Accountability and Grief.

I try to keep quiet about dreams because I am not sure about the free will relevance of saying "I had a dream about xyz" and potentially giving that thought more credence. But, the dream, what was communicated in it. Is bugging me enough that I want to put it here. Not what the dream was specifically but the "energy" of it. It is as though I breathed in the deeply emotional vibe of this woman before I saw the video. 

My thoughts though are relevant from these two sources. Not sure what I am going to say yet but this is my jumping off point:

Youtube: Karolina: I wasted an entire year after my breakup. Posted on 6th of January 2025:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_FU0Ivh8Kn0

and this:

Life stuff:

There are two sides of this that I want to discuss. One is the everyday life stuff. The thoughts that come from my experience in life. The second is what has come partly from the dream. That is a lot deeper. 

Firstly, the post from "naturallymj" there, is very predictable from female psychology. I have seen this and heard this when women tell their stories from later in life. Womens general appreciation of the power they hold when they are in their twenties is not high. Often with the determination to cast themselves as victims - preventing them acknowledging the almost god like power to direct men they have at that age. They never enjoy the power they have in that part of their lives. Nor do they often notice it until it is gone. 

If you happen to know a girl in her twenties then you can make this case. But they will ignore it. Because they cannot imagine not having the sexual market access they currently have. But as they age, they will slowly reduce the access they have. Bit by bit, day by day. Like ice eroding an entire cliff edge. So one day the shoe will be on the other foot. The power they take for granted will suddenly not be there and they will fly into a rage when the men they want, they no longer have power over. It will be something they have not experienced before.

Then they are "victims". But they are not victims. Especially if you tried to tell them. It's all so damn predictable. When the 20 year old girl rejects any advice even approaching that as it punctures her vanity. You know that five, ten, fifteen years down the line she will become a problem for you, which you might have to deal with in a ruthless manner. Not only that, but she will not be an asset. Because a girl that settles down in her twenties when she can get her best option (who is very likely to be very financially secure and to adore her) is the one that will be happiest and a benefit to those around her. 

Vanity:

So I will discuss this from two perspectives. One is that this gods plan stuff is a cope. And the other is that "God" as such is very much a mystery. 

I have a very mystical/ theological/ new age perspective. When a friend of mine killed herself a few years ago that I was close with. One of the things that helped was going to Near Death Experience books. I also went to the channeling I often mention, and dreams helped. 

But, in dealing with the world. A lot of people are simply fairly anti all that spiritual stuff. In a lot of ways I find this annoying. Because to me, sayings like 'God helps those who help themselves' (not actually a bible verse). That kind of philosophy is relevant. I have talked to people with deep problems that refused to pray. For me, prayer is a solution to many many issues. I have told people previously that if they don't want to pray I have nothing further to tell them because prayer has worked for me so why would I look any further?

They generally have not liked this simple understanding. I have definitely gotten the vibe they wanted me to jump into action to "save" them further. Because they are unwilling to take this basic step in helping themselves. 

But OK, if we are not to do the spiritual stuff. Shall we move onto something else? Relevant at this specific point is that I cannot really prove it. I will respect that people don't want to engage in spirituality if they want, under the Law of Free Will. But I think and feel, get the vibe, that the real reason people want to avoid the spiritual side of things is that they don't want a solution. Because a solution involves some sort of accountability. This happens in other areas of passive aggressive conflict as well. It has taken me a while to articulate a defence against this. But after years, with the help of Stefan Molyneux's podcast. I have done so. 

This does have relevance to the subject matter. It is not completely a tangent. It links back. 

One of the true satisfactions I have had in life. After people reject spirituality. Is learning the language of a secular understanding of all these things. People have no defence against this because, they are explicitly anti spiritual. Usually left wing and generally anti Christian. So they have submitted themselves, pushed a little and promoted Darwiniism as a world view. So it's hard for them to justify anything against that. 

Under a secular world view then. The reason we are here is to have children. Under Darwiniism. That is the point of life. Not doing so is selfishness because our millions of ancestors all made that sacrifice for us. But also, the conscience is there for a purpose. That part of us that gets upset, and bitter, and all of it. The purpose of the conscience, well let's quote the man himself:

So the conscience is to align us with the rules of life that we know benefit the species. It is the most workable thing to have a loyal monogamous relationship for child rearing. It is the most workable thing for civilisation and tribal life if no one initiates the use of force for personal gain (this is separate from defensive violence).

This is where I would go with this:

Just do nothing:

The problem I have with the response on the 'naturallymj' tweet, and many, many of them are like that. Is that it sidesteps any accountability. The fact that this is the only one she answered shows something. If women as a whole, in our global tribe, are being overly vain in their youth and misusing the only true power women have. Then, acknowledging that and in some small way trying to help other young girls avoid that might be something worth doing. Or contributing to political ideologies, such as traditionalism, that already have solutions for that. 

It is known in the 'red pill' that if men go through a horrible thing. They will try and advise the next generation on how to avoid it. If women make horrible decisions. They tend to justify those decisions and in so doing, they tend to encourage the next generation of women to do exactly the same things. 

In our society this is also the path of least resistance. Just go with the crowd. "Have fun" in your 20's. Don't be a 'brood mare'. Etc. etc. 

But in actual fact all these women are doing is spreading poison. Either push the message that girls should push against their galactic sized vanity. Or, you are not aligned with universal morals. And your conscience will continue to torment you.

The 'Gods plan' avoiding accountability tweet. That will make her feel good very briefly. It is designed to make her avoid accountability. But eventually her conscience will smite her again. 

And deeper:

Nevertheless. I should say, that in my personal life. I cannot really apply "accountability" and it is something I am trying to handle. Emotionally. Regardless of where the grief springs from, it is still the same emotion. 

I was ill when I was young and my life has basically been obliterated as far as I can tell. At least to the outward world. Barring some sort of 'QAnon' golden age type thing, as I talk about sometimes. 

I do not have any qualifications to give me status. Or relationship experience that would give me the knowledge I need to conduct myself well and, what would probably be needed is to have kids in the next few years, and I am still ill so probably wouldn't have the energy for that. As far as I can tell it is somewhat over for me in terms of mainstream, material success. Again, barring large societal change that might indeed come. 

Accepting this is difficult. I recognise that I have engaged in a lot of self delusion things might still work out. I might still gain something, some life satisfaction or expression of important spiritual truths or music as an example. But, against the general competition of the world, status in any practical form is unlikely.

For me personally then. The grief needs to in some way be processed despite accountability expressly NOT being able to be accepted. There was nothing I could have done. The acceptance is partly that there was nothing I could do. I was at the mercy of circumstance.

I obviously can't say that these women took the wrong choices. For instance, when I was young I wanted to be a famous musician. Things I have learned about the music industry since have convinced me I would probably have been killed if I had gained success there. Like Phil Ochs. When we look at the world we project out what would have happened but we can never be even remotely accurate in that. Some marriages that seemed to be going well for the first few years have ended horribly.

Ultimately, even though a lot of people have persuasive answers. The fact that life is a giant mystery remains very central to understanding and living it. I am NOT in fact an atheist, so I don't consider a secular world view to be dominant. But I still can't stand arrogance.

Philosophy, status, valuing people.

This is the video I want to use as a jumping off point today:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ma6CmZRQYOI

This is the worst advice on self help. Jonathan Bi. Posted today 3rd of January. 

Status issues. 

Something I have pondered a little. Like I have mentioned disability has lead to some contemplations on this area. 

This video talks about how we process status. Like, if we all always want status on some level. Or at least with some specific people. The philosopher here asks the question about this area and if it is appropriate or not, to not care what people think. He does this with a dose of instrospection assigning the question to himself and his own experiences. 

So to answer this I will also have to introspect a bit because my psychological and philosophical knowledge here is slightly lacking. I don't have much to draw off. 

One of the things he puts forward is that if you are putting something out and hoping to be respected. Who do you hope to be respected BY? Do you hope to be respected by your audience or your peers and people you look up to?

So I'm going to apply that to myself to attempt to answer this. 

My life.

In my world, toiling in relative obscurity without really any clear goal. If I were to gain status. There is only one way in which that would be a desireable thing that I can think of. But herein already lies a question and one that is relevant to anyone that acknowledges some higher power in their lives. Is what I desire relevant? Or will I be 'guided' along a route to an outcome that is better?

Possibly read too much female inspired new age teachings when I was younger. It often feels women are more "liquid" in their life paths. They respond more to the outside world. 

Putting that aside for a while. The idea that what I want may simply not be relevant. Despite all the material I put out daily. The only thing that I can actually imagine myself doing that would gain me status. Is music. The only thing that is relevant to this conversation because it might propel me to a position where I would associate with people that are fairly high status in my world. People like Stefan Molyneux, Chris Williamson. 

Then all of this human design stuff and such would become a part of my personality that was related to what I talk about when people asked me. But, was not actually what I was known for or my actual profession. It is very workable. Having something to talk about. Making a musician personally accessible in that way. 

So how would I relate to everyone in this situation? The main people that it would matter to would be the people that listened to the music and brought it. How would I then relate to the Chris Williamsons and Stefan Molyneux's of the world? Would it matter what they thought of me? Also, there is another class that is perhaps more relevant to this discussion. Which would be other musicians.

Well firstly, the only reason I would be relating to them is because I had the status from an audience for the music. 

Valuing people.

Stefan Molyneux. I started talking about him but realised him being ostracised so lower in social status, he might not be such a good example. In real terms his social status is higher than almost anyone. In a way that matters to me. I do feel a sense of rage that globalists who I see as bugs compared to Stefan are allowed to censor him. I shouldn't be mean to bugs they have a lot of utility. 

But anyway, back to social status. Maybe I'll go back to Stefan. How would I relate to someone like Chris Williamson? If I do things, create new music, is it important that he and people like that would see that as positive?

I suppose it would be fairly important. Having status means that I would have to have opponents. Other musicians perhaps. 

To me, it seems the truth about status and wanting people to like you is that we want most people to like us. Because it benefits us on a primal level. If people like us they will make things easier for us and give us resources. 

Status also means, that we would be able to, in some way, perhaps not even deliberate. Punish those that have crossed us. It doesn't matter which way you cut it. Status seems like a positive. 

There is a fair amount of relevant information, such as the relating to the archetype of the Moon and what value can be gained in darkness (lack of status). But still, status, that comes from value and people liking you, is a tool. It is like fire for cooking a meal. It is the equivalent of money. It has a lot of uses and there is not a lot of benefit to not wanting to have a tool for it's potential benefits.

Thoughts on Jupiter and ones "path".

Wow, I have a lot to say today. I will be getting to human design after a personal story so feel free to scan. I will also talk about the Law of One, as applied to my personal story, so probably mid way through. 

Personally, I am doing an 'anti new year' thing. Today is the day I am pissed off with my current goals and coming off them. I have started dieting and such since the 22nd of November. Putting together a lot of theories about the best way to lose weight and putting those things into practice.

So, one of the things I would do is if I would have some sugar. I would walk that same amount of sugar off. It would normally take about 3 hours. Then on top of that I would do the gym (almost exclusively weights). This worked a fair few times. I would go down by a kilogram in a day due to this. Like, immediately after the gym. 

I would also mainly eat salad and soup. I would make a root veg meal in the slow cooker and make a salad. So outside of that, I wouldn't eat a great deal. I did make an exception for Christmas. But not massively so. There were a few hickups where medically I couldn't restrict my eating. 

A lower resistance line. 

In stock trading. There is something called a resistance line. It is a point in the graph where the stock does not go above or below. As an example, I have a company called 'Weirdos are us'. It trades at £10 a share. It goes up and down all the time but whenever it goes down to £8 it immediately bounces up. On a long timeline of say, ten years, this resistance line might hold and the stock never goes below that. 

Then something happens and the stock DOES go below £8. Then, for the next thirty years or so. The stock has a higher limit of £8. Like, it will never go above that. This is based on a real stock analysis I have seen and those are accurate timelines. The stock waited decades and remembered it's resistance line when doing on a surge. 

My resistance line was 84.4 - 84.8. Every time it gets in that range it bounces up. But since I knew this. I was fully prepared. I did all the things yesterday and I felt pretty bad. Walking off all your sugar and eating mostly root vegetable soup causes ketosis. A kind of acidic sense in the blood. Which comes with a nausea depending on how severe it is. Only very very light at this level. But worth mentioning. 

So I would feel pretty bad. As I have a few times on this diet. I have laid in bed knowing I am in ketosis and putting off when I eat normal food and start processing sugar instead. Which I do think is more healthy and feels better. 

I felt bad yesterday for a few reasons. What did I get for my trouble? I GAINED weight. The resistance line is undefeated and I did everything perfectly yesterday.  

So, against the pressure of feeling truly crap. Being sick of soup and salad. I am eating cake. 

I plan to try different things and see what their effect is. For example. I have been prioritising weights at the gym. I hope to do a thirty minute aerobic session and see it's effect on my weight. For the moment though. There are no other diets or plans until I get a better idea of how to do this. 

Philosophy on such things:

My life has crumbled slightly since the weight loss attempts. I prioritise the over all things. If getting a job was a legitimate option as I see it, I would prioritise that. Having money for very healthy and luxurious food, plus a routine. Would help. A large fruit salad is a so far effective weight loss technique I can't afford. 

So, I'm behind on shaving and need to do some tidying. I have not prioritised music that is something that never feels good. I have not prioritised meditation. In fact, despite the re realisation of the power of meditation. I have not been doing it at all. Because mostly I feel dreadful.

I... question the health, in general, of a process that means you have to completely prioritise it like that. i have no real reason to think that. But for me... 'The path', has always seemed to have come with a higher self sense that all the different parts come together under a single unified purpose. 

I will talk about this a bit more when I get to the human design side of things. 

It reminds me of this excerpt from the Law of One:

Session 18.5:

Ra: I am Ra. The proper role of the entity is in this density to experience all things desired, to then analyze, understand, and accept these experiences, distilling from them the love/light within them. Nothing shall be overcome. That which is not needed falls away.

... Nothing shall be overcome, that which is not needed falls away.

It talks more about how unhealthy 'overcoming' is. The method of going full throttle is definitely an act of trying to overcome. 

New Years insights and the power of Jupiter. 

I said recently, about five posts ago, that Stefan Molyneux had identified an interesting emotion when doing a podcast. That he felt that the way his path had worked out kind of satisfied a need, a desire for a kind of revenge. The standards the world has placed on him when then turned on the amoral. When I heard about this I thought 'That is definitely hexagram 39' out of all of Stefan's other hexagrams. 

Here is his chart:

Now here is the chart for someone else. Pearl Davis:
 

On New Years Eve. Pearl Davis did a show called something like "The 2024 awards". It was the award for the best catfish and was undoubtably partly motivated by womens constant trolling of her based on this. 

She said a few times the different things women say against her, like that this is engagement farming, but that she wanted to do this because it is really funny. (Gate 58... Joy!)

Her platform is a large part showed by gate 18 in her North Node. Her destiny. I have been thinking a bit recently as to how completely two hexagrams become a channel. 

My point is, is that with Stefan Molyneux, his conscious Jupiter is in gate 56. That is to do with expressing of abstract information. So Stefans destiny as a philosopher is expressed here.

The same with Pearl. Pearl has the gate 38. So that is another positive side of her 'path' or 'message' in a sense. She is very much against women "complaining" and being a "victim". As shown by the gate 38.

The down and outs.

Then I went back through people I have known that are... "losers". Or messed up in other ways. Sometimes just really young and not making good choices. 

What I found interesting was the impactful, the punch of the "revenge" type of thought was very much there in those same people. But the POSITIVE side of Jupiter, was not expressed by these same people. 

So, it is likely that in people that are 'unpolarised' or 'not self'. The unconscious Jupiter being the body works find but it is not aligned by the positive.

This starts to take me in the direction that I used to have when I was younger. That people are either on or not on their spiritual path. 

Anyway, this is the end of this post my energy has given out. 

14 days NoFap.

This feels like the big one for me. I have broken the cycle of behaviour that lead to me failing at this particular task should I attempt it. I now have an app which massively helps. 

One of the things I used to think when I couldn't get this right is when I got a sexual 'hit' of feeling, I would say to myself it isn't healthy to not engage in sexual things AT ALL, so I would engage in a bit of this kind of thing and inevitably, it would escalated and end with me ending my 'NoFap' streak.

But, a few insights, along with positive health changes and I simply don't do that. I don't engage at all. Not even for a second. This could mean that I simply don't engage with it ever again.

The only other test that might represent a problem is being physically close to an actual breast. I remember being down the beach and a woman went braless in the ocean, and I paced around for hours not being able to calm down. 

The effects:

It is a powerful behaviour change. On the basic level it seems to me as though it would be helpful in losing weight for all sorts of reasons. Having more energy to motivate myself towards exercise and things, even though it is cold and I haven't eaten amazingly. It also gives additional energy for food preparation. Last night even though I woke up in the early morning I stayed up to 5am sorting out the food properly. Cleaning the kitchen, making a large salad and doing a slow cooker meal. 

This might influence the gym as well which has been pretty fantastic for weight loss for me. 

Maybe subconsciously I am taking advantage of my bodies increased co- operation at losing weight to "attract a mate". 

There are psychological effects as well. I am noticing an increased passion and virility that changes my behaviour. It means that I am less likely to want to go on a streaming service than I think I would normally. I want to do real life things more. 

Obviously, this inclines me towards things I want to do but don't do sometimes a bit more like reading. 

Additionally. I remember recently thinking about something, thinking about a situation in my life with people and not being content to leave it up there in the abstract. The way this manifested for me was that I drew tarot cards on the issue and I did in fact gain a very distinct insight into the situation that moves me in a particular direction. 

Conclusion:

Not much more to say. Although, I have felt unblocked recently in a major major way. Unblocked enough that I might know what to say to get my youtube output going again. It's looking good!

Stay away from me with your BAD VIBES! (Part 2).

Wow, been playing guitar for a few hours straight. Feels good. Also quite tired though. Anyway, wanted to follow up on this blog. It might not be an ideal subject for Christmas Eve. I really like the little rituals we have to increase our happiness in this life like Birthdays and Christmas. 

But, there is something spiritual about this blogging. So I will do this now. 

Obviously, if this is part two, the immediately preceeding post, part 1, is relevant. I am talking about how red pill realities are getting to a point now where they are relevant and a particular group of women I am talking about who turn against them. 

So, following up directly from the last post, I can't summarise the whole thing. This is a post that I made on that same blog post:

That really isn’t a problem for me except in the few cases it is a problem. When I have met my sister, she has said things that I have heard stated by red pill guys. Like, she could have gotten a script from them (obviously she has never heard of them and can’t grasp that it is high value men who work off that information not some mysterious dysfunctional ‘incels’). If I could get one thing through to her I would say to her that guys know what is going on, and you can do what you like, but just assume that guys will be intelligent enough to know what you really mean later. 

I don't want to dump my sister in it. But, this blog is anonymous. The readership is very low. It is rare that it reaches double figures. I am also only saying what I can. There is really not a lot of detail in this excerpt either. But I suppose I will have to say a little more.

This is the crux of the situation for women. I will show this by their response in just a second. Women are fine with the red pill existing. But, uniformly, if they are not at all sympathetic to the ideas, and if they like to see the red pill as 'woman hating' or something. Then they want to put down any men who are into it as being low status and, one of womens favourite weaponised terms... "Incels". 

Deep feelings:

Possibly this is a big part of the emotional crux of why I brought this up with them. I will explain the damage they create in just a second by being so nasty about this set of beliefs. 

Me and my sister don't get on really. Now "technically", we are on good terms. I have specifically stated to her that we are not on bad terms from my perspective because I imagine she is effected negatively if I said anything else. But, my sister, whom I wanted to create a mutually beneficial relationship with, along the lines of Stefan Molyneuxs philosophy. People that see each others blinds spots and helps each other out. 

But, also in line with the Stefan philosophy of basically being honest with oneself. All signals are that she does not like me, or at the very least, is indifferent and does not intend to make any effort. After I tried to make contact with her, and did meet her one time, for the first time in years, she suggested we meet up, cancelled, in a very indirect way, then I suggested a phone call, clarified as to 'only written messages' (emails). Then when I sent messages she predictably ignored me. After apologising for precisely that in the past, she did it again almost immediately, which is something that I have taken up with people in the past... "Fake apologies".  They invalidate any future apology.

My sister is 21. She is how I described women in the previous post. I may be wrong. Of course there always has to be an allowance made for a gap in perception. That, as an example, she wouldn't tell me if she simply saw me as a dangerous degenerate and she was nice to everyone except me. 

Well actually, I doubt that. 

But the women in the previous post. When they are young. Because of the great power beauty bestows on them. They treat people not that well. 

And in the past that might have kind of work. Before red pill. There were a lot of guys ready to pick up women after they made disasterous choices in their 20's.

But not anymore. I am acutely aware that the guys surrounding her will think... precisely like I do. They are being friendzoned and otherwise ignored in favour of her chasing novelty. That things will get hard for her in the future due to this. 

Low status incels:

So lets get back to how the anti red pill narrative at places like ElsaElsa work against this. 

That same thread I carried on discussing things and the women didn't take up any issue with most of what I said. The blog owner did pick up the status point. But it was not a huge thing. One of the women I had talked to though, passive aggressively, mentioned it on another blog.

From a later post, December 11th 2024 "Morality & Body Language & Finding love", Elsa does not like da commas:

It’s actually NOT strong or high value masculine, only the overcompensation of warped masculine traits, and from a deeply fearful sense of victimhood and disempowerment – men are the poor victims, women are the enemy. Men are not from Mars anymore! (Mermaid)

Pretty direct huh? To what I was saying. It also hits an emotional point in me. If I was trying to communicate something to my sister about this, then obviously it's going to hit a chord with me. There is a reason, as I will explain, that I highlighted this point, and that it is destructive for women to refuse to acknowledge it. 

I should note in terms of 'the collective' on Elsa's forum. "Mermaid" was shut down when she came out with her feminist tripe of shutting down successful women as 'doe eyed tradcons'. A girl said that she considered herself traditional and that she had escaped a destructive feminist mother. So that is positive. Even so, I think the collective is as I describe the title. I was the one who made a fuss. I was easily provoked. Fairly directly provoked I think. It is always the passive aggressive that seem to win out on these forums. It seems to be set up that way.

The point:

And this is it. The point I am trying to get to. Is that when girls like my sister, and other women I have known. Think of their future. The status of men that are aware of red pill realities is directly relevant. 

I don't understand the thinking honestly. But she thinks that it is only losers that are aware of red pill things, and she won't be judged on any red pill standards. She thinks she can simply choose not to have anything to do with anyone that has anything to do with the red pill. 

It's what I said in the last post and it is confusing to me. Why do women think they can socially shame the entirety of reality into behaving how they see fit? I suppose, that God complex comes from the power she enjoys in her early twenties. Women of that age, in a way, do have the power of gods. Especially in our society. 

But when it comes down to it, you can't choose what the other gender finds attractive. Statistics say that men who have, what today is called "misogynistic" views, (i.e. standards and awareness of female behaviour), are far more prevalent in men that are sexually successful.

It is older women like these astrology boomers who are against all things red pill that directly assault womens awareness of these realities, that in turn, gives younger women the wrong information with which to navigate the world. If they knew that it was rich, high status and intelligent men that are aware of these things. They would take that into account. But 'mermaid' is trying to make sure that doesn't happen. 

Conclusion:

So I'm trying to stop myself going on Elsa. They are unlikely to miss me. I have recently made a video about my experience with passive aggression on another forum, and stated in a few recent blogs how I think withdrawing a bit from the digital world is where my energy is going. 

The astrology of Mars (the forums) going over my Mercury, really fits. We'll see what happens after Mars goes direct again.

Stay away from me with you BAD VIBES! (Part 1 maybe).

Ah, learning a lot of Christmas songs for tomorrow. Like, memorising chord progressions and things. Feels good.

I wanted to address this specific post. In my last post I said I had gone a bit over the top in a boomer comment section. I hope I can get pretty deep into why this is. But it might be that the blog forms so that I only mention the basics. 

Anyway, I REALLY don't want to alert the woman that wrote the original blog that I am writing this post, and I am not clear on the specific rules on when people are alerted to these things. So I won't drop the specific article. But the article is an article: Kindness, from a variety of perspectives, elsaelsa.com, created on December 3rd 2024.

It was literally embarrassing trying to communicate with these women when they don't even slightly care. But this is the message she looked at:

“What shows kindness, or lack of such quality? In particular, I am interested in this in one-on-one relationships….say you want to end a relationship but on your way out, you think you don’t owe the other person anything (which is often true; really easy these days to drop a person out of our lives & never have to see them again). Someone told me long ago that people are kind because that’s all they could ever offer (meaning, they don’t have anything else to offer). At the time I thought this was wrong….but, I don’t know. Most people drop people like flies these days. What do you think of this?

I must add that I do have a personal stake in this Q, having insisted on being kind. But I rarely see this reciprocated, especially in people my age (early thirties). Is this not common anymore, I wonder.

I kind of screen people (men) on the basis of this one criteria, first. The way some people use height, or income…well this is my no 1 primary thing to check…..I’m just re-evaluating if this is worth the bother? or realistic, even.”

I would argue, that when a lot of men start dating, they are naturally kind. Yes, there are a few that are interested in "only one thing". But that is definitely not the majority in my experience. 

The thing with the interplay of masculinity and femininity, is that men have a lot of toughness, from various sources. Part of this is that they think technically, part of this is that others are just not as soft on them as they are on women. But, being young, they probably are not going to be "super hard". 

Guys can get insensitive with women, especially if they are successful with women. When pleasing them is no longer important because there is always another. But for a lot of the time, a lot of men don't have a lot of internal defence against the positive feelings they have for women. 

Women produce a kind of emotion, a kind of sweetness that can't really be replicated elsewhere most of the time. All the reasons men find women annoying and such... "crazy". Their protected nature, and often, inability to see objectively outside their own emotions. Are also desireable to men. 

Since men are very connected to the objective world (where the wealth can be built), they can't replicate this inside themselves easily. But women do supply it. A kind of warm emotion disconnected from the harshness of nature. A softness. 

How does this become insensitivity?

Many things come up for me when discussing this entire area. It will definitely feel cathartic to write all this out as I felt a lot of annoyance at trying to explain some of this previously and plus, they were not encouraging me to explain anything. If you have something that you want to explain the other person has to be basically receptive. If they are making passive aggressive comments and not asking you questions, the conversation simply will not flow to any deeper truths. 

One of the red pill founders, Rollo Tomassi. In his book the rational male. Talks about how, due to "womens liberation", women have started to see relationships as more of an indulgence than having the same sense of need they used to have. Before obviously, the amount of redistributive taxation that we have now. Firstly, a woman would understand that a man is earning money for her. Secondly, women needed men, so there was another element to the relationship than just what's in it for her, a good deal of the time. 

There has been a lot of cultural change from earlier on. The pill being one of those. Medical innovation. 

And this has changed women in a lot of powerful ways. I would like to give a lot of personal anecdotes to explain this, but I feel that this would be a bit rude to the women whose experiences I am repeating. Even if they were not identified. 

But lets consider the world that young men are "competing in". It is said in the red pill that the period between their 20's and 30's. A lot of women are in the "whore" phase. There is a lot in the red pill said about this. But what I want to focus on is the style women have in this phase of deliberately going out, and pursuing short term relationships. 

What is 'normal'?

Stefan Molyneux once remarked about women that in their twenties. When they are looking for short term "fun". They consider guys that are looking for something long term to be "weird", "clingy" and even "creepy". 

Then, when a woman does decide she wants to settle down. At about thirty. All of a sudden the fact that men won't commit, the guys that are still coming around for short term "situationships" (a purely female term if ever there was one!) All of a sudden, the men are "narcissists", or whatever.

This is... ridiculous! You see that right? 

It shows the limits of female power. That sounds like a strange thing to say in this society. But, there is a limit to how much you can simply point at a behaviour you don't like and socially shame it; well, technically you can do it as much as you like, but it has a limit to how long it remains effective. There is a point it doesn't really work especially if it is so transparently self centered as this. There is no true morality here, and men, or at least a lot of men, and a growing number, know that. 

But the point is, a lot of young men experience a lot of unpleasantness in these environments. There are a LOT of women that will have no difficult conversations. Anything, literally anything that is 'bad vibes'. They will ditch a guy and even, if they just feel like it. 

Something that Jordan Peterson said recently. A person that doesn't have negative consequences for their actions cannot perceive morality. They don't know what is right or wrong. But there are consequences to female behaviour. It just comes later. Not in their twenties when they are subjecting men to their will. But later on. 

The wound:

And this is the wound that the men this woman is talking to are struggling with. The astrologer herself mentioned the potential of too high of standards, perhaps that is the case. Also, perhaps she has reached 30 and engaged in all sorts of degeneracy in her 20's. So the guys that come around know what the score is.

Now, once women reach 30, guys know what has probably happened. She spent her twenties whoring around which means, she is all sorts of damaged and talks about her 'narcissistic exes'. She probably gave herself over on the first date a lot, and wants the man to wait now (because she has "learned her lesson"). There are all sorts of very negative things a guy needs to watch out for which is partly why, once girls get to that age, guys just hit it and bounce.

It could also be the standard female problem of just going way out of her league and wanting to be exclusively desired from this place. Often just wanting that and not defining it as even a proper relationship. Just believing that a man with a lot of options is going to suddenly like her. Perhaps he will confess his love to her? Too much Greys anatomy. 

But there is another side of this.  A more human side. The men this woman is dealing with, let's say she is mid twenties. They have been dealing with a lot of girls that have been quite unkind in their rejecting of anything long term. This is why we are in the state that we are in. If a guy has been, in turn, ghosted or cheated on by women. Perhaps he was in a hook up situation and when he wanted to make it more serious he was laughed at. Or in some other way he was considered a "convenience".

Then the best decision going forward is simply to mirror that behaviour. Sign up for the hook up and don't get too involved. Ghost at leisure.

Conclusion:

And this is what I would say to her. This post. This is what the issue is. To understand it. She could approach it differently. Even if she didn't get a different result. Having a justification might make her feel better about it.

So the question is poorly framed in my view. The question is not identifying people that are unchangeably kind. It is identifying if someone who was kind is now behaving in a different way. It is understanding people enough to get what she wants in the situation. 

It is having some sort of empathy for men in general. I realise that is an incredibly tall order. But it is a very workable strategy. 

Perhaps she needs to show vulnerability first. Perhaps she needs to ask them about their other relationships or properly clarify what her connection with them means. Regardless of how (tbh if) she does handle this in some way going forward. The information and explanation I have summarised in this post would be a useful aid to her I believe.

But, the women at Elsaelsa aren't interested in exploring any of that. All of what I have summarised here comes under the red pill umbrella and qualifies as "red pill meanie". Too many "bad vibes"? All of what I have summarised would actually help her rather than considering men and the current dating market in an overly simplistic manner.

You would really have expected them to grow up by now. In their sixties they still hold that way of viewing life.

The gym is the way.

Man,

To the gym, I am a convert. When I get the health benefits of gym going I feel that if a religion were to be able to provide these I would be an evangelical to said religion. I just feel so good and it has so many good effects on me I can't get elsewhere. 

My weight has been; 86.4, 86, 85.5, 85.4. That last day of just .1 was really disappointing, I did quite a bit to put myself into ketosis on that day. Went to the gym yesterday: 84.5! I have previously lost a lot at the gym when I was doing nothing for diet AT ALL! The gym is the way.

It also has psychological benefits. One of the real things to get rid of grudges which is something I suppose I struggle with. I have also thought that when we move into a more positive time, a "golden age" so to speak. In that if that were to happen and "power" was a bit more equal. Like, people had more power in their lives and were not so ground down. Then if they had grudges, would become a bit more relevant (because they would have the power to enact them!).

But I also think, that in such a positive golden age. That if people had a positive increase in their health. It would be hard to hold a lot of grudges. You simply don't care about people who have wronged you if you feel utterly fantastic. If you are eating and exercising at your peak... who cares?

Of course, serious things even if you feel good they matter, and some things matte that much. But while I was doing weights yesterday, I thought about that. I thought about the girls that created absolute havoc for two years at an office job I was working. It is normally enough to stir some vague resentment. Not a super strong sensation, but something that is notable. 

But while I was doing weights in the gym that sensation was not possible to access. Life is just too good.

The deeper benefit:

But it also goes deeper and this is the point I wanted to come to. One of the annoyances that has come up for me. There is a blog I go on run by a boomer woman and whose readership is possibly 50% ish boomer women. It is an astrology blog. 

One of the annoyances I have had there is that they are all anti red pill. Which, on it's own is not a big deal. But when they get younger women asking them questions that could be answered, I believe, to great effect, by explaining realities that are red pill adjacent. It annoys me. Because it is bringing up a problem, a real life problem someone has, and refusing to solve it. In fact making it worse in some cases. (Younger women do listen to older women).

So, I have ended up, which was not a good idea and had predictable results. Trying to explain said red pill concepts. Without the red pill men are just acting in a completely irrational way, but if you say; well men are experiencing and thinking xyz and then allowing them to use that knowledge to improve themselves. Then at least there is some effort to help the individual. 

When I do bring in red pill concepts however, like I said the answer is predictable. It is 'the red pill is just feminism for men', i.e. deep state anti natalism for men. 

No evidence is of course offered for these claims. The fact that the manosphere has suffered a lot of censorship and is targeted in other ways is not factored in. 

Normally, this has annoyed me. It has annoyed me and because I have felt bad about that, felt it was a bit pathetic, I have suppressed it.  

Which of course didn't solve anything and creates a blockage.

Blockages cleared.

This morning though, that blockage was cleared. With a dopamine infused insight! I realised that I could put it back on the woman that had said that. My thought process now goes like this: "It is extremely convenient that manosphere complaints are all deep state psy ops that don't need to be paid attention to." There is no evidence of the belief, so why is she choosing it? Because it is convenient for her. She does not need to criticise any women and gain the approbrium of the sisterhood. 

And that, even though it is not clear why it makes a difference, it does. It kind of releases it for me. Rather than feeling I need to oppose the falsity it just settles me back into a place of... "Oh, so you are what you are".

That's not the only thing. On twitter I saw a picture a few minutes ago (which I can't find now!) Of a woman that had changed her content from very highly technical neuroscience of some description, to now going for twitch fame. Just chatting with her breasts out. I don't know if I would care about that normally. But I felt a distinct emotion of simply not caring. 

And I think, in this world full to the brim with its distractions and confusion. Sometimes not caring is the best thing.