Tuesday, 21 October 2025

Human Design heavy post.

Ah, exciting times. From tomorrow. I will have turned a huge corner in my health. I will have been able to come off caffeine and other health issues will be partially solved most likely as well. This will be a good day for me. 

Today though, I wanted to reflect a little on the human design chart. The human design chart is a very subtle creature. All of these transits I am going to discuss are abstract 'maybe' things. But I wanted to push ahead in my understanding of the chart. In my use of the chart. To do that the first place I wanted to start off was to read up on the transit positions and see how they are effecting me. This may lead to being able to predict what movements will mean in the future:

Firstly, Uranus, going back from gate 20 to gate 8 on November 5th. Stations at gate 8.4 on February 4th 2026 and goes back into gate 20 on April 28th 2026.

Uranus' transit through gate 8 has been hugely impactful for me. I theorised that a big part of my not self was in gate 8. Bridging the 1-8 channel which I have the hanging 1. It has been a huge layered insight into where things went wrong and my place in the world. It also effects a big part of my life and that is... this part of my life. My understanding is that the previous conditioning in gate 8 meant that I started to see myself as a spiritual messenger of sorts. But I am not that.

I do not have anything in the gate 20 or on the entire integration channel. Previously, I thought that perhaps since everyone I know, and more grounded people, has one thing or a lot in the integration channel. Every single person. Perhaps this placement will effect everyone but me. As it is now transiting gate 20.1 I am seeing a pattern I can only just grip. About how Uranus is doing what it always does, and that is in a very hands on way fights the good/ evil battle on our planet. 

But gate 8 is more relevant to me hitting my 1st hexagram. I have been kind of left in limbo recently. The youtube channel is kind of winding down. My last four videos had one view between them. It does feel as though Uranus has gone through the gate 8. Deposited that information then kind of left me hanging as it chills in gate 20. But I hope to have some clarity in this area as Uranus does go back and transit the gate 8. 

These things should link. My understanding is the theme of the transit does link. Even if it decades apart. So the theme of gate 8 should move onto gate 20. But I will not go into depth in how I think that is happening.  

Saturn. Recently, I think two days ago or so, has gone from gate 36.5 to gate 36.4. Gate 36.5 is about having confidence one will be able to handle crisis. Gate 36.4 is about gaining allies, probably in secret, to handle said crisis.

I have suddenly picked up QAnon stuff recently. As more has slowly seeped through the twitter. Some relevant points. Today was quite a big event in British politics and that whole area does all of a sudden seem to be moving. Trump has stopped funding Ukraine. This energy has suddenly entered my life again, whereas I was a bit tuned out to it when Saturn was in gate 36.5. I do not have anything on the emotional centre or the gate 35, so this is another transit that I generally don't expect to effect me much. 

Neptune. Moved about a week ago from gate 25.3 to 25.2. I relate both the gate 25 and Neptune separately, to philosophy. I have been going through Stefan Molyneux's material lately and kind of opposing within myself his viewpoint. He is fairly atheistic in his outlook. This fits the gate 25.3 that says that the recognition that innocent action does not in itself guarantee success. This kind of fits to me. I am the innocent action here. I am the one with the new age beliefs. 

I actually talked to Stefan Molyneux recently. It feels like, something that was on a bucket list I was not aware of has been ticked off. It is just amazing to have spoken to him. As part of this, for no logical reason, perhaps as the material of his I am listening to has moved on as well. I have just been more accepting of his perspective and do not argue against it when I listen to him anymore. This is in line with 25.2: "Devotion and Dedication to the now."  

All of this, as you might have noticed is kind of thin. There are additional points I realise that I will not go into. I have had an insight into a limitation I have (Pluto in gate 60). As that entire channel (60-3), is now defined. 

It is two things. It is on one side. Very powerful and very interesting. On the other though, it is the opposite of that. It is not powerful because it can't be stapled down to an expression in 'objective' reality. It is not interesting because it remains strictly person and doesn't have any power.  

I have previously wondered about certain transits in relation to political events and sometimes, such as the events with Iran and Israel during the period when Neptune and Pluto crossed into new hexagrams briefly in April 2024. Sometimes I have been pretty much right. But most of the time there isn't anything that can be communicated to others. It's all just super subtle like the information I have laid out.  

Sunday, 19 October 2025

Science fiction stories.

I just tried to have this discussion with someone in my real life and they started talking with me about it then completely ignored me. They were doing something else at the same time.

Being disabled, unemployed. I don't have much opportunity to actually speak to people that will acknowledge my existence. It is what it is, it is no big deal. Even if I did have friends they would probably be stoners and such, being a millennial. I think this blog is partly a push against loneliness.  

But anyway, this is what I wanted to discuss. Science fiction shows. 

Maturation.

Fringe for me was a golden calf of brilliance. The first season, an incredibly mysterious opponent is set up. The Pattern. A group that for some reason, is doing random, very scientifically advanced, biological warfare on just random people often.  

The show sets up this kind of "pursuing the Illuminati" kind of system of deeply powerful clandestined groups. Similar to Alias in a way, but different. 

Fringe is good for a number of reasons and one of those is that the heirarchy in Fringe. The animalistic heirarchy. Doesn't place the toughest person at the top. Like a lot of those CSI types of shows. But, intelligent people. Walter and his son are given a lot of attention and reverence in the show. Since they are super high IQ people with a lot of skills in these clandestined areas. 

I watched it sometime in my twenties. Not even all episodes just about half the episodes in seasons 1, 2 and 3. It became mythologised for me as an amazing series that I wanted to watch all the way through. The reason for this, is that I wanted the mystery unravelled. I wanted to know what 'The Pattern' was really up to. Before I could learn that, I could not look at the entire show. I could not evaluate it because I wanted to see it through.

But now, I have watched it all. Yes, as you might have guessed from my write up here it was disappointing. 

J.J.Abrams. One of three writers of these shows. Is legendary for creating these absolutely amazing set ups. But his skill really ends there. One of the shows this was most true in which I have not seen is 'Lost'. Which had a lot of people so curious as to it's reasoning and then, the reveal was incoherent. This is a pattern within TV shows like this. Consider the mentalist. That set up one of the greatest serial killers of all time and unbelievably botched the reveal there. They later admitted the show had not actually decided who the serial killer would be very close to said reveal. 

The trouble with these shows is that when you set up a villain. You have no constraints. The bad character in the show 'Jessica Jones'. They enter the scene. They have all the resources available to them that the imagination and the audiences suspension of disbelief allows. 

But the show then goes on and any problems here. Anything that wasn't properly done or planned out. Becomes an issue. Because after that initial mystery. More constraints start to show up. 

If the show created a written alien language that cannot be deciphered. They have to work around actually suddenly deciphering that text if the plot demands it. 

If one of the negative characters showed a lot of intelligence. That intelligence has to be dampened for the good character to then win out. There often has to be emotional reasons that explain this intelligence deficit and these emotional reasons make no sense and are inconsistent. 

This happened strongly with Fringe. The reason that the pattern exists. I mean, it might make sense. It didn't to me. But the bigger problem was that in exposing the pattern. The original idea is that you are exposing a very powerful group. Filled with it's own processes, secrecy, huge amounts of money and competent employees. An organisation with many powerful individuals which would carry on even if one or more of it's powerful players was taken out. 

This is the kind of unearned sense of mystique that the pattern had from season 1. It was set up as this kind of organisation. But it needed to be taken down in two episodes or so, so all of a sudden it was just one ego maniac running it all from a warehouse. 

This... issue, has made me feel pretty crap about sci fi in general. The amount of planning needed to make a show that makes sense on this level. Surely it can be done? I think a part of the issue is that these shows have producers and things. So suddenly they have to finish up a show in a few episodes when they were not told that previously. Suddenly, due to ratings, a show will be cancelled. 

I suppose it is also a part of growing up. TV in some ways is a bit like 'intimate images'. It simulates human contact, but it can't go to actually provide meaningful human contact. Eventually, the limitation will become obvious. 

Two things I have done recently that have satisfied my need for sci fi from real life, not from a story. One is that I have been seriously reading and applying the Law of One. It has become a way of life. Two is that I have been having emotional shifts by paying close attention to philosophy. Philosophy is very 'adult emotions' linked. 

I can't see a solution to this. The 4400, Stargate, Star Trek. Almost everything has some kind of problem. Like I say, these things do not provide real human contact which is perhaps what is really needed. They do not satisfy curiousity either. Any real tools that provide evidence of something outside the mainstream have been rigorously suppressed in my view - there is no way to develop real psychic abilities personally. But at the same time we all do need a bit of chill time. Previously I have liked sci fi and people don't really change so perhaps this will not change either. 

Saturday, 18 October 2025

What point does healing end?

This is my video for this post:

Youtube: Common Ego: This Question Exposed What I Missed About Healing. 

https://youtu.be/n3lqYXNYED0?si=iK2-ZE0r6JwVW4fR

In order to address this video. I want to talk about a few different things. One is gender differences. Another is the environment in general, in a larger societal context. Another is philosophy. 

It's an interesting question. At what point are we healed from negative experiences? 

Creativity 

Firstly, gender differences. Is my answer the same as the answer would be for a woman? Nietzsche believed that one of the highest goals of human experience is to transform pain into a useful experience through creativity. So, Johnny Cash might be an example of this. "I taught the weeping willow how to cry".

For me, this is one of the ways that I do process my experience in general. I will not go as far to say that I process explicitly negative experiences in this way. But it is the way I opine on the confusion of life. 

I have talked a little bit recently about separating from my half sister. I am not saying my half sister is any kind of abusive whadjamcallit. But I was listening to Richard Grannon the other day, who said that when you get into a difficult relationship everything becomes so confusing all of a sudden. That was the experience I had with her. 

One of the lyrics from one of my new songs goes: "If I wanted to enrage you I would take an interest in you". With my sister, I feel that any curiousity on my behalf is met with hostility. As though she labelled me as a sexual predator a long time ago. Thankfully, in our entire history, I have never been alone with her. You can see how this kind of dynamic would be confusing.

But this kind of thing is kind of maddening right? But there is relief in expressing this kind of thing creatively. There is something about music that can capture a subtlety here. It is HARD WORK, I find, creating music. Creating lyrics. A lot needs to be in a good place to create so much as a paragraph. I found gruelling real life work a lot harder. But, the effort does lead to something positive. Something transformative. 

BUT, and this is a big but, it leads to a next large area... 

Gender differences. 

If you have read this blog previously you know I am heavy on the Law of One. As I have theorised in previous blogs, that women are love and men are 'light' or wisdom. The more correct Law of One term I recall is Love/ light and Light/ love. 

One of the first articles I read pushing back against feminism and it's extremely confused gender roles was an article called 'Is there anything good about men?' That made the point that women lack a sense of individual creativity and inventiveness often. Women have not invented things like men have traditionally. This is likely due to the huge amount of solitude that is needed for inventiveness to take place. Women need connection and community most of the time. 

Creativity, individual creativity I would argue, comes from testosterone. As an example, Asian culture is extremely high IQ. But not very creative. They tend to copy things and perform existing instruments really well. 

But one of the strongest creative groups and periods was black men during the 1910's roughly. When they were still in a semi slavery position. New instruments had just become more widespread and middle class white women had access to those instruments as well. But it was only the men making the music. 

So from this perspective, I wonder if pure creativity is not an open avenue for women in the same way. What is the female solution here?   

Environment.

One of the unspoken assumptions in this video, is that healing itself IS possible. 

In my recent video on the human design and manifestor strategy. I mentioned that perhaps there is, in practicality, a glass ceiling. Sure, you can improve your life by doing your strategy and authority. But the second your improvement runs up against an entrenched power dynamic, a heirarchy, it stops there. 

I think that might be relevant here. You can heal a great deal, but the problem you start to meet is that society itself is quite dysfunctional and it might not be inclined to bring people together in a way that is healing. 

We are in a strange position as a society. Decades of propaganda which is perhaps starting to break down. Dysfunctional economies. Inflation. People are atomised as a part of this dysfunction. 

Sometimes when I have had an unpleasant health issue I have gotten resentful about something unconnected. A social issue from a few years ago perhaps. Then when my health has improved. When I have done exercise or eaten fruit. It has fallen away. Like it never existed and I have marvelled at the issue of how health underlines some problems that don't appear to be health problems. 

This, I think, is part of the answer. Sure, if we had someone screw us over in the past it makes us angry. But there are a lot of ingredients that can go into making our lives great now, that would make us not feel like that. If we meet someone new, or get excited about a hobby or career, or if we improve our health. If health was improved across the board how many apparent emotional and social issues would just disappear?

But there is a problem with that. The problem is that we are living in a situation of widespread poverty and ill health because people in power want it to be that way. Society is fractured and atomised for a reason. Because of a very deliberate propaganda campaign that cost trillions. 

Conclusion.

Of course, ultimately the answer might be more complex than this. But I think this is a good grounding to the question.   

Tuesday, 14 October 2025

The Christian message.

The last post I wrote, talking about Socrates message and potential negative influence, seemed to me to be confirmed in a big way by this synchronicity. I also wanted to mention a few more things I find just amazing about this video in general:

Youtube: Aaron Abke: Exposing Paul: The FALSE PROPHET who hijacked the gospel:

https://youtu.be/4jdfQ9YwqYs?si=EhP4mxp8n9VYL-94

At 48 minutes, James discusses Acts 16:16. Where a slave girl who is possessed by a demon. Follows Paul and his companions around for three days promoting that Pauls message is a good one. 

The discussion then clarifies that the demon that the girl was possessed by was a demon called 'Python'. That was an entity that was said to protect the Oracle of Delphi. The Oracle of Delphi also used the negative form of tongues. A negative and positive for of tongues are here clarified. 

The Oracle of Delphi is how Socrates got his start. Where he was told that he was the wisest man in Athens by said individual.

Because this was about a week ago, this doesn't hold any particular charge for me now. Nowhere near when I first heard it and had just put that last blog out. But this next part is something I am internally processing the significance of:

At one hour and thirty three minutes Aaron brings up this passage. I'm not expecting you to read this bible passage, I'm just providing context:

As for those who were held in high esteem—whatever they were makes no difference to me; God does not show favoritism—they added nothing to my message. On the contrary, they recognized that I had been entrusted with the task of preaching the gospel to the uncircumcised,[a] just as Peter had been to the circumcised.[b] For God, who was at work in Peter as an apostle to the circumcised, was also at work in me as an apostle to the Gentiles. James, Cephas[c] and John, those esteemed as pillars, gave me and Barnabas the right hand of fellowship when they recognized the grace given to me. They agreed that we should go to the Gentiles, and they to the circumcised. 10 All they asked was that we should continue to remember the poor, the very thing I had been eager to do all along.

11 When Cephas came to Antioch, I opposed him to his face, because he stood condemned. 12 For before certain men came from James, he used to eat with the Gentiles. But when they arrived, he began to draw back and separate himself from the Gentiles because he was afraid of those who belonged to the circumcision group. 13 The other Jews joined him in his hypocrisy, so that by their hypocrisy even Barnabas was led astray.

Aaron makes the case that this is extremely narcissistic of Paul. Thisas his meeting with Jesus' actual disciples. That Paul admonishes one of them for some perceived error. That even his own friend Barnabas wasn't putting up with Paul. 

I have had conversations with Christians about these themes. Their dogged determination to not acknowledge, even when directly quoted, that Paul had a disagreement with Jesus' real disciples, and by extension, and also directly Jesus. Is pretty amazing. 

But what is more amazing is that this can so blatantly be in the text. Along with all the other things discussed here, and millions of people over decades, perhaps centuries, have not put it together. Have not discussed it. Have not appeared to actually process the bible in any meaningful way. 

It's just mad stuff. That such a lie, such a big lie, like the legitimacy of Paul, can go on for so long. That no one notices or says anything about it. 

It makes me wonder what do people do with their time? What do they spend their time thinking about to not notice this kind of thing? 

 

Friday, 10 October 2025

Odds and Ends. Socrates, negative wanderers, energy work, personal health.

I intend this as only a smattering of general thoughts. Nothing written out to any length.

I have been listening to Stefan Molyneux describe, in his history of philosophers series (which was offered briefly for free but is now behind a paywall). How unbelievably damaging Socrates was for society. I feel that taking Stefans argument about this would be stealing his work a little too much, so I will only mention some of the effects of Socrates rather than the flaws in his philosophy. But I think if the argument is correct, I will eventually reword it naturally, internally. It reminds me of this passage in the Law of One.   

Questioner: Then what is the motivation for the… Oh, let me finish that question first. What is the motiv— what is the mechanism that this unusual sixth-density entity would wish to gain to polarize more negatively through wandering?

Ra: I am Ra. The Wanderer has the potential of greatly accelerating the density whence it comes in its progress in evolution. This is due to the intensive life experiences and opportunities of the third density. Thusly the positively oriented Wanderer chooses to hazard the danger of the forgetting in order to be of service to others by radiating love of others. If the forgetting is penetrated the amount of catalyst in third density will polarize the Wanderer with much greater efficiency than shall be expected in the higher and more harmonious densities.

Similarly, the negatively oriented Wanderer dares to hazard the forgetting in order that it might accelerate its progress in evolution in its own density by serving itself in third density by offering to other-selves the opportunity to hear the information having to do with negative polarization.

36.18 Questioner: Are there any examples of sixth-density negatively polarized Wanderers in our historical past?

Ra: I am Ra. This information could be harmful. We withhold it. Please attempt to view the entities about you as part of the Creator. We can explain no further.

 So after Socrates did his "wise sage of infinity" sort of act. His arguments were so toxic he had two effects: A) His followers went on and became tyrants, ushering Athens into a whole new tyrannical society. As he indicated would happen at his trial B) The Socratic method, which is extremely unproductive and toxic. Disabled philosophy for thousands of years after his death. Philosophy, I think, is one of the real tools that the positive has against the negative. To articulate reasons/ wisdom why (and how) the negative should be opposed, is necessary for it to be opposed. 

Socrates career started off when 'The Oracle' told him he was the wisest man in Athens. The pattern of a "negative adept" being aided by a psychic of some description is one I have often seen in fiction. Such as in Alias. It was also the theme of one of my own stories when I was a young child and I used to make up stories. That a Law of One similar being called literally 'Oracle'. Gave bad advice to a lot of people due to free will types of concerns and allowed a powerful negative force to rise. 

I am not saying this is definitely the case. It is just an interesting idea for me. Of course it may be the case of a positive wanderer being confused and messing things up. As certain other figures were mentioned in the Law of One as being positive Wanderers and it all going bad. But the idea of Socrates being negative in this way is worth consideration I think. 

Personal energy work:

I mentioned a few weeks ago that I was 'retaining my lower energies'. I wonder, if having been weak in that area previously has been what has stopped me from doing energy healing?

The problem I have with energy healing is when I do it I feel like I am kind of dying emotionally. That things are becoming routine and boring. The masculine energy, the masculine 'zeal' I do think acts as opposition to that. And if a person is "leaking" their sexual energy, then the only function the energy work can initially serve is to replace that energy. Which seems like it is unproductive.

It is early days yet, I don't know. But it is interesting. Having stopped the kind of filth I keep returning to does feel very good as well. I DO feel better! My fantasies are not of a healthy relationship and missionary. 

I may have figured to stop chocolate as well. Which is a big deal for me. I have mentioned it before in relation to session 32.1. I find chocolate unproductive as well. I have found without it previously I have been way better and more  motivated at music for instance. Way clearer minded and tend to sleep better. 

The way I have stopped chocolate is to accept that I do have to yield to medication, for problems that chocolate was solving. Currently I am taking four different things. Including pain killers.  

Wednesday, 8 October 2025

Gate 56 and the Law of Free Will.

Eye is getting slightly better. I still can't see out of the left one, but there is a tiny bit of vision clearing up on the very most close things. 

This is a human design post. It is one of the really big insights I had a few weeks ago that I was not able to articulate as I felt too bowled over. But I feel that I now am, and also, I feel that there was a bit of emotion that I needed to process in order to understand this. That prayer and fidelity to the Law of One has connected me enough to process life a bit more emotionally which is necessary at this moment.

I am also paying attention to Stefan Molyneux's history of philosophers series. That he gave to his audience on his 59th birthday. What I am learning at the moment is that for philosophers, the trial and death of Socrates is a kind of "Crucifixion" moment. It is the warning to all future philosophers of the danger of telling truth - being executed by the state. This is surprisingly emotional. 

Anyway, that was just a random thing I was talking about, but this post actually features Stefan heavily. \It is very unlikely, but I have casually thought, or fantasized every so often, that Stefan reads my blog in his spare time. Just an eccentric thinker who values his work he might be interested in. If he were to read this post it might violate his free will though since I do went to focus on his chart and message. Since it is not likely true, I put the likelihood at less than 1%, it is a risk I can take. Since I am such a fallible source that can be easily dismissed it might again detract from the possibility of violating free will in this isntance. 

The head gates.

I have a lot to say about the head gates. In the human design. The top being 64-47, 61-24 and 63-4, then from the Ajna to the throat 11-56, 43-23 and 17-62.

The point is is how does the concept of free will interact with these? I think free will is strongly emphasized in the gate 56. I think this hexagram is where free will is expressed. It is, after all, the expression of the abstract information. Free will is an abstract concept. I don't think the 17-62 cares about free will that much only in where it is practical. The 17-62, the grounding of the logical circuit. "Does this thing work in the real world? Is this real?" Respects free will only as a practical measure. But really, when subjected to a scientific and logical process. Free will doesn't matter too much. Gravity exists whether we acknowledge it in free will or not. 

The 56 though, the grounding of the abstract process. A lot of abstract concepts are very true, very relevant, and utterly unfalsifiable in an objective way. Free will matters to the gate 56 because, A) it is an abstract concept in itself. That is free will. B) Abstract concepts literally can't survive without respecting free will. With the responsive force that arrives when people feel their free will is threatened, will blow away any abstract concept away with the wind.

One of the things I have learned from Stefan, one of his justifications of non violence. Is that once violence is introduced, negotiation stops. People yield to the violence, they no longer express what is going on within them. I would say, that Stefans message is fundamentally that ethics includes the rejection of the initiation of force. 

Here is Stefans human design chart:

Stefan has the gate 56 in his conscious Jupiter. The conscious Jupiter is what our message is to the world. Kind of like our spiritual message. This lines up very well.

But what really clinched the insight for me. Was that in my own chart, I have my conscious Mercury in gate 56.2. I had an insight into how most of my "insights" come back to the use of free will within myself. Respecting others free will in various ways. 

So I have the theory that Mercury is about those insights. That a persons Mercury placement is about the kind of insights they have in their lives. So my message here, my overall spiritual message is not about free will. I don't really talk about that much. It is a concern sure, I mention it in passing. But my actual message in all that I do is more along the lines of 'mutation', gate 3.4. These tools are tools that mutate a person out of limitation. I talk about the human design, dream interpretation, the Law of One, Stefan Molyneux etc. 

It was just a powerful moment when it all came together. This kind of insight to me shows the power of the human design, and the possibilities of using it. The possibilities of the kind of problems it could solve!  


Tuesday, 7 October 2025

What does the Law of One actually mean?

On Sunday. I had one of the more physically painful experiences in my life. Due to me having a medical device on my arm, which is an unneccessary precaution I will immediately stop, my elbow was raised and my hand would hit my eye in the night. So in the night it slashed my eye and it broke the very first layer of my cornea. Which is just a light film of the eye, which I believe, is a lot to do with keeping the light from hurting our eyes.

I went to the A and E eye department and they took it off. Because it was not going to reattach so the idea is that it now has to grow back. Nevertheless, the whole thing was extremely painful. I spent a good part of Monday functionally blind because I had to keep the second eye (right eye) closed otherwise it would hurt the left eye (the damaged one).

So this is my life at the moment. Recovery. A lot of things put on hold and a lot of things far more difficult and uncomfortable than they were previously. Being "locked in my head", I have been praying a lot and have been having some increased insights. I have also had an impromptu opening of my "empathy" or sympathy or something like that. I stopped listening to Stefan Molyneux call in shows because I didn't really get anything from them. I didn't feel a great deal for the people calling in. But I just listened to one that felt like it was breaking my heart! I felt terrible for the guy. 

The experience of pain has suddenly motivated me to want to remove pain from the world.

What my actual philosophies are about the world, if this changes anything, I can't articulate yet. I have been trying to create something coherent for a long time. Something powerful that practically helps. That might not be my place, but it is still a motivator. I might be meant to explain and showcase existing systems. 

Right at the moment though I have a simpler thought to offer. I have been thinking through the core of the Law of One. Not all the various bits of advice that I normally talk about. But the actual core teaching. Which is something like: you are all things, you are every experience, every emotion, every situation, you are the One Infinite Creator. I think it is session 1.7 this was defined.   

The first place that I can think of going with that is the imagination. I can do my best to imagine being a dog or another human in my life. I can imagine being a government worker, living as a child in an abusive environment. A dolphin (OK that's a bit hard!). Having breasts as a 30 year old girl.  

An application for the idea that I did just think of though, is that a lot of the time when Stefan is talking with people that have been through abusive situations of some description. The behaviour of the abusers and the many people that often surround that situation and do nothing is so fixed. Every day it is unchanging, and it is given the weight of an absolute truth. That undoing that seems to need a lot of repetition of the value of the individual being abused. 

For instance, the caller described an entire family of people that allowed him and his twin to be bullied for more than a decade by a brother of his. This caller had gone to the parents now, and they had apologised, and did seem to be making an effort but Stefan made the analogy that the caller was still doing all the work. If someone invited you on a hike  but you had to carry everything. All the water, all the food etc. You had to arrange the location and they wouldn't even talk to you. Then that would be seen as a problem.

It was not clear whether this was the case in this instance, the parents were making efforts. But it is an important point I think that does relate to the Law of One. A person after bad treatment could actually get an apology from the NPC, and having done that it feels like he should stop there. But in line with the Law of One. His value is STILL higher. These two are equal as beings, and the one doing the abusing is basically in debt. They have to do yet more, pay yet more, and I imagine it is a temptation to simply accept what is given. Accept any tiny change. Which in practice means they are on an unequal footing. 

I don't know how else the Law of One might apply. If I imagine being someone else. Do I simply imagine ME being them when infact they are very different people? What does it mean in practice if I am also currently a rock being blown down a hill in Scotland?   

Got nothing more at the moment. I am doing this with one eye! Which I also have to close momentarily because it is not used to the amount of work it currently has to do. So it is likely that blogs, if I do them, will be fewer for the immediate future.  

Friday, 3 October 2025

Update and Q thoughts.

Writing this blog following a dream. That is the only reason. A dream implied I was not doing something proper. Not up to scratch. So I thought it might be not blogging for the moment. It might be, doesn't mean it is. But if that is wrong, there's no harm in writing a blog.

The dream I talked about last blog. The thing I am taking away from this. The advice. Is to stop masturbating. I have tried many times in my life, very hard to stop masturbating. Never succeeded. But this was at a time where my medical condition was causing a huge amount of adrenaline to be dumped into my system. My health is better now. My testosterone will be lower being older. So I should be able to change this. 

I was only going to blog after 7 days of refraining - thus having more information on its benefits. But it is 2 days and I am blogging now for the aforementioned reason. 

It would be interesting to me if my health situation changed because of this because I have two root chakra linked issues. But, the reason I want the improvement is a bunch of things including having the energy for the gym.  

Q peeps getting excited:

There are a lot of Q posters jumping around at the moment:





Relevant to this is that most of the military accounts in the US have shut down. While this hasn't happened in any of the previous shut downs.  

The Q narrative brings up a lot of questions to my mind. A lot of things that relate to how we look out into the world are based on the idea that it doesn't suddenly change.  That we are not at a later point in life in a situation that is so far away from our current situation that we can hardly currently imagine it. 

One of the things talked about in these Q movements is 'medbeds'. The idea that concealed technology is a kind of bed you lie in which rewires your DNA and can solve any health issue including re-growing limbs. 

In such a situation. Obviously money and wealth will already have been taken care of. So the huge amount of energy that humans put daily towards concerns of status will not be so relevant. I'm sure it will still be a bit relevant. I'm sure, for instance, there will still be some people more skilled than others at certain things, and there will be jealousy.  

But I wonder if a big part of the reason people don't change is because the situations in the environment do not change and they are responding to those same environmental cues? 

There have been many similar bouts of exciteability among Q peeps which lead to absolutely nothing. When this happens. They don't acknowledge this and just carry on the next day with their Q promotions. That's a bit maddening.

I think this will be the same thing. But I do think the moment of change is coming. Perhaps in February 2026 when Neptune and Saturn conjunct.  

Thursday, 2 October 2025

A powerful dream.

I had a truly powerful dream this morning with an image in it that is so powerful it feels burned into my skull. This was distinctly celestial imagery.

This morning, I was wondering the significance of it and how to phrase it in this blog. Like, the angle I was thinking was that perhaps I am doing well. All the different things I am doing well, then some of the things I am not doing so well, that are obviously not too big a deal, if the higher/ inner forces still approve. Then, also, on top of that, the dream did seem to indicate to me a way I can improve. A distinct way I very likely will improve with this motivation.

But, I feel all that information will strangle the inspiration somewhat. There are a lot of things that are distinctly going well. But if I were to write out all the six or more things it COULD be, I will be getting lost in the minutea. I might even be writing out a few things that I think are good, but are not actually good at all. 

So for the moment I will just sit with the experience, with the insight, in a sense; and let it filter through me, until I learn better what I want to express. This has happened a few times recently, insights so profound I simply can't practically/ immediately use them, and I think they will likely come out slowly over years, or be a precursor to later knowledge. But at the moment I suppose the term might be overwhelm.