We all get down sometimes.

At the moment. I am "unconnected". I don't know if everyone knows what that means. But I think everyone knows what it is like to feel "out of sorts" in some manner or other. Everyone has a kind of flow state where things work better, and a less than flow state where things feel a bit more "out of tune". 

It is likely health issue linked. I can't get on with meditation when I have a health problem, and that is the literal base of my spirituality. I am also thinking something over in the Law of One, so not reading further. Reading a session is usually pretty fantastic in general.

I think this time is productive though. I think I am working through something about how life works and such. Things that I need to accept about myself. 

This shift might be coming since I have shifted my way of processing, as previously discussed, and perfectly in line with transiting Pluto leaving gate 60.6 and entering gate 41.1. The shift is... no more energy healing... Only prayer is ever used by me. 

My plan is... getting back to meditation. After, sleeping properly. I normally sleep very well, but only seem to stay asleep for a few hours at a time at the moment. I DID notice huge shifts in my mental perspective that are interesting, having been on low sleep and having just slept. But those are reflections for other times.

I am also seriously questioning my tendency towards prayer, the rote prayers I do often. It feels very unsafe to stop it and I do get benefits from it. But I've noticed it is a bit of an energy drain. I have this set of prayers which I use from a book before I go to bed that even seem to have a positive effect on others. BUT, there is something draining and not right about it, and something more refreshing about the dreams when I do not pray. I do not get this sensation with prayers I have created, they don't have a connected energy drain. But I think maybe the language and my sensation of a general liberal leaning (the prayer for the good of the world includes the word 'racism'), are starting to mean that these prayers are not good for me.   

Anyway, that's all. I decided to make this post because I am quite sure it is a post that others relate to.