Wednesday, 12 February 2025

Thoughts on Saturn, Conscious Saturn. Part 3

Ah, this feels good. Finally getting down to this. I feel like this will unblock other areas of thought.

Following on from parts 1 and 2 that really set the direction of this thought process. Where I finished with the idea that karma is too complex and important to be one planet, and that Saturn tends to discusses the "work" area in a sense. So in it's negative it turns up in transit like "You're not doing your job properly". In the positive it turns up as "Wow, you did that really well". 

This definitely fits other instances in my life. Issues I have had with workplaces where they have made things difficult for me have correlated with Saturn transits. But it is unlikely that wage slave work is a one to one correlation with Saturn.

As I said, I am now going to think about how Saturn has shown up in my human design chart to further discuss this dynamic. I had planned to do both conscious and unconscious in this post. But when writing it I realised I won't fit unconscious Saturn in.

Conscious Saturn, gate 5.4.

As seen in my human design chart. This is happening on an undefined centre. Obviously I don't know offhand what a defined sacral would feel like since I don't have one. So I can't contrast what the difference is between defined and undefined Saturn here. Although, with the two hanging hexagrams I have going from the sacral, and two further I have going to the sacral. By transit fairly often my sacral is defined. But having something defined by transit is a completely different thing than having it natally defined. 

I do not have an issue getting myself to do things. Of course, like everyone else I have the issue where occasionally I will think I should have done something productive rather than watched that TV show. But in general, it is not my biggest issue. I have a huge amount of anger and I enjoy the gym. I don't have to force myself to go. I have a constant, grinding, semi panic that keeps me productive when illness is not a problem preventing that. 

One thing that does impact my productivity though. At least a thing that correlates with it. Is shown in this hexagram. This is the hexagram of cycles and waiting. Things like having a pattern in ones life. In the line 4, which is about relating and people (heart chakra stuff!) In the gate 5.4. it's about having a pattern and NOT ALLOWING OTHERS TO PUSH YOU OFF THAT. So it is not having the same pattern as everyone else most likely. 

In my life, this is very true. Navigating around my health condition, I have a lot of patterns that are abnormal. I have a lot of things that I have learned that are simply not part of mainstream understanding, and with weight loss this is particularly true. 

I have a few stomach issues. Celiac linked likely, which most diabetics have. It means that if I eat well for too long I will get uncomfortable. Soups and salads, my stomach only has so much endurance for. At times, cake is pretty much perfect for my bloodsugars. It is surprisingly, perfectly, long acting. Whereas gluten free bread is way too long acting. It will peak long after the insulin does. Meaning when I eat it, I risk hypo'ing and then the bloodsugars will raise later on. A recipe for disaster.

Basically, what I am saying. That I manage quite a lot of different individual factors when moderating my health. Another thing is my insulin. I have two insulins. One is long acting and another is short acting. The long acting takes about 5 to 7 days to change. When I lose weight, the need for long acting changes. So when my weight goes down I suddenly have to eat more. (I.e. because I have less need for long acting insulin but still have it in my system!)

I have discovered a few other unpredictable things as well. 

Moderating all these factors. Including things like exercise. Basically means that I am taking a few different weight loss things, and things relevant to diabetes, and kind of pushing them into my own model. Organising around other limitations in my life. Jobsearching or what have you. Spiritual things such as prayer, meditation or music. Means that all this information has added together meaning that my own way of doing things. The times I sleep, the patterns I have. Are all not at all understandable to others. But very effective. I have been losing weight and such.

It took me a long time to understand the manifestation of Saturn in the gate 5.4. It feels like something that I just do without putting effort into. It's not easy to notice. I just happen to keep my own schedule in things and since I am largely a hermit. It has not been highlighted as an issue because no one is trying to pull me off my patterns.

It's correlation with weight loss though which is a huge positive improvement is notable. Weight loss is a classic Saturnian kind of thing.  

That was long enough and the other placement I have with Saturn. Gate 26.4. Is very much an emotional step change. Not discussing everyday things like this but going into grief. So I will do this on the next, and most likely final part of this series. I wonder if the 26, being defined and part of a full channel. Is different and deeper, requiring more processing because it is defined. Whereas this that is relevant to every day life is because it is hanging on an undefined centre?

Monday, 10 February 2025

Thoughts on Saturn, Part 2.

These are my theories on Saturn then.

Karma:

Firstly, let's start with 'karma'. It is often said that Saturn is 'Karma'. It does seem to have a correlation with something "Karmic" like court cases and such like that. But what is "Karma"?

What karma is meant to be is some sort of grand metaphysical law that what we do comes back to us. This is the case in both positive and negative behaviours. But the term karma is usually meant in relation to negative behaviours. So if you do something bad, the same thing or something similar or equivalent will happen to you. 

The trouble is, for me, with this analogy. Is that it seems to undermine the general complexity of the world. Does Saturn ever turn up to punish people for their actions? Seemingly yes. But so do other planets. What even is an action to begin with? If I cheat on someone is it the same as someone cheating on me? What if I cheated on someone that was abusive and the person that cheated on me I was not abusive to? 

It simply seems to me that life is too grand and complex for such a simplistic explanation. We are experiencing a lot of "karma" in the world at the moment, as a lot of ideological weirdos in America are having their six or seven figure jobs and funding cut for things that most Americans would not agree with. There is a sense of rage that tax dollars have been spent on this when, very often, that taxation has lead to people living lives of poverty; i.e. the people paying the tax.

This is not Saturn. This is Pluto. Pluto has uncovered something huge. Neptune is another planet that seems to have a link to these concepts. That planet that covers and reveals and changes according to an unknown rulebook. Linking to ideology. Linking to philosophy and all sorts of hidden psychological and sometimes, grindingly painful, things. 

To me, karma has shaped up a lot to look like this: The world doesn't run on emotions, the world runs according to an incredibly specific and complex set of mechanics. A set of mechanics to which "ethics" in general is relevant to. 

When morals, ethics are happening and things are running fine. Then things work according to some sort of grand plan. But when someone makes a decision that is not in line with ethics. There is a spanner in the works and a whole entire set of mechanics gets pushed off. The person who cheats has a worse relationship with their partner as they have to hide themselves more, then their partner resents them more, and this effects how present they both are for their children. It means they are less able to take on life challenges like say, a problem at the childs school, due to being indulgently concerned with their own problems.

The "karma" being that twenty years later the child holds them accountable for this. This if followed goes back to the original mechanic and cheating.

All this, is more than the simplicity of Saturn. It might include Saturn. But life is more complex than this one planet. It will include, in some way or another, pretty much all planets I would imagine. Because morality, ethics and so karma, are all big and important enough to be involved in "everything". 

Transiting Saturn:

Amongst all this weirdness then, where does Saturn fit in? Saturn that I have said is both karma and not karma?

A few weeks or a month ago of so I was going on two different forums. One was a very female heavy astrology forum. Another was a, basically mixed gender spiritual forum. I was talking in two posts and I think this showed how Saturn can be represented both positively and negatively. In a sense.

The spiritual forum had someone on it that was talking about parenting and how they were basically enabling drug addiction in their child as their form of "love". The astrology forum I was talking to someone that actually explained their astrology and transits to me. And I complimented them on this, and said this was good of them. 

The transit was Saturn conjunct Venus in Pisces. To the drug addict enabler I basically said what was obvious. That I thought that was not at all an expression of love. To the astrology woman. As I already said, I complimented her. 

This seems to me to be the two sides of Saturn and what I think Saturn relates to is "work". Either you have worked well, you have worked hard and done well in whatever task that was. Or you have not done well and are now being pushed back on for the complacency, that correlates, but is not at its core, a moral issue. It's prime meaning is in relation to "work". 

Saturn is the working planet. 

The next part.

In the next part, I will go through how Saturn shows in my own chart and what I have discovered about it's placement in the human design chart. 

Sunday, 9 February 2025

Thoughts on Saturn. Part 1.

FINALLY I am doing this. Although only part 1 as I am still feeling a bit strange in my health. Also, this laptop is malfunctioning.

I summarised in my last post a kind of bottleneck with my various creative thoughts. For the moment that seems to have been solved and I suspect, this is partly due to my NoFap days raising to 10. When it is not clear what to focus on, that energy pushes the most base of the relevant ideas. Which is good. The output that relates to the real world.

Saturn

I recently had a moment, in my working out of various hexagrams and such. Where I realised that Ra Uru Hu was wrong, in my perception, about something in the human design. That sounds absolutely crazy right? Since it was his system. 

It is just my thought, but he was writing about the gate 26. He summarised how it works and stated that when there is a certain issue. The gate 44 arrives to guide or explain to the gate 26 what's what.

No, this isn't true. The reason I believe it isn't true is that energy flows up the chart. Gate 44 is below gate 26 so gate 26 picks information out of what the gate 44 offers or experiences. It does not flow the other way. Gate 25 does not flow down to gate 51. Gate 30 doesn't flow down to gate 41. Below the throat, the energy just goes up. 

It's interesting how the mind works. I have had a fair few thoughts on the design that have strained themselves against Ra Uru Hu's teaching on it. But they have not crossed the barrier to expression. Because, I suppose, I don't want to be wrong; and while I think Ra Uru Hu is probably right on most things. Expressing views different from his means I might be wrong. 

But then when that is broken with the thought process above. That entire thing broke and my thoughts on Saturn, that are also different from Ra's, suddenly became easier to express.

I am just stating that out loud because I think that is very interesting. Paying attention to Ra Uru Hu's teachings was never pushed on me with any sort of force. I just didn't want to be wrong. But it's interesting how the brain universalises stuff like this and I wonder in how many different areas of peoples lives must this be happening. That feels like a whole universe of thoughts just there!  

My chart:

Here is my chart. I'm going to explain my Saturn placements that reveal exactly my age. Not showing my age is why the placements either side of this chart are cropped out. But, the insecurity remains so despite explaining my Saturn placements, I am still going to leave this cropped version of my chart. 

There are three separate thoughts I want to communicate. All of them to do with Saturn. This blog will be heavy on my own experience because I always think it is the area that we all know best. I know my life and my chart because I live with them 24/7. That is a lot of information. I realise this might seem egotistical but I genuinely believe this is a good way to get information. It's also just the message that is there for me to express. I did not really think about it too much.

The three sections are the transits. Just one insight into the Saturn transits I had recently, this is literally just insights from online forum chatting. Then, my conscious Saturn in gate 5.4, a placement I could not gain any insight into for years, but now I have through my weight loss journey. Then, the unconscious Saturn in gate 26.4 and an insight via my grieving process. Including having insights into the difference between conscious and unconscious. 

The Ra Uru Hu statement on Saturn, the one literally on the website, that I don't agree with is as follows: He stated that Saturn was karma in a sense and that when he does something bad he gets a small punishment from Saturn. The reward is, when he doesn't do anything bad, he doesn't get it. 

Not at all my experience and it doesn't line up with my theory and understanding of Saturn.

I am going to state that Saturn is not in fact karma. What it might be and it's positive manifestation as well. 

 


Tuesday, 4 February 2025

Too many rice bowls.

I wanted to write for the title "too many plates". But spinning plates is a term used for dating multiple people at once, and I'm just not that cool. So rice bowls will have to do. 

At the moment, for me, things are so profound that I can't quite capture all the information I have into a coherent message. 

Uranus is now direct in gate 23.5. This theme is very relevant to someone I know, a family member, this specific transit including when Uranus was in 23.5 before. I do not have gate 23 though, or gate 43. Neptune is soon to be leaving gate 36, and as it does I have had two huge insights. One, is simply too large to talk about now, it needs to be processed before it can be expressed. The second of these two insights is that a friend of mine from the past, who is often relevant to Neptune transits, has gate 36 in his incarnation cross. These two things, the transit, the big potentially life changing insight, and the person, are all connected. 

Then we have my final understanding of the movement of Pluto that I have obsessed about for a few months now. Now that Pluto is in gate 41, how it links with my life and gate 60 makes a lot of sense. 

Then I have had insights into the fact that gate 41 is a new cycle, and exactly how important that is. And gate 25 is also a new cycle. As relevant to the tarot I have talked about previously.

All that added together is too much and I have nothing to say. The two outer planets in relation to other peoples charts might contain wisdom such that relates to how the human design is experienced in general. It feels good to capture how we are all 'linked' as the Law of One states. But in a practical way that can be understood. 

All this together might bring an insight into how to translate transits or something; and/ or they could be unified under some wisdom I decide from all this. Or, there might be some energy or thing in my real life that unifies all this. Such as NoFap or Music. 

But the takeaway is at the moment that it is all too much to articulate. So this is where I am at the moment.

Tuesday, 21 January 2025

Political betrayal.

Wow, weight loss is hard. Not too hard. There are things I can do for results (gym has traditionally dropped me by about 1kg and have not done cold plunges yet). But moments of restricting diet and moderating exercise and all that. It is a bit of an energy suck. 

I had some thoughts on Saturn. What it really means etc. But, at the moment I am kind of in shock. The reason I am in shock is because of this tweet:

Trump has really got on with things since coming into office. A lot of the sacred cows of the left have... well, it's been a sacred cow genocide. DEI, immigration. It is all on the chopping block. 

I was listening to Stefan Molyneux the other day, who said, when asked, that in the near future with the Trump presidency. A lot of people will start to have mental health problems because they honestly believed they were doing good. But, in fact, they were not doing any good at all. If you think of people that are pro welfare state and all that. But when Trump comes in and actually does good they will experience, realise, that they never intended to do good.

There is an element of Stefan Molyneux's output that I had a hard time accepting. Seeing people a little on the surface perhaps sometimes. I thought that that was somehow wrong. Because I felt, through dealing with people, that a lot of left wing people are good people. 

I do still believe that. I was listening to someone the other day say how they had made a real sacrifice to help someone in the healthcare field they work in. A real sacrifice that shouldn't've been asked from them. Then in the next sentence say how Elon Musk shouldn't be interfering in British Politics by talking about Rotherham and such.

I am starting to suspect, that in such a person. There is a lot of goodness on the surface, but the moral destitution of their political beliefs is not as irrelevant to their psychology as I had thought. I do think now that the part of them that is locked away in formulaic political beliefs IS a part of them that is not moral. I think when things happen out in the political world, these things influence said people. 

But below the conscious. When these things happen out in the political world these people start to experience more stress. But they can't identify why that is. 

Political betrayal.

I live in a strongly left wing part of England. We had one of the highest Remain votes in the EU referendum. I don't know anyone who is not left wing. 

I have not developed any new friendships after my old ones died. Not working. Not getting on with anyone when I did work. But, my friendships sometimes ended in "interventions" from people that wanted me to be more left wing than I was.

It has become clear to me all of a sudden that if I had been in America, as an American at the January 6th event. ALL these friends, and family, would have betrayed me. They really are quite fanatically left wing a lot of them. 

It is a hard thing to not have friends. To have human connection with people outside family virtually non existent. I think that this and various life situations have lead me to not really be able to move on from said friends. But I realise now, that moving forward in my life. It would be better to know new people, or none at all. Because those "friends" are just not virtuous human beings. They have ALL had ample opportunity to apologise, or relate like non cult human beings.

Tough pill to swallow.

So yeah, that is a bit of a shock for me. That insight. It is a very happy thing for a lot of people I think that the left is finally getting some pushback.


Tuesday, 14 January 2025

The world moving forward.

It took quite a bit of prayer to get to a place where I want to do a blog. Before that, I did not feel like I had anything to say. Everything I thought of seemed like a bit of a "grudge". A bit petty. 

Prayer and energy work seems to be slightly harder to get results from recently. 

As I get to about four or five days of NoFap. My energy massively changes and all of a sudden, I am annoyed and a bit repelled by a lot of 'online life'. I don't want to watch another episode of whatever series I am binge watching. The fact I get almost no interaction on twitter annoys me. Plus, I look over the tweets there and think nothing is that interesting. 

It's a very good trend. I feel more content within myself. I feel more determined to spend my time doing something relevant. 

The path of the world moving forward. 

I am thinking lately about the massive amount of general slovenliness and degeneracy that the world experiences. How it reflects in every part of our lives. I have said a lot of this stuff recently when speaking on a Law of One forum, in relation to the future and the human design chart:

I see it in that in gate 41, the rejection of objective reality will be a long and painful process of arrests and all that stuff. A slow judicial thing. Every hospital worker who deliberately prioritised people that got the totalitarian medical treatment as an example. Paternaity fraud. People that voted against the interests of their loved ones. New age people want to get on with mass arrests and largely brush over the need for accountability. But in my view that's not what the higher forces want. Because accountability is largely why we are here.

 

Not a one day mass arrest like David Wilcock talks about. Objective reality is difficult for people. To really understand how people have been fooled. To know it, to discuss it I think will happen way before any ET contact or high level technology is released and this will allow people to polarise more effectively. The kind of power that comes with this information can be misused, such as by someone like David Wilcock. Who would popularise this information and discuss it to distract from his fraudulent business practices. -> The biggest barrier to the disclosure David talks about is people exactly like David Wilcock.

This is where I think we are going in the next 4 years or so until Pluto enters the gate 19. A lot of the new age types, like is said here, want the golden age to be TOMORROW. But I just don't see things working out like that. I see it more of a slow grind. 

I take this partly from the fact that new age, Q adjacent types of peeps have wanted the golden age TOMORROW, from the beginning of time. Including, everybody waiting while Pluto was in gate 60, as it is for about seven more days. 

I covered in a previous video about how I experienced gate 60. It was slow. Not immediate. First there was a limitation, then I realised the limitation and incorrectly assigned causation to it. Then that got deeper and I got closer to making sense but was still fundamentally incorrect. The energy of Pluto arrives and says "We are working on limitation now". It doesn't jump off into another thing, we are sat there working on the limitation.

That's what I think Pluto in gate 41 will be. Trump will get in and nothing will immediately change. But behind the scenes things will. DEI will be recalled. People running about doing crazy things like these FEMA peeps will start to be investigated. The Ukraine Russia war will be stopped. Trump will leave supernational globalist groups. 

This will start to effect other countries. They won't be able to send money to Ukraine. Their right wing politicians will be more protected being connected to Trump. The criminal gangs being taken care of will make things harder for criminals. Economic competition and news sources will highlight that America is doing amazingly by getting rid of DEI. 

Then these changes need time to work. Pluto needs time to grind away. Gate 30 people need to feel the pressure. 

I have an idea for another video. To explain all this more succinctly.

Monday, 6 January 2025

Accountability and Grief.

I try to keep quiet about dreams because I am not sure about the free will relevance of saying "I had a dream about xyz" and potentially giving that thought more credence. But, the dream, what was communicated in it. Is bugging me enough that I want to put it here. Not what the dream was specifically but the "energy" of it. It is as though I breathed in the deeply emotional vibe of this woman before I saw the video. 

My thoughts though are relevant from these two sources. Not sure what I am going to say yet but this is my jumping off point:

Youtube: Karolina: I wasted an entire year after my breakup. Posted on 6th of January 2025:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FU0Ivh8Kn0

and this:

Life stuff:

There are two sides of this that I want to discuss. One is the everyday life stuff. The thoughts that come from my experience in life. The second is what has come partly from the dream. That is a lot deeper. 

Firstly, the post from "naturallymj" there, is very predictable from female psychology. I have seen this and heard this when women tell their stories from later in life. Womens general appreciation of the power they hold when they are in their twenties is not high. Often with the determination to cast themselves as victims - preventing them acknowledging the almost god like power to direct men they have at that age. They never enjoy the power they have in that part of their lives. Nor do they often notice it until it is gone. 

If you happen to know a girl in her twenties then you can make this case. But they will ignore it. Because they cannot imagine not having the sexual market access they currently have. But as they age, they will slowly reduce the access they have. Bit by bit, day by day. Like ice eroding an entire cliff edge. So one day the shoe will be on the other foot. The power they take for granted will suddenly not be there and they will fly into a rage when the men they want, they no longer have power over. It will be something they have not experienced before.

Then they are "victims". But they are not victims. Especially if you tried to tell them. It's all so damn predictable. When the 20 year old girl rejects any advice even approaching that as it punctures her vanity. You know that five, ten, fifteen years down the line she will become a problem for you, which you might have to deal with in a ruthless manner. Not only that, but she will not be an asset. Because a girl that settles down in her twenties when she can get her best option (who is very likely to be very financially secure and to adore her) is the one that will be happiest and a benefit to those around her. 

Vanity:

So I will discuss this from two perspectives. One is that this gods plan stuff is a cope. And the other is that "God" as such is very much a mystery. 

I have a very mystical/ theological/ new age perspective. When a friend of mine killed herself a few years ago that I was close with. One of the things that helped was going to Near Death Experience books. I also went to the channeling I often mention, and dreams helped. 

But, in dealing with the world. A lot of people are simply fairly anti all that spiritual stuff. In a lot of ways I find this annoying. Because to me, sayings like 'God helps those who help themselves' (not actually a bible verse). That kind of philosophy is relevant. I have talked to people with deep problems that refused to pray. For me, prayer is a solution to many many issues. I have told people previously that if they don't want to pray I have nothing further to tell them because prayer has worked for me so why would I look any further?

They generally have not liked this simple understanding. I have definitely gotten the vibe they wanted me to jump into action to "save" them further. Because they are unwilling to take this basic step in helping themselves. 

But OK, if we are not to do the spiritual stuff. Shall we move onto something else? Relevant at this specific point is that I cannot really prove it. I will respect that people don't want to engage in spirituality if they want, under the Law of Free Will. But I think and feel, get the vibe, that the real reason people want to avoid the spiritual side of things is that they don't want a solution. Because a solution involves some sort of accountability. This happens in other areas of passive aggressive conflict as well. It has taken me a while to articulate a defence against this. But after years, with the help of Stefan Molyneux's podcast. I have done so. 

This does have relevance to the subject matter. It is not completely a tangent. It links back. 

One of the true satisfactions I have had in life. After people reject spirituality. Is learning the language of a secular understanding of all these things. People have no defence against this because, they are explicitly anti spiritual. Usually left wing and generally anti Christian. So they have submitted themselves, pushed a little and promoted Darwiniism as a world view. So it's hard for them to justify anything against that. 

Under a secular world view then. The reason we are here is to have children. Under Darwiniism. That is the point of life. Not doing so is selfishness because our millions of ancestors all made that sacrifice for us. But also, the conscience is there for a purpose. That part of us that gets upset, and bitter, and all of it. The purpose of the conscience, well let's quote the man himself:

So the conscience is to align us with the rules of life that we know benefit the species. It is the most workable thing to have a loyal monogamous relationship for child rearing. It is the most workable thing for civilisation and tribal life if no one initiates the use of force for personal gain (this is separate from defensive violence).

This is where I would go with this:

Just do nothing:

The problem I have with the response on the 'naturallymj' tweet, and many, many of them are like that. Is that it sidesteps any accountability. The fact that this is the only one she answered shows something. If women as a whole, in our global tribe, are being overly vain in their youth and misusing the only true power women have. Then, acknowledging that and in some small way trying to help other young girls avoid that might be something worth doing. Or contributing to political ideologies, such as traditionalism, that already have solutions for that. 

It is known in the 'red pill' that if men go through a horrible thing. They will try and advise the next generation on how to avoid it. If women make horrible decisions. They tend to justify those decisions and in so doing, they tend to encourage the next generation of women to do exactly the same things. 

In our society this is also the path of least resistance. Just go with the crowd. "Have fun" in your 20's. Don't be a 'brood mare'. Etc. etc. 

But in actual fact all these women are doing is spreading poison. Either push the message that girls should push against their galactic sized vanity. Or, you are not aligned with universal morals. And your conscience will continue to torment you.

The 'Gods plan' avoiding accountability tweet. That will make her feel good very briefly. It is designed to make her avoid accountability. But eventually her conscience will smite her again. 

And deeper:

Nevertheless. I should say, that in my personal life. I cannot really apply "accountability" and it is something I am trying to handle. Emotionally. Regardless of where the grief springs from, it is still the same emotion. 

I was ill when I was young and my life has basically been obliterated as far as I can tell. At least to the outward world. Barring some sort of 'QAnon' golden age type thing, as I talk about sometimes. 

I do not have any qualifications to give me status. Or relationship experience that would give me the knowledge I need to conduct myself well and, what would probably be needed is to have kids in the next few years, and I am still ill so probably wouldn't have the energy for that. As far as I can tell it is somewhat over for me in terms of mainstream, material success. Again, barring large societal change that might indeed come. 

Accepting this is difficult. I recognise that I have engaged in a lot of self delusion things might still work out. I might still gain something, some life satisfaction or expression of important spiritual truths or music as an example. But, against the general competition of the world, status in any practical form is unlikely.

For me personally then. The grief needs to in some way be processed despite accountability expressly NOT being able to be accepted. There was nothing I could have done. The acceptance is partly that there was nothing I could do. I was at the mercy of circumstance.

I obviously can't say that these women took the wrong choices. For instance, when I was young I wanted to be a famous musician. Things I have learned about the music industry since have convinced me I would probably have been killed if I had gained success there. Like Phil Ochs. When we look at the world we project out what would have happened but we can never be even remotely accurate in that. Some marriages that seemed to be going well for the first few years have ended horribly.

Ultimately, even though a lot of people have persuasive answers. The fact that life is a giant mystery remains very central to understanding and living it. I am NOT in fact an atheist, so I don't consider a secular world view to be dominant. But I still can't stand arrogance.

Friday, 3 January 2025

Philosophy, status, valuing people.

This is the video I want to use as a jumping off point today:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ma6CmZRQYOI

This is the worst advice on self help. Jonathan Bi. Posted today 3rd of January. 

Status issues. 

Something I have pondered a little. Like I have mentioned disability has lead to some contemplations on this area. 

This video talks about how we process status. Like, if we all always want status on some level. Or at least with some specific people. The philosopher here asks the question about this area and if it is appropriate or not, to not care what people think. He does this with a dose of instrospection assigning the question to himself and his own experiences. 

So to answer this I will also have to introspect a bit because my psychological and philosophical knowledge here is slightly lacking. I don't have much to draw off. 

One of the things he puts forward is that if you are putting something out and hoping to be respected. Who do you hope to be respected BY? Do you hope to be respected by your audience or your peers and people you look up to?

So I'm going to apply that to myself to attempt to answer this. 

My life.

In my world, toiling in relative obscurity without really any clear goal. If I were to gain status. There is only one way in which that would be a desireable thing that I can think of. But herein already lies a question and one that is relevant to anyone that acknowledges some higher power in their lives. Is what I desire relevant? Or will I be 'guided' along a route to an outcome that is better?

Possibly read too much female inspired new age teachings when I was younger. It often feels women are more "liquid" in their life paths. They respond more to the outside world. 

Putting that aside for a while. The idea that what I want may simply not be relevant. Despite all the material I put out daily. The only thing that I can actually imagine myself doing that would gain me status. Is music. The only thing that is relevant to this conversation because it might propel me to a position where I would associate with people that are fairly high status in my world. People like Stefan Molyneux, Chris Williamson. 

Then all of this human design stuff and such would become a part of my personality that was related to what I talk about when people asked me. But, was not actually what I was known for or my actual profession. It is very workable. Having something to talk about. Making a musician personally accessible in that way. 

So how would I relate to everyone in this situation? The main people that it would matter to would be the people that listened to the music and brought it. How would I then relate to the Chris Williamsons and Stefan Molyneux's of the world? Would it matter what they thought of me? Also, there is another class that is perhaps more relevant to this discussion. Which would be other musicians.

Well firstly, the only reason I would be relating to them is because I had the status from an audience for the music. 

Valuing people.

Stefan Molyneux. I started talking about him but realised him being ostracised so lower in social status, he might not be such a good example. In real terms his social status is higher than almost anyone. In a way that matters to me. I do feel a sense of rage that globalists who I see as bugs compared to Stefan are allowed to censor him. I shouldn't be mean to bugs they have a lot of utility. 

But anyway, back to social status. Maybe I'll go back to Stefan. How would I relate to someone like Chris Williamson? If I do things, create new music, is it important that he and people like that would see that as positive?

I suppose it would be fairly important. Having status means that I would have to have opponents. Other musicians perhaps. 

To me, it seems the truth about status and wanting people to like you is that we want most people to like us. Because it benefits us on a primal level. If people like us they will make things easier for us and give us resources. 

Status also means, that we would be able to, in some way, perhaps not even deliberate. Punish those that have crossed us. It doesn't matter which way you cut it. Status seems like a positive. 

There is a fair amount of relevant information, such as the relating to the archetype of the Moon and what value can be gained in darkness (lack of status). But still, status, that comes from value and people liking you, is a tool. It is like fire for cooking a meal. It is the equivalent of money. It has a lot of uses and there is not a lot of benefit to not wanting to have a tool for it's potential benefits.

Wednesday, 1 January 2025

Thoughts on Jupiter and ones "path".

Wow, I have a lot to say today. I will be getting to human design after a personal story so feel free to scan. I will also talk about the Law of One, as applied to my personal story, so probably mid way through. 

Personally, I am doing an 'anti new year' thing. Today is the day I am pissed off with my current goals and coming off them. I have started dieting and such since the 22nd of November. Putting together a lot of theories about the best way to lose weight and putting those things into practice.

So, one of the things I would do is if I would have some sugar. I would walk that same amount of sugar off. It would normally take about 3 hours. Then on top of that I would do the gym (almost exclusively weights). This worked a fair few times. I would go down by a kilogram in a day due to this. Like, immediately after the gym. 

I would also mainly eat salad and soup. I would make a root veg meal in the slow cooker and make a salad. So outside of that, I wouldn't eat a great deal. I did make an exception for Christmas. But not massively so. There were a few hickups where medically I couldn't restrict my eating. 

A lower resistance line. 

In stock trading. There is something called a resistance line. It is a point in the graph where the stock does not go above or below. As an example, I have a company called 'Weirdos are us'. It trades at £10 a share. It goes up and down all the time but whenever it goes down to £8 it immediately bounces up. On a long timeline of say, ten years, this resistance line might hold and the stock never goes below that. 

Then something happens and the stock DOES go below £8. Then, for the next thirty years or so. The stock has a higher limit of £8. Like, it will never go above that. This is based on a real stock analysis I have seen and those are accurate timelines. The stock waited decades and remembered it's resistance line when doing on a surge. 

My resistance line was 84.4 - 84.8. Every time it gets in that range it bounces up. But since I knew this. I was fully prepared. I did all the things yesterday and I felt pretty bad. Walking off all your sugar and eating mostly root vegetable soup causes ketosis. A kind of acidic sense in the blood. Which comes with a nausea depending on how severe it is. Only very very light at this level. But worth mentioning. 

So I would feel pretty bad. As I have a few times on this diet. I have laid in bed knowing I am in ketosis and putting off when I eat normal food and start processing sugar instead. Which I do think is more healthy and feels better. 

I felt bad yesterday for a few reasons. What did I get for my trouble? I GAINED weight. The resistance line is undefeated and I did everything perfectly yesterday.  

So, against the pressure of feeling truly crap. Being sick of soup and salad. I am eating cake. 

I plan to try different things and see what their effect is. For example. I have been prioritising weights at the gym. I hope to do a thirty minute aerobic session and see it's effect on my weight. For the moment though. There are no other diets or plans until I get a better idea of how to do this. 

Philosophy on such things:

My life has crumbled slightly since the weight loss attempts. I prioritise the over all things. If getting a job was a legitimate option as I see it, I would prioritise that. Having money for very healthy and luxurious food, plus a routine. Would help. A large fruit salad is a so far effective weight loss technique I can't afford. 

So, I'm behind on shaving and need to do some tidying. I have not prioritised music that is something that never feels good. I have not prioritised meditation. In fact, despite the re realisation of the power of meditation. I have not been doing it at all. Because mostly I feel dreadful.

I... question the health, in general, of a process that means you have to completely prioritise it like that. i have no real reason to think that. But for me... 'The path', has always seemed to have come with a higher self sense that all the different parts come together under a single unified purpose. 

I will talk about this a bit more when I get to the human design side of things. 

It reminds me of this excerpt from the Law of One:

Session 18.5:

Ra: I am Ra. The proper role of the entity is in this density to experience all things desired, to then analyze, understand, and accept these experiences, distilling from them the love/light within them. Nothing shall be overcome. That which is not needed falls away.

... Nothing shall be overcome, that which is not needed falls away.

It talks more about how unhealthy 'overcoming' is. The method of going full throttle is definitely an act of trying to overcome. 

New Years insights and the power of Jupiter. 

I said recently, about five posts ago, that Stefan Molyneux had identified an interesting emotion when doing a podcast. That he felt that the way his path had worked out kind of satisfied a need, a desire for a kind of revenge. The standards the world has placed on him when then turned on the amoral. When I heard about this I thought 'That is definitely hexagram 39' out of all of Stefan's other hexagrams. 

Here is his chart:

Now here is the chart for someone else. Pearl Davis:
 

On New Years Eve. Pearl Davis did a show called something like "The 2024 awards". It was the award for the best catfish and was undoubtably partly motivated by womens constant trolling of her based on this. 

She said a few times the different things women say against her, like that this is engagement farming, but that she wanted to do this because it is really funny. (Gate 58... Joy!)

Her platform is a large part showed by gate 18 in her North Node. Her destiny. I have been thinking a bit recently as to how completely two hexagrams become a channel. 

My point is, is that with Stefan Molyneux, his conscious Jupiter is in gate 56. That is to do with expressing of abstract information. So Stefans destiny as a philosopher is expressed here.

The same with Pearl. Pearl has the gate 38. So that is another positive side of her 'path' or 'message' in a sense. She is very much against women "complaining" and being a "victim". As shown by the gate 38.

The down and outs.

Then I went back through people I have known that are... "losers". Or messed up in other ways. Sometimes just really young and not making good choices. 

What I found interesting was the impactful, the punch of the "revenge" type of thought was very much there in those same people. But the POSITIVE side of Jupiter, was not expressed by these same people. 

So, it is likely that in people that are 'unpolarised' or 'not self'. The unconscious Jupiter being the body works find but it is not aligned by the positive.

This starts to take me in the direction that I used to have when I was younger. That people are either on or not on their spiritual path. 

Anyway, this is the end of this post my energy has given out.