14 days NoFap.

This feels like the big one for me. I have broken the cycle of behaviour that lead to me failing at this particular task should I attempt it. I now have an app which massively helps. 

One of the things I used to think when I couldn't get this right is when I got a sexual 'hit' of feeling, I would say to myself it isn't healthy to not engage in sexual things AT ALL, so I would engage in a bit of this kind of thing and inevitably, it would escalated and end with me ending my 'NoFap' streak.

But, a few insights, along with positive health changes and I simply don't do that. I don't engage at all. Not even for a second. This could mean that I simply don't engage with it ever again.

The only other test that might represent a problem is being physically close to an actual breast. I remember being down the beach and a woman went braless in the ocean, and I paced around for hours not being able to calm down. 

The effects:

It is a powerful behaviour change. On the basic level it seems to me as though it would be helpful in losing weight for all sorts of reasons. Having more energy to motivate myself towards exercise and things, even though it is cold and I haven't eaten amazingly. It also gives additional energy for food preparation. Last night even though I woke up in the early morning I stayed up to 5am sorting out the food properly. Cleaning the kitchen, making a large salad and doing a slow cooker meal. 

This might influence the gym as well which has been pretty fantastic for weight loss for me. 

Maybe subconsciously I am taking advantage of my bodies increased co- operation at losing weight to "attract a mate". 

There are psychological effects as well. I am noticing an increased passion and virility that changes my behaviour. It means that I am less likely to want to go on a streaming service than I think I would normally. I want to do real life things more. 

Obviously, this inclines me towards things I want to do but don't do sometimes a bit more like reading. 

Additionally. I remember recently thinking about something, thinking about a situation in my life with people and not being content to leave it up there in the abstract. The way this manifested for me was that I drew tarot cards on the issue and I did in fact gain a very distinct insight into the situation that moves me in a particular direction. 

Conclusion:

Not much more to say. Although, I have felt unblocked recently in a major major way. Unblocked enough that I might know what to say to get my youtube output going again. It's looking good!