That was a surprise part 2

Yes, it is still a surprise. I have not recovered from. 

Catalyst is an interesting thing as discussed in the Law of One material and how such teachings manifest organically in my life. Quite often, when I get to really intense personal periods is when I suddenly have a whole bunch of insights.

In the specific case, there are two parts of me which I use to deal with the world. This is all new personal information. One is that there is a kind of QAnon/ Law of One type of mindset. One that has a lot of faith in these kinds of things. Second is a kind of Stefan Molyneux/ philosophy/ my own general skepticism mindset. It might be difficult to imagine I have that second side since my general output is so spiritual and such. But it is there.

The second one that I have for a long time thought was more reliable, relating the first one to schizophrenic tendencies. Has kind of fallen by the wayside after the election. Sitting on election night having been scared a few weeks previously of a Democrat win, I checked the human design transits and saw 1.1. Then a few more synchronicities and I could not undo that feeling. 

The result of said election where there was simply no deep state presence at anywhere near the level it has previously been. Plus, I have noted it being missing even before that. It leads me to think that the QAnon narrative I originally understood. Many specifics in that area. Is correct. This is quite a fundamental rewiring of my brain. I never stated I didn't believe in it. But I have generally not been interested in pursuing any understanding in this area, and my faith in it has definitely emotionally wavered before November 5th.

I want to, as I said in my last post, get back to doing youtube vidoes and blogging. Even though there is no direct benefit for me to be doing those things. I'm not getting paid. So there is no reason for me to push myself to do it when it is not easily accessible as a kind of leisure activity. But I do still want to do it. 

Nevertheless though, I am still recovering from this sudden shift in my beliefs.