The final part.
I am quite excited about this. It being a post I am going to lay out in a way as to recognise the profundity of studying the human design.
I am going to talk about my experience with my unconscious Saturn in the gate 26.4. As I talked about in the immediately preceeding post. This is a far deeper experience. It references deep inner mechanics since it is on a full channel and so obviously, a defined centre. This channel is really very integral to me. Whereas with the conscious Saturn in gate 5.4. That was on an undefined centre, so was more to do with casual, mundane everyday things. The undefined centres are the centres we experience the world through.
The channel 44-26.
The gate 44-26 is known as the channel of the transmitter. I think. What it is meant to be is a kind of entrepeneurship. The genius, in a sense, that discovers something and is able to advertise that thing and make a lot of money from it.
Be that as it may, once we get into the experience of this channel and hexagrams down to the trigrams. I don't know how much of that description will remain.
I have, in my own personal time, while out walking. Gone through the entirety of the human design in my mind. The outer circle. Figuring out how each hexagram manifests in relation to it's trigrams. This is an interesting thing to do. Go back to basics. It teaches a great deal and if I am ever to get an understanding of the human design that 'goes beyond what is written'. Then it is a necessary exercise.
The gate 44 then, has air as it's lower trigram, and heaven as its upper trigram. In general. The lower trigram is what the gate is, and the higher trigram is the lower trigram being fed through in order to arrive at the completed trigram. An example, is that gate 60, is limitation because the lower trigram is lake, the upper trigram is water. When lake is pressured to become water it becomes aware of its limitations. Another way of thinking with it that I am experimenting with is that the water being above the lake overwhelms the lake. The gate 60 has manifested to me often as overwhelm. But this is just a side bar as to this post itself.
When there is heaven in the upper hexagram, the lower hexagram becomes more itself. It is not subject to anything really just three yang lines of "be more you". Gate 33, heaven above mountain, is retreat, withdrawal. Gate 25, heaven above thunder is innocence. The innocence that tends to lead to a manifesting of the thunder shock in the real world.
Gate 44 then is heaven above air. What the gate 44 is meant to be is ancestral memory of a sort. Then the gate 26 is what is meant to find the pattern. I don't think that is the case. There is something very 'pattern recognition' about air. I think heaven being above air is an instinctual awareness which also finds patterns in things.
The gate 26 then has heaven as its lower trigram. So at its core there is a lot of "substance" and positivity. Then lake is above this. So it takes what is there in heaven and it directs it. Lake always directs.
Attaching to these concepts as feelings I think explains a lot more than a lot of what is written without this theoretical base.
The manifestation.
I think that a lot of the red pill kind of stuff I talk about comes from my channel here. It is also perhaps why I am focused on politics in a sense. Societal patterns. I wonder then, if this stuff is clearly in me. Is it a persons true self or not self that would not like these things within me? When people get angry at that kind of information and kind of seem to want me to "not be". Not be like that. But the chart says I am like that. That god made me like that. So who are you to tell me that?
But it is also a deeper thing. This was my experience of it. I have mentioned before I had a female friend I was close with who was not in a good place mentally; and eventually jumped off a cliff.
So I entered a grieving process. When you are up against something like that suddenly. A lot of things suddenly go by the wayside. For me, I had lulled myself into thinking in a kind of 'normal' way so to speak. But when this happened. I realised I had to go back to my crazy spiritual ways. I went back to the Law of One, and looked at a lot of Near Death Experiences and things.
What happened next is what I will call "gate 44" stuff. No books or anything let me handle grief. I am just too abnormal for normal information to help me. But I did get a few dreams. I wrote a bit of stuff out in a journal (Journalling seems very gate 44 to me. Writing out just the experience of what is and then some part of you naturally finds patterns in it!)
I went through a few different phases. But eventually, two or three years after. I got to the point that I have identified as an end point to some emotional processes.
Anger. I was angry at the illogical of it. Angry at the way she sabotaged herself and all that happened that I don't feel or understand, why it happened, nor will I agree that it needed to happen.
Anger is an ongoing emotion for me and one of the reasons I find it to be incredibly useful. Is that it can be translated physically. With anger, you can get up and do things. Anger can be gotten rid of at the gym and it can motivate you to go to the gym. In general, I think it's manifestation is often a net positive.
The habbening.
But then something interesting happened. Something unexpected. Something that made me wonder briefly if I was some sort of psychopath, but the earlier grieving seems to disagree with that. I woke up soon after and had just completely forgotten, entirely forgotten, this girls existence.
I don't think about her anymore!
It was such an abrupt shift that I wondered if something had gone wrong. I wondered if I needed to journal some sort of blockage. I thought about this a bit. But, then I realised. My unconscious Saturn is in gate 26.4.
After all the pattern recognition and processing in the gate 44, my internal self had come to a conclusion. That I had gained everything I could possibly learn from this situation.
Don't get me wrong, I haven't come to many interesting conclusions, I don't think. But maybe I'm not meant to. Maybe I can't really understand what was going on inside her she was so different to me. Emotionally defined, female, Pisces. A lot of very deep emotion that I just would not normally consider.
It is very very much a manifestation of gate 26.4 in my thinking. Gate 26.4 is literally "censorship". And maybe it has some relevance in that I know a lot of political and conspiracy types of things, and other things that I keep locked away from people. But it felt like this was a good example of this gate and my unconscious Saturn in action.
One thing to note here. My conscious Saturn that I discussed in Part 3. Even though I was not really engaged in "pushing" it. I was very consciously aware of what was going on there. The information about the gate 5.4. was needed to advise me if things were different and others tried to influence me.
But the unconscious Saturn is nothing like that. I would argue that I did still do some "work" for this effect. I thought things over. I journalled. I dream interpreted. But ultimately. I was not aware of the precise processing that created this effect. I simply received the effect and had to go with it. It was all very "unconscious".
Tying it up.
So that to me is how Saturn manifests. It manifests in the sense of the rules surrounding doing a kind of work and it rewards you when you do the work. Or, it correlates with you having done the work well.
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