Struggling with health issues a bit, which is what this will be about. But it will retain it's focus on metaphysics.
German New Medicine.
Firstly:
Youtube: Alvin De Leon: Constipation (May 25th 2018):
https://youtu.be/xLhV_1TxJ_8?si=Q_WXIPuFlrebWcp5
German New Medicine is a modality of healing in a sense. The founder, Dr Hamer. Found correlations between things in the brain and the formation of Cancer. He followed on, with an understanding that the formations in the brain, were emotional issues that then became Cancer.
From this he created an entire secondary system of medicine of sorts. Of health. The model is that a lot of our illnesses are kind of adaptions in a sense. The analogy is when a mouse escapes a cat, it exerts itself to the extent of getting asthma.
When a person feels threatened in their environment, their bladder might expand so they can mark their territory. With a heavy dose of EvoPsych. The idea is similar to the general new age ideas of how health and healing work.
For me then, as the four minute video discusses. The idea behind constipation is when you experience something that you are unable to digest.
This could be many things for me. It could be that I have lost a lot of my life to my disability that I had not really realised until recently. But I don't think that's it. Even though I have realised it recently. I have to process that I won't have a normal life whereas before, I always used to believe it would "work out".
But it might not be that, I have an idea of what it might be. But I have to explain something else beforehand. Which relates to this kind of psychological thing, and David Wilcock, which I have recently covered.
Psychological madness.
One of the things I experienced when I first got into the Law of One, after about three years or so. Was an incredibly strong belief, that felt like it was forced onto me. Like an insight. That I was Don Elkins in a past life.
This was probably following on from my belief in David Wilcock. Who used to talk about himself being Edgar Cayce.
I am not making the case for me being him, I do not believe that and I will explain why. But I do need to explain a little why it made so much sense to me at the time. At the time I had gotten very obsessed with, a seemingly mutual obsession. With a girl that I worked with. Who, kind of stalked or harrassed me, and went off with another guy after that.
I had very little power in that place. In the supermarket I was working at. I just need to defend myself a little from the very possible implication, to anonymous readers, that I was in fact the stalker. I actually did not have the power to do anything in that place. I was told where to go, the specific checkout to sit on. I was told what time I could go on a break.
This girl on the other hand, did not have a lot of limitations there. Her family worked there. She had a LOT of friends there. This was the first time that I was socially ostracised from an entire social group. The entire time I worked there I did not see anyone outside work even though there was a huge social life there that everyone was invited to and I had got on with a lot of them informally.
She also had access to the cameras, and could choose what she did, where she went in the store, at what times. There was a whole secondary office that I never saw but a lot of the staff disappeared into.
The girl drove me nuts a bit. There is some that I don't want to say. But I will just summarise she was very obsessed. If I went in five minutes early or five minutes late she would always be there. Because she was watching me on the cameras. She would often be there in my breaks etc. She was setting up a kind of clown show where I would be in a position to approach her.
Yes, this all sounds nuts I know.
Nevertheless, this woman was a Cancer. The guy she ended up going with had a very specific and relevant synchronicity that tied him to the llresearch group. The story of Carla, Jim and Don seemed to me to be repeating in my own life. After years of being at this supermarket. Staying, really having had my life messed up in a way. I had this dream where I was fighting a serial killer. One I had seen on TV that tortured children. Blood slipped over my hands in my Grannies room (at the time, recently dead), and I opened a letter explaining I was Don Elkins. Then, and this seemed to confirm it to me. Supermarket girl left, and I left soon after, seeing no reason to be there.
The effect of the negative:
This... is a powerful trick from the negative. I am sure of this. I will discuss a little later what the implications are of past lives and such and what is or is not real. But this specific example, and probably many others to. I believe is purely a trick of the negative.
What has been created is then an avatar. A figure. An internal figure. As you might use in the Internal Family Systems framework. Which can become part of the psyche. But can feed into the psyche from wherever and whomever created it. I believe this was a negative entity. And rather like reading the Law of One feeds back to the positive sources that authored it. As an internal figure created by the negative. It goes back to the source that authored it.
This is what I attribute to some deeply, deeply negative events that followed in my life.
The positive break down of this.
There is a problem here. I do not know if this is just my way of processing or is a Universally good way of processing. But in my belief. Past lives are never worth exploring. Perhaps in the sense of the Michael Newton books that always seemed kind of positive to me. But as it relates to us normal people. Trying to find these things through meditation, dreams or hypnosis. The problem with past lives is that they are something that can never be confirmed or denied by our objective senses. Which is really all we can ever know.
For this reason, either for me in general, or, as I said, universally. I think a Stefan Molyneux style of philosophy is important. For some matters, not all matters, atheism is needed. Since so little of those new age types of things can be known for sure. There is a part of life where first principles need to be thing we go by.
But this brings up a problem. A lot of theological/ new age kinds of stuff is stuff that you kind of hold in your mind. You believe and you hope that it is real. Like energy healing. Like the teachings of Jesus. But without the ability to objectively prove it, it stays in the area of "faith". It is part of your faith.
Where it was a bad idea to ever have the idea of being someone in a past life and definitely, to get resultant beliefs from that. It is also a bad strategy, in my view, to then say that you know for definite that you were not a past life memory. So you're stuck. Luckily I had no one really discuss this with me. The worst thing possible would have been for some llresearch people to have believed me back then, on the quiet perhaps a small amount did, a small amount didn't, and the majority simply didn't care, or didn't know.
These beliefs are DEEP. A belief in a past life, and people following you through into your life. Like David Wilcock talks about with Edgar Cayce. Which also reflects into my own beliefs around my life at the time.
The slow collapsing of beliefs.
As the Law of One says in session 18.5 I think it is. On the path of the adept "Nothing has to be overcome, that which is not needed falls away".
One of the things I linked with this Law of One stuff was my half sister. My disagreement with her seems to me to have started at the same time as the constipation. The thing that I am not able to digest is perhaps that we really do not connect, that she really doesn't like me.
One of the horrible things I have found with going on red pill information (Pearl Davis is my favourite Red Pill Creator), is that women are... actually like that. They are actually like how a lot of those creators describe them. The modern zeitgeist is in a lot of ways emphatically against this reality and with a great deal of zeal tries to push against it. I sometimes feel a temporary relief when I start to hear a convincing case against the red pill information. It is always short lived. Soon after disproven. When you hear women saying exactly those things in real life, and acting in those ways. It is a little upsetting.
Growing up with a single mother (and women have an idealised vision of their own gender). Without a father to pick holes in that idealisation. It does go quite deep the blue pill reasoning.
My half sister is astrologically very similar to Carla. A stellium Cancer. Similar in a lot of ways. But, she is not, and my brush with this reincarnation kind of belief system, has projected an image over her that is different to the person who is actually before me. The real person that is, or rather was, in my life.
So my conceptual framework that related to the Don Elkins beliefs. The fake belief. Has conflicted with the real world objective, but subconscious, understanding of who my sister is and her psychology.
Conclusion.
This has been a very powerful article I believe. I think the spiritual energy is raising for Easter (as I write this I am eating one of my two Easter Eggs. There has been a family celebration April 1st!). I have wanted to articulate something on that Don Elkins madness for a long time but it hasn't come together. I think talking against David Wilcock has been part of why it has now. Or perhaps since I messaged Llresearch with that article.
This are interesting thoughts aren't they? But I have a very real medical issue. People can die from constipation. The problem is getting slowly, progressively, worse. I have a new stronger prescription to pick up.
The test of a theory such as German New Medicine is; can it actually heal something in the real world? Can I change my emotions to understand something about my sister, or whatever the "indigestible morsel" is?
In my view, I think what this comes down to, taking this framework. Is music. When I play music, it is an emotional expression unlike any other. Journalling, meditation, this blog, maybe visualisation. Loads of life has a way to express some kind of thing. But it is not quite like music. Music is raw emotion in a way I don't experience in other parts of life.
When writing about this very subject I came away with good lyrics "If I wanted to enrage you I would take an interest in you". The strange feeling of hostility that comes about if I try and show any warmth towards my sister. The utter confusing logic of the situation.
But, well firstly, the constipation itself, the stomach aches, are stopping the music. But also, is it really likely that I will make loads of music, it will express or process said emotions, and the constipation will end?
That doesn't seem likely to me. But nevertheless, with the degree of powerless against illness that most of us experience. I still think it is worth exploring these ideas!
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