The path of faith.

Damn, I have just finished watching a show, and it was just absolute crap. I enjoyed it as far as it goes, and am deeply appreciative that it existed because I have spent a few days now engaged in a lot of tidying. So much so that I have had no "me time". An area that was filled with junk is now clear and I am continuing to clear. Hopefully to keep this level of cleanliness in general. Dismissing my previously more slovenly state as a potential symptom of my, previously more severe, illness. 

But despite needing it as a respite from - actually doing something productive with my time. It was absolutely hollow. There were no values in this show. There were no interesting characters or character development. I also watched the last season of a simpler, more fun show which was kind of meaningful. A good contrast. 

This is mentioned partly as a reflection on the world as we experience it now. What is the value of watching this kind of thing, seriously?

Not the main thing that is on my mind though. 

My posts over the last few weeks, a bout of about five days a few weeks ago. Had me questioning Christianity. This was partly inspired by my love of philosophy. That I wanted to get my answers more from that. Things that could be reasoned from "first principles". But it was also the result of an internal battle that is waging, has been waging for a while. That is admittedly often so confusing that I might be wrong about it. I might question the things said in this post at a later date. 

Anyway, the battle was between two contradicting positions. One is the faith that has been gained from the Law of One where my reasoning cannot even pretend to be taken from first principles. This position takes in a whole continuing path in the continued study of archetypes. The second is a kind of harder skepticism that I was building on. I am not quite sure precisely what the boundaries of this path are because it would be kind of new; but, it would involve letting go of the Law of One to an extent and relying more on the work of Stefan Molyneux. I can recall a specific example that was relevant here. Where session 19.17 described good and evil in a very basic way, and then Stefan described something very similar in a far better way over about twenty minutes or more. Might have been like 45. 

The departure from the faith that I had earlier was the result of the Stefan perspective winning out. But I found walking that path to not be possible. So I am starting to realise that following his work as closely as I do. And I have followed his work very, very closely. I can articulate his positions very well I think. Some of them have become indistinguishable from my own. 

This is an insight that feels as though it is very much expressed directly from its root. The actual root of a confusion in my pathway is pro archetypes or pro Stefan. The articulation of that in any deeper detail. Thoughts on how it fits into my human design or specifically, things I don't agree with about Stefans viewpoint or, even sometimes subtler than that. Places where he might be right, but that it doesn't serve me to study or articulate his message on that specific area. 

I might have some of these points in the future. But for the moment, I just wanted to put forward that for me, choosing the path of faith going forward seems quite functional to me.