Session 32.1. Objectively useful? Just some thoughts.

I wrote on a blog previously I was happy, after a few months of feeling I had to have caffeine. That I had been able to disattach from it. Partly by using over the counter medication to replace it.

But, I have reached the end of that. Rather than take the over the counter stuff twice in a row that I feel would cause problems. I went back on chocolate. 

In line with session 32.1 of the Law of One. Which I thought of often. I have not been able to fall in line with it, and I do not know now, having gone through the experience of no caffeine. That it is accurately the best thing to do. Let me explain. 

The Session told Carla to come off any strongly effective chemicals because of some calculation to do with her being the Creator and not needing tools to feel that way. Not changing herself. 

For me, in my position. As relatively low class and not in a good position. No friends or anything. I am not sure it matters a great deal what my emotional views on things are. What seems to matter in my life, what matters to me emotionally. Is things that can technically be changed in the real world. 

Coming off chocolate. I imagined I would sleep better. Have more insightful dreams. That things would click into place. I did sleep better. But my efforts at things such as meditation and contemplation of the Law of One and Human Design are not bearing fruit. My dreams did not in fact change. My most recent attempts to interpret dreams have lead in no particular direction. Only to more confusion. I have not been having them more frequently than when I used to resent not having dreams, for the reason, or so I thought, that caffeine was disturbing my sleep. 

There is the tendency to think these things through. To have insights into the human design. But that seems to be as it may. I have created a youtube channel and talked about this kind of thing. It does not appear that my life is going to take off in that way. That I would become widely known as having a good perspective and my views and such would grow. 

This doesn't mean I have an issue with that really. It is a hobby. It is something that I enjoy getting insights in and maybe there is some grand plan where it will be relevant later. But I have to, in my life, as we all do I think; expend my energy in a direction that leads to some sort of improvement. The spiritual insights, as powerful and interesting as they are, are not doing that.  

Gym and music are that. The main areas that I feel will improve my life. Aside from obvious things like small tasks. Is the gym... Helping a variety of health issues. And music. Creating music. Having something solid that I have created and a skill I enjoy. And one that may potentially create social value. 

For the gym and music, chocolate is neither here not there. It does not effect those things either way. It may increase my music zeal but I doubt it. I imagine it will be the same whether on or off chocolate. 

I felt like I had to go back on chocolate for health reasons. And I could not come off wine due to communion. (Problems with non alcoholic and grape juice). But since I am doing those things now I am reflecting on whether staying off them was useful or not and so, if session 32.1. was something I experienced as objectively correct in my life. Also, I got none of the benefits of coming off that I thought I was getting, aside from a bit of improved sleep, and saving a bit of money. 

Just some thoughts!  

Higher vibration brings insights.

I wrote a blog a few days ago about how I was overdoing the Law of One. I deleted that post, as it was incorrect; and refining the idea in this blog. It is strange. There are things I want to say that are nothing to do with this and are more interesting I think. But the subconscious force motivating this blog wants me to clarify this concept. So here we go. 

The other day after deciding to stop reading the Law of One I fell into an absolute state of despair. The Law of One represents something powerful and good to me, and otherwordly. My life, my world, is not that interesting. It is very simple, mundane stuff. A lot of fuss around my medical condition and diet. No socialising/ friendships or romantic engagements. None at all. Not much money. Only enough to eat really.

To read the Law of One and the otherwordly feeling it has. The powerful insights it brings. Keeps me going. Keeps me motivated. Where I went wrong, is that I overly attached to that energy for comfort. Beyond insight, I was looking for comfort. Keeping the books right next to me all the time was a bit too far. Was a bit "maddening". It is better to read the books and put them back on the shelf. 

The Law of One and the higher vibrational energy that it brings gives me a tool for insight as well. Rather than seeking to stay in that high vibrational place. I now read the book for insight, put it away, and my energy floats back to where it should naturally be. Which is far LESS enlightened than the Law of One. But with that now in mind as a clear motivator. Now using the information, rather than the book itself, as the tool to get higher. 

This can work the other way too. Waking up in the morning I might be in a bad state. Resentful in some way perhaps. But reading the Law of One and that completely falls away and I get a genuinely inspiring higher thought. Makes me realise the difference between the two.

This is my insight this morning. Here is my chart:

Looking through various philosophers charts, as I have done in the past. I can see that people align their theories of life with their chart. Nietzsche talked about something like this. That the thoughts we have are motivated by some other thing within us and thus are not a part of free will. 

Something about how this chart interacts with the world and especially me being lower class in a sense. In one of the places I worked. They didn't like me. Not one bit. I was a very hard worker. I would say the hardest worker in the team I was in. I worked, without talking to others, with single minded focus, like a complete robot. From 9-5 or whatever my shift was.

I am also high IQ, so I learned quickly. I am pedantic and write lists to keep track of information. I have a creepily good memory often. So we would have a manager, and I would generally attempt to gain some sort of respect from this manager due to being able to do the job well. But then, that manager would move, we would have another and the process would start again. I realised I would never gain status. But I realised that my energy was kind of pushing to gain status in that way. That it was comfortable to do so. 

This is one of the big discussions in the Human Design. The function of the ego. 2/3rds of people have it undefined. These people are told to not try and prove themselves. That it is not self for them to do so. I have thoughts on this. But not for now. But, the other 1/3rd of people are in fact, here to prove themselves. 

I wonder if this is relevant to my situation. To my life. In that I am lower class in a sense. I suppose I come from a middle class family since my mother is a fairly skilled worker. But that this theme is relevant to my life because of this. Not only relevant, as with everyone with a defined ego possibly. But relevant in my expression of life with the 21-45?

This is Stefan Molyneux's chart. For him, his statement of happiness is "Reason, leads to virtue, leads to happiness". I have listened to a lot of his work. A lot of it has useable answers. 

I think a lot of why his work is relevant to me is that we both share the defined G- self and several hexagrams on there. So I think motivating me from a projected channel is a lot of the same kinds of ideas on virtue and morality and such. 

HOWEVER, I do have definitions that he does not have, that I theorise to be where answers are obvious and useable/ necessary to me, where they are not for Stefan. Or at least not expressed.

That is, the insight and clarity that got me out of my resentfulness this morning, was that relationships are transactional. I was thinking about all the people who have mistreated me in some fashion. I felt angry about it and couldn't get out of that. When I had read the Law of One however, I reframed it in a good way, a way that felt right, in accord with my chart. 

The way I reframed it was that yes, a lot of people had treated me badly; socially ostracised me or whatever. But this was mostly when I was in a worse place health wise and more 'nuts' in a sense. So I was not providing value, and relationships are a transaction. 

This immediately allowed me to feel fine about previous situations. 

The second we commit to a law though, we have to apply it to others. The mind Universalises everything, or it goes insane. So this means, if I am to absorb this lesson in good faith now. It will not be switched off in some future situation if I am the one with the greater power. People will have to provide value, and that's just the way it is. 

Pluto moving into gate 41 on December 5th.

A video for this blog:

Youtube, Denise Mathew: Pluto in Gate 41 (2025 to 2028): The Cycle Reset that Changes everything. 

https://youtu.be/6doxdgNAJaI?si=tG7N2LgvoVtrM49A

If you are following this blog you will know that I am going through a little bit of a crisis. Not able to marry my abstract/ metaphysical/ spiritual knowledge with my actual life. 

This subject is no different, although, unlike the Law of One. I plan to continue seeking understanding through the Human Design. Whereas I have found myself struggling a bit with the Law of One. 

For me, (and I have done multiple videos on this subject). Pluto's transit of gate 60 has been a big deal. It has lead me to powerful insights because it links with my conscious Jupiter in gate 3.4.

Gate 60 is the gate of limitation. Pluto talks about huge societal patterns including a lot of the darkness of humanity. Where it's survival threats lie. As Pluto entered into gate 60.1 and then retrograded out I observed patterns. Which I made videos about. Each time Pluto retrograded out and returned it deepened my understanding of the limitations in my life. At first it was just bad luck and bad coincidence. Then it was mental health. Then it was physical health etc. 

In this way I was able to map out the entire pattern of this hexagram. What it is like in lower trigram then upper trigram. Even these blogs are recognising a sense of limitation of the spiritual (us now being in line 6!) 

I talked in depth about when Pluto was to enter gate 41. It did so in April 2024 for about three weeks. Then again more recently. But at no point have I discovered really solid differences. It seems to correlate to job kind of issues for me. When Pluto is in gate 60 the limitations I experience are up front and centre. When Pluto was in gate 41 the story tended to be: OK, but since those limitations do exist. How can I improve things? Can I do a course? etc. 

The day Pluto retrograded into gate 60 I moved to a new job advisor who wanted me to apply to work in a prison. It was very specifically metaphorical. Of note also is that Pluto is now moving out of Gate 60 permanently. Before it was in gate 41 for a while and returned to gate 60.6 for only a few months. An annoying pattern. 

But, like all things in this area, it is extremely shaded in mystery. I have done quite a bit on what might happen and why with Pluto in the gate 41. Which I will not repeat here. But suffice to say. With Pluto in gate 60 the incredible feeling of stuckness we are experiencing is kind of justified. Roll on December 5th 2025, and things might start to slowly break loose from that date. 

'That which is not needed falls away.'

I like Americans. I recall when I went to University. Which was a generally depressing experience as it was absolutely full of foreigners that were not really intellectually engaged. I wanted to read every book. I wanted to understand every thinker and engage with every class. But the rest of them just sat there like they were being walked through school as petulant children that did not want to be there. 

Meaning that classes were kind of quiet. No one engaged or put their hand up or seemed to want to be there. But one time we had just one American (a literal big fat guy) in the class who talked and talked and talked. I didn't completely agree with him but God damn it was good to have someone offering their opinion. 

Any place, online places especially, that do not have Americans in them is kind of quiet. Twitter before Americans used to wake up, back before the algorithm was as good as it now is, was really empty and boring. 

Now though, with Elons new update, meaning that a lot of those Indians pretending to be Americans have filtered out. Well, you can have too much of a good thing. The place is filled with so much intensity from everyone offering their opinions, that it is just exhausting.

It also did not take them long to start saying things like 'Sort out your own country that is full of third worlders'. At just any minor point they disagree with. Not too much, but it's there.  

This is another kind of personal update thread. It is a shift in my emotions that I did not think was possible and has been influenced by the gym. Stefan Molyneux once said that before you go to the gym, you do not know what your real opinions are. Because you do not have the testosterone to assert them. My views are changing so completely that it feels like something like that is happening.

Part of why I talk about this though is that my life fits in a Law of One paradigm. It really does fit in my life in a big way. My life works better when I am re reading the Law of One books. I reflect on the quotes. I talk about and reflect on the Human Design Chart that I believe is also a reflection of those same kinds of teachings. 

There is a holistic element to life that is hard to explain that also goes through my life that relates to the Law of One. 

That is the case here but my life is also getting very real world and slightly less attached to metaphysical concerns in general. I am feeling alive, grounded and 'real world'. This is because of the gym. I am going again in an hour and a half. I love the gym. I love it so much. 

The thing that has seemed to happen to me recently with the gym is... That the information in the Law of One about balancing the lower centres. Is true. The information about coming away from 'transcient' material. 

I can't describe it, but I have just woken up and I do not emotionally believe in Q anymore. Nothing has changed in my technical mind. In my technical understanding of the phenomena. But emotionally, I just can't get behind it! 

This is not the first time Trump has posted Q memes on his Truth Social. There are many instances of the Anons taking one or the other hint, meme, or piece of political news and saying it's all gonna happen tomorrow. I am just tired of it. 

This might have been an influence as well:

I used to have a lot of respect for this guy. Built up over tweets. But, a confession that he believes the bible is the inerrant word of God. I just can't. 

I have asked Christians a lot of questions on twitter.  Things like how do they justify banning porn which is something they are promoting? Taking it down to the philosophy. Never any actual good answer. It is always that they just feel like they have the right to take away others liberties and rule over others with government power... "just because".

Ideally, going to the gym, being super grounded. It is probably that I will simply stop caring about most of this though. Perhaps Q is real but I don't care sort of thing. I can't influence anything there anyway.  

My realisation that biblical Christianity is incompatible with ethics.

I did my last post. "Actually a bit of a nothing update", partly because I was not sure I was going to post again any time soon. My mind had gone to mush a bit. I cannot recall precisely what the issue was but I had a bunch of insights I did not feel I could communicate. So I was stuck not being able to express anything.

Things have moved on though, and I have had a new insight in a different area. This kind of correlated with the sun changing hexagrams. We are now in the 34-20.

I have started to have a central insight. One that has shaken me a little:

Biblical (mainstream) Christianity is incompatible with ethics. 

I kind of consider myself a Christian of sorts. Like, I do communion. I pray and hold that paradigm to be true. The idea of God and negative entities. 

I also, in line with that, hold the ideas of Jesus to be very true. But I differ from mainstream Christianity in a lot of very important ways. For instance; I follow Aaron Abke and do not believe in 'salvation by faith'. I believe that Jesus had a more philosophical take explaining a kind of service to others mindset. This is somewhat closer, but not exactly, 'salvation by works'. 

Aaron Abke's narrative is that Paul. Who wrote most of the New Testament. Was a false prophet who preached an opposing message to Jesus and his apostles. Consider these two biblical quotes. The first from Jesus. The second from Paul:

Matthew 7:21-23:

Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of My Father who is in heaven will enter. Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?’  And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; leave Me, you who practice lawlessness.’ 

Contrast with Romans 10:9 from Paul:

If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.  

Jesus never said anything about believing he was raised from the dead. In fact, he gave a quite different map to salvation. 

Aaron holds these two quotes to be a direct contradiction and I think he's right. 

But I did not fully realise what this means until just recently.  

Salvation by faith, as Paul preaches. Is not an ethical system. It does not inspire ethics in Christians because they literally are better than other for no other reason of stating things they apparently believe. 

Coincidentally, at almost the same time. Stefan Molyneux has taken a harder line against Christians than normal, offering a well researched post that proves that Christians hit their kids more than atheists and agnostics. Melissa, the woman from the Love Covered Life podcast. Who was very involved in Christianity and now also follows Aarons message, has recently talked about this. Also, Paul Wallis has recently talked about how Christianity threatens it's believers with the mythology of hell that is scripturally inaccurate.  

Like I said, the stories of Jesus do mean something to me. I am not quite sure how to classify myself to make this clear to others. Aaron talks about 'The Jesus Way'. But Aaron is a committed vegan and I am not doing that. Veganism is part of 'The Jesus Way'. But how do you say like... "Yeah, I follow Jesus, but I am anti Christianity"? 

Benjamin Franklin and Thomas Jefferson followed an interpretation of Christianity that rejected Jesus' divine nature. Seeing him more as a philosopher. The early church fathers considered this as well as I understand it (that is that Jesus was a philosopher and they talked about him in the same breath as other philosophers. But not the lack of a divine nature!) Before Constantine replaced them with war mongers then the churches battle with Marcion.  

I suppose I could say I follow the Law of One. Which kind of means that I escape most of these stereotypes. 

I have far deeper criticisms of Christianity. There is far more depth to this whole discussion. To me, ethics cannot be an argument from authority and top down, and I could go into that in detail. They would have to be objective and secular like Stefan Molyneux's system. Because otherwise, you are forcing ideas on others they don't agree with. But people can't really disagree with objective reality. If you start your ethical system by something that can't be justified ethically, (that is forcing your ideas on others that have no objective proof) then it doesn't have validity. Also, Christianity considers things like astrology to be unethical. When there is no proof of that. They just say things are unethical. And even worse... Sometimes they say without proof that things are OBJECTIVELY unethical. Like, even non Christians should accept their opinion AS FACT. With no proof, no logical explaining that. Just because it suits their virtue signalling and puritannical persuasion. 

It is quite a change in my mindset. Part of me felt like these are ethical people. But I have seen no evidence of that. 

Actually a bit of a nothing update.

I had the feeling I should be writing but my subconscious did not reveal to me what the subject was going to be about. Having evaluated this blog post though I realise they can't all be bangers! 

Firstly, I am going to stop with the trend of writing out what I think has been happening for the human design transits of the last week. We did have the big new moon yesterday, and the Earth point is exactly conjunct Uranus today at 8.6.

It appears what I thought would happen on the larger scale was Trump pushing forward on this BBC lawsuit. But what in fact happened was that Trump has agreed a peace deal with Russia. Very Uranian. But not much to say on that. 

In my personal life, I am spending too much time arguing on twitter but I do not have anything else to do! It has become my place I go to for 'human contact' ESPECIALLY as I don't have access to a streaming service anymore. Those normal, slightly crappy TV shows, that don't always make a lot of sense, are good for simulating human company. 

In the UK, it is news how the job market is absolutely screwed. There is this big narrative about how younger people might get stuck on the benefit system. When I go to the jobcentre, the advisors there are completely overworked. I had a spate of unemployment at some time in 2012 and back then it was completely different. The entire atmosphere. The economy is quite seriously collapsing it seems like. 

I will probably not continue my series on the human design transits. I have my data points for this past week. The Pearl Lila Rose thing, the girl advertising her Ph.D and people getting upset, the Andrew Wilson having a dirty debate tactic used against him and the twitter Christians seemingly unanimously supporting it. But it is all so 'nothing'. It is... to use a Law of One phrase. To 'collect the details of the day.'

For me, the benefit is to continue getting insights. But, the only one that brings practical change is going to the gym which I have kept up with. 

The difficulty of following guidance.

I wonder, what the beneficial point of this blog is to others? Thinking of it, I realise that my self/ soul/ mind is always engaged in thinking about spiritual types of things. It is the energy that I have to use every day. I figure we all have three energies we have to use per day. Part of mine is that I have to re- experience the drive for meaning and to figure that out through intellectual means. Whether that be spirituality, philosophy, or something else. 

After the Law of One Carla Ruckert did a lot of channeling of Q'uo. I figure that is because once you have started down that road. Of seeing things in a Law of One paradigm. Then it becomes beneficial to have constant reminders. Like how, in church, a lot of the messages are basically repeated. Constant reminders is a big part of the spiritual journey and the life journey in general I suppose. 

Anyway, I wanted to mention tow ways that I have felt guided to a certain conclusion and then now figure I may have been wrong about that and the idea behind that. First I wanted to talk about a Law of One quote and what it might mean to me:

Questioner: In previous communications you have spoken of the mind/body/spirit complex totality. Would you please give us a definition of the mind/body/spirit complex totality?

Ra: I am Ra. There is a dimension in which time does not have sway. In this dimension, the mind/body/spirit in its eternal dance of the present may be seen in totality, and before the mind/body/spirit complex which then becomes a part of the social memory complex is willingly absorbed into the allness of the One Creator, the entity knows itself in its totality.

This mind/body/spirit complex totality functions as, shall we say, a resource for what you perhaps would call the Higher Self. The Higher Self, in turn, is a resource for examining the distillations of third-density experience and programming further experience. This is also true of densities four, five, and six with the mind/body/spirit complex totality coming into consciousness in the course of seventh density.

This quote then summarises something very fundamental about the Law of One world view. The higher self programs further experience. So we are living in a situation where the events in our lives are targetted to learning lessons of some description. As set by the higher self.  

Anyway, the two places where I have refined my ideas. One is that, recently I talked about coming off caffeine and alcohol. I have decided I have to stick with the alcohol. The reason is mostly due to communion and other related health issues. I have always kind of believed that Jesus said wine and so it is wine at Communion. I don't ascribe a lot of authority to the church in general (who do say grape juice is fine!)

Communion is not negotiable for me. I have had experiences of a very positive nature and very intense apparently connected with Communion. At the moment I am improving my health in a lot of ways because I am now able to go to the gym. There are MANY different factors to balance and they conflict. I need to lose weight. I have bone thinning. I have stomach issues. I have a huge tendency towards anxiety. Typically I am a very good sleeper even sleeping too much. But occasionally things go wrong and the sleep just stops. 

On two of these, the weight loss and anxiety, but primarily the weight loss. I need to stick with the alcohol. If I am not having wine I have grape juice at communion and I put on weight. It is a problem that I try and get around by just doing everything surrounding it right. But I put on a kilogram and I am not doing well with weight at the moment. (For instance, I have cheese to combat the bone thinning).

Also, I have slept three hours tonight and am completely wired which I know I will have to pay for. My medical condition has somewhat conditioned my body to be more easily made anxious. More than a decade of physiologically based extreme anxiety. It is this that is being improved with the gym.

The wine of course has no calories in it. Unlike the grape juice that is VERY sugary. I put on 1kg with my last communion. The communion without wine I feel a little less connected on as well. 

For the second thing. A previous blog I wrote called Conflicts in world views, applying the lessons learnt. I think the premise of this post is correct. But I think I have applied it wrongly.

It is interesting that in that post I summarised another idea that I eventually went back on. I summarised two wrong teachings there. As though highlighting that I was basically out of tune. 

This is one of those blogs where I carefully concealed where I had gotten the teaching. The tarot card idea at the beginning is actually an image from a dream. Not my amazing creativity! Those tarot cards are always my dream images. The dream itself had me using Stefans kind of thought process and not being able to grip Law of One concepts.

Pretty direct right? But now I think that was a metaphor. Previously, from my dreams I have determined that either Pearl Davis or Stefan Molyneux is causing an inner conflict for me. I did not know which one and have come off one or the other at various times trying to figure this out. 

The dream giving me exactly what the apparent issue was seems almost like wilfull deception. As though that deeper part of me is treating me like a genius. Because to have thought that was only a metaphor early on would have been to have thought like a genius I think. But now, over time. The guidance that staying off Stefan Molyneux is good has not borne out. Pearl on the other hand. I do not need to think about girls and their manipulations that much at the moment, they are not part of my life. There is also something wrong there, a bad feeling I get that is backed up by small things. I am not allowed in her chat for example because one of the moderators has a grudge against me. There are just a few things giving me a 'bad feeling' there. 

So, everything I said in that October 27th blog. The whole argument I laid out. Is not in fact correct. But a misinterpretation as I currently see it.