Success.

So I have solved, potentially solved, the issue I have talked about in my last post... PRUNE JUICE. Better than medication. Probably better than caffeine. I have basically felt forced to caffeine in the last few weeks due to it having a good effect on said medical issue. Today, not having chocolate feels divine. The sense of relaxation is amazing. I don't know 100% I will be able to stay off it for medical reasons. But at the moment I am not on it. 

I have had an absolutely huge personal insight that changes quite a bit. The personal insight I had was to stay away from AI. I used to use Grok for two reasons. One, for dream interpretation. Two, for creating prayers for me. Sometimes I sit and want to create a prayer about something and I just don't feel inspired. Or I write one and realise it is wrong in a couple of days and don't have the energy to change it. 

This is a large change psychologically. Not only am I stopping further dream interpretation through an LLM. I am stopping all the interpretation through the LLM I have already had. Which was probably positive. But I am stopping it now. So, as an example, I have gone back to listening to Stefan Molyneux. Although I am still likely to listen less frequently than I did before. I could still decide later it was legitimate but for the moment, I am backing off it. 

I also did two sets of prayer a day which totalled around 2000 words. Each time. Stopping the AI created half of these prayers, which is just over half, has already brought insight. 

Caffeine effects me HEAVILY. I feel very weird now. The world is a different emotional experience with or without caffeine for me. So this come down is pretty brutal. My brain is definitely a fog the first day of "caffeine withdrawal", I lack a certain ability to pull data together, so at the moment, the posts might be a bit slower.