The path is straight and narrow.

I have made a massive error in my spiritual seeking.

It was an error made on a subtle thought process, as usual. But the title is the advice that is relevant to this specific experience, I believe. 

The term, 'the path is straight and narrow'. Is relevant to what I have discovered in my spiritual seeking. I believe, in general. People have a somewhat fixed nature. The way their fixed nature might manifest is they may be very airy and flexible. But people, have a core of themselves that remains the same.

This core is who they are, but it becomes what they do. An example. A person that is excessively spiritual gets up every day and does spiritual things. They don't jump off and do non spiritual things one day. A person that is more focused on the grounded fleshy reality of life. A 'worker'. Gets up and works.

We each have different things that we are programmed for. Some people are programmed, as the law of One says about Carla, for 'the perception of beauty'. Or for heavy amounts of exercise and joy, and /or psychotherapy etc.

We each have spiritual things that fill them up. For me, as a seeker, sometimes it is a temptation to abandon the spiritual and wisdom based things I have ascertained to be my path. 

This is what I have done. My straight and narrow path is spiritual things. The human design and Law of One. Dream interpretation. Meditation etc. Which, if done consistently, eventually leads to positive change. Change is what a lot of people want on the spiritual path. Improvement. But change does not come, in my thinking, from actually changing your behaviour. It actually comes from doing well enough at repeated behaviours, at what you are meant to be doing, to get results. To reach conclusions. 

It is the inverse of that saying, 'The definition of madness is doing the same thing again and again and expecting different results'. No, for me, eventually my shift came after six or so years of dream interpretation. I get steady insights through my path. It is my straight and narrow path. It doesn't go outside of the Law of One, dream interpretation etc. 

But I did go outside of them. I have a path that is I suppose, lightly Christian. I keep getting insights into various aspects of Christian life. In my own way often (Like this exact post!) I do communion. There are things about Christianity and Communion that I can't explain. There are effects that go beyond what seems rational to me. 

So it seems obvious that if I were to improve or move forward, I should deepen my relationship with Christianity? As a conscious thing I can do. You would think so, but no. 

I did try that, and as part of that. As part of the whole "Jesus is an Essene" thing, from Aaron Abke. I tried going off meat as much as I could (I had a little Mackerel). Now I am paying for it. 

Previously to this I have known of many different serious health problems people have gotten from going vegan. Both in my real life and online. The problems can be very serious. People can die from veganism. 

So I prayed the Essene prayers. I tried to be vegetarian and this was NOT the right path. It is not my straight and narrow path. 

... and this, I should have known. I have found my path and I need to stick with it. It is a frustrating error for me to have made. It is a valuable lesson though, in that I hope I am not seduced off my "straight and narrow path" again!