This is a big, complex thing that I want to explain. In my head I have drafted it out and there have been a lot of elements, a lot of "foundation" that needs to be explained to get to my point out. But, hopefully a lot of foundation will not be necessary.
The point of this. Because it is focused on myself a lot. Is to bring up the point, that sometimes, something we deeply believe is part of our preferred spiritual path, turns out not to be. No matter how many good justifications we have for it. No matter how legitimate it seems.
Cool videos:
These two videos, I think are relevant:
Youtube: Literary Archeology: Satan Hates Mockery. Let's laugh at him and his evil demons. April 29th 2026:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=umLi9CHKKnI
And
Youtube: Vibes Frequencies: Why I stopped being spiritual. April 24th 2026:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZKw4MUW3H14
The first video by Literary Archeology. Describes something that has become overwhelmingly clear recently in my spiritual path. The video hit the nail on the head with the relevant emotion.
The second video I posted. To highlight someone else saying something similar to what I am. I am intending to talk about spirituality and life as seen from a male perspective specifically. I think that is what is going on with this video.
Just quickly, I wanted to say a little niggling issue for me. The Law of One states directly that the difference between male and female is very important. It's the kind of thing that would get you downvoted on reddit. Like acknowledging ANY difference between the genders. Technically of course, leftists like redditors are insane. Even bringing up basic gender differences in a lot of situations is taboo, but it is like ignoring the sun itself. Even if that perspective has no validity, I still wanted to say that.
Coincidentally, or not. The subject that I want to discuss is actually directly relevant to this archetype and point, I think.
Questioner: I can understand, to use a poor term again, the necessity for an archetype for Catalyst or a model for Catalyst of the Mind, but what is the reason for having a blueprint or model for Experience of the Mind other than this simple model of the dual repository for the negative and positive catalyst? It would seem to me that the first distortion of free will would be better served if no model for experience were made. I’m somewhat confused on this. Could you clear it up?
Ra: I am Ra. Your question is certainly interesting and your confusion hopefully productive. We cannot learn/teach for the student. We shall simply note, as we have previously, the attraction of various archetypes to male and to female. We suggest that this line of consideration may prove productive.
Error in flow state.
For a long time I have wanted to get into some sort of flow state. Which I recently managed. Prayers three times a day. I have a long list of mostly made up ones. And meditation per day. I also read the Law of One everyday although that was not deliberately part of this 'flow' state.
Eventually, it seemed that I kind of 'crashed' though. I feel often that I have two major things to get on with. Positive spirituality. North Node of the Gate 25. All this stuff. And music. Gate 21. Design North Node.
The personality North Node. The Meditation stuff. Even potentially the Law of one stuff. Is like my life outside music (part of the tool that gets small tasks done). Music is the passion. Passion can take over the life and mess it up. Like the Van Goghs of the world. But when I got all this stuff aligned. Music was not the priority, and the constant prayer and meditation, with the Law of One as well. Turned everything ridiculously, obsessively, over cerebral. It gave me headaches. I could feel my energy going very high in my body.
Like the first video said though. I had done everything 'technically' perfectly. But I felt very uncomfortable. Very ill at ease. The thing I loved, music. Was not being prioritised.
Protection:
It is difficult for me to square my own identity as a Christian in a sense of the word. I became Christian from paying attention to the Law of One and Carla's narrative on these things. Various experiences, some real pains, drew me closer and closer to that kind of energy. Specifically, when I was in close contact with a Borderline friend who later killed herself, and was falling prey to her manipulations in a sense. Or had become embroiled in them. The situation was opposed by a strong energy in this area and the start of me doing Communion regularly.
At the same time, I am also kind of. Not like a regular Christian. I am an individual thinker. I believe in things like astrology. I work through philosophy as well and do not like hypocrisy. Like people that would support lockdown and then claim the moral highground. I also don't believe in a lot of mainstream Christianity. Like the blood sacrifice. So in a lot of ways I am not Christian at all. The definition is one that people would disagree with if their definition is to get on in "fellowship" with such characters.
It's strange. I relate to these teachings. But I also don't have a full belief in the way that a lot of people seem to experience it. I do have an emotional connection to the Law of One contact. But my emotional connection to "Jesus" is not that strong.
But, when looking for direction. Improving things and getting good results. I have kind of adopted the attitude of increasing my faith in this direction. Of praying and such. Like I said. If you are a Christian, you pray, right?
Male and Female psychology.
By which I mean, male psychology really. I can't pretend to really understand female psychology.
Stefan Molyneux once described that men are far more objective than women. Since men work with their bodies in the real world. Like, if you are hunting, or logging, or any of the various ways men gain resources. Then if you make a mistake with these things you could literally die.
Womens world, of relating to others and caring for children is not quite the same. It relies a lot more on emotional things. On social manipulations. Womens deepest danger is not men. Even if men were to enslave her, he would keep her alive, and probably let her nurse her children, since women offer value in that way. Womens deepest danger is other women. Who may socially ostracise said women (and the men won't argue because they don't want to lose sexual access!)
This means that, the world of philosophy. That has always seemed to me to be high IQ men trying to understand the world. The idea of 'first principles". Taking things down to their most basic to explain them. Is very male. It's very much based on this same kind of idea.
This goes to the second video a bit. I think men are simply not able to base their reality in a lot of these abstract concepts. They are, like, technical work. But a lot of the things that spirituality/ mysticism talk about. A lot of the things that discuss spiritual concepts and talk about "love" and such. Are things that women can understand more than men.
Prayer:
This is my main takeaway point that I was trying to get to. Prayer has become a big piece of my life that I have committed to for many years now. Like I said, three times a day. And even though before recently it was not regular and daily. It was often.
But I have found there is something wrong with doing it. The effect from prayer is strong. The effect of prayer has palpably changed my behaviours. I have even prayed in a way that it seems to effect other people. But, there is something of a dulling that comes from it. Dulling of my real feelings.
It makes no sense to me in relation to my spiritual path, as a kind of Christian, to stop this practice. But it does seem to me to be the correct thing to do.
As I was thinking about it. I realise that according to the Law of One, and in line with the videos and that already said. That what the contact said was that if we are aligned with what we are doing. Also with love.
So I wonder, if, the protection I was looking for from prayer can be found through paying attention to gathering 'wisdom'. Like in reading the Law of One? But also other things.
Conclusion.
For me, I just feel like I can continue to pray to entities, and engage in the kind of prayer to things that I can't really feel are really there.
Everything in life, most of the time, seems to become more of what it is. When we practice music. We have to go deeper and improve. When we do any spirituality, we have to continue down that same route.
I have not done any music yet, I have meditated still. Without the prayer like I said, I can feel quite a few differences. Just a slight bit of increased sense of what is good for me and what is not.
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