Energy.

It must be terrifying being of the negative polarity. Partly because the negative polarity can't produce it's own energy. I mean, in this life sometimes I feel I can't. But that's not an outgrowth of my philosophy. Theoretically I should be able to think 'I am with the Creator' or do some energy work on myself, and feel my own energy. As coming from the Creator. Also perhaps things are naturally given sometimes to positively polarised people to the extent they have positive karma.

But the negative polarity has to receive energy, or steal it. So without that ability to produce their own energy. It must be terrifying to fall from a place of power because then you won't be able to produce your own energy and WON'T HAVE ANY ENERGY. Wow, scary. Although to an extent most of us are not highly enough service to others polarised in order to lack fear of losing status anyway, so it's all a murky game.

Other dimensions, but lets keep them out.

I have to say that recently I have noticed more and more, it is like the 'dimensions' are shifting or something is happening. I liken this, and our whole experience with the conspiracy theory area. Is to do with Uranus and Pluto. Which is having it's last of seven squares in March of 2015.

Weirdness

Well. Weird karmic rules still abound. Now I have created this blog I am just as compulsively writing on it. And even though it strikes me that I have no readers now. I believe I will have them in the future, and if I don't, well, people at bring4th have this web address. Some of them know I will be on here. So it is technically a service to others. It will grow eventually to quality information I hope, and if no one is reading this well, the service was offered. The fact that it wasn't taken isn't really relevant.

David Wilcock said something about ascension and so that is what I have been thinking about a little bit. Ascension. Wouldn't that be great. It also has jumped into my ideas of densities because I believe the fifth density entity in the Law of One trio was harvestable to sixth. And they can do this whenever they like. It is at their choice. I wonder if a lot of David Wilcocks followers are fifth. And there is some sort of grand clock that is laying the function so that we can all leave this place.

My life mission having been pretty simple then. Talk about the Law of One, stay with that information. Perhaps my time on bring4th was more noble than I believed and was what I am really doing here. While my attempts to be a musician for instance was the thing that was the real distraction.

Perhaps not, perhaps life will continue or there will be some extremely annoying rule like you have to be grounded and happy on earth before you can ascend. Maybe David's stuff will prove to be not that relevant but I strongly, strongly do not believe that to be true. It would be interesting and loving to go into a loving world, be looked after and have constant happiness. But I do not believe that to be the case. From inside I feel myself more like the 'clock' I described and that there will always be something produced from me, this wisdom 'potentiating' that really is a little disjointed from the rules of 'love.' Don't get me wrong it is for the love, and it includes love and has nothing but the peace and happiness of others in mind, through truth. But the social rules, all the variations of 'love' just don't quite match up with it.

Mark David Chapman.

This is an interesting 'no go' kind of area. Negative synchronicities.

I first heard that negative synchronicities were possible in something written by a woman called Carissa Conti. There are a few times when I have experienced synchronicity that was questionable.

One of them has been when I was reading the q'uo readings and something came up about 'the Creator is destructive as well as creative.' This was quite a pressurising piece of knowledge. It came up twice, I disagreed with it first time and then it came up a second. It is the single piece of information that I used to be angry at a girl which was later where a lot of my problems centered around.

Another one was when I started Reiki and I started getting synchronicities all of the time around this girl. This drove me mad and put me through hell. In fact, since I have done Reiki my dreams haven't been the same. Anyway, I would walk around the house and get these synchronicities CONSTANTLY. I remember once in the house avoiding doing anything at all, then switching on the TV and seeing her name in relation to something. Later doing it again and seeing an actress with her form, with her name, an actor similar to me on the picture together.

Regardless of if I actually did want to be with this girl. And she was SEX ON LEGS, a cancerian, very sweet. The fact is it wasn't going to help me to be in a state of extreme panic and being assaulted by these synchronicities.

I should mention here that I did dabble in some things that could lightly be considered 'demonic'. Which is probably what caused some of this. I originally briefly did a magick ritual on her to get her interested in me. Which she was, obsessively, for years. I don't feel this girl was negative at all and don't have a frame of reference under which to place these experiences. Looking up 'the dangers of Reiki' on the internet though isn't happy reading. However, some of these sources seem to think everything is demonic. You get some more personal anecdotes though.

Regardless of what the problem is. I see the solution as potentially prayer. meditation, and my own energy work. I have quite naturally been able to see auras independent of the Reiki attunement. I am suspicious of this healing crisis that people in Reiki talk about. I had a suicide attempt when I was young that I think, but am not sure, gives me headaches that negs can use to manipulate my behaviour.

In the Now.

Well, to balance the anger of the last few posts. I just wanted to add in some genuine loving appreciation.

One episode of 'In the Now' with Carla Rueckert talked about psychic greeting. And how we should focus on what love means for us, or what we are living for, and would die for.

This has given me a genuine connection to something that I connect to, sometimes when I need protection. I say to myself 'I open/ challenge' in the light and love of the One Infinite Creator.' Anyone currently reading this will know where that comes from, and that's what I love.

And that's pretty priceless.

L/l research. Research into 'light and love'.

Wow. If you're reading this you are probably from my bring4th blog. Because that's the only place that I've talked about this blog. And if you are from bring4th then you already know what happened.

I hope David Wilcock and co. Read that blog, since he already knows what assholes they are.

Still angry obviously. Actually having a blog and readers is pretty much priceless. There is no way I can repay the honour of having written and being able to talk to readers who were of the rough vibration of that place.

But, also, giving up on my teachings of that place would not be a 'true service'. Man I'm still angry. But I'm starting to move to the place where I'm kind of upset. Upset at having given energy (or some might say 'taking' energy) and still at the end of it being treated like dirt and looked down on. The last thing I said to Austin on the emails we exchanged was that he was using the q'uo teachings in a dogmatic fashion. I liked my insult to the 'questioners' of my motives. 'Go fucking die'.

Anyway, what's next. The sons of the Law of One library, now THAT'S a resource. I was reading up on auras a second ago. Although those sorts of skills aren't my priority. I had wanted to do something with those sorts of entities but that is a bit murky now.

In a very real way I don't believe in healing. I don't believe that you can go through a 'change' and experience things differently. I tend to think you just move out of 'vibrational resonance' with the problem. Which you are being challenged to solve or not solve. And that using the energies of the moment to deal with the problems is the way to undo the blockage.

But I rather naively hope that my path is 'guided' and that things will work out well. That the positive forces will work with me in order to bring my true self to the fore. I mean, why wouldn't they? Have I failed my life challenges so badly that there is no point? Is there other things I am not seeing.

Moments of doubt coming in the left ear. But the general vibration of such things leads me to think I shouldn't listen to that.

Let's end on a Law of One quote. That sounds good. To stay in resonance with these teachings. I shall try and learn this for the next few hours at least:

You are every thing, every being, every emotion, every event, every situation. You are unity. You are infinity. You are love/light, light/love. You are. This is the Law of One.
Kind of throws densities out the water then.

Peace out!

How things change.

Well. I came back on here again. And it feels right.

It's strange the experiences that change us. Someone said to me recently over email something about Carla and Llresearch and something in me just repelled at that moment. Completely against any conscious thought.

Yes, feels right being here. Perhaps the energy had abandoned me at the other place anyway.