness is "Reason, leads to virtue, leads to happiness". I have listened to a lot of his work. A lot of it has useable answers. 

I think a lot of why his work is relevant to me is that we both share the defined G- self and several hexagrams on there. So I think motivating me from a projected channel is a lot of the same kinds of ideas on virtue and morality and such. 

HOWEVER, I do have definitions that he does not have, that I theorise to be where answers are obvious and useable/ necessary to me, where they are not for Stefan. Or at least not expressed.

That is, the insight and clarity that got me out of my resentfulness this morning, was that relationships are transactional. I was thinking about all the people who have mistreated me in some fashion. I felt angry about it and couldn't get out of that. When I had read the Law of One however, I reframed it in a good way, a way that felt right, in accord with my chart. 

The way I reframed it was that yes, a lot of people had treated me badly; socially ostracised me or whatever. But this was mostly when I was in a worse place health wise and more 'nuts' in a sense. So I was not providing value, and relationships are a transaction. 

This immediately allowed me to feel fine about previous situations. 

The second we commit to a law though, we have to apply it to others. The mind Universalises everything, or it goes insane. So this means, if I am to absorb this lesson in good faith now. It will not be switched off in some future situation if I am the one with the greater power. People will have to provide value, and that's just the way it is.