Overdoing it.

I am sure we have all done this. To make it worse. I was reading the passage in the Law of One and read the exact passage that refers to this. "It is inappropriate to move faster than ones feet may walk". Session 79.

We all have moments where we try and do to much in attempting to improve ourselves if that is our habit. Most people into the Law of One, Human Design, Dream Interpretation etc. Are on the ongoing quest to improve themselves.  

So yesterday:

• Communion.
• Prayer.
• Meditation.
• Read a Law of One session. 
• Use of a crystal.
• Use of a pyramid.
• Affirmations 

Bliss, was the result of all this. Utter Bliss. A warm feeling of security. A certain ease at communicating with others without resorting to... politics say, without even the instinct to draw off something like politics. Which is where my mind goes when I have run out of things to say. Also, a practical improvement and feeling of health, and even symptoms. Which I liked. 

BUT also, at the same time. There is nowhere for the energy to go. It feels good, but why? There is also a slightly disoriented tiredness. 

I am not doing any of these today. Even prayer. Since the feeling is very strong, but I need it to wear off a little.

For me, I imagine everyone has a set core of things to do. Prayer, meditation and reading the Law of One is what I will restrict it to for myself.

I am wondering partly the difference between me and Carla Rueckert who channeled the Law of One and that I think used all of these. I am not in the position she was in. She was being supported for a reason. So she could channel. She would also be a different kind of person to me. In that she was kind of asked by others to do things in a sense. People came to her or asked her to channel. But for me, a lot of my process is figuring out how to direct my energy. What to put said energy into. 

There is also this which is a potential theory as to why affirmations might work differently for the two of us:

The above is Carla Rueckerts chart. The below is mine:

  

Ra Uru Hu once said that people with an undefined ego/ will (the small red triangle), were the ones that needed all the 'law of attraction' kind of stuff. Perhaps affirmations comes into that. 

Perhaps with a defined will power, the affirmations are not needed because the ego is already focused in the desired direction? Perhaps not, just trying to put it together here.

Another point though is a non technical point. The Law of One was very specific that an overly technical perspective is not correct. Those are the technical reasons that MIGHT be correct. The practical reason though, is that with all that stuff, I did not have time to play music. And if I did it long term, I would have less tendency to do health things like the gym. 

As powerful and apparently positive as it is, getting "blissed out" (with very positive mechanisms rather than meth or something!). As much as it might be someone elses legitimate path. For me, there is an emptiness at the end of the day because music feels like a practical real world achievement. A practical real world benefit that helps me the next day and the day after. In a few years I can open a book of written songs and appreciate one or appreciate the skill increase after having played scales. In a few years, how many meditations or affirmations I have done might not matter. Meditation is powerful and positive. But the thing is with layering on all these different tools is that, they are just that, tools. Not an actual achievement. So it would make more sense to only use enough tools as actually practically improves something real world.