The invisible laws.

Not much to say, recovering from surgery. It was technically just a procedure. But it was quite a bit worse than I was expecting. It was not made clear to me what this was going to be like. 

I have gone back on all my things of self discipline. Caffeine free pepsi max. Alcohol (Stayed awake 34 hours last night, I needed it! But I think alcohol is less damaging when I am not having it for communion. The weekly top up of poison was never good I don't think.) 

But it is over. I was afraid of that procedure subtly. Subconsciously. For a long time. It is amazing how our subconscious has this subtle grip over us. 

The last thing I was thinking about from the Law of One was this:

Questioner: The instrument has determined that the unwise use of her will is its use without the joy and faith components and constitutes martyrdom. Would Ra comment on that, please?

Ra: I am Ra. We are pleased that the entity has pondered that which has been given. We would comment as follows. It is salubrious for the instrument to have knowledge which is less distorted towards martyrdom and which is rich in promise. The entity which is strong to think shall either be strong to act or that which it has shall be removed. Thus manifestation of knowledge is an area to be examined by the instrument.

We would further note that balancing which, in this entity’s case, is best accomplished in analysis and manifestation seated with the contemplation of silence, may be strengthened by manifested silence and lack of routine activity. We may go no further than this recommendation of regularized leisure, and desire that the entity discover the fundamental truths of these distortions as it will.

A kind of use it or lose it proposition. A kind of frightening proposition. I often am taken down by health issues and I forget things I want to do. Like music practice or meditation. I wonder if my social skills meaningfully atrophy in relative isolation. I am sure a lot of people have similar fears in this busy life. 

Two thoughts I have had from this. One which is generally social. One which is personal. 

This is not the first time that the Law of One information has highlighted some subtle spiritual law and I have wondered how this effects people in the day to day. I imagine there is a great many of these. This one is more obvious and grounded. If we do not use something obviously it will atrophy. But there are others that are more subtle, and apparently, very powerful. 

For instance, if you imagine how divorced guys, sometimes don't seem to take much of a breath. Don't fall out with the whole 'marriage' thing, and are married again within a few years. I wonder, if there is a law like this that needs to be satisfied? Like, with that example. Maybe the guy has a lot of love to express and cannot do that if he is prevented from doing so with his ex wife. Perhaps there are other supports that are not available. 

Then rather than what a person commenting might assume he should do. Like, analyse his past or something to come to better decisions. Actually, the energy itself is compelling just jumping into the next thing. Like, imagine this person was fourth density, as an example?

I wonder sometimes a lot of things like this. There were various times when a thing became compulsive due to universal laws. Like the fifth density negative entity eventually flipping positive. Because Entropy was compelling it. 

Reading enough of the Law of One, and backing that up with the Human Design. I have often come to the conclusion that we have very, very little ability to change the world from... exactly what it is. 

I wonder how many past events this relates to? Like, does it relate to previous relationships and things. Was one of my parents compelled into something by some invisible law that still can't be understood or identified? Not even events. Emotions. Other things?

And personally. 

I write this as I am, like I said, recovering from surgery. I do feel like I am in a bit of a mess. No prayer, no meditation etc. My routine is off. So I might not be able to apply this. 

But for me personally. I realise my most valued skill is my creation of music.  

I realise that half an hour playing music, with no TV on or anything. Has a really strong, positive, effect. I often used to play scales and other things with the TV on. Complex guitar skills. But playing in silence is my connection to the higher forces I did not know I had access to.