As I read Ra Uru Hu various times. I am becoming more and more sure that he didn't get some things right.
I want to expand on this. I want to put forward and explanation separating human design as a process, and the philosophy that follows it, unconsciously even. This piece of wisdom, this analogy I want to express, also applies to a great deal of other things I believe and is relevant to a lot of other areas. Power dynamics, narcissistic wisdom, philosophy itself etc. But the amount of things I want to express is at odds with my ability to express them. Partly this comes from lack of appropriate outer world response. My youtube channel, which is where those ideas would be expressed. Has not gotten many views. My last two videos in fact had zero! The one before that had five.
Like, as far as life plans go, I can imagine one where me expressing that wisdom would have more beneficial effects (to me, so I can continue and expand the work) might be positive. But we can't argue against God I suppose!
I had a dream once where I was giving a lecture on the Law of One and some other connecting bits. It was a good dream. I am not saying I should be doing exactly that. I might be destined for something else completely, like music, or something in health.
I think if I did express that information though, and it were picked up and absorbed by people, it would open up the human design. It would show that these are the precise areas the human design gets very right, but this other area here is where a lot of assumptions have been made (and the bits that are right has given the system the mystique of infallibility). So people can work towards the correct information in those areas where I believe assumptions have been made.
That is the case I think with some things I am thinking through. My conscious Saturn is in gate 5.4. My unconscious Saturn is in gate 26.4.
Most of the written understandings on these two placements do not seem to be correct. It vcry well might be so I suppose the jury is still out in a sense. But I will describe how it doesn't seem to be correct.
Firstly, I watch the hexagrams on peoples charts. I did this before I got seriously into human design when it was just the astrology. I noticed, when I had been attacked by people. Literally ganged up on, and moaned at by people. That the conflict I had with them. Not just the immediate conflict but the one that had stretched on for years. Was very well shown by their Mars placement.
For instance, my sister that I talked about in the last post has Mars in Pisces, and the way that conflict has gone down definitely satisfies the definition of 'passive aggression'. I had a friend I got in political arguments with. Not even direct arguments but just issues on this level, like, he was a real believer in race politics. He has Mars in Aquarius.
Another element of these interactions though I think is Saturn. When we have conflict with people, Saturn is involved I believe. This does not mean that Saturn is always right I don't think. Perhaps if we incorrectly label someone as being worthy of fighting with we initialise our own Saturn at them. But I have noticed it as a pattern. I have even seen it's activation in completely unjust behaviour, abuses of power.
So to me then. This probably is very true of me. My conscious Mars in the gate 4.1. is very much a gift for conflict. Because it has the style of reasoned debate. It is a big part, I believe, of what connects me to Stefan Molyneux's work with his conscious Mars in the same hexagram. When there is conflict, I casually discuss and challenge it. I usually come off as the unaggressive one and since the other person is usually pretending to be less aggressive than they actually are it really gets to them. To get an even handed response back that simply questions their own - when they see their own as morally superior.
But Saturn is a different matter. The function of Saturn anyway is a little mysterious. Ra Uru Hu's own statements on it didn't make much sense to me. He seemed to describe it as sometimes functioning and sometimes not and that leaves a lot of open questions. He describes it as giving a punishment to the person if they act bad and not giving that punishment if they do not.
Not how I have experienced it though. As I just stated it seems to be relevant in our interaction with others. It doesn't seem like a purely internal thing to me. Quite frequently in conflict I summarise how the other person has behaved over a long period of time. Like, for a friend of mine I summarised he had cancelled about 20 times and various other things. This might be the 26.4 showing. The other person tended to argue on current events. One of them did have the 26 and he did mention the past, this person is in fact, very obsessed with the past and constantly brings it up. He has the 26 twice. But my articulation was generally better.
This is at odds with Ra Uru Hu's summary of the 26.4.
What Ra Uru Hu says about the 5.4 is that it is a person who has a set of unusual patterns. Those patterns lead to genius. By accepting their patterns genius shows. If they are to not accept these patterns. They get health difficulties.
My life at the moment is at odds with that in that my natural pattern is kind of working against me. Chocolate was terrible for this. I could not fix my circadian rhythm with chocolate. I'm very sensitive and the caffeine just switches it off. Even if I have it in the early morning.
Where I am now is trying to get my natural pattern back to some semblance of normality for very important reasons. I go to sleep about 6am most nights. I have not been able to get to sleep before that, even recognising it would be desireable to do so. Also, I NEED to get to the gym. I badly need to get to the gym. Partly for health reasons again. I really love the gym as well.
For me personally, this sleep pattern of mine is stopping me going to the gym. I need to eat earlier in the day than I am waking up to stabilise my blood sugar. I have had to cancel a few gym sessions from bad bloodsugar, which is linked to late eating.
It seems to me the human design would say that going to sleep at 6am is my natural pattern, and it comes, I think, from what seems to be Ra Uru Hu's theories which seem like a kind of belief in inherent divinity. We are all perfect and anything that happens to us is 'conditioning'.
I don't know what the ultimate truth of this is. I don't know if the bad karma for me here was from eating the chocolate. Or the lack of discipline has upset my sleep pattern. But I think it very unlikely that Ra Uru Hu's own write up of this is correct.
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