The human design new year, gates 61, 60 and 41.

Reflecting on the human design chart:

It's very frustrating working with something so obscure and abstract as astrology in general and the human design. While I am sure it is true. I seem to be often guided to and have insights that it is the tool to use at any given time. The strange art of watching signs in the sky to be timed with subtle changes in reality, just subtle coincidences in life. Is all rather passive in a sense.

But nevertheless, I do believe it, it is to some extent my "faith". 

One of the patters that has seemed clear to me since looking at this system, and astrology in general. Is the obvious logic that if something is going to change. Then the moments before it actually does is a period where the LEAST change is happening. Change only happens when the forces pushing for it have overcome the resistance to such change. So it breaks a bit like a damn in a sense. 

The Human Design New Year is coming around January 22nd. I tend to feel things kind of stagnate a bit in this period. Our modern rituals put New Year a few weeks before obviously. Right around the time when the Sun is in gate 38. it then goes through 54 - 61 - 60, then the new hexagram is gate 41. 

There's a lot to explain here. Gate 61 is a kind of enlightenment of sorts. It is the beginning of the mystical or psychological process. This is equal to the Religious (64-47) and scientific (63-4). In January 2020, Saturn and Pluto conjunct at gate 61. This provided, in my reading, a huge burst of energy that 'enlightened' the world. The light provided was that circumstances revealed a lot of peoples inner nature to the world. We all of a sudden knew who would turn against us for political disagreements. 

The following hexagram is gate 60. Because as we can see in the world. After that light is revealed. Oftentimes, it is inconvenient. It has definitely been inconvenient in this example. People want to sweep it under the rug. To forget. But the limitation, gate 60, prevents that. Everything clams up and gets stuck. There is no new situations to celebrate. No new partners. No new jobs. The situation must be dealt with. All the hidden limitations come to the fore. 

Gate 60 has deep spiritual implications. It is a gate I have worked with closely in examining and understanding my "not self". What the real limitations are matters in this space. Because what our limitations are, are not always obvious. Sometimes, for example, we think what was actually a physical issue, was a mental issue, or just bad luck. There are literal layers that have to sometimes be uncovered to see our real limitations. 

It matters what the real limitations are, because it is not at all clear what the path forward, as shown by the gate 41 is, if said limitations cannot be seen.  

Gate 41, is big though. It feeds directly into gate 30. Which I believe shows, in the not self, the madness of certain left wing beliefs and it's link to narcissism. Relating to Chiron and Neptunes meeting in gate 30 in February 2010. 

Gate 41 correlates with evolutionary psychology. It's descriptions as 'Decrease', could also link to issues with the economy, although I have never observed that happen. 

Regardless, where I am going with this is that it is my hope that something politically significant will come with this transit. Venus is actually currently in gate 41.2. Once the sun goes there, Mars will also follow. They are not all out of the gate 41 (aside from Pluto that is long term transitting), until February 2nd when Mars leaves.  

Like I say, it is all too maddeningly abstract. But it would be interesting to think about.  

The Law of One and sending love and light.

I have been reading the Law of One. There was something in session 66 which I just cannot get a handle on. Something like, that if someone uses an illness to improve their life, it becomes more difficult to cure that illness. 

Very confusing. Something I have to turn over in my head. 

Anyway, this from session before the point that I found interesting:

Questioner: I will ask if I am correct in this analysis. We would consider that the entity making this so-called attack is offering its service with respect to its distortion in our polarized condition now so that we may more fully appreciate its polarity, and we are appreciative and thank this entity for its attempt to serve our One Creator in bringing to us knowledge in, shall I say, a more complete sense. Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. There is no correctness or incorrectness to your statement. It is an expression of a positively polarized and balanced view of negatively polarized actions which has the effect of debilitating the strength of the negatively polarized actions.

This, in general, is a very odd perspective. That negative people in the world should be kind of appreciated. 

This was the interesting line for me though, when I last read it: 

Questioner: Then how could we solve this paradox?

Ra: I am Ra. Consider, if you will, that you have no ability not to serve the Creator since all is the Creator. In your individual growth patterns appear the basic third-density choice. Further, there are overlaid memories of the positive polarizations of your home density. Thus your particular orientation is strongly polarized towards service to others and has attained wisdom as well as compassion.

You do not have merely two opposite requests for service. You will find an infinite array of contradictory requests for information or lack of information from this source if you listen carefully to those whose voices you may hear. This is all one voice to which you resonate upon a certain frequency. This frequency determines your choice of service to the One Creator. As it happens this group’s vibratory patterns and those of Ra are compatible and enable us to speak through this instrument with your support. This is a function of free will.

A portion, seemingly, of the Creator rejoices at your choice to question us regarding the evolution of spirit. A seemingly separate portion would wish for multitudinous answers to a great range of queries of a specific nature. Another seemingly separate group of your peoples would wish this correspondence through this instrument to cease, feeling it to be of a negative nature. Upon the many other planes of existence there are those whose every fiber rejoices at your service and those such as the entity of whom you have been speaking which wish only to terminate the life upon the third-density plane of this instrument. All are the Creator. There is one vast panoply of biases and distortions, colors and hues, in an unending pattern. In the case of those with whom you, as entities and as a group, are not in resonance, you wish them love, light, peace, joy, and bid them well. No more than this can you do for your portion of the Creator is as it is and your experience and offering of experience, to be valuable, needs be more and more a perfect representation of who you truly are. Could you, then, serve a negative entity by offering the instrument’s life? It is unlikely that you would find this a true service. Thus you may see in many cases the loving balance being achieved, the love being offered, light being sent, and the service of the service-to-self oriented entity gratefully acknowledged while being rejected as not being useful in your journey at this time. Thus you serve One Creator without paradox.

The reason this is interesting to me. Is that "sending love and light" to people that I do not get on with is something I have mulled over for a long time. I had thought that it is strictly not the right thing to do because it is a violation of free will. But this session seems to indicate that it should be sent to this purely malevolent entity that DEFINITELY would not consent to it under free will. 

I have not found it to be effective to pray for others without permission. That DOES seem to be more of a free will issue. But sending love might not have been as bad as I had initially thought. I have decided many times NOT to send love, thinking it to not be positive. But this quote blows that out of the water. 

But perhaps it is in fact fine. Also, I used to be able to write music, I used to flow more often. Now I am coming up with lyrics less often. This is probably just age. But I do wonder, when I was younger, if I fell out with someone, often a hot girl, I would still feel love due to that testosterone/ idealism type of thing that young men have. So I wonder, if I send love, it would allow me to continue with a lot of songs. In order to articulate a lot of the complexity in a situation. Love perhaps still needs to be involved. 

Reflections on societal responsibility.

This is a video I want to make a comment on today. Not a particularly direct comment:

Youtube: Chiara: Musings on the G center in human design. Dated 12th of January:

https://youtu.be/OR2094DLhpY?si=x7JNjKceWcLjZM4i

These sorts of casual discussions on the human design I have always found to be very useful. Often when people get overly confined to structure they miss out the benefits of a story that has little insights within it.  

While watching this video I had an insight on responsibility/ accountability in general. It strikes me that having a human design chart in front of a person. Having the person they could ideally be, I suppose. Might change some of what we feel about them. 

The quote earlier that I wrestled with about "love being our involuntary response to virtue if we are virtuous". Might link to this. It is not a thought I have completed. But it is interesting. 

I used to know a girl with an undefined G. I have said this before, but I have to repeat it here for context. We were friends but I was not well enough for actual sex. So we played about a bit but nothing serious. We spent a lot of time together though, but she was borderline. With severe mental issues. Putting it lightly. And she jumped off a cliff.

I have wrestled with the very masculine, self help or philosophical idea of one hundred percent responsibility. I believe it makes sense. It is the opposite to a powerless perspective. 

But I have wrestled a little bit with it as it applies to me personally. Since I have a serious medical condition, and it is only recently that I have been kind of... well. I have had a lot of issues because of this. The medical condition really screwed me up. Issues with anger and such like that. 

So, it seems to me that it is hard to take responsibility for a previous situation, emotionally. This is the issue I think with the discussion on responsibility in general. For me.  The emotional element. When it is discussed and people are challenged it is often strongly emphasized. It is very what I would have once called a "neurotypical way of thinking". That every single thing needs to be processed emotionally to be "real". 

But the insight I had as to how I interacted with this girl. I have a defined G, and all the additional things that provide context to that for me. How, as the defined G, I could have explained of modelled certain things. It stung. But it also got past that emotional difficulty. Regardless of what the emotions are. I can see the best way things could have gone down in a way they didn't, and it doesn't have any emotional connection. 

It's like listening to someone complain about money, and the larger economy, when you know fully well their voting choices have created this issue. There are many issues I think, with how much blame should lay on people voting destructively. You could say that people are tricked. That the negative has fashioned the world in a way that someone going to put a tick in a box in a voting booth creates galactic level crimes and this is an unfair trick. Or you could say that no, those people voted the way they did. Often bullied and socially ostracised others based on said propaganda, and they need to take emotional responsibility. 

The middle route is, it doesn't matter, I cannot know and do not care about this emotional element. But we can describe and explain the mechanical element in the chart. Person held this political idea and it moved xy and z parts of the chart into the not self, as an example! 

 

Getting it wrong.

Even though my ideas on stopping prayer, still make complete sense to me logically. In experiential terms, it has not. 

I do apologise. Lately I seem to be feeling around in the dark a little in order to find spiritual insights and general ways of improving.

I have reverted those posts to drafts. So they are not visible any longer. Since it makes no sense to put out something I don't believe is true. There have been other posts previously which I was not quite sure were true or not. But I left them up. Since there were parts of the reasoning that were still legitimate. But this one there was nothing, I don't think, that was legitimate. 

So, I made a post with a few ideas about prayer. The reasoning still might be sound... In theory. But when it comes to real life it is not practical.  

I have also wondered along with this if separating myself from the Q'uo readings is not completely correct. For two reasons: A) The Law of One contact said that Carla was doing very well in her alignment with the Creator. B) She was a very talented channel. So she can channel, and those entities speaking through her are not just her. 

I went on the lawofone.info site links recently. Going through some blogs and such. The retardation is strong. One of the articles I saw was titled: "Charlie Kirks strategic targetting of minorities".

The attitude towards left wing individuals is something I have not quite solved. While I do take Stefan Molyneux's viewpoints on a lot of things. I do agree with the theory again strongly. There is not really a way to get out of 'taxation is the initiation of the use of force' and such. It's not as clear in my experience that all left wingers are inherently 'sinful', and the Law of One does not cast the situation on Earth to be a fight we are involved in. Which makes the left less dangerous. Being less like people that might destroy civilisation, and more like a population to be managed by higher angelic forces.

There is a mega powerful transit coming. Four planets in gate 61. Maybe I'll go into that. But I just wanted to mention it. 

 

 

Session 61.9. Subjectivity.

Firstly starting off with a reflection on this Q and A from the Law of One:

Questioner: This brings out the point of the purpose for the physical incarnation, I believe. And that is to reach a conviction through your own thought processes as to a solution to problems and understandings in a totally unbiased or totally free situation with no proof at all or anything that you would consider proof, proof being a very poor word in itself. Can you expand on my concept?

Ra: I am Ra. Your opinion is an eloquent one although somewhat confused in its connections between the freedom expressed by subjective knowing and the freedom expressed by subjective acceptance. There is a significant distinction between the two.

This is not a dimension of knowing, even subjectively, due to the lack of overview of cosmic and other inpourings which affect each and every situation which produces catalyst. The subjective acceptance of that which is at the moment and the finding of love within that moment is the greater freedom.

That known as the subjective knowing without proof is, in some degree, a poor friend for there will be anomalies no matter how much information is garnered due to the distortions which form third density. 

Subject knowing versus subjective acceptance! 

This session and answer has definitely joined a few neurons in my brain. Provided a kind of answer to a very internal query. 

There is a bit of a trap that a person can find themselves in I think. When looking for truth. Weighing up a belief in a larger spiritual reality, which cannot be completely justified objectively. For instance, in the Law of One. 

The trap is, I think, that if you have to throw out objectivity to some extent. The tendency is to fall back on a subjective truth. The reality becomes that the subjective has larger meaning. Perhaps based on a religious or spiritual experience of some sort. 

But then subjective knowing and subjective acceptance are not distinguished between and I will do my best to explain what I think each does mean:

Subjective acceptance: This is something that I cannot justify why it is a virtue. But is talked about in the Law of One. Subjective acceptance is that our subjective experiences are accepted. So if we do have a spiritual experience that is purely subjective. We do not pretend it didn't happen. That this extends to accepting what is going on in our lives and what that would mean in general. So it kind of becomes objective eventually. 

Subjective knowing: Subjective information. Like let's say a lot of this information, such as talked about by the Law of One. Becomes kind of formalised, in New Age beliefs as an example. If we were to take the belief that life is a set of lessons that are planned by higher forces. Then we can impute that belief onto the real world. It can become dogmatic. 

This means that we really can be sure of very little. To restrict our experience to subjective acceptance, rather than subjective knowing that would seem to come from that.  

Writing Smut.

Root issues. 

I have talked recently about root energy issues in general.

I think about sex a bit. But not just in the way that all guys, and probably all people do. Like experiences I would like to have or whatever/ girls I want. But, I am not well, do not have money and really lack energy even if I did get a relationship, or so much as a female friendship. I am left with the drive but nowhere for it to go. 

The law of One vaguely advises on this. They say that if a person has a fantasy that is 'not consonant with the Law of One'. So, there are all sorts of unhealthy and unethical things we fantasize about. The best way to handle it is to play it out in the imagination. 

To me, I wondered for a while, if I could take that 'imagined' scenarios and put them in written form. Create another of what female writers in general like so much. A smut story. But a male one obviously. There are plenty of these stories on the internet already. 

This comes up in relation to my chart. I have the gate 58.2: A genius for perverse stimulation that afflicts oneself and others by promoting degeneracy and reducing joy to indulgence and decadence. 

Perspective.

I have often either wrote or wanted to write these stories. But I have often also, felt they were debased and wrong. Especially when I include real people in them. Like, people I know in the real world. So I have often ended up deleting them. But they are kind of good. I am able to write these stories.

Partly to push against this tendency I have tried my hand at writing normal stories. But just stories that are about mine and others ideal future. The trouble with these stories though. Is that they are no good. They are ridiculously cheesie in a way. It is like I am just suited to write the smut stories and do not enjoy writing normal stories. As though I just have more inclination and motivation. I get completely there would be more motivation to explore something carnal than something of any particular higher meaning. The carnal stuff comes first. 

The reason I have previously stopped with these stories is because they are debased, and because I have worried that writing them effects my real life negatively. Like, if I were to talk to someone my conception of them might be effected by these smut stories going through my mind. This is also in relation to metaphysical things that might be effecting things. In the New Age and Law of One those thought based effects on reality are considered very real. 

BUT, I realise this is not necessarily correct. Since, there is no physical effect of this reality. I have got no effect of positively getting on with any of these people, or people similar to them. From not doing those stories. 

When I am writing those stories and I attribute my lack of social success to potentially those stories. That is completely wrong. I just need to push on and not let the idea effect me.

Human Design:

Today, Venus is in gate 58.5 which I also have, and often correlates with ideas about writing these kinds of stories. It is not clear from the white book if this clarifies anything. But it is about whether or not someone succumbs to temptations. 

This doesn't mean I definitely will create these stories. Just that thinking through the various factors that impact it.  

We all get down sometimes.

At the moment. I am "unconnected". I don't know if everyone knows what that means. But I think everyone knows what it is like to feel "out of sorts" in some manner or other. Everyone has a kind of flow state where things work better, and a less than flow state where things feel a bit more "out of tune". 

It is likely health issue linked. I can't get on with meditation when I have a health problem, and that is the literal base of my spirituality. I am also thinking something over in the Law of One, so not reading further. Reading a session is usually pretty fantastic in general.

I think this time is productive though. I think I am working through something about how life works and such. Things that I need to accept about myself. 

This shift might be coming since I have shifted my way of processing, as previously discussed, and perfectly in line with transiting Pluto leaving gate 60.6 and entering gate 41.1. The shift is... no more energy healing... Only prayer is ever used by me. 

My plan is... getting back to meditation. After, sleeping properly. I normally sleep very well, but only seem to stay asleep for a few hours at a time at the moment. I DID notice huge shifts in my mental perspective that are interesting, having been on low sleep and having just slept. But those are reflections for other times.

I am also seriously questioning my tendency towards prayer, the rote prayers I do often. It feels very unsafe to stop it and I do get benefits from it. But I've noticed it is a bit of an energy drain. I have this set of prayers which I use from a book before I go to bed that even seem to have a positive effect on others. BUT, there is something draining and not right about it, and something more refreshing about the dreams when I do not pray. I do not get this sensation with prayers I have created, they don't have a connected energy drain. But I think maybe the language and my sensation of a general liberal leaning (the prayer for the good of the world includes the word 'racism'), are starting to mean that these prayers are not good for me.   

Anyway, that's all. I decided to make this post because I am quite sure it is a post that others relate to.