I have something to say, and to say it, I have decided I am going to have to be honest about personal things. The reason being that the trouble with trying to talk around things and using terms such as 'medical issue' without being specific. Is it just creates quite a bit of confusion.
This post is about my attempts, my unsuccessful attempts, to follow the Law of One in my own life. What I am learning from the fact that I have held this teaching in a high regard, and now am getting to the point where my life seems to be moving in another direction.
Here is a quote that I have been trying to follow for a while:
Questioner: I have a little question I will throw in at this point from Jim. I will read it. The instrument’s physical complex is now in the process of recovery from taking a chemical. She was ignorant of the opening that she was creating. How can each of the three of us present be more aware of how such openings may be created in our actions and thoughts? Is it possible that we could make such openings innocently as we question in certain areas during these sessions? And then, what can we do to protect ourselves from distorting influences in general? Is there any ritual or meditation that we use?
Ra: I am Ra. Although we are in sympathy with the great desire to be of service exemplified by this question, our answer is limited by the distortion of the Way of Confusion. We shall say some general things which may be of service in this area.
Firstly, when this instrument distorted its bodily complex towards low vital energy due to this occurrence, it was a recognizable substance which caused this. This was not a, shall we say, natural substance nor was the mind/body/spirit complex enough aware of its distortion towards physical weakness. The natural ways of, shall we say, everyday existence in which the entity without the distortions caused by ingestion of strongly effective chemicals may be seen to be of an always appropriate nature. There are no mistakes, including the action of this instrument.
Secondly, the means of protection against any negative or debilitating influence for those upon the positive path was demonstrated by this instrument to a very great degree. Consider, if you will, the potentials that this particular occurrence had for negative influences to enter the instrument. This instrument thought upon the Creator in its solitude and in actions with other-self, continually praised and gave thanksgiving to the Creator for the experiences it was having. This in turn allowed this particular entity to radiate to the other-self such energies as became a catalyst for an opening and strengthening of the other-self’s ability to function in a more positively polarized state. Thus we see protection being very simple. Give thanksgiving for each moment. See the self and the other-self as Creator. Open the heart. Always know the light and praise it. This is all the protection necessary.
The relevant part of this quote is in the first paragraph where it says: 'The natural ways of being without ingestion of these chemicals is always appropriate'. What I perceive it to be saying, is that God created us as we are. That being is perfect. So to truly believe that, to have access to our real selves. We should not be taking chemicals to change the way we are. This example was LSD. So, we might think in this case it is a person that doesn't see themselves as spiritual enough thus takes something to inspire that feeling.
A couple of months ago. I became very clear on this guidance and followed it. Every day I did three things and I did not do either chocolate or alcohol. Despite chocolate and caffeine being a very light chemical for some. For me it has a huge effect. I had two bars in one day a week or so ago and stayed up almost the whole night.
So, no chocolate, no alcohol. Prayer, meditation and music every day; and it was GLORIOUS.
Icarus and the Sun.
But then came the fall.
To save money I temporarily cancelled my gym membership. I got so unbelievably stressed. So stressed. It was dangerous. I have acted in dangerous ways in accord with schizophrenic beliefs previously and I was close to that. I had to do something to get out of it, and I had chocolate and alcohol. I eventually got back to the gym. There were a few mishaps.
After this very intense experience I was still committed to spiritual growth. I wanted to come off both of these. But, I had now changed what the rules are. The rules have changed from no alcohol and no chocolate except when there is an anxiety/ panic attack and meltdown. It's easier to stay off the substance if the rules are hard. No soft rule. So no 'alcohol in these situations'. Also, the anxiety in general is still an issue.
But could I stay off chocolate? Alcohol I kind of gave up with after this. It's not much of a temptation either I can leave it. But could I stay off chocolate? Can I have deep sleep and mental clarity that comes with no caffeine?
Then enter my newest medical issue: Constipation. I said I would have to explain the issues directly in this section.
What is very weird about this experience is how perfect it has all been timed. When I can't go to the toilet now. I go and buy a bar of chocolate. (I also have over the counter medication). Then I can go to the toilet. I am convinced that long term not going would be very bad for me and before I noticed this issue, I didn't go for several days. Another issue I get is going to the toilet and going a fraction of what I need to.
I have tried everything. Before this issue arose I was already drinking caffeine free coffee (still a laxative, and a very effective one at earlier times that caused diarrhoea!), and prunes daily. Without chocolate, it doesn't seem to matter how much muesli I eat, I am still blocked.
I have an issue that is perfectly calibrated to having chocolate be the only effective medication for. What are the odds seriously? This issue is extremely uncomfortable.
Where does that leave the Law of One?
I am now in a place where the Law of One advises one thing. Admittedly to Carla, but it even laid out the principle. I am utterly unable to follow this one thing.
It makes me realise, it makes me reflect. I am at a point of having to think this all through.
What do I really believe? The thing with the Law of One is that it, in a small way, opposes how I actually make decisions according to the world and how I relate to it. The Law of One is "top down". When I make decisions, I think we often have to make them "bottom up". Rather than starting with an overarching idea, we should trial and error things out honestly. So... practically, how does chocolate and alcohol effect my life.
In philosophy. This bottom up sort of thinking is called 'working from first principles'. As I just said, channeling in general but specifically the Law of One as it is very correct. But the process of taking information that is so top down opposes working from first principles.
Dreams are somewhere between these two it seems to me. You often get the principle but the meaning for the principle at the same time.
Also, I am considering this all in a healing light. According to the principles mentioned in the Law of One, Louise Hay and things such as German New Medicine.
If I have constipation, what is it that I need to let go of? There are a few different things it could be. I have already started thinking of it and deleting documents. But it might literally be the Law of One itself.
Not definitely but maybe. There are a lot of things it could be.
I would ditch the Law of One in a heartbeat if it meant I could make better music and that I felt that was 'Gods plan' for me, so to speak.
Regardless. This is another crisis of faith for me. Another moment of losing my religion. Food for thought perhaps as to how other people experience life.
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