Exhaustion and the Law of Free Will.

On my last post. I am really interested to see what happens on Monday. 

What will probably happen is nothing. The UK government will have put their stamp on social media companies in some manner. But it won't be obvious to the user. It will become obvious also that I have been getting paranoid about this.

But also, I suppose it could be that various social medias suddenly do want ID. 

Not what I wanted to mention. I have low momentum on this blogging since I am wondering about the Online Safety Act. But I also have something to say. 

Politics.

I am fairly right wing. I used to be heavy conspiracy theorist but now, I have come away from that. What I have not come away from though is politics as a whole and that's because my interpretation of politics has slowly shifted from being something "out there", to something that is more central to a persons everyday life and values.

Whether someone is left or right to me, says something about how they view the world in their everyday, most mundane relationships. 

The left tends to believe in feminism. Which is relevant to everyday relationships in a very big way. Tends to believe the mainstream narrative on many things including medical. Tends to believe in immigration, which was once an obscure political point that was, again, "out there", but since then I have worked and interacted with immigrants. 

At the core of this is the belief in redistributive taxation and the initiation of force in relation to taxation. If I have a reason to ask someone what their value system is. If they are left wing I can say with some confidence that they are not averse to the initiation of force as an example. 

Argument.

I have invested so much into these ideas now that they are instinctual. I can ask a question along these lines or talk about my experience without fear. I am not aware I am stepping on toes often. 

The trouble is, and this was even before I got to such an instinctual place. Even when I was aware that something was frowned upon socially and felt a little reluctance to talk about it. And talked about it very carefully. I have found that the left are unable to offer any argument against my points. Like, nothing. 

I remember someone pro EU talking to me about Brexit. I mentioned the fisheries policy, and asked him if he knew what it was. He said no. I explained the waters around Britain are divided into 14 separate pieces and belong to different EU nations. 

He didn't know. He wasn't curious about this. I don't know if this little discussion brought me backroom gossip that worked to sabotage me. But, conversations just like it evidently have. 

But even more than the overt examples, where people have taken these things up against me directly. Never with any particular coherence. There is another pattern which is that people can't argue, make not one single point against my points, which might simply by my experience. But still go completely passive aggressive. Like a complete wall. 

And it is SO WARING. 

Free Will.

I have realised recently with some online examples that I have offended "free will" by trying to push my perspective. I am working with quite fine laws. I would not claim to be a super profound person able to work with archetypes like some sort of white Magician. But I will claim that passages in the later parts of the Law of One that talk about powerful concepts such as that, do have relevance in my life. 

I feel I am working with quite fine energies and offending subtle rules like this can throw me off. I have before talked to groups of people online. Come up against this wall. This wall of cognitive leftism. I need a name for it. Even if just for myself.  

I have just realised that what was probably happening, is that when pushing this. I was offending free will. These people are leftist and are not interested in what I have to say. So even if it is not TECHNICALLY against free will. It is against a positively polarised interpretation of free will. Since the positively polarised definition of free will does take into account what people want. It is not just the technical requirements.

People don't call it out when you say these things. Because they are leftists. They are passive aggressive. And they probably don't have a legitimate justification for it that can be written down. But if I say something that is non left. When a lot of people see it they are probably emotionally responding to it. 

I do acknowledge that wall feeling. That another comment or thread I start might not get comments. The passive aggression. But there is no reason to not continue posting often. I don't really care what they think.

Nevertheless, there are consequences for breaking that spiritual rule. 

Human Design.

Back to my human design: 

 

At this point in my life. I am starting to see a bit of a point to some of it. Or at least draw some conclusions. Whether they are right in the grand scheme of things I cannot know. 

I feel that during a lot of my life when I was really ill. A lot of the 'design'. The red stuff. Was not properly active in a way, and I was relying on the Black stuff. The personality. A lot more. While I think this is a common pattern, I also think it is rare that the design is as switched off as it has been with me. 

That means that a lot of my experience has come through the 11-56. The only full channel of the personality. It has been doing a lot of the heavy lifting and it is related to my spiritual beliefs and such. My spiritual learning. Such as the Law of Free Will.

Which I think is shown by the gate 56 specifically. I think this lesson is something in my chart and that I was meant to learn. Or meant to experience might be another way of putting it. 

It is a real sense of weakness, the illness I had. But now I feel I am moving into strength more. I went to the gym an hour or so ago. I did a new muscle group workout. 

Strength. 

Stefan Molyneux says that if you do not lift weights. You do not know what your true opinions are. That your true opinions only show up when you are in a strong position because according to evolutionary psychology. If you are not strong, you kind of unconsciously yield to the group consensus.

I recall consciously thinking in a previous job. That I could not oppose the entire group of office workers. There were about 20 of them. They all hated me, or were not willing or capable of standing up to the in group as such that it didn't matter practically even if they did like me. 

But I feel I am starting to oppose that mindset now. My illness has meant that I have yielded a little to the group in a sense by even indulging the idea of those spiritual forums I mentioned. But as I do exercise. As I get stronger. I simply have no need to. 

My entire human design is very keyed to withdrawal, even my conscious Sun. This might be one of those times where that is a good lesson. 

There are many points that this might correlate to. Many other things I could jump off to. But I think that is enough for now. I have actually been thinking over a more profound article than this. But this is the one that was important to write right now I think.