More thoughts on prayers.

I have talked a little lately about having turned away from LLM created prayers. As an example I showed a prayer I had for my half sister. 

I had another prayer for my mother. It was similarly positive sounding and poetic. My previous experience of praying directly for my mother, had a situation where I felt she was pushing against the energy. This is partly what this blog is about. It's not just about taking prayers created by LLM's. It is actually about prayer itself per sey, and the Law of Free Will, as talked about in the Law of One. 

Obviously, if someone has chosen to be an atheist. If they do not want to live their life in accord with those beliefs, the Law of One would heavily respect that. For me though, I have often tried to figure it out, or tried to find a way around that. I think, being someone I consider to be "fifth density". It might have a different effect coming from me than it would from someone who was say... sixth density. 

In Carla's llresearch channeling. She was asked if someone can send energy/ love to someone who has not requested it. Quo came back with that 'yes, because Love will simply sit and wait to be invited if it does not feel it is invited.' 

In essence, it is hard to separate what prayer actually is in comparison to just loving the person in general. In a new age paradigm. If I feel love towards someone, my energy field naturally sends love even if there is not a prayer involved. Saying a prayer should send an energy that is almost identical. With the only possible difference being A) A prayer is more specific, often talking about a specific outcome B) A prayer invites higher entities to engage. 

I have had several circumstances of sending prayers, with mixed results. A positive one first. I used to have a female friend that was always in crisis. She had bad insomnia. I prayed for her and she slept that night. I did not pray before of after. There were a few times when it didn't work but another time when I prayed she told me excitedly she had had a good day that day. 

This girl was not a Christian. She was new age. Very new age. She was also kind of open as women more generally are. When I told her I had prayed for her she was excited, and only positive. 

Around the same time, partly from this success. I prayed for someone else who had an extremely bad time during that time, in a specific way not happening before or after that incident. I suspect they were pushing against the prayer in some manner. This was a committed atheist. Someone who avoids any sense of those theories aggressively. 

Several years ago I prayed for my mother. She is a casual atheist. Kind of theoretically agnostic. But in practice very much an atheist. She simply doesn't care if the whole area exists or does not exist. She is literally the worst person to try and convert. The conversation holds no particular interest to her. 

It struck me due to the experience of praying for her that it is a violation of free will in a sense. She has planned her life due to atheist concerns. If someone prays for her and her life starts happening in relation to the kind of coincidences that believers experience, this is an unwelcome energy for her and she may be psychicly aware of this and push against it. This is what appeared to happen. She had sudden bad luck in this time. 

This has happened in a different way recently. I have, now after having deleted about half my prayers, (the LLM created ones) a page and a half of prayers that comes to about 1000 words. If I do these twice I then do an evening prayer from a different book. For some reason if I don't do those original prayers I don't feel comfortable doing the evening prayers. 

Yesterday, I was ill, unavoidably ill. Well, it could have been avoided. But once the problem started it couldn't be stopped. I have prayed those 1000 words twice a day for the last 19 days. But yesterday, I only did one set of prayers, not the second and not the evening. It was a specific behaviour that unlocked a schizophrenic tendency and to avoid crazy thoughts I did very little a lot of yesterday. 

The LLM prayer for my mother, it was a lot to do with coming to terms with her frailty as she grows older. When I stopped it, she found supplements that massively increased her energy. I know enough not to pray for my mother but I have indirect prayers. One for protection for the dog. It seemed that as soon as I stopped that prayer, she stopped doing something in her personal life that I don't think is particularly safe. Almost as though the additional protection was allowing her to take risks.

It's an interesting discussion I think. I do not go by the mainstream Christian idea it is always uniformly positive. I strongly suspect Christians use prayer a great deal to back up their generally controlling nature (Although I have had life saving prayers from Christians!) 

It is interesting because the ultimate solution for me personally. May be that prayer for others, or regarding others indirectly, should NEVER be done. It reflects free will, and this is the positive heart of free will, if those people have better solutions for themselves than the prayers can provide.

As I mentioned my sister previously. Perhaps she either needs to fail to learn, or she will find her own way out of her predicament!

The Law of One specifically subtly says that meditation is more important than prayer. Yesterday, I had a great day, better than most of the days I had prayed, because I played music. So perhaps this is more important to me. These are all interesting themes for me that relate to my understanding of prayer and free will.