Pretty exhuasted today, from doing an arm workout yesterday evening. Like, weights. a proper workout. Amazing.
I am to three hours of the David Wilcock video I am intending to review. Strictly for it's conformity to the Law of One quotes. Nothing outside of that. Two surprises so far. One is that I asked Grok to review where in the video David talks about the Law of One and it got the question completely wrong. It gave me information that, now I have watched most of it. Was obviously incorrect. It said David discussed the Law of One in places he did not. It specifically gave time stamps to where he did not even mention it. It neglected times when he actually did talk about it.
It's also interesting. That Davids output. At least the specific video that I am watching is... not that bad. He might be a con artist. He might be someone that chose to associate with Corey Goode. But his material was actually fairly interesting. Some of it discusses bible quotes. I like bible quotes. I like to generally hear about peoples perspective on the bible.
Anyway, a fair amount to say but physical exhaustion is taking it's toll. It should not take too long for me to start to get in enough of a pattern that my body is adapted to this. But it is only the second week. The third week I am planning to do a full work out on one day. Rather than split it into multiple days.
The main point for me though. Is that I am actually very happy, with how things are going. I feel like saying that is attracting a jinx. But I am. And I am because, in my view, I am applying my own teachings. I am also applying others teachings as well. But that is a little more in the background.
Previously I have talked about my own model. Where in the human design. The incarnation cross is a kind of conatant. A 'meaning of life' thing. The 4 nodal points are physical, real world behaviours. For me these are: Conscious North Node. Meditation. Conscious South Node Exercise/ Gym. Unconscious North Node, Music. Unconscious South Node: Reviewing Narcissism types of literature. I am wondering if this comes under the general heading "Opposing evil doers"?
The conscious North and South, then subconscious North and South are very much linked. I wonder if I have had a confirmation of that recently. In a way that I really didn't suspect, and could not have gotten to via "creating a story" with my mind. My energy switched on properly yesterday and I created some real music. I created a new song in a way I haven't done for a while. I have had a few ideas. But properly switching on like that is... rare.
My theory is that by honouring the unconscious south node, I have tuned in within myself to a kind of passion that comes with opposing negativity in the real world.
The exercise thing is also good. One of my annoyances. I am aware this is pathetic but... so what? Then it is pathetic. I have to swim through the pathetic and confront it in order to get to the powerful. But one of the things that annoys me in life. Is that with my general reclusiveness and sense of loneliness. I often go on X. Then I make a lot of posts that I think are good quality. And have done for about ten years. And they rarely get a lot of attention or likes or anything. Likes are pretty much non existent. With the average being about 0.00001 or something.
I have Dm'd about five people in the past year. All of them have pretty much ended the conversation mid flow by just ignoring me.
I resent being in a position where I give any kind of positivity of attention to people that so reliably ignore me. I have made some comments recently that, I have just randomly thought to myself later... "Wow, that was a really nice thing to say to someone". Like, I realised I have said something original and made an effort. None of those posts have been liked or responded to.
It is hard to change a habit. So many times I have tried to change a habit, but then it has revealed the need that habit fills in a very raw way and I have been forced back to said habit. So I don't try and change habits. Even if they are dysfunctional. But I DO notice when some behaviour I am doing naturally changes a habit that I think is less than good.
This is one of those times. Exercise. Weights. Not only do I think long term it will improve my social life. People that love exercise like to relate over that sometimes. But, it gives me this internally produced good feeling that means I am less likely to put up with this kind of thing on social media. It also means I am less annoyed about it.
Ironically. Reddit, that is notoriously left wing. Is far better than this. I get a lot of likes and some responses to said posts. I share an enjoyment with others at sci fi shows and things.
We'll see how it goes. I think, that social media like twitter has always depended on those ostracised by society having a need to connect. When the left were dominant this was even worse. But a lot of the engagement and user numbers are created that way. It puts those people in the place of continually attempting to offer value for no reason.
I have also heard people say before that when the stopped social media, their dreams improved. Also, the Law of One was not at all in favour of a lot of that kind of thing, by my reading.
So I will see how it goes. But my faith is that exercise, or something else, will remove me from social media in general.
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