This is a video I want to make a comment on today. Not a particularly direct comment:
Youtube: Chiara: Musings on the G center in human design. Dated 12th of January:
https://youtu.be/OR2094DLhpY?si=x7JNjKceWcLjZM4i
These sorts of casual discussions on the human design I have always found to be very useful. Often when people get overly confined to structure they miss out the benefits of a story that has little insights within it.
While watching this video I had an insight on responsibility/ accountability in general. It strikes me that having a human design chart in front of a person. Having the person they could ideally be, I suppose. Might change some of what we feel about them.
The quote earlier that I wrestled with about "love being our involuntary response to virtue if we are virtuous". Might link to this. It is not a thought I have completed. But it is interesting.
I used to know a girl with an undefined G. I have said this before, but I have to repeat it here for context. We were friends but I was not well enough for actual sex. So we played about a bit but nothing serious. We spent a lot of time together though, but she was borderline. With severe mental issues. Putting it lightly. And she jumped off a cliff.
I have wrestled with the very masculine, self help or philosophical idea of one hundred percent responsibility. I believe it makes sense. It is the opposite to a powerless perspective.
But I have wrestled a little bit with it as it applies to me personally. Since I have a serious medical condition, and it is only recently that I have been kind of... well. I have had a lot of issues because of this. The medical condition really screwed me up. Issues with anger and such like that.
So, it seems to me that it is hard to take responsibility for a previous situation, emotionally. This is the issue I think with the discussion on responsibility in general. For me. The emotional element. When it is discussed and people are challenged it is often strongly emphasized. It is very what I would have once called a "neurotypical way of thinking". That every single thing needs to be processed emotionally to be "real".
But the insight I had as to how I interacted with this girl. I have a defined G, and all the additional things that provide context to that for me. How, as the defined G, I could have explained of modelled certain things. It stung. But it also got past that emotional difficulty. Regardless of what the emotions are. I can see the best way things could have gone down in a way they didn't, and it doesn't have any emotional connection.
It's like listening to someone complain about money, and the larger economy, when you know fully well their voting choices have created this issue. There are many issues I think, with how much blame should lay on people voting destructively. You could say that people are tricked. That the negative has fashioned the world in a way that someone going to put a tick in a box in a voting booth creates galactic level crimes and this is an unfair trick. Or you could say that no, those people voted the way they did. Often bullied and socially ostracised others based on said propaganda, and they need to take emotional responsibility.
The middle route is, it doesn't matter, I cannot know and do not care about this emotional element. But we can describe and explain the mechanical element in the chart. Person held this political idea and it moved xy and z parts of the chart into the not self, as an example!
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