Struggling a bit to write new blog posts.
After the last one, the one about "overdoing it". I made another post about stopping prayer. But this, even though the case was a very good one. With intelligent points I still can't disprove. Was definitely incorrect, and I was rewarded with extremely unpleasant, cold, and demonic feelings.
A little confused now. One of the issues I think with spirituality in general, is what I talked about in said last post. There are a lot of tools. But there is not really a good justification for just not using them all. And that is not a practical way to live in the world.
As I have said before, I have a model I have put together from the human design. The two south nodes are the things I am making an effort to put into my life at the moment. The conscious South Node, gate 46. Is exercise. Going to the gym. The unconscious South Node. Gate 48. The practical guidance from this is to watch a bit of content on narcissists/ psychopaths every day.
The reason for this, pretending for a moment there is a conscious reason. Is that my mind automatically clicks back to assuming the best of people to a truly uncomfortable extent. I don't have the button of "this person is a dick" really. I don't have a strong emotion disliking someone. So I tend to just kind of forget if they have done nasty things. And just try and talk to them like nothing happened.
One of the people, although they are not in my real life, one virtual relationship this relates to is David Wilcock. I watched a Steven Cambian video on him the other day and I had done it again. I have, in my mind, simply assumed the best of him because I have forgotten all the nasty stuff he has done. Such as his neglect of his dog.
I know that watching narcissism videos every day helps. Even though I don't have a relationship like that in my life at the moment. I also get inner corrections. If I am thinking that someone from my past is worse than they actually are. I will figure out that that is not correct.
Doing exercise is a thing that takes priority over every other thing. I was very tired after my last bit of exercise in the gym and it wasn't much. My whole body had to prioritise this thing. The human design model I have put together gives me a bit of guidance as to the right things to do. Without overdoing it. I have conscious North Node. Meditation and philosophy types of things. Unconscious North Node. Music. The incarnation cross. Which is all the spiritual stuff.
So aside from that, there is not that much to say as I kind of have the answer. While on X, I do think of insights into female psychology and such, and even when reading the Law of One yesterday I got a bit of an insight. But I am under no illusion anyone cares what I have to say on that particular subject, so I have no desire to make a post about that. A similar thing with insights into the Law of One and how that can be converted to a practical philosophy.
At a certain point, status is needed to speak, because without status, a person probably is not going to be listened to.
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