Wow, I have a lot to say today. I will be getting to human design after a personal story so feel free to scan. I will also talk about the Law of One, as applied to my personal story, so probably mid way through.
Personally, I am doing an 'anti new year' thing. Today is the day I am pissed off with my current goals and coming off them. I have started dieting and such since the 22nd of November. Putting together a lot of theories about the best way to lose weight and putting those things into practice.
So, one of the things I would do is if I would have some sugar. I would walk that same amount of sugar off. It would normally take about 3 hours. Then on top of that I would do the gym (almost exclusively weights). This worked a fair few times. I would go down by a kilogram in a day due to this. Like, immediately after the gym.
I would also mainly eat salad and soup. I would make a root veg meal in the slow cooker and make a salad. So outside of that, I wouldn't eat a great deal. I did make an exception for Christmas. But not massively so. There were a few hickups where medically I couldn't restrict my eating.
A lower resistance line.
In stock trading. There is something called a resistance line. It is a point in the graph where the stock does not go above or below. As an example, I have a company called 'Weirdos are us'. It trades at £10 a share. It goes up and down all the time but whenever it goes down to £8 it immediately bounces up. On a long timeline of say, ten years, this resistance line might hold and the stock never goes below that.
Then something happens and the stock DOES go below £8. Then, for the next thirty years or so. The stock has a higher limit of £8. Like, it will never go above that. This is based on a real stock analysis I have seen and those are accurate timelines. The stock waited decades and remembered it's resistance line when doing on a surge.
My resistance line was 84.4 - 84.8. Every time it gets in that range it bounces up. But since I knew this. I was fully prepared. I did all the things yesterday and I felt pretty bad. Walking off all your sugar and eating mostly root vegetable soup causes ketosis. A kind of acidic sense in the blood. Which comes with a nausea depending on how severe it is. Only very very light at this level. But worth mentioning.
So I would feel pretty bad. As I have a few times on this diet. I have laid in bed knowing I am in ketosis and putting off when I eat normal food and start processing sugar instead. Which I do think is more healthy and feels better.
I felt bad yesterday for a few reasons. What did I get for my trouble? I GAINED weight. The resistance line is undefeated and I did everything perfectly yesterday.
So, against the pressure of feeling truly crap. Being sick of soup and salad. I am eating cake.
I plan to try different things and see what their effect is. For example. I have been prioritising weights at the gym. I hope to do a thirty minute aerobic session and see it's effect on my weight. For the moment though. There are no other diets or plans until I get a better idea of how to do this.
Philosophy on such things:
My life has crumbled slightly since the weight loss attempts. I prioritise the over all things. If getting a job was a legitimate option as I see it, I would prioritise that. Having money for very healthy and luxurious food, plus a routine. Would help. A large fruit salad is a so far effective weight loss technique I can't afford.
So, I'm behind on shaving and need to do some tidying. I have not prioritised music that is something that never feels good. I have not prioritised meditation. In fact, despite the re realisation of the power of meditation. I have not been doing it at all. Because mostly I feel dreadful.
I... question the health, in general, of a process that means you have to completely prioritise it like that. i have no real reason to think that. But for me... 'The path', has always seemed to have come with a higher self sense that all the different parts come together under a single unified purpose.
I will talk about this a bit more when I get to the human design side of things.
It reminds me of this excerpt from the Law of One:
Session 18.5:
Ra: I am Ra. The proper role of the entity is in this density to experience all things desired, to then analyze, understand, and accept these experiences, distilling from them the love/light within them. Nothing shall be overcome. That which is not needed falls away.
... Nothing shall be overcome, that which is not needed falls away.
It talks more about how unhealthy 'overcoming' is. The method of going full throttle is definitely an act of trying to overcome.
New Years insights and the power of Jupiter.
I said recently, about five posts ago, that Stefan Molyneux had identified an interesting emotion when doing a podcast. That he felt that the way his path had worked out kind of satisfied a need, a desire for a kind of revenge. The standards the world has placed on him when then turned on the amoral. When I heard about this I thought 'That is definitely hexagram 39' out of all of Stefan's other hexagrams.
Here is his chart:
On New Years Eve. Pearl Davis did a show called something like "The 2024 awards". It was the award for the best catfish and was undoubtably partly motivated by womens constant trolling of her based on this.
She said a few times the different things women say against her, like that this is engagement farming, but that she wanted to do this because it is really funny. (Gate 58... Joy!)
Her platform is a large part showed by gate 18 in her North Node. Her destiny. I have been thinking a bit recently as to how completely two hexagrams become a channel.
My point is, is that with Stefan Molyneux, his conscious Jupiter is in gate 56. That is to do with expressing of abstract information. So Stefans destiny as a philosopher is expressed here.
The same with Pearl. Pearl has the gate 38. So that is another positive side of her 'path' or 'message' in a sense. She is very much against women "complaining" and being a "victim". As shown by the gate 38.
The down and outs.
Then I went back through people I have known that are... "losers". Or messed up in other ways. Sometimes just really young and not making good choices.
What I found interesting was the impactful, the punch of the "revenge" type of thought was very much there in those same people. But the POSITIVE side of Jupiter, was not expressed by these same people.
So, it is likely that in people that are 'unpolarised' or 'not self'. The unconscious Jupiter being the body works find but it is not aligned by the positive.
This starts to take me in the direction that I used to have when I was younger. That people are either on or not on their spiritual path.
Anyway, this is the end of this post my energy has given out.
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