On Sunday. I had one of the more physically painful experiences in my life. Due to me having a medical device on my arm, which is an unneccessary precaution I will immediately stop, my elbow was raised and my hand would hit my eye in the night. So in the night it slashed my eye and it broke the very first layer of my cornea. Which is just a light film of the eye, which I believe, is a lot to do with keeping the light from hurting our eyes.
I went to the A and E eye department and they took it off. Because it was not going to reattach so the idea is that it now has to grow back. Nevertheless, the whole thing was extremely painful. I spent a good part of Monday functionally blind because I had to keep the second eye (right eye) closed otherwise it would hurt the left eye (the damaged one).
So this is my life at the moment. Recovery. A lot of things put on hold and a lot of things far more difficult and uncomfortable than they were previously. Being "locked in my head", I have been praying a lot and have been having some increased insights. I have also had an impromptu opening of my "empathy" or sympathy or something like that. I stopped listening to Stefan Molyneux call in shows because I didn't really get anything from them. I didn't feel a great deal for the people calling in. But I just listened to one that felt like it was breaking my heart! I felt terrible for the guy.
The experience of pain has suddenly motivated me to want to remove pain from the world.
What my actual philosophies are about the world, if this changes anything, I can't articulate yet. I have been trying to create something coherent for a long time. Something powerful that practically helps. That might not be my place, but it is still a motivator. I might be meant to explain and showcase existing systems.
Right at the moment though I have a simpler thought to offer. I have been thinking through the core of the Law of One. Not all the various bits of advice that I normally talk about. But the actual core teaching. Which is something like: you are all things, you are every experience, every emotion, every situation, you are the One Infinite Creator. I think it is session 1.7 this was defined.
The first place that I can think of going with that is the imagination. I can do my best to imagine being a dog or another human in my life. I can imagine being a government worker, living as a child in an abusive environment. A dolphin (OK that's a bit hard!). Having breasts as a 30 year old girl.
An application for the idea that I did just think of though, is that a lot of the time when Stefan is talking with people that have been through abusive situations of some description. The behaviour of the abusers and the many people that often surround that situation and do nothing is so fixed. Every day it is unchanging, and it is given the weight of an absolute truth. That undoing that seems to need a lot of repetition of the value of the individual being abused.
For instance, the caller described an entire family of people that allowed him and his twin to be bullied for more than a decade by a brother of his. This caller had gone to the parents now, and they had apologised, and did seem to be making an effort but Stefan made the analogy that the caller was still doing all the work. If someone invited you on a hike but you had to carry everything. All the water, all the food etc. You had to arrange the location and they wouldn't even talk to you. Then that would be seen as a problem.
It was not clear whether this was the case in this instance, the parents were making efforts. But it is an important point I think that does relate to the Law of One. A person after bad treatment could actually get an apology from the NPC, and having done that it feels like he should stop there. But in line with the Law of One. His value is STILL higher. These two are equal as beings, and the one doing the abusing is basically in debt. They have to do yet more, pay yet more, and I imagine it is a temptation to simply accept what is given. Accept any tiny change. Which in practice means they are on an unequal footing.
I don't know how else the Law of One might apply. If I imagine being someone else. Do I simply imagine ME being them when infact they are very different people? What does it mean in practice if I am also currently a rock being blown down a hill in Scotland?
Got nothing more at the moment. I am doing this with one eye! Which I also have to close momentarily because it is not used to the amount of work it currently has to do. So it is likely that blogs, if I do them, will be fewer for the immediate future.
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