I just phoned her and it is not a decision I am happy with.
Very scared and I talked to a Samaritans guy and one of the questions he asked is straight up... Why don't you contact her? Which I explained but perhaps it didn't stick.
Anyway, I felt overwhelmed with the logical deduction it was the obvious thing to do and I did, I let it phone for three rings, felt stupid and switched it off, and considered throwing my phone into the bin. (Changing simcard, as though that would help.)
I felt I had been moved into simply a different set of rules and where reality functions differently briefly.
It has made me consider two things:
A) The situation I have outlined is true and I am unable to sort it out,
B) The situation I have previously outlined is false and I am unable to sort it out.
It also makes me wonder how positive I am, but that may have been 'others thoughts'.