Brought to you by the Law of One, the soul in soulless.

Damn, so I had a synchronicity that I thought was about writing a proper goodbye post on the Law of One subreddit. I followed that, what I thought was "guidance". Oh my god those people are unpleasant. Just unpleasant. 

I am now reflecting on the amount of energy I put into the Law of One types of stuff throughout my life. I discovered the Law of One when I was 14, started blogging on there when I was about 20.

I don't think a single person there has ever liked me. I think, truly, that the entire thing has been a waste of time as seen from a practical, worldly, standpoint. No one has particularly liked my posts. They don't bring me any good will or potential connection. 

It's another one of those things I suppose. I have lost a lot of my life to illness. I think a lot of people must put energy into things that don't give them anything back. Like, a lot of people might have been brainwashed, or spent a lot longer than they should have in familial or romantic connections that went nowhere. Or school that gave them a useless degree and a heap of debt.

I do not wish them well. But I do wish them well to the extent that wishing them well is less energy expenditure than actually taking the time to go to any lengths to make their lives more difficult. I hope I never meet them in my life. I never associate with any of them. Say I were to start doing things in the metaphysical area.

I woke up this morning feeling deeply sad about all this. But I have not confided it to anyone around me. It's just too much of a mad thing to discuss with anyone. 

There is a lot in the Law of One I think that will probably fall away for me. I have kept it in my mind for a while that there are positive and negative entities. I doubt I will stop believing in that. But I think without reading the Law of One and subscribing to its paradigm, thoughts and such liked to it will fall away. 

Looking back on it this is probably why I have looked into philosophy in the past few years. So that I have some way to process these kinds of thoughts without going to the Law of One itself.