Negative space.

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I know now what Don faced, whether or not I was Don. I feel like perhaps I wasn't but I'm obviously working with the same intelligence and it seems to me that Don, would have been facing the negative equivalent in psychic terms to the positivity he had experienced.
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Negative space is where everyone does the same behaviours but there is no love. Like love is some sort of illusion. This sort of reality has been shown up in many of these modern 'artistic' or creative films. Eyes Wide Shut and far worse.
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A mental institution and those sorts of labels are the very epitome of that sort of thinking. Where a doctor relates to a patient in one way but inwardly feels another, or has a confused sense of truth since mental diseases I feel are often based on karmic things and the investment of those surrounding that benefit from the person labelled as 'mental'.
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This is obviously an incredibly evil reality. Where the veil threatens to come down and reveal a loveless world. It seem that care work where there has been severe bullying of mental patients reflects this reality.

Perfection.

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I haven't been able to meditate. I wonder if that's because I don't need to evolve anymore. I'm already perfect.
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The only thing I do need to do is apply myself well enough so that I begin sixth density lessons, which will always be fragile, and may always fall back. That's the mission for this lifetime.

Lie detector.

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Something interesting has come up. An opportunity.
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On a forum I've been convinced through purely intuitive means that someone is lying. If she admits it, and my intuition around the whole site may help me out regardless. If she were to admit it and I was right on the other ones and questions after this. Well, then I have proven something to be true. That a lot of the spiritual ideas and things I have been putting together are true. (That I have no doubt of, but I suppose I am looking for concrete proof when I know people around me are lying. Concrete...here's the evidence. I can just sense that you are an asshole.)
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I have also been making up a little with the idea of positive spiritual forces by looking at history. He that was mentioned before on my blog... David Starkey, has done a history piece on the Magna Carta. And the coincidences leading to it being positively written are quite large despite the wars etc. Involved. The 'Luther King' model of having to polarise temporarily negatively to achieve a service to others cause is gaining ground. (Based further on my model that raising to a higher level of vibration is one of the things that drops an otherwise positively polarised being into negative polarity. It's like being under a table and if you stand up someone will try and punch you and you need to defend yourself. You may be able to beat them back and stand tall, but you had to take the risk.)
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J.R.R. Tolkiens Lord of the Rings is another example of this thinking where Gollum crawls on his belly. Gollum didn't resist the evil of the ring whereas Frodo does, even though at first he is simply immune therefore doesn't need to resist (being fifth density). There is also a biblical reference here to Gollum crawling on his belly.

Overwhelmed.

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I have friends and family that love me and things are very sheltered for me in comparison to a good deal of the people out there.
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But, I am finding things difficult. Because with the spiritual forces now going through me, things in my head are incredibly alert. I am in a different place than I was before.
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Subtle pieces of bullying, or not always bullying, subtle places where energy exchanges seems to be misdirected in some fashion where I feel I have to put slightly more force into a situation than I am comfortable with. These repetitive events are making me tired.
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Bring4th is a good example. It is the least negative of the available examples. Which start off somewhere and cause loads of ripples.
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With Bring4th, the energy I was giving into my blog caused a tiredness in me. I was giving a lot of energy but was not really getting anything back. And when I asked for something back from bring4th, they were patronising to me. So the energy exchange was less than favourable to me. Better if I can work out the earlier chakras. Home, money etc. A place where if I feel compelled to share my feelings with someone that person cannot go and then get angry with me if they feel what I have to say is unusual in some way.
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There are other people I have felt intuitively guided to phone and other situations where I have felt angry. But I am getting too tired to fight in each one of these. I only have so much fight in a land where I am constantly ignored. Some part of me is. Not aggressively, but ignored nonetheless. Where the output is giving me a kind of 'decline'.
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There are good things. There are plans. There is hope. I am going up to a place where my vibration is higher than it was and these things bother me more now. There are plans and commitment to living life. There is also the commitment to not being bullied by others.

Gender Equality.

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Seems to be hot on the menu at the moment. Sizzle.
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It's an interesting place. I can't think of anything I want to do equality wise except free the 'whole' of humanity. That comes from making friends with God/ true self. Being on my path. Spreading love and light if that is my place.
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But gender equality is interesting in that it is a good 'back door' entrance to world improvement. Women simply care about different issues. One of the things apparently improved upon when parliament admitted more women was that the high tax on toiletries was removed. And the middle east, where there is a high concentration of injustice around this area. The more the Western governments focus on this, the more other cultures will come under pressure.
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Even considering women having equal places in government makes you imagine government to be a different 'entity'.

Just thoughts.

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I did a short blog on bring4th a while back. Probably not that useful, perhaps balancing an area of life that is already quite service to self therefore nothing can be gained.
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But I don't feel good, so I decided to do a brief blog here.
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Lightly service to self reality I am glancing into but I have at least been given a way out. This. Wisdom. Service to others.
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I am very well looked after at home with my mother, there isn't too much closeness or anything. We're both Leo's. Individualistic.
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Anyway, the thing I wanted to say was Bob Dylan. It seems to me he had to basically be service to self to an extent in order to get his music done. Perhaps he didn't I don't know.
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Many of the questions I have is how much are things really guided. How much of the new age is in fact true or is a lot of it fallacy. What effect is this blog having on me?

Strange experience.

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I have had a strange experience.
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When my psychological problem set off a few months ago, in the aftermath. I got the feeling that a friend was dating the girl I had become interested in. He denied it but our conversation started off a severely, in my view, service to self nature.
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What would happen is that I knew he was dating her, I just knew it. And he would deny it so me talking to him and not acknowledging that I knew it while feeling very strongly that I did I feel was service to self. It is based on a domination and a kind of fear.
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But, the friend told me by text he wanted to chat and I ignored him. I feel better. I feel a lot better. I also have started to get insight into my psyche, through astrology. I just feel better. My energy is back.
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This could be to do with grounding or something, or the dream I placed on bring4th. But nevertheless, it's all good at the moment.

Seperating.

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So on some kind of 'subconscious pattern', I feel I am separating from bring4th a bit. (Although I did wonder whether to write a dream I had on my bring4th blog since it seemed relevant and people may want to see it.) The next article I need to write, the next direction I need to push myself in, is to write a full explanation of my monetary status etc. There is a kind of fascism in England and in the rest of the world around jobseekers etc. Although plenty of defenders. We're still basically in positive polarity.
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Also, perhaps it's time to get on with the next phase of my journey. There are things in my life, decisions I know will potentially cause stress and I don't want to make. But I know, from LIVING WITH MYSELF, for years that if I get an intuition to do something, then I will be off doing that thing. I wonder if my higher self will shoot me into a position that is helpful to society/ makes me happy/ adequately polarised. It could all become very stressful, but that's life.
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Extremely mad.

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This is extremely mad what I am about to say but it feels true nonetheless.
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A friend was talking about me the other day, excitedly, about one of the times before when I had come off vegetarianism because I was eating a bacon sandwich as I was talking. He essentially brought forward a different version of the story, where, to my mind he is suspiciously in the center of attention.
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But, I said that's not how it went down, and he basically dominated to insist that it was and I didn't challenge that. This gives me an uncomfortable feeling that the guy is sort of 'stealing my memories' in a very STS sense. Making a part of myself serve him and his interest of condescension and domination.
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This is what bring4th obviously wanted from me. To withdraw the investigation into Don and to go question all my memories whereby if we consider the synchronicities leading to me believing x and y then those would be questioned until they were different memories. Perhaps with an evil malevolent figure nearby leading me to never be comfortable in my own skin again.
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What to do? Well, the reason that happened was because I was eating chocolate. I can't go and meet this friend because I was too stressed and I did eat loads and loads of chocolate to handle his presence. Basically that kind of thing stimulates you to the place where you let down your natural guards. Your body reflects this by getting overrun in all similar ways. Caffeine stimulates, sugar makes a person not realise something bad is really there.
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So, back to eating properly is currently my defense. The stress meaning I didn't want to talk to this person was probably accurate. Every time I am nice to him it becomes a conversation about how he hates my decision making process and thinks it's irrational. This is the side effect of becoming very psychic. This kind of thing probably wouldn't've bothered me before.
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It makes me wonder about all these things. There was a time once when I went on a girls facebook that I know, or more correctly that I don't know at all. It was as though in a visualisation sense she jumped through the screen and into my dreams. It was a very nice dream. But the implication is, firstly, don't go looking on people's facebook. I find any looking at women on facebook brings a sexual feeling that stays. Secondly, it has an interesting relation to any porn. How much are these things effecting energy fields etc. Just touching Carla's energy field when I made a comment once changed my thoughts. As does a lot of psychic touching of energy fields. 

The religious direction.

I can't pray at the moment. Because anything that is done has to be continued. If I pray and then move into a space of thought where prayer is not longer part of the game I will lose whatever life condition or ability I gained through the prayer. So if I had prayed for strength I will lose that strength.
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If I was to put the cross on that would get rid of some of my problems. Specifically, if I put it on I will do things having felt 'supported' but I will a) partly have my Uranian abilities shut off, and b) not suffer from losses of polarity, but not have such abilities to prove my mettle in the face of unfortunate circumstance, or not as the case may be. Since I am supported I won't have the ability to gain high amounts of polarity.
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But I feel so awful that perhaps it doesn't even matter anymore. I know there is something incredibly evil around, like my soul is trapped, but I can't feel it consciously, but I know it's there.
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I am now going to read a high vibration book. Try and follow teachings that DEFEND me from the tendency to want to become religious at all. That keep my vibration very high. Of course these also give me the risk of negative polarity as well.

Living a real life.

Man I feel crap.
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There was a girl at the supermarket I didn't talk to. I should've. If I am trying to have a go at life I should have. This is the low vibrational behaviour I can't accept. If there were only one. I feel a dullness at the moment.
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Then when I got home I wondered if posting on the blog was the negative equivalent of the positive energy I would have applied with the girl.
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This is all creating problems. It seems to me being in love is one of the most powerful positively polarised experiences. If I was in love it would all be good :).
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This isn't negative though this post. I feel a lifting. Maybe a technique I use to get out of the fact that I will experience the occasional negatively polarised energy in this world.
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Although I do feel a deliberate effort to avoid my best friend and my mother. Whom seem to hate me more and more recently, although with my best friend this is incredibly subtle. There is not much that I perceive that I can do about that though.
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The thing though is not doing a set action that is decided, it's doing what I know I should do in accord with my intuition in the moment. Once I start doing things, it will hopefully provide me some successes so I can do more. Eventually I will be able to make absolute waves from doing behaviours that have just been following intuition.

Eaten choclate.

Eaten a lot of chocolate. What sometimes happens when I eat chocolate is that I make up a crazy story that I believe is true at the time and then when I detox I feel better. Also, recently come off vegetarianism because I've felt incredibly ill in a way spirulina doesn't seem to fix.


Anyway, sent love and light to Carla and Woah. WOAH. I have sent love and light to other before and got extremely paranoid, there is definitely something dark somewhere around me. But when I sent love and light to her and wished her well on her journey I felt very, very good. I feel connected again and confident.


Some of the things I have been thinking perhaps haven't been true.

What's good in the world?

The last post was full of 'negative wisdom' and it's not really where it's at is it?
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What's good in the world? Music. That's something that's good. I don't know why things are so difficult metaphysically. Familly. That's a good thing.
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But to create a society like we truly deserve? I don't know how we go about doing that. Possibly to get a more complete picture it would be good to look at the astrology of all involved.
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My vibration is a bit lower because I've casually looked at a bit of news and I've eaten chocolate. That goes against my current veganism :). There are basic everday tasks I am meant to be engaging in that I'm not doing. While I have been having my most recent crisis it has seemed very obvious to me how negative everything is. And how positive the little bits of positivity are.

The ascendency of emotion.

Well. Things are shifting for me. Whether on some level everything is OK I don't know. I have a lot of fear but that's not the end of the world.
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Talking about a kind of 'negative wisdom' because that's what I feel that it becomes when a 'wisdom being', perhaps fifth density, enters the scene with new wisdom and those surrounding them try and push them down, 'put them back in the box'. So to speak. This is not seriously negative to any great degree most of the time. But any break from complete positivity becomes a little bit of negative wisdom. At least in theory. Where the sixth density entities prefer 'lack of love' to 'love', can be very simple.
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Watching question time which is a political show. There is a historian on there called David Starky. I've seen his perspective being represented before. He is a real smart guy who steps on others toes quite a lot. I DEFINITELY don't agree with everything he says (although perhaps that is premature), but a part of Question Time has shown what it is sometimes like when trying to bring wisdom in.


The panel were discussing a question of an older man and younger woman where the girl apparently very determinedly decided to chase the guy and he succumbed. The rest of the panel got on their moral highground horse and didn't discuss the issue apart from as 'concerned parent's.' David Starky said, and tried to make a rational point, that there is a great deal of difference between sexual maturity and to evaluate the girls behaviour on a theoretical level, outside the situation which he conceded to have the agreed upon moral outrage.
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What he said was simply started to shift the perspective towards what the girl was doing in a small way, nothing big. Just lets look at the actual facts of the case. And then he was shouted down. By both the panel and the crowd (whom I would've loved to have backed up Starky.) This gets more complicated if you were imagine the girl as sixth and the guy as fifth. Therefore somewhat 'commanded' by her energy. Although free will is of course always present.
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My point being that bringing something forward and being shouted down is an experience I have had before and at around 44 minutes of the question time, we see how it is. Knee jerk, knee jerk, knee jerk. Can't look at the wisdom.
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Another thing I remember about another Question Time was once when he was on before and everyone was talking 'knee jerk' about Syria and the episode ended with David saying that Syria had a properly financed military that was large and capable and that's why the United States won't attack Syria.
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But, this attitude will have it's day of reckoning. I feel a little bit supressed by certain people. Although profoundly, profoundly grateful to others. Things are nice and easy but nice and easy is bad to me. I need to get on with things, and feel a little trapped. The point with this day of reckoning is that I have always felt pushed inside myself and that my wisdom is not being allowed to be expressed. But one day I have always wanted my wisdom to have to be looked at. I don't feel that so violently anymore as I did when I was younger and trying to heal my diabetes.
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But, ideally I would like to raise to a level where I could make a real difference. Perhaps music singer/ songwriter would be good. That way if I'm walking around as a Dylan fame (although not style) type of person then people give you a certain ascendency but I would not want only music to be my metaphysical backbone. The idea is that once the light starts to filter in, people won't be able to lie so much anymore. And some of these sixth density entities that would 'stand against' the truth for reasons of personal preference, what will happen then?
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Seriously though, they'd probably discover the love at this point as well. To me, I know this intuitively, the shift will not be sudden, it will be gradual.

Sending love to society.

Cool. There is a strange sort of peace. All is quiet on the Western front.
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And that's the problem isn't it. All is quiet. I am very upset about the way the world is going, and I've had an insight.
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Another of the very many triggers that I have been looking at as to why things suddenly went tits up a few months before things really went tits up. Don't have any idea about the relevance of that crude metaphor, I suppose the woman is on top in this scenario?
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Anyway, another of the things I did was I stopped doing meditations of sending love to newspapers, bankers, politicians etc. I didn't take this seriously but recently I've suddenly begun to take it VERY seriously. Because that was when I started getting Annunaki in my dreams, when I stopped. That was also the last thing we heard from Brittany Lynn before she went and joined the negative side with a passion. (Until just recently).
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So, I might be doing that again. I started doing it and I have felt a lot better. A lot more grounded. I feel extremely angry about the way the world is going. That there is so much 'fascism', there is so much that the media hide from us that it has gotten ridiculous and I am really angry.

Suppression.

I've received a message from Plenum on Bring4th telling me they have changed a part of one of my blogs in order to remove a paragraph, where I outlined the thrust of my problem with the forum and also added onto the end 'Go fucking die'. That last bit fair enough. But the anger I expressed there I had a right to and I really did find it very insulting when people passively aggressively asked questions. This infers that what I am trying to express is less than legitimate (I should have written this 20 minutes ago when the anger was still raw, that sentence would not have been so nice).
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Trying to keep this fire alive inside me. So anyway, it is time for me to close this blog as well now. When I had expressed the anger on that blog I felt like as long as they had heard what I was trying to say, then it was fine, I can carry on saying stuff here; (even though I have almost zero pageviews, but not zero, I almost feel a little bad for the one or so people reading this).
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But it's not OK if they are going to take away my right to my anger, and indirectly, the emotions that originated it. It only becomes blocked and angry since what started out as a service to others idea got blocked.
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So here's me signing off again. Like I said I feel the higher forces have my back again. I do not want to be in service to bring4th. I am removing my service from those people. I don't know what's next, but I know indirectly, I will serve my greater interest, which is partly to do with that past life.

Don't meditate.

That's what my guidance said: Don't meditate.
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Starting to see things differently now. Starting to think differently. The reason I am not to meditate is that I've simply absorbed too much spiritual catalyst. Perhaps it's all about acting spontaneously at the moment.
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Starting to clean up. I wake up at the moment and my first thought is usually to do with something in the real world. And I'm going to be making improvements to my appearance. Or not as the case may be. Thinking of shaving.
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I have been lamenting my redefining myself as the next incarnation of Don Elkins. I was wondering whether something that comes through with all these lives is archetypal. Only one life reincarnates, at least according to Newtons books. But I have a lot of fear around past life regressions and stuff.

Inconjuncts?

Good, no one is reading. I essentially have had enough of a lot of this. (But I do like readers. No one be offended :).)
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I woke up this morning. My thoughts are grounded. My head is clear. I am capable of reading something and not immediately reproducing it. It all hinges around that past life. I have had a dream that talks about music, and has said quite frankly that I am wasting my time, and even questions whether my life path in music can be done anymore.
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But, I feel good. To an extent I hope I have solved something. Learned something. So that if and when this all happens again. On another planet or whatever, something will have been solved enough that I won't have to repeat the whole experience ad-verbatim. For instance, when I was young I was bullied and that made me have to reach out and express my feelings. Which should have become a habit more now and should have at least solved something partially.
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Astrology, isn't that cool. I have remembered the Human Design Chart essentially gives a good reason why me and Carla would never, ever repeat anything in the real world, even communication. Since Don and Carla had nine links in their human design charts. Me and Carla only have, ONLY have the two south node connections I described. Also, in synastry, we have a lot of inconjuncts and inconjuncts are not completely pleasant aspects. You have to do things indirectly with inconjuncts. Which means Carla could probably read my blog without issue, because that is indirect.
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There we go. Emotion. I'm feeling bad and so I should be. My life path is taking on a broken course.

The world without pain.

Just watching Shrek 2 and there is a queen in it who looks like Princess Camilla. When I think about it, I find it hard to believe the royal family is a super negative group. The very 'human' conversation that the two characters were having makes me think of that couple.

Energy.

It must be terrifying being of the negative polarity. Partly because the negative polarity can't produce it's own energy. I mean, in this life sometimes I feel I can't. But that's not an outgrowth of my philosophy. Theoretically I should be able to think 'I am with the Creator' or do some energy work on myself, and feel my own energy. As coming from the Creator. Also perhaps things are naturally given sometimes to positively polarised people to the extent they have positive karma.

But the negative polarity has to receive energy, or steal it. So without that ability to produce their own energy. It must be terrifying to fall from a place of power because then you won't be able to produce your own energy and WON'T HAVE ANY ENERGY. Wow, scary. Although to an extent most of us are not highly enough service to others polarised in order to lack fear of losing status anyway, so it's all a murky game.

Other dimensions, but lets keep them out.

I have to say that recently I have noticed more and more, it is like the 'dimensions' are shifting or something is happening. I liken this, and our whole experience with the conspiracy theory area. Is to do with Uranus and Pluto. Which is having it's last of seven squares in March of 2015.

Weirdness

Well. Weird karmic rules still abound. Now I have created this blog I am just as compulsively writing on it. And even though it strikes me that I have no readers now. I believe I will have them in the future, and if I don't, well, people at bring4th have this web address. Some of them know I will be on here. So it is technically a service to others. It will grow eventually to quality information I hope, and if no one is reading this well, the service was offered. The fact that it wasn't taken isn't really relevant.

David Wilcock said something about ascension and so that is what I have been thinking about a little bit. Ascension. Wouldn't that be great. It also has jumped into my ideas of densities because I believe the fifth density entity in the Law of One trio was harvestable to sixth. And they can do this whenever they like. It is at their choice. I wonder if a lot of David Wilcocks followers are fifth. And there is some sort of grand clock that is laying the function so that we can all leave this place.

My life mission having been pretty simple then. Talk about the Law of One, stay with that information. Perhaps my time on bring4th was more noble than I believed and was what I am really doing here. While my attempts to be a musician for instance was the thing that was the real distraction.

Perhaps not, perhaps life will continue or there will be some extremely annoying rule like you have to be grounded and happy on earth before you can ascend. Maybe David's stuff will prove to be not that relevant but I strongly, strongly do not believe that to be true. It would be interesting and loving to go into a loving world, be looked after and have constant happiness. But I do not believe that to be the case. From inside I feel myself more like the 'clock' I described and that there will always be something produced from me, this wisdom 'potentiating' that really is a little disjointed from the rules of 'love.' Don't get me wrong it is for the love, and it includes love and has nothing but the peace and happiness of others in mind, through truth. But the social rules, all the variations of 'love' just don't quite match up with it.

Mark David Chapman.

This is an interesting 'no go' kind of area. Negative synchronicities.

I first heard that negative synchronicities were possible in something written by a woman called Carissa Conti. There are a few times when I have experienced synchronicity that was questionable.

One of them has been when I was reading the q'uo readings and something came up about 'the Creator is destructive as well as creative.' This was quite a pressurising piece of knowledge. It came up twice, I disagreed with it first time and then it came up a second. It is the single piece of information that I used to be angry at a girl which was later where a lot of my problems centered around.

Another one was when I started Reiki and I started getting synchronicities all of the time around this girl. This drove me mad and put me through hell. In fact, since I have done Reiki my dreams haven't been the same. Anyway, I would walk around the house and get these synchronicities CONSTANTLY. I remember once in the house avoiding doing anything at all, then switching on the TV and seeing her name in relation to something. Later doing it again and seeing an actress with her form, with her name, an actor similar to me on the picture together.

Regardless of if I actually did want to be with this girl. And she was SEX ON LEGS, a cancerian, very sweet. The fact is it wasn't going to help me to be in a state of extreme panic and being assaulted by these synchronicities.

I should mention here that I did dabble in some things that could lightly be considered 'demonic'. Which is probably what caused some of this. I originally briefly did a magick ritual on her to get her interested in me. Which she was, obsessively, for years. I don't feel this girl was negative at all and don't have a frame of reference under which to place these experiences. Looking up 'the dangers of Reiki' on the internet though isn't happy reading. However, some of these sources seem to think everything is demonic. You get some more personal anecdotes though.

Regardless of what the problem is. I see the solution as potentially prayer. meditation, and my own energy work. I have quite naturally been able to see auras independent of the Reiki attunement. I am suspicious of this healing crisis that people in Reiki talk about. I had a suicide attempt when I was young that I think, but am not sure, gives me headaches that negs can use to manipulate my behaviour.

In the Now.

Well, to balance the anger of the last few posts. I just wanted to add in some genuine loving appreciation.

One episode of 'In the Now' with Carla Rueckert talked about psychic greeting. And how we should focus on what love means for us, or what we are living for, and would die for.

This has given me a genuine connection to something that I connect to, sometimes when I need protection. I say to myself 'I open/ challenge' in the light and love of the One Infinite Creator.' Anyone currently reading this will know where that comes from, and that's what I love.

And that's pretty priceless.

L/l research. Research into 'light and love'.

Wow. If you're reading this you are probably from my bring4th blog. Because that's the only place that I've talked about this blog. And if you are from bring4th then you already know what happened.

I hope David Wilcock and co. Read that blog, since he already knows what assholes they are.

Still angry obviously. Actually having a blog and readers is pretty much priceless. There is no way I can repay the honour of having written and being able to talk to readers who were of the rough vibration of that place.

But, also, giving up on my teachings of that place would not be a 'true service'. Man I'm still angry. But I'm starting to move to the place where I'm kind of upset. Upset at having given energy (or some might say 'taking' energy) and still at the end of it being treated like dirt and looked down on. The last thing I said to Austin on the emails we exchanged was that he was using the q'uo teachings in a dogmatic fashion. I liked my insult to the 'questioners' of my motives. 'Go fucking die'.

Anyway, what's next. The sons of the Law of One library, now THAT'S a resource. I was reading up on auras a second ago. Although those sorts of skills aren't my priority. I had wanted to do something with those sorts of entities but that is a bit murky now.

In a very real way I don't believe in healing. I don't believe that you can go through a 'change' and experience things differently. I tend to think you just move out of 'vibrational resonance' with the problem. Which you are being challenged to solve or not solve. And that using the energies of the moment to deal with the problems is the way to undo the blockage.

But I rather naively hope that my path is 'guided' and that things will work out well. That the positive forces will work with me in order to bring my true self to the fore. I mean, why wouldn't they? Have I failed my life challenges so badly that there is no point? Is there other things I am not seeing.

Moments of doubt coming in the left ear. But the general vibration of such things leads me to think I shouldn't listen to that.

Let's end on a Law of One quote. That sounds good. To stay in resonance with these teachings. I shall try and learn this for the next few hours at least:

You are every thing, every being, every emotion, every event, every situation. You are unity. You are infinity. You are love/light, light/love. You are. This is the Law of One.
Kind of throws densities out the water then.

Peace out!

How things change.

Well. I came back on here again. And it feels right.

It's strange the experiences that change us. Someone said to me recently over email something about Carla and Llresearch and something in me just repelled at that moment. Completely against any conscious thought.

Yes, feels right being here. Perhaps the energy had abandoned me at the other place anyway.