A big pattern I have dealt with.

Like, a psychotherapy type of pattern. 

A lot of this has come from dream interpretation. I don't like saying that because I don't even want to slightly push against free will. Considering that actually telling others your dream and insisting they believe/ validate it, as truthful. IS a break in free will in my belief. Mentioning it casually probably is not. But I don't want to even get close to crossing the free will line.

Youtube: Christina Grace: Women train men to be Angry then Ruin their lives. Posted September 12th:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PZNYhzvw-58

Interesting and really well thought out video. I don't know if it is generaliseable though, to all cases. While this is likely a base of a pattern. I think there is some variation. Like, when conversations happen they might escalate because the guy is being fought in real time rather than long term being ignored. Or any other number of small habits.

A lot of people talk about these patterns from their own perspective. Their own experience. That is OK, a lot of the time that produces interesting, relevant information. But there are some people that do take patterns from a lot of people that they might happen to meet.

What I am wanting to talk about though, is not intimate relationships. But my focus is not on that but on my connection with Llresearch.

I have been going to and fro here about the Law of One. Only recently, have I realised that I am fine with the Law of One. The actual issue is my connection with llresearch (getting dream interpretation like that can be tricky. Did this metaphor mean the Law of One or llresearch? Obviously a lot of concepts are closely linked.)

I had a paragraph here that phrased the issue as society ignoring male needs that sounds vaguely incel like I suppose. My issue, I think, is that because I felt it was a kind of reason for being. Put a great deal of energy into deciphering the Law of One and talking about it. 

I will skip I think the deeper aspects of this insight. Going into childhood or whatever. But I think that pattern of giving without expectation of return. I am not sure it is healthy. I think it is why llresearch is now full of leftists. Leftists don't believe in meritocracy. They don't believe in striving to be a better person. They believe that anyone who does that, should be punished and have their excess wealth siphoned off and given to others. 

This, I think, is some correlation as to why in modern jobs high performers are simply given others work to do when they have finished their own. Often taken advantage of and not appreciated. 

I have kind of snapped away from this suddenly. Snapped away by the belief that it is positive to attempt to serve others by discussing, online, the Law of One. As I did this for years, there was no real world benefit to it. I am not saying there was no benefit. But as far as my animal self goes. There was no increased status. No real world connection with others. No money. No particular respect. I didn't even gain respect from others as someone that knows what I am talking about I was condescended to by the group in general. There was only leftist "equality". Like, the person that has studied this for twenty years, has the same amount of status as the person who has studied for ten days, and doesn't live anything like the Law of One teaches. 

Obviously leftist infect llresearch. Because they need to go somewhere to absorb excess wealth. 

Coming away from the communal aspect of the Law of One, along with other insights that I have had through dreams.  

As it relates to this video. When you are blogging, with new insights, and putting that energy out into a group (rather than this blog which is my own property in a sense!). Then nothing comes back. Even, condescension comes back. My last conversation with the LawofOne sub was absolutely full of condescension. Then a dynamic appears much like this video. In order to get a response, in order to make an impact. Aggression starts to become a feature. 

I also think that that aggression, that need for a response or something on a subconscious level. Was part of what justified the crazy past life schizophrenic beliefs I developed while I was blogging heavily on that site.  

As I have come away from this, I have all of a sudden, suddenly; as a part of my understanding of relationships. Suddenly started expecting more reciprocity. A lot of fairly complex patterns that relate to this simple premise. I sent an email to someone the other day which was about five lines long, instead of the very long messages I have sent this person previously of several pages. There is definitely a shift, and a positive one.